#and also i sometimes get nauseous midway through eating
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Woke up from my little power outage nap and couldn’t even manage to eat a full box of macked cheese, grad school will fuck you up for life kids, do it at your own risk.
#my stuff#i don’t like to admit it but i’ve developed a complicated relationship with food#i’m a rational person i know food is important and i feel hunger and when i do i want to eat#but due to the hassle of meal prep and my tight finances i basically only eat one meal a day at the end and use coffee to power through#often until like 6pm#which i know is not good in a general or transition sense#and when i was first starting to fall into this pattern i would eat A TON at night to make up for it#but sometime during my grief in march n april i developed#a psychological difficulty with finishing food. like executive dysfunction and insecurity hoarding combined#and also i sometimes get nauseous midway through eating#or rapidly feel full after being doubled over from hunger cramps and then hungry again an hour later#and above all else it’s annoying bc its subconscious or physiological and it makes it hard to overcome#and even if i was provided 3 meals a day i’d probably struggle to stomach eating that freq in any significant amount#i feel like when my stomach is empty it tries to quasi hibernate until last minute and then goes ravenous#much like me emotionally but that’s a different tag rant#anyways another complication is ‘sleep for dinner’ right when i get home which fucks up my eating AND sleep schedule#all this bullshit when i’m a scientist who has taken metabolism classes and knows my body is getting wrecked from this#so i’m guilty as fuck abt it🙂↕️
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Back to Normalcy (Lost and Found Arc)
Everyone brought Frisk and Chara out of the hospital and back home. Frisk and Chara weren't very happy with the terms they had to take to leave, but at least they were with their family.
After 30 minutes of driving, they all arived at Toriel's house, where Sans, Papyrus and Gaster were waiting for them. They went inside and saw the skeletons waiting for them in the living room.
"Hey, Sans, Papy, we're back!" Frisk declared.
All three of them immediately dropped what they were doing to see Frisk and Chara. All of them were so happy to see that glowing smile of Frisk's face, their eyesockets flooded with enough green energy to give them a flame-like aura.
"BRO! YOU'RE OKAY!" Sans said, crying tears of joy.
"You came back to us after all! I knew my greatness rubbed off on you!" Confirmed an estatic Papyrus.
Frisk wagged his tail happily and licked his brothers in the face.
"Yeah. Sure did." Agreed Frisk.
The brothers shared a hug as Erica and Soichiro approached them.
"Hey, mom, sorry I was so hard on Frisk earlier." Said a guilty Sans.
"It's fine. Your brother just needs some help. That's all." Replied Erica.
"Yeah. And we're really sorry. Chara and I fucked up real bad." Admitted a guilty Frisk, who tucked his tail between his legs.
"But, we're ready now, you guys." Chara said as she stepped forward.
"Hmm? What do you mean, Chara and Frisk?" Asked Gaster.
"To go to a therapist to talk about our problems. WITHOUT JUDGMENT."
"What? Why?" Questioned Sans.
"Big bro, you know why." Said Frisk.
"You've made it way more than obvious that we can't tell you anything without you being so judgmental."
"Frisk, come on. Go easy on me. I ju-"
"Stop. Just stop. You're just trying to make up for what you said earlier. I get it, Sans. But you're just too judgmental of everyone. I still love you, but you can't be such a prick when it comes to people doing those types of things. The world isn't black and white, it's all just different shades of gray. Some shades are brighter than others, but that's just how the world is sometimes. Even you have some dark spots in your special shade of gray, Sans. But that's okay because it's your shade. And the best thing is you get to choose what to do with it. The only problem: what you've done with it so far is use it to judge how dark other people's shades are."
"Yeah. I know. I'm still sorry, though. But I get it if you don't wanna tell me anymore. I wouldn't either."
"Sans. I can still tell you. Just please don't be so harsh with the judgment anymore."
"Sure. You made up for it, so I guess I can work that out."
"Thanks."
Sans and Frisk shared an awkward sibling hug. Papyrus joined in on it, happy they settled their differences.
"I knew you had it in you both! This is a family after all! All we had to do was talk it out!" Said the proud, younger skeleton.
"Thank you both! And as for you, Frisk and Chara, we'll all be there to support you one-hundred percent of the way!"
"Wow. Thanks, you guys. I guess we owe you one."
"You and Chara helped save the world twice AND bring equality to both monsters! I think we owe you. And even if we didn't, I'd say we're even now."
Frisk and Chara looked at each other happily, relieved that they would finally get the help they needed. And the best part was they wouldn't be judged by their family for asking for it in the first place.
Suddenly, Frisk and Chara remembered the lessons they missed out on.
"Hey. Ms. Toriel? Do you still have those homeschooling assignments?" Asked Chara.
"Oh! Yes, they are upstairs. Why?" Toriel replied, also forgetting their educational priorities.
"Give us the ones we missed out on, and we'll get started."
Yikes. Well, Toriel certainly wasn't expecting Frisk and Chara to remember their work. Thankfully, thanks to simply being homeschooled, they could make up what they missed out on easily.
"Come upstairs."
Toriel led them to her room. She went to a file cabinet with their homeschooling subjects. She swiftly gave them to the students, and they made quick work on getting started.
They looked determined to catch up on what they missed out on. They didn't look up from their papers and writing utensils for a while.
Five hours later, they brought every last assignment they missed out on to Toriel's room, completed. It was almost 8pm, and they had finished a massive amount of work in a small amount of time. It was incredible, but it was done. They knocked on Toriel's door.
"Hey, mom! We got the paperwork done!" Said Chara.
She heard a faint conversation through the door. It was between Asriel and Toriel.
"Do you really think Flowey might want that, mom?" Asked Asriel.
"I mean, think about it. He killed you a whole bunch of times. He only thinks you're his mom because you're mine."
"Asriel, Flowey had your dust and memories. Nothing more." Replied Toriel.
"If Flowey comes out, he and I are not related. He is not my son. You are."
"So what you're saying is-"
Chara barged in to hand Toriel her paperwork with Frisk in tow.
"HEY! CHARA, WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! I'M PRACTICALLY NAKED!"
"You call wearing a t-shirt and boxers naked?" Chara asked, mimicking Frisk's signature blank face, who was also doing it at that moment.
"I said 'practically', Chara! Sure, it doesn't count, but I'm still not decent!"
"Right. Well, you and mom can back to what you were doing beforehand -wear a condom, by the way- because Frisk and I just wanted to say we're all caught up."
"Yes, that's great, Chara." Toriel said, trying to rush them out.
"I'll get to them later. But first, let 'Phoebe' and 'Dante' have some fun, okay? They have been stressed out, and they need a break from it."
"If you two wanna fuck, that's fine, but just remember we still have to look for a therapist, please."
"Your brother's the only one I need, for his 'sessions' work for about 8 'hours', if you know what I mean."
"Are you using units of time to describe Asriel's size? That's weird. I'm leaving."
Chara set down her assignments and turned tail before she could ask anything else to her mother. Frisk dropped his paperwork off and promptly went to his room.
Once Chara got in her room and closed the door, her parents asked her something.
"Chara, why were they in the same room with each other with such little clothing?" Asked Charon.
"I'm sorry for saying this, but it's not a pretty story." Chara replied, feeling a little nauseous.
"We're inside your head and your soul; we're taking a look."
"Okay dad, but you're not going to like it."
Charon and Laura ran through her thoughts and memeories to find why Toriel and Asriel were like that. They regretted not heeding their daughter's word, for she was right after all, and they didn't like it. Good thing they were simply souls at this point, or they would puke. It made matters worse that Chara already had the urge, however.
"Chara, we're sorry your father and I didn't listen to you." Laura asked, somewhat disgusted.
"Apology accepted."
"Why would they do that? They are mother and son. They shouldn't be doing that."
"Mom was thinking about having sex with my brother for a while, and vice versa. They just recently did, and they enjoyed it. I told them they won't have to worry about me telling people, but if anything were to happen, I would call mom 'Phoebe', and I would call Asriel 'Dante'. However, all they want is sex from each other. Nothing more. They love each other, but they're not IN love with each other."
"That's...a very unorthodox way of solidifying a familial bond. But if that's what they wish to practice, then I can't say anything about it."
"What? Why not?"
"Sweetie. It's sex. They are both adults, and they both want it. Even then, I'm not sure whether that would be acceptable with monsters or not. But whatever the case, we won't say anything about it anymore."
"Okay. Thanks, mom and dad. Now let's get some sleep. Maybe the nightmares will stop with you two around."
"Well, maybe not stop, but lessen over time."
Chara finally retired for the evening, sleeping the same way she usually did.
"Chara, are you sleeping naked?" Laura asked, feeling her daughter's lack of clothing.
"Oh, yeah. Something you should know. I sleep naked. Unless it's chilly, then I wear something light to bed. And I...well, I've...learned how...I'm sorry. I can't. It's too weird."
"Sweetie, it's okay. You can tell us."
"I learned how to masturbate, and it feels so good."
"Well, I certainly wasn't expecting you to say that. But that's good. And before we go any further, it's perfectly natural. And so is blood-letting from between your legs."
"Mom! I know! I-Toriel had to....you know, buy a book on the human reproductive system. Apparently, once a month, I get something called a 'period'? That's what it's called, right?"
"Yes. But let's get some sleep. I can feel how tired you are."
"Yeah. Good night, mom. Good night, dad."
And so, Chara went to sleep completely. She could finally slumber in peace with the help of her parents.
The next day, Frisk and Chara went to the kitchen to get something else to eat. They were feeling a lot better than they were before all of this happened.
"Hey, Chara? How did it feel sleeping last night?" Frisk asked as he got himself some salad.
"I don't know how to describe it." Replied a fully-refreshed Chara.
"It felt...nice? I mean, I had that nightmare again, but it stopped midway before my mom got hurt. Like she tried to alter the memory or something."
"I think your parents were trying to protect you from that nightmare again."
"Again? Why again?"
"Well, I meant to say 'this time', but 'again' came out of my mouth. I dunno why."
Suddenly, Charon took over Chara.
"That's right." He confirmed through Chara.
"We saw and felt Chara having that dream again about us. We decided to help her sleep better by making the dream a good one."
"Charon, you and Laura really are good parents, despite the circumstances you were placed in."
"Thanks...son."
"No problem. Now let Chara eat something. She didn't come in here for nothing."
"Yes, and then we'll be looking for a therapist, or whatever it's called."
Charon gave back control to Chara, letting her eat her breakfast.
"Finally. I need food now."
About 15 minutes later, after they finished eating, they went to Toriel's door, waiting for their next lesson.
"Hey mom, we're ready for the homeschooling session." Chara said, knocking on the door.
The bathroom door opened with Toriel draped in a towel.
"Well, that is-"
Chara screamed, not expecting Toriel to be behind her; Frisk's tail frizzed out from the unexpected boss monster fresh out of the shower.
"Oh! It's just you, mom. Thank God."
"Yes. Well, just give me a moment to dry off. No, you cannot watch. I remember your kisses from yesterday. I must admit, you do have a good technique, but you are lacking in experience. In addition, I am not into women, Chara. Sorry."
"Don't apologize, mom. Just let me enjoy wa-"
"No. Move. Now."
Chara blushed and obeyed, ready to let a blood vessel burst as Toriel walked into her room and locked the door.
"I'm attracted to my mom." She shamefully admitted.
"Chara, that's gross." Frisk said, putting his two cents in.
"Your mom is inside you, and she's-"
"Wrong. Mom."
"Oops. Let's go downstairs."
They went to the living room with pencils and pens, ready to get started. It took about 20 minutes, but Toriel and Asriel made it down the stairs to Frisk and Chara.
"Asriel? What are you doing here?" Frisk asked, forgetting about the night before.
"Dude. Remember? Mom." Replied an annoyed Asriel.
"Oh. But wait. Why is Ms. Toriel all dressed up to go out in public?"
"We will not be doing lessons today, Frisk." Responded a placcid Toriel.
"Instead, we will be looking for a therapist for you and Chara. Your birth parents will be assisting us in the endeavor."
"You're actually letting my parents get involved?"
A knock on the door was heard from the hall.
"Excuse me. It should be your parents."
Frisk's eyes instantly shined yellow brightly enough to attract his parents attention when they came inside.
"Frisk, it's okay, son. It's just us." Soichiro said, noticing the color of Frisk's eyes as he and Erica walked inside.
"Dad, how do you know I was scared?"
"Frisk, your father and I have always known." Answered Erica.
"Your eyes act like mood rings. The only time in which they don't act like that is if you don't feel anything. At that moment, they default to your true eye color."
Asriel and Toriel's interest was piqued.
"True eye color?" Inquired Asriel.
"What is it?"
"Frisk, show them."
Frisk closed his eyes and turned to Asriel and Toriel. He slowly opened his eyes back up to reveal that his eyes were actually gray. Asriel and Toriel immediately became scared.
"They look so empty. So devoid of life."
Frisk's eyes then became completely empty as he approached Asriel.
"I'm gonna get serious with you for a moment." He said.
"Sometimes when my eyes are gray like that, people are only mildly unsettled. But when my eyes look completely empty...boy, do they get scared. You should probably never fuck with me again. Unless you don't mind the look of death, that is."
"Don't speak like that, young man." Erica said, noticing that Asriel looked ready to run away screaming.
"Sorry, mom. Let's go."
Asriel trembled alongside Toriel as they all went into the living room to help find a therapist. It was difficult to know how long the trauma of seeing Frisk's eyes in their truest state would last, but Asriel would likely be unable to forget for a long time.
#undertale#frisk (undertale)#chara (undertale)#asriel dreemurr#toriel#temmie#sans#papyrus#w.d. gaster#temmie-frisk#frisk's parents#erica chang#soichiro yasuhiro#Chara's parents#Laura#Charon#boss monster#monster#human#hybrid#sorry for the long post#i'm trying to tell a story here#lost and found arc
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