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ourladyofmaplemurder · 2 years ago

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Cheryl in Ex-Libris

Ok, the time has come. I need to talk about this episode.

This episode makes me so insane for several reasons. (Cheryl's WILD almost figure-skater top that she wears is one of them, but not the important one. Girl, what are you wearing?)

It also makes me crazy that she says THIS.

Cheryl, no one in the cast has more scenes reading alone in her house than you. No one. The irony of this line is honestly hysterical. But again, this is not the important reason this episode makes me insane.

No, the important reason is the reference to Flowers in the Attic.

So, as a refresher, in this episode, Percival Pickens is going around collecting overdue library books from the gang. These books are thematically relevant to and hold significant meaning for each of them.

Cheryl's book is Flowers in the Attic, by V.C. Andrews.

This alone is enough to make me foam at the mouth. Of course her book is Flowers in the Attic. The themes of that book (the cruelty of mothers, incest, feeling trapped, the callous nature of affluent families, the impact of neglect, etc.) are incredibly relevant to Cheryl's character. (And I mean, this all but confirms the Blossomcest thing, but that's a whole other can of worms.)

In any case, it's a perfect book for her. A match made in the Sweet Hereafter, as it were. BUT HERE'S THE THING.

The way the show references the book makes absolutely no sense. Basically, Cheryl hears giggling, in her house somewhere. She goes to investigate. There's a child under a sheet in her bed. She asks if it's Heather and pulls the sheet away to reveal a bouquet of roses. She then says, "Flowers in the Attic, indeed."

Ok. Not trying to spoil the book for you, but uh nowhere in the book are there ghosts or flowers. The only flowers, really, are the ones the children make to remind them of the outside world or, perhaps, the children themselves.

I actually read the book to try understanding this reference (I wanted to read the book anyway) and when I finished it, I was just as confused, perhaps even more so.

And I guess the writers were just trying to bring Heather up as Cheryl's next big topic, but like, why they didn't make Cheryl's ghost Jason, I will never understand. They already brought up Flowers in the Attic AND the fact that she still has his bones in her house. The fact that the show is so casual about her keeping that boy in her house fills me with indescribable mania. Why does no one care that she keeps his bones in the house? No one ever says anything. I still can't believe the core four went to the viking funeral in season 4 and didn't say a word. NOT A WORD. Literally no one EVER comments on the fact that Cheryl has kept her brother's body in her house for YEARS. Why does no one ever say ANYTHING? -foaming at the mouth- She literally mentions the time she already burned Jason's body and the room is silent about it. No one has a question? A concern? Really? REALLY?

Anyway, it seems to me like the other characters have very clear relationships to their books. We do not get that kind of insight into Cheryl's relationship to hers. (The jury is out on Veronica. I really need to read Kiss of the Spider Woman!) Does she resent it? Does she romanticize it? Did she like the book or did it horrify her? Hello? HELLO?

Unless (and this just occurred to me as I was writing this) the writers are trying to suggest that Cheryl's relationship to Heather is "forbidden love"? I can maybe see that, but like, that's a farther stretch than the twincest, abuse, and other relevant topics the show has been waving around since episode 1.

And again, I know this is a CW teen drama. They can't really go full dark no stars with some of these topics. But like, it still makes me crazy that we dance around them so much.

Ok. That's my rant. Thanks. <3

#Getting insane about Cheryl Blossom again #This episode makes me manic #Cheryl Blossom #Maple Sermons

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dangeroustaintedflawed · 3 months ago

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toadletthethird · 6 days ago

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Hi people with mental conditions that include manic episodes, how do we feel about Reese? Cause I feel. Very strongly.

"wow I wonder why I relate to this character so much" BAM metaphor for a mental disorder jumpscare

#what a nice story to see in the middle of getting a diagnosis #oh reese we're the same..except my manic episodes make me like. start an artblog. and not whatever you did. but it's the same I promise #the shift in his mood is destroying me. Like I KNOW these face expressions. AND after getting off the meds? no words. no words.#reese kelly #scarlet hollow

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dreamerdrop · 3 months ago

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A momentary apology to everyone who followed me thinking I was a cute magical girl and occasional Alice in Wonderland blog.

#stella talks #.you have to understand........#.garashir hits every shipping button I've got and then some #.it's like it was tailor made for my tastes in ways i didn't know were possible.#.i went almost a week without sleeping when i started ds9 because it hit me so hard.#.garashir was so compelling to me it shook me into a manic episode for over a MONTH.#.i am literally only just starting to come down from that.#.it did something to my brain chemistry okay.#.also some chance this is related to one of my closest friends dying and fixating so hard on a ship is a coping thing.#.idk might be unrelated though who could say!!! >_>;;;;;#.the manic episode started before she died though so.#.i think it is being drawn out because i can't handle my feelings on magical girl stuff right now because it make me think of her.#.so ds9 is a nice safe outlet for me while i try to come to terms with everything.#... she'd have loved my starfleet magical girl au tho. pain. ):

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callhertwice · 5 months ago

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jess-needs-a-fvcking-break · 11 days ago

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Guys the only reason I’m not a lesbian is because of fictional men, like I don’t even find them physically attractive I just like their personality. I’ve never really found irl men attractive, but i absolutely adore almost everything about women and fem people.

I might to need make a realization soon 😝

#jiraiblogging #jirai girl #jirai boy #jirai fashion #jirai danshi #jirai onna #jirai kei #jirai joshi #jirai lifestyle #landmine jirai #jirai community #jirai diaries #throw back to when I didn’t go to cyber school and I had the hottest gf ever #I broke up with her in a manic episode then got into a really toxic situation with my ex #I miss her sometimes but she was actually the devil once I broke up with her ngl #they borderline sâ’ed me and then twisted a story and said I sä’ed them.#but ig I would be too if someone I loved to pieces left me for their shitty ex #anyways now she’s besties with my shitty ex :3 #I’m gonna jump istg #guys I’m so mentally unstable it’s actually crazy this was over 2 years ago and I still think about it #landmineblogging #landmineblr #landmine kei #landmine type #landmine girl #landmine boy #lifestyle landmine #landmineposting #ty for coming to my ted talk #I drive pasted her house whenever I go to the stores and it makes me sad

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dread-knight · 15 days ago

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Not a game dev I like gassing up YIIK like I’m sorry dog I can’t get past the fact they bastardized Elisa Lam’s death and put her expy in as a love interest liiiike…

#Chatter #Real person who died due to most likely med withdrawals/a manic episode and whose death was sensationalized to hell and back by the interne #For context.#Idk man it seems scummy to me I really can’t look past that #And yeah I know petscop has a similar issue. I’m not trying to make this a rules for thee not for me thing I think it’s worthy of criticism #Too #But that’s not what the post is about right now. Xoxo #I understand this is such a “people irl wouldn’t give a fuck’ thing but like. Hello it’s so dark in here can anyone hear me #Delete later probably I don’t want someone to get mad at me for some reason but also ugghhhh

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bon3b0y · 17 days ago

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I’ve been depressed for too long gimme my little reward for keeping myself alive (a couple weeks of feeling invincible and all powerful) 🙏🙏😭😭

#depressing shit #self mutalition #i need to cvt #bipolardepression #I need a manic episode to revive me and make me feel alive 🙏#bon3b0y

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lord-squiggletits · 8 months ago

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Where are my "Pharma has an untreated mental illness that's exponentially making his trauma and shitty coping mechanisms worse" headcanon enjoyers at (big fan of manic bipolar!Pharma myself)

#squiggposting #pharma apologism #to me luna-1 is pharma having a manic episode the whole time #ratchet literally says 'calm down you're buzzing' at one point sdlkfjdsl #also potentially a 'pharma has OCD' enjoyer depending on me refreshing my research on the topic to see if it makes sense

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cherry-png · 1 year ago

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AmberLynn Reid doesn’t understand she is also very privileged.

ALR loves to bring up how thin people are more privileged than bigger people will ever be, and I’m not going to deny a majority of society does tend to favour people who aren’t as big.

But ALR fails to acknowledge just how privileged she is as well. The fact that she’s able to plate herself more than three times a day is beyond a privilege. There are times, mainly in my past (I’m doing a bit better nowadays), when I didn’t know when my next meal was. There was a time when I literally was only able to eat my melatonin gummies for two days because that was the only source of food in the house.

I’ve literally had large portions of my hair fall out just from brushing or washing it because of how malnourished I was. ALR is so privileged to just film a stupid, half assed vlog and have enough money to pay her bills, stock her fridge and cabinets, and still be able to afford stuff for her three pets and buy bathroom essentials (shampoo, toilet paper, soap, etc).

I literally don’t want to hear it from her that she grew up poor and had a traumatic childhood, because guess what. There are so many people who share similar childhood experiences as her (such as myself) and aren’t using it as a random defence mechanism.

You don’t get to use ‘I had a traumatic childhood’ as a response for pity. I’m not going to deny ALR may have very well had a traumatic upbringing and grew up poor, but that fact that she currently has the ability to pick herself back up but actively chooses not to is just… and don’t even get me started on the way she self sabotages omg…

Okay I’m blabbering on now, sorry for that. Disclaimer; I understand eating disorders (in the context, an over eating disorder) can very much take over your life, and a rough upbringing won’t do anything to help it. It’s the fact that she doesn’t care to pick herself back up though. ALR is privileged in certain ways where other people struggle; Having an easy source of money (imo), being able to plate her food, etc.

And I’m genuinely not sorry if I sound mean in this post. ALR is not a ‘good’ person imo. Even if she decides to pick herself up, get her act together, take responsibility, and becomes a genuinely decent human being… that won’t erase all the harm she managed to cause throughout the years (speaking from the perspective of a person that experienced an abuser very similar to ALR for years).

#if anyone wants to screenshot or share this post pls dm to ask me first as I did share vulnerable aspects of my personal life here #I didn’t check this over and may make edits if I notice anything I messed up on #Amber Lynn reid #text #amberlynn reid #rant #vent #manic episode #gorl world #alr

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squeakadeeks · 1 year ago

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if i had a dollar for every time a religious missionary knocked on my door to "spread the good news" while i was actively in an acute mental health crisis i'd have 2 dollars, which isnt a lot but also. how many times does this have to happen before they stop coming.

#technically ive actually had three but the ones where they come to my home feel more violating and embarrassing #heads up im going to talk about grim things but its so bananas that its hard not to talk about #2 years ago i had one come while i was Participating In An Activity One Does When You're Grappling With SI #and it was a very bad time and an overall terrible encounter #especially bc it was obvious at the time i was deeply unwell but of course they didnt want to actually address it #and today i had two come while i was having an active manic episode and looked DEEPLY insane and was in the middle of some bullshit #and both times as soon as i opened the door i can tell theyre like 'oh fuck' and realize that theres something serious going on #but at the same time. play stupid games win stupid prizes.#if someone is having a MH crisis they try to do it in a safe and private environment like their gotdamn house for a reason w/o strangers #and if you just show up unannounced to talk about Mormonism to a random persons house theres a good chance youre going to be-#interrupting something and that something isnt always good #i know door-to-door solicitors are '''normal''' but the whole thing really whacks me out and makes me feel kind of angry

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solace-seekers · 10 months ago

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screaming into the void <3

#my best friends boyfriend (who i’ve also been friends with for years) is just. not himself rn #we think it’s a manic episode but we don’t really know but it’s. terrifying lowkey #he thinks he’s genuinely jesus and that he’s conquered time and that he and my bsf are adam and eve #he’s been sending my bsf liek hundreds of texts per day since tuesday but it got really really bad and incoherent yesterday #and i woke up this morning to see multiple texts from gcs he created w me in them #and he keeps being like ‘because it’s 6:20 this is true’ and like ‘i know that at 9 pm everyone is gonna understand’#and he’ll text like 5 times then send a sc of what he just texted like that proves something but it’s all nonsense #i’m just really really concerned cause he really needs help but i don’t know how to ensure that happens cause he’s 19. not a minor #he’s just. not him rn. he’s called my bsf multiple times yesterday when he HATES calling normally #he had his band and his mom over in his apartment yesterday cause my bsf called his mom and h went to his bands show but was visibly not ok #and he saw nothing weird about it even tho he hates having ppl over normally and never without warning #and you can’t get him to see logic because everything you say he just twists around to work for him #to be clear it was not this bad when it started. when it started it seemed like normally maybe slightly out there conclusions he was drawing #but it just got worse and worse like exponential decay and really bad yesterday #he also didn’t sleep at all yesterday night and idk if he slept tonight #i know his mom took his phone at one point but he texted me and gcs w me in it starting at like 6:20 this morning #and my bsf and i and friends are on a trip out of state rn but we’re leaving today and i don’t wanna wake her up until i have to because #this is literally hell for her. but it’s just. scary. i don’t know what to do. i don’t think there’s any good options really for me rn #i want to warn ppl and try to explain he’s Not Him rn so they don’t get concerned but who knows if they’ll understand what i’m trying to say #i know it’s not the end of the world but it really feels like the end of my world as i know it if that makes sense #and my bsf lives with him in an apartment near their college and they just signed the lease for the next year #but she can’t stay there with him alone. not until he gets help. we’re all too scared it’s going in the directon where he thinks it’s better #for ppl to go to the afterlife. which like he never would normally. but he’s Not Him and so like. who knows #he keeps talking about all these different dimensions and how you need to travel to the 7th dimension to understand #my bsf was crying yesterday and she called her mom to explain and she keeps saying that she just wants her jake back it’s really scary #cause he will probably never be the same again. he’ll be similar but different but she wants his comfort but he’s Not Him. and can’t give it #i just. really want this to get better but it’s so hard to see that happening rn

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dykeofmisfortune · 13 days ago

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(through tears because i just remembered something terrible that happened) idk man i'm too funny and intelligent for therapy and nothing that serious has happened in my life and i'm a pretty normal well adjusted person when it all comes down to it. (12 seconds later) maybe i should fake a serious illness (that isn't my fault) so people give me attention and care for me and bring me flowers and take my temperature and ask me if i'm doing okay and post me on social media and don't expect me to apply for jobs and i can rest in the care of others without worrying or feeling bad about myself

#why do i have munchausens ideation... like i am not gonna do anything bc that's manipulative but like #i wish people were worried for me the same way i'm worried for my friends who have serious mental illnesses/have died #worrying is the only way i know how to care for people. i just want people to care about me. i don't want sympathy i want worry.#because that's what it means to care...#i was powerless when my roommate ran away or when my friend killed herself or when my best friend ever had a psychotic break or now that #my mother has an unknown chronic illness and her health is getting worse and worse. i can't do anything but worry #can someone please worry (read: care) for me. i can bring all these people food and clean their apartments while they're in the psych ward #(which i Have done btw). i've cooked and cleaned and made people laugh. can people treat me the way i treat others #can someone put me first #sorry this all sounds melodramatic i'm lowkey fine i lowkey don't even need therapy or anything bc my issues aren't that serious #like. shit just happens to OTHER people and it's kind of selfish that i make it all about me #like i am not the one who's had a manic episode/psychotic break/suicide attempt/chronic illness/is literally dead #i'm lowkey just selfish

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 21 days ago

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Why are meds worse then the mental illnesses they're trying to treat

#i have that delightful bipolar #and when i was younger i got on meds and they were great and i had no side effects and it was great #but then i moved out of service and didnt have a doctor and so i went sbout s yesr unmedicated #and you cant just jump back into a full dose of these. so ive been working my way back to a workable dose #and now theyre making me feel like verifiable shit. i have to assume its the meds #bcuz the effects start an hour or so after i take my daily dose #i feel like im high but the evil version. i know that doesnt make sense #brainfog. body doesnt want to move. having trouble staying awake. nausea. and now mild chest pain #someone put me out of my misery please #blessedly i see my psychiatrist on tuesday #but im so frustrated with medications. when i was younger i went through quite a few while i was being diagnosed #i started with an antidepressant that out me into a manic episode. although at the time we didnt know i was bipolar #then a med that caused (cant remember the actual name but) swelling around my heart (had to take so much ibuprofen and wear a heart monitor)#then i got on this mood stabilizer that works kind of. once they tried to add an antidepressant bcuz i have so much depression #but that caused mania again babey!! so we stopped that #i had one anxiety med that just knocked me out long into the next day. cant be anxious if youre in a coma #then an anxiety med that dropped my blood pressure real bad which is not ideal. i just dont take anxiety meds anymore #and now restarting this one. side effects. yippee. i wiuldnt mind being mentally ill if only the medication process wasnt so shitty #i was sitting up on my bed trying to eat but it was too hard for my hand to move the fork to my mouth #i was just staring at my bowl of food and not even really processing it. so i layed down and here I am #just trying to stay alive ig. im gonna take a covid test to rule that out but it seems to flare up right after taking my meds #pray for me to survive until Tuesday when i see my psychiatrist

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soaps-mohawk · 9 months ago

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You know when you're too normal and suddenly you need to be weird? (Cut to the guys omega doing Michael Jackson moves in public)

Me rn

#i'm fully embracing the feral today #i'm gonna regret this soon #but idc rn things are awesome #which should be concerning given the circumstances #honestly though i gotta have my yearly manic episode at some point #best to get it over with now #i have nothing i can make worse in my life #so yeah that's probably why i'm manic #it's just a giant circle #what is life but a giant circle repeating over and over and over again #round and round it goes like the earth on its axis #have you ever thought about how weird earth and space and planets are #like we're just on a ball floating through space rn #there could be millions of other lifeforms on balls just floating through space out there too and they have no idea we exist #because they look at earth from millions of lightyears away and they see dinosaurs #space gives me existential crisis every time i think about it #i'm gonna go now before i start spiraling #answered #sm feralcore

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