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i think this was literally copied and plagiarized from my brain from my interactions with my father
#boygenius#you made me feel like an equal.#but iโm BETTER than YOU and you should know that.#bye now#YOU DONT KNOW ME๐๐#fuck my dad man#iโm going to spend my whole life begging for everybody around me to love me just bc he fucking couldnโt#phoebe bridgers#is my spirit animal if i was a white woman with shitty taste in men
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โTo whom,โ Alfred rasps, pausing to clear his throat and establish his sense of decorum, โMay I ask, to whom do I have the pleasure of speaking?โ
The creature stops, blinks its owlish eyes at him, and lets out a bark of laughter.
โForgive me,โ it says, still chuckling lightly, raising a hand to rub at the back of his neck. Alfred is suddenly struck by the feeling that this creature is not as timeless, nor as old or as wizened, as it wished to present itself. โI am making a terrible first impression. My name is Phantom, current High King of the Infinite Realms.โ
Contractual Obligations by me!!!
I couldn't get the image of Ghost King Danny out of my head, so here he is!! Acrylic on canvas, and I'm so happy with it - he came out a lot better than I thought he would ๐
#danny phantom#dpxdc#ghost king danny#phanart#dpxdc big bang#dcxdp#ahhhhh here he is!!!!!!! it's king phantom ahhh!!!!!!#i didnt add his aurora halo and i feel like a fraud ๐ but it wouldnt have fit and also im very scared of adding it#and he has a massive honking stonker of a nose ๐คฃ sorry my boy by the time i realised i couldnt change it#this is... my first fanart#(and its of my own fic - thats bad isnt it haha)#i hope you all like it!!!! its not something i normally do but i couldnt get it out of my head#hey uh... hey.... what do i do with a 30x40 canvas of danny phantom fanart?#like. what do i do with that? is he just gonna float around my room for a while?#probably#ALSO my mum showed my dad and he said 'you did that? that's amazing' and im pretty sure thats the most amount of praise hes ever given me#which affected me way more than it should#he took a picture of it and mum was like 'he's going to show that to everyone' and i dont know how to explain to them its fanart#of a cartoon that aired 20 years ago ๐คฃ๐คฃ#anyway!!!!!!!! hope you all like it!!! please read the fic and then give some love to my wonderful artists#they went above and beyond for this like wwooooaaaaahhhh#art that I will never forget ๐ฅฐ#love you all goodnight!!!!!
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MAKE-A-NOSSIE IS NOW LIVE !!!
Make or recreate your own Nosferatu!
Currently this maker has 3 different faces, 4 skintones, and several different, movable facial features. Also includes stuff like piercings, boils, and wounds on top of accessories like hats, masks etc. Ghoul pets probably incoming at some point too..
! CW for blood, body horror, eye trauma, teeth etc. Basically, there are parts for walking masquerade violations soโฆ Remember that.
You can request some stuff too if there are parts you would want added <3
(I also have a ko-fi if you wanna throw in a buck or two)
#picrew#clan Nosferatu#vtm#vtm nosferatu#vampire the masquerade#Nosferatu#mine#this is kinda niche but I hope you guys like it + can put it to use! and like I said in the maker you can edit ur creation in this or use#it in games as portraits for your ocs or npcs etc etc. its basically f2u as long as you dont overtly monetize it#im probably gonna add more stuff to this regardless of requests bc this is just stuff that I wanted to have as a โbaseโ but who knows#ghoulified pets are totally incoming at some point tho i prommy#i actually have a few different full body dress ups w/ different themes but i got bored of them so. ๐#but Nosferatu are always so fun to do.. and they can look asymmetrical/blotchy or w/e its part of the charm#also the stereotypical nos fashion is like Soo my style. half of this stuff i have or want to have lol#anyway i'll stop yapping... and if you wanna show me ur nossie creations that'd be cool too...
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I neeeeeeeed to talk about gone forever more it's like the Most thing ever, it's got time loops and fairies and creatures and prophecies and magic and never being able to go home again and not able to recognize what youve become and how devotion can corrupt you and how those in power will lie to you to get what they want and how through everything you can be kind and no one ever knows what I'm talking about because it only exists to me and like one other person it's so sad. I should figure out how to make comics and do that.
#i literally forget people dontknow abt it and am like ah just like in gone forever! my ocs ...aggh#b.text#gone forever#gone forever: realm of nowhere#aaaahhhhgggg casey ponder you will always be famouS to ME#anyways thesis of gone forever: twins casey and hector ponder get stuck separated in a fantasy land and have to find their way to each other#and back home. they meet various fae who help them or dont and have to try an work their way thru the various fae lands to each other again.#while the antagonist enmity is trying to stop them from finding each other for reasons we dont yet know.#anyways. ๐ cloes my eyes and thinks abt gone forever plots that are like major spoilers but are soooo gooood.#it mostly is abt casey curtis and wisteria tho. casey the human hero curtis the bone wizard and wisteria the rogue fae... aaaagghhggaaa..#hector is a newish addition so i dont have as much thought about him as casey. its hector the not hero dani the time bandit and#enmity the queen of stars. and theres like 50 more characters from all these places...#i just need to do SOMETHING with it ok..... id wht thi. comic seems like a start i guess
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theyre taking the cat home with them
#theyre naming him jack!!! me... off..... ๐ it was my dads friends idea. and ofc you dont know this friend. but this is not a surprise lmao.#jacks a cute name though LMAOOOOO waah. just fell to my knees. i wont be able to meet him for a month............ im going to dieeee
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it is mandatory that i spend as many hours as possible in bed between my 4 hour shifts at work. NOT because i have any undiagnosed mental illness or physical ailments. i just. Like to๐ There is nothing else i would rather do๐๏ธ!
#i need to call back my doctor i keep forgetting i need to call back my doctor. but i dont WANT to bc i already know exactly what shes going#to say๐ like yeah i sooo would get a primary healthcare provider if i wasnt scared to because i am literally transgender and YOU my doctor#giving me my HORMONES are weird about the fact im transgender ALREADY. you want me to go to one that DOESNT even specialize in giving trans#people hormones???????#every time i go in they give me the exact same list of lgbtq friendly providers but theyre all like an hour away from me and i dont........#want to do that either. so#cowboy posts
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My brain: so when the hell is Ratso's birthday?
#I dont fucking KNOW#IDK ITS BEEN MONTHS SINCE I TRIED DECIDING#everytime i open my documents that blank line is MOCKING me ๐#writing rambles#anyone want to throw out any headcanons? help a brother out?#i promise to love you forever ๐
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i wear a lot of skirts and pink and whatnot as my style has developed with me & my personality but when one of those age regression girlies latch onto me....i do not like that
#like oh....you think im one of them...bestie no im freshly 23 and im happy i made it this far i dont wanna go back#sometimes i hate being 5'2 with a small frame you have to be very careful and kinda vet everyone you interact with#idk there's a complex discussion to be had. i am someone who has went through what they fetishize and i know a lot of girls in that#community have too. so i worry a lot if if my behaviors and preferences accidentally align with that community in ways i don't realize#bc trauma will always reveal itself. idfk. when i was 20 i got in a relationship with a man who was 30 because i misheard him and thought#he was 24. i thought he was okay until we were at this giftshop and he wanted to get me something but as giftshops are super expensive#i mentioned i could fit in childrens clothes and it saves me a lot of money ($60 shoes are $30 for kids) and tbh fit my frame better#so he was โprove itโ so i did and mf said โTHATS HOTโ ??????????? BITCH#my style wasn't even feminine in the slightest at the time ๐ it feels like a curse to have this kind of trauma then never outgrow this body#believe me ik how trauma changes your brain but how#as a woman#can you ever be apart of that community? why do you allow this to continue and not persecute these men for existing?#you're inherently enabling it and saying its okay this happened to you and its okay that other adults can hurt other kids#when my rapist got put in prison i screamed i yelled i sang i danced my friends set off FIREWORKS for me#when he got out i cried more than i ever have. i moved STATES (not the sole rzn but nonetheless) not that i was in the one he was in prison#in anyways but i was so fucking petrified he'd find me again. its embarrassing but i started sleeping with a chastity belt again.#i made more phone calls i ever have in my life to people who have and will get their hands dirty#i understand the self hatred those girls have. i understand the girls who sleep with everyone to take some of their power back.#i even understand the girls who want to get raped if they got assaulted but it never felt like enough for the pain they're experiencing#but please stay the fuck away from me. as someone who has tried to heal and wants every man like that erased from earth.#do not give them an ounce of attention. ostracize them like they're meant to be. leave it to god for their karma they will be dealt with#reckon with your pain and make sure it never happens to anyone else. only the harmed can make the greatest teachers#tbh bro i am disgusted with myself at all that those are the kinda vibes i put out.#what are you supposed to do as a woman when feminity is equalized with infantilism? i think its tone deaf and misguided whem girls are like#i dress this way to contradict societies views!!! babes its a whole cultural issue that requires reviewing and reforming#you are not doing anything revolutionary by wearing frilly skirts and saying im not like them bc they see you and ur automatically boxed in#i dress how i want and say what i want but i know as a individual im not the beacon of a groundbreaking movement#singularily flipping society on its head. dress how you want but be aware of the connotations. you're living in this society here and now#there's consequences that may not be in your favor and youll be assumed to have values that dont align with you and it may break your heart
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I wish there were more tma agere fics that weren't just the archives polycule ๐ญ or even ones that just didn't include Martin in them PLEAAASEE
#only 15/94 of the agere fics on ao3 DONT have martin in them. HELPPPP#manifesting gerry agere fics rn ๐ฎ๐ฎโจ๐ช๐งโโ๏ธ๐งโโ๏ธ๐ชโจโจ๐ฎ#im not strong enough to write them myself i just need them to appear ...#HELP MEE!!! theres so much agere potential for characters that ARENT the archives polycule#i know they're the main characters and thus theres gonna automatically be more fics of jut them but ๐๐ญ๐๐#but like help me#give me gerry coping with his messed up childhood by regressing ๐๐๐ NOW!!#i don't think he'd regress to like a baby but i think he'd so like being like a kid/young teen#i think he'd be very lowkey with it though.#I DON'T wanna go more into detail though because im embarrassed ๐ญ < person who is embarrassed#words#tma#lord stopping myself from tagging every single character i mention bc i just remembered that like tags are something some people use#< realization made by person who forgot some people actually look at Tumblr tags.#like you're telling me you just go down like. a character tag? like........just for funsies? just consuming all the content under it#CANNOT!!! do that i need a cursted following of only the content made by peopel who's opinions i trust and like#but i want to be organized.#**CURATED#tma agere#gerry keay#gerard keay#the magnus archives
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Magentttaahhhh
#advisor: I'm looking at your transcript and you know...if you go another year after getting your masters you could have a minor in biology#me: INTERNALLY SCREAMING lady unless i get a full ride scholarship for that year or more grants for my masters im gonna be at my loan cap#and also fuck you for reminding me one of my 4 degrees i already had was gonna be a bs in biology up until i had a prof#that got too personal and he docked my grades cause i didn't let the old bastard seduce me so i quit the major to get away from him#advisor: also have you considered going for a PHD? your profs have said you'd be a good fit#me: INTERNALLY SCEEAMING#me: LADY IMMA KILL YOU DONT DANGLE THIS SHIT IN FRONT OF AN IMPOVERISHED STUDENT#me: also...thats practically another decade of my life down the drain on education#me externally: idk lolz who knows what the future holds right?#๐๐๐ญ#magenta#magenta is my vent word
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the ppl who tell u that u should make ur art into a career are the same exact ppl who underpay artists for their work
#tell me why my coworker asked me to do a wedding painting for her daughter and then paid me one hundred dollars for it .#the entire thing . $100 .#yall.....that only partially covers the cost of materials like what the actual fuckxbjxknjxk#ppl are so cruel >:(#i dont Love painting enough to just do it so this kind of thing disheartens me about art as a whole unfortunately#mind you i gave her an estimated price of at least $375 and she gives me $100#after i had to hear about how she paid 10k for this and 7k for that like i know 500 is nothing for yall to even sneeze about#oof ๐#the bleak icing on the bleak outlook ive had for about 3 weeks now i need Out
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I feel really bad cause my spouse got me an iPad for my birthday a few years ago and I never use it...
He got it for me because I had been lamenting that I wished I had a drawing tablet with a screen instead of the second hand wacom that I use.
But when I unwrapped it I was shocked and surprised and worried immediately. I thought "why did you get me such an expensive gift..." and he said his dad helped pay for it. And then he told me why he got it and I was like oh okay that's nice I guess... but I never wanted an iPad. I wanted a drawing tablet. I was immediately concerned that I wouldn't like it. And I didn't want to sound ungrateful but I expressed that concern cause I was worried it was a mistake to get me such a gift and maybe he could return it... but I ended up keeping it and he got me an apple pencil to go with it and I bought and downloaded procreate to give it a chance.
I hate using procreate. It's a good program but I liked the program I was already using. I like drawing on my computer. Also the process of getting images out of procreate and onto my PC is stupid and cumbersome, and I dont like interfacing with websites from the iPad, I like using my PC. I just wanted a tablet that I could use with my computer that also had a screen. I don't even like Apple products, I never wanted to own one.
If I go on a trip and I want to draw I usually just end up bringing a sketchbook because I like that better than drawing on the iPad.
I gave it a shot for a while but I haven't touched the thing in like 6 months, and I feel bad that he spent so much money on it and I never use it :/
But I also can't complain about it cause it will make him feel bad but like idk, I wish he had just asked me what kind of tablet I wanted or something I mean I didn't even know what I wanted I had no serious plans to upgrade my tablet anytime soon, I still don't even know what I would want if I did. I have a $1000+ piece of fucking technology that I hate and I would rather use the thing that I paid $35 for.
#also honestly i forget sometimes that my monitors are touch screen#ive not even tried just getting a touch pen and using my monitors i dont think...#i cant remember but i think i even had the touchscreen monitors already when he got me the ipad#like idkkk i know i sound ungrateful cause it was expensive but like i immediatly was like why tf did you get me an ipad i dont want this..#but telling him to return it would have hurt his feelings so much...#its a fucking huge one too its like the biggest size they have#why did he do that#why did he think i wanted that#ughh im fucking awful why am i mad at him for getting me something nice what is wrong with me ๐#idk i think on some level it just shows like.. a lack of judgement on his part#like you didnt even consult with me before spending a bunch of money esp when we live together and share expenses#like he had to get his dad to help pay for it he could have spent that money on something way more practical#i dunno man i know i should appreciae anything that anyone wants to give me but..#its always kinda pissed me off when someone gives me something i dont want like it makes me feel like#they dont even know me and dont care what i actually want or like idk idk maybe thats selfish#he was just trying to make my life easier and get me something i had talked about wanting#but with big purchases like that i feel like you cant just fucking pick something you need to know what the person actually wants
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#i know this is wrong of me#but i get so annoyed when someone can't name their top 5/10 movies#and then they just give the ''ohhh im soo indecisive and theres so many good movies out there'' excuse#like. ๐ im not asking for ur thesis on every movie ever made#literally just asking you to name the first ones off the top of your head????#do you guys know that you can just name some movies you like. i promise you won't explode and no one will come to arrest you#just think of some random movies you watched and didn't hate! just name those!!! who cares! what's all the drama for#if you don't want to tell me what movies you like that's fine. but just day that. dont go ''Oooh i can't make decisions''#WHERE is the decision. have you ever watched a movie you liked or not. Yes? name them. No? well just say that! ๐ญ#i dont care if it's Accurate! this isn't some legal contract or i'll sue you for changing your mind later! what is the issue !!!!!!!#again im never gonna be mean to people who do this or even say anything to them but i just find it really frustrating#im not asking you for a kidney. just name some movies. no one will die i promise
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more than 50 hours of detroit become human vids on bryan decharts (connor's actor) channel.. this is the forget all life 2-3 week marathon
#anything to forget this fucking awful reality ๐ im still slightly sick as well so teehee. even though it doesnt prevent me from doing other#things. do you know how hard it is to find this much thing to fixate on. fucking amazing i love this game#its so crazy too to go blind and be so clueless about the entirety of the game industry#it all started from the edits of jerma's playthrough. which was painful to watch. then me beating the game myself#then remembering from Years ago someone mentioning bryan having a playthrough. and here we are#i wish i remembered who was the actual youtuber i watched play the game at the time. 6 years ago.. god#im also taking breaks from watching sometimes of course. trying to figure out my worldbuilding. which is not going very well#like damn guys isnt it surprising how human society and politics and conflicts arent a simple subject to change without consequences#isnt that cracy. i could just say fuck it and not mention that at all but its worldbuilding. not.. roombuilding. in terms of complexity#thats mostly bc i want my viewiels to live alongside humans. having a furry species just substitute humans feels cheap#bc even then the politics and infrastructure and ways of life would have simply been completely different anyways. its not an easy way out#im not fucking smart and knowledgeable enough for this shit man! stuff's hard!!#ive also been meaning to draw (and recently been feeling like doing d:bh fanart) but like. i have nothing to add really. nthn to say#which is how ive felt for years now.. sigh. everything is overwhelming.. im never good enough at anything i try#and most of the time i dont even know to start..#hm im feeling a depressive spiral coming up. bye im gonna watch more dbh before it gets out of control teehee#dextxt
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HEARTBREAKING: Character keeps getting called the name they clearly DO NOT want to be called by fans. Rare couple of gifsets ruined by the same issue.
#im sorry! im just so weird about names!#like oh? you guys see a character lash out because they were called some variant of their birth name#and still think that they want to be referred to as that name?#idk it seems simple to me to use the character's preferred name but its whatever๐#torn bc this character does *nawt* grt gifsets made about them like that and i found two but they're calling him by the name he obviously#doesnt like so๐๐ฌ i cant get myself to reblog them...#i guess maybe people dont know what its like to viscerally hate the name your parents gave?#but idk#my skin crawls hearing even a form of my own birth name so maybe its a me problem LOL#and no- nicknames arent any better๐ i had to settle on being okay with a nickname for my name rather than the full thing but i hate it too#stevie.txt#text#*get#is it a 'me' post if there isnt any typos?
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My brain's weird it screams just by reflex of me seeing a bug but will take like a day to register a death lol
My mood today be like:
Then after I finish crying:
#vent#im having a really shitty day#i just wanted my fucking cold teriyaki#but nooooooo#fucking cockroach cricjet thing whatever tf crawled out of it#so my apatite is gone for the night#oh ya in other news my uncle died#i haven't seen him in a while#heart attack in his sleep#so now time to see that โyour everyones favorite person when your goneโ thing play out so that'll be fun#his siblings disowened him or smth to that effect cause he was gay so my moms gonna play nice unless his sister comes crying to her#then my mom may go to jail we'll see#uncle as in my moms cousin btw#so ya i found out when i got home yesterday kinda blacked out the rest of the night cause in retrospect i dont really remember after that#then just cried intermittently today#*horray sound effect from fnaf plays sarcastically*#what broke the tear dam originally was my teacher thought itd be a great idea to play a documentary...#about places w/ high concentrations of 100 year olds & how they stayed sharp by not being lonely ๐#ya its morbidly ironic cause he was in his 60s#fuck life rn man he was cool rip#you know what documentaries at school are always horribly timed in my personal life. the last doc was a murder-rape#& a criminal โfamily memberโ came at ~4am & stayed outside the door for hours & waited for us to wake up then ate breakfast with us#(hasnt done that kind of crime- or hasnt been proven to have done that kind of crime)#(but still made me have a panic attack first thing in the morning so thats fun ๐)#(ya who tf plays a murder-rape doc for their 8th grade 1st period???)#(also didnt help that the criminal family member was alone in the house with my elderly grandmother & physically unwell mother ๐)#(at least theyre- socialable- i guess?? completely unrelated aside from the doc part)#YAY TRAUMA DUMPING :D#yay trauma#(clarification: โsociableโ as in not on horrible terms with my family
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