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quite frankly im so shocked that roddy would be most excited to return to his fatherland go to finland. truly.
"Is there any of your non-Finnish teammates who've picked up some Finnish? Has Evan Rodrigues learned any words just because he's played with you and Eetu a lot?" "No, he thinks he can—some words in Finnish but he's probably the guy who thinks he knows the most Finnish and probably knows the most Finnish of the guys in the team but..." "He's gotta say 'kiitos' after that pass last night! I mean, that was a nice setup!" "Yeah, yeah, exactly."
honestly im SHOCKED that mr hot rod would ever be named in relation to finland.
who couldve forseen any of this coming? like honestly? surprising. shocking. my gasteds have been flabbered.
we live in a society truly
THERES MORE FROM MR HALF FINNISH RODDY WHOS IN EVERY FINNS BUSINESS
at this point it's become deeply comical... making history in finland... continuing to score goals despite not being in finland anymore precisely because of the robes... "im gonna have to keep it going then huh?"... sweet mary and joseph
#eetu luostarinen#anton lundell#niko mikkola#evan rodrigues#florida panthers#2324#2425#wdym half finnish as deigned by mikksy roddy is excited to go to finland#shock pikachu face#special mention despite the short time erod has been here hes fully in love with sasha#“o captain my captain o7” “b2? oh i was gonna say barky squared!!! love you cap!”#the non finn who desperately wants to be a finn#this is what happens when you play in colorado huh#predisposed to the finns#we have 4 finns? paul i think you mean 5 because of honourary finn erod#he is smooching every single one of em he damn well may as well be a full finn#any excuse to bring up that roddy mikksy presser again is a good one im still recovering from it actually#my favourite thing is luosty going yeah erod. hes too excited. it has to be him#lundy bullying erod off the cuff for his lack of finnish prowress LIKE GIRL RELAX HE BARELY KNOWS ANY PORTUGUESE OKAY LET HIM LIVE#and mikksy being so terribly in love with him going youre half finnish because i said so <3#we have a spy amongst us#terribly adorable how much erod has attached himself to the finnish four that this fucking happens godbless#roddy raising his hand like OH OH ME I KNOW I KNOW and not waiting to blurt out the answer or he will die#LUNDY FUCKIN INDULGING HIM TOO OUGHHHHH#CEYINGNGGG#IT JUST GETS BETTER
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i bet hunter has blonde moments a lot. he is such a little ditz sometimes.
#AGSVDJBDK#i think he has a lot of ''ditz'' moments because hes got a lot of tabs open in his brain at the same time#whenever hes too busy overthinking the more convoluted stuff he somehow forgets small but crucial details#once he starts attending hexside he gets bullied by his own locker#it keeps trying to eat him#and hes like i wont let this stop me#so he makes a potion that puts his locker to sleep for the whole school day#gus: wow awesome plan.#hunter: [smug] yeah...#gus: but uh. you need your locker to be awake in order to get your books out. whats the plan there?#hunter: ....wait...shit....
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uhhh yo i'm thinkin about. tommy and eddie not Getting each other but Dealing with each other becos of billy. but then somehow without even realising, they actually become pals too. hashtag billy's impact.
then ofc billy + eddie + tommy bestie-ism. becos i want it.
anyway. rewind becos we need to talk about billy + tommy and billy + eddie first before we slap tommy + eddie together
billy initially hating tommy when he first rolled into town, thinking he was kind of pathetic for how he was acting about harrington ditching him, and thinking he was just genuinely like. trying too fucking hard. trying to hard to be liked, to get attention, to get his fucking peers approval. billy already knew. high school didn't fucking matter. other kids approval and opinions didn't mean shit. everyone was fake as fuck. he just had to make it ‘til graduation, then he'd be fucking gone.
but then. he somehow ends up getting roped into joining tommy and his family for dinner one night, becos he's unable to say no to tommy's mom who asked him, and suddenly, he's seeing tommy in a whole new light.
he didn't know that tommy had a fucking baseball teams worth of siblings, and was the 3rd eldest. he watches as tommy cuts up his baby sisters dinner, pulling faces at his little brother next to her the entire time to make him laugh. listens as the entire table actually talks and interacts with each other, how his twin little sisters ask about when carol's coming over next, and how his mom cuts in and asks if carol's appointment went okay the other day and if she was feeling better. watches as him and his older brother clear the table without even being asked, their mom moving to start bath time for the kids under six. can't remember the last time he sat at a dinner table with an entire family and felt warm. like what dinner's look like they feel like in the movies.
after, when he's walking down the hallway to tommy's room, he sees all the pictures of him and harrington. they're all over the the wall, some not even having tommy in them, just steve and other members of the family cheesing at the camera from basically fucking diapers all the way up til last year. that's when he realises. tommy and steve weren't just school friends. steve was fucking family. and he left. over a fucking girl.
suddenly, billy gets it. he fucking Gets it. gets what it's like to have a family member walk out, with little to no explanation or reason, or for the worst fucking reason of all. to have everyone in the world expect you to just be fucking okay with it, like your entire world hasn't just changed, like you aren't eating dinner with one less plate setting now, like birthdays aren't suddenly forevermore gonna be one person short. he fucking gets it.
tommy looks embarrassed, though, when he catches billy eyeing the pictures, the red so obvious on his cheeks, and it feels like this is the first time billy's seen him without the act he puts on at school. billy just gives him a slight nod, then walks past the bathroom and flirts with his mom, feeling good about the way tommy groans behind him.
billy makes more of an effort after that, and tommy stops trying so hard.
maybe one night, after a slightly wild party at some cheerleader's house, him and tommy split to get some food from benny's, walking the whole way cos they're both not in any condition to drive, and tommy ends up spilling the details of what actually happened between him and steve. not just the shit that's been spreading around school, either. the real shit.
billy listens, still slightly drunk and definitely fucking high, and ends up vaguely mentioning his mom. he cuts himself off quickly though, cos even when he's wasted he knows not to expose himself like that. but tommy looks at him, and he nods, and he moves the conversation along.
they get close, after that.
they don't cling to each other at school, with tommy usually floating between anyone and everyone, carol leading the way, and billy only gracing the basketball table with his presence maybe once a week, the other days ditching to his car or hiding out under bleachers becos he’s sick and tired of people, but out of school, they're a bit more attached.
tommy's mom loves billy, and apparently, so do his siblings. well–the younger ones do, at least. the teens and the two older two seem unfazed by him at best, and wary of him at worst. that's probably fair though, considering his reputation.
it takes less than a month for billy to clock the fact that tommy doesn’t seem to “get” music. tommy says he considers it something you put on in the background while you do shit, just to have some noise, and billy pulls the car over immediately and gives him a wild look. he pulls out a mixed cd from the glovebox that has a decent chunk of his favourite songs, and when tommy says he's never heard a single one, billy loses his fucking mind for fifteen minutes straight before promising him that before the years out, tommy will understand music.
tommy just agrees, having learnt early on that billy's gonna billy, and he's expressive and passionate about so fucking little, so seeing him get so worked up about something tommy considers so small is like. kind of fucking adorable. he sits there and listens as billy explains the difference between one band and the next and thinks–he's never actually heard billy sound so genuinely happy to be talking about something before, like his love for it is roots deep.
and then–there's eddie.
he fucking hates billy on principal alone, at first. heard the talk and rumours about him from day one, his name even being whispered about by hellfire members, and instantly judged and stereotyped the fuck out of him. knows it's pretty pot, kettle–the whole hating each other becos stereotypes etc but like. no way this new california basketball guy isn't gonna tear eddie to shreds. there's no way.
so, he doesn't wait to see how billy treats him, just expects that he's gonna fuck with him the same way all the other assholes do, and writes him off as a waste of time, just like all the other jocks are.
gets the surprise of his life when billy not only acknowledges him publicly at a party, but also knows him by name and talks to him at school. usually, his crowd treats him like his social status is contagious, and keeps any interaction to a quick and private arrangement. except then he's walking down the corridor at school and his name is being yelled across the hall, and suddenly billy hargrove's standing in front of him, a kind of terrifying look on his face.
eddie rolls with it though, figures his buddies will catch him up to speed and explain the rules that keep things flowing around here, and billy'll never speak to him again.
that's not what happens, though. what happens is one of jason's dipshit besties throws an arm over billy's shoulder and laughs, calls eddie a freak like it's the funniest and most original insult to ever exist, and tells billy that they don't actually have to talk to him, that they can get anything they want from samson's older brother who's back from college.
billy shrugs the guy off, "you mean that shit that you were sharing around at patrick's last week? yeah, fuck that. at least munson's shit is good."
eddie watches the scene unfold with slight interest, but writes billy off again when he walks away with the crowd, having gotten the information he needed.
charges him double and a half when billy eventually tracks him down behind the school, and billy gives him a flat look but still hands over the money.
"that the standard price, or you just being a little bitch about it?"
"whatever you wanna tell yourself, short guy."
billy rolls his eyes, but takes the baggie eddie hands him and walks away, flipping him the bird over his shoulder as he goes.
eddie watches him leave and shakes his head. thinks, at least that'll be the last of it.
feels his eyes widen slightly the next week when billy rocks up again, money already in hand.
"price has actually went up this week, sorry man. must've forgot to send you the newsletter," eddie shrugs, walking straight past him and dumping his bag on the table.
"fuckin–seriously? you seriously pulling this shit?"
eddie gets his little tin lunch box out of his bag, not even sparing him a glance.
"supply and demand, gotta make a buck, you know how it is," eddie shrugs again and waits to hear billy's footsteps walk away. that doesn't happen. instead, he hears billy take a deep breath, mutter a fucksake under his breath, then hears his footsteps approach.
"well, how much is it this week, then?"
eddie looks at him over his shoulder, then turns around fully, a slow grin growing on his face. "how much you got?"
watches the flash of anger and frustration cross over billy's face before he seems to reign himself in.
"just–just give me my fucking shit, munson, i swear to god."
eddie just watches him and waits, letting him sweat a bit, before grinning at him, all teeth, then turns back around.
he grabs some things from his little stash then slaps three baggies in billy's hand.
billy clenches his fist around it, before taking another calming breath, then nods.
"how much?"
"same as last week."
billy gives him a look, and eddie snorts.
"supply and demand," he shrugs again, twirling his hair.
billy huffs, slapping the money down on the table.
eddie winks at him.
billy becomes a pretty regular customer after that, even though he looks at eddie like he thinks he’s batshit crazy most days. doesn't stop him from asking for his phone number though, complaining that sneaking notes in lockers is fucking corny.
next thing eddie knows, billy’s rocking up at his trailer and banging on his door, inviting himself in. eddie would like to pretend to give more of a fuck, but honestly, billy isn't actually that bad. and uncle wayne fucking loves him for some reason.
billy clocks his guitar on his second visit, and sniffs out his fucking heart wide crush on chrissy cunningham on the fourth, and eddie never knows peace affer that.
it’s a bright as fuck day when billy finally figures out a way to merge his two worlds and get both eddie and tommy into the same place at the same time, and it happens purely by his own intervention.
billy's driving tommy home when eddie’s van mysteriously breaks down, and he calls for a lift. billy eyes his glovebox, where he’s stashed a small but important part of eddies engine, and thinks hell fuckin’ yeah your van’s broke down.
he smirks into his phone as he listens to eddie stress, quickly checking on his passenger as he thinks about the way eddie’s face always screws up whenever he mentions him, and how tommy always looks downright uncomfortable every time he mentions spending time at munson’s trailer.
but. here's the thing. he doesn't give a fuck. what he does give a fuck about is splitting his time between the two, like a fucking child of divorce, when he could simply just hang out with them both at once, them all chilling together. of course, that involes playing matchmaker. or just like. force them into getting stockholm syndrome about each other or some shit. but whatever. as long as something works. he’s not picky.
he flips his turn signal on and does a u-turn, shrugging when tommy asks where they’re going.
when he pulls up behind eddie’s van, tommy’s face does something complicated, and billy holds back a snort. he gives tommy one last sideway glance before climbing out and going to find eddie.
“what’s the damage?” he calls out, walking up to the front.
“fuck if i know, man. i look after her the best i can, but she’s old as shit and high maintenance, and i’m fucking broke,” eddie says from the front seat where he’s been waiting, looking at billy like maybe he’ll know the answer.
“just leave it. i’ll come back later and have a look. got a passenger though, so. we gotta go,” billy waves his hand dismissively before nodding his head towards his car.
“oh shit, little red’s here?” eddie asks, hopping out and walking alongside him.
billy snorts. “worse.”
eddie opens the back passenger door and ducks down to look before standing straight back up.
“tell me you’re joking,” he says, sounding fucking pained.
billy laughs. “get in the fucking car, freak.”
it’s the most awkward and uncomfortable drive he’s had since he got his own car, and he spends most of the time trying to make fucking conversation with them both only for them to give him stilted and one word answers back.
“holy fuck,” billy breaks, pulling up in front of tommy’s house. he locks the car doors before anyone can split and turns in his seat. “what’s the big deal between you two? it can’t be that fucking bad. you’re both like–harmless. fucking bitchy, and definitely petty, and both fucking dramatic, but like. harmless. what’s the beef?”
tommy stays silent, making sure to look anywhere but them, while eddie leans forward to look between them. he looks from billy, to tommy, then back to billy.
“just–history,” eddie sighs, giving tommy a look.
billy stares blankly between them both. “history,” he deadpans back.
“well, we have went to school together for most of our lives, even been in most of the same classes in high school,” eddie reasons, sounding offended that billy’s not getting it.
“boo hoo, he stole your lunch money,” billy bitches back, giving eddie a bewildered look, “move past it. you’re like, 20, dude.”
eddie gives him an incredulous look right back, and billy shrugs, unlocking the car doors. tommy bolts.
“christ, man. you don’t get it,” eddie starts after he’s jumped in the front seat and they’ve started to drive away, “you haven't been at the bottom of the food chain.”
billy raises an eyebrow at him, ‘cause like fuck has he never been at the bottom of the food chain, and eddie fucking knows that. billy’s turned up at his trailer enough times now after a run in with his dad for eddie to have put the pieces together.
“that’s fucking different, don’t even try to compare,” eddie shoots back instantly, throwing his arms out.
“yeah, ‘cause one’s fucking high school bullshit, and one’s my fucking homelife. like, dude. come on, seriously? he bullied you? i fucking bully you.”
“yeah but you bully me because you want to fuck me, he bullied me for like–fucking everything. living in a trailer, hellfire club,” he starts listing, “my parents and all that bullshit–my fucking band–”
“yeah, and i tried to fuck your uncle last week,” billy cuts him off, sitting there and giving him a blank look.
eddie looks scandalised before a smile starts to crack, a slight laugh coming out. “you are such a fucking asshole.”
billy laughs right back, making an illegal turn and flooring it, “fuck you, i’m your hottest fucking customer. now, let’s go fix your fucking van.”
“tommy ain’t that bad,” billy tries again as he puts eddies van back into working condition, pulling the piece he took out earlier from his jacket and putting it back in the engine, eddie none the wiser sitting in the driver's seat.
eddie raises his eyebrows at him when he pops up to look at him over the hood, “uh huh. sure. tommy hagen’s got a heart of gold.”
billy rolls his eyes then bends back over, fixing up the last few things before slamming the hood shut.
“seriously. he’s like, chill, once you get to know him. he pissed me off too when i first met him. then, i actually gave him the time of day, and now–” billy shrugs, wiping his hands and smearing some grease around, then walking around to eddie’s door.
“why the hell do you care so much–what? you want us to all share friendship bracelets? want us to jam together?” eddie questions, looking at billy through his rolled down window.
billy lets out a deep breath. “‘cause. we’re almost graduated, we’re basically fucking adults, and i don't want to spend my fucking summer having to divide my days going between you both because you guys can’t get over shit from middle school. we were all fuckin’ pricks when we were twelve. luckily, you two both grew out of it, but i sure as shit didn't. so, either learn to get along, or i’ll make you fucking get along.”
billy pulls out a pack of smokes, gets one out, gives eddie a salute, then lights up and walks away.
billy’s words bounce around in his head the following days, and when billy tells him to meet him at his car after school three days later and he rocks up to tommy and carol fucking perkins sitting in the back seat, eddie stops for a minute before standing tall, then throws himself into the front passenger seat.
billy smiles his most angelic smile at him, and when eddie turns around, tommy won’t meet his eye. carol smirks at him and pops her bubblegum. “‘sup, eddie.”
eddie didn't even know she knew his name. he lifts his hand in a weird little wave before turning back around and facing the road. “fuck you,” he mutters under his breath, sinking down in his seat.
billy laughs and drops his hand to rest on eddie’s knee, squeezing it. “we’re gonna have fun, baby,” he mumbles back.
after a few blocks, billy pulls up to benny’s diner and cuts the engine.
“you said ‘meet me at my car, it’s important’,” eddie deadpans, looking around the busy carpark in the peak of the after school rush, tommy and carol already getting out.
“yeah,” billy deadpans right back, eyes looking fucking gleeful, “after school milkshakes. most important part of the day.”
“you’re lactose intolerant,” eddie breathes out disbelievingly as they both reach for their car doors.
“i know,” billy grins, pushing his door open and stepping out, then turning around and leaning in, “now let’s go, hot stuff.”
and maybe one day i'll finish this. oops.
#theres more and i have three different au's where they end up in a band together but. too lazy to type more rn#also billy and eddie being the type of friends where everyones like..... are they..... are they together.... wait huh.....#but obviously. eddiechrissy is real and true#and billy. well hes bi as fuck and will obviously meet someone that hawkins could never create#but basically!!!! eddie and tommy finding themselves in situations together all becos of billy#and it being awkward and weird and stilted#until one day they realise it isn't anymore#GOD the idea of them being in a band and having fans and stans#like the idea of them doing interviews and eddie being like. we went to school together. tommy bullied me. i was billys dealer.#billy: i was tommys bi-awakening#tommy: sometimes i wonder what my life would be like if i went to community college instead of joining these tools in a band#hello the thought of tommy being the drummer and just drumming over them everytime they dont shut the fuck up on stage#billy and eddie turning to him like ohhhh look whos too good to listen to us now huh. remember when u idolised us#mungrove#hagangrove#billy x eddie x tommy#nqff#m#text
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metal_pipe_falling.mp4
under the cut is more doodles of arakawa in his coat(s) and sawashiro doodles cause Lol
#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#ryu ga gotoku 7#yakuza like a dragon#yakuza series#yakuza 7#masumi arakawa#jo sawashiro#snap sketches#ive been telling myself for months to make color palette refs for these knuckleheads#and while waiting for The Time I Should Leave For Class i started doodling the arakawa sheet#and then i finished that and was like 'oh hes a bit lonely now aint he' so i went and did sawashiro#great opportunity for me to fix some colors too... ill prob revisit this thing like 90 times just to update colors down the line#its what i do with my other chara ref sheets#the art old as hell on those but i keep the colors up to date.. lol#also can i legally bully myself on this post. speaking of colors. i really forgot jo's tie is more of a pink than a red. STUPID ASS#i love makin refs like these... makea me feel like im workin on a show or somethin.. teehee..#also Dress-Up-Doll kinda vibes... teehee 2x#i prob wont post any art that actually fts sawashiro's body moles but i mean. might as well share the refs#just so its not Arakawa And His Fifty Coats And Pinkyless Hand under the cut LOL#abt arakawas coats tho im debating on mixing in which ones i draw yk.. like the scarf look will be like. early 90's#then the coat we see him with in y7 is mid-90's onward. to be cute yk. we'll see how i feel down the line we know me im fickle lol#also yeah i purposefully left the tail of sawashiro's tattoo: its just supposed to be a ref of how his tattoo is positioned#and while adjusting the tattoo i remembered an ask someone sent me bout ichis tattoo... lol..#cant believe anon didnt have to send me that reddit link we coulda just waited until this summer to see ichi's '''''full tatt''''''' HELP#STILL NOT OVER IT ok im done here. bye#an aside though for some reason arakawa's jawline feels diff compared to his 20's onward#idk if its cause of the ref image i use's lighting that makes 20's arakawa's chin more squared compared to the rounder shape he gets#mysterious.... oh well was tryin not to think too hard bout it since these arent supposed to be super detailed#just colors and whatever
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man. it hasn't even been a full half day of this event being out and im already drafting a fic for it. what an absolute RIDE thsi has been.
#will i post it? idk#it's me so its a rui fic.#its him getting worried when mizuki doesn't show up to school the next day. or the next. or the next or the next or the next#and he knows this isn't his buisness but he can't help but be worried for his dear friend#so he texts.#and they don't even read it#i cant decide if i want him to try going over to mizuki's house and talk to them (they don't open teh door)#or he can't even do that because he doesn't know where mizuki lives#GOD WAIT. what if i did a multichap and had a bunch of characters#toya getting worried too but having none of the context#he doesn't know what to do except take good notes in class for them and hope they come back soon#akito doesnt say anything or do anything#but he notices how tense ena is at home. how stressed she seems but she won't talk about it. (its mizukis secret. shes not going to out the#but aktio can't figure it out and he knows it has to do with mizuki or the cultural festival or something in her circle#but all akito can really do is leave a slice of cheesecake on the counter and keep moving forward#an is worried. and she tries talking to akito but he doesnt know and toya doesnt either#and maybe she overhears the bullies in the hallway and realizes it might be a gender thing#but she doesn't know about ena. she doesn't#but she knows how to fight for her friend so she tells the bullies to back the f off and grow up#nene not really knowing whats going on but noticing mizukis absence and everyone around her getting kinda stressed about it#how akito seems grumpier and an keeps giving some people glares#but mostly rui. whos distracted at practice and distracted at school and keeps checking his phone#and doesn't know what to do. doesn't really do anything because of it. but shes there for rui. and there for mizuki#whenevr they get back.#and kasa. oh silly ol kasa#he notices mizuki's absence and is all “hall monitor” about it for the first like. two dayts#but he notices ruis behavior first adn then an and akitos and man even nene a little#and while hes never read a social cue in his life he knows somethigns wrong. offers to put on a show with rui.#and rui. says. no.#that's when tsukasa freaks out
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yeah sure that's how i'll [re]come out
#zymart#zymtalk#rant in the tags ->#okay listen to me this is really important and also i have a witness. this was not intentionally supposed to be posted on june 1st#the stars just aligned for this to be at its funniest. which means its also easier for me to dismiss LOL#i drew this like a week ago after trying to draw a whole like. 5 page comic about it and then stopping it mid-board#bc it was horrifying imagining being perceived that much. so i needed to make it into a joke instead and this was the funniest route#and then i was like 'UGH. UGH!!!! i can not be 20 and deal with this like im 13. if i dont post it by the end of the week#then [the witness to all my rants on this topic. shoutout to twig bc they got the most of it] can joke abt it as if i did anyway'#and now its the end of the week and i looked at the date and went 'oh my god didnt may just start what happened'#'WAIT ITS JUNE FIRST. GOD. THATS TOO FUNNY TO NOT SAY SOMETHING' and who am i if i dont prioritize the bit honestly#in all honesty. kinda hate it! not bc of internalized homophobia but actually bc of internalized arophobia that has somehow been emphasized#after having my brain shift from '1000% aromantic without a doubt no exceptions' to 'just arospec ig lol??'#but tragically as it turns out. you can not just try and self analyze yourself into speedrunning closure.#horrible news for the oscar zymstarz community frankly#SO i needed a way 2 justify shoving this off my plate and into the trash as fast as possible.#im impatient and cant acknowledge my own emotions. its a flaw im working on it#oh and for all the ppl who know the running gag abt 'my allegations' [i do not have any real allegations for anyone not in jems server]:#that was in fact just a running gag for like well over a year and a half. like that was just a long running bit COMPLETELY unrelated to thi#i only started having this weird sexuality shift or whatever not too long ago lol. like long enough to go through 4 of the 5 stages of grie#[evidently bc like. im posting this. i got close enough to 5 to throw in the towel ykwim]#but on 'oscar zymstarz emotional acknowledgement' time that is....... not long.#but yeah ig tldr like. still ace [thank god] just arospec [probably demiro? i hate trying to figure out my own labels] instead of Aro now#idk none of this is that deep but also like it kinda is unfortunately bc i have to actually talk abt it to be able to ignore it ykwim#but i did! we're done talking abt it now! and now i can act like i dont care and try to make jokes about it to speedrun the rest of it#anyway. Happy Pride everyone. Fukign kitty.#side message to jem. by no means does this mean im not still gonna bully you. its a sign of love but also it is you specific bullying 🫶#you are not safe#edit: this is karma for saying 'thank god'. might be demiace too. this is the worst month of my life /j
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Hi, don't mind me I just wanted to light @mimiruku up and expose that she is Really Mean to me!!!
THIS BEAST JUST KEEPS GOING???
#nimo's sheeko sheeko time#my vision is blurry cuz I am crying wallahi I am not joking#I AM SHOWING MY SISTERS WHAT IS THIS!!!!!!!!#Wait but what if they bully me too :(#did you know my own hooyo teased me when Jojo did?#like...HOOYO ALWAYS DEFENDS ME WHEN MY SIBS DID IT?#BUT WHEN JOJO DID IT SHE JOINED HER??? HELLO I AM HER BABY GIRL NOT THIS TRIFILING MEANIE#this is also very much how Mimi is to Momo btw should I redraw rhis#i Know i cant bc I'd be crying while drawing
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I'm sorry, I just... had to give y'all a glimpse of what it's actually like
*in medical dramas*
Doctor who never seems to leave patient's general vicinity: His blood pressure's dropping, he's crashing!! *intense music and people rushing around and alarms blaring with fancy disco lights flashing*
*in real life*
Me, minding my own business, hearing an alarm beep to indicate hypotension: *grumbling as I get up for the fifth time to go back into the room and adjust blood pressure IV medication* Gosh darn it Steve stop misbehaving, this is just downright rude.
#random rambles#frickin Steve#always be dropping his BP#the amount of times I've just glared at a monitor to bully their blood pressure back to normal as I wait for the meds to kick in lol#don't get me wrong we have moments where we're a bit more worked up too but like...#not like shows LOL#there was this one time where a nursing student flushed an arterial line while the patient's MAP was 45 and I had doubled the pressors#and I gave a very terse NOT NOW because it made the blood pressure reading disappear#so like... we get serious but... you try not to freak out because it doesn't do you any good#I am so sorry I'll shut up now I promise#this is what happens when someone shows me a medical drama#I am unleashed
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#personal#internets#at this rate I've unfollowed both of the kinda.. 'controvercial' blogs I've been following#since there was a good chunk of actually good takes about how bad media is now and society and braindead internet 'activists' that-#-had it too good in their western countries and NEEDED to invent the reason to bully and excile people#could honestly resonate with it despite some other posts causing genuine pain. but mostly about terribly handled media#like you know that thing when corporations do terrible ass rep to pretend that they care for minorities#or artificially fabricate online backlash against their new actors to show investors that people show interest for their product because-#-of all the clicks on their article?#like discussion of this kind sorta keeps me sober#as a person with BPD I get contaminated by opinions VERY easily and as an autist I will believe everything if it is put together 'logically#that's why I HAVE to be exposed to every possible opinion so I am forced to make out my own rather than being swayed anywhere#but at this point those blog became kinda.. bad? like they don't just have 'opinions' but they hate just to hate#but now my dashboard and recs are full of exclusively things I can fully agree with and I am scared that it will rot my brain#like.. emotions are always the same. where is the 'wait WHAT' effect? where is anger? where is self-reflection?#but ALSO I realized that 'those' blogs are no better than those western 'warriors' I despise and they become narrow-minded too in the end#they advertise themselves as 'open to debate' only to always sway debate into trying to win and not into actually discovering the truth#I cannot trust any side because they're all narrow-minded and hostile but I cannot trust people without any side because-#-they're fence-sitters without morals that side with the winner#is there a secret third thing? like is there a way to not take a side but to still HAVE ideals and opinions?#my problem is that if I am not exposed to people that trash everything I value I forget why AM I valuing [a thing] to BEGIN with#and that won't do will it
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hear me out cause stolitz is like dabitwice but less sad and less evil
emotional - ly unavailable
btw cried making this bc of this song feel free to sob w me because it's so them
#blitz and dabi both have burns too literally the same dynamics#OOO WAIT BOTH HAVE DYSFUNCTIONAL FAMILIES#bully dabi hours apparently gd#finding frames for mha was a PAIN#dabi so emotionally unavailable he physically can't cry and that makes ME cry#to be fair it's actually the burnt tear ducts but SHSHSHSHSHHHHHHHH#this idea makes me so sad cause like if you've seen mha you know what happens#if something similar happens to stolas i will never recover#i'm serious ever since s6 of mha i've been a changed man#uhhhh shit i forgot real tags existed sjhsdh#dabitwice#stolitz#idk if i want to tag much else i'm always so scared about posting across fandoms sjsghskabs#i can't be the only one right?#clouds posts
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Doctor appointment went to go get my shots and.
A. Visual. So you know what I mean by *broadly gesturing to all of me*
^ Immune to disparaging remarks. On account of The Autism.
#sorry this is just funny to me. like oops my bad i was staring!#then i get hit w MY VERY FIRST. ACTUALLY. VERY FIRST. transphobic remark from a stranger at me#and my autistic ass just didn't even process it. already gone.#if i was ever bullied in school i simply did not notice it. this seems to remain true even now.#wait i'm remembering there was another time a woman yelled out her car window @ me but#again. i was in walking to my destination mode. also had my noise cancellers. it SEEMED rude#but i didn't even make out what she was saying. guy who is just walking to his destination.#also realizing the doodle is like. it's a self portrait just for funsies. but literally lowkey#reads like a bad faith alt right meme where it's presenting a caricature of a queer person.#you see what i lack in irl reaction time i make up for by having WAY too much awareness in a deeply online way.#i'm able to see fucked up online shithole shrimp colors and very specific christianity i was raised w shrimp colors.#that's it.#like you could def file the transphobia under either category but i'm talking like reaction time here LMFAOO#put me in a church (please don't.) and i can sniff out the double speak like a cadaver dog.#this does have the natural consequence of never being able to believe that anyone could ever actually like me as i am for who i am though.#sad!#my art
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sometimes u think about that thing ur friend told u when u were 11 and even though you know full well 100% you were actually friends it really does make you question the whole thing
#girlieposting#like you know that thing of wow looking back a lot of my friends were actually bullying me you see online#i know 100% this girl (and everyone else that was there & agreed with her) was actually my friend we were for real friends#but oh my god that was such an insane thing to say to someone#i do think about it sometimes. but this is the first time i'm actually going wait did i just imagine that we were friends#im lying about the sometimes i genuinely think about like... weekly to daily#but you know what. she was right. as awful as it is#she was right.#was just thinking abt it this morning bc i was reading an article abt sa and i was like wow scary world#and the little voice in my head of my childhood friend said not to worry. ur too ugly for anyone to ever want to do that to u.#and i was like oh yeah i'm safe neat
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all I can say is I am really happy to meet him
#to delete later#sorry for babbling in the tags#but i NEED to for a moment#maybe he isn’t the greenest flag#maybe I find a little too much comfort in him for a character I've known for maybe a month#(and I haven't even finished reading sd yet)#but fianlly I don't have to wait a sick amount of chapters/episodes to see him#and it makes me so happy when everyone just appreciates him#like okay he is the mvp of junior high and now he is a little weaker than he was but still has the respect of others#Of course he has his difficult moments but Inoue doesnt intentionally harm him#(I think about one particular author and what he did with my comfort character now :) )#reminds me so much of the second most important boy from my comfort list - just author isnt bullying him#(I found peace)#I have a rule that I add characters to this list after about a year of hyperfixation#but mitsui will probably skip this rule#My yesterday's thoughts but I didnt manage to write it - I just fell from fatigue
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After three years of living alone and cooking for myself I have gone from being scared of being in the kitchen at the same time as my mother used the oven and only making microwave meals because it was too intimidating to actually cook to scraping off fried egg from a pan directly with my nails not ten seconds after turning the fire off because I didn't want to clean it yet but didn't want it to dry either so 1) look at how far we've come 2) new headcanon that Santa burns himself on that grill because after awhile you really do just unlearn a fear for cooking appliances I guess
#still very stupid but my mother also recently literally welded a string of fabric into her finger by accident#because she was just too used to it being part of the process of the thing she was knitting for me#so I'm willing to accept that's just how these things are and you lose common sense with familiarity and it goes well with my headcanons#he was so small when he started to take care of Akane there's no way there wasn't a learning curve and that he didn't get some scars from#doing certain domestic activities badly at first and then from being so used to it that he doesn't take proper care#my roomie has lived on her own and cooking for a lot longer and one of these days I don't remember why#but she was holding a pot fresh off the oven and was like wait is it still hot? and put her hand under it to check#and I was like what?? don't do that!#....and then proceeded to also hold my hand under it to check because something in my brain was like I don't think so but let me see#she bullies me for that to this day <3#Void fala aí
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PokeSonas! I still am not positive what I’m doing with them, but they have cool personalities and capability for story I think!
The Scorbunny is a Scorbunny who’s more into Baseball than Soccer, mostly due to a Pokemon Baseball team he’s obsessed with who’s star player is a Victini. He’s on a Pokemon little league team and dreams of one day being in the pro leagues in Unova and meeting his hero. I dunno who his trainer is, if he has one, or what, but I love the drawing of him in a little hat and kind of want to get commissions of him done.
The Chespin is a knight under the Kalosian Knights, run by Wilkstrom. Despite his small size, he holds up rather well and has advanced beyond most peers his own age in Knight training. He takes it all very seriously, maybe a little too seriously. I could also imagine him as a character in a Mystery Dungeon game where he still takes everything way too seriously. He’d assist in escorts and get really into keeping whoever he’s leading safe, as a knight should for his liege. He’s all about the Knight Life.
I still have no idea what I’m doing with these guys, but I like making ref sheets right now. Might make some more for other’s from the sketch sheet, might not. We’ll see.
#Emile's Arts#Pokesona#Scorbunny and Victini have SUCH close color pallets I ADORE them#I think they should be friends#Originally I was going to do a Chespin X Scorbunny ship where they're on the same Little League Team#but eh. Wilkstrom's way too serious Chespin is cuter to me#I'm kind shipping my Chespin self with Wilkstrom#bUT I'm also waiting for my irl Boyfriend to make HIS Pokesona#Because if it's a Prince type I'm gonna put Chespin with him#Do you all like how instead of the nose patch my Scorbunny has tape on his glasses I thought that was cool just wanted to point it out#ALSO HIS GLASSES ARE VICTINI EYE COLORED#BECAUSE HE'S A SILLY LITTLE FAN BOY#Chespin is only shiny because I vibe with that pallet more it's Autumn-y#pkmn Selfship#Guess who typed the tag wrong the first time dfkgjfdkgjkd#What I REALLY want is to commission some to EVOLVE these guys#Because I could draw myself a bully middle school Raboot easily#but EVERYTHING ELSE is outside my pay grade#I wanna commission someone to turn that little guy into a Chesnaught SO badly
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I haven't looked forwards to a character as much as I've looked forwards to Sunday. I hope he won't disappoint
#He seems potentially so my type and I love the angelic aesthetic#He seems so shady and I love that. Robin does too and I adore that too but I'm afraid of expecting too much haha#Hanabi and Black Swan are interesting in a lore kind of way but I don't like their design at all tbh#Kinda getting tired of the female characters having all the very same look. They are not even from the Xianzhou so there's no excuse#Hanabi is like a mix of Guinaifen and Tingyun come on. And I find the design of Black Swan so boring with the potential her lore had#Skirk kind of situation#Ruan Mei and Dr. Ratio have managed to interest me a lot for what I've seen in leaks#but I hadn't been waiting for them to appear as I've been looking forwards to Sunday#Other than Sunday the character I'm most looking forward to is Firefly. I don't know#I've been digging the dynamic with Blade ever since I first saw leaks about Sam‚even when I thought them seeking death and life respectively#was due to each their different ways of not being fully human with Blade being immortal due to a mistake and Sam being a robot#But now he's an immortal old man seeking death and she's a little dying girl with time against her looking for life‚#both in a way the consequence of an experiment‚ and I find that potential interesting too#Besides I find so endearing and so funny that terrifying imposing Stellaron Hunter Blade is in a group with two young girls#that bully him a bit‚ make fun of him and take his phone. Extremely into how Silver Wolf is protective of him too#In general his dynamic with the Stellaron Hunters is very nice and sweet and intriguing for what I've seen#Abfkabfn I always end up talking about Blade. What I meant is that! I'm really looking forwards to Sunday#He seems extremely Jack-coded in some ways. A bit like Jing Yuan but in some senses More and I love that sort of character#I talk too much
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