#Therapy woes

[i-call-me-clarence]

Very frustrated by my current therapist. My old one quit because three people in her family died in a month (we were very close and she thought I had the right to know why she was leaving and asked me first if it was okay if she tell me the troubling reason why she was leaving). My new therapist doesn’t know about Oct.7. Like at all. I tried to bring it up and she said ‘What’s that? What happened?’ And I just don’t have the spoons to tell her so I didn’t. She hasn’t looked it up. Idk how she doesn’t know. Also I feel… weird about it. Unsafe? I don’t know. When I skipped over that and tried to bring up the antisemitism I’ve experienced she responded with a bewildered ‘why??? People aren’t antisemitic anymore’…. Honestly guys should I find a new therapist? She makes me feel so weird.

[coffee-in-that-nebula]

I just finished therapy and my mood is like 'how much more trauma do I need to process, ma' am?'

[gallopinggrasshoppers]

I was having a heavy, emotional moment while talking to my therapist about going thru depression & the suicide of my parents when she suddenly said, ‘how’s work going?’ Bitch u get paid to listen to my problems and u change the subject??

[blueskyheadleft010]

Current 2am thoughts:

There was no ‘good things’ that came out of ‘X vacation trip’; and no I shouldn’t ‘have to look for a good thing somewhere in it’ 😠

[abyssruler]

melusines and misunderstandings

neuvillette x gn!reader

you ask neuvillette out on a date, but as always, fate conspires to give the prettiest faces the most oblivious minds. luckily for him, the melusines are there to offer feedback as his pseudo-therapist.

Neuvillette thinks you have a crush on Lyney.

He doesn’t begrudge the magician for capturing your heart, not when it paints a lovely look on your features as you stared up at him with stars in your eyes and asked him if he could accompany you to the twins’ latest magic show.

He says yes, of course, if only so he may see they way your face lights up in a brilliant smile. His cheeks flush a light shade of red when you grasped his hand in gratitude and told him to meet you tomorrow in the afternoon.

Later that night, he lays on his couch with a distinctively depressed air.

“It’s a date!” One of the melusines tries to reassure him, the rest of them chirping their agreements as they crowded around his slumped form.

“It is not,” he tells them solemnly, “the magician Lyney is the person they want to see.”

“They could have gone alone, but they asked you to come watch the show with them. It must mean that they want to spend time with you, Monsieur Neuvillette!” A chorus of yeah! and yes! come after that proclamation.

Neuvillette isn’t convinced, but for the sake of the melusines, he will put on a brave face and pretend that he believes them. If only so they will not worry anymore.

“Yes, I suppose all of you are right.”

✧

They were, as it turns out, right.

You laugh, a hint of incredulousness and amusement in your voice.

“Wait—you think I like Lyney?” You dissolve into another fit of giggles.

Neuvillette finds himself at a loss for words. “So… you do not like him?”

“No!” You gasp, as though the idea of liking Lyney was an outrageous thing. “I’ve given you so many clues! How have you not realized it yet?”

He blinks, tilting his head in confusion, but an idea begins to form in the back of his head. Hope and disbelief war inside him, but he needs confirmation from you to truly believe the thought that has formed in his mind.

You smile, equal parts fond and exasperated.

“I like you, not Lyney.”

And, well, he supposes Lady Furina’s claims of him being an oblivious nut has more truth to it than he once thought.

[kacievvbbbb]

I think Haikyuu makes an effort to be a great example of all the different ways innate talent can manifest, and all the ways it can go unrecognized or under appreciated when we stick to the ridged rules of what it means to be “gifted”

Take Kageyama and Oikawa. Both insanely gifted and innately talented people. But Kageyama’s genius is obvious it’s grounded in an exceptional skill in physics and mathematics anybody with a basic interest in volleyball can tell his sets are basically perfect, he is lauded as a genius because he is one!

And then there’s Oikawa whose innate genius is a little harder to see especially if you’re not paying attention, because he does it so well that you don’t even think to notice it. it’s not very technical or flashy so it’s been overshadowed by the more trained flashier aspects of his playing. But Oikawa’s genius is that he knows people. He knows how to finely tune a set, adjusting the most minute details to fit the spiker like a glove and he does it all in a split second like he doesn’t even need to think about it he just knows. That is actually insane. Hell it’s even pointed out by Iwaizumi, nobody is better than Oikawa at knowing his players and knowing how to set to his players.

But the world they (and by extension we) live in, is so used to seeing genius in only a constrained specific light that Oikawa’s innate talent is woefully underrepresented so much so that it leads to him ( and by extension most of the fandom) believing that he has no innate talent, that he’s not a genius. Oikawa somehow believes that he is less that kageyama because kageyama was “born to do this” but if you think about it so was he!

Even despite his self aggrandizing and petty selfishness Oikawa innately, more than anyone else in the whole show, understands what we all tend to forget (across many sports), Volleyball is a team sport.

It doesn’t matter if you’re the single most best techical player out on the court; there are 5 other people out there as well and like it or not they’re playing too. Who then can say that knowing how to make 7 other people move as if extensions of your self with an ease taken for granted, isn’t a sign of genius?

[lepitorus]

college

[guardian-angle22]

hi Heather!! your recent post made me so curious - do you have any other gif before and afters that you are particularly proud of, or that were particularly tough, or just that you wanna talk about? any and all giffing directors cut tidbits are fascinating!!

[reference to this post]

OMG HI! I love this question!! Director's cut makes it sound so fancy and I love that. 🤭

Okay, so I actually have SO MANY before/after gifs saved because I use this before/after mask layer a lot as a bit of a mind trick on myself. Sometimes you spend so long trying to edit something, changing this around, tweaking that, undoing, redoing, etc… that you lose focus on what it looked like at the start. So if I’m ever frustrated with how something is looking, I’ll often do this to get out of my head about it.

This scene from Carlos' loft in s1 is a great example of one of those:

Another reason I use this a lot is because it’s a really good way of double checking that I’m not washing out the POC that I’m editing. When you have to dramatically brighten a scene (like we often have to do with our beloved 911LS), it can really lighten the skin tones of the people in the scene. I work hard to try to avoid that and sometimes just looking at the edited gif won't tell me if I've been successful, so I'll use a before/after mask.

This is a Paul gif that's an example of using it for that:

That is something I wish I knew how to do early on in my gifmaking because there are some of my older gifs that truly do not do the POC on this show justice. I'm hoping to re-do some of those in my Guardian's Gifset Glowups series I just started. I mean, look at the comparison of the first time I edited this Carlos scene to NOW:

I was very very early in my learning process when I made that first one, but still... that old editing of mine is just not acceptable imo.

For scenes that were particularly tough... I think one that people might not expect to be that difficult but drove MY CHEESE TO SLIDE OFF THE CRACKER, was the soulmate scene. I think I haven't made as many gifs as my love of this scene should've warranted but it's just so tricky to edit. The few that I have made you can even see how differently they look from each other cause I haven't nailed it down yet:

ONE OF THESE DAYS I'll find a good edit balance for this scene that I love and you'll see a million gifs of it on your feed from me.🤭

And finally! Before/after that I'm particularly proud of... I mean, the proposal scene... I think they lit that scene with a single birthday candle in the corner and a child's flashlight behind their fake windows. So all the before/after edits are so satisfying:

[andillwriteyouatragedy]

light of a clear blue morning

irving doesn't mean to look forward to the end. he's just tired.

at least he's not alone.

(spoilers for severance s02e04: woe's hollow)

now on ao3.

[ender1821]

afterglow

chapter 3 posted on ao3: read here!

Rebuilding is a much more daunting task than Gem had once taken it to be.

— — —

(This fic is now a part of the @multidimensionbb MCYT WIP Purge event!)

[o-i-w-u]

Can you tell your Lord Bloodmoon that I forfeit all my loyalty to him? Ty

you're lucky hes still stuck in therapy

( @h-didanart i feel obligated to tag you in any therapy related doodles COUGHH )

[brown-little-robin]

it went fine yesterday btw :}

[woetoy]

Hey uhh i saw that picture o' woe at pride 'n when i looked at his tummy i think i uh y'see i think i have cuovid (does the cute pig allow belly-kisses from trans people?)

I too have couvid from drawing it I love it sm-

YES OF COURSE WOE ACCEPTS KISSYS FROM HIS PPL!!! ❤️‍🔥

[kohakhearts]

ive definitely said this before but i think there's this common (and understandable!!) misconception that goh is canonically a victim of bullying and tbh i thought the same thing when jn was still airing lol but now that i have gone back and obsessively rewatched every episode a million times i think it's a lot more interesting to consider what the anime shows us, which is...not a kid who is bullied, but a kid who simply has no friends. and it doesn't seem to be a matter of, like, other kids not liking him. even in the very first episode, we see chloe's classmates asking her about him. it's a very casual "oh yeah, he never really comes to school, does he?" like they don't even really think about him that much. but they say his name respectfully, and just seem mildly curious about it. not really like...mocking or anything like that.

i mean, his whole "i don't need friends" attitude when they're younger could stem from bullying. that's completely possible. but the anime never really goes out of its way to make us think that? like...his disengagement in the flashback in the drizzile evolution episode emphasizes that he's refusing to play with his classmates - and that he doesn't even know why. if he were being bullied by them...wouldn't he have been able to at least articulate that he doesn't like them or that they don't treat him well or that they're just no fun to play with? like i won't say that some bullied kids aren't really unwilling to talk about the experience of being bullied...but in hindsight, they usually have a solid idea of what was going on.

in goh's case, i think he's just like...maintaining what he knows, which is the experience of being isolated and alone. he takes control of that feeling by saying he doesn't need - or even want - friends. he's still doing that when he tells ash that he "accepts" him as his friend, as opposed to just...being like, nice to meet you :) and moving on. he needs to be the one who has that say (and in this respect, his whole w-well would you maybe...consider being MY friend too...?? in jn003 is actually kind of...sweet? and indicative of the change that ash has already begun to motivate in him! doubly so considering ash's response is "wait but weren't we friends already?" bc ash is someone who like...doesn't need that verbalization, and doesn't consider friendships as things you "give" and "take" or whatever. they just are!!!).

ANYWAY, all this to say like. i see where the idea comes from, because he does have those little "you're just like everybody else" lines and whatever, and like...his whole thing with horace - his awkwardness in social interactions, like this. overcompensation for something, this need to prove how Smart and Impressive he is (and his fear of being seen as stupid, like in the horace ep when he's like "oh haha...well...you tell me what you know about celebi first. obviously i know this stuff already. i'm just testing you" when he obviously doesn't know it). but to me that's like...a projection, if anything. he's so determined not to acknowledge that his parents' absence has made him lonely, has affected him in any way, that he twists himself into believing the reason he doesn't get along with others isn't because he's too used to being alone to deal with having friends...it's because they're not worth his time, or they're not good enough for him, or they're just going to hurt him anyway. something something pokemon journeys if goh had learned some dbt techniques

[the-oracle-of-the-lost]

i have noticed in the past that as much as i like reading darkfics and i actively want to be able to write more fucked up stuff, i struggle to actually write it because i can't get past the thought police feeling of people judging me for thinking about Bad Things so i'm trying to write some actual dark, dead dove do not eat fic to get better at it and it's so nice for all of my fandoms to gift me multiple canonical Evil Universes to set things in.

[tariah23]

Are ppl still getting thousands of notes on posts talking about “guilt tripping ppl into reblogging donation/ gazan,” posts bro