#TW Abuse Implied

[the-beastlands-craze]

i mourn the person i never got to be

[she-posts-nerdy-stuff]

Hello I’m drunk and thinking about six of crows agaiiiiin (why is this a recurring phenomena???? Ah well can’t complain this has happened like twice now?? That’s not too bad tbf)

I’ve had a lot of Soc related dreams in my time fun fact

Anyway

Do you guys ever think about the fact that Wylan had precious few memories of his mother?? Even though he lost her at a similar age to Jesper, who remembers his mother clearly?? To Kaz losing his Da, who he’s implied to remember well?? (I have more thoughts on Kaz’s active choice to bury those memories and his freaking constant parallels to Matthias but that’s no relevant right this second)

Do you ever think about that in conjunction to Wylan being taken abroad and “everywhere” with his father all the time?? Bc sometimes I imagine Marya standing up to Van Eck in attempts to defend Wylan and I don’t imagine that was the only time she stood up to him (her defending Wylan is probably part of why he sent her away) and I wonder whether since we know she was probably not safe in her marriage (and probably didn’t chose it based on what we know of Alys and how the Kerch patriarchal system works) and I wonder whether to some degree Van Eck separated her from Wylan as some kind of effed up punishment for standing up to him because Wylan had very clear memories of going away w his father and is implied to have some kind of photographic/eidetic memory like Kaz in the whole card counting thingy so why would he have so few memories of his mother if not because he was actively kept away from her during those periods that he still has clear memories of?? Idk but ultimately van eck is a skiv and I wouldn’t put it past him to punish Marya by separating her from Wylan and like he wouldn’t out rightly state it but they both knew that was what he was doing yk??? Anyway that’s just a theory I have

I need to go to sleep

[genesisvirus]

even after you change, do you think it will fix all the previous years?

[jjdogasaur]

I would like to thank @endlessvoiq for giving me these ideas but I think they and I are genuinely the only people in this fandom who notice the mildly fucked up implications that can be gotten from Green and Purple's dialogue about how their relationship is? The main point I'm bringing up is how Green never directly mentions her if you defeat her, while Purple directly mentions Green if you defeat him first.

Now this could mean absolutely nothing, but with how little Purple talks like at all, it could have you wondering if Purple is by chance also being treated horribly...

[wolftails-funkin-arts]

(TW: Depictions of a physical and verbally abusive relationship)

What if I say that I see them as exes-

This was before the horror mode happened, btw

[lucrezianoin]

new ascended astarion kiss but with cazador

I HATE THIS KISS THE MOST, even more than the kneeling one

free cam mod so TW FLASHES. There WILL BE FLASHES. be careful

[saltyfoxes-art]

OC lore

[weirdplutoprince]

Acchan 79: I'm going to die

[gravitywasneveranoption]

thingy ( @peteytheparrot for inspo lol)

[ghxst-system]

i think itd be nice if i actually felt safe talking to someone about the way theyve hurt me

but i cant

because if i tell them, im back to being 6 years old and getting screamed at for not liking it

[golden--goofball]

tpc au shit under the cut

"you've been walking…

you've been hiding…

and you look half-dead half the time…

monitoring you…

like machines do…

you've still got it,

i'm just-"

"keeping an eye…"

[ominousblob]

Guard dog

[ghosting-plural-userboxes]

VENT ART

tw/cw: human (?) heart, eyestrain , body horror <? Maybe ?

“ You said that you didn’t have a heart and that you’d need mine ” -Sad Boys, Dazey and the Scouts

Some good old vent art from school since we had to be in a class with our abuser and cope :P

(no we are not ok :P/semi lh)

-???

[r1poutmygvtz]

i have a problem with stepping down on the sides of my feet or my toes when i'm jogging instead of the bottom and heel like you're supposed to, like i turn my foot so much that the bottom of my feet don't touch the floor at all, idk why i do it and tbh i don't even notice until my ankles or the bottom of my feet start to hurt and somehow i still look somewhat normal doing it, depending on how bad it is

i think it might be trauma related honestly, i used to tiptoe around at night to get food or go to the bathroom because i was terrified of waking my parents up, especially my dad, so maybe i'm just used to it, idk why i use the sides of my feet tho, maybe because i need to wear shoes to jog so i don't damage my feet too much and i mostly jog at night and it's quieter to step down like that, idk i just realized as i was watching my foot placement and thought it was weird

[accidentallyatekneecaps]

I feel like saiki's mental state is warped

Like he will go from being like "I am a God, how dare you disrespect me in such a way" to being very scared of himself and self loathing wishing to be more human

And the sad thing in this is he is really human, he's very compassionate for his friends and family, he will protect them no mater what and humans a nurturing just like him

He's just forgotten what it's like to be treated as human

Which is why he's so uncomfortable having friends, it takes him out of his own isolated self loathing

They care about him in ways his parents never did, they worry on if he's hurt or someone will try to harm him

He thinks he doesn't need that but having so much pressure put on a kid to be able to protect himself 24/7 when he can't even feel protected enough at home is wrong

It's wrong all together the way his family treats him

I remember in the episode where they go to the carnival saiki's grandfather protected him instead of himself when both of their lives were at risk, he never had a male role model who would do such a thing for him

Anyways that's all I'm typing I went off on a whole ass tangent idek if this makes any kind of sense

[hoodiessidequest]

older wip i'm probably never gonna finish bc i keep getting distracted lmao