#but that caused mania again babey!! so we stopped that
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Why are meds worse then the mental illnesses they're trying to treat
#i have that delightful bipolar#and when i was younger i got on meds and they were great and i had no side effects and it was great#but then i moved out of service and didnt have a doctor and so i went sbout s yesr unmedicated#and you cant just jump back into a full dose of these. so ive been working my way back to a workable dose#and now theyre making me feel like verifiable shit. i have to assume its the meds#bcuz the effects start an hour or so after i take my daily dose#i feel like im high but the evil version. i know that doesnt make sense#brainfog. body doesnt want to move. having trouble staying awake. nausea. and now mild chest pain#someone put me out of my misery please#blessedly i see my psychiatrist on tuesday#but im so frustrated with medications. when i was younger i went through quite a few while i was being diagnosed#i started with an antidepressant that out me into a manic episode. although at the time we didnt know i was bipolar#then a med that caused (cant remember the actual name but) swelling around my heart (had to take so much ibuprofen and wear a heart monitor)#then i got on this mood stabilizer that works kind of. once they tried to add an antidepressant bcuz i have so much depression#but that caused mania again babey!! so we stopped that#i had one anxiety med that just knocked me out long into the next day. cant be anxious if youre in a coma#then an anxiety med that dropped my blood pressure real bad which is not ideal. i just dont take anxiety meds anymore#and now restarting this one. side effects. yippee. i wiuldnt mind being mentally ill if only the medication process wasnt so shitty#i was sitting up on my bed trying to eat but it was too hard for my hand to move the fork to my mouth#i was just staring at my bowl of food and not even really processing it. so i layed down and here I am#just trying to stay alive ig. im gonna take a covid test to rule that out but it seems to flare up right after taking my meds#pray for me to survive until Tuesday when i see my psychiatrist
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