#This method ups my serotonin

[corneredcopia]

While I draw I like to have a little bill cipher staring at my work to motivate me

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escapism can be both a respite and a prison. btw

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5 things that make me happy:

Shockingly enough (or unshockingly), my self insert 🍋 The DREMIEVERSE paracosm (really new, the posts scattered around are about this) Vanilla frosting D&D podcasts (I normally gravitate towards funny, haha ones with elements of seriousness) One Piece (I have finished the anime on Netflix, but there are still more episodes)

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Zayne x gn!Reader x Sylus

In my heart of hearts I fucking know Sylus has a thing for when Zayne speaks medical

Thank you @unknown-ends for inspiring this one cuz ough it lowkey consumed me

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Warnings: fluff, smut, polyamory, oral sex, kissing, biting, blow/hand job, cuddling, aftercare, banter, teasing, cum eating/swallowing, literal sleeping together, established relationship, licking

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Zayne glares at Sylus. "What are you doing?" he hisses.

Sylus has the audacity to pull that smug grin on him, at the same time he pulls the blankets down Zayne's body, slips his hands under his pajama shirt to feel the lean muscle of his stomach. "You're having trouble sleeping - I want to help. It's as simple as that."

Zayne looks pointedly over at you, only a couple feet away, back facing him. You're fast asleep and completely oblivious to what's happening on the other side of the bed. "We could wake them up-"

"And?" Sylus leans down, eyes still locked on the doctor, to kiss just above his naval. "They can join in if they need a sleep aid." A brush of his teeth, just enough to have Zayne shuddering beneath him. "I'm happy to assist."

Zayne becomes momentarily transfixed by the sight of his partner. The warm glide of his hands as they push his shirt up to stay bunched under his pecs and hook fingers around his waistband to tug down the front of his sleep pants. His tongue follows the path of his happy trail, swirling around the fine hair and lapping hot and wet at his skin, all the way down to his pubic bone. No doubt Sylus can feel the growing need in his pants as it rises to bump lightly against his throat and chin, if the dark cloud shadowing his eyes is any indicator. Still, he can't help looking over at you again. If they were to accidentally wake you up, what would you think? What would you do or say? Would you be annoyed at them? Would you join them? Would you be completely indifferent? He tries to weigh every scenario, but it becomes increasingly difficult the more aware of Sylus's breaths fanning across his skin he becomes.

A hand reaches up to guide him back to looking down the length of his body, at the man straddling over his legs, now tucked partially under the blanket. "You can say no," he says, voice even and silently promising the dismount that comes with his honest refusal. "Or, you can tell me just why sucking you off will work to put you to sleep."

His ears flush red. He stares at Sylus, contemplating, weighing his options, for one breath - two. And then he nods, almost imperceptibly, swallowing down the saliva pooling in his mouth.

Quietly, in that steady, methodical tone he usually speaks in when discussing anything medical, he whispers, "During ejaculation, men release several brain chemicals."

Sylus hums, pleased, and sets quickly to work. He pulls his pants down, dragging his underwear with them, over his half-erect cock. He studies the veins and curve as he pushes Zayne's legs apart to settle between them. "Keep going."

"Norepinephrine, serotonin, oxytocin, vasopressin, nitric oxide, and prolactin, which has been-" His words choke off, caught by the delicate press of lips to the length of his cock. Several left in a row, from the base to the tip. Ruby eyes implore him not to stop. He lets out a shaky breath. "-linked to the feeling of sexual satisfaction."

His cock twitches to life. Sylus rubs the soft skin of his inner thighs, his hip, all while pressing those maddening pecks along its length. He ducks down, kissing down the underside of his shaft, down to the hanging weight of his scrotum. His large nose bumps up against his cock as he lazily sucks one of the testes, humming his satisfaction at the taste of Zayne's skin.

Zayne's fingers tangle in Sylus's hair, grasping lightly, though the strain in his hold shows just how much tighter he wishes to hold on. It's a fight against his self-control; his ability to stay even-minded in this moment. It's a losing battle when Sylus is his opponent, but one he fights nonetheless. Sylus reaches up to hold his other hand, fingers laced together, thumb stroking his scars.

"Prolactin levels are naturally higher during sleep, so it is likely that its release during orgasm leads to the feeling of sleepiness. Additionally, oxytocin and vasopressin, also released during ejaculation, are also associated with sleep, and frequently accompany the release of melatonin."

Sylus releases his testicle with a shimmering splotch of saliva. He licks up the entire length of his cock, all the way to the tip, now leaking precum in glistening pearls onto his stomach. His tongue dips into the slit, lips closing around it to suck daintily. Zayne grips tighter at his hair, cheeks flushed and breath heavier as he chokes out the final reason:

"Oxytocin is also t-thought to reduce stress levels, which could lead to relaxation and sleepiness."

Sylus squeezes Zayne's hand. It's all he can do to stay silent as the heat of his mouth engulfs his cock, head tossed back and teeth biting cheek to hold back the sounds in his throat. He stays there for a moment, too. Swallowing around the girth of his dick, flattening his tongue along the thick vein on the bottom, staring up at his partner's reactions. Long enough to have the fingers in his hair tighten further and tug, begging him to move.

He's slow as he pulls off. Teasing, savoring the moment, the weight and taste of his partner on his tongue. He hollows his cheeks and sucks down again. Rising and falling at a steady pace. Not fast, just enough to have Zayne breathing heavily through his nose and squeezing him with his thighs. The wet sounds seem far louder in the quiet of the bedroom, mixed with his breaths and the quiet sounds of pleasure that rumble in Sylus's chest.

You can't say for certain what it was that woke you up. If it was the noise, or the slight shaking of the bed, or just your subconscious latching on to what's happening behind you. Either way, you blink blearily into the darkness, turning over to see what's going on. The glint of Sylus's eyes flicker to you, amused. Zayne's eyes are shut, or far too lidded to see anything other than Sylus's ministrations on his cock. A warmth, little more than a match-flame, alights within you, but the exhaustion from the day is far greater than it. The usual arousal you'd feel when seeing your partners so intimate is instead replaced with adoration. Love for these two men you can call yours, joy at seeing them together despite the differences they've faced in the past.

Zayne startles when he feels the mattress shift under your weight. You close the distance between you and him, pressing your chest against his arm, cupping his cheek in your hand to turn his face toward you. He's flushed so bright, from embarrassment and arousal. "I apologize for waking you, I-"

You shush him softly as you kiss his lips. Where Sylus's mouth is heated and passionate in its actions, yours is languid and sweet, sleepy and lazy. He sighs with soft relief into your mouth, the tension of being caught melting away. Your thumb strokes over his cheekbones, fingers curling under his jaw, behind his ear, brushing the mess of dark hair with tender care.

Sylus pulls off of him with a pop, dipping his head to lick up the puddle of precum from his stomach. Zayne pulls away with a shuddering breath. He presses his face into your neck, and you run your fingers through his hair. "Our poor doctor here needed some help falling asleep," Sylus muses between licks.

You hum softly. Zayne's hair is so soft, even dampened slightly with sweat. You kiss his temple, eyes closed, at peace. "Was cuddling not an option?"

"Certainly not the first one that came to mind," Zayne retorts dryly. Sylus nips at his skin, eliciting a hiss from your partner. "We can take this elsewhere so we don't continue to interrupt your rest."

"Nmm, no, it's okay."

Sylus takes his hand from Zayne's thigh to hold your calf, rubbing affectionate circles into your leg with his thumb. "I would offer my services to you, beloved, but I don't think you'll need them."

You laugh quietly, cut off by a yawn. "Another night, maybe." You turn to look down at Sylus, Zayne still breathing in hot pants against your neck, his cock still painfully erect and needy, glistening with saliva and pre-spend. "Keep going."

There's no command, no force behind your words, but Sylus takes them as a strict order nonetheless. He smirks wickedly up at you just before he takes Zayne's dick back into his mouth, bobbing along the length.

Zayne lets out a strangled, choked sound. Devastatingly beautiful. You brush his hair back, tug lightly on the strands to pull him from your neck. His mouth finds yours straight away. Tongue licks needily at the seam of your lips, but he follows the pace you set without hesitation. The dynamic between the rhythm of Sylus's mouth and the caress of yours makes his head feel light.

Your hand trails down his neck, along his sternum, over his shirt, until you're able to slip it under the bunched up hem. It's all too easy to find the perky bud of his nipple. And oh so wonderful hearing the sounds he makes as you circle it with your fingers, press against it, pinch it, pull it. His fingers tighten in Sylus's hair for support. You barely pull away to leave light kisses on his top and bottom lip, mouth parted around his heavy breaths.

Sylus's hand leaves your leg. It glides over Zayne's hip before he wraps it around the base of his cock, his mouth focused on the swollen head. He tongues at the leaking slit and the ridge of the tip, fisting his cock up and down at a pace faster than his mouth moves. Zayne strains to watch even as the burning ecstasy in his abdomen contorts his face, growing overwhelming, determined to watch the final moments of his treatment.

You bury your face in his neck in turn, mouthing lazily at the soft skin there. You can feel the thrum of his heart against your lips. Fast and eager, waiting for the fall at the end of this cliff.

And fall he does. With strained, stifled whimpers, he cums into the hot mouth of your partner. Sylus's brows pinch together, eyes closing, as he takes the full heft of Zayne into his mouth again, his cockhead shooting cum against the back of his open throat. Zayne subconsciously rolls his hips up, chasing the friction, nearly making Sylus gag.

Sylus pulls off of his cock for the final time tonight. He's panting, trying to catch his breath around a swallow. His eyes are lidded with satisfaction, the blankets falling around him as he sits up to take in the beautiful sight laid out before him.

Zayne, hair a mess, skin shimmering with a thin layer of sweat, panting heavily, head tilted back with his eyes shut, trying to come back down to earth. And you, tracing lines and patterns against his stomach, nevermind the mess, eyes closed and content, nuzzling against his shoulder.

Sylus slips out, blankets pushed to the foot of the bed, and disappears in the bathroom. When he returns with a wet cloth, his lover's breaths have calmed down. One arm wraps around your back, holding you close, as the other sits empty at his side, as though waiting for Sylus's hand to fit within it once more. He watches sleepily as the mess on his stomach is cleaned up, shivering as the cold bedroom air chills the sheen of water left behind.

Sylus's warm, rough hands slip his underwear and sleep pants back up onto his hips. Slip his shirt back down with knuckles brushing down his abs, and draw the blanket back up. He leans down to press a soft, lingering kiss to Zayne's lips. The salty taste of himself on his lips sends a trill down his spine.

"Thank you," he breathes lowly into the space between them.

"Happy to help," Sylus responds with a teasing grin. He leans over to press a kiss to your forehead. You're already fast asleep. "Sweet dreams, snowflake."

Zayne watches the hulking figure of his partner leave the bedroom, unresolved bulge in his own pants. As he turns to the side to fully curl up with you, the heady scent of sex tickling his nose with your shampoo and Sylus's cologne, he thinks of all the ways he can return the favor in the morning. He falls asleep with images of Sylus's face pinched, head thrown back, mouth hinged open around guttural groans, and an invisible weight on his tongue.

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[httpvomitello]

Hey so how do you think the tmnt boys would deal with having a crush where they text each other frequently and also do hang out a lot. But what they do when for once their crush texts them “I hate everything right now. I’m so angry. >:(“. Behind the scenes Their crush just came on their time of the month and now they’re like angry with everything hormonally? If the boys come over cuz crush isn’t answering, hours later, crush seeming better, “sorry about that. I just came on my time of the month earlier, this ones bad this month and my emotions are crazy. I now just feel depressed :(”?

Hello again! I hope you like it! ♡♡♡♡

Leonardo

Leo gets a text from his crush that reads, “I’m so over everything right now. I’m mad and don’t even know why.”

He’s used to keeping joking his way out of awkward situations, so he responds

“Yikes, sounds rough! Want me to come over and cheer you up with some cool ninja moves or bad jokes?”

When there’s no reply for hours, Leo’s anxiety spikes (even if he won't admit it)

He grabs his katanas (just in case) and heads out to check on them

When he arrives, his crush finally explains, “Sorry about that. I just came on my time of the month earlier. This one’s bad, and my emotions are crazy.”

He might be a little awkward at first, but he quickly adapts, flashing his signature grin

“Ah, no worries. Your favorite turtle has arrived!So, what’s the plan? Do you want to grab us some snacks and watch some movies?”

They decide to watch Twilight

It's a good thing they ended up sleeping next to Leo, because that way they didn't have to witness him start crying at the end

He’s happy to be a distraction, whether it’s watching a movie or just hanging out

He’ll probably pull out a few tricks, magic or otherwise, to get a smile out of them before the day’s done.

Raphael

Raph gets a message from his crush that says, “I’m so frustrated. Everything’s making me mad for no reason, and I’m trying to keep it together.”

He doesn't take long to send a message asking if everything is okay

When he doesn’t get a reply after a while, Raph starts pacing

He debates texting again but doesn’t want to seem pushy, so instead, he heads out

When Raph gets there, his crush doesn't take long to explain

“Hey, sorry I didn’t respond earlier. My period just started, and it’s hitting hard this time. I feel like a mess right now,”

Raph softens immediately, his face full of understanding

He knows how overwhelming emotions can be, and he doesn’t want to make things worse by crowding them

He’ll stay close, maybe put on a show they both like or offer up his shoulder if they need a comforting presence.

Donatello

Donnie receives a text from hos crush at a random time while he was finishing one of his projects

“Today’s been a mess, and I’m so angry. I don’t know how to shake this mood.”

His immediate reaction is to problem-solve, so he texts back

“I’ve read that mood swings can sometimes be helped by balancing serotonin levels. Do you want me to come over and help you troubleshoot?”

He’s serious about wanting to help, though his methods may seem a bit... clinical

When he doesn’t get a response for hours, Donnie’s curiosity gets the best of him

It doesn't take long to get to their house

“Sorry I didn’t get back to you. My period started earlier, and it’s really messing with my emotions. I just feel so out of it,”

Donnie immediately understands and goes into helpful mode

“While I can’t stop that, I can help with the physical discomfort or even keep you company to distract you from the emotional side effects.”

He might offer up some tech-based solutions, like a supercharged heating pad or an app he coded to track moods and help regulate them

If they’re feeling down, he’ll switch from science talk to a more personal approach, asking what they need and offering to help with whatever would make them more comfortable

Even if his methods are a little unconventional, Donnie genuinely wants to make things better for them.

Michelangelo

Mikey got the text from his crush while he was watching his favorite cartoon

“I’m just in such a bad mood today. I feel off, and I hate it.”

His heart sinks because he’s all about making people feel happy and loved, especially his crush. He responds immediately

“Aw, that’s the worst! You want me to come over and bring snacks and some good vibes? I’ll cheer you up, promise!”

When there’s no reply for a while, Mikey’s concern turns into action. He grabs a bunch of their favorite snacks and his skateboard, determined to turn their day around

When they finally explain, “Sorry for not responding. My period started, and it’s been a rough one. My emotions are just all over the place,”

Mikey is quick to jump into comfort mode, his empathy showing immediately

“I’m here to make you feel better, no worries. Snacks? Cartoons? Blanket fort? You name it, and we’ll do it!”

Mikey’s goal is to lift their spirits, no matter what

His energy is contagious, and he’ll stick around for as long as they need

By the end of the day, Mikey will make sure they’re at least smiling, even if just a little

[s-lorelei]

I have to get this off my chest.

Attention Marauders stans who believe in the "reason why Remus eats chocolate" bs:

A study in 1996 showed that chocolate caused the release of endorphins in the brain, making people feel happy.

When we eat chocolate, our brains release serotonin (the happy hormone.)

Remus is obviously sad and down in his later years because he's having trouble finding a job and people don't like him, etc. So what does he do? Eats chocolate because it makes him feel happier than he usually is.

This also has further implications when applied to the dementors. Dementors suck all of the happiness and life out of the world around us, so why do you think Remus told the kids to eat chocolate after the first dementor attack on the Hogwarts Express? Maybe because it makes you feel happy?? Wow, nothing has ever been so obvious.

So, basically, marauders stans who say that Remus is depressed enough to want to kill himself with chocolate ("kill the dog inside him") are completely backwards in this theory. Why would someone try making themselves feel better with a proven method if they actually wanted to kill themselves? Doesn't make a lot of sense, huh?

By making every marauders era character depressed asf, you're completely missing the mark on the moral of the books/story. Sure, bad things happen but you can't be depressed/do nothing about it forever. Eventually you have to face your demons and stand up for yourself and others. Remus was not depressed once he opened up to Tonks, but most of y'all just sweep her under the rug and forget she exists, right?

P.S. I'm eating chocolate rn and it's wonderful.

[viablemess]

Struggle with getting big projects done (especially if you dread them) while experiencing executive dysfunction? Here is my tip: my therapist told me to break everything down into VERY small pieces. So instead of "I have to write my XYZ" it turns into

1. Pick spot to work.

2. Get materials together needed to work.

3. Go to work spot.

4. Sit down, get materials out.

5. Open any programs necessary to work.

6. Work for 5 minutes. Then 10.

7. Slowly work my way up to pomodoro method.

I know this won't work for everyone but it has been a life saver for me, especially because I get so much serotonin from checking things off my to do list, and then I get to check off 5 things before the work even starts, which makes me feel good about myself. Happy productivity, folks.

[fireheartedpup]

Okay. So. Ashwaganda.

I lost the post about the supplement from a troll company that was marketing it as hormone replacement therapy. The doses were high enough to send you into serotonin syndrome, and it doesn't replace estrogen. It encourages your body to make the hormones it's already making.

This was in 2023, and the website quickly vanished after backlash.

The thing is, ashwaganda is a mood stabilizer. I'm wondering if it's possible to feel better before the serotonin syndrome. Is the dosage high enough that you feel funny immediately, or does it seem like life is so good that this miracle pill couldn't possibly be bad for you?

Once it starts, it sounds like torture. I'm just wondering about the lead up. The poster who was quoted on that post said that ashwaganda taken in that dosage could cause it in "as little as a month," so what does the lead up feel like?

I don't take medication, so I haven't worried too much about interactions. That said, it's good to know that it can conflict with medications for blood pressure, thyroid, sleep, immunosuppression, and diabetes.

This is mostly because it has similar effects--so again, too much can tip you over from "this helps" to "this is a threat to my safety."

There are other natural things that raise serotonin levels, like ginkgo, and I thought they were mentioned in one of links I included but I can find the paragraph I'm thinking of.

...this could be due to the fact that ginseng can also raise serotonin levels, and I might have misremembered it.

Probiotics, vitamin D, and fish oil can also raise serotonin, as can tryptophan and exercise. Rhodiola is another adaptogen that can help with things like ADHD, and St. John's Wort is also on that list.

There's a lot. I actually left out green tea and turmeric. Oh, and 5-htp. That one I'm careful with. It makes me feel drugged.

Coffee and artificial sweeteners can decrease serotonin, so I'm not terribly bothered. If it's not consumed in high doses or alongside something it shouldn't be combined with, it should be okay.

I'm also not consistent with anything, and in the case of the supplements where it's better to take breaks instead of simply continuing to take them every single day for a long period of time, this works for me.

The thing that made me take a second look at adaptogens in general is that my period is almost a week late.

Remember how it adjusts your hormones? Yeah, a lot of people have this reaction--and it can make your period lighter. I'm mostly finding anecdotes from reddit, but there is a study about it helping with perimenopause.

My periods have never been super consistent. I have a rough idea of when they're going to come, but the cycle isn't exact. So this doesn't bother me a ton, but it's enough for some people to want to switch to an alternative method of controlling things like anxiety.

I'm already questioning whether my hormones are out of whack or not, so that's part of it.

I just think it's interesting. "Natural alternatives" are marketed as safer, without side effects. My experience has been that no matter what you do, you're throwing spaghetti at a wall to see what sticks--and you still need to look up everything you take to see if it's going to interact with anything else.

It would be nice if going to a doctor fixed this problem. Unfortunately, I've read too many stories about patients having to look things up for themselves, even after going to doctor after doctor.

It's like the pegboard with red string.

Anyway. My takeaway is still that what will fix your problems is appropriate treatment for your body. Unfortunately, this is different for everyone, and pretty much requires you to make a lifelong study of what to take and what the side effects are--no matter if you're taking supplements or drugs.

I'm still on the adaptogen train because I don't have to beg a doctor for help or make an appointment or beg a doctor to listen to me when it turns out that I need a change in my treatment plan or get registered as "really, she needs this" in order to get the thing that will help me.

I'm just. You know. Wondering. About what this is going to mean for my period going forward.

(And I'm going to have to research every single other thing I'm taking to see what the crossovers are.)

IMPORTANT: Ashwaganda can cause spontaneous abortion. Do not listen to anyone who says that adaptogens are safe to take during pregnancy. CHECK FIRST.

[unstableverse-headcanons]

🦜 Anon seeing you respond to my ask raised my serotonin and spiked my creativity ily so much /p

I love all of your takes like. I spent a good six+ hours thinking of them before I managed to start writing this.

I feel like when it comes to killing off characters, specifically members of Lifesteal SMP (seriously, I read the wiki page and not a SINGLE one of those guys has died???) has me thinking either a) Spoke, Wemmbu and Parrot don't want to kill off any of them cause they probably know them best or sum and it's easier to incorporate them in canon when they need a recurring character b) there's going to be a major event vs the director where, if not all, maybe a majority of the Lifestealers band together OR c) their deaths are going to serve as a hit as big as Wifies' and Dean's deaths despite the fact that some of them don't really seem as players as big to the plot as Wifies and Dean were.

Logic says it's c my heart says b I want the lifestealers being protective of each other and trying to help Parrot if he goes too far out (before either realizing he really is too far gone or like. Coming up with a way to reverse manipulate him out of the director's hold). I know it's more of a crack theory but your honor they are so found family coded they should get to violently beat each other w/o the murder part. Parrot should get to kill but the thought of him killing a Lifesteal member is both painful and like, depending on the player, chances are he's going to get overpowered without reinforcements.

WEMMBU'S "The only thing that works on this server is intimidation" LINE OH MY GOD WHAT IF THE MURDER ATTEMPTS ARE THE DIRECTOR'S WAY OF INTIMIDATING THEM AND NOT LIKE. ACTUALLY KILLING TJEM AND FHAYS WHY ITSREALME BACKS OFF OF PARROT AT THE END OF THE EPISODE????? I feel like The Director intimidating Parrot into joining the dark side and then Leo intimidating him into coming back would lowk be so funny for. No reason at all.

Additionally, I think that the only way the director could truly manipulate Parrot is by a) literally manipulating his code so that Parrot does what the director wants him to do but there would be. No point to the chase then really b) as the story progresses and a new person tries to kill Parrot time and time again and the bounty hunters have to save him cause these people just KEEP COMING AFTER HIM I hope there's more of like. One on one interactions between Parrot and the players sent after him. Maybe not even multiple players just like 3-4 people hired by the director with vastly different methods of intimidation. While Its stops trying to kill him he shows up to help the other people sent after Parrot and he serves as a more "familiar" voice where he like. Reveals itty bits of the director's "plans" but as the story progresses it's like. Yo this lowkey matches with what Parrot wants but it's like, actually a horribly corrupted version of what's really going on but Parrot is sad so he like. Despite his skepticism, he falls for it. And the other 2-3 players can be like. Maybe one of them tries to kill him by trapping him multiple times, and another threatens the bounty hunters (specifically Leo and maybe Nufuli, who Parrot hopefully gets closer to as the season progresses) but completely discard Derapchu and Jumper in a way to like. Show him that he's all alone except for these two players and one of them is quite literally being forced to care for him but either way if he doesn't give up and let himself be killed then they're going to kill them and it just. Messes with Parrot's state of being so much, leading him to believe he's a burden, that he really was better off on his own, that he should just leave the bounty hunters and no one would really care, that he's going to end up getting them killed like he got Wifies and Dean killed. That maybe there really is no way out.

Eventually, Parrot, who's highk been struggling mentally since s1, approaches one of the players and he asks for a 1v1 he knows he can't win but instead the player goes "Actually. I think I'd like to recommend you to the Director (: he'd really like you!" and maybe atp Parrot isn't so against working with the director because throughout the season Its or someone else tells him the director had nothing to do with Wifies' death, that Ash was just lying to get his way, etc etc. Maybe later on in the season through Spoke or Wemmbu's POV it's revealed that the whole thing had been orchestrated to get Parrot to come to the director because there was no way he'd join if the director threatened him, because it's shown that when given the choice between his own death or joining a person who he heavily disagrees/disapproves/dislikes he'll choose his own death time and time and time again.

If we don't get a Parallel Duo team-up at some point I'm. Gonna cry so bad. They deserve to team together but if they don't team I hope that, at the very least, in the case of villain! Parrot, Clown finds himself leaning on the balance but like. Maybe the director doesn't like that and threatens Branzy which then Clown doesn't like because who does bro think he is??? Though with the "You're right. We are different." line it feels like their stories are going to be mirrors of each other. I love villain Clown but the idea of this big bad scary guy being on the side of the heroes because he can admit when he needs help and he doesn't like the director because whatever his motives are they don't align with Clown's? Either way if we get a team-up I can imagine Parrot having a moral crisis and Clown just side eyeing him like "tf is wrong with that guy" 😭😭😭

Wemmbu and Spoke joining forces would be so cool cause then both through season 1 and season 2 their only like, "common" person is Parrot. In s1, Parrot starts off as seemingly an enemy of both Spoke and Wemmbu due to whatever backstory they have (which. Is something I actually want to get into in a min) and then when they have the mafia as a mutual conflict Parrot's like, their only common ally. So s2 being like, a flipped script and having them start off with Parrot as their only mutual ally and then moving into a mutual conflict would be fire. I'm also obsessed with the idea of the director sending reinforcements to help Parrot. I like to imagine him as more of like, a symbol, because Parrot's whole thing in s1 was his savior complex and the whole "hope" thing. He's literally the symbol of hope and peace - he's the one who convinces Wemmbu to join him and scrambles to make the best of it with Spoke and Mapicc when district 13 gets disbanded. The idea of the director taking this symbol and corrupting it beyond recognition.... I feel like that's a pretty good way to instill fear into players. Cause, like, Parrot is probably the only person willing to fight for what he believes in because his motto is literally "either I'm going to win or I'm going to die trying", everyone else either gives in or runs away.

Parrot not wearing armor would be peak but in order for it to work I feel like he has to have a player assigned to him by the director around him at all times. Someone tries to one tap him and they just get maced on the spot 😭

THE BACKSTORY. The backstory. I don't know what's going on in the backstory, but it's definitely something. I can not for the life of me figure out what Parrot could've done to piss off both Spoke and Zam so much that bro gets permanently banned from Zam's Empire and loses whatever friendship he had with Spoke. He doesn't even seem. Completely aware of what he did. Like Wemmbu clearly knows why Zam banned him from the Empire and Parrot's like "yeahhh i definitely know what you're talking about" but he like. Doesn't really seem to know what he's talking about??? Like I'm assuming there was an event between Spoke and Zam that kickstarted the whole war thing but like. I don't recall Parrot ever showing up in Spoke's videos during the Spoke/Zam conflict and it's like ??? It was something bad enough for both Zam and Spoke to dislike him but like, clearly couldn't be a major inconvenience because Zam and Spoke don't outright try to kill him until Parrot breaks Spoke and Wifies out of the prison (for Zam) and Spoke tries to climb the mafia ranks. I like to think that, like, maybe it had something to do with the director but I can't make complete sense of it.

ALSO. All the major groups in UU seems to happen in trios or technically, duos + one and I hope this continues to be a thing in s2. Ex: Spoke and Mapicc + Jamato, Ash and Red + Clown, Parrot and Wifies + Dean, Wemmbu and Egg + Zam, Spoke and Wemmbu + Parrot, etc etc. I think it's because like, the duos typically have something in common? Like they're either enemies or best buds and the third person kinda "complements" them as sort of a neutral ally? Idk if that makes sense.

Anyways ummm if we don't get villain! Parrot I hope that at the very least he has a breakdown or something where he just like, snaps at everyone. Jumper, Derapchu and Parrot go on a mission without Nufuli and Leo for some reason and Jumper as Derapchu maybe want to get out while Parrot is dead set on going deeper because he's been promised something to do with Wifies or sum idk. After bringing up Wifies' death and practically blaming them for it, Parrot tells them that they can go away because he's fine on his own despite all the progress he's made with Leo and Jumper and Derapchu are like. Torn between knocking some sense into him but risking pushing him away and just following him but risking one of them dying cause like. What do you do when the guy who's lowk your leader's son (if you bring it up you will get taken out back and shot), grief-struck by the loss of his closest friends and the abandonment from people he thought he could trust wants to do something that you're PRETTY sure is going to get either himself or someone else killed??

Either way I think that the route Parrot decides to take (willingly joining the director for revenge and killing the bounty hunters or being manipulated into joining the director but doing his best to like, not be the hand that takes the life of the person who took him in when he needed it most) could be the difference between s2 ending tragically (with atleast one of the protagonists and even more people dying) or defeating the director.

I think this is all I wanted to say sorry for the long text this is what happens when you don't write your thoughts down on time lol

- 🌺 Anon

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[dollie-disaster-darling]

fem sskk fanart :]]

okay so basically, I saw this amazing artist, AKA @tunamayuuu post fem sskk and I got so moved that I wanted to...make fanart of the fanart? I don't know what the name of that action is, but I did it. As one does.

(again, I have no idea how to tag someone so I'm trying out all the methods I saw on the internet :| )

You know, lately, I've been wondering to myself why I haven't drawn atsushi or akutagawa despite me liking them both. It's only while I was drawing I realized that I 100% *suck* at drawing those two specifically. Their hair makes me wanna 💥💥💥 i felt my soul leave my body when my first drawing of atsushi ended up looking like a generic power of friendship MC. And felt it forced back into me just to squeeze itself painfully when my first drawing of Akutagawa ended up looking like an emo Peppa pig.

So I'm really sorry, liege tuna. Despite me asking for your permission to use your designs, the abominations I made barely look like them! I really just can't draw with details, I guess. I wanted to make their hair as beautiful as the ones in the original fanart, but I couldn't do it. The marker work is also *abysmal* here, rip akutagawa's wild yet elegant hair with nice coloring. Oh well, at least the original is still there, as glorious as ever.

Anyways, I was planning on writing dialogue for the little blobs fighting but then I realized that I should just stick to one page so I left it out. It'd go something like:

[Akutagawa: Shut it, weretiger! I have no plans on taking any lectures from someone that doesn't iron their clothes!

Atsushi: Says the one whose hair is left alone more than endangered animals!

Akutagawa: What did you just say?!]

And then they fight til death does them part (wow) I just think thinking of them as yuri is really fun. The envy, the admiration, the closeness of understanding each other, and the distance from making assumptions about each other really just feels so at home with the yuri I like.

Anyways, this was kind of fun in a stressful way, but I'm glad I did it. Thank you adored tunamayuuu for letting me do this, please know your art gives me serotonin each time I see it. Atsushi, I'm sorry for making you look weird and for letting akutagawa sit on you. Akutagawa, I'm sorry for making your blush look like face paint swatches and for making your hair like that.

And that's all, I think (yay)

[ktownshizzle]

Can you tell me your writing process ? Do you outline ? Braindump? Write on your notes app? Just curious. Also your fav authors and comfort books. I always start something but never finish. So many unedited drafts of ideas but very little fruition.

Hi lovely anon! Sorry it took me a while to respond to this.

First of all, I hope you get the chance to write and find the inspiration to share your ideas to the world. I for sure would want to read them!

My writing process under the cut, in case anyone else is interested.

On writing

While I’ve been trained to write fast from news and sports writing in my previous jobs, when it comes to fic writing, I am not methodical at all, I fear.

Tldr; when I’m inspired, I write; when I’m tired, I stop.

I rarely force myself to write unless I am at the final editing stage and just want to finish it already. But generally I need to be in the correct head space to write. This might go against some of the usual advice, but since this is not my full-time job, it's important that I dictate my own pace and keep it fun, otherwise, I might stop.

So the way this goes is whenever I get inspired with something… I write. Honestly you guys sending me Yoongi photos or like wanting to talk about random Yoongi moments or theories have given me heapssss of inspiration! You have no idea! So keep sending those asks! 🤗

Basically once I have the big idea for the story, I try to do a general outline: bullet points of the characters, key moments, specific dialogue I want, etc. Then when I get inspired again, it’s a literal brain dump, typos and all, using Google Docs. I used to only be able to write using my laptop, but now I trained my brain to write using my phone, too, and this has increased my output because now I can write anywhere especially when I'm feeling insane.

Then I edit and expand the scenes. Finally, I work on the key moments that need to pack a punch which is the lead, the main conflict or the main tension point (first kisses are my fave!) and the ending. If there’s a smut scene, I write it last.

On managing your WIPS / drafts

Honestly, my WIP list is insane. I try not to let it bother me so much. but sometimes it pokes me like I'm a bear.

I do have a couple on ongoing/multi-chapter stuff so I pick up on what MC I feel like being at the moment then go from there. Or which MC y'all are really vibing with based on interactions and see if we can push the story further along from there.

Since you mentioned you have lots of unedited drafts, I suggest pick the best one you like and really envision that story and how you want it to go. You can even do a moodboard like what I add in my stories because it really helps set the tone and the vibe for me.

Oh, I wanna add that watching the boys on background like an MV or Run or whatever content also helps me. Instant serotonin boost.

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I am sorry if this so long. I hope this answered your q. I am not sure if my methods will be of help to you, but I pray that inspiration strikes for you soonest! My DMs are open if you wanna brainstorm! :)

[ixiot-ghostrebel]

Yk Back At The Random Ghost Rebel Stuff

A straight up ramble but does anyone feels this retching feeling in their hearts whenever they think about the High Cloud Quintet and its lore and go like "Dang, if only we COULD change what had happened bc this crap is dark and sad as hell" because that's what I feel like right now

And lemme tell you: It's not a good feeling bc I don't even want to think about how they're all just old and tired grannies and grandpas. The only person that has proper solace in the High Cloud Quintet is flipping Baiheng bro—poor Yingxing got turned into Blade bc yk—he's the beloved of that one relic set story.

Dan Flipping Feng becomes Dan Heng and even as Dan Heng he doesn't get a single drop of solace bc now the former-artisan-now-maniac dude is chasing him all across the universe bc of the sins of the past and it's just so heartbreaking bc Dan Heng isn't Dan Feng and Blade is only the shadow of Yingxing (this concept with Yingxing and Blade heavily reminds me of Makoto and Ei—Ei was the shadow of Makato and the shadow of the light is all that remains ykyk)

And then there's Jingliu who just straight up asks her student to kill her if she ever becomes mara-struck and in the end she still lives somehow and then she decides to go full-traumatizer with Blade back when he was the Unnamed that wandered the place—as if he needed MORE trauma and honestly her weak grasp over the mara which in turn makes her insane is so upsetting bc in the end she ends up having beef with a 14 year-old lieutenant who's trying to do his job and protect the Luofu (though, I have to admit it: as much as I want to protect my child Yanqing, his methods were kind of flawed—) even if he doesn't know who Jingliu is.

And ofc we got the last man standing Jing Yuan who just sees ghosts in everyone around him. Istg I feel like bc he sees ghosts, he can't move on from the past, and when he can't move on from the past, it's honestly a red flag bc it might mean that his present relationships with everyone are (sometimes) only just one-sided or something. Like, take the relationship between Yanqing and he: Yanqing trusts the General with his life bc he raised him as a baby. But the fact that he calls Jing Yuan "General" and not some sort of parental title says that Jing Yuan is being unnecessarily secretive due to his fear of vulnerability. I mean—literally in 1.2 Story Quest, Jing Yuan quite literally just left Yanqing on the island alone after he got beat up by two men that have beef with one another, practically leaving him in the dark with no explanation. And even before that, Yanqing was still left in the dark. Jing Yuan doesn't open up easily bc of the crap he's been through, which is understandable, but his lack of explanation backing up his highly meticulous moves—that's not really healthy. In the end, it just leaves a gap of mistrust, be it intentional or not, between Jing Yuan and Yanqing. In some cases, and this one (imo atleast) is one of them, if you don't explain your actions, it pretty much just leaves the person that's been left in the dark with their waves of emotions, which might cost said-relationship between the two people in the long run.

It also seems like (based off what we know of, at least) at least half of Jing Yuan's choices are also connected to sentimental reasons and seeing ghosts in people. I think he sees a ghost in Yanqing (idk who tho—ppl say it's Yingxing bc of his obsession over the sword), he sees one in Yukong (definitely Baiheng), he sees one in Dan Heng (obvious reasons, very evident throughout the game) and possible Bailu (because she's technically being hailed as the next Imbibitor Lunae after Dan Feng's sin), and it could possibly go on. This old grandpa really is comparing the present with his past and that's honestly a little heartbreaking, bc there is a chance that that might mean that Jing Yuan found more happiness (serotonin work hardcore fr) in his past than he does in his present. He should at least be happy enough of the present to not be this sentimental of the past, but he's really suffering of the incidents like bro—

The High Cloud Quintet is like The Five Yakshas from Genshin Impact but with more lore (that we know of) and more angst twists (that we know of) to it fr. It's so heartbreaking and angsty, I both love it, hate it, and cry about it.

Like bro, look at these two groups. It's always a group of five sobbing.

They're all fine as hell too like CMON

[allowmetohityouwithmyreblog]

Uh, I dunno how many ppl this will reach because I have no idea how to tag this but:

Please, tell me a silly story from your day. Something funny that a freind did, and animal you saw, a meme you enjoyed. I need serotonin and interacting with strangers and hearing silly stories from their lives always does it for me. It’s nice to know the world can still be funny in these trying times :3

I’ll start: Today I was talking to a friend, and she, unbeknownst to the fact I hate strong smells, asks me to sniff her wrist. I had thought it was her sleeve she was having me smell, so I was confused, before she clarified and put her wrist to my nose. Queue me taking a large ass breath before leaning over to cough really hard for a few minutes— before she tried to ask me if I was alright and trying to help me. After I was done I started laughing, apologized, and before I could explain she made a sad face— and I asked her why.

Miss girl had bought my favorite perfume to wear because she liked how it smells and she wanted to wear it, so she was just so excited to show me she had bought it she put it on to have me guess what it was 😭

I explained the whole situation, and that led to her asking how I put on perfume. I demonstrated, picking up the bottle, spraying three puffs in the air far away from me, one face level, one midsection, one floor— then I walked into the cloud, closing my eyes and holding my breath, doing a little spin, before walking away. Apparently my method of perfume-wearing is not uh… normal 🙃

[lemedstudent2021]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who reblogged something from you! get to know your mutuals and followers 💜💜

was not expecting this sweet of a surprise in my inbox lol

*conveniently forgets everything that gives me serotonin* ;-;

I. my identity. unusual choice i know, but the building blocks that make me me give me peace, warmth and joy. they provide comfort, promise me betterment, prove to me time and time again that there is so much beauty to life, if only we have the eyes to see it and the heart to embrace it. they also occasionally give me grief but such is life XD

things like being a muslim alhamdulillah first and foremost, a hijabi, proud jordanian, quasi-polymath, socially anxious (coffee) bean...

II. knowledge and its pursuit. for as far as i can remember ive always been drawn to the known and unknown of anything and everything. libraries are my safe spaces, books are my friends, and scholarliness is my goal. truly the fastest way to my heart is by infodumping while i sip my tea and watch your face light up with every word <3

III. the basic necessities of life like food, sleep, and existing. doing literally nothing (and occasionally dissociating in the process lol) is one of the best things one can do. simply be. that and eating my feelings and sleeping to unholy hours. #medstudent #godimsotired

IV. as much as people terrify me sometimes, there is something unmistakable about the innate desire and longing for human connection. meaningful and deep relationships with friends and family mean the world to me, and their happiness is equally, if not more so, mine :') (yall keep me sane thank you for your service xxx)

V. im leaving the last one slightly ambiguous ish, becasue i can never tell when and where my (temporary) new found infatuations with quite literally anything take me. as of this week, im sliding back to my hades & persephone rabbit hole of the beauty of life and death as seperate entities, and then intertwined as one. *sob*

a while back i was absolutely enamoured with botany and traditional chinese medicine (i blame maomao) and before that embroidery, psycholinguistics, medieval torture devices and execution methods and japanese mythology. fun times :)

[morshrill]

Oh, what kind of music do you like listening to? Or is your taste kinda all over the place? Your other method of calming down is interesting, more so the pleasure you get from it; is it like a rush of serotonin?

I'm glad to hear the love is reciprocated !! It's much appreciated! and ofc, anytime Mor!

I typically end up shutting down, as silly as that seems! I get overwhelmed easily and taking a step back and just shutting my brain down for a little feels like the best escape from big scary emotions haha, though I admit that's not the best method! I also just kinda cry sometimes, I find that even if I feel sillier then a clown in a supermarket it does help.

My music is all over the place, like you described, but I enjoy rock music. My darling occasionally sends me music to listen to, so I try to listen to those as frequently as possible. She mainly likes electronic music, which isn’t a genre I’m used to, but I listen to it for her. 

Shutting down isn’t silly, and it’s something I do frequently, too. If it helps you process overwhelming emotions, then I’d say it’s a net positive. Same with crying—I find crying to be a good outlet, even if I struggle to cry. There is nothing to be ashamed of when it comes to how you cope. Your coping mechanisms are supposed to help you, so the opinions of others should be rendered obsolete. 

“Your other method of calming down is interesting, more so the pleasure you get from it; is it like a rush of serotonin?”

When it comes to the coping mechanism I mentioned in my previous response, I can’t describe it, but it feeds into this victim mentality I’m guilty of having. Indulging in suffering is much easier than triumphing over it. 

I hope you are doing well today. Thank your for the ask.

[acaplaya-musings]

Voiceplay Visuals: Get Back Up Again

It took me a while to watch this one for the first time (which I did like a month or two ago), can't exactly explain why, though it did probably have something to do with the fact that I've never seen Trolls. Sure, I've seen a couple of scenes from it, and I know the characters and the basic plot, but I've just never actually sat down to watch it! And the only original song I knew from the movie was Can't Stop The Feeling (because it'd be basically impossible to not have heard it by this point). This song is really good though (originally written by Pasek & Paul apparently, which explains a lot), and Voiceplay's video for it (released in May 2018) is very fun as well, so let's get into it!

Some person called "Leo" is credited for the intro animation, so shoutout to Leo! The little character designs are so cute, and I will get to each one individually.

The up-and-down hand movements that J is doing at the start of the video, they intrigue me and I swear he (or possibly another VP member) has done very similiar hand motions in a different video. Does stuff like that just come with being an acapella singer or something?

Earl is Poppy, the main character of the movie! He looks good in pink honestly

Eli is Branch, the secondary protagonist (I guess?) of the movie

J None is Guy Diamond (a troll covered in silver glitter) and he's styling!

Geoff is Biggie, one of the biggest troll characters in the movie, who has a pet worm/best friend called Mr Dinkles (yes, that is what Geoff is holding)

And Layne is Smidge, who apparently (I looked it up on the Trolls Wiki) is one of the shortest trolls in the movie (ironic considering Layne is the tallest of the group), and is female, but speaks with a deep, masculine-sounding voice (trust Layne to give himself a comedic casting choice 😂 (this was his arrangement, and he and Geoff collaborated on the video))

1, Earl seems Confused by Layne's percussion-making method. 2, those chairs look really soft and comfy. And 3, great face Geoff 😆

Obligatory acknowledgement of J 'farting' glitter. I'm guessing it's a thing that Guy Diamond does in the movie

Okay so Geoff's hair does seem basically the same as it does in the 80s Cartoon Themes video (I was wondering), it might just be styled ever-so-slightly differently or something (also I really love his smiles in this video <3 )

Did J already own that necklace or was it bought just for this video?

Eli is Confused and Tired 😂

I don't think this is just a lowering of the lighting in this shot here, I think it's also got lower saturation levels I believe? (Possibly a post-production effect).

(Also Geoff being pretty without even trying (again))

"cause I know that I'm really really really gonna be OKAY!"

And then Eli, J, and Geoff's reactions 😆

Shoutout to Kathy (Geoff's wife) for doing the puppeteering in this video!

Geoff seems to be having fun anyway!

Love the subtle camera shake on the "if you knock knock me over, knock knock me over" line, in time with the knocking!

"Hug time!" "Hug time! I love hug time! Hug time's my favourite.

Also shout to the end card with the guys playing with the dolls/puppets, and "thank you to the Patrons for supporting this...craft project" 😂

This video is definitely a serotonin booster, both visually and musically!