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I madeth this
I couldn't stop laughing while making it, and Im still cackling xD
#my art#sucker for love#sfl billie#sfl kidd#sfl nanni#sfl stardust#sfl rhokzan#AND ITS THE FACT THAT THE WITH THE SHOTGUN SOUND AND W BILLIES WOUND MAKES IT SEEM LIKE SHE GOT SHOT MANNN#THAT WASNT PLANNED/INTENTIONAL#BILLIE FORGIVE ME PLEASE
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okok let me finally do my analysis on kusuke and makoto parallels like ive talked about a thousand times (obvious warning that im gonna talk about incest, and also that im gonna be talking about a gag manga in a serious light so if that upsets you just go away ✌️)... yippee, perverted older brothers with unhealthy dynamics with their powerful younger siblings analysis!!

the most obvious parallel is in their interactions with the others sibling. they literally have the same exact meeting, they both go from being fake nice to "my sibling is special and youre not worthy of them"
not included in pictures but also note that kusuo got rid of makoto by calling on kokomi and kokomi got rid of kusuke by calling on her fans

"the second hes distracted, LETS GO"

"we're the only ones who can match up to each other"
kusukes idea of kusuo being inhuman also influences the way this is treated i think- he tells kokomi that marrying a beautiful man will suit her best and that kusuo is above that kind of thing (aka actual romantic and aesthetic attraction), and it seems that being the only ones who can measure up to each other is probably the closest, in his eyes, that kusuo can get to love (confirmed in my opinion by the marriage/engagement symbolism a few pictures down⬇️). thats why he thinks theyre the only ones worthy of each other even if he doesnt see kusuo in the exact same way as makoto sees kokomi. if that makes any sense :p these are obviously already parallel on surface level, but id say theyre even more similar if you look deeply into it

"i know everything youre thinking" and "everyone else looks like monkeys to me"

associating their sibling with heaven/god

a certain fixation on their sibling's body... top two are specifically them trying to see their sibling naked without consent

? not sure how to describe this. implications of engagement/marriage? this use of an explicitly romantic symbol actually confuses me in kusukes case but thats not really relevant here...

theyre the reason their sibling cant relax or be themself even at home... also note that kusuo specifically says that kusuos masochism (which i guess in some contexts masochism can be non-sexual but in this situation, since kusuke is canonically a pervert and there are several implications and allusions to sexual pleasure, it obviously means he gets SEXUAL pleasure from pain/humiliation) is the main reason he doesnt like him. likewise, kokomi is bothered by makotos overprotective and overbearing nature, though unfortunately she doesnt seem to be aware of his sister complex and thinks hes just being an annoying big brother.
not necessarily something that can be captured in a picture but theres also the fact that they both have pretty perfect lives but are still obsessed with their sibling and only their sibling, its all they really care about and their entire lives depend on them.
makoto is extremely attractive, charming when hes trying to be, and is a famous actor... he clearly gets girls. but he doesnt want any of them because hes stuck in his obsession with kokomi, shes the only girl he wants and its ruined his perception of other girls. he believes hes the only one that can be right for kokomi and touch her, and that likewise kokomi is the only girl he can be with. her presence dictates his life, he skips work just to follow her around and prevent her from getting involved with other guys. we only see maybe a few sentences from him where he isnt talking about kokomi, even when hes on tv.
kusuke is an attractive and charming genius, easily pulls girls, cambridge graduate, and is the favorite child in his family. but none of that matters, it only sets him apart from other humans and gives him a skewed perspective of anyone who isnt kusuo. he believes kusuo is the only person he can get that sadomasochistic pleasure from, and kusuo is the reason he developed it in the first place and he specifically seeks him out and coerces him into it. he really only cares about his family, theyre the only people in the world that are worth anything in his eyes, and his only interactions with anyone else have been using them as tools to get to kusuo. his life goal is (or was, before the end of cat tank arc) defeating kusuo. he has cameras in his familys house that hes presumably constantly watching, implied by him being ALREADY watching before his parents even called him about kusuos limiter.
#this was one of the most obviously intentional things i noticed when watching for the first time#so i was shocked that people dont see it#'stop comparing kusuke and makoto theyre nothing alike!!' my brother in christ theyre literally written to be compared#the main difference i think is that kusuke sees kusuo more sexually and makoto sees kokomi more romantically#obviously theres both in each but one outweighs the other#yeahhhhhhhhhhh#i actually really would like to know what kusuke planned to do after failing in cat tank arc before kusuo gave him another chance that he-#wasnt expecting. like he failed at his life goal and didnt even expect kusuo to still want him around. but thats a whole other conversation#anyway idk if im missing stuff this was half finished in my drafts for a long time and i kept forgetting about it#ok thats all#saiki k#tdlosk#the disastrous life of saiki k.#saiki kusuo#saiki kusuke#teruhashi kokomi#teruhashi makoto#meows post#incest cw#meownalysis
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oops
#this was something silly i drew like. 2 weeks ago i wasnt planning to post but here it is anyway!#tf2#team fortress 2#tf2 medic#tf2 heavy#heavymedic#red oktoberfest#<- if u want i suppose. my thoughts and intentions are unparsable as always#ibis paint x
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Hey. hands you a bug
#digital art#art#robo ky#robovenom#genesect#grubbin#charjabug#gg venom#venom gg#archeops sona#archen sona#character fusion#crow guilty gear#I was planning to have some other bug types like durant and shelmet to get across that he looks after weaker bug types of all kinds#but i forgort. as per usual.#now it just looks like he specifically looks after grubbins and charjabugs and nobody else and that wasnt my intent graaaah!!!!!1!!#other than that i'm mostly happy with how this came out. maybe coulda done better on murkrow kuruwaba idk#importnt part is genesect is basically mewtwo but a bug and it bums me out that it rarely gets acknowledged!! its a good bug!!!!#hashtag genesect appreciation or smthn idk
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i think about this part often maybe a bit too much
#i mean its just till getting choked#but 𝓮𝓻𝓸𝓽𝓲𝓬𝓪𝓵𝓵𝔂#you catch my drift?#also the way ivan is just like hard staring through him bro is higher than the clouds#it looked like he was playing kahoot in his brain deciding what to do next after realizing the face sucking wasnt doing anything but he had#taken this kahoot quiz b4 so he just went for the green option instantly#(thought really hard about this for like 2 seconds or in this case had used all the other options)#like he was just fucking around no clear plan#and just Till's general expression of 🫨#he looked like he saw jesus for a second also his eye bags are more apparent#and now im just noticing the skin folds around the neck#so im afraid ivan did actually go for the juggler and genuinely tried strangling till#with intent to kill or not im unsure#im getting tears on my screen let me stop here#alien stage#alnst till#alnst ivan#alien stage till#alnst#alien stage ivan#ivantill
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i was okay with her frollicking & goading me into the fire her actually
#hades 2 update#aside from me acting with abnormal yuri intentions; it's cool to find out eris' motion patterns were so erratic & unhelpful in a way that#maybe wasnt planned? now she plays a Little more fair since yeah. it is a bit troublesome to fight with mostly close range-weapons vs some-#one who keeps playing in fire without any visible detrement... she looked cool tho#txt.mine
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forfy my mutual may i ask whats going on in yamete kudasai...... i couldnt find a translation 😭😭
thank u for asking i love this song dearly. i think its relatively straightforward when u see the lyrics but if u still dont get parts of it lmk 👍 there are no dumb questions.
so here u go yamete kudasai/please stop translation with a lot of notes at the end
敗北ランド 実際は排他 失敗社会だ 理解がない A defeated land, in fact it's an exclusion It's a failed society with no understanding
快も不快も 後悔が対価 人生終わった 一回でバーイ Pleasure and displeasure, compensated with regret Life ended, a singular goodbye
差異 得 ライド 言った言わないの 記載はないが ごめんもない The disparity gained by lying, whether it was said or not There's no record of it, but no apology either
埋没ランド 失態晒した 失敗社会だ 理解がない A buried land, its faults exposed It's a failed society with no understanding
毎食ドット ファニー インダストリー道理 混濁ドーミー for Me 賞味 ソーリー 暴利 ストーキング! Every meal I burst out laughing, it's funny The industry's logic Appreciation for Me in this muddled dormy* Stalking an excess of sorries!
背徳ノット 甘美 見出す脅威 承認 コンタクト産み 長期投資 勝利 合理苦 Show Me! The sweetness knotted in corruption Acknowledgement of the discovered threat The creation of contact, a long term investment Show me the rationality of suffering in that victory!
やめてください やめてください えー ブンブンブブン ブンブンブブン は? Please stop, please stop, wait* Buzz buzz b-buzz buzz buzz b-buzz Huh?
やめてください やめてください えー ブンブンブブン ブンブンブブン は? Please stop, please stop, wait Buzz buzz b-buzz buzz buzz b-buzz Huh?
やめてください やめてください えー ブンブンブブン ブンブンブブン は? Please stop, please stop, wait Buzz buzz b-buzz buzz buzz b-buzz Huh?
やめてください やめてください えー ブンブンブブン ブン Please stop, please stop, wait Buzz buzz b-buzz buzz
は? Huh?
最速回答 聡明じゃないの? 判断遅いよ は はい は はい The fastest reply, isn't that the smartest? The judgement's too late, I-I get it, I-I get it
愛読愛用 スーパー問う賛と ノーマル問う散に学びなさい Please learn from the well loved and used Super questioned praise and normal questioned dispersal*
単発バイト お金がないね 仕方がないね ヤるしかない A one-shot job, there's not even any money in it There's no way around it, huh, I have to do it
催促回答 どう? ねえ? しないの? 判断遅いよ は はい は はい Pressing for answers, How about it? Hey? Won't you tell me? The judgement's too late, I-I get it, I-I get it
退職ボット バーニング 皆 苦労人 同士 御社不当に 奉仕飲み 飛び込み ローディング! A flare of resignations*, its burning Everyone, the wise, my coworkers A service drinking for the unjust company Plunging in and loading!
愛毒ノット 堪忍 見た? ストーリー更新 網膜調子 推しの身 お搾り 庶民! That beloved poison* is not patience Have you seen? The story's updated The condition of the retina, the favorite*, tied up with the masses!
契約もっと パーリー 人格統制 狂信 好脈通り ツルハシ 売り撒き ダンシング! More contracts, a party Regulation of personality, it's fanaticism In line with good relations, a pickaxe The spread of sales as if dancing!
感謝 出会いに感謝 人類全員感謝 毎度 収入 お布施 恒例 脳脆 当然 放置! Gratitude, gratitude for meeting All of humanity's gratitude Every time we're paid, it's custom to give it as charity Weak of mind*, it's natural to leave it like this!
やめてください!! やめてください!! Please stop!! Please stop!!
えー ブンブンブブン ブンブンブブン は? Wait, Buzz buzz b-buzz buzz buzz b-buzz huh?
やめてください やめてください えー ブンブンブブン ブンブンブブン は? Please stop, please stop, wait Buzz buzz b-buzz buzz buzz b-buzz Huh?
やめてください やめてください えー ブンブンブブン ブンブンブブン は? Please stop, please stop, wait Buzz buzz b-buzz buzz buzz b-buzz Huh?
やめてください やめてください えー ブンブンブブン ブン Please stop, please stop, wait Buzz buzz b-buzz buzz
はあ。 お人よしなんて言葉ヅラだけはまあいいが ただ 「自分自身さえ我慢すれば」 「それで全部済むならいいや」って 一回二回小さな侵略を許すうち 気がついたら 唯一の聖域をお前らに何もかも めちゃくちゃにされた Damn*. Well, I'm fine with it just being words to make them look like good people, but As it is "As long as you persevere by yourself" "That'll be fine when everything finishes" While I forgave that minor intrusion once or twice If I payed attention Everything about this sole holy ground was desecrated By you people
断れない! 断れない! 断れない! 嫌われたくない! ああ!そのせいで! そのせいで! そのせいで! I can't decline it! I can't decline it! I can't decline it! I don't want to be hated! Ah! All because of that! All because of that! All because of that!
何もかも終わった Everything ended.
断れない! 断れない! 断れない! 嫌われたくない! ああ!そのせいで! そのせいで! そのせいで! I can't decline it! I can't decline it! I can't decline it! I don't want to be hated! Ah! All because of that! All because of that! All because of that!
Notes:
Dormy: (can also be spelled dormie!) has a meaning of place of rest/sleep & is often used in the names of college dormitories! so in this case it's implying a place a stay that really can't be called home (again think of school dorms) (she is not in school more on this later)
Eh? Hah?: chose to translate the eh? as wait since thats the sort of feeling it carries - one of being caught off guard. where as the hah? i went with huh? but it's not confused so much as irritated & a sort of "what are you saying/doing?" type of nuance. although put plainly both could be translated simply as "huh?"
愛読愛用 スーパー問う賛と/ノーマル問う散に学びなさい: dont really know how to put this nicely in english. aidoku is text or literature thats well known & read and aiyou is saying its been well used for a long time. "super" and "normal" are embellishments to look cool really. the tou san parts are a bit of word play since they're intended to be said the same. so to put it more clearly this "praise" and "dispersal" are essentially some sort of guidelines or edicts that are given to employees/the group and expected to be followed. another fun fact this is one of the lines in the song written with a degree of formality despite the complaint in it. (while she is politely telling to read the materials, and while tou can be neutral, with the overall tone of the song this line reads like a mockery of something she was told herself)
Flare of resignations: in this case the word used is taishoku which very specifically is for leaving work/a place of employment. despite the earlier noted dormy commonly being used for school dorms, this paired with the preceding talk about not having a choice in doing it despite the low pay is proof she's not a student. isnt it refreshing to know this isnt another story about high schoolers. but i digress, the other part of this phrase is ボット which written in katakana like that may make u think it's just bot like a robot but considering the following phrase is burning i believe its intended to be the onomatopoeia instead & written in katakana for emphasis
That beloved poison: word play time! this word is also read as aidoku! its a play on the aidoku from earlier! keeping the pronunciation as doku that same well known text imagery is still there but this time its written as poison, implying the text they're forced to internalize is actively harmful to them. which if her later words are to be believed she's right about it.
The favorite: literally 推しの身(oshi no mi) if you're in jpn fan spaces at all you may have seen someone say they oshi a character or that a certain idol is their oshi. its the same as that, it's a person (or character) you're a fan of. im not quite sure if she's talking about herself or someone else in this line but the overall meaning is that not even popularity or public favor will keep you safe.
脳脆: more word play! it's read as nouzei which coincidentally is also how 納税 (tax) is read! it would be really easy to overlook if the surrounding parts weren't about not even getting to keep their paychecks. so more directly its saying "those who do not already have strong conviction are likely to fall victim to these practices and do nothing to stop or change them." the practices in question resulting in sacrificing their selves to serve the job. this section of the song also has a bit of religious connotation to it. almost a cult-like behavior with how she's describing it.
はあ。: this is sort of more like an exasperated sigh but im not putting *sigh* in an otherwise serious translation. i debated also going with "man" as in the phrase to express disappointment/frustration/dissatisfaction but in the end i thought the slight expletive gets the mood across better.
断れない!: "can't refuse it!" or "can't turn it down!" also work. what she's saying is that even though she's aware of all these harmful practices now, she can't say no to the work she's given. this goes hand in hand with the earlier lines "there's no way around it, huh, i have to do it"
I think this song is one of the most straightforward aru sekai series songs, but to break it down even simpler she's complaining both that this company she works for is actively contributing to the permanent death of employees and also that she herself wasn't strong enough to turn against it despite seeing how wrong it all was. There's no motif in this song because she was solely doing her job and following orders, meaning nothing she did was of her own free will, so as per series standard she's not a "person" but merely a "thing" and thus her death is permanent. The "regulation of personality, it's fanaticism" and "Every time we're paid it's custom to give it as charity / Weak of mind(a tax), it's natural to leave it like this!" is a complaint on this, on how the company is taking their lives as tax essentially, or at least that's how she's framing it. And of course, although it's a lighter way of putting it, the "Everything ended" is also confirming her death.
my last note is actually for something in the beginning and thats the 理解がない could possibly be her saying "i don't get it" but usually if that's the case its rikaishinai or rikaidekinai and not rikai ga nai so for the time being i'm choosing to leave it this way.
#asks#atigrado#aru sekai series#this girl is going THROUGH IT i mean they all are but like#imagine planning to quit ur job & thats the day u find out ur going to die bc u did ur job#she SHOULD be mad shes so right to be complaining#it does amuse me she switches to polite or formal forms a few times. shes so real for that#comes across as more bitter to me personally#usually i try to have as few notes as possible but this time im making an exception since u asked whats going on#theres probably places for more too but i dont want to over explain anything without need#so feel free to ask about anything. it might only seem obvious to me bc i know the rest of the songs too so#i barely caught the nouzei pun btw. i went to see if it was a standard phrase bc this is the only time ive seen it#& when it wasnt i was like. wait a minute. i know another nouzei that fits with the context. could it be.#and maybe its not but magu does a lot a lot of word play so i think its intentional#i really like that one in particular thats a really specific image to draw with only one word its so good#also theres no past motif in this song either bc it happens after oumen mokushiroku#as denoted by the glass break sound in the beginning#which is the symbol for songs coinciding with the events in oumen
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if silksong doesnt break my heart into a million pieces and then feed it to every part of the local ecosystem just like the original bug game did i will fall into a deeper pit of despair than the path of pain reward put me in or hell any of the fucking cutscenes get the waterworks going i am too attached to these sentient bugs
#hollow knight#silksong#with a rating going live in australia im assuming the majority if not all content is produced/planned for the game#otherwise they couldnt dispute a content rating w the esbr yet so theyre likely bug testing and polishing the game not still working on it#also first rating on april fools was so fucking cruel ik it prob wasnt intentional but still. why.#wait another day and give me whiplash i can recover from
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This is Reedbelly! Swiftstar's rowdy brother and the little devil on everyone's shoulder trying to enable them into things they probably shouldn't do but would be REALLY fun if they did.
He's a charmer like his brother which seems to get him out of trouble at least some of the time. At this point it's just expected that he's going to wreck havoc one way or another but it's all in good fun.
This is Reedbelly's world and the rest of Moorclan is just living in it as far as he's concerned.
He does have an issue of weak joints and has had a couple of broken bones during his apprenticeship. Thankfully he is still kicking and doesn't plan on slowing down any time soon.
#reedbelly#moorclan#hidden lore#if it wasnt obvious by some lil hints...#reedbelly is intersex!!#while some male torties/calicos are chimeras#he actually has klinefelter syndrome#this wasnt intentional but i pulled a rowanclaw and forgot the gender i was planning on making him#had him written down as male but when sketching him out i had a she-cat in mind before i realized my mistake#sent me down a rabbit hole of hmmm male tortie?? male tortie#also dont talk to me about how long it took to do tortie markings because it took too long#warrior cats#warriors oc#warriors designs#warrior cat designs#wc designs
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dude this is so funny
#i was thinking about like. wait. how feasible IS it for ganon to make friends#because i've been doing a lot of basically ig overhauls with how i write ganon in my comic#he was originally not meant to be in-character at all and now i really want to make him FEEL like ganon#so i've been rethinking how his backstory works and how he reacts to it. originally i wasn't going to change anything but the tweaks i've#been making work really really well and i'm very pleased#and part of his whole deal is that he made a friend#and the more i think about it the more i really really need to think about how that happened just because it's so unlike my vision of him#in my head to like. genuinely be vulnerable and want to be friends with someone in any capacity#dude it mustve taken forever. and idk the more i think about it the more i realize it probably wasnt even the characters Intention#but also. the fact that there is a pretty strong power imbalance between the two actually?? kind of makes it more feasible in a way??#so for the record ganon is Not the one with the power here and the character i planned on befriending him is. and like#the last post i reblogged made me go. oh hey.#ganon would automatically assume he's going to get exploited or abused or attacked somehow because thats what HE does when he has power#over someone like that.#and then when the friend just. doesn't. I think he's going to be somewhat confused by that. maybe angry. probably angry#alt ganon is funny because he's mad at everything and this includes himself#make threats act like the person is an idiot. try to find a way to take advantage of it but the guys just like nuh uh#im feeling so sillyyyyyyyyyyyy
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if my blog had a theme song which one would it be im losing my mind
#i was planning to change my theme again#n then i thought abt which song to pin to my profile#its been deep by ntx for as long as i can remember#but thats just bc i am in LOVE w this song#but it doesnt fit the vibe i have in mind#it also doesnt match rn but that wasnt my intention so its fine#agh i hate it here#☆ ; dear diary ?
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i don't wanna get this incorrect but iirc. vyncent's dad betrayed the greats & sent (?) him through the portal. because he saw vyncent was there from having secretly tagged along & was in danger, right? i don't wanna go listen through the whole fauna arc again 2 catch where i remember this but i feel like, it was said pretty clearly at one point that his dad betrayed them at the last minute for him. or am i just fucking making shit up????
#i feel like i remember this pretty clearly because i was startled at the quote unquote good intention there i thought for sure it was some#pre-planned malice & was surprised it wasnt. but. double check me on this??#pd lb
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idk i got bored while waiting on a download lmao
#original#ffxiv#final fantasy xiv#wol#gpose#surkukteni#surkie#the thing is. She Has.#at least 5 different elves but definitely more - those 5 are just the ones that ended up as her partners#you can take it both ways because it's happened both ways#see: the pregnancy with the twins when they all thought aurezen babies werent possible.#also see: she's the sire of both orianne and tseren of whom the first was planned and the second was Another Mistake#how tf did she end up with 5 elezen partners 😭 this wasnt intentional i swear!!!!#at least venat is there to mix things up a bit#crude humor
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MADE FUN OF MY SIBLING AND THEY MADE A FACE AND I COULD TELL FROM THEIR FACE THAT THEY WANTED TO PUSH ME DOWN THE STAIRS AND AS I WAS OPENING MOUTH TO TELL THEM I LIKED THEIR IM GONNA PUSH YOU THE STAIRS FACE THEY SAID SHUT UP ILL PUSH THE STAIRS
#this was near the stairs but not so near that they couldve just done it. like they could see the stairs but i was not quite ripe for the#pushing so it was extra funny that i could divine their intentions from just their face#im good at that though. i have an intuition for what sorts of silly violence people are planning to enact unto me#once my friend offered me a warhead. like the candy. and i was like oh no thanks :) and he was like are you sure? and i looked at him and#immediately covered my water cup. he was like HOW THE HELL DID YOU KNOW WHAT I WAS GONNA DO WHAT THE FUCK#and i was like HOLY SHIT YOU WERE ACTUALLY GONNA DO IT I THOUGHT I WAS CRAZY#and that started a longstanding tradition of putting shit in each others waters. he liked to sneak up on me and get me with a nerf dart bc#he knew hed never manage it if i could see his face. asshole got a napkin in my milkshake in low lighting once though. i could always read#him really well with that kinda thing though like he wasnt that surprised when i stopped on the sidewalk and walked to his other side so he#couldnt shove me into the street bc wed known each other for ages at that point but they warhead thing was like. a couple weeks after we met#ALSO SHOVING ME INTO THE STREET WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN DANGEROUS WE WERE IN BUTTFUCK NOWHERE THERE WERE NOT CARS. HE WOULD NOT SHOVE ME INTO#THE STREET TO GET HIT BY CARS. WORST INJURIES I WOULDVE GOTTEN WERE SKINNED KNEES AND THAT WOULDVE BEEN HILARIOUS AND HED NEVER HAVE LIVED#IT DOWN. BUT NO CARS. NO GETTING HIT BY CARS. ALWAYS HAVE TO REMEMBER SHOVING PEOPLE INTO THE STREET GETS THEM HIT BY CARS WHEN I TELL THAT#STORY BC ITS GETS ME INTO THE BUTTFUCK NOWHERE MINDSET WHERE CARS DONT HIT PEOPLE THEY ONLY HIT DEER#what was my point. dont remember. oh well send tweet or whatever#mine
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i cant even sleep. this is bad. just caught up in my own thoughts.
#the fault was mine. this all happened because of my actions and no one elses.#the cause and the effect of ones actions#i dont even want to die. i just want a life i truly want to live.#so why did i say i was? people fucking care about me and people love me and are willing to help me when i need it so why did i think in the#time that i wanted to die? i didnt want to. i was just tired and miserable and confused. having a moment. not a good moment.#i kept telling them no intent no plan and they believed me only after 2 weeks. i overhear what they say when i leave that room.#was that the best for me?? i wasnt happy. my mental health stayed the same. except i had no one to tell this time. just myself. maybe a#friend there but everyone has their own issues.#if i could make a wish i wouldve wished i never said that. i wouldve wished this wasnt the consequence i wish this wasnt what my life is now#this is *exactly* what i feared if i expressed these feelings#and now life still feels like hell. even when im home.#congratulations me. you fucked up major.#and now you have to adjust to your normal life again. forget this part that happened because it wasnt supposed to.#and now everybody knows my thoughts. this is all i feared.#this is absolutely terrifying. im so scared even still.#but this is better for me??? i fucking hope it is.
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#i shouldny yap abt fgis project bc its not like . i have sny real intention of making it into a Thing#like an actual tv show . its more or less like a school assessment vibe thing#like. write a whole pilot for a tv show. and then do up the rest of season 1 in Full detail#and the plans for the rest of the series in blurbs .#bc i am a writer. or i Was. and i was a fucking good one at that !#so . i do wanna see how diffrrent this is.#side note. my irl cslling this fucking fanfiction was insane. bc . oh he wasnt wrong vut at the same time#HELLO#?????? KINDA OUT OF POCKET?????? i was gagged for a solid 5 mins im ngl.#anyway.
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