#Spec's Thoughts
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I typed up a little thing on Facebook, where I'm trying to be more open about my struggles and less internal, and I wanted to share it here too, since this is my space to be my weird little robot loving self:
It doesnāt take long for most people to realize Iām a Marvel fan. Usually that comes with a follow up question- who is your favorite character? I love watching the reactions; itās clear people expect me to say Spider-Man or Iron Man or one of the other, more āpopular,ā heroes. My favorite reaction when I said it was Vision was a comment made of āThatās a bold choice.ā
The Vision certainly isnāt the most popular Avenger, itās true. Iāve talked with artists at conventions who donāt bother bringing prints of him because they just donāt sell and space is limited. I see the comments on conventions where Mr. Bettany is a guest saying āIs Vision the best you can do?ā. It sucks seeing that, and upsets me because every character is important to someone. Yes heās not the most exciting or action packed hero. Heās kind of silly looking. Heās a thinker more than a fighter. And heās been treated pretty badly in writing since the late 80ās and forgotten until very recently.
Trying to explain why heās my favorite would take me days. Even choosing my favorite comic run/issue is hard. I would argue that Tom Kingās series The Vision from 2015-16 is my favorite series of all time. Iāve read it over and over, and while itās contested by some as being out of character I think itās one of her few times Vision (and more importantly his trauma) has really been explored. Iāll talk about that run in another post maybe. Iām also very fond of some one off issues, like Avengers Spotlight 40 from 1990, where (White) Vision finally seeks help for everything heās struggling with.
The comic I always reread on really bad days though, the one that really explains what Vision has become for me, is Avengers: No Road Home 10, the finale of the run. When I met Paul Bettany I mentioned this story to him - I donāt know if heās read it or not, but he was kind enough to listen. In the run the godess Nyx wants to engulf the world in darkness, silencing everything. As someone who fights depression and has for a long time she feels almost symbolic of that. Quiet, calm, darkness and the end of light. She plans on doing this by finding The House of Ideas and destroying it, and at that point the run becomes somewhat metaphorical. Vision is the only Avenger able to follow her in before she closes the door, and ends up in the house - another dimension made of stories, where he faces Nyx alone. Now some context for the run - it begins with Vision, broken beyond repair and almost seeking death, believing he will finally be human if he can find a true death. Wanda and Monica and the others are very upset by this, trying to stop their friend and help him understand that death is not what makes us human (It is Vision after all, who always strives for something he can never truly be, while endlessly embodying the best of humanity despite that). He followed Nyx in because he wanted to dieā¦And then we get this panel.
I wonāt spoil much more, itās a personal favorite run and I highly recommend it, but Vision eventually finds, and then becomes the light that defeats the darknessā¦using the power of stories, and memories, of his friends. And thatās what he became for me. I think about his stories, and the stories I want to tell about him to fight my own inner darkness. I paint images of him in bright colors and focus on the lights because it makes me feel better. Heās powered by the sun in the comics, and even in the MCU often symbolized with light through hologram like effects and the glowing Mind Stone. WandaVision made it clear he was the bright spot in Wandaās life too. Thatās just who and what Vision is in the Marvel-verses. One issue used the phrase "You were meant to be a Vision of mankind's brightest future" to describe him. And thatās one of the many reasons heās my favorite. Thatās what super hero stories are for I think, inspiring us and showing these silly spandex clad heroes against impossible odds to inspire us to fight the seemingly impossible things in our lives too.
I really love thinking about and writing these sorts of things. I tried blogging about comics and Vision for awhile but people didnāt seem interested. I think Iām going start doing it again for me, because much like my art it makes me happy sharing this silly Synthezoid with the world. Thank you Marvel, I never expected I would be so emotional about a red robot man but here we are.
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Oddly specific EnStars thoughts without context
seeing Tsumugi's elbows is weird to me
I would let Sora kidnap me to play videogames
Tetora: "Tsukasa, what am I supposed to do with this pomegranate?"
Narucchan and Tormari could have been friends but Happy Elements and GCrest are cowards
What does Jun eat before sleeping?
2wink would sell Kaoru for a corn chip
Switch is the slightly shadier EnStars version of TigaLidSai
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wait soā¦. is the stereotype that aro/ace spec people love garlic bread because of garlic breath??
hear me out.
because garlic breath is not nice for other people in close range and to many (many being only a-specs whom of which are repulsed by it) think kissing is yucky andā¦ and garlic breath would stop people from kissing you
guys hold on now hold on i think i have something brewing
#i think iām a genius#itās 5am this is a very 5am thought#iāve connected the dots#aromantic#asexual#a-spec#aspec#asexuality#aromanticism#aroace#lgbtq#queer#aro#ace#aromantic asexual#garlic bread#pride
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keep nsfw content in nsfw tags , not asexual ones.
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9-1-1 āø 2.09 hen begins
#911edit#tommykinardedit#chimneyhanedit#saldelucaedit#911 abc#911#tommy kinard#chimney han#sal deluca#cnomadedits#tw: homophobia#i went back and rewatched hen begins bc of all the spec#thought this scene was interesting in light of it all š
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I know this probably won't ever happen on the show, but I need Bobby to make either a traditionally Mexican or a traditionally Indian dish for Eddie/Ravi because we haven't seen him do many different cultural dishes and Bobby says he made it less spicy than the recipe called for (because of course he did).
So we see everyone eating and the only ones who aren't sweating and reaching for their water are Ravi, Eddie, and Chimney because the dishes in their cultures are already spicy. They're just chilling, complimenting Bobby on how well he cooked the dish. Meanwhile, Bobby is regretting his decision to make a spicy dish as he keeps having to take sips of his water in between bites.
Also, I need to see Ravi add even more spice to his plate because "It's too bland for my tastes." Because I feel like he'd do that. (I'm projecting my Indian mother onto him, okay.)
#911 abc#9 1 1#911 show#911#911 tv show#9 1 1 abc#911 on abc#911 tv series#9 1 1 on abc#911 thoughts#911 season 8 spec#911 spec#911 speculation#bobby nash#ravi panikkar#eddie diaz#evan buck buckely#hen wilson#howard chimney han#-beloved talks
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I think Buckās little spiral has less to do with Tommy himself, and more to do with the fact Buck thought that because he was in a relationship with a guy, that somehow things would be different. Heās now faced with the fact that no, itās not different, people still leave and heās alone again but now he has to grapple with his sexuality outside of Tommy. Because he kind of tied his sexuality to him (just like some fans did).
Hopefully now though heāll do the research binges and ask the questions and explore what sexuality means to him and what it looks like for him.
#Even if that means sleeping around.#Which isnāt biphobic btw#911 abc#I dunno if this post makes sense but hopefully yāall under the vibe#911 spec#911 thoughts#911 spoilers#<- no idea what to tag it as so tagging them all#evan buckley
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Forgetting it doesn't work. We need to remember. Even the things that hurt.
INSIDIOUS: THE RED DOOR (2023) dir. Patrick Wilson
#insidious the red door#insidious: the red door#patrick wilson#gifs by christine#horroredit#junkfooddaily#horrortvfilmsource#fyeahmovies#filmedit#cinemapix#filmtvcentral#userstream#filmtvtoday#userlosthaven#useranimusvox#userscary#classichorrorblog#userrobin#usersavana#usermandie#usersnat#useraurore#tuserlou#tuserbailey#insidiousedit#i can't believe this got such bad reviews??#even on letterboxd#i personally thought it was great#only complaint is not enough specs and tucker#tw flashing
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silliness
#a-spec Niko anyone#ace's random thoughts :)#dead boy detectives#charles rowland#monty the crow#monty finch#niko sasaki#dbda#dead boy detective agency#the dead boy detective agency#monty dead boy detectives
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im so glad people love slug girl... she's not supposed to a salacious type of character she's got her boobs out because she's rockin the outfit she's very "idgaf" gendered like she found a form she's comfortable with and sticks with it because it's fun more than anything else
#rz-log#slug girl#sure that one piece of her getting finished with head is like. sexy and all but she's honestly aroace spec.#like she's not suuuper into it but she'll lab it out and maybe have fun but it's not her thing#also the assless chaps + bikini combo was courtesy of willow ive never wouldve thought of that in a million years
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a personal belief about Tres Horny Boys that I'm really drawn to is that wherever they go (especially as a group), they're constantly making everyone of compatible orientations fall in love with them with their combined good looks and bumbling roguish charms, but:
Merle is one random lightbulb moment away from realizing he's aromantic,
Magnus has been romance-averse since Raven's Roost, and has a profound disinterest in the "special someone comes along to Fix that" trope, and
Taako would be down to clown, except his Openly Gay, Closeted Goth Standards are so astronomically high that only someone as goth and moderately unhinged as Literal Grim Reaper could ever hope to meet them ā and frankly, Taako kinda doesn't register flirting from people below his league as anything different than another adoring fan. time to autograph their face and then immediately forget their name
#closeted goth is an exaggeration but i do think taako's very pastel and likely to outwardly make fun of his goth family/friends#until kravitz awakens something in him that taako thought he left behind in his gay vampire romance novel reading era#taz#taz balance#thb#merle highchurch#magnus burnsides#taako taaco#aspec taz#not exclusively but i'll slap that tag on any post where i allude to aro-spec merle and mags lmao
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Let me just say as someone who hides a lot of myself in public how nice it is to see aroace and gender flux folks like me being unapologetically proud of expressing their nonbinary attraction and identity. Iām proud of you and I want to be like you when I grow upā¦.even though Iām 35
#my aroace thought of the week#aro positivity#pan aroace#aroace#aro stuff#ace aro#ace#ace pride#arospec#aro spec#aro pride#aromantic spectrum#aromantic#aro#aromantism#aromantic asexual#aromanticism#genderflux#genderfluid#third gender#gender identity#gender stuff#genderqueer#asexual positivity#asexual spectrum#asexuality#asexual#asexual pride#acespec
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Yes, Iām asexual, but feeling sexy, attractive, etc. is the biggest confidence boost ever
#asexual#asexuality#who else feels me?#ace#asexual spectrum#acespec#ace spec#ace spectrum#asexual thoughts
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Correct me if I'm wrong, but I feel like there is a particular kind of sadness (or loneliness, if you will) that ace/aro folk feel.
#asexual#asexuality#aspec#aromantic#aro#arospec#lgbtqia#am I wrong or no?#its like a sorrow on a frequency only other ace folk can detect#or say ah ha yes i feel this#this makes sense#i can incoherently ramble a feeling or a thought and others who identifying *get* it like it's a language we both speak#fluent in a common wave of ace-solation if you will#anyway just wanting to throw this out there again#i know i had a vague post similar to this that blew up but its always so hard to articulate the feeling#and maybe this will reach others that relate and agree to this that will make them feel less alone#wow these tags are messy and full of typos#lots of love to my loney ace and aro specs buddies#ššššš
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I was today's years old when I realized that people actually think that other people are attractive.
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PEOPLE JUST LOOK AT A BODY AND BE LIKE : 'whoa I wanna date, hot, sexy, kiss kiss' ?!?!?
#i always thought ppl were joking#whoa#thanks jaiden animations#well#im indeed an asexual#lgbtq#aroace#asexual#asexual community#asexual aromantic#grey ace#gray ace#ace stuff#ace#ace positivity#ace pride#ace spec#imrwtm
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istg half the blogs i see are aroace. do i magically attract the aroaces or is tumblr just aroace heaven
#crab#aroace#aro#ace#asexual#aromantic#arospec#acespec#ace spec#aro spec#aroace spec#aroace spectrum#aroacespec#thoughts of a crab
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