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let's talk about project 2025 and smut.
bc I've seen some of my favorite authors already state they aren't writing any more smut due to the mere threat of project 2025 going into effect. And hey, I'm a simple person who likes to read abt sexy times.
pls read through all the way and share if ya like any of what i wrote here - i don't want panic to be spreading through the writers of tumblr/ao3 like wildfire unchecked.
qualifications: BA in political science focusing on domestic policy, activism and ethnic studies.
Part I - what is it?
project 2025 at its core is a roadmap. it was created by the Heritage Foundation (an extremely far right disgusting think tank), and plenty of people associated with the previous and incoming Trump presidency. its like 900 pages of alt-right, christian nationalist bullshit.
but its not uncommon.
think tanks like the Heritage Foundation often create roadmaps like this to plot out what they would most want to see in a future presidency or period of political control. it isn't even particular to right-wing think tanks; left wing ones do it too! the difference in this case is the magnitude and attention paid to the manifesto.
the heritage foundation is a vast organization with a lot of money, and has had a part in US politics for a long ass time now. because of this, what they say/do carries a bit more weight. combined with the fact that dems in the past election used project 2025 as a common refrain (instead of like, developing their own policy but whatevs), you get a general public who is aware of the buzzword "project 2025" but not knowledgeable about what it contains.
what it does actually include is certainly worrying, but among the new freaky shit is a ton of stuff that has been on the republican party's to do list since day one, like dismantling the department of education. just reading that seems really shocking, i know, but if you look back to when the department was created, you will find evidence of republicans trying desperately to dismantle it.
i find the media flurry around project 2025 to be a bit concerning, because while i understand dems wanting to show voters how dangerous this shit can be, its also made it into something far more important than it could actually be. as i stated earlier, these types of policy blueprints are extremely common among think tanks. its like their entire job!! and yes, this one is scarier and more visible than others, but it
a.) isn't the official policy of the incoming admin (and if you look at their actual policy statement, its very clear they don't rly have policies, so who knows what that's gonna look like)
b.) isn't united states federal law
Part II - what's it gonna look like?
i'm not gonna sit here and say you shouldn't be worried about project 2025, bc a lot of whats in it is freaky asf. but that freakiness is what (in my opinion) will be its primary challenge. since its so out there, the extreme right wing republicans are going to have to work their asses off to get the votes they need to pass these things.
which brings me to another point-- project 2025 is a whole list of proposals. its not like republicans can put forth one bill that has the entirety of project 2025 in it and pass it all at once. for a whole laundry list of reasons, that's not possible. the process of getting one bill passed through the house and senate is an excruciatingly long one, and doing this process for 900 pages worth of plans ain't gonna be easy.
i should mention that donald trump has yet to endorse the plan as his own, so there's the real possibility that he wont even want to implement any of the ideas included. i could 100% see him ignoring the entire plan because he doesn't like that someone else came up with it tbh. and while i don't believe he has never heard of the heritage foundation, as he has claimed in the past, i think it is important to note that there hasn't been any confirmation from him that project 2025 is his roadmap.
the plan includes rollbacks of rights for every minority group possible, restrictions on immigration, access to morning-after pills, restructuring of the federal government to allow for easier hiring and firing based on little/no evidence, etc. all in all, not great.
but again, project 2025 isn't united states federal law
Part III - what does it mean for fanfic authors?
the section that has the fanfic-consuming/creating world in a tizzy is the bit about outlawing pornography. this is a concerning policy propsal, but not because of possible fanfic bans. rather, bc project 2025 and the heritage foundation at large sees queerness as inherently and exclusively sexual.
"pornography, manifested today in the omnipresent propagation of transgender ideology and sexualization of children" (The Heritage Foundation, p.5)
thus, if they ban pornography (with a definition that includes/focuses on queerness), they can effectively ban expressions of queerness in the united states.
that shit is scary. and while i never want to rely on foundational documents when the people interpreting those documents (court justices (esp those appointed by the previous and incoming trump admin)), i will hesitantly say that this is gonna be a tough sell. both from a constitutional standpoint, and from a broad base support standpoint.
for the first of the two points, arguing that the first amendment doesn't "apply" to something is always a slippery slope, and defending that point is extraordinarily difficult. obviously this isnt always the case, but especially relating to pornography and obscenity, proving that a work fails the Miller test (a three part test created in Miller v. California (1973) to determine if something is obscene or not) is, like, really hard (heh).*
while the miller test is precedent for specific cases that come up in the court system, if some version of the porn ban goes into effect, the US court system is going to be dealing with challenges from every state, every form of media, every fandom.
which brings me to the second point. broad base support.
while the headline about Grindr crashing in Milwaukee during the RNC wasn't true in 2024, republican events in previous have brought an influx in users to the area in which the events are held if ya know what i'm sayin👀
on a real note though, getting a pornography ban passed in the united states would be exceedingly hard (no pun intended). especially one that includes forms of media like written pornography, not just visual. in terms of feasibility, a ban on video pornography is incrementally more likely than one on all forms of pornography. arguments against porn are weak at best, and the anti-porn movement in the US (usually religious) has been trying, and failing, for decades to ban pornography. most content about porn bans also refers primarily to video-based porn, not written smut.
let's just say worst case scenario something like this does go into action. anything you've written before the law goes into action cannot be used as a way to prosecute you. that would be an example of ex post facto punishment, which is explicitly prohibited in the constitution and by court precedent.
*note: i'm not endorsing the way the US court precedents around porn/obscenity look, as they are another symptom of purity culture and anti-sex culture created in the US
Part IV - what do we do?
well, giving up before a bill has even been proposed ain't it. it makes me deeply sad to see so many writers saying they wont be writing smut anymore because of the vague possibility of this plan. not only does it make me sad, it makes me angry. because that means people have seen so much misinformation about what project 2025 is and how it works that they are too scared to do anything about it. let me repeat again.
project 2025 is not law in the united states of america, nor is it in the process of becoming so. act accordingly.
so go forth, write smut, be gay, do some shit to make the heritage foundation angry today. and don't give up before the battle has even started. bc that's how they win. and i know shit seems really scary, but community and mutual aid is how we are gonna make it through this, so do your due diligence and research what you're scared about! knowledge is power and you gotta wield that sh*t.
i'd like to end with a quote from Timothy Snyder, who everyone and their mother has been quoting recently, but i still think it has value.
"Do not obey in advance. Most of the power of authoritarianism is freely given. In times like these, individuals think ahead about what a more repressive government will want, and then offer themselves without being asked. A citizen who adapts in this way is teaching power what it can do. Anticipatory obedience is a political tragedy." (Excerpted from On Tyranny by Timothy Snyder, 2017)
[Note - i have cited sources where appropriate, but this is also based on my (important to note, informed) opinion. please treat it as such, thank you]
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the first time Dean looked at his brother, only 13 and looking younger and saw something he wanted like he wanted the girls in town he felt an unbearable disgust. A week-long bender later he realized that it was even worse than he thought, he didn't want Sammy like he wanted all those girls in bars, he wanted him like the prince wants the princess, a fairy-tale true love, deep kiss as the screen turns black kinda want. He, of course, threw up as soon as he realized that.
Sam was 15 now, less skinny but still, his bones showed when he stretched and Dean was constantly stuck between a motherly wanting to put more meat on his bones and a not-so motherly wanting to eat him alive. Most days he wasn't sure if that was sexual or if he was just even more disgusting than he thought.
#Yes#This is a part of a fic I might write#What of it.#wincest#samdean#weecest#weirdcest#Sorta#Cannibalistic thoughts#Funn#This is like a combination of a ton of stuff
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no one asked for it but i brought some very crunched mizunene
#hi. is there anyone to hear me#thyed be so cute n silly n explore gender in so many ways n also hack n pirate tons of stuff#w rui. she will join them too i just had very limited time#sorry for my nene favoritism it looks like it would be one sided but theyd equally admire each other in so many ways do u guys hear me#n theyd share their interests... n learn many new artistic ways of expression through it..... peace and love...#blacks out falls face down dead on the floor. i swing between breakdowns bc i dont have enough time to finish all assignments#n doing this in one of the few evenings when im not dead tired instead of some homework. ok#nene kusanagi#mizuki akiyama#honami mochizuki#minori hanasato#mizunene#project sekai#project sekai fanart#pjsk fa#komashkart#i missed them sm#also also like robonene. it links them sm. the costume. the fact that she way faster hacks n finds info#mzk n nene both bullying their haters online. can u imagine the power theyd have combined. GAHHHHH
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Some rise miraculous au doobles
Completely disregards pre-existing miraculous romantic relationships. Tcest dni
Click for unfuzziness. Base color versions below
#gornack art tag#gornack click to see details tag#rottmnt#rottmnt art#rottmnt au#rottmnt leo#rottmnt lou jitsu#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt mikey#rottmnt april#rottmnt big mama#miraculous#miraculous ladybug#miraculous fanart#miraculous au#im changing a ton of lore bc its already changed its an au#lol raph gets the ox miraculous but hes leos bodyguard#id make leo more timid and stuff but hed be a rich mean asshole a little bit#yes hes raised by big mama#splinter is like master fu and marinettes parents combined#making a ton more art for this btw#cuz i fucking love it#god i cooked on donnie and big mamas designs#i think big mamas skin turning pink bc of my rendering overlays is so funny#first time drawing her#fuck i love that piece#esp base color
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i saw that you used to hint at oc stuff on twitter (don't ask me why im digging im looking for zola stuff lmao) why don't you post more about them?
i am simply terrified that if i post oc things online someone will steal the concept and run with it faster and better than i ever could have and then i will be devastated forever and ever
more seriously i have very little to show for any of my oc things (adhd brain making life difficult as per usual awawawawawa) and every time i've shared oc things in the past i've ended up never following up on it and it makes me feel bad and guilty so i've just convinced myself i will Never talk about my ocs until i have something substantial i can put out there
#mio answers things#anon#i'm getting a little better with making things for my ocs#on account of having friends i can actively share my brain rot with#but i still dread the feeling of posting a character and being forever haunted about never doing anything with them ever again#(echoes of custard howling in my mind)#just like how i dread having a repeat of that time in middle school#where i talked about my werecrow oc in the comments of a bigger artist's works#and they ended up making their own werecrow oc immediately after#they very much directly aligned with mine#but it got wildly popular on their account and they made a ton of art for it and i just#ended up deleting any evidence of mine because i felt so bad about it skjdfhgkldhfkgj#like i have no problem with people taking inspiration from my designs#i think it's fun seeing people design vy2s with two toned hair and kyos with pink eyes and hair pins w#but like. the thought of posting my oc and having someone run them through a blender to make their own character makes me feel. bad.#i can't articulate the specific reason Why it makes me feel bad but it does skjfghdkjfgsdhkjf#like if i finally posted theater gang stuff and then saw someone else take those concepts and make them into their own characters#i might just collapse into a pile of beef trimmings and never get up sdfkjhglksjdfg#it's silly and i don't know why my brain's like this but because of this in combination with my fear of posted oc things haunting me foreve#i simply will not be posting <3333#(and also just that. i'm incapable of producing enough artwork to make my ocs matter in a public context i think.)#(like you breed affection for a character through familiarity)#(which you only really get by creating A Lot Of Art)#(and i cannot do that <333)#(so instead most times i post it's a few handfuls of likes)#(and that doesn't really feel worth it to my brain when i could just settle for going insane over them with my friends skjdfhgkjsdf)#i really think this last year has just taught me that i really. honestly truly prioritize the reactions and feelings of my friends#over strangers on the internet#and it feels a lot more comfortable that way w#AH
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Woke up from my little power outage nap and couldn’t even manage to eat a full box of macked cheese, grad school will fuck you up for life kids, do it at your own risk.
#my stuff#i don’t like to admit it but i’ve developed a complicated relationship with food#i’m a rational person i know food is important and i feel hunger and when i do i want to eat#but due to the hassle of meal prep and my tight finances i basically only eat one meal a day at the end and use coffee to power through#often until like 6pm#which i know is not good in a general or transition sense#and when i was first starting to fall into this pattern i would eat A TON at night to make up for it#but sometime during my grief in march n april i developed#a psychological difficulty with finishing food. like executive dysfunction and insecurity hoarding combined#and also i sometimes get nauseous midway through eating#or rapidly feel full after being doubled over from hunger cramps and then hungry again an hour later#and above all else it’s annoying bc its subconscious or physiological and it makes it hard to overcome#and even if i was provided 3 meals a day i’d probably struggle to stomach eating that freq in any significant amount#i feel like when my stomach is empty it tries to quasi hibernate until last minute and then goes ravenous#much like me emotionally but that’s a different tag rant#anyways another complication is ‘sleep for dinner’ right when i get home which fucks up my eating AND sleep schedule#all this bullshit when i’m a scientist who has taken metabolism classes and knows my body is getting wrecked from this#so i’m guilty as fuck abt it🙂↕️
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commission for @graymorart 🌼
#i haven't fully rendered a piece in ages this was a joy to work on#it combines a ton of stuff i like doing: shiny surfaces#blood#AND fun face markings#literally said yippee when i got the refs for it#blood tw#illustration#digital art#digital illustration#procreate#lime made art#bg3#bg3 dark urge#full render example#commission example
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hi! just wondering when you were going live again?
hey!! i was planning on going live this friday and saturday since i had a long weekend but it turned out to be a total disaster with my power going out which made my computer start acting funny (it's fine now!) and dealing w/ bad cramps so ;-; im very sad abt that!
my goal is to go live next week and if i don't i'll make sure to let you guys know!
#haven't touched my computer until rn since i feel a bit better i was working on recoloring tuds chef stations so i can start building-#the n*ma resturant tht i want romeo to “work” at but im gonna pretend its a culinary school it's so gorgeous i had a ton of reference pics#but alas all my work in s4s is gone bc of power but! its ok#im just gonna keep rambling ok so im tempted to unlist all my yt vids on my channel and rebrand so i can start fresh#i really want to get into making a proper lets play and getting more comfy editing long-form stuff bc i understand not everyone wants to-#watch a 4hr long livestream and most of it can but cut down esp all the loading screens and set-up stuff#i like streaming the mancusos bc its less pressure to have it be perfect but im thinking of doing a lets play w/ the landgraabs and john(ny#i actually already recorded two episodes kind of one is like a test recording but i may just combine the two yk#ok ithink im done rambling im getting bored now i dont have any gp posts bc i havent been playing so ill see you all next week <3
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part one. once it's fixed. ohhhh will be so beautiful.
#.txt#SO GLAD that i'm like idk halfway done with the hardest part of p1 i think. bc i know after like chapter 4/5 or whatever for some reason#it's all bangers. i was just knocking it out of the park at the end there somehow. so i don't have a ton to fix there#but tbqh once i'm done with part one i'll probably go back. AGAIN. and then do the real ass editing like the ''making sure descriptions are#good and that dialogue sounds good'' type stuff before i move on to this bullshit with part two. lolz.#AT LEAST part two doesn't need a crazy amount ADDED just a crazy amount removed and moved and combined lol
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i absolutely am an idiot sometimes huh
#ate too much today#5 tacos in the day and 4 pizza slices for dinner#plus some other stuff for dessert earlier#feeling lightheaded also tho that's unrelated i just didn't sleep well today#feel like imma pass out if i lay down for a bit but if it's like yesterday I won't be able to sleep and just#keep jolting back up bc of my blood pressure being wonky bc of anxiety and shit#it's cool. :)#if i could make that face bold i would#i constantly have like 10 things going on that combine into a shittier thing that feels horrible#well not constantly but very frequent when im in bed at night#sitting in one place all day staring at a screen and eating a shit ton of food will do that to ya#but i never learn etc etc#also cool to have anxiety about nothing all the time#personal
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Zero, Zenith, Dorn, NM-Dev-1, Seven of Nine, Kai, Murderbot, and the Toy Soldier are my absolutely favorite character archetype. If you make a book or a TV show and put someone in it who matches the criteria they will immediately be my favorite no or very few questions asked which is why it’s so frustrating that I can’t articulate what exactly this type of character is.
#i cant be like theyre a cyborg because zero#i cant be like they gotta have amnesia because dev#i cant be like they gotta be overwhelmed with guilt because the toy soldier#theres a lot of really broad elements that apply to tons of characters i like but dont lump in with these#and a lot of narrower elements that dont apply to everyone i associate with this type#and i guess its just like a combination of character traits and setting and plot stuff where it doesnt need to tick every box but#i want to be able to point it out#there are more too btw this is just the eight i pulled off the top of my head. i love them!!
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About to serve absolutely abysmal cunt
#talkingcore#yay choir 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉#I’m going to slay and by slay I mean song 90 minutes worth of historical church music pebblezone is being converted#British people may suck but fuck if they can’t write some banger religious music#oh that reminds me of my musicology class I took last semester which was like Yeah is it ethical to support the messiah#because some dude unearthed documents that tied like the funding for a shit ton of Hansel’s stuff to the slave trade#anyway album updates uhhh oh I listened to American football and can say easily twas the hardest listen so far#it sounded like if I combined my 2018 sad tumblr thoughts with the guitar prowess of a middle school music class being allowed to fuckaround#I love a funky rhythm I think they can be so sexy but when it just sounds like you don’t know where to place emphasis idk#I’m feeling like a hater today I’m in a hater mood rn I wanted to have an open mind for the indie boys out there and could not do it#I could not finish it which is unfortunate given it’s definitely some people’s favorite out there and I don’t wanna yuck their yum#anyway about to be the sexiest person on stage (this is actually false there is a soprano soloist and she’s stunning she slaughters an a5#it was so vibrant I gotta make sure my face doesn’t show emotions on stage during it I shall not weep#I think Walter would like creep by radiohead. okay I gotta go dammit
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I'd also like to point out that kudos really will skew certain ways.
If a fic is a 40 chapter, 100k WIP that's still being updated will typically generate a lot more kudos (especially if it's been going for years!) than a brilliant 10k one-shot, or a drabble series that makes absolutely stunning use of short-form storytelling, or a 4k 2 chapter that will hit every single one of your "yes please" buttons but happens to be for some more niche character/pairing/trope/etc.
A fic that's very old may have a lot more kudos than something equally as good (or even better to your tastes) than something much newer simply because it's had years to accrue them.
If somebody is a BNF then... Well, they could be writing absolute dogshit quality about a bunch of wildly different OCs who seem to have murdered the canon characters and are masquerading in their skins instead and causing a whole bunch of absolutely wildly unsupported or even canon-contradictory fanon to get passed around and they'll still have kudos heaped upon them by virtue of being a BNF.
It's also entirely possible to game the system on kudos. Right now, without any real effort, for a fic that allows logged out users I could easily give five (5) kudos to a fic between my devices that will register as a different person and my accounts. I could do three (3) for fics that only allow logged-in users to do so. Honestly this is a well-used tactic to give a fic extra kudos on a re-read by doing it as a guest. I've also seen people who absolutely get their friends together to game the system and artificially inflate their kudos to keep their fic at the top of the kudos search if somebody else starts getting a little too much attention for their liking.
Also, hits will absolutely skew towards fic with more chapters as well as older fic--and also keep in mind that not all of those hits are people! Every time a bot hits the fic (which happens non-maliciously for things like populating search engines so you can find the fic when you google it) it will generate a hit. Hits also won't tell you if a fic is good/enjoyable/well-written/whatever. His merely tell you "this is how many times a link was clicked". A hit is generated the same for somebody who clicked in and loved it as the best thing they'd seen yet and somebody who got 3 sentences in and noped out of there so hard they got metaphorical whiplash because it was the worst thing they'd ever encountered according to their personal tastes.
Really, your best bet for finding good fic and hidden gems is not to sort by highest kudos/comments/hits, it's to consider what it is you're looking for and limit search results to that and then go through and see what interests you and give those fics that got less attention at least a chance if the summary and tags seem to your tastes. Sometimes you'll find stuff you didn't need to waste time on, sometimes you'll find amazing things. But you'll also find stuff you wish you hadn't wasted time on if you sort for highest kudos/hits, too, so this way at least you have a chance of finding a less popular but no less fun to read fic.
fuck it, I'm romanticizing underrated ao3 works now. 8,000 word fics with only 13 kudos, even after 5 months. multi-chaptered works with only 11 comments from the same 3 people and the author themself. incredibly specific works featuring OC's mingling with canon characters that only get 5 kudos. rare-pair fics. gift works that are literally ONLY for the receiver.
#honestly i just sort by most updated and work my way back#i filter for and out what i do or do not want and then i ignore the kudos and comments and hits#i focus entirely on 'does the summary seem to my tastes and what about the tags?'#and 'does the length combined with chapter count seem like the sort of pace i want right now'?#tons of fic that i end up reading isn't the most popular in it's fandom! and it's highly enjoyable!#give the stuff with less kudos and hits a chance sometimes#worst that happens is you don't like it and you'll run into that plenty with the most popular fics anyway
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i really should make rice more often i just never do because it takes time and im not in touch with my hunger signals enough to plan it out properly anymore plus with my family always blasting the tv (misophonia) i usually end up wanting/needing to spend as little time in the kitchen as possible...but i do miss rice...SIGH
#mine#well now that im unemployed maybe i can have it at lunch or early dinners or something#did u guys know last month during the training for the job i had to have a 15 minute lunch!??!?!?#so awful. the company was east coast based so the schedule was based on them and not me#but thats neither here nor there. i miss you rice#also i rbed that last post with the ferret or whatever it is at 33033 notes do you think thats a good omen#also i just had a fun little jpmd session im not going to post bc it was pretty short ill just combine it into the next post#but i can feel the immersion working...if i keep pushing i am sure i will see more progress#im trying to get into audio immersion as well like on youtube and stuff#i still like the more structural and classroomy stuff but i learned so much of that (at a basic level)#that i feel like i have a good enough grasp of the skeleton of things and now i want to do FUN learning#like jpmd! :)#it really helps the structures set in and it teaches me BUTTLOADS of vocab for real#and now even when im playing the yakuza games im noticing progress. i can pick out tons more individual words#in sentences and when i hear them i can connect them to the translation#sometimes even whole sentences!!!!! its pretty exciting#being employed kept me away from jp for a while so now that i am jobless again im gonna try to really get back into it#while i still can#ok tag ramble over
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T!kt0k reactions to stuff I'm seeing
Tw/ fatphobia, death feederism
#negative shit i keep seeing on the internet#ughhhhh i keep seeing a ton of stuff about feeder/feedee stuff after amb3rlynn started dating someone new#its all super negative and “all feeders want women immobile and to die” HUH? WHAT THE FUCK!?#I dont know why death feedism exists dont lump me in with that crazy#also everyone is going crazy acting like feedees have no say in their options (Aside from abusive situations and exception and exceptions)#why can two consenting adults not do what they want to do?#no kinks should be forced on others in any way shape or form they should just be fun for consenting adults#Fatphobia (esp when people are saying theyd rather be dead than fat) and people equating feeders means abusive all combined is not good#I'm not being very eloquent#I have feelings and ideas about this but not sure how to put them#i dont know how I feel about every little thing too#But who am I to condone and condem relationships between two consenting adults it doesnt hurt me#If you have a nuanced helpful take that isnt “fat people are bad and ugly” I'd appreciate others thoughts
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Okay, anyone else on SSRIs: is it normal to suddenly feel a little bit stupid all the time
#i just feel like i’m forgetful and spacy all of a sudden. and sometimes this feeling comes over me that is not unlike the feeling i used to#get when i smoked tons of weed. just without the dry eyes and hunger#so really just the feeling of having a thick head and the feeling that i am essentially personifying this emoji: 😵💫#it just makes me a little dumb… it makes me say stupid things and forget basic stuff like when pilates ends#mind you i’ve been going to pilates since september and it always ends at the same time and i’ve never forgotten before#there’s a part of me that’s like… was i smarter before? i’m sure i had better clarity before i started citalopram#i mean i’ve always been bad at communicating but i’ve never been as disorganised as i’ve become#i’m definitely less anxious though. i mean i still don’t enjoy stuff like job interviews but i didn’t have a panic attack today#or feel physically sick or anything. i just got very sweaty and didn’t want to go lol#i think that was mostly the beta blockers that helped with that. i definitely find that citalopram and propanolol combined#makes me a bit more rubbish cognitively and also makes me Very prone to sweating profusely and having a dry mouth#but it calms me down. so?? decent trade-off i guess????#anyway i’m going to stay on it and see how things go. i haven’t had anything seriously bad happen to me#i mean having my iq reduced by about 20 points is probably worth being less freaked out by anything and everything#personal
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