#WHY ARE YOU SO WEIRDD

[cariciapadre]

watching caricias clips and screaming at her like she can hear me or something

[fraternum-momentum]

This is so so stupid but I got very happy when I read in your strawpage you are from 2003 too, I've lurking around seeing your art ever since DOL caught my eye and you're one of my favourite artists so having that bit in common is cool! I also love your DOL designs, especially Kylar's and Whitney's but the fave gotta be your PC she's so pretty! Seeing your fanarts keeps tempting me into posting dol art of my own so if I ever draw dol I'll draw our wet cat (Kylar) together >:)

Also if you haven't played Fields of Mistria or Homicipher I definitely recommend them! The first one is similar to Stardew Valley in the sense you're a farmer, you can decorate your house and romance any of the bachelors/bachelorettes but this one is more fantasy-like and the artstyle reminds me of 80s anime and Sailor Moon. The second came out recently and I haven't played it yet but I saw the trailer and some fanarts; you wake up in a terrifying unknown world where you have to survive and the romance options are very creepy men, one of the appeals of this one is trying to learn the world's language, it looks fun

Wish you a nice weekend! PS: Is it ok to follow you if I like South Park? I know DOL is darker when it comes to sexual stuff but just in case I prefer to ask boundaries

HELL YEAA '03 BABIESS 🤝🤝 ngl that dol era was probably peak bc i was fucking around with a lot of my mooties and just interacting with the fandom in general, it was so funnnn :3 and ky and whit r probably the most popular ones out of the 4 school li's (designwise my favs r still my fallen syds bc pretty) so understandable (⌒_⌒)d

but thats insane that u find my pc pretty bc thats probably the most boring, most generic looking self insert ever 😭😭😭😭 so many people have cooler looking pcs out there so im flattered that u like mine 😭😭😭 ??????? for some reason 😭 ??????????

and you totally should !!!! (if u want to of course) despite me not posting as much dol as i used to i still love seeing dol fanart !! but do whatevr ur heart desiresss and no pressure :3

and i've actually been following the development of fields of mistria ever since i saw march in my twt feed !! i just want to wait for the full release so i dont have to keep repeating playthroughs n stuff (its the same with hades 2, i just tried out the beta test bc its free so i went why not lmao)

OKAY. I KNOW i said im gonna play homicipher but like,,,,,,,,, this is def just a me thing but when everyone keeps saying to play this thing or watch this thing (arcane,,,, homicipher,,,) it just disincentivises me to do it 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 especially when i know im gonna like the thing. IDK WHY,,,, maybe its kinda like the same philosophy as someone telling u to do the dishes when ur alr on ur way to do the dishes and like ok i dont want to do it anymore ?? idkkk its weirdd

Re: P.S. you can follow me from whatever fandom ur in ! as long as youre not a minor and u have either 'adult' or your age in bio then its all good

SORRY I WAS KINDA CONFUSED AS TO WHO U WERE TALKING ABT I THOUGHT IT WAS THE HORSE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 i think u meant celia from tpof :3 ? that's probably one of my favorite drawings ive done ! i dont remember how i did it anymore thou,,,,,,,,

AND YEAA!!! i used to be an infamous irumatsu shipper back when i was active on my main on insta ! my silly lesbiabs,,,,,,,,,, they r everything to me,,,, my favorite chara is shuichi tho ♡

CATCHING UP WITH LORE 😭😭 U DONT HAVE TO DO ALL THAT,,, u arent missing out on much dw 😭 ty tho,,

weirdly enough i never got into creepypastas. i def stumbled into them from time to time like slenderman, jeff the killer, ben drowned n shit but i think ever since i got scared shitless by the smiledog.jpeg (??) i never stepped my foot into creepypasta territory ever again 😭😭😭😭😭 ok i like horror but im really really bad with jumpscares and suspence and stuff. i get scared easily orz,,

ive heard of it ! seen a lot of (really insane) fanart for it !! havent played it tho but i like some of the designs :3 i keep seeing the guy with the horns? malleus ? hes cute,, well tbh all of them r cute so its a hard choice

[delphientropy]

being a host who has a partner but no other alter is dating them is hard

when someone doesnt know who they are or were blurry or confused, we just tend to say were host

and of course because not many safe spaces exist outside of online communities, we have to just. be host anyway.

i dont know why they just say "i love you too" back to my boyfriend even if they dont mean it just to preserve his feelings. he knows were a system. he respects our boundries and he doesnt get upset when we switch and cant return his feelings . but some do it anyway. some dont even realize they arent me/host and do it

but we often dont realize we switch all the fucking time so. sometimes its weirdd...sigh

and sometiems we switch and that person doesnt know they have to yknow. go on simply plural. and track that they arent me anymore. so i talk to hima nd he assumes their me

and we also for some reason kind of struggle yo say whos fronting out loud sometimes? esp in middle of conversation. we just quietly change the simply plural and hope he notices TwT

its not that we feel uncomfortable around him either (quite the opposite, we collectively like him and view him as a safe person) but we also have a stigmatized mental disorder that could honestly put me in danger if i give away too much. so talking about being a system outloud outside of system servers and communities or communities that have systems is always hard. plus our other struggles in trusting/telling people how we feel.

we do trust him. i love him. very much. but at home i could never fucking say anything about me or mh mental health without my dad going on a tangent and it just doesn't help

and our general trauma forces us to think that when we open up no one will listen or respect our boundries (we do have a lot of boundry crossing trauma)

so yeah um being mentally ill sucks ass 0/10 dont recommend

[pixiecaps]

hello question from someone who doesn’t watch award shows what are the eslands? why does everyone hate them? is it like the gaming awards but for streamers?

heads up i dont know all the fine details im not on twitter so rlly short recap

its a streamer award show run by spanish speakers in the community and streamers of that community the Issue is that the people who run it r spaniards who have downplayed and ignored a lot of what the latam streamers do when it comes to makin the rewind and shit and it feels as though certain people win that shouldnt… a certain bias towards people who may be friends with the people running the event you get the picture

quackity didnt want any involvement with the eslands this year as the guy who does the whole rewind treated the minecraft community and its fans poorly and just belittled the efforts this year of spanish speaking minecraft ccs which is wild cus ya know the qsmp was a crazy part of 2023 and to belittle it is weirdd

idk if anyone who knows more wants to add on to this. feeel freee

[sooniebby]

whoever that anon was genuinely is weird, why take the time to shit on some person you don't know 😪

shits weirdd corny and annoying, worse thing is theyre doing it anonymously?? shows theyre a pussy.

anyway i love ur writing , ignore those random ass hoes who shove a stick up their ass every day n think their tuff shit.

Idek, I like to think I come across as nice and not annoying so I’m not even sure who can hate me 💀

They’re more than likely insecure themselves and are just taking it out on people cuz they don’t got a life :/ sucks to be them lol

[nyan-koii]

It’s sebmarkson anon again ! (I should come up with an acronym for myself ha ha)

Currently written about a fifth of the third chapter, so I hope it’ll be out soon! Not gonna spoil too much (feel like I’ve already have :-3 but) it’s gonna be v soft and sweet, just praise and gentle overstimulation.. like they’re gonna torture him sweet and force out every bit of pleasure they can x333

Idk if I should do a bit of a bad cop good cop kind of situation. Like Mark is obvi the one to fuck seb, but I wonder if I should do it so he’s just a tiny bit more humiliating and or degrading towards seb? Idk or it’s just gonna be good feels I can’t decide TwT..

HIII ANONNN ( oh id love that ! I can adress you properly in the futuree hehe^^)

GOOOD WORKK ANONNN OMG YOU'RE SO AMAZING??? HOW CAN YOU WRITE IT SO FAST WITHOUT GOING THRU WRITERS BLOCKK the determination you have omg 😭 im gonna cry i admire you. I love soft and sweet sebmarkson with a bit snarky mark humiliating seb and jenson who just watches them with love eyes. Gentle overstimulation 🥰 ahhh pure domestic feelings

I was talking with my friend yesterday and wr realized that theres not a lot sebmark fics with overstimulation and it was like a slap to reality. I never realized this before ! Overstimulation is like one of the best trope sooo??? Whys there so little about them in sebmark fics 😞 thank god anon is going to come and save us. Make that two, two times anon save us from drought i fear that ur about to write a history in ao3 (i'll be there)

Theyre gonna torture seb 🥰 YIPPEE im just imagining how jenson is holding seb down and mark is forcing seb into another orgasm, the poor boy couldnt stop shaking and his voice all high and whiny under their control. Ooouuuu *covers ears* THESE VOICESSS I CANTTTT HANDLE IT ALONE

Its up to you anon because im sure we will take it with big heart (greedily so). But imo, i cant handle mark being THAT soft to seb because it just feel so weirdd 🤣 well not in everything changes, thats a different story but yeah! A bit degrading can be a good use tooo ! Esp if marks commenting abt seb's porn acc. "What if we show this to the grid hm? Show this to your hero Michael?" oOOOOUUUOUAHSJSJSJSJS

So sorry for the late reply anon 😞🙏 ive been playing sekiro ever since i got back home. Cant wait to read the fic 😤!!! I'll make sure to comment paragraphs about how i feel

[badasgirlfriend]

All of this exposing someone for Asian fishing is reminding me of someone else who did the same but anyways….there’s no reason you should be getting hate this is ridiculous 😭😭😭😭 good on you for exposing it all

someone else did that here too?? nahh bc same back when i was on twt ive had this moot who was asianfishing it was so weirdd

yeah i was confused why i started getting the hate asks AFTER i exposed her new acc but shit happens ig

[xxrandom1girlxxxx]

Uglyyyyyyyyyyy uhh -_-

Why do I only like guys with an ugly attitude !! Like why be so weirdd just tell me what you want from meeee

[sm-baby]

YEAH I GOOGLED WHAT A CAGE WAGON WAS YESTERDAY AND MY JAW DROPPED WHEN I FIGURED OUT WHAT IT WAS.. GOD.. OH MY GOD GOOD LORD HOOTBON YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO, YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO AT ALL... WHY-

Just.. fucking.. aughh, your environemntal work absolutely steals my heart of my g o d..

that must be so fucking terrifying.. The Audience grabbing at her from outside the same way people would gather around a cage with a harmless animal.. LIKE.. IT LOOKS FUCKING TERRIFYING HERE BUT WE FUCKING DO THIS TO ANIMALS, MAN... being completely put in their perspective- AUGHH I'm sure freaks also had this treatment in the victorian era.... MANN THIS IS FUCKEDD THIS IS SO WEIRDD RAGATHA IM SO SORRYYY SWEETJEARTTTT...

Did you guys ask for a part two? No? Too bad

[sethdomain]

Okay i get the salter now, i fucking hate y’all 😹

[cosmik-homo]

Something that has no right to baffle me as much as it does- or, more accurately, Sometimes Stand Out To Me, Personally, like a slightly sore thumb or a least A Choice is star wars domestic fic where threepio cooks??? maybe i know too much about the historical structure of household serving staffs but like 90% of the time when it's in a fic im like. ?? You Sure About That?

[hillarysss]

blunt astro observations ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

do not repost plagiarize reword

🐈‍⬛I ’ve noticed some cancer venuses can’t focus on other people besides their romantic partner sometimes?? this can go as far as dropping close friends for their partner & then regretting it.

🐈‍⬛Pluto in 10th likes when other people are intimidated by them like y’all feel like you have POWER. & I’ve noticed Pluto in 10th likes having “powerful” friends that can boost them.

🐈‍⬛Mercury in scorpio probably makes you seem like more of a scorpio more than any other placement. scorpio placements have a really intense way of communicating so scorpio mercuries may be mistakes for scorpio suns & big three scorpio placements.

🐈‍⬛If you have chiron in retrograde... im so sorry, you all neglected your pain in a past life & have to deal with strong pain very young. im sorryy.

🐈‍⬛Hear me outttt, juno in 11th can indicate getting married online

🐈‍⬛I hear a lot of people assume aries mars= angry mf, no no no CANCER MARS will cry and piss themselves when their toxic ex don’t text back.. sorry

🐈‍⬛If neptune is your chart ruler I’m just gonna assume you’re always in the clouds and you seem like you don’t pay attention 24/7.

🐈‍⬛Pisces rising is free clairvoyance, I swear pisces risings are so psychic I can’t..

🐈‍⬛taurus in 3rd/ pisces rising you guys were probably told to speak up a lot because y’all voices sound so quiet.

🐈‍⬛I mentioned this on a seperate post but why are virgo sun sagittarius moons everywhere?? Like y’all.. 

🐈‍⬛Having a gemini moon tells me that when you finally leave your room you tell your parents/ siblings random knowledge no one asked you about and then you leave again. Also why are so gemini moons interested in astrology?? like y’all everywhereee too.

🐈‍⬛Okay, I know opposite moon signs are similar, but sagittarius and geminis are sooooo fucking similarr. Like a Sagittarius Moon + Gemini Moon would make such good friends. 

🐈‍⬛Venus in leo is telling me that you send an angry text when your romantic interest doesn’t text back and then send them bra pictures when you finally get validation, sorry venus in leos.

🐈‍⬛Sun in 6th tells me that when you finally put boundaries up, no one respects them.

🐈‍⬛So many pisces placements get into online / long distance relationships. This is because pisces placements can truly be themselves online, but they’re really shy in person.

🐈‍⬛Venus in taurus tells me you love spoiling yourself 24/7, as you should.

🐈‍⬛Pisces venuses are scarier than scorpio venuses. Y’all fall in love with anyone that “understands” you. 

🐈‍⬛Pisces placements are more weird than aquarius placements?? Like pisces placements I’ve met are soooo weirdd. (Love y’all though)

🐈‍⬛If Pluto is in 9th I’m just gonna assume there was a lot of tower moments in your late school years.

🐈‍⬛Aries placements LOVEEE standing up for “what’s right” more than libras to be honest. Aries placements go to extra lengths to make sure what they fight for has justice. 

🐈‍⬛Mercury in 1st individuals tells me that you hate and are aware that people can underestimate your intellectual abilities.

🐈‍⬛Uranus in 3rd tells me that you are considered “the weird kid” but are hella fucking smart. 

🐈‍⬛If you have a libra rising/ moon I’m just gonna assume you don’t know your worth. So many people with these placements stay in toxic situations and try to “make it right’ no, LEAVE.

🐈‍⬛Venus in leo/ mars in leo remember just because your crush liked another girl’s instagram picture does not mean you are annoying..

🐈‍⬛If you have mars in 4th im just gonna assume you have deep rooted trauma from home life & the reason you are wayy over protective over anything and yourself. You’re probably scared of even going to the grocery store at times. However you’re always ALERTT and ready to protect anything.

🐈‍⬛If you have mars in 4th you definitely rebel over anything your parents say & argue every day over pointless things at times.

🐈‍⬛if your chiron is in 3rd you’re telling me people usually think you’re “dumb” because you process thoughts way differently. you could suffer from something (again, general). but a lot of people with this placements suffer from a lot of intrusive thoughts. 

🐈‍⬛Venus in scorpio could do well with another venus in scorpio. Both love that ride or die shit.

🐈‍⬛Venus in scorpio have a thing for people who “look bad” & have tattos.

🐈‍⬛Venus in leo/ scorpio venuses probably fixate on that one song and then forget about it. 

🐈‍⬛If you have capricorn mars I’m gonna assume you mentally and physically can not live if that project isn’t done nicely.

🐈‍⬛Okay I’ve realized a lot of leo moons have mothers that are bad bitches & set high expectations for the child. The child probably has been set to a lot of great things since young. This could also manifest more strictly & create some insecurity.

🐈‍⬛If you have moon in the water houses (4,8,12) PLEASEEE listen to your intuition, y’all psychic.

🐈‍⬛Air moons/ placements love neglecting their intuition, you know you have that bad feeling about that one person, why aren’t they blocked yet? Yeah, block button now.

🐈‍⬛Venus in taurus tells me you settle once you get that security in someone and when they start acting up you find security in another person like you pack your bags and leave haha no bullshitt from this person.

🐈‍⬛Jupiter in 10th, why y’all care so much if people like you or not? Y’all are naturally admired & people close to your circle get good luck.

🐈‍⬛Venus in 10th individuals can get their info/ photos usen to catfish & etc, people admire them a lot.

🐈‍⬛Uranus in 1st/ Uranus touching ascendant were that one kid that broke the rules to make everyone laugh & themselves laugh. Everyone thought they were so fucking weird yet they were so likeble. You all love to break rules, but you all will kill somebody if your own boundaries are closed.

🐈‍⬛Mars in 3rd tells me you don’t gaf and you send those bold texts anyway.

🐈‍⬛Taurus risings, y’all look rich. I don’t even know how to explain like y’all look wealthy. 

🐈‍⬛If you have pisces/ libra / aries anywhere I’m just gonna assume you fangirl over anime characters.

🐈‍⬛If you have capricorn placements (especially capricorn moon) or/and virgo placements I’m just gonna assume you expect the worst case sceneraio 24/7. 

🐈‍⬛Virgo placements get scared when things are going good because they think it’ll just get bad again.

🐈‍⬛Having gemini placements especially the moon tells me you overthink everything and get addicted to everything but you hate routine because your brain gets addicted to anything they find stimulating.

🐈‍⬛If you have an aquarius chiron I’m gonna assume you have never found friends that let you be “weird”.

[accessible-tumbling]

ID: Two screenshots of a Twitter thread. It's started by imari @ thenewdynamo with text reading: "here it comes yall". Attached below is a screenshot of a Tiktok. The tiktok shows a close-up of a white person's face with text over it reading: "seeing chappell in that nun costume sent me over the edge because why are people still sexualizing nun's. "not everyone cares about religion", you can still show respect to the ones who do? same with the halloween costumes & wearing crosses because "they're aesthetic". [caps] You Are Weirdd"

Someone on Twitter, with their @ crossed out, replies: "you'd be saying different if it were a costume from a different religion, people just think it's okay to disrespect christian's lmao"

sydney @ _golden_harry replies: "chappell was raised catholic so she can do whatever she wants!"

Someone with their @ crossed out replies: "she's catholic anymore"

nel cicierega @ silkwombs replies: "that doesn't erase the fact that she was raised catholic though [crying emoji]"

Someone with their @ partially crossed out, @ ashtraygirl26 replies: "doesn't erase the fact her outfit is inappropriate [thumbs up emoji]"

End ID.

lol i wonder why she stopped being catholic they're so wholesome and accepting.

[reidsconverse]

Seeing that message about getting your shit together instead of writing fanfic made me feel so much better... like I wanna apply at uni to get my degree in law, but I'll still.write little stories abt people I'll never meet or don't even exist 😂😂😂💀

literally its a HOBBY !!!! creative writing has always been a desirable hobby, employers love hearing about it regardless of what career you’re going into 😭😭

idg why children think once you turn 18 you can’t enjoy things anymore its so weirdd 😭

[sinnamonlou]

I posted 2,988 times in 2021

105 posts created (4%)

2883 posts reblogged (96%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 27.5 posts.

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#i saw some buddie on my dash🤷🏽‍♀️ and it was like. firefighters and like day to day cases/procedural type so i was like maybe this will

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

the (now debatably😝) lovely kay @holyshit tagged me to make some really tough choices 😅

Put in bold your preferred song (live version), and then tag 3 people to play!

Best Cover: Through the Dark - Drag Me Down - 7 - Beautiful War - Little Black Dress

okay definitely beautiful war. he really made it his own. it's gorgeous 🥺

Best Acoustic Song: Only The Brave - Perfect Now - Too Young

I feel like me and perfect now have something going. like it feels a little personal. hits where it hurts and then...heals?

Best Rock Song: Kill My Mind - 7 - Fearless

easiest pick

Best Sad Song: Two of Us - Beautiful War - Change

haven't heard it in forever because I start ugly sobbing and that should tell you all you need to know.

Best "Faith in the Future" Song: We Made It - Just Hold On - Through the Dark - DLIBYH

I have been..in LOVe with her😪 big comfort song

Best Crowd Interaction: Always You - Defenceless - Fearless - Through the Dark

jumping to always you is a dream but I feel like walls is majorly missing??? the for every question why you were my because is also a dream 🥺

Cover/Live Version That Should Get a Studio Version: Beautiful War - Copyx3 - Fearless - Drag Me Down - 7

I want it. so much.

Song That Should Make It Out of the Setlist

no <3

tagging a few people: @sunsmile-lou @sun-lt @adoreinbloom @cowboylarries @whaleharry @zouisgf if you guys want!

10 notes • Posted 2021-09-24 15:55:31 GMT

#4

🎶 expose your music taste tag

I was tagged by @holyshit to do this fun tag, thank you kay <3

rules: we’re snooping in your playlist. put your entire music library on shuffle and list the first 10 songs and then choose 10 victims.

unlike kay, I will NOT be doing 15 because I essentially only listen to about 5 artists with a few random miscellaneous songs I've picked up from tv show soundtracks etc. so it would get a bit. repetitive.

habit - louis tomlinson

the last of the real ones - fall out boy

long story short - taylor swift

september - earth, wind & fire

on my own - niall horan

pretender - the maine

iT's YoU - zayn

don't you - taylor swift

pay the man - foster the people

sweetest kill - broken social scene

choosing my victims...@throughthecurtains @thehornoftheunicorn @tanktop-lou @zouis-exes-to-lovers @whaleharry @littlespoongf @farawaytatmybeloved @adoreinbloom @navramanan @sun-lt

you're free to opt out of victimization (?) though!!

11 notes • Posted 2021-08-28 08:01:06 GMT

#3

they need to stop edging us with the story behind chim's nickname already🙄

14 notes • Posted 2021-11-09 21:11:03 GMT

#2

✨BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD! Once you are given this award you can paste it in the asks of 8 people who deserve it (if you'd like). If you break the chain nothing happens, but it's sweet to know someone thinks you're beautiful inside and out ✨

reeba! hi! hello! this little award is for you 💫 how are you doing?? i saw you're working on your thesis or some type of research i think? i hope that's going smoothly...when i did mine it was so weirdd because like. half way through, boom! pandemic! now you now you need to analyze all this data from your bedroom! and i was like uhhh how tho? i cannot math 😔 so i hope yours is going better than that ashfsdf!

have a lovely monday or tuesday, whatever is where you are!! <3

essie I am smiling so big it's like my awful seventh grade ID card picture again😅 <333

hi and hello back!! this is so sweet of you really <33 (yes I'm lost for words and have to resort to punctuation mark hearts)

I'm doing well, two of my shows are back, I watched the netflix one over the weekend and then I have the other show to look forward to every week :) besides my thesis work obviously which is starting properly now, the writing bits and the main experiment phase. it's going smoothly I'd say compared to what I've heard of the previous batch 😬 I'm lucky all our educational institutes made vaccinations mandatory so even if we do go on lockdown for a bit, I'll hopefully be able to do my lab work anyway because it's only a few students and there's like 5 labs in my department so it shouldn't be an issue.

how did analyzing data from your bedroom go?? I do not envy you at ALL. I think stats is just. the bane of my existence. like I've studied what's required in my field. but I just. immediately forget after my exams😬😅 I'm really nervous and not trying to think of it and enjoy the writing bit which is more up my street.

if I wasn't already having a good day, I definitely would after this🥺 I hope you do too <3

14 notes • Posted 2021-09-21 03:25:14 GMT

#1

URL Music Challenge

Rules: Spell your url with song titles then tag as many people as there are letters in your url to do the same!

I was tagged by scott @davldrose tysm!!

Now. I think I've done this before...but maybe we've improved you know? Maybe I'm exactly the same and too afraid to check. Anyhow. Welcome to my music taste.

paper house - niall horan

enchanted - taylor swift

reptilia - the strokes

saturn - sleeping at last

out of the woods - taylor swift

never had enough - van williams

peace - taylor swift

eyes closed - halsey

ribcage - andy black

show me the meaning of being lonely - backstreet boys

only the brave - louis tomlinson

northern downpours - panic! at the disco

i lost a friend - finneas

fix you - coldplay

ivy - taylor swift

end of the day - one direction

don't let it break your heart - louis tomlinson

I don't know seventeen people but I will try @zouisbreakup @zouis-exes-to-lovers @whaleharry @louvelylouis @farawaytatmybeloved @coffeehotcoffee

@zouaylorgf @nouisgf @holyshit @sun-lt @sunsmile-lou if you guys want!!

16 notes • Posted 2021-07-27 18:16:19 GMT

Get your Tumblr 2021 Year in Review →

[thecagedbird]

ED recovery isn't all rainbows and butterflies. sometimes it means eating/following some semblence of a meal plan when you really just do not feel like it (dinner-check) sometimes it means redirecting yourself when urges pop up (b/p thoughts? not today, motherfuckerr [special thanks to @songfortheasking and @voldy-morts/@whsprings]

i've had a few recent posts of doing well-and feeling good about it! which is weirdd. i'm not used to feeling motivated or proud of myself. but the reality is, that's not every day. i've struggled with significantly more behavior use the past week or so and it's frustrating to know that things can just turn 'bad' again. it's especially challenging to remember the times when i've felt good [about eating/managing symptom use/etc] and subsequently feel self-critical about why i'm not there currently

but that's life. it's up and down; some days are better than others and all we can do is put one foot in front of the other. yes, i did some things that weren't very recovery-focused today. but i also did things that were more positive, and made me feel good. and some things (ie food) that were recovery-focused but didn't make me feel good and that's okay too.