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The Six Ships badly explained
Sorry for being so late to this @ink-does-stupid-stuff
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Araleyn: “FUCK YOU!” “Come do it then ;)”
Aramour: Wait, you two AREN’T MARRIED!?
Aragon x Cleves (What’s their ship name??): The wine aunts are getting a little too drunk together…
Anne^2: FUCK!! THE FUCKERS ARE FUCKING!!
Parrmour: “GO TO SLEEP!” “Not unless you’re next to me…” “what” “what”
Clevemour: GET 👏 YOURSELVES 👏 TOGETHER 👏 (in both ways)
Katanna: Typical femme butch powercouple (JUST USE THEIR LAST NAMES-)
Parr x Cleves (Ship Name.exe not found): Gay mess x LESBIAN TOP™️
Parrward: Sex, trauma, and nerds
Parrl(e)yn: Impossible, indescribable woman loves to tease a woman who has to make everything make sense. Chaos ensues
Tell me if I missed any kk byeee <3333
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heartorbit · 10 months ago
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i just wanted to draw the ave mujica outfits .
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amelia-yap · 7 months ago
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Hi, how is college fairing?
it's been a little frustrating but otherwise mostly alright, thanks for asking! hope you're having a nice dayyy
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vinestaff · 7 months ago
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id jump for the beef
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wackywatchdotcom · 1 month ago
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btw i think for tadc discussion posts where i ramble abt the show (be it analysis or meta stuff or just me thinking abt it) im just gonna start using the tag Circus Discussion... i was thinking of that tag for a while and it still feels too silly but also its the only one i can think of that isnt SUPER silly. plus its vague enough so i can use it for a wider variety of posts (cus some things i dont think anything like 'analysis' or 'meta' would actually fit, cus its not alwaays really either of those, so i think discussion is more broadly applicable). im gonna work on tagging posts w this cus i have a bit to sort thru :] (this blog has 654 posts and will have 655 when i post this)
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cepheusgalaxy · 2 months ago
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Reading a book for school that is actually pretty interesting
It's about the youngest of a rich portuguese family in Colonial Brazil who falls in love with a black prostitute woman despiste being behtroted and the pov is third person omniscient but it is quite expressive and interesting 👀 i cant say when was the last time i saw a (third person!) narrator that was so fun
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killjoy-prince · 10 months ago
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my brother has been dating this girl for almost 7 months now and we've yet to be properly introduced and tbh i kinda wanna keep it that way just to see how long i can go
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lesbianwords · 4 months ago
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my beloved lesbians tem & aaria <3 made with this picrew
I felt so unsure making this bc like what do you mean I'm supposed to kind of know what my characters look like after a full year of working on them???
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regulationlistener · 11 months ago
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its really so absurd to me that even among people that believe climate change is real the popular belief seems to be "and anyone that tries to do anything to mitigate it is annoying and an idiot" like what are you talking about
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strawberryfaced · 7 months ago
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I NEED. TO DO. OR MAKE SOMETHING. PLEASE
#actually I haven’t had this overwhelming creative energy in a while it feels TERRIBLE thank you very much#okay the thing is. there’s like many things actually so I am going to go Explode in the tags now#the first thing that I am like painfully terribly aching to do is Write something#I talked about this the other day but like. first of all I haven’t added anything to my poems collection for a while and the other day I re#d this beautifully beautifully written story and now I’m like. INEED. TO WRITE A FUCKINGN BOOK#and then there’s also Knitting. a few months ago we impulsively purchased a bunch of knitting tools and now it’s just sitting in my house b#cause I tried it once and I couldn’t do it so I kind of. gave up. now suddenly I want to like. knit a scarf AND ITS EATING AWAY AT ME#I NEED TO LIKE. SIT DOEN AND WATCH A YOUTUBE TUTORIAL AND MAN I COULD TOTALLY DO THAT BECAUSE IM ON HOLIDAY#BUT LIKE. THERES A MILLION OTHER THINGS I WANT TO DO SO IF COURSE THE OPTION MY BRAIN PICKS IS#DO NOTHING AT ALL.#also this is a bit of a silly one but like. I have this long long loooong list in my notes app that I started in 2021#and it’s just Big words. and like. the thing is they used to stick in my brain. I used to be able to add them to the list and use it whenev#needed. now I just write it down and it’s GONE and that makes me want to put myself in an oven because WHY.#I NEED. TO BE THAT PERSON. WITH THE USELESSLY ABYSSAL VOCABULARY#SO I REALLY JUST WABT TO SIT DOWN FOR 2 HOURS AND MEMORISE AND STUDY BUT then again. my brain is all or nothing and#usually it is the latter#another thing is my sketchbook. haven’t added to that in a while and I want to do that but then I will have to wait til sunset or daylight#because I physically cannot create art with artificial electrical light. but then I’ll have to wait til tomorrow and#I really also want to go outside and just exist before I have no time to after break ends#so Yeah.
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thedevilsrain · 1 year ago
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some scans i sconned tonight...
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volfoss · 1 year ago
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It's gonna be really bad if I get hooked into arena like I'm going to become a whole new breed of weird guy posting
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szaryherbatnik · 1 month ago
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U know what rich and nikkie have very underrated dynamics between their characters ofc theres the iconic queenie and jornir scene in arc 2, toa and iris have maaaany AMAZING moments and now im absolutely falling in love with rodek and sylvie being such strange besties.
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supahstarrr · 2 months ago
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today has been the first day in like days i havent gone to sleep in the afternoon then continuously force myself to sleep throughout the night
#okay well its technically *tomorrow* today since its 12 am but when i wrote this post it was 11 50 pm. anyways#i hope that today is the day i break this cycle that has been going on for like a week and a few days#i cant even tell if ive been even more depressed/having a depressive episode anymore#ive been slacking when it comes to taking care of my body and keeping my room not a mess#but then again its already hard to do those things to begin with but its even more noticable since i keep ... just sleeping#bc “i dont have much to do/i dont know how to spend my time”#which well i guess thats kind of true since my social life isnt that good. i have no friends to talk too. but like also i need to start#doing my essays....... keeping up with my homework has just recently been harder bc most of it has been recently assigned writing stuff#i guess me having a depressive episode could be possible. especially since ive been more active on reddit now#okay that sounds ridiculous for me to say but i swear theres context. except not really bc i cant explain this#and i rlly hate that website and have been off that place for years but i always come back for a few months when i get#even more insecure about the lack of people i talk too...lol#tags are getting long.... i should have my own journal by technically tumblr is kind of like my journal#but nobody wants to hear this and i know that but i dont even know why i continue to say shit like this lol#and writing in an actual journal is . hard. to commit too for whatever reason#im not even sure if i even dare try journaling because it might just make me feel even more isolated? and lonely? idk.#okay bye... goodnight everyone. ill probably still be online but im doing. Things i guess#Its okay if anyone doesnt read this though but. Thanks if did read this.#sunny.txt
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cosmosluckycharms · 3 months ago
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Bug like angel
pt2
Girl Afraid
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May 12, XXXX
4:45 AM
"Shit," you think to yourself as you realize you're going to be late for school
Yes, your school usually doesn't start till 7 AM, but you have a field trip today, and the bus leaves at 5:30 AM.
"Ms.Rose is gonna kill me if I'm late again! Where did I put my bag? Where are my earbuds?" you whisper to no one in particular
You had a million thoughts running in your head, but one thing was sure, you were so late.
You still had to grab your phone, eat breakfast, put on your clothes, do your hair and makeup on the bus, and run towards the bus and then maybe you can make it in time.
You rush downstairs to get breakfast and realize you don't have to be as quiet because it's empty in the kitchen.
You quickly eat breakfast and finish your morning routine before making it out the door.
It's 5:43 when you make it onto the bus, Ms. Rose was waiting on you and thankfully didn't you much of a hard time.
"Ms.y/n, please be more considerate of others time next time."You sat down next to your "friends"
You don't fully consider them your friends, they're too full of themselves and you all know none of you guys are friends, just close acquaintances.
After finishing the coffee you brought onto the bus ride, doing your hair and makeup, and taking a quick nap while listening to music, you finally made it.
Alchemax.
You were excited for the trip, even asking Dick, Jason, and Bruce if they wanted to tag along as chaperones.
They said no, which you both understood and were also sad about but, whatever, who cares? Anyways- you're at the coolest place!
It's perfect for someone who wants an internship that would look great on your resume.
Why do you want that resume? You don't know. Maybe it's so you can impress your family? You aren't fully sure.
Before you question yourself further, you get off the bus, along with your schoolmates.
You hear them all chatting about whatever, but it's clear to everyone that you are the most excited to go on this trip.
You, who wouldn't shut up about it despite everyone at school and home telling you to. You, who kept bouncing off walls while talking about it. You, who constantly wrote about it in journals.
Nothing could stop your excitement, and that was clear to others.
While you were there, you were practically the only one participating.
The only one wasnt scared to ask questions.
The one that would ask questions for others who wouldn't.
You were sure that this was the best trip of your life! You were so interested in everything!
It wasn't until later in the day after you got home at 7:56 that you saw everyone in the dining room sitting together eating, like usual, without you.
Every time you saw them together your heart broke a little more.
You tried to not make a scene and just walk away quietly, and it worked!
With everyone but Alfred.
"And where have you been, young miss?" He asked in an authoritary tone.
"I've been on a field trip in Alchemax! I just got back! It was soo fun, why?" you asked, knowing what he was going to ask.
"Wouldn't you like to have dinner with the others?" it's clear he just wanted the others to notice you, he knew you've tried so hard to be with them.
"it's alright, Alfred. I grabbed lunch with my friends earlier, I'm still full!" you said enthusiastically. It wasnt a lie, afterwards you all went to your favorite fast food place, batburger. You're sure theres no better fast food place than batburger.
"Oh, that's quite alright then." as soon as he said that you went upstairs to get unready and unpack for the day. you didnt notice Jasons slight dissapointment on his face when you refused and walked away.
It's good that it was a Friday, you could rest tomorrow.
You didn't notice how you accidentally took Project 111 with you. Mustve sneaken in your bag while you went to the bathroom while at Alchemax.
It took you a while to open your bag due to you getting ready for bed, and you screamed when you saw a spider in your bag and crawling onto your hand.
"FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK STOP CRAWLING ON ME LEAVE ME ALONE WHERE DID YOU COME FROM GO AWAY!" the stupid spider kept crawling on you.
It's honestly suprising no one heard you scream. Either that or they didnt care.
You didnt know what to do. You hate spiders.
It took you minute or two of just flailing before actually doing something.
You tried to reach for your nearest hairbrush to hit the spider with, only to accidentally hit yourself anywhere but where the spider was. Thats gonna leave a mark.
The spider, project 111, ended up biting you on the wrist. You ended up killing it with your hairspray.
You started panicking on whether you would die or not, you may have cried a little before realizing you were being a tad bit dramatic.
You realized the spider didn't look like the venomous ones you researched online while trying to find common ground with Damian back when he was new
So you decide to keep this to yourself, a nice little secret.
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3:37 AM
You woke up sweating, panicking, hot, cold, tired, wide awake, hungry, full, thirsty, not thirsty.
You didn't know what was happening.
You forced yourself to fall back asleep.
it's around 12 PM when you wake up again.
You hope it was just a weird nightmare.
You realize you woke up late to breakfast, which was usually at 9:30 for you, so on your desk was some cold breakfast Alfred left for you.
While eating it, you thought about what happened.
Was it a dream? Was it a sign? Were you high?
You start walking in circles trying to figure out what it could all mean...it took you a while to realize you were literally upside down on your ceiling.
Oops?
Before you processed it, you panicked.Why are you on the ceiling? Why were you walking on walls? How were you walking on walls?
So many questions. No one to answer them.
After a bit of panicking and running around making a mess, you realize you sort of have powers.
You could stick to walls, that was one.
You could make webs, thats two. You could be a hero, like the others!
At first, you find it so cool!
..then you realized your father doesn't want metas in Gotham...
You decide to keep this to yourself, for now at least.
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oml this is so short oops guys i swear im. tryigg my hardest but also im kind of a bad writiter 🙏
anyways the next one of these i make is most likely gonna be emu reader cause shes so silly
anyways
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retiredteabag · 1 month ago
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Unknown Rivals
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Pairing: Sukuna x Reader
Synopsis: There was only one thing worse than being paired with Sukuna for an important school project, and that was realizing the slacker somehow had a higher class standing than yourself.
Tags: Academic rivals, enemies to eventual lovers, type A reader, anxiety, college!au
pt. 1 - pt. 2 - pt. 3 - next part
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One thing was for sure about the past weekend, and that was the fact that your advisor knew not to assign you any future classes with this monster of a man.
You had three finals coming up, one of which came in the form of a presentation. And you had yet to practice said presentation and your partner scheduled that particular event at the most inconvenient of times. The whole endeavor was drawing a lot of your current anxiety. Of course, you didn't ask to reschedule.
You had looked over the combination of slides in your PowerPoint, waiting by the day for Sukuna to finalize his speaker notes, and everyday your distress only grew.
It was not uncommon for the dunning kruger effect to take hold of the arrogant men in your lectures. He may have brought up concerns about your own public speaking ability, but you have yet to see the man speak in full sentences before anyone.
Over inflated head, self-important, Oscar Wilde level egomaniac-
The class's presentations were split into two groups; the first half of the class would present on Thursday, and the latter half, on Friday. You were one of the unfortunate teams that would go first.
The nerves were getting to the point of being sickening every time you passed the auditorium. The hollow heartbeat swelled in your chest and you felt nauseated. Too soon, you would be in there, on that stage, stood beside that arrogant prick.
Being one of the first groups to speak might be better than having to be last; just get it over with... still, it wasn't great for gauging the audience, competition, or topics.
You were to present before the faculty, classmates, and employers looking for interns.
Maybe Sukuna had been correct. Yes, you could be "anal about this stuff", sure, but you had put too much money into your education to not put in equal effort. Since when was it a crime to try?
For the fifth time that week, you looked over his slides...still, no speaker notes on the later half.
He did look like the type to wing it. Read the SparkNotes and assume he could sound intellectual with the insertion of pauses and emphasis on basic information. For a normal assignment, a professor might be non the wiser, but for something as important as this final? He needed to know his stuff.
And what then, if he was asked a question? What if he didn't prepare? What if he crashed and burned? The smoke would affect you too.
That's why you find yourself waiting inside a private study room in the library that Wednesday. You had arrived right on time to the room you had reserved and were unpacking the contents of your bag when a pack of giggling students retched the door open.
There was a moment of silence that passed between all before you cleared your throat, "Sorry...I reserved this room..." the group looked around at each other, making pouty faces.
Eventually one of them spoke up, "Do you really need it?" They all shared a pitiful look, "Theres a lot more of us, we really need the room..."
You stood there for a moment, expecting someone in their friend group to have a speck of sense. It quickly became clear that none of them did, "Right... well, I'm sorry but I need the room too."
"Every other room is reserved by a group, this room is just you." One of them pointed out, speaking far too loudly to have the door open to the library stacks.
"I'm here to work with my project partner." You huffed, as if that made a difference. The room was yours! There was no way you were going to back down. You would be presenting tomorrow and needed a space to practice. "That's why I reserved the space."
They make faces as if you have committed some kind of hate crime, throwing their arms in the air in offense. "Your partner isn't even here, can't we just use it? You could literally go anywhere else."
The group nods at the boy who spoke up, fully supporting his argument as if he just slam-dunked you with a killer 2AR. You sigh looking down to check the time on your phone. If Sukuna wasn't here, you might as well just leave. Who’s to say he’ll come anyway?
You weigh your options, he hadn’t responded to your email this time either.
"Pretty sure it's you who can go anywhere else."
He wasn't loud, but his voice rang with conviction. Speak of the devil. You look away from your watch and observe his effect on the group.
Sukuna pulled the door back wider, he stood at least a head taller than the largest among them, and while he was never found with a smile on his face anyway, he looked particularly harsh in this moment.
"Can't we just-" one of the girls leaned into Sukuna, grabbing his bicep, "take the room?" She smiled sweetly, tracing an index finger over his arm, "There's a lot of us, you know?"
Sukuna practically jolts off of her, tearing his arm out of her grasp, and making a twisted face in the group's direction. "Get offa me." He moves through the rest of the students, tossing his bag onto the table with a bang.
You make brief eye contact before he watches you turn to see the pack of freshmen resolutely standing in the doorway. He swings back, rolling his eyes, "Now get out."
There wasn't any room for argument in his tone. The lot of them huffed and griped but made no real fuss as they crossed their arms and whispered insults. The door slowly slid shut.
You plug your laptop into the adapter, muttering, "Good to see you've finally showed up."
"I didn't have an attitude when you were late to the library."
He just stands there. Unzipping his bag on the ovular table in front of the projector.
You look at him, recalling that day well, you want to snip at him again but you cant help the short, somewhat shocked, laugh you let out.
He walks to the other side of the room, pulls out his notebook and looks at the screen. "So are we practicing, or what?"
"Oh, we're practicing, all right." You mutter to yourself.
You bring out the sheet from the first week you met in the library. It outlined the topics that each of you would need to cover. You open up the PowerPoint and turn to look at him, comfortably sitting down.
"We should probably start with introductions."
"We roleplaying this?" He sat with his legs spread on the swivel chair, arms crossed.
"You were the one who asked to practice." You point out, motioning for him to get up. "At the presentation, the students will have nametags, but we should still open up with a greeting so they know who to call on for questions."
He sighs, lifting himself from his seat like it took a great effort, he stood beside you, looking to his mock audience, he points to himself,
"Sukuna, Ryomen." Then he turns to look at you, jutting out his thumb in your direction, and as if it is the most natural thing in the world, calls out your full name.
It was so strange, you got caught searching for words. You had no idea he knew your name. If there was one thing obvious about Sukuna, it was his blatant dislike of his peers. It wasn't uncommon to see him rolling his eyes, or avoiding the fellow students that followed him around all the time.
"Right, okay, we'll smooth out that part later, for now, lets focus on the first few slides." You lean down and point out the screen of your laptop, "I'll go first. I’ll give my thesis as a roadmap for my information, then you can do yours."
You turn your face to the side, expecting him to still be standing behind you, listening to your explanation, but pull back in alarm to find his face right beside yours, he was focused on what you were pointing out on the slide.
You jolt back, taking a moment to regain your thoughts, "…I’ll get into my half and allow for a segway into yours.” He follows your motion, standing straight. “We'll have clickers.” You continue, “Let's just say that whoever finishes explaining the slide will be responsible for clicking to the next one, okay?"
He was so watchful, it was unnerving. Had he always been like this? Seeming bored, he gives you a nod. "Sure."
The following two hours flew by. It was actually nice to not have to dance around issues, you could be confrontational and know he wouldn't get offended. He was well versed in his area of the presentation, easily paraphrasing what he wanted people to grasp from his slides. It wasn't until he sat down, asking you to present for him that you started having issues.
"What?" He leaned back in his chair, spinning slightly, "Give your speech, do it like I'm the audience."
"No." You huff, "not if you don't." You point at him.
"I'll do it, but you go first, you we're the one who wanted to start us off anyway." He’s brought this on you somewhat out of nowhere.
You look around the room, feeling suddenly anxious. You had practiced both you and Sukuna’s parts to the point of near memorization. You had recorded your speaker notes and listened to them before bed nightly. You knew what to say. But you were feeling suddenly…shy?
"Don't act like I've put you on the spot," He waves a hand, "We're here to practice."
"I know." You look at your shoes, feeling small, stupid. It was embarrassing to have him watch you. He just screamed judgment. You huff, "Fine. Turn around."
He looked almost insulted at the notion. "What? No."
"Would you just do it?"
Assuming he wouldn’t complain, you wait for him to turn. He just squints at you,"I knew you worried over nothing but do you have stage fright too or something?" Sukuna leans down, elbows on his knees.
You didn't really know what the issue was. Performing on stage, you could probably disassociate long enough to not feel so uncomfortable, but here, alone, with only his eyes to see you, it was different somehow. "No...maybe... I don't know."
"Well." He shrugs, "Now's a great time to shake off those nerves. Go on, I'm sure you have all your information down."
He motions your way, and you force yourself to go over your work, starting from the top. You try to focus on your cadence, intonation, and scripted pauses from your recording. You turn to look in the corner of the room, mimicking the intentional body language you had meticulously practiced in front of your bathroom mirror.
You spent the time expressing what you would say rather than pretending to teach him. Having already used the room for hours, you simply focused on the main points of contention, explaining your slides with practiced ease. Once you finished, you moved onto his starting slide and cantered passed him to one of the opposing chairs.
He did not take your cue, getting up to present, however, opting instead to open his body language, "I woulda thought you had a script in front of you."
"Like you said, I actually know my information." You snark, huffing out a breath you hadn’t known you’d been holding. Starting to become tired and stressed at the idea of the upcoming exams.
He simply rolled his eyes as the suggestion that he might not, "You can't make eye contact."
He was speaking as if stating a fact. Your brows furrow, having been doing exactly that what he said you apparently couldn’t do. "When you're presenting, you don’t look at me" He continues. "It's weird, you have no problem with watching people but when you know that someone is watching you, you can't seem to acknowledge it."
Your mouth twists into a mock smirk; he reminded you in that moment of your previous first-year psych student roommate, who genuinely believed themself a genius among feckless plebs.
"When we're on stage, we won't be making eye contact with anyone really-" You were about to defend yourself before being interrupted.
"See. You’re doing it again. You can't look at me." He narrows an accusing finger in your general direction. Moving to stand, he grabs the clicker off the table and shifts into a teasing tone. "Here's how it's done."
You were still somewhat reeling from him pointing out a habit you didn't even know you were taking part in. Wondering suddenly if others had noticed it and if so, why nobody had said anything.
You felt suddenly irked and wanted to prove to him that, no, you very well could make intentional eye contact with someone making a point to notice you.
It was a grueling task, and, as you would find out, your brain seemed to be sending every 'I am uncomfortable' signal to your body while attempting it. You couldn't seem to stop swallowing, voluntarily blinking, or forcefully making your hands stop moving.
All these small tasks took up some serious mental effort but despite that, you were still able to take in his oratory skills.
For a man so lacking in the interpersonal communication sphere, he presented with poise, confidence, and knowledge on his subject. He paced himself well and it almost seemed as though his speech was conducted in a way that made note-taking ideal. He seemed aware of his space and motioned accordingly.
When he wasn't gesturing or looking back at the slides, he was looking at you, as if he was lecturing you with the information you had tirelessly slaved over when studying his speaker notes.
And on the topic of speaker notes? He totally strayed from them! He didn't even follow the same roadmap that you had seen nights before. You hated it, but none could deny, he was still a compelling speaker. You couldn't make a sensible complaint because of how undeniably well he spoke.
Besides, what kind of anal, control-freak, dictator of a school partner memorized someone else's speaker notes?
The issue arose in you suddenly that Sukuna doesn't need to make an effort like you do. He doesn't care to, he simply has the confidence in himself. He seemed to hold no anxiety and no care for how he was perceived. The only issue was, these types often flunked out of school, and here he was thriving.
While he wrapped up his slides, he crossed his arms over his chest, pointedly looking your way.
You think back to your previous interactions, Sukuna must see himself as so terribly generous, allowing you the time of day to practice with him. He likely thought the concept stupid. And worse? His efforts didn't ease your nerves, and they did not qualm your worries.
Your thoughts are cut off by the brisk striking of his knuckles on the table. You look up at him, "Get out of your thoughts." He slides past you to his bookbag, putting away a notebook. "We're in good shape."
You aren't sure what to say. You don't feel like you're in good shape but you don't want to discourage him, not that you thought it possible for him.
Before he slips out of the door, you turn to him, "I'm going to send you a list of mock questions so you can prepare some answers." He wouldn’t look at the email, you were sure.
He snorted a laugh, "Good to know you were paying attention."
And he was gone.
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Sukuna was not terribly fond of school, that is, in the typical sense. He did enjoy learning and was dedicated to his area of study, sure, but being around people? He found it exhausting.
You hadn't stuck out to him, but it was hard to not notice you. You sat in the front of every single lecture, pristinely on time. You were one of the students that the professor felt inclined to call on. And he saw you in the library, often.
It was not until he had been enlisted as your partner for the practicum that he started to see why you had taken his notice.
At first, he shook it off, thinking himself crazy, but after three sessions in the library, it was clear what it was. You reminded him of someone.
You were just like his nephew.
Wednesdays and Fridays in the library, you would be rambling on about something, going over the expectations for the project draft, explaining the sources you wanted him to utilize, and he would be listening, sure, but he would be seeing Yuuji.
The little boy was a little shit, and despite being wildly more extroverted that yourself, he too was nervous about everything.
Sukuna was like a second parent to the boy, and as much as he would complain, he wouldn't change it for a thing.
It was weird, to see the kid in you. At first he stocked you up as a try-hard, but in reality, he assumes you're just scared. You really are just like that little boy.
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You did not sleep well last night. You got to bed early but you simply couldn't slip away. And when you finally did pass over into restless sleep, you were promptly woken up by your own hyperactive consciousness.
You checked the clock each time. Had you really set that alarm? You would go over your script and the more you did, the sicker you felt. You craved more time to practice, you craved for your body to stop jittering with nerves, you craved to just fall asleep damn it!
After a few more hours of waking only to have found rest in literal minute increments, you arose. Dressed yourself and began to get ready.
Everything around you spoke of a good day, the weather was perfect, you looked great, and you had all the rehearsed information at the ready.
Still, internally, you couldn't reach peace.
Once you arrived at the auditorium, you spotted your professor and retrieved your nametag from him. Sukuna was no where to be found which only added to your panic. You paced in the box, the private room for speakers, behind the theater, and repeatedly touched your hair.
Even with potential hours to go, you were feeling overwhelmed, you were at the point of wishing you could just go first and be done with it all.
You were squeezing water out of a thin paper towel and placing it on your neck when the door creaked open.
You flipped to him, "Where have you been?!" You hissed.
You had plenty of time before you would be introduced but you couldn't hide the frustration in your voice.
Sukuna was dressed in a Mandarin suit, he looked perfectly relaxed and the notion only fueled your anger. "I had a class..."
He comes forward and sets his (backup) flash drive on the circular table in the middle of the loge. "Well, why didn't you say that before?” You make an exasperated face and feel your heartbeat quicken, “And where is your nametage?"
Even you could hear the hysterical twinge in your voice, you took a deep breath and told yourself to relax. He didn't say anything, just raised his brows while reaching behind to retrieve the very thing from his back pocket.
Embarrassed, you tear the makeshift cloth from your neck and rush to sit on the couch. You scrap the towel to shreds before disposing of it.
"Everything's in order, we'll be alright." He didn't come to join you on the sofa but watched from the side of the box. He didn’t sound comfortable but he certainly seemed to believe his own words.
"It doesn't even really matter." You had been telling yourself this very thing for weeks when someone took notice of how concerned you were. Not a part of you believed it but you hoped the phrase would ease your mind anyway.
"Oh, it matters." Sukuna laughed.
You wanted to be mad, but in all reality, he was just saying what you knew, him lying would not have comforted you. He started to come over now.
"It just isn't so important that you need to kill yourself over it." You rolled your eyes, knowing what he was saying.
"If we bomb, then that's that, so what?" He tossed his hands up slightly.
You looked at him, and without even needed to study his face, you knew he meant it. He believed it. ‘So what?’ You roll the words around in your brain, shaking your head. You couldn't have stopped the words from escaping.
"I hate people like you." You mutter it, undertones of a laugh there, nothings amusing. "Seriously, I hate how you can just say that."
He isn't mad. The bastard grins, "Oh, trust me, I know."
And then he’s leaving the room. You don't have much time to wonder about what exactly he was doing. You hadn’t thought he would be upset at your declaration. Then again, you hadn’t exactly been thinking when you said it.
What had he meant, that he knew? I guess a guy like him just assumes everyone who isn’t perfectly relaxed at all times is a suck up.
When he returned, he was carrying water bottles and complimentary fruit from outside the auditorium doors. This time around he does come sit, right next to you.
"Have some."
You don't feel thirst but you still accept it when he cracks open the bottle for you. He places the fruit on the table before you both and takes a drink himself.
"I didn't really mean that, I'm just jealous of how you live." He's leaned back and his suit pants clung to his legs.
He purses his lips and shifts his head from side to side, smirking, Mmm, I don't know, I think you actually meant it."
You both chuckle, the nerves are still getting to you. "I still hate you for what you did earlier this semester." You lighten your voice but glance his way to show you do mean it.
He turns his head now, brow raised but still comfortably leaning against the back of the couch. "What did I do earlier this semester?"
You laugh, rolling your eyes. It takes him a moment before he sees you’re not gonna reply, "No, what did I do?"
"The whole beginning of this project." You muse. He still isn't catching what you're saying so you motion with your hands. "Our meetings, in the library? You never told me you were top of the class."
“Should I go out and advertise it?" He clearly isn't getting what you mean.
"No, Sukuna, it sucks because you never told me that you were well versed in the class material.” He still doesn’t seem to grasp the issue, “I’m saying, it made me feel stupid to find out that the guy I thought I was tutoring was actually competing with me."
"It made you feel stupid?"
"In a way. Like you were mocking me."
Sukuna frowns, he leans onto his knees. "I wasn't mocking you."
"You say that." You poke his shoulder and he looks at you quizzically.
In all actuality, it was nice to be able to tell him these things, you didn't feel that anger anymore. As of it had rolled off, only shame lingered.
"I never minded our sessions in the library. I guess it made things easier, you're so..." he reaches for the word,
“Anal?” You recount when he had called you that very thing.
He rolls his eyes, "Organized."
"Thanks." Your voice is low, sarcastic.
He shrugs. Some of the nerves have left you, but suddenly you're hearing voices in the auditorium, one specifically telling people to file in through the doors, and you know you'll be speaking soon.
He turns to look at you again, legs parallel to your own, his palms flat on his thighs, "You care too much about what others think."
He's doing that thing, that I'm-going-to-make-intentional-eye-contact-with-you-and-it-will-be-an-unspoken-comeptition-to-prove-you-can't-do-it thing.
"Maybe you're too carefree." You offer silently.
Soon, someone will come through the doors before you with mic packs and you'll have tape on your face. Your heart pounds. "You should feel okay without having to prove that you’re worthy of validation from others."
He reaches forward for his water bottle, voices can be heard above you, to your sides. People are taking their seats. "You're a smart girl."
And for the second time this week, he says your name and it feels just as strange as it had that first time. "And you didn't have to prove it for me to see it."
And with everything else occurring in this moment, you feel the most upset about the fact that the obnoxious Sukuna Ryomen might just bring unshed tears to your eyes.
You’re silent as you stand, brushing unseen dust off your clothing. Sukuna is stood there by the door that leads to the area behind the stage, his hand is outstretched.
You look around frantically, turning to find his clicker that he must have left on the table, but before you can start searching, he scoffs.
He leans forward and grabs your arm, spinning you gently. He robotically shows you his hand again and places your own in it.
Oh.
He tightens his encompassing palm around your own and makes a tugging sensation to pull you ahead of him through the door he held open.
People in the tech crew were setting everything up and called you each over to get your mics on.
When he lets you go, your hand twitches involuntarily.
You hadn’t realized how cold you were until you felt the warmth of his hand. And for some reason, you couldn’t think of much else as you got mic’d up, despite the ever growing voiced in the audience.
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