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NO NO NO IM SO SCREWED WHY AM I BECOMING OBSESSED WITH EDGAR đđđđ
#HES LITERALLY đđ CANONICALLY INTENTIONALLY WRITTEN TO BE A CRINGE EMO TEENAGER đđđ#WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING đđ#âgreat. now everyone hates me....â#AURYTHDHFHRJFJFNJEKDJFJJRJRJRJRJFJ#bs#brawl stars edgar#brawl Stars#man i.....#âDONT TOUCH MY SCARFâ#âdont touch my tailâ roblox kid vibes...#âdont look at me!â mecore + endermancir#shit#I DONT EVEN HAVE HIM UNLOCKED AS A BRAWLER WTF#edgar
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Oscar đ€ getting penalized after being in the top3
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âThere are thousands of men on those ships. Good, honest, innocent men! Theyâre just following orders.â
imagine the betrayal Erik mustâve felt hearing those words come out of Charlesâ mouth
coming to the conclusion that maybe Charles doesnât understand him, maybe he is really just like the people who turn a blind eye to those who are suffering
that probably gave him the push to send those missiles out towards the ships. no more men following orders to ruin the world
and maybe thatâs why Erik so desperately tried to convince Charles to join him. Maybe thereâs a chance that Charles will understand and will rightfully join him by his side
but he doesnât. Charles doesnât love him. So Erik leaves
#unreliable narrator type shit#itâs all the helmets fault btw#this is how i see Erikâs pov if that wasnât clear#đ#i have the hc Charles doesnât understand social cues and body language all that well#maybe thats why divorce just keeps happening for them is because Erik wont let Charles understand his side of the story properly#need to put them in a psychic link so they can chat properly#aka reading eachothers minds#sighh their healthy communication IS LACKING#anyway iâm not promising i wont yap about the bbc ghosts cherik au today#still looking for someone to help me#HELLO???!!#ANYONE??!#PLEASE???!#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#xmen#professor x#magneto#xmcu#xmen first class#beach divorce#wish does not shut up
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i wish persona 3 and persona 3 portable would understand that if i interact with a child character who is all alone and having issues with family, and i take them to eat food that they don't get to have at home or can't afford, that does not in fact mean that i want to have a romantic relationship with the child
ken and maiko are my adopted little siblings why in gods name would persona 3 creators ever look at them and their traumas and assume the player would want to abuse them đ
#persona 3#p3p#persona 3 portable#WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING#I WANT TO BE THEIR BIG BROTHER AND KEEP THEM SAFE WHO WOULD EVER WANT TO date a CHILD#why would that even be added in đ
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Okay, my brain refuses to think about anything other than Murderbot, so I looked at every use of the word "friend[s]" in TMBD and... created some pie charts. Normal human activities.
Some Thoughtsâą I had while putting this together (under the cut):
In All Systems Red, Murderbot notes that the PresAux crew are all close friends (twice! and goes on to explain their internal relationships which I think is very cute). This is pretty much the only use of 'friends' in ASR, except for when Murderbot says that SecUnits can't be friends with each other.
It seems that this may be one of the first times Murderbot has ever really been around a group of friends before? Murderbot notes that this is not the norm for its contracts and admits that the fact that they are all friends and the way they interact with each other make it actually enjoy that contract (before!!!! the hostile attack, so it already enjoys this contract before they start seeing it as a person etc ghghhhh). [Inference: Friendship seems enjoyable.]
The first character that calls Murderbot its friend is ART in Artificial Condition. Murderbot immediately refutes this (and then goes on to call ART its friend to its clients for the rest of the book). [Inference: Maybe ART is Murderbot's friend. And maybe that is... agreeable]
Rogue Protocol has more than twice as many instances of the word 'friend' as any of the other novellas. Why? Miki. Friendship and its implications for non-humans are a central theme because Miki is friends with everyone. Murderbot initially scoffs at the notion that Miki and Miki's humans are friends. At the end of the book, after witnessing how desperately Don Abene tried to stop Miki from trying to save them, and her grief after its death, Murderbot has to admit that she had in fact been Miki's friend. [Inference: Humans can be friends with bots and can sincerely care about them]
In Exit Strategy, Murderbot tentatively uses the word "friends" for its humans for the first time (several times actually). It questions whether it can actually call them its friends or not and later realizes that it had been afraid what admitting that the humans are its friends would do to it. At the end of the book, Mensah tells Murderbot the PresAux crew are its friends, which is the first time a human has directly said that to it (at least on-page). [Inference: Humans can and want to be Murderbot's friends]
In Network Effect, Murderbot seems to be more habituated to the word 'friend', confidently calling ART and Ratthi its friends, like it is no longer just trying the concept on unsure if it fits. There are many instances in which other characters refer to MB as ART's friend or the other way around and Murderbot's humans refer to Murderbot as their friend several times. Generally, there seems to be less hesitancy, because yes, all of them are Murderbot's friends, why wouldn't they be. [Inference: SecUnits can have friends. This SecUnit has friends. They care about it a lot.]
Conclusion: The Murderbot Diaries tell the story of a construct that does not seem to consider the possibility of friendship for itself and is fine with that - until it accidentally starts caring a little too much and suddenly more and more people annex it as a friend (ew) to the point where it can no longer deny that this is happening and has to begrudgingly admit that yes, it has friends now and maybe that is actually not a bad thing.
#the murderbot diaries#murderbot#đż#hi i'm READY to write a thesis about murderbot i am having way too much fun with this#i created a pretty excel spreadsheet and everything#i don't know why i did this but now i can look at them while i think about this more! so i figured i'd share them haha#i didn't count uses of 'friendly' but special shoutout to when MB is all alone in its cold cubicle missing 20% of its body mass#and starts putting on a show because 'the friendly noise would keep it company' đđ#i feel sick thinking about murderbot all alone on its own not knowing what its like to have friends watching media for 'the friendly noise'#also YES okay i wanted to make a point about miki there but i just#couldn't bring myself to talk about that more so... yeah#also uhhh this data is very subjective#i didn't count particularly ironic uses of 'friend' and generally did not count every instance of friend and sometimes it was a hard call#also i probably shouldn't have counted the times murderbot refered to drones or secsystems as its friends (often after hacking them)#but murderbot does seem to care about them and shows kindness and respect and sometimes points out that a system is friendly#so while i don't think MB means âfriendâ in the same way referring to them as when it refers to ART for instance#i still think its CUTE and also kinda funny how many times that happened so i decided to keep those!!!#but yeah take my data with a grain of salt lol
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About: Part 2
DEVELOPMENT OF THEIR RELATIONSHIP. PATH TO HEALING: part 2
Despite all this tension and mistrust, the next scene is full of gentleness. Aoba is extremely embarrassed and worried that he vomited on Koujaku, staining his kimono. But despite having such an important goal in mind, and the distance heâs causing by not wanting to involve him, taking care of Aoba right now and carrying him back home is more important. Aoba is so worried about having stained his kimono and Koujaku brushes it off, not only that but also uses his sleeve to clean it up. A kimono that signifies his identity, that is reminiscent of his mother, of her nurturing, something so personal.
I feel that after seeing Koujaku leave, Aoba felt especially vulnerable, those feelings of helplessness and neglect, that jealousness, sharpened by his discomfort after the effect of the drugs. So now itâs not only about Koujakuâs care, but also the warmth and affection placed on him that makes him feel better.
The main reason for Aoba's distrust towards Koujaku happens when he discovers the amount of tattoos and scars he had running through his body. The person he shared unique and intimate things with, only for the two of them, was not only leaving him alone but also hiding something from him, and the tattoos only confirmed it. What could be so serious that Koujaku is hiding it from him? Like we said before, it being solely because of the yakuza is kind of unlikely because heâs friendly with Virus and Trip, and you canât possibly compare them to the friendship he has with Koujaku. So the shock mostly comes from feeling like his trust and friendship arenât reciprocated, that he isnât anyone special to him, that Koujaku is pushing him away and doesnât want him by his side, he feels betrayed, lonely, rejected. He put all his trust in him, his hero, but it looks like Koujaku doesnât hold him in high enough regard to confide in him. And so his heart breaks.
If one doesnât trust, the other canât either. Theyâre equals, and one canât be without the other. But now, in a way, Koujaku is leaving him behind, and it could also remind him of how he left when they were children, of his parents, itâs a devastating feeling. Thatâs why he dreams about his childhood, a return to his most comforting memories, in which there was no distance or mistrust, in which Koujaku never pushed him away, rather, he was always with him, searching for him.
Alright, this is completely unnecessary in my opinion. Itâs something so obvious Iâm still surprised to see people reading this the wrong way, so thatâs why I decided to include it. Itâs something so important and shocking that itâs a shame that itâs interpreted in such a wrong way by either extreme censorship (crazy being a dmmd fan) or simple bias, because itâs been something that happens the twelve years the game has been around that people talk about this scene as if this was something that Koujaku ever wanted to happen or had made this decision on his own. Whatâs funny is that this is the usual coming from people who donât like him, but surprisingly enough people that do like him sometimes also agree and then you canât excuse it with rage bait. I really donât understand how this can keep happening because one of the main plots of the entire game that moves the characters to act is precisely the brainwashing and mental manipulation that Toue wants to force on people. Each character has some personal relationship with this and itâs so blatant that I didnât think I would continue to see these kinds of conclusions to this day and age.
Itâs raining, Aoba returns to Glitter and a little while later Koujaku arrives too, soaked from head to toe and with a grim face. Although Aoba isnât sure who he is referring to, because he doesnât know the danger he entails, we know perfectly well that heâs pissed off because he saw him talking to Ryuuhou. During the conversation Aoba notices he was looking at something behind him, all that happens here goes exactly as the tattoo artist wanted, itâs all part of his plan, of his manipulation. Like we said before, rain is representative of the dragon's influence.
Somehow, what Koujaku is feeling now is the same thing Aoba has been feeling when he saw him leave. Anger, jealousy, disappointment and betrayal. He has seen the person he loves talking to his worst nightmare personified, the person he was looking for with the intention of killing him. His emotions are already unstable, but seeing them together upsets him so much that heâs no longer in full use of his faculties, with the tattoo consuming him, only managing to get angrier and angrier until he throws Aoba to the bed. First thing he does is to bite him, because itâs like heâs marking him as his in some way, like territory. His tattoos take over his body, over his feelings, and externalizes them in the worst way.
Heâs becoming more and more irrational. Before he had a serious face, but now heâs getting angrier and angrier. This scene isnât supposed to be hot (unless youâre into noncon lmao), itâs a scene where theyâre pushing their relationship to the edge of a cliff, to a point of no return, these are the consequences and they either act now or theyâll be broken forever. Thereâs no need to have the full rape package because the point has already been made. It would just be for the sake of making the trauma more painful just for the kink and it just doesnât fit. Considering how fast the entire story develops, the whole âAoba forgives Koujakuâ arc in order to have a good ending, it would probably feel empty and weightless.
I get the feeling that since Koujaku can still talk here, unlike the bad ending, people see it as if heâs actively controlling his body and just letting his anger peek (at most, heâd be only partially controlling it with the influence of the tattoo, or heâd be seeing it in âthird personâ, kind of like how Aoba can remember a bit of his life when Sly was controlling their body, but itâs not him). Itâs pretty obvious that heâs not listening to Aoba, not only he doesnât stop until he uses his power, he doesnât answer his questions about what the hell he was talking about either. Heâs not being rational, he just keeps repeating the same thing over and over until he canât talk anymore. (His tattoo doesnât need to be mature to do tremendous damage to his loved ones, to be honest no wonder he wanted to kill himself after this lol).
In the confession scene he also mentions that he vaguely remembers touching Aoba in this scene, the translations are actually a bit confusing because some suggest that Koujaku basically says that he liked how it felt even though he felt sorry about it being non-consensual, and others have a more reasonable answer where he says something like âI kind of remember what happened and I could only wish it was differentâ. I honestly lean towards the second one, because the first translation, which I think is the most popular one, already had several mistakes or slightly confusing translations and this one would be no exception, the implications are different. Honestly, just one more reason why I wished he would just say that he remembered literally making out with him in Scrap because this part only helps people to put the blame directly on him as if he had ever wanted that in the first place.
I need people to understand that the berserk form, beast Koujaku, whatever you wanna call it, is the same to Koujaku as Sly is to Aoba. They are forces of destruction that desire death and violence, with some kind of supernatural focus, beast Koujaku based on pure instinct, and Sly in a more sadistic way, consciously doing harm. You canât expect any morality from them, and especially not from a beast. When Sly is in control, Aoba still remembers things that happen and vice versa. Koujaku remembering parts of what happens isnât new and it doesnât mean he was in control, period. I donât see people blaming Aoba for what Sly does, so why would he be blamed for this? Even Aoba himself straight up tells you itâs not the same person, itâs impossible to know the tattoo exists and still thinking that this is somehow voluntary.
Iâve also seen people say that for some reason Koujaku fans just ignore this scene, as if we wanted to ignore anything slightly problematic or hinting at this being part of Koujakuâs personality in some shape or form, like we canât stand the âfactâ that he has any hint of malice in him and we donât acknowledge it because weâre in a bubble dream world and it couldnât be a worse misreading of the entire character. I canât believe that it came from someone who liked Koujaku because it feels so disrespectful to him, to his story and who he is, basically all weâve talked about so far. One thing is to have hcs and the other is to treat it as the canon truth and disrespect others because they donât share those hcs that are pretty much incompatible with the character. Besides, Iâm sorry, what else should we be talking about? They talk like this could happen in any other situation, and no. It wouldnât because Koujaku didnât choose this. They truly believe that a character who doesnât have malice for some reason is a character without flaws or imperfections, and if they like this character it must be because thereâs something bad in him that makes him a grey character, so they can keep enjoying their edginess. Got the wrong character, Koujakuâs imperfections and âimpuritiesâ are far apart from that selfish facet they wanted to give him. His lack of communication and his self destructive careless attitude of carrying everything on his own, the way he behaves giving less importance to himself and his inability to break the cycle by not relying on someone else are what builds him. If anything, being more selfish is what he needs, to be honest. Bad things can happen even if the intentions are good, it's a good natured character with nuances and flaws, to put it simple. And the good thing about Koujaku and Aoba is just how versatile they are, you can almost go with anything in your fiction and you'll probably find details and nuances about their characters that you can include there so it still feels like them, while separating from the strictly canon and exploring your own ideas.
I've mentioned this before on my Twitter account, long time ago. I personally wish theyâd left more time to develop the feelings after this part of Glitter because Aoba immediately leaves and gets drugged by Ryuuhou. Same story, everything in the game happens really fast. With that in mind I think itâs fair to not take it too much into account, like many other things, and just imagine what would happen and thatâs it. Because itâs true that they talk about it a bit, but then move on to something else right away and thereâs no processing of what happened, the scene doesnât feel as heavy as it should, like âWell, that just happenedâ. Itâs the ultimate act of betrayal for godâs sake.
Ren recognizing Beniâs wingsâ flapping like there arenât a hundred other bird allmates that do the same sound will never not be iconic, truly an old man yaoi moment.
#dmmd#koujaku#aoba seragaki#dramatical murder#aoba#kouao#koujaku dmmd#slyjaku#sly blue#essay#you know. irl too. you're seeing things under one single perspective. and you might have a perception of someone or something very differen#from reality because you don't know what's going on through the other's person mind. communication is key. again#people might not even realize if they're doing something wrong and if you keep that to yourself there won't be a possibility of that person#changing their actions. and stop hurting you. if the other person cares they'll change. or make the attempt at least. not everything goes#smoothly i suppose#so comparing this to the game. we're seeing things under our/aoba's perspective. so Koujaku's actions just seem insane and selfish. but it#happens because Koujaku thinks it's the best so the least amount of people get involved and possibly hurt. He doesn't have bad intentions#but his actions end up having terrible consequences. which is so tasteful and doomed :) Anyway. we don't understand why he does it and the#way he does it until we learn the entire truth. when we communicate is when we can solve the problems#idk if I explained myself correctly cuz i lost track of what i wanted to say đ
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#why does this keep happening đ#IM NOT COMPLAINING THO KEEP IT UP. ITS RLLY FUNNY#lego monkie kid#monkie kid#shadowpeach#sun wukong#six eared macaque#đâïž
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Chat I may be cursed. Or jinxed. Or both
I love Daisuke, he died
Kawashima? DIED
Genloss ranboo? DEAD AS HELL
Today I played Watchdogs 2 with my bro. And I went "yo Horatio is so cool"
AND APPARENTLY HE'S GOING TO DIE TOO
To make matters worse?
Technoblade, a YouTuber I loved a lot. HE LITERALLY PASSED TOOđ
WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON CHAT AM I COOKED??!!
#aqua's babblings#mouthwashing#mw#daisuke#mouthwashing daisuke#pulse 2001#ryosuke kawashima#generation loss#genloss ranboo#ranboo#technoblade#watch dogs 2#horatio carlin#WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING#đđđ
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shout out to my favorite bsd official art ever. everything about this image so perfectly represents their relationship. dazai nor oda are my favorite characters or even close to it, but for some reason, when they are together in scenes, they shoot up in my mind. then we get this art and UGH. please for the love of god somebody execute me
#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd oda#bsd odasaku#bsd dazai#bsd dark era#the day i picked up dazai#oda sakunosuke#oda#odasaku#dazai#dazai osamu#osamu dazai#dazai and odasaku#odasaku and dazai#WHY ARE THEY SO TRAGIC#WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING TO ME#anyway strictly platonic#i cant ship them if they constantly look like father/brother and child đ#better as friends imo actually#even if they were the same age
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i have. become a benji/brandt enthusiast. be forewarned
#hrrrngnggggg#and there is ONE total fic for themđ#why does this keep happening to me first benji/luther and now this :(#god i have to fix this theyâre making me insane#mission impossible#benji/brandt
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Were the DMD boys ever witnesses to a baby's firsts? Like first words or first steps?
Superstar Shopping Center, circa 1977
âDid you need help with that?â
Sun moseys up to a mother who looks like sheâs got her hands full â literally. Four shopping bags balanced on one arm and a baby in the other. A second child â five or six, if he had to guess â clings to the tail of her motherâs jacket in lieu of a free hand, dressed in her Sunday Best. She ducks behind her motherâs arm as Sun nears and addresses him with a look tied between awe and apprehension.
Contrarily, her mother regards Sun with nothing but relief, handing over all but one of her bags the moment his hands extend to take them. âWell, thank you!â She reorients the remaining bag to sit at her elbow so the little girl at her side has a proper handhold and gently scolds her for continuing to hide.
âItâs quite alright,â Sun assures her with a kind smile. He crouches to be more at eye-level with the child and offers her a little wave, taking no offense to the way she peeks only slightly out from behind her mother. âThatâs a very pretty dress,â he says. Itâs a Carter's collared plaid, Christmas-time red, with a white dog-eared collar and rabbit embroidery. Perfectly suited for the season. âAre you headed somewhere special?â
âJust down to Shutterbug,â the mother laughs, answering Sunâs question when her daughter doesnât budge. âI know itâs still early in the season, but I have an endless list of things to get around to before the monthâs end, so weâre just going to get our photos done now, and the family will just receive their cards a little early, this year.â
âOh, certainly,â he nods sagely, as if heâs even once sent a Christmas card himself, âbetter to get it over and done with before everyone and their mother realizes theyâve forgotten to sign and seal their envelopes!â
âExactly!â She laughs again. âI figure, well, I might as well get some gift shopping done since Iâm already here, butââ
Right on cue, the infant in her arms begins to wail his poor little head off, and she grimaces.
âFinding it hard to get anything done with your hands full?â Sun asks, waiting for her nod before continuing. âWell, thatâs nothing I canât fix! I could carry your other bags for you, orââ
âCould you babysit?â
He straightens with a jolt, nearly dropping the bags he already carried in the process. âOh! Well, um, company policy doesnât exactly allow me toââ
âIt would just be for a few minutes. An hour, at most.â She gives him a pleading look. âYouâre coded with childcare protocols, arenât you?â
âIââ Sun scrambles for an answer. âMy training extends to some childcare etiquette, butââ
âPerfect!â She lofts the infant into his arms like he is nothing more than a small sack of potatoes. âThis is George. Heâs nine months old as of last week, was just changed, and ate an hour ago, so he should be an angel for you.â
âW-What about his shoes?â He tucks the child against his shoulder and gestures worriedly towards his itty little toes, clothed in nothing but the navy blue footie he wears.
âOh, donât be silly, heâs still too young!â The woman insists, âGeorge has only just learned how to crawl, I doubt heâll be walking any time soon. You have nothing to worry about!â
âButââ
âIâll come find you in an hour when Iâm all finished up. Thank you again!â
The mother turns on her heel like sheâs being chased out by fire, leaving Sun there in the center of the mall aisle, still as a statue and stunned into silence.
There was a kernel of truth to his words. Both he and Moon had been programmed with the know-how in terms of child rearing basics, and in fact it was the very first frame of coding that he recalls having. For what purpose, he isnât sure. It has lied dormant beneath layers of more relevant protocols for years and only ever makes an appearance when heâs interacting with the few children the mall sees from time to time. Even still, it is nothing in the way of proper training for how to care for an infant so small, and for so long.
Needless to say, he was panicking.
The first thing he does after quieting the infantâs cries is find another employee and hand off the bags, instructing them to be brought to Shutterbug and kept behind the desk for the time being.
With his hands freed he can focus all of his attention on the child who, for what itâs worth, has been a perfect angel in the short time since he was haphazardly carted into Sunâs arms. Quiet as a church mouse after that first little outburst, and just as cute, too, the little bundle of joy looking up at him with big brown eyes full of wonder.
Sun returns his gaze with a long sigh. âNow then, what are we going to do with you?â
The protocols that once were dormant now rose to the surface and screamed at him to engage the child in âstimulating activitiesâ, whatever that meant. Instructions for playtime involved everything from games like peekaboo and patty-cake to more developmental activities, such as playing music, coloring, or toying with building blocks. Sun doubted that Bee Geesâ hit single âStayinâ Aliveâ was anything in the way of educational for the tiny tot as it played over the speakers, and â to the best of his knowledge â he canât recall ever having access to building blocks or coloring books. That left nothing but the traditional baby games, tried and true, and easy enough!
He borrows a small blanket from a store nearby and finds a cozy spot on the floor, tucked safely between two plant boxes, to set him down. Sun finds that playing these games comes almost naturally to him â but thatâs a given, isnât it? He follows the instruction manual in his code to the letter, pride and joy overwhelming his stint of uncertainty each time he comes out from hiding behind his hands to the sound of shrill laughter, every âPeek-a-boo!â earning him a motley of giggles and a baby-toothed smile.
Distraction arrives in the form of an employee struggling to carry a stack of boxes into the store behind him. Heâs on his feet and across the room in an instant as one protocol briefly overrides the other, and itâs only for a moment â just a moment â but when he turns around again it is to the sight of an empty blanket.
His charge has gone missing.
Panic overwhelms every one of his sensors, rushing along his circuits like adrenaline through veins gripping him with a fear so potent it threatens to shut down his system right then and there.
No, think! His mother said he had only just learned to crawl, which meant little George couldnât have gone far. Unless the infant hadnât gone anywhere by himself at all, and rather, someone had come along andâ
Sun shut down that train of thought the moment it struck him. He would never forgive himself if something so terrible happened on his watch, saying nothing of what management would do to him if a child was abducted right from under his nose.
He decides the best course of action right now is to follow the same protocol he would use for any other âlostâ child. Yes, lost, thatâs all they were. Itâs so easy to get lost in a mall as large as this one. Sun comforts himself with the knowledge that he has never let a lost child go unfound before. His success rate is a perfect 100%, and he intends to keep it that way.
First, he scans the security cameras for any sight of the child. He is sure to look in every nook and cranny, and he deflates with growing dread when that little navy footie doesnât appear anywhere on the screens. His voice cuts through the employee radio a moment later and describes the child with every possible detail he can think of, asking that any sighting of the little straggler be reported to him immediately. He hopes against every star in the sky that the mother doesnât happen to overhear from an employee nearby.
Lastly, he heads out in search of help.
Moon is meant to be working on the upper floor today, helping Sun handle the usual holiday rush, and his lack of response to the radio call is concerning. Not too concerning, though, given that Sun finds him right where heâd been expecting to.
That is, sprawled atop the lockers in the employee break room, one arm dangling over the side, the other resting casually over his waist, and a VOGUE magazine draped over his face.
âLazyâ doesnât even scratch the surface of the words Sun wants to use. Theyâve talked about this, the bad habit having put Moon in trouble a number of times already, but thatâs an argument for another day.
Thereâs no time to mince words right now, and so he doesnât. Instead, Sun stalks across the room and slams his fist against the lockers beneath his sleeping coworker, who sits upright with such force that his head makes contact with the ceiling and crashes through like a train into glass.
It might have been funny if Sun wasnât as whipped up into a panic as he is, but as it stands he can hardly even keep from raising his voice when he addresses Moon with a scowl. âGood morning, sleeping beauty,â Sun hisses, arms crossed, foot tapping impatiently. âI take it you didnât hear my radio call?â
Moon serves him with a glower of his own, snarling deep within his voicebox as he runs his hand over the glassy side of his faceplate to ensure that itâs still intact. He has the decency to look a little guilty, if only for a moment, cerulean blue eyes lowering to the radio attached at his hip that is visibly turned to OFF.
âOf course not,â Sun tuts.
Griping, Moon dusts the ceiling powder from his shoulders. âWhat could be so important that you had toââ
âI lost a baby.â
The words render him speechless, a long, uncomfortable silence taking up the space between them for all of a minute before Moon blurts out, âSun, you donât have a baby.â
âThatâs because I lost him!â Sun shrills, beginning to pace. âI was helping a mother with her bags, and she asked me to babysit, a-and I know we arenât technically allowed to, butâ but it all just happened so fast!â His arms flailed for emphasis. âShe said he wasnât even walking yet, I thought itâd be easy! Everything was going so well, too, we were playing a game of peek-a-boo and then â then someone needed help. I only had my back turned for a minute, Moon. Maybe even less! But then I turned around, andâŠâ
âYou lost a baby,â he mutters to himself. Moon runs both hands over his face, sighing into his palms. âYou lost a baby,â he repeats. âHow do you lose an entire child?â
âI donât know!â Sun answers, voice cracking with guilt. âWill you help me find them?â
âObviously.â Moon hops down from the lockers (pointedly ignoring the massive hole in the ceiling â heâd come up with an excuse to tell management later) and is already crossing the room when he speaks again. âManagement will take it out on both of us if they find out, so you need to get a grip. Your face looks like you just watched someone plummet to their death, for fucksâs sake.â He pauses at the door. âDid you get a scan of their face?â
âO-Of course!â
âGood. Transfer the image to me along with any other information that might be helpful. Iâll search the exits, you take the first story department stores.â
âWhat about the second floor?â
He fits him with a quizzical expression, going as far as to form an eyebrow with the stars on his faceplate screen and arch it pointedly. âYou said this kid wasnât walking yet,â Moon reminds him. âIf someone ânapped the little guy, they arenât going to stick around, much less be caught shopping. Theyâll head for the exits, first.â
âI guess thatâs trueâŠâ
âAnd if you just coincidentally happened to have been babysitting the worldâs fastest crawler, they would still be stuck on the first floor,â he continues, âwhich is why weâre checking there first.â
âRight. Right. Youâre right.â Sunâs nod is shaky at best. His hands wring together with a tension that threatens to pop the joints out of place with each anxious tug.
Moon sighs and crosses the room again to place a hand on Sunâs shoulder. âWeâll find him,â he comforts, giving the shoulder a gentle squeeze, âbut we need to go now. You wonât fix anything by standing here worrying.â
âRight,â he repeats, working to smother his nerves for the sake of focusing on the task at hand. âYou check the exits, Iâll check the department stores. Weâll meet up at the fountain in thirty minutes if neither of us find anything?â
âTen minutes,â Moon asserts. He wastes no further time, leaving Sun with only that and a firm nod before pacing out of the room.
Sun hopes they arenât already too late.
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Their search yields nothing but more disappointment. Ten painfully long minutes of searching that ends with them meeting at the fountain equally empty handed and with no further leads.
âWeâre too late,â wails Sun, already catastrophizing. âHow am I going to explain this to their mother? Sheâll never forgive me, Iâll never forgive meââ His fingers hook around the rays beside his chin, the thin metal groaning beneath the force and threatening to snap right then and there, ââand management â stars, Moon, weâre going to be dismantled over this!â
âLower your voice!â Moon snaps. He looks around, ensuring that that their crime â Sunâs crime â hasnât been overheard. Luckily, it appears the fountain has drowned out their conversation sufficiently. âYou need to calm down,â he continues. âIâm sure theyâre somewhere around here.â
âWeâve checked everywhere!â His left ray bends under the pressure, molding to the shape of his fingers, slowly but surely. âI should have never let this happen. What was I thinking, turning my back on them? Now theyâre all alone, o-or hurt, somewhere, orââ
âHey, hey.â Moon takes him by the wrist, careful yet firm as he pries Sunâs fingers away from his mangled ray then holds his hand at a distance, so he canât hurt himself further. âYou made a mistake,â he agrees, âbut itâs not fair to hold all of that blame yourself. You have no frame of reference for this sort of thing, we arenât meant to be taking care of children in the first place.â
âI should have known better!â Sun insists. âHow can I be expected to run a daycare if I canât even look after one kid?â
Moon freezes, his optics flickering in a blink. âWeââ slowly, he releases Sunâs wrist, ââwe arenât a daycare, Sun. Weâre a mall. AreâŠare you feeling okay?â
âIâŠâ Alarms and notices flood his screen, blocking Moon from view. Corroded files long since forgotten behind firewalls and newly instated protocols. He looks for answers in their overwhelming code and finds nothing but more questions; a lingering sense of awareness always just out of his reach. Then theyâre gone, swept away all at once as his system tidies itself up, and he can think clearly again. âWeâre in a mall,â he echoes, nodding to himself, âwe run a mall. Weâre mascots, not â notââ He faces Moon with a calmer disposition, forcing a smile, âIâm alright, now.â
âI always preferred the term Icon,â says Moon, ââmascotâ makes us sound like those people in animal suits waving around signs outside of businesses.â He laughs, and Sun laughs, too, but itâs strained. âAre you sure youâre okay?â
He sighs with the last crumb of uncertainty. âIâm fine, justâŠconfused, I guess. I think the anxiety is getting to me.â When he straightens again itâs with newfound gusto, a determination to make things right. âNone of our employees have reported seeing anyone carting off with a baby that fits Georgeâs description, so he must still be here. Do you want to try the second floor after all?â
âI guess itâs worth a shot,â says Moon. He takes another look around, eyes scanning the area for any possible lead, until his star-studded eyebrow arches downward. âYou said he was wearing a blue footie?â
âNavy blue,â Sun nods his confirmation, âwith a little white pocket on the front.â
âLike that?â
He follows Moonâs point all the way to the escalator, where good olâ George is sat, halfway up to the second story, already, suckling at his thumb like this is any other Tuesday.
âThatâsââ Sun feels like heâs going to scream, âthatâs him!â
âHuh. Baby on an escalator,â he mutters inquisitively. âNever seen that before.â
âMoon!â
Not wanting to risk any more dillydallying, Sun rushes past him and beelines through the crowd, anxiety pulsing through him tenfold as he gets caught up in a group of customers gathered on the escalator themselves.
Moon takes an alternative route, opting to skip the escalator steps all together. Instead he leaps directly onto the handrail, steady and practiced, and carefully avoids his customerâs fingers as he races upward.
Sun meets him at the top an excruciating few seconds after and feels his composure slip further upon seeing him empty handed. âWhereâ?â
âI donât know,â Moon interrupts, looking just as confused. âHe was already gone when I got up here.â
âSeriously?â He braces both palms across his arms, hugging himself tightly so he doesnât just rip out his rays all together. âHeâs a baby, for Peteâs sake. How far could he have gone? How does this keep happening?â
âThere!â Moon points a little ways off, where little George â somehow, someway â is spotted riding a runaway janitorâs cart, its wheels spiraling uncontrollably forward and headed straight for the wall.
âStop that cart!â Shrieks Sun, already halfway across the room and hot on the cartâs tail.
The crowd is thick, clusters of customers all aiming to get their holiday shopping in before the real chaos begins, and it makes the already out of hand situation that much harder.
Sun hears the crash before he sees it, and feels his battery operated heart sink. The sight heâs met with upon finally reaching the end of the balcony is disastrous at best. The cart rests in a broken mess on the floor, having evidently bounced into a pair of trash cans rather than collide with the wall. One of said cans has toppled onto its side from the impact, and the trail of garbage leading out of it paints a perplexing picture.
Moon catches up with him a minute later, fans whirring like heâs out of breath. âIs heââ
âGone,â Sun answers, aghast. He points to the breadcrumbs (literally) that trail out of the toppled can. âI think he fell into the garbage.â
âWell, thatâs better than the wall,â hums Moon. âMaybe it cushioned his fall? And then the trashcan fell overâŠâ he trails off.
âAnd he justâŠcrawled out?â Sun finishes the thought, then raises his chin. The two share a dumbfounded expression.
âSun, what kind of mutant child did you agree to babysit?â
âDonât be rude!â He chastises. âGeorge is justâŠspecial.â
âYeah, specially designed to outwit us. They should have called him Curious George.â His eye follows the garbage trail until it peters out a few feet down. âWhere do you suppose he went now?â
âYour guess is as good as mine,â Sun groans. âShould we split up?â
âGood idea. You take the east wing, Iâll go west. Reconvene in thirty minutes?â
âTen,ââ corrects Sun, grimacing at the deja vu. âHis mother promised an hour, and itâs already been over half of that. If we canât find him in ten minutes, then we - weââ
âWe are going to find him,â Moon assures, bolstering Sunâs confidence as best as he can. âWe just need to focus, alright? No more running around like chickens with our heads cut off.â
Sun nods his agreement. âRight, okay. Youâre right. I wonât let a baby run me in circles around my own mall.â His frazzled expressions calms, at that, and he smiles. âJust a nine-month infant who crawls a little faster than normal, thatâs all he is. Easy peasy!â
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What happens next is neither easy nor peasy. In fact, calling it ârunning circlesâ is an understatement. In the next ten minutes alone, little George sends both of them out on nothing short of a wild goose chase, appearing in nigh impossible positions each and every time and always just out their grasp.
Sun is the first to find him. Tucked into the one corner of a store that the cameras donât reach, donning a pair of sunglasses of all things (upside-down, mind you), and playing with a silicone whisk from the kitchenware section. Sun is only a short distance away when a customer taps him on the shoulder and asks where they can find the bathroom. Of course, the little tot is already gone when he turns back around.
A few meters down, Moon discovers some discarded sunglasses on the floor. He spots a familiar pair of white padded feet a moment later and finds George climbing the side of an information kiosk. The employee inside is busy with a customer and doesnât even notice the little rascal scaling the grounded kiosk sign like he was born to climb Everest. They notice Moon, though, and are all too eager to introduce one of the mallâs very own mascots to the customer who is, apparently, visiting for the very first time. Itâs all Moon can do just to act polite in front of the woman as his guest-orientation protocols take over, keeping him paralyzed there even as the infant merrily drops from the sign and disappears from his sight.
Five minutes later Sun hears a shrill of laughter and turns around a corner to see George playing in the plant trough like itâs a sandbox, his navy footie all but smothered in dirt. An internal scream rips silently through his system as he grapples with the knowledge that heâs now going to get an earful even if he does successfully get his hands on the kid.
True to character, George is nowhere to be found when Sun winds up in front of the planter. He calms his nerves and protocols alike by fixing the poor flowers back into their proper position from where they had been carelessly plucked out and thrown aside. He knows thereâs no saving a few of them, and heâll need to reorder more seeds to make up for it, but thatâs a headache for another day.
The current source of his vexation appears to have shown some mercy, at least. Sun finds a trail of muddy footprints leading out of the trough and down the aisle. An employee glances up from their storefront desk upon seeing him and points to the right, towards the candy store, knowing exactly what he was looking for, already. For the life of him, Sun cannot understand why they â or anyone else for that matter â hasnât thought to stop the runaway infant. Apparently, a nine month old crawling around without parental supervision is nothing to bat an eye at to anyone in the mallâs entire vicinity.
Moon is passing by Waning Lights theater when he hears a small commotion inside. On a hunch he peeks in, expecting nothing in particular, and instead sees two enormous baby hands covering the screen. That is, two very small baby hands waving in front of the projector.
Heâs up the steps in a matter of seconds, mechanics racing with the adrenaline of having finally caught the little devil, only â of course â the little hands have already disappeared, and the seat is empty, leaving only a confused employee where he once was. âYouâre jokingâŠâ Moon whispers, exhausted. An already irritated customer shushes him from somewhere downstage. Distantly, he hears the telltale sound of infant babbling and begrudgingly follows it out of the theater again.
He bursts through the door and right into Sun, colliding with a loud clatter of metal and recoiling, each holding their heads respectively and groaning in perfect unison.
âDid you find him?â Sun asks around a wince.
âTechnically yes, butââ
âHe got away from you too?â
Moon nods. âWhat is it with this kid?â
âI donât know, but we need to figure out a different plan soon. Weâre already over our ten minutes.â He looks around once more for good measure, knowing the child couldnât have gone too far, already, if they had both just spotted him a moment ago.
Thatâs when he sees it. Little George, nine months old, walking down the balcony aisle. Rather, the little tike is running like heâs off to the races.
âWell, that explains why heâs been able to get everywhere so fast,â says Moon, following Sunâs gaze. âI thought you said he was only starting to crawl?â
âHeâs, um, a fast learner?â Sun answers sheepishly. He watches George go for all of one long, lovestruck moment â feeling like a proud parent himself â before the swell of pride in his chest shatters to make way for circuit frying terror.
See, little George has shown himself to be quite the impressive little acrobat. He can walk, he can run, he can climb, and at that very moment he is making quick work of closing the distance between himself and a stack of boxes pressed up against the balcony railing.
The only thing awaiting him on the other side is a long, long fall.
Sun darts forward without a word, but Moon is faster, weaving through the crowd with a nimble speed that he cannot compete with. âWe arenât going to make it,â Sun gasps, announcing it to himself, mostly, as horror grips him throughout. Even if they reach the railing on time, George is already at the top of the stack, raising himself onto unsteady feet and peering out into the great beyond. Heâll be over the edge before they can stop him, and they wonât make it to the first floor on time to catch him there.
But then Sun hears it; the whir of a wire, quick and sturdy as it races through its ceiling track to Moonâs beck and call. He watches its metal hook begin to lower from a few paces away, just as the infant topples up and over, and his body seizes with fear as Moon leaps over the railing after him.
He hears a click, the wire latching out of sight, going taut. Sun holds his breath until the sound of giggling follows. Peering warily over the railing, hands shaking, he sees Moon dangling halfway to the floor. Little George bounces in his arms, clapping and cheering and laughing away like this is all just another game.
Moon lowers himself the remaining distance to the floor as Sun scrambles down the elevator to meet him. He looks rightfully shaken, his faceplate screen blank of even stars, but his grip remains persistent. Heâs not going to risk putting the kid down for a moment, even if he feels like heâs going to bluescreen any second now. Their landing is celebrated with the undeniable sound of George taking the worldâs largest shit, and though Moon wants to be angry, all he manages to come up with in response is âMe too, kid.â
A voice calls over their internal radios right as Sunâs feet hit the floor.
âCan someone ring the mascots?â Asks the employee, âIâm stationed at Shutterbug with a customer and she says they have her babyâŠ?â
âIâm on my way!â Sun answers the radio aloud. He takes the baby from Moon, who extends George to him from a distance, grateful â now more than ever â for their ability to turn off their nose receptors.
âWhat about the footie?â Moon gestures to the dirt-soaked clothes once his hands are free. âI donât think sheâs going to be happy if heâs brought back all dirty â or naked. That might be worse.â
On a whim, Sun turns George over to check the footieâs tag. Relief floods his system when he reads the name. âWe carry this brand â Iâll bet anything that we have this exact footie somewhere in the store. Can you go find it?â He makes a face and turns his own nose receptors off a moment after. âMaybe a pack of diapers, too,â he laughs. âOh! Can you also pick up a rabbit from Fluff-&-Stuff?â
âWhat about you?â
âIâm headed to the bathrooms so I can clean the little guy up.â He holds George up, then, wielding him like a stinky little weapon. âUnless you want to try changing a diaper?â
âNavy blue footie with a white pocket, got it,â answers Moon, already turning on his heel and heading in the opposite direction.
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Ten minutes later, Sun exits the bathroom feeling like a brand new person. A scarred, mortified person, but new all the same. Who knew baby poop could be so traumatizing?
Moon had returned a moment before, toting with him the items that Sun had requested, and together they figured out how to dress the freshly cleaned child in a new diaper. Whoever said it wasnât rocket science was right. It was somehow worse. Still, they persevered, and at the end of it all they had a clean, happy, freshly diapered baby to show for their efforts. Now it was just a matter of delivering him back to his mother.
âWhy did you want the rabbit?â Moon asks as he trades over the stuffed animal, happy to hold little George now that the little tike isnât a stink grenade.
âYouâll see,â answers Sun, refusing to elaborate. He rounds the corner with Moon following at his heel and steps into Shutterbug, greeting the mother with his best customer-pleasing smile. âSo sorry for the wait, maâam. George here had a bit of an accident on our way back.â
The woman tuts guilty, but is happy to see them all the same. âOh, goodness, how embarrassing. I can pay for the diapers you used.â
âNonsense!â He tells her with a casual wave of his hand, âWeâre happy to lend a hand, and itâs not like the little guy could help himself.â
âYouâre a sweetheart,â she smiles. âAnd he behaved for you, otherwise?â
Sun glances over his shoulder at Moon, and the two share a look.
Nodding, Moon steps forward and hands the child over when his mother extends her arms for him. âHe was an angel,â Moon tells her.
They had both already agreed to keep their mouths shut on the entire ordeal, including and up to Georgeâs newfound capabilities. Aside from how much trouble they would both find themselves in if anyone ever found out about the chase this single child had put them through, it simply wasnât their place to mention it. Sun, especially, didnât want to take away that special moment when his mother rightfully deserved to have it to herself.
âWell, Iâm glad to hear it,â she sighs with relief. âThank you again for watching her. You two are a real blessing, you know that? I wouldnât have been able to get all my ducks in a row without your help.â
âAnytime!â Sun answers. He spots a plaid dress hiding behind her, and lowers himself into a crouch. âHello, again,â he calls to the little girl using his kindest voice, and extends the stuffed rabbit for her to take. âI noticed you had some bunnies on your dress, so I thought you might like this.â
Behind him, Moon relaxes into a fond smile.
âThatâs very kind of you,â says her mother, who nudges her forward gently. âGo on, itâs okay,â she reassures her. âItâs a gift.â
The child hesitant, but eventually she peeks out from behind her mother just enough to take the offered rabbit, which she tucks against her chest in a great, big hug. âThâŠThank you,â she whispers. Then, feeling brave, she rewards him with a gap-toothed smile.
Moon clears his voice-box. âWell, we should let you get to it,â he says, full-well knowing that Sun would stay here cooing at the children all day if he let him.
And Sun, for what itâs worth, knows exactly what the vocal nudge means, and detaches himself from the family with a wave and some merry goodbyes before the two of them depart together.
âThat was sweet of you,â Moon comments once theyâre out of earshot. âYou arenât hoping for kids of our own, are you? I donât think Iâm ready for that level of commitment.â He elbows Sun with a smile, getting a hearty laugh out of him.
âMoon, Iâll be honest. I will be the happiest bot in the world if I never have to change another diaper again.â This time itâs Moonâs turn to laugh, and he laughs until his vocals strain with effort. âBut, you know, it wasnât too bad. Taking care of a baby, I mean. I think we make a pretty good team â and decent parents.â
âIâm the better parent,â Moon says around a wide grin. âYouâre too much of a stick in the mud.â
âAnd youâre too spoiling!â Sun laughs, âDonât think I havenât seen you giving out candy to the kids that sneak off without their parents.â
âIâm teaching a valuable lesson,â Moon insists, hand flying over his heart like heâs offended by the notion. âIf parents want to leave their children unattended, they have to face the consequences. It wonât be me dealing with the inevitable sugar rush.â
A gasp in the distance interrupts their playful bickering. They turn halfway, back towards Shutterbug.Â
âDid you see that?â Chirps the mother, loud and clear. Her giddy voice followed immediately by the shutter of a camera. âLook â look! Heâs walking!â
Again, the two share a look. Surprise becomes amusement becomes pride, then joy, and they laugh, and laugh, and laugh.
#dead mall dare au#if anyone wonders how long i hoard asks for#this particular ask is from a YEAR ago#i'm so sorry Star đ i didn't mean for it to take so long#or for it to BE this long. frankly#it was supposed to be a small drabble. 1k words at most#why does this keep happening to me#um um anyway hope you enjoy!!#there's actually a crumb of DEEP lore in this one#just a crumb though#i need to answer the other dmd asks but. Tomorrow
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I need a good drastoria fic I'm actually going to die I'm being starved of them I want to consume them so bad but there's NOTHING THERE plz if any of you have found anything give it to me right now I'm gnawing at the bars of my enclosure this is literally me without drastoria
#if I just keep having to project them onto scenes of Cece and Schmidt in New Girl I may actually finally go completely insane#why đ is đ there đ nothing#harry potter has a massive fandom and for what??? for yall to ignore dracos wife and turn yourself into hermione self inserts???#someone just kill me#most of my hatred for dramione comes from the lack of drastoria ngl#if someone could feed me some drastoria i may shut up about dramione đ«¶đ»đ«¶đ»#i will literally pay someone#does someone wanna write a drastoria fanfic and then i happen to give you money đđ#yes i could write it myself but im untalented and busy#i want a drastoria film someone make one immediately#god i miss them#literally my parents for realz#we deserved more astoria in cursed child like come on#scorbus#hpcc#drastoria#astoria greengrass#the light of my life
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School is going so great and also I am so exhausted and also I am having an existential crisis
#teaching tag#the kids are great and I think Iâm doing a good job teaching them and also I miss the ones from last year so much đđđđđ#even though I know I will miss these too once theyâre gone like why does đđđ it gotta be đđđđ this way#itâs just a totally different vibe every time#the school year has a new flavor!!! and I hate that!!!!!#change is so bad and disgusting đđđ#but also I think itâs good and Iâm doing a good job keeping them moving#one of the revelations/realizations that Iâve had. is that Iâm just starting to shift my focus#from âŠ. wanting them to be moved to just wanting them to be engaged?#and I think itâs better.#Iâm not quite wholly there. but I mean learning how to actually construct a class so that they are busy and their minds are being stretched#and employed and learning on multiple levels without just saying what I want to happen at them#and itâs a good shift but also a shift thatâs making me sad#for whatever reason#it feels like another sign of maturity#but sometimes I miss my own highs#mostly Iâm just so unbelievably tired lol.#like the physical and mental stamina required that I just donât have yet#is so much.#but some strong starts have been made#and also (dare I say this lol) the effects of my reputation being established are also working in my favor#theyâre a little bit scared. theyâre a little bit more ready to engage and theyâre more on board than they used to be#like. itâs happening faster. in terms of getting the class under control#and thatâs nice. cause I remember it used to take weeks and weeks. months really.#and of course itâs ongoing and unpredictable.#but itâs better this time#anyway just rambling
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can someone tell me how to keep going if your hardwork does pay off but you don't feel anything when you achieve your goal just relief and numb again
#ive been having a bad week again since the exam ughđ#im really really REALLY trying to study but a little head in my voice keeps saying what is even the point of working so hard#which is soooo ridiculous because it's bc i worked so hard that i got great marks#but like. i didn't feel happy like i thought would. i just felt like 'oh. okay. cool'#and then i just. didn't even have anyone around me to celebrate with#which is idk kinda dumb i guess it's just an online exam#but like see. there are technically total 8 exams to become. um to get my degree#and i just cleared 1 of them#like that was a full 100 marks paper i studied for of that level and i did it#ive just never done this before not since this course ive always scored JUST above passing (not counting the times#i literally failed twice lol)#so yeah anyway it is big for me. but why doesn't it feel like anything đđđ#and why hasn't this motivated me to work harderđđđ#idk i thought i had gotten over the 'just do it. just do it!!! just. do. it.' phase i was getting so many things done#but it feels back to square one now#man that book about habits was so right don't have goals have habits because when you do achieve your goal#you'll be like well now what? and slip right back into bad habits again#that's exactly what happened#i used to think lol achieve my goal that's never gonna happen im a shit person and a failure#but like what the hell!!! i did!!! so now whatđđđ#i think i need a hug#but ive never really hugged anyone except one person and she's 4 years away now#i think i need. my dad to tell me he's proud of me. but he's already forgotten about it so that's not gonna happen#man the day i stop craving external validation. it's over for yall#ugh yuck i used to hate the word validation it always sounded so desperate and needy and pathetic. guess it was just#another form of self loathing lol#im not even sad im like genuinely asking. im trying to solve it like a math problem. like does anyone have the answer
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my hot take of the day is that clearly the people who swallow the in universe targ & valyrian exceptionalism are being completely taken in by the exact system that george is trying to critique but also i think the people who over correct into this idea that not a single targaryen is worthy of like, our empathy or sorrow or are rightfully chafing against the structures put in place by valyrians, first men, and andals alike are also being incredibly 2d in their analysis. i feel like this happens most often when people try to make the case that andals are somehow oppressed in westerosi society on a cultural level simply bc valyrian supremacy trumps andal culture. i think this is incredibly silly to say or posit as the truth in universe because there is in fact some oppression of culture in westeros but itâs not the andals lol!!! itâs the first men, the dornish, the rhoynar/greenblood orphans, and the ironborn. there Is some level of,,,, idk bigotry/xenophobia towards valyrians but only valyrians who donât worship the faith - people like larra rogare, who still follow valyrian gods, do face this bigotry because theyâre Too Foreign, the same way someone like thoros, melisandre, taena, etc who are essosi but not from a still heavy valyrian-based society like volantis and lys, and thatâs definitely important to the conversation, because it shows the Dominant Culture is in fact the Andal culture when it comes to westeros and thatâs like,,, fine, and even more interesting to me to see how andals, who have been the dominant force on westeros for thousands of years, interact with valyrians, who clearly want to keep ideas of valyrian supremacy alive somehow and essentially try to get the other dominant force in westeros to buy in (which they do!). like, are these two at odds sometimes? yes! but i donât think itâs correct to say that the andals face ~prejudice for being andals or followers of the faith either!
#like certainly people in fandom get insane about the andals bc theyâre projecting their hate of catholicism onto them.#but george himself is not writing about how all catholics are inherently evil heâs writing about the STRUCTURE being evil. i think the#series in fact finds something useful in one personâs individual faith & the way they may internalize it. thatâs why we get the quiet isle!#getting on my soap box#yes i did see a post about the [redacted] being oppressed by the mean evil valyrians and rolled my eyes.#anyways like this idea that the valyrians are being forcibly assimilated? false! they are doing it very willingly as a matter of fact! aegon#and jaehaerys and viserys all in fact are clearly trying to mesh themselves with andals not bc they are forcing the family to assimilate#but bc they believe the only way to keep valyrian supremacy going is to team up with the culture in westeros that Does frequently impose#itself on its neighbors! iâm not saying the andals are like the ultimate big bad evil here either thatâs just as stupid as the knee jerk#âevery targ is evil and anyone who fights them is morally corruptâ thing that happens in this dumb ass fandom but i AM saying the andals cut#down every weirwood in the south & attempted to do like glorified missionary work in the iron islands instead of actually engaging w what it#is that makes the ironborn so fucking deranged.#anyways the only leaders who are unproblematic are mors and nymeria for managing to mesh two cultures in a way that wasnât insane aksjdj#dorne has its problems re: deeply entrenched class structures & the use of marriage as punishment but at least people arenât whipping#ellaria naked through the streets like the andals love to do to essosi women đđ#âoh didnât dorne oppress the rhoynarâ i said they were better not perfect thank you!!!!! aksjd
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Someone : -asks me about AU/ character lore-
Me: -answers-
Them: : ok.
Me:
#pix habla#nah because why does this keep happening đ#sorry guys I keep coming up with new AUs but all I can do is draw without putting much thought or effort into the actual lore of the story#Iâm a simple person
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