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i think this was literally copied and plagiarized from my brain from my interactions with my father
#boygenius#you made me feel like an equal.#but iโm BETTER than YOU and you should know that.#bye now#YOU DONT KNOW ME๐๐#fuck my dad man#iโm going to spend my whole life begging for everybody around me to love me just bc he fucking couldnโt#phoebe bridgers#is my spirit animal if i was a white woman with shitty taste in men
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โTo whom,โ Alfred rasps, pausing to clear his throat and establish his sense of decorum, โMay I ask, to whom do I have the pleasure of speaking?โ
The creature stops, blinks its owlish eyes at him, and lets out a bark of laughter.
โForgive me,โ it says, still chuckling lightly, raising a hand to rub at the back of his neck. Alfred is suddenly struck by the feeling that this creature is not as timeless, nor as old or as wizened, as it wished to present itself. โI am making a terrible first impression. My name is Phantom, current High King of the Infinite Realms.โ
Contractual Obligations by me!!!
I couldn't get the image of Ghost King Danny out of my head, so here he is!! Acrylic on canvas, and I'm so happy with it - he came out a lot better than I thought he would ๐
#danny phantom#dpxdc#ghost king danny#phanart#dpxdc big bang#dcxdp#ahhhhh here he is!!!!!!! it's king phantom ahhh!!!!!!#i didnt add his aurora halo and i feel like a fraud ๐ but it wouldnt have fit and also im very scared of adding it#and he has a massive honking stonker of a nose ๐คฃ sorry my boy by the time i realised i couldnt change it#this is... my first fanart#(and its of my own fic - thats bad isnt it haha)#i hope you all like it!!!! its not something i normally do but i couldnt get it out of my head#hey uh... hey.... what do i do with a 30x40 canvas of danny phantom fanart?#like. what do i do with that? is he just gonna float around my room for a while?#probably#ALSO my mum showed my dad and he said 'you did that? that's amazing' and im pretty sure thats the most amount of praise hes ever given me#which affected me way more than it should#he took a picture of it and mum was like 'he's going to show that to everyone' and i dont know how to explain to them its fanart#of a cartoon that aired 20 years ago ๐คฃ๐คฃ#anyway!!!!!!!! hope you all like it!!! please read the fic and then give some love to my wonderful artists#they went above and beyond for this like wwooooaaaaahhhh#art that I will never forget ๐ฅฐ#love you all goodnight!!!!!
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I neeeeeeeed to talk about gone forever more it's like the Most thing ever, it's got time loops and fairies and creatures and prophecies and magic and never being able to go home again and not able to recognize what youve become and how devotion can corrupt you and how those in power will lie to you to get what they want and how through everything you can be kind and no one ever knows what I'm talking about because it only exists to me and like one other person it's so sad. I should figure out how to make comics and do that.
#i literally forget people dontknow abt it and am like ah just like in gone forever! my ocs ...aggh#b.text#gone forever#gone forever: realm of nowhere#aaaahhhhgggg casey ponder you will always be famouS to ME#anyways thesis of gone forever: twins casey and hector ponder get stuck separated in a fantasy land and have to find their way to each other#and back home. they meet various fae who help them or dont and have to try an work their way thru the various fae lands to each other again.#while the antagonist enmity is trying to stop them from finding each other for reasons we dont yet know.#anyways. ๐ cloes my eyes and thinks abt gone forever plots that are like major spoilers but are soooo gooood.#it mostly is abt casey curtis and wisteria tho. casey the human hero curtis the bone wizard and wisteria the rogue fae... aaaagghhggaaa..#hector is a newish addition so i dont have as much thought about him as casey. its hector the not hero dani the time bandit and#enmity the queen of stars. and theres like 50 more characters from all these places...#i just need to do SOMETHING with it ok..... id wht thi. comic seems like a start i guess
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theyre taking the cat home with them
#theyre naming him jack!!! me... off..... ๐ it was my dads friends idea. and ofc you dont know this friend. but this is not a surprise lmao.#jacks a cute name though LMAOOOOO waah. just fell to my knees. i wont be able to meet him for a month............ im going to dieeee
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it is mandatory that i spend as many hours as possible in bed between my 4 hour shifts at work. NOT because i have any undiagnosed mental illness or physical ailments. i just. Like to๐ There is nothing else i would rather do๐๏ธ!
#i need to call back my doctor i keep forgetting i need to call back my doctor. but i dont WANT to bc i already know exactly what shes going#to say๐ like yeah i sooo would get a primary healthcare provider if i wasnt scared to because i am literally transgender and YOU my doctor#giving me my HORMONES are weird about the fact im transgender ALREADY. you want me to go to one that DOESNT even specialize in giving trans#people hormones???????#every time i go in they give me the exact same list of lgbtq friendly providers but theyre all like an hour away from me and i dont........#want to do that either. so#cowboy posts
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My brain: so when the hell is Ratso's birthday?
#I dont fucking KNOW#IDK ITS BEEN MONTHS SINCE I TRIED DECIDING#everytime i open my documents that blank line is MOCKING me ๐#writing rambles#anyone want to throw out any headcanons? help a brother out?#i promise to love you forever ๐
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Magentttaahhhh
#advisor: I'm looking at your transcript and you know...if you go another year after getting your masters you could have a minor in biology#me: INTERNALLY SCREAMING lady unless i get a full ride scholarship for that year or more grants for my masters im gonna be at my loan cap#and also fuck you for reminding me one of my 4 degrees i already had was gonna be a bs in biology up until i had a prof#that got too personal and he docked my grades cause i didn't let the old bastard seduce me so i quit the major to get away from him#advisor: also have you considered going for a PHD? your profs have said you'd be a good fit#me: INTERNALLY SCEEAMING#me: LADY IMMA KILL YOU DONT DANGLE THIS SHIT IN FRONT OF AN IMPOVERISHED STUDENT#me: also...thats practically another decade of my life down the drain on education#me externally: idk lolz who knows what the future holds right?#๐๐๐ญ#magenta#magenta is my vent word
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I wish there were more tma agere fics that weren't just the archives polycule ๐ญ or even ones that just didn't include Martin in them PLEAAASEE
#only 15/94 of the agere fics on ao3 DONT have martin in them. HELPPPP#manifesting gerry agere fics rn ๐ฎ๐ฎโจ๐ช๐งโโ๏ธ๐งโโ๏ธ๐ชโจโจ๐ฎ#im not strong enough to write them myself i just need them to appear ...#HELP MEE!!! theres so much agere potential for characters that ARENT the archives polycule#i know they're the main characters and thus theres gonna automatically be more fics of jut them but ๐๐ญ๐๐#but like help me#give me gerry coping with his messed up childhood by regressing ๐๐๐ NOW!!#i don't think he'd regress to like a baby but i think he'd so like being like a kid/young teen#i think he'd be very lowkey with it though.#I DON'T wanna go more into detail though because im embarrassed ๐ญ < person who is embarrassed#words#tma#lord stopping myself from tagging every single character i mention bc i just remembered that like tags are something some people use#< realization made by person who forgot some people actually look at Tumblr tags.#like you're telling me you just go down like. a character tag? like........just for funsies? just consuming all the content under it#CANNOT!!! do that i need a cursted following of only the content made by peopel who's opinions i trust and like#but i want to be organized.#**CURATED#tma agere#gerry keay#gerard keay#the magnus archives
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the ppl who tell u that u should make ur art into a career are the same exact ppl who underpay artists for their work
#tell me why my coworker asked me to do a wedding painting for her daughter and then paid me one hundred dollars for it .#the entire thing . $100 .#yall.....that only partially covers the cost of materials like what the actual fuckxbjxknjxk#ppl are so cruel >:(#i dont Love painting enough to just do it so this kind of thing disheartens me about art as a whole unfortunately#mind you i gave her an estimated price of at least $375 and she gives me $100#after i had to hear about how she paid 10k for this and 7k for that like i know 500 is nothing for yall to even sneeze about#oof ๐#the bleak icing on the bleak outlook ive had for about 3 weeks now i need Out
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Pretty much all of my friends think I should move next year when my lease ends ๐ฉ
#all of them: move to LA so you can be by the beach and just get a break#but like ew driving ๐๐๐#i do have a few friends out there but god#but maybe it would be good for me??#idk i just feel like i have my life (ok my doctors) built here#and i am just so tired#obviously not making decisions for at least six months about literally anything rn#but i dont know what to do you know#esp when i am ๐ฅฒ๐ฅฒ๐ฅฒ#personal#also they also picked LA as the place bc of the friends but also the general vibe#but idk i think i could live there for max 3 years without going nuts#grief
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i wear a lot of skirts and pink and whatnot as my style has developed with me & my personality but when one of those age regression girlies latch onto me....i do not like that
#like oh....you think im one of them...bestie no im freshly 23 and im happy i made it this far i dont wanna go back#sometimes i hate being 5'2 with a small frame you have to be very careful and kinda vet everyone you interact with#idk there's a complex discussion to be had. i am someone who has went through what they fetishize and i know a lot of girls in that#community have too. so i worry a lot if if my behaviors and preferences accidentally align with that community in ways i don't realize#bc trauma will always reveal itself. idfk. when i was 20 i got in a relationship with a man who was 30 because i misheard him and thought#he was 24. i thought he was okay until we were at this giftshop and he wanted to get me something but as giftshops are super expensive#i mentioned i could fit in childrens clothes and it saves me a lot of money ($60 shoes are $30 for kids) and tbh fit my frame better#so he was โprove itโ so i did and mf said โTHATS HOTโ ??????????? BITCH#my style wasn't even feminine in the slightest at the time ๐ it feels like a curse to have this kind of trauma then never outgrow this body#believe me ik how trauma changes your brain but how#as a woman#can you ever be apart of that community? why do you allow this to continue and not persecute these men for existing?#you're inherently enabling it and saying its okay this happened to you and its okay that other adults can hurt other kids#when my rapist got put in prison i screamed i yelled i sang i danced my friends set off FIREWORKS for me#when he got out i cried more than i ever have. i moved STATES (not the sole rzn but nonetheless) not that i was in the one he was in prison#in anyways but i was so fucking petrified he'd find me again. its embarrassing but i started sleeping with a chastity belt again.#i made more phone calls i ever have in my life to people who have and will get their hands dirty#i understand the self hatred those girls have. i understand the girls who sleep with everyone to take some of their power back.#i even understand the girls who want to get raped if they got assaulted but it never felt like enough for the pain they're experiencing#but please stay the fuck away from me. as someone who has tried to heal and wants every man like that erased from earth.#do not give them an ounce of attention. ostracize them like they're meant to be. leave it to god for their karma they will be dealt with#reckon with your pain and make sure it never happens to anyone else. only the harmed can make the greatest teachers#tbh bro i am disgusted with myself at all that those are the kinda vibes i put out.#what are you supposed to do as a woman when feminity is equalized with infantilism? i think its tone deaf and misguided whem girls are like#i dress this way to contradict societies views!!! babes its a whole cultural issue that requires reviewing and reforming#you are not doing anything revolutionary by wearing frilly skirts and saying im not like them bc they see you and ur automatically boxed in#i dress how i want and say what i want but i know as a individual im not the beacon of a groundbreaking movement#singularily flipping society on its head. dress how you want but be aware of the connotations. you're living in this society here and now#there's consequences that may not be in your favor and youll be assumed to have values that dont align with you and it may break your heart
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I feel really bad cause my spouse got me an iPad for my birthday a few years ago and I never use it...
He got it for me because I had been lamenting that I wished I had a drawing tablet with a screen instead of the second hand wacom that I use.
But when I unwrapped it I was shocked and surprised and worried immediately. I thought "why did you get me such an expensive gift..." and he said his dad helped pay for it. And then he told me why he got it and I was like oh okay that's nice I guess... but I never wanted an iPad. I wanted a drawing tablet. I was immediately concerned that I wouldn't like it. And I didn't want to sound ungrateful but I expressed that concern cause I was worried it was a mistake to get me such a gift and maybe he could return it... but I ended up keeping it and he got me an apple pencil to go with it and I bought and downloaded procreate to give it a chance.
I hate using procreate. It's a good program but I liked the program I was already using. I like drawing on my computer. Also the process of getting images out of procreate and onto my PC is stupid and cumbersome, and I dont like interfacing with websites from the iPad, I like using my PC. I just wanted a tablet that I could use with my computer that also had a screen. I don't even like Apple products, I never wanted to own one.
If I go on a trip and I want to draw I usually just end up bringing a sketchbook because I like that better than drawing on the iPad.
I gave it a shot for a while but I haven't touched the thing in like 6 months, and I feel bad that he spent so much money on it and I never use it :/
But I also can't complain about it cause it will make him feel bad but like idk, I wish he had just asked me what kind of tablet I wanted or something I mean I didn't even know what I wanted I had no serious plans to upgrade my tablet anytime soon, I still don't even know what I would want if I did. I have a $1000+ piece of fucking technology that I hate and I would rather use the thing that I paid $35 for.
#also honestly i forget sometimes that my monitors are touch screen#ive not even tried just getting a touch pen and using my monitors i dont think...#i cant remember but i think i even had the touchscreen monitors already when he got me the ipad#like idkkk i know i sound ungrateful cause it was expensive but like i immediatly was like why tf did you get me an ipad i dont want this..#but telling him to return it would have hurt his feelings so much...#its a fucking huge one too its like the biggest size they have#why did he do that#why did he think i wanted that#ughh im fucking awful why am i mad at him for getting me something nice what is wrong with me ๐#idk i think on some level it just shows like.. a lack of judgement on his part#like you didnt even consult with me before spending a bunch of money esp when we live together and share expenses#like he had to get his dad to help pay for it he could have spent that money on something way more practical#i dunno man i know i should appreciae anything that anyone wants to give me but..#its always kinda pissed me off when someone gives me something i dont want like it makes me feel like#they dont even know me and dont care what i actually want or like idk idk maybe thats selfish#he was just trying to make my life easier and get me something i had talked about wanting#but with big purchases like that i feel like you cant just fucking pick something you need to know what the person actually wants
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hey im sam (he/they), animation student in the US
i post art here! mostly one piece, jjk, sk8 and trigun atm
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the neck tattoo is very early gerard way ๐ค๐ป
#im the target audience of that mv#early as relatively to now dont come at me#i know you lot ๐#dum dum#jeff satur#but what kind of alias is jeff
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#i know this is wrong of me#but i get so annoyed when someone can't name their top 5/10 movies#and then they just give the ''ohhh im soo indecisive and theres so many good movies out there'' excuse#like. ๐ im not asking for ur thesis on every movie ever made#literally just asking you to name the first ones off the top of your head????#do you guys know that you can just name some movies you like. i promise you won't explode and no one will come to arrest you#just think of some random movies you watched and didn't hate! just name those!!! who cares! what's all the drama for#if you don't want to tell me what movies you like that's fine. but just day that. dont go ''Oooh i can't make decisions''#WHERE is the decision. have you ever watched a movie you liked or not. Yes? name them. No? well just say that! ๐ญ#i dont care if it's Accurate! this isn't some legal contract or i'll sue you for changing your mind later! what is the issue !!!!!!!#again im never gonna be mean to people who do this or even say anything to them but i just find it really frustrating#im not asking you for a kidney. just name some movies. no one will die i promise
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I always get self conscious when people talk about the amount of thought the goes/went into their art because there is.
there is no upper processing happening when I'm designing a character or background. my hand starts moving and my brain shuts off. I recognize there was probably a point in my life where this WASN'T the case but. like. it's why my art is like. mostly flat and lifeless. my art is never intended to tell a story because when I intend to I get angry/frustrated to the point of wanting to break shit because it's not going right. and I've tried to tell stories with my art both comics and stand alone pieces and it all feels fake or flat or.
idk.
I've TRIED to start and finish a piece where I've made conscious choices beyond "does this look good/right" and "am I being offensive in ways I'm aware of with anything here" but it just. makes me want to scream.
I learned people told stories with their art and I tried to and I stopped drawing for 5 years despite having. before that point been doing art studies for 8 to 10 hours a day for. 2 years.
I mostly just think it's because I have nothing to. say.
I can't add anymore tags to this post??? homophobia.
any way this post is useless idk I'm just sad because people do this thing so easily and enjoy it when it makes me break down crying. I don't get it. every person I've known regardless of neurodivergency has been able to do this consciously to some degree and enjoy it and meanwhile my stupid ass is asked how/why i chose something and I just. shrug. idk
looked nice?
#idk i probably say a lot UNintentionally#but like.#idk i feel like im just being. like. whining. for no reason. like boo hoo no one cares grow up if art makes you thay mad just stop drawing#like. man i WANT to think i WANT to tell stories i intend to tell along with the things i dont pick up on but.#i also mean like. if someone looked at a piece they could pick it apart comprehensively. like#but its like. idk. im like. i think im just to stupid for it.#im the same way with media analysis to be fair. which isnt like great but like.#why did someone choose this lighting? i dont know they thought it looked good ?#i have gotten 90-100% on every single analysis and opinion piece i ever submitted in HS for English#the only time i DIDNT get over 89% on an opinipn piece is when i tried to articulate my actual feelings on a topic to go along w researc#THAT got me pulled aside and told what i had written about was inappropriate and that i should think twice#before submitting a paper with that kond of content in the future#ao i did :^) and went back to bullshitting every single thing!#the curtains were blue in this scene to indicate not sadness but instead her deep love for uhhh fuck. flips through reading material and#lands on a random page. her dog buddy who is depcited in chapter (x) seeing as buddy is usually a male dogs name we can extrapolate and say#she chose these curtain colours after his death to remind her of the dog she had lost รท#end sentence end oaragraph submit paper withoit a secondary proof reading and lie and say i left the roigh draft at home. walk away#how did i get high grades. dude. like everyone says teachers know when a kids bullshitting but like#the teachers ATE MY SHIT UP ๐ i got used as an example of comprehensive stucture and analysis on more than one occasion#this is not me bragging this is me saying i never actually learned how to domthis stuff because i was supported in faking it#some people can do analysis like yhis on their first read through like. and remember it. how? how??? what???#whay do you mean its because you read mote than thee sparknotes and random chapters because the book didnt interest you.#'we know when you dont actually read the book?' why did you compliment me on my comprehensive opinons of the parts i didnt readm#'We know when you write it the night before?' why did you laude me as an example of dedication put into an essay when i fucked around every#single in class wotk session past the first one and frantically typed and printed that in the computer lab before class 20 minutes ago?#why!! like DUDE#its like when they say they can tell when you use wikipedia to soirce things and then lie about it#and then compliment ur sources when youbl just used wikipedias sources. witout reading them urself.#which i also did#and when they tell you not to just use google translate because they can tell. when i did and then edited a LITTLE to catch names.
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