#THIS GAME HAS CHEWED ME UP
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"that ship is death. it bears death’s name."
"thanatos doesn’t want you here."
"so i’m saying it to the ocean: i’m sad. there. do whatever you want with it."
"by my light, the darkness will burn."
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been chewing on this conversation between pearl and gem this week:
Gem: I know you didn't kill me!
Pearl: So what are you cranky about?
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Gem: I'm just- you know, I wanted some drama! So, this is the drama, you're welcome.
Pearl: "This is the drama". You're telling me we could've been friends this whole time but you're just like "yoohoohoohoohoohoohoo... I hate you!"
Gem: Yeah, I mean, why not!
and i'm connecting it to gem in empires season 2, where like. in the context of the fiction everyone else had been living in that world their whole lives and that's their reality, like, it's real to them.
and meanwhile gem is just roleplaying. like, she was a being from another world who just came there because she wanted to play at being a human princess for a while. and then when she's called away she's just like. anyway i was never actually a princess or a mortal being from this dimension and we're never gonna see each other again, sorry for the existential crisis, bye!
and anyway i think she has a similar deal in the life series. like, everyone else is there because they're trapped in the Torment Nexus, gem is there because she wants to be.
#life series#wild life#geminitay#i mean all the hermits on empires had EXTREMELY Fey Vibes but the way gem spins it is like.......#I Am Chewing On It.#and this conversation has me like. i've connected the two dotssss#i gotta watch her secret life before i totally go off on this#but i'm also thinking of her general attitude about people trying to kill her in wild life#where she's just sort of like. humoring them. but also she would love it if they killed her! because then *she* gets to kill people!#like. it just doesn't *matter* as much to her#vs joel who deals with the wild cards just as well as her but is still always running around panicking about *something*#see the difference in how they react to everyone blowing up joel's car vs cleo burning down gem's barn#and team 4G also being called sweats this session and they are generally very good at the game#but everything matters Extremely A Lot to them. see: cleo burning down gem's barn#this isn't really going anywhere specific but i am thinking about it So Much
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If I have to see one more fucking post where curly mouthwashing has those stupid fucking pet buttons I'm gonna end up on the news
Yall know AAC Devices exist right?? Yall know there's eyetrackers and software that makes it possible to type just by looking at a keyboard on a screen right??? Yall know these things are all for humans so that you don't have to give a disabled character some shitty buttons made for fucking animals RIGHT!?!?
I am begging yall to do one fucking google search like "ways to communicate without talking for disabled people" before degrading a grown ass man to the level of a dog.
#curly mouthwashing#captain curly#mouthwashing#the fandomization of this game was a mistake#i blame gaming youtubers#like as you can tell from my post#im all about accessibility#but i fucking wish mouthwashing had a higher barrier to entry#like how pathologic has purposefully difficult prose#so you really gotta sit with it and chew if you wanna play the game#not that patho escaped fandomification because of its obtuseness#but at least you dont see plague victims or worms from that game with fucking DOG BUTTONS#also the software i mentioned is called Optikey#its got tons of different functions and supports most low cost eye trackers#i looked into it when my fingers hurt so bad i couldn't type anymore#didn't end up using it cause i got OT finger braces and a mechanical keyboard#which worked for me#ive also been informed some people are calling curly “it”#will the jimmy behavior ever cease
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breaking news: my third eye is open again and i'm falling for lilia and his charms.
#meraki mumbles#this is not a drill...... he's genuinely making me have thoughts#it's the general lilia effect#and the sheer whiplash of mean war general versus silly and doting father figure who is also in a pop music club#and he stays up super late to game and so it's highly possible he (at one point) has said 'slay' and and and!!!!!!#OTL and then i'm slowly seeing the appeal for malleus as well#someone inject the fish into my brain before i fall into the diasomnia hole#lilia would be NO HELP if silver or sebek or malleus knocked you up (in your sleep or otherwise) he's proud like '>:3 those are my boys'#and silver... living his entire life thinking people only have sex to breed (because that's how lilia explained sex-ed to him)#so he restrains himself from wanting to have sex with you because he's worried he'll just fuck you like an animal and breed you full D:#AAAAAAA I NEED TO STOP BEFORE THE DIASOMNIA WORMS CHEW THROUGH MY CORTEX.......
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started playing pillars of eternity the other day.. (shoving my 40 hours of playtime under the rug) its cool i guess.
#pillars of eternity#death godlike#dymphna#really shoddily cropped outfit lineup cause i dont want tumblr sniping me for well errrrrm. uhhhhhh emmmm.... yknow nuddy#i made dymphna in game and barely 2 days later i had a fully lined and coloured line up of her thats the fastest ive ever made one#she has the worlds. most disgusting grasp on my brain its insane how attached i am to her alreadyy. i even made her a custom portrait....#anyways josh sawyer count your fucking days for not making hiravias or eder romancable im going to get you.#i dont want aloth thats her chew toy not her boy toy. shes hoisting him on her shoulder and throwing him about#shes 6 foot 3 built like a rectangle and absolutelty trying to convince herself and everyone else that shes the perfect size#to sit in hiravias's lap. (he cant feel his legs anymore)
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a list of timestamps, for no reason :)
thesis statement : No, what blue did tonight and what red did the last two nights are not the same.
disclaimer: this is not a judgement of right / wrong, this is a glorified compare and contrast paper.
a TL;DR is available at the top, immediately following the keep reading link (which i hope, for your sake, is still there).
for each vod i have compiled the time stamps first, and then under the heading "notably" have compiled and compared them.
this is the most toxic i will allow myself to be.
TL;DR:
Blue team on Day 4 took 2 seconds from first task claimed to last. Red team on Day 2 took 5 minutes 14 seconds from first task claimed to last, and on Day 3 took 42 seconds.
Blue team on Day 4 was vulnerable in the area for 2 seconds before claiming their last task. Red team on Day 2 was vulnerable in the area for 8 minutes 31 seconds, and on Day 3 was vulnerable for 12 minutes 10 seconds.
The time blue team spent getting situated before logging out in global is not counted in this as being vulnerable because it is not a viable strategy for an entertainer to waste 4 hours of their limited time camping global to ensure no one is logging out.
Red team claimed their first global task on Day 3 with 13 minutes until the server closed. On Day 4, Etoiles and Roier arrived to stop blue team from applying the same strategy with 15 minutes until the server closed.
Blue team's actions on Day 4 did not leave them open to any reasonable retaliation efforts once Tubbo logged out. The moment he logged back in, the tasks were as good as complete. Unless another content creator metagamed, they would not be able to stop him.
Red team's actions on Day 2 and Day 3 did leave them open to retaliation. They were not fast, they often did not have the items they needed crafted in advance and spent time in sight of the global task dome crafting the items. If a team had been waiting for them to try this at the global task dome as Etoiles and Roier did for Blue team, that team could entirely have succeeded in killing them or ruining their plans.
The global tasks on Day 4 were already functionally blue's 4 hours before they were claimed. Even if the disaster hadn't affected global, the way it was supposed to, the only thing left would have been revenge. There was no preventing it once Tubbo logged out.
The global tasks on Day 2 were open to reclamation for an hour after red team claimed them. By Day 3 blue team was aware of red's strategy and had a full 12 minutes (at a predictable time! see below) in which they could have attacked red and stopped them.
What blue and red team did was not the same.
Below are the time stamps I used to get this data and draw these conclusions. I've included links to vods for verification purposes. These links are not future proofed.
November 7th, 2023: Day 4 of Purgatory
TubboLIVE's VOD:
1:47:20 : Tubbo logs out of the server, behind the blue "contracts" NPC. He has 15 minutes 32 seconds of server time remaining.
5:50:23 : It is 3:48:52 am in Tubbo's time zone. Tubbo shows the clock on his screen. There are 11 minutes and 8 seconds until the server closes.
5:50:49 : Tubbo loads in, behind the blue "contracts" NPC. It is 3:49:41 am. This is the first moment the game is visible on his screen. He has 15 minutes 03 seconds of server time remaining.
5:50:50 : Tubbo claims the first of the global tasks.
5:50:51 : Tubbo claims the last of the global tasks. It is 3:49:43 am.
Notably:
Functionally, tubbo was standing behind the blue NPC, invincible, for 4 hours 3 minutes and 3 seconds
There is a 29 second period of server time that I can't account for.
The total time it took for tubbo to claim every global task after loading in is 2 seconds.
The cooldown for every global task before it can be reclaimed is 10 minutes. In this case these ten minutes started at 3:49:42 and 3:49:43 am. The first moment any of these claimed global tasks can be reclaimed is 3:59:42 am, with 18 seconds until the server closes.
Etoiles's VOD:
4:56:08 : With some leniency, this is the first clear view of the blue "contracts" NPC and the spot Tubbo is "standing" shown on Etoiles's stream.
*(the blue NPC comes into view at 4:56:06 but whether Etoiles would have seen Tubbo there is dubious enough that I have opted for a later time stamp)
4:56:12 : Etoiles and Roier enter the global task dome. They are standing directly to the left of the red NPC; on the opposite side as the blue NPC. The spot Tubbo is "standing" is clearly visible on Etoiles's stream. Etoiles has 10 minutes 40 seconds of server time remaining. There are roughly 15 minutes and 30 seconds until the server closes*.
*(Time calculated roughly using Tubbo's log in message; this is not exact)
4:56:17 : Roier is standing in front of the blue "contracts" NPC.
4:58:03 : Without leaving global spawn, Etoiles disconnects to get a buffer on his time limit. Remembering that there is a disaster coming, he immediately re-logs to avoid the combat logging penalty. Roier does not disconnect during this time.
4:58:18 : The first frame of the game is visible after Etoiles relogs. Etoiles has 8 minutes 53 seconds of server time remaining.
4:58:45 : The quicksand disaster starts, affecting global spawn despite admins having informed Etoiles previously that disasters did not affect global spawn.
5:00:08 : The disaster ends.
5:01:17 : Tubbo logs in. There are roughly 10 minutes 11 seconds until the server closes.
Notably:
Roier is standing three blocks away from Tubbo's log-in point (effectively, three blocks away from Tubbo) at 5 minutes before Tubbo logs in.
Were Tubbo logged in, waiting physically at spawn, Etoiles and Roier would have been able to initiate combat 5 minutes and 5 seconds earlier. Both had plenty of time on their server counters to participate in this combat, albeit Etoiles would have been kicked before server close. Roier would not be (source: Slime's vod, 2:45:05 and on. There is no disconnect message for Roier before the server is closed at roughly 2:45:08).
Were Tubbo logged in, waiting physically at spawn when Etoiles and Roier arrived (at roughly 3:44:37 am in Tubbo's time zone, 15 minutes and 23 seconds before the server closed), and had claimed all global missions at that time rather than risk dying in combat, the missions would have been able to be reclaimed at roughly 3:54:37 am, with about 5 minutes and 23 seconds before the server closed. This is 5 minutes and 5 seconds more than the actual time.
November 5th, 2023 : Day 2 of Purgatory
This is the first day red has used this strategy.
Cellbit's VOD:
6:52:27 : Cellbit arrives at the plaza outside the global task dome (Carre is already here; he wasn't streaming so I don't know when he arrived).
6:52:49 : Cellbit enters the global task dome. He backtracks to the right of the global task dome, and sets up a crafting area to craft items for the tasks somewhat out of sight of the dome. He is 96 meters away from the dome.
6:55:34 : Cellbit re-enters the global task dome.
6:55:44 : Cellbit claims the first global task for red team (electrolytes). The cooldown is 10 minutes 41 seconds.
6:55:49 : Cellbit claims one global task for red team (radiation medicine).
6:55:55 : Cellbit claims one global task for red team (campfires).
6:56:04 : Cellbit leaves the global task dome and sets up a second crafting area to the right of the dome after losing the first. This area is in full view of the dome, and is roughly 61 meters away.
6:57:40 : Cellbit dumps every item in his inventory except for iron and minecarts and a shield into a chest (he is functionally defenseless).
6:58:18 : Cellbit re-enters the global task dome.
6:58:23 : Cellbit claims one global task for red team (minecarts).
6:59:12 : Cellbit claims one global task for red team (diamonds).
6:59:49 : Cellbit gets his sword out of the chest (he is no longer defenseless).
7:00:58 : Jaiden claims the last global task for red team (rails). The bananas task remains unclaimed.
7:01:01 : ElQuackity is visible outside the dome on Cellbit's stream for the first time. Cellbit chases him.
7:04:34 : Cellbit kills ElQuackity, putting red team in the lead.
7:48:07 : The server closes.
Notably:
Red team is physically present, visible, and murderable / stoppable at the global tasks area for 8 minutes 31 seconds.
Red team takes 5 minutes 14 seconds to claim their global tasks.
The cooldown on these global tasks leaves at minimum 36 minutes 28 seconds to reclaim, maximum 41 minutes 42 seconds to reclaim before server close.
If a team were to have come up to the dome during the 8 minute 31 second period, they would have seen the team and could have attacked or stopped them.
There is a 2 minute 9 second period where Cellbit literally does not have a weapon in his inventory.
If a team were to have come up to the dome while the red team was still crafting the global quest items, they could have attacked and prevented the team from crafting the items and forced them to retreat without claiming those goals.
November 6th, 2023 : Day 3 of Purgatory
This is the second day red has used this strategy.
Cellbit's VOD:
3:39:11 : Cellbit sees Bagi on the bridge to global. There are 24 minutes and 2 seconds until the server closes.
3:39:49 : Cellbit enters the global dome, standing just to the right of where the red NPC is on November 7th.
3:40:24 : Cellbit exits the global dome to craft the water bottles needed for the global task.
3:42:58 : Cellbit crafts the final water bottle needed for the global task.
3:43:28 : Cellbit, Foolish, and Carre re-enter the global dome.
3:44:15 : Cellbit and Carre exit the global dome to inspect Bagi's body. Foolish exits the global dome to use the crafting table.
3:45:36 : Cellbit and Carre re-enter the global dome.
(There's a few more entrances and exits from the dome during the following period, though they stay within the area marked with Bagi's body, the global NPCs, and the crafting table as corners : Never much more than 61 meters away and never out of sight of the dome)
3:49:45 : Cellbit sends the message "hey guys we are about to deliver global tasks you should come!" There are 14 minutes and 18 seconds until the server closes.
3:50:39 : Cellbit claims the first global task for red team (tea leaves). There are 13 minutes and 26 seconds until the server closes.
3:50:59 : Carre claims one global task for red team (gas masks).
3:51:01 : Cellbit claims one global task for red team (hot cocoa).
3:51:09 : Cellbit claims one global task for red team (water bottles).
3:51:12 : Cellbit claims one global task for red team (backpacks).
3:51:21 : Carre claims the last global task for red team (tea). There are 11 minutes and 52 seconds until the server closes.
4:03:13 : The server closes.
notably:
Red team is physically present, visible, and murderable / stoppable at the global tasks area for 11 minutes and 28 seconds before they turn in any global tasks.
Red team takes 42 seconds to turn in all of their global tasks.
The cooldown on the global tasks leaves at maximum 3 minutes 26 seconds of time to reclaim, and at minimum 1 minute and 52 seconds to reclaim.
If a team were to have come up to the dome during the 11 minute and 28 second period, they would have seen and could have attacked red team.
If a team were to have come up to the dome in the 3 minutes 47 seconds between red team arriving at the global dome and red team crafting all the water bottles for the global task, they would have seen and could have attacked red team.
#qsmp#qsmp neg#qsmp purgatory neg#qsmp purgatory#fandom neg#qsmp fandom neg#qsmp blue team neg#neg#shut up vic#block game brainrot#i'll add tags if anyone thinks of a neg tag i missed i'm trying to be overly courteous as much as possible#i'm also trying to be objective as much as possible#the conclusion of this post isn't a value judgement on right or wrong btw#this is literally just 'did the teams do the same thing' and the conclusion i came to was 'no they didn't lol'#idc whether the strat was valid or scummy or hype or WHATEVER idc just to prove that blue and red did not do the same thing#bc it's going to bug me and i refuse to take that energy to sleep with me#this post is not an excuse to harass a cc in the replies or the reblogs i will chew the aglets off your shoes and hide tuna in your curtain#i may update this if someone has a counter argument i think i should address but that's up to my whims#i may also delete this idk yet#i hate to be mad on main but i'm mad so this is the best i can do without adding too much outright neg to what's already a cesspit tbh#long post#long tags#discourse#qsmp discourse#qsmp purgatory discourse
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i am once again reminded that light and misa should've been insane about each other. like yeah its bc the author who's name i dont remember is a mysoginist weirdo and light is so mysoginistic it wraps back around to being gay but what if he loved his fucked up girlfriend and killed someone w his bare hands for her. what then.
#like of COURSE lawlight still happens here. of course it does who do you take me for#misa absolutely encourages her bf's fucked up mind games with his favourite little chew toy#sometimes she watches. yk.#she has taste#misalight#light yagami#misa amane#death note
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WHAT THE CRAP IS THIS
WHAT IN THE FLYING FREAKING FRICKIN' EVERLOVING CRAP IS THIS, ACTUALLY
#genshin impact#neuvia#navillette#IF YOU DON'T KNOW THAT'S THE DADGUM PRIDE AND PREJUDICE MOVIE ON THE RIGHT#WHAT IN THE EVERYTHING IS THIS FRAMING#YOU EXPECT ME TO BE NORMAL ABOUT THIS??? REALLY???? SERIOUSLY??????? HONESTLY?????????? GENUINELY??????????????? HELLO?????????????????????#chewing the concrete clawing at the drywall shaking the bars of my enclosure#for some extra context the scene in genshin is when they're finally making their peace after being at odds for a while#navia apologizes for misjudging him and he explains that her father's death actually taught him a huge lesson about human determination#and gave him a deeper understanding of the whole concept of justice (something neuvillette values very much)#and the scene in pride and prejudice IS WHEN DARCY FIRST TELLS ELIZABETH HE'S IN LOVE WITH HER??? EXCUSE ME???????#LIKE I'M NOT GONNA SAY FOR A SECOND THAT THAT HAPPENED IN GENSHIN BECAUSE IT VERY MUCH DID NOT (REGRETTABLY)#BUT THE FRAMING?? IS EXACTLY THE SAME??? AND IT'S EVEN RAINING?????#BECAUSE NEUVILLETTE IS SAD??? BECAUSE HE'S THE HYDRO DRAGON??? AND IT RAINS WHEN HE'S SAD??????#I'M??????????????????#AND THE FACT THAT IN THIS SCENE IN THE MOVIE DARCY AND ELIZABETH ARE STILL AT ODDS AND HAVEN'T MADE UP YET??????#THE FREAKING PARALLELS??????? I'M GONNA CHOKE??????????????#this and the obscenely soft look he has when she wakes up after he saves her before she falls in the primordial sea uuuugggghhhh.#that was. so unbelievably unnecessary. genuinely what was the reason.#if you're not gonna canonize a single ship in the game then why would you freaking bother. why would you do that. why. ANSWER ME DOGGONE IT#can't. cannot.#navia#neuvillette#“kill the part of you that cringes” i whisper as i convince myself to post this and not leave it in my stack of *checks notes* 170 drafts
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the way sidestep ortega and chen are forever tied to each other by heartbreak mostly/especially because they cannot talk about it to each other or those who weren't there. the way that dannys feelings reflect a general truth which is that as long as they dont talk about it there will always be a wall between them and everyone else. the way they don't even get the full comfort of the quiet knowledge that at least these two other people know exactly what you went trough due to the telepathic nature of the event. the way we know the least about heartbreak from ortega's perspective who came closest to experiencing it "objectively"
#fhr#the first time i played trough seeing heartbreak trough chens mind i was CHEWING WIRES#BOOK 3 IS GOING TO ANNIHILATE ME#im just........rambling again#there is nothing profound in any of this#simple facts just spin around in my mind like a hamster wheel#having chen/ortega/step feelings tooooooniiiight#which btw is super fun with a female sidestep who is way too much like chen#because it takes the 'what the fuck is your game here' to a whole new level#oops yana has some feelings and wants ortega and chen to have each other#even though she might kill them oopsie#*sidestep voice* i am very selfless! im setting up my boyfriend with a future boyfriend so he doesnt die alone if i have to kill him!#ms roden brains goes bzzz
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thought slightly too hard about hajime hinata
#dr#im going to die. hes so everything tonme Oh my god#like actually i will be ill. the things that man has been through. not even just the lobotomy and the tragedy and the killing game but his#life preceding that LEAD him to that point……he was so lonely and obsessed with talent and desperate to be worthy he took any chance to be#Someone. he went to hopes peak and he was still lonely and unhappy and obsessive because ALL HE WANTED WAS TO BE TALENTED……AND HIS DREAM#SCHOOL THAT HE SACRIFICED SO MUCH TO ATTEND CHEWED HIM UP AND SPIT HIM OUT AND TREAT HIM LIKE GARBAGE AT EVERY TURN#dangling talent and ultimates in front of his face but segregating him and the reserve course from them. treating them as second class AND#YET HE STAYED. AND GAVE HIS BODY AND MIND TO THE SCHOOL . im going to be fucking SICK!!!!!!!!#HAJIME HINATA IM CRYING MY EYES OUT I LOVE YOU . LET ME HOLD YOUR HEAD IN MY HANDS
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"WONDERFUL SHOW TONIGHT, FORREST."
a KILLER FREQUENCY Marie Campbell/Forrest Nash ship playlist on YT
"Good to talk to you again, Forrest. You know, I've really enjoyed our chats tonight." "I guess we've had some moments."
Tracklist under the cut
Is Everybody Going Crazy? - Nothing But Thieves / The Perfect Girl - Mareux / We Don't Have To Dance - Andy Black / Night Issues (Nightcall x Daddy Issues) Mashup/Remix - FuturePastPerson / "Bassically" - Tei Shi / Cold Summer - Mareux / Diet Mountain Dew - Lana Del Rey / Destruction Of Us - Mr.Kitty / Teeth - 5 Seconds of Summer / HUSH - Ari Abdul / DTLA - Mareux / Make You Mine - Madison Beer / FEAR YOU - Kat Von D / Bad Romance - Lady Gaga / Dark All Day - GUNSHIP / Maniac (feat. Conor Mason of Nothing But Thieves) - AWOLNATION
#killer frequency#marie campbell#forrest nash#slashers#video games#marie/forrest (killer frequency)#forrest/marie (killer frequency)#together their first names make the initials for motherfucker :) <3 and i think that's beautiful#playlist#fanmix#“you really plugged mareux 3 times in one playlist huh” Listen. if we're on the assumption that marie is kind of half goth#also this color scheme of their character colors w/ the loading bar u see at the start&end of the game isn't perfect but…it's beautiful ha#gosh im sorry im aware this will be more pleasant listening if u have an adblocker. i hope u do……#p.s. hosted in my sidepiece/bootycall channel. this isnt really what i use/sub from on the daily so u wont get much interaction if any#with all that out the way Pls if u listen let me know what your vibe of this ship is post-whistling night (or in general??) + this playlist#for me forrest was never a target of hate but more someone who Really got in the way to the point of getting on the hitlist#if we keep to the “sense of justice” marie got from him +other strong traits then diff scenarios open up where she considers sparing him#and from there i kinda picture the dynamic At First as Feral beast with Shiny new chew toy (who confirmed Can Flirt Back) but then develops#forrest is bitter/dark/temperamental & sentimental enough to meet her perspectives part way#it all grows into a turbulent friendship that goes into a turbulent romance. and Perhaps peace?? s/o to anyone who's into this lol#excuse the non-fanfic happening in these tags but also imagining them bonding from bad parents lmao but from two diff perspectives#where marie would stab hers and probly forrests once theyre friends if he was hurt by 'em#but i like imagining forrest on more of a “they sucked but it was a different time & they didnt know better”#with someone specifically like marie replying No fuck them severely#“Oh what? Youre gonna get revenge for me? :) By killing their kid who is me? :)” / “FINE Forrest I just might”#and both of them possibly being musically inclined but lol for diff reasons went on another path. they can Play oh boyo this ship's a treat
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I officially finished my 4th iwatex game, and am somehow already halfway through my 5th
I have 96 hours logged. I started playing this game only 10 days ago.
Heck.
#speculation nation#averaging 9-10 hours a day like. ok yea that sounds about right. but Ugh#the good news is ive got my doctor's appointment in 2 days which will hopefully give me adhd meds#which should hopefully help with my executive dysfunction and hyperfocus issues. Smiles.#i really do love this game and im enjoying it immensely. i just also have Shit To Do.#gonna do things tomorrow. i am. im even going to bed at 1 am today and not 4 am! wow!#or 5 or 6 am. which i have been guilty of several times while in the throes of this game.#just. chewing on it. gnawing on it. it is so immensely compelling to me. genuinely.#the exploration and wonder of nature. the growing up and becoming more troubled#the slowburn childhood friends to lovers trope. also Sym. just. Sym. my goth alien boyfriend u are my favorite fr#AND the refreshing takes on gender and sexuality. it's so freeing.#ive seen this game compared to persona games too. which no wonder i like it so much (says the decade long persona fan)#idk it just feels like a game Made For Me.#it has some flaws and some things i wish i could do within it. but even still. it is so so good#im almost doubtlessly going to be writing something for it. the only reason i havent started already is bc im so short on time#for doing my reverse bang fic lol. im trying to wean myself off the game so i can focus back on writing that.#but Afterwards... oh yes. i will write that dys/sol/sym fic that ive been dying to write. mark my words.
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Holding Komi in my hands
#elyan bleats#I'm looking at ask games and thinking of potential answers and it put him into so much perspective#ITS NOT HIS FAULT!!!#He literally grew up in such a loving family. the wizard took advantage of that. saw all that love and warped it#leaving Komi only thinking physical intimacy is the only way to be close!! I need to chew my own teeth how has an OC gotten out of me
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writing my goddamn fic be like and it's still not done
(disclaimer this may not be long for some people but it is for me)
#why is it long and still not finished#fic keeps on keeping on#because i am going to split it up into quote unquote chapters im really struggling not to just start posting#i want the dopamine#but i also want to have it be not terrible#and considering my track record with deciding that i need to drastically edit beginnings of things i just worry#so probably i should write it all and then edit and then post all at once#like here ya go enjoy the vidya game fanfic novella!#literally 0 idea if this would at all be enjoyable to anyone but me#i do hope people like it when its done#i like exploring various themes in different fics#usually each one has some like guiding theme#(not so much the last one but ehhhhh i shoehorned it a bit)#this one possibly unsurprisingly is identity#so... yeah. lots of stuff to chew on there#anyway this is probably not a lot of words for some people but its a loy for me and like... this might hit 50k#which is arbitrary but exciting for me#makes me feel like i will have accomplished something
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she's funny.
#crow's scribbles#d4dj#d4dj groovy mix#noa fukushima#towa hanamaki#towanoa#im a bit tired but#if u get what im referencing at the first drawing u are amazing.#it's not very obvious but iykyk#noa has grown on me. girl that's so emotional like me#maybe she isn't a scrunkly. perhaps. she is.... A BLORBO!?!??!#im not sure. all i know is that blorbo means guy u love so so so much and just want to hug and chew up#i think. unless ive been lied to. :(#noa is also my little shit.#i like all mix noa!! but game noa?#she. she's ok. ig.#i would say more but i'll stop here haha.....#just know that noa is. an interesting creature to me.
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I downloaded baldur's gate 3 (because of course I did) and I am feeling very normal about it thank you very much
#I went into this expecting to like astarion but he's. kind of mean :(#gale however....has me in a chokehold#anyway my character is a tiefling sorcerer named impulse (or imp) to encourage me to just fuck around while i learn the game#i made a dnd oc first but i got too caught up in what he would or wouldnt do. also became sad when astarion didn't like me being nice#imp is a sweetie. unless she feels like committing violence in which she is aggressive. unless she feels like being impartial#make sense? lmao#anyway imp was born because i want to kill those fucking druids (namely kahga)#my terrifying yellow and orange daughter who chews on table legs....#also nobody warned me about the worm violence. also i love my fucked up brain dog and miss them with my whole heart
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