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Were they animals, that music could move them so ?
#Elvis Presley#David Bowie#Fleetwood Mac#Michael Jackson#Lana del Rey#Bjork#Orville Peck#long post#All of the art that I do (that isn't for work) is self indulgent (to varying degrees)#But this is pretty out there.#Solely caters to me and only me#my art#Fact : Elvis reminds me of a handful of animals none of which are actually a lion#Tigers yes#But above all : Horses !#I would have made him a bronco if I hadn't already committed to the idea of making Orville a unicorn#and y'know#he's the king and all#it just made sense#-grabs your shoulders- BUT *you* have to know that I think his government assigned fursona is a stallion#-being hauled away to the loony bin- HE'S A TENNESSEE STUD
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âIt is lonely never to have been loved, only devouredâ -Rosemary Sutcliff, Sword at Sunset
#King Arthur#arthurian legend#Rosemary Sutcliff#Sword at Sunset#web weaving#quotes#having feelings#arthurian mythology#those who loved him left - either by choice or by force#he was used up and devoured and played out for the âgreater goodâ#destined to forever be a legend#the man buried in his own mythology#(this is about the version of the legend that exists only in my head that caters solely to me - leave me alone)#my edits
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"On the Razzle" by Tom Stoppard, PBS Great Performances, Royal National Theatre, 1981
#on the razzle#theatre#great performances#these dudes are flat broke grocery workers#they are pretending to be so wealthy they don't have to care about money#so they can eat something good and then skip out on the bill at a restaurant that caters solely to the upper class#well only one of them has figured out the con at this point#that video going around about how the rich are lucky money doesn't exist anymore made me think of this#this play is legitimately the funniest thing on earth by the way#my family recorded it on vhs when it played on PBS in the 80s and we've been watching it ever since#some beautiful person uploaded the entire thing on youtube by the way so you can watch it too#it does have one single suuuuuper sketchy joke about the victorian's obsession with âeasternâ aesthetic#but it is an 80s adaptation of a play from 1842#so like... i'm honestly impressed that it's not way way worse#i am begging you to please watch this thing#it is literally a joke every second#i have been watching it for 36 years and i'm still catching a new joke every time
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"The Bride" not having a name outside of her relation to a man she wants nothing to do with. Her body being constantly objectified and sexualized before she was even conceived. Her face, her torso, even each of her individual, rotting limbs being carefully selected to fit the sexual preferences of an absolute stranger. Her skull being beaten in and manhandled during a man's jealous outburst, her head rolling to the ground like an inanimate object. The story of Marilyn Monroe's body. The way women cannot rest even in death.
The constant expectation of who The Bride will be before she even is. The way patriarchal societies buy pink onesies and Barbie cribs and headbands with bows before a baby is even born. The stain of forever being "just" a woman. The way this mirrors Eric's flowers, the way he love-bombs her and lays ownership to her before she's even developed consciousness.
The way Eric insists that his bride doesn't need to develop basic language skills or even a rudimentary understanding of the world around her, because her education doesn't directly benefit him. The way he was created to usher in a new era of scientific discovery for mankind, while she was created only to please him. The Biblical story of Eve being carved from Adam's rib. The way organized religion trains women to believe that their only use lies in being obedient and subservient to the men around them.
The Bride being continuously punished for her sexual awakening, for any exercise of her own autonomy or free will. The way the only âloveâ she has ever known was brutally murdered because she refused to cater to the expectations of the men around her, because she denied the title that was thrust upon her at birth. The way that men have always done this to womenâ labeling us as "jezebels" or "harlots" or "whores" or "bitches" or "sluts" for refusing to fall into a role we never consented to performing.
And, of course, the fact that Eric continues to feel entitled to her body even after she tells him no in every conceivable way. "Why won't she let me touch her?!" The parallels between his behavior and that of so many incels who believe that women exist solely to serve their purposes. "She is to love me!" The way that, after losing her, he spends his time partying on yachts with models and playgirls, because that's all women are to him... just pretty objects. The way he bastardizes the word "love" because he's never taken the time to know or love her, not really.
The inherent trauma of her birth and natureâ the way the horrorshow of her creation reflects the unspoken horror of every woman's creation. "She is but a cluster of fear and not knowing."
Ohhhhh Mary Shelley I fear you would love this show...
#the mary shelley / mary wollstonecarft fan in me shed soooo many tears over this episode#creature commandos#creature commandos 1x02#DC#dcu#james gunn#the bride
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Late night thoughts about incubus husbandâŠ
Heâs such a flirt. Every time you go out he dons a different human disguise. Itâs always annoying seeing him flit about the bar, changing himself to cater to whichever person heâs talking to.
Really, your husband just wants to make you jealous. Heâs a bit of an attention whore, and usually youâd just tug him away and ride his cock until heâs sensitive and crying, begging to fill your cunt with his cum but being denied because of how bad he was.
But he went a bit too far tonight.
You were finishing off your drink when you spotted him across the bar, his fingers twirling a womanâs hair. Already this was a bit much for you, and you stood to stop him.
But you froze in place when his eyes glanced towards you before he wrapped an arm around her waist. âLooks like Iâm taking home a pretty lady tonight. Donât worry, my wife wonât mind.â
He glanced back to gauge your reaction, excited to face some kind of kinky punishment for being a flirty brat⊠but instead he was met with your teary eyes.
Instantly the woman was forgotten as he followed you out. âW-wait, please, you know I wasnât being serious, right? I was just-â
You turned on your heels, pointing a finger into his chest. âMaybe to someone like you marriage is just some kind of fun game, but it actually means something to me! I donât exactly enjoy you treating my love for you like a joke!â
His eyes went wide with shock and hurt, his disguise disappearing as he reverted back to his original form. The sight of his tail twitching nervously almost made you soften⊠almost.
âMy love⊠thatâs not-â
You swatted his hand away, storming off. â⊠find somewhere else to sleep tonight. I⊠need to rethink some things.â
Your husband stared at your back as you left, his chest aching in a way it never had before. Could this really be the end of your marriage? No, no of course not. You loved him, and he would do anything for you. Thereâs no way such a small issue could divide the two of you that easy⊠right?
Oh how wrong he was.
When he attempted to come home the next night, his clothes and personal items were packed up on the porch, and the locks were changed.
This wasnât something he could just smooth over with a few kisses and a good fuck. You were genuinely upset, something he could barely comprehend.
Upset? Why, because he was being a bit of a brat? His view only changed when he was complaining to a friend through tears and a glass of wine.
âWell, what would you do if she did the same?â
The glass shattered in his hand, his pupils turning into slits. The image of you walking up to a man, cooing and attempting to seduce him right in front of your husband made his heart boil in a jealous rage.
So thatâs how you feltâŠ
âIâm an idiotâŠâ he murmured, looking at your picture. When he married you, he swore off ever having sex with another person. You were his sole source of sustenance and love, his only reason to breathe and live.
If he lost you, what would he even do besides sob until his heart stopped?
If he wanted to keep his beloved, heâd have to win you backâŠ
Fortunately, the incubus knew just what to do.
Part 2? And should I go the yandere route or normal route?
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I think something a lot of other people can relate to is the way that you get so conditioned to discomfort that you stop registering it.
I remember sitting at the table with my family, eating dinner as a child. Iâd try to eat, because of course I was hungry. But sometimes the flavor or texture was so repugnant that it moved into a category of Not Food.
âTwo more bites before you can leave the table.â
âI canât,â Iâd say, trying to explain the impossibility.
But because I was a child they heard, âI wonât,â and made me sit at the table. Iâd sit in dull agonized silence, bored and hungry for hours until bedtime when theyâd give up. Iâd hate myself for not eating and my parents for forcing me to sit there. The few forcefeeding moments ended in vomit.
Theyâd say, âIf you donât eat this you canât eat a snack later,â and I moved past trying to communicate my discomfort into accepting that Iâd just be hungry.
That state of affairs didnât last, because my parents realized nothing could force me to eat so they catered to my palate, worrying theyâd starve me. But the message stuck. If you canât do anything about a situation, just accept the suffering.
A few years later my mother called me off the playground to ask, âAre you limping?â
I shrugged. My feet had hurt for a long time, but that was just the way things were now. My mom pulled my socks and shoes off and gasped. The soles of my feet were covered in huge painful planters warts.
âWhy didnât you say anything?!â She demanded but I could only shrug at her. Iâd learned a long time ago that saying things about my discomfort didnât matter, so now I had no words. Sometimes things hurt and sometimes they donât. I simply accepted and did my best.
Now as an adult trying to learn to improve my own conditions can be hard. If I make food that I canât eat Iâll force myself to sit at the counter still, full of guilt and self loathing, trying to will myself to eat it.
At first I needed my betrothed to gently take it away to present me with something I could eat. Now on my own I can usually admit that itâs not happening before too long and get something else, but I still feel guilty.
Laying in bed at night waiting for my betrothed to finish getting ready I let out a huge sigh of relief when they turned the lights off.
âWhy didnât you turn them off if they bothered you?â they asked the first time it happened.
âI didnât even know it was bothering me until it was gone.â
Assessing my physical state now to see if I can improve it is something Iâm still relearning but Iâm relieved to finally have the space and support to do it.
#ramblies#autism#as an afab kid I didnât get diagnosed but given my poor social skills and general vibes itâs astonishing I wasnât#I didnât learn to implement social masking until way later#also those warts too months to get rid of cause they were too big to burn off#they had to be scraped down slowly after baths#vomiting
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What your favorite TWST character says about you :)
As a note before I begin: I saw one of these that shamed malleus and randomly even chenya enjoyers- (claimed that they were pick mes or something? đ) so i wanted to make one that was more positive out of spite <3 make it more about the writing and why people appreciate the characters. Take each of these with a grain of salt i spose- also a lot of them share similar themes <3
(Aka fans who have different views or even blatantly incorrect views of characters will always exist everywhere, but insulting the entirety of a group solely for enjoying a character, many for different reasons, is probably not a great idea!
I get that sometimes people suck and thats understandable, but quit generalizing ok? Ok.
From a malleus enjoyer who just thinks hes a silly little guy and im tired of feeling like i have to defend myself bc he's my blorbo đ”âđ«)
Final note: i love unapologetically taking frustration and turning it into something that can make people smile đ also i blindly wrote this from 11pm-midnight :))) dividers by @/cafekitsune!
Heartslabyul:
Riddle: you enjoy and/or relate to the idea of healing from the past. Working hard to improve oneself for the ones around you and yourself: creating a healthier environment where you can be happy
Trey: there is immense complexity in things that are seemingly mundane. Digging deeper and deeper to find something truly sweet and heart warming is your joy.
Cater: maybe you relate, or maybe you used to, or maybe parts of the connections made in the past/presence/future dont feel as deep as you truly want them to be. There is something beautiful about a desire for genuine human connection, but also peace in being alone. There is a safe space for you yet, just be patient. đ
Deuce: you love drive and determination. An endless stubbornness that keeps one going against all odds. Against every person who tells someone they cant. You watch them get proven wrong, and its pure bliss.
Ace: you find the connection between people beyond words heartwarming: even the seemingly simple ones. The ability to have a connection with someone who can get up to some mischief, tease back and forth, yet be there when you need them to be one of the most valuable things.
Savanaclaw:
Leona: Adversity over a lack of belief in oneself is a very difficult thing to overcome- yet it is very possible with the right crowd, the right amount of time, healing, and effort. You think someone's worth lies more than just within their title/job/appearance, but within the fact that they are able to stand back up and keep moving onward despite the odds. The hope for that change, and the ability to get out of bed in the morning on its own is strength.
Ruggie: Despite being through so much trauma at such a young age, recovery happens anyway. Its not perfect, at times the lessons learned are even rough. The survival tactics that once helped are now hard to ditch when theyre not needed anymore, but the ability to smile and joke and keep pushing onwards is something you value in life.
Jack: Self discipline can be both extremely useful as well as harmful in different ways. You find the way people can constantly strive to better themselves at what they love and/or morally to be highly admirable.
Octavinelle:
Azul: People can be cruel. And sometimes that cruelty inspires cruelty. Sometimes its simply used as a way to move on and survive insecurities created from it. Its hard, its a fight, but those insecurities are part of what make people beautiful. They are nothing to be ashamed of, and even the many tactics and smart ways of learning to overcome cruelness can be beautiful too.
Jade: The mind is extremely powerful. Intelligence and knowledge are not the only important things, no. Using that intel to find entertainment in the surrounding world can be exhilarating. Finding and discovering new unknowns: learning their ins and outs until they're a part of you is something you can relate to.
Floyd: speaking of fun- you love what is essentially the written version of a roller coaster. Ups and downs, ins and outs. Every single twist and turn is exhilarating and new. Every different perspective provides new insight into a multitude of different things. You are along for the ride, and you are having a lovely time.
Scarabia:
Jamil: self discovery can be very difficult after purposefully suppressing parts of one's self for a long time. Yet, the healing happens anyway (once again aha <3). People discover new parts of themselves, slowly becoming more comfortable not only with their environment, but how they react to it. The discovery is freedom, and freedom is bliss to you. New traits about oneself bloom like a flower: if not in the soil, then stubbornly in the cracks of cement. You gently take that bloom from the concrete and pot it, placing it gingerly in a beam of sunlight.
Kalim: Happiness isnt only sunshine to the one smiling, but to everyone else around them. It is delightfully infectious. However, happiness isnt a constant. You think emotions all emotions should be experienced rather than suppressed, because holding back sadness for the sake of others is a disservice to one's self. Discovering your own emotions, any range of them, is what makes people uniquely human. If anyone is holding those emotions back- hell, any part of them back, they need to be let out of the cage.
Pomefiore:
Vil: "Beauty is on the inside" is a saying thats been around for a long time, but beauty comes in so many forms. It can come from the stubborn desire to improve one's self: to be kinder, to help those around you, to be good. However it is impossible to be perfect. At times, for some, this can be crushing. People are hurt unintentionally, natural frustration can brew, the wrong actions can be taken: and thats okay. You believe whats important is to pick yourself up and keep going. To err is to be human, and that is beautiful too.
Rook: Error is beautiful. Symmetry is beautiful. Asymmetry is beautiful. A crack in the side walk is beautiful. Small things are beautiful, big things are beautiful. The nurturing of something through endless care is beautiful. The undeniable traits and hobbies of every individual that make them unique are beautiful. You find the endless optimism in finding beauty to be, in itself, beautiful.
Epel: Sometimes people will view others in ways that they wish not to be perceived as. This isnt in our control, as much as we sometimes want it to be. All you can do i be unapologetically yourself. To be you to the utmost degree. To prove those who thought otherwise to be foolish. You find this strength to find value in yourself despite others opinions admirable.
Ignihyde:
Idia: you have depression /j
Ok for real-
Life can be such a cunt. It can beat a person down, down, down and leave them vulnerable enough to fear it. To fear that beating, whenever it may next come. The anxiety of never knowing what or who will come next, or what one could lose. At times it feels more comforting to find a routine in solitude. But you know that the small things that give joy will wiggle their way in with time. The broken will meet people who love and care and find comfort in the companionship of healing, even from the little things: like a new story to read or game to play.
Ortho: You value unconditional support. Support through everything: the good, the bad, the just kind of okay. Knowing that someone can have ones back for every little thing- to be there solely because they care and wish the best for others- is something you look up to and maybe even wish to be for another.
Diasomnia:
Malleus: god damn people can be so hard to read and understand. They are so complicated: they are books you have to pay attention to from start to finish. But once you reach the end, you have a deep seated appreciation for them, and for the ones who stuck around to read your book too. Even if it was just for a fleeting moment: it is a happy moment. As painful as temporary things can be, it is also what you think can make the relationships we love and have loved so valuable.
Lilia: there can be suffering everywhere. There is war. There is famine. But there are also endless new sights to see. New discoveries to be made to help those still going through famine and war. New ways to love and understand people you never thought you'd understand. The development and positive parts of humanity, even though at times it can look bleak, are ever present to you. You love the discovery: of places and of people.
Silver: you believe that there is solace in being your own individual, regardless of who you are bound by blood to. Being shaped my experiences, friends, hardships, and new places are what make a person who they are. You value finding roots in and making your own home.
Sebek: Dedication can be a hard thing to come by, but when it does it can grab someone by the reigns. Using every waking moment to cherish that thing, learn more about it, become better at something, and strive to better ones self can be very admirable to you. But, on the other hand, it also calls for the occasional rest.
OTHER (just for ones I know well enough, sorry!)
Neige: You love kindness despite hardship. One can go through horrible things and still choose to be kind. The world could begin to end, and one could still choose to be kind, because it means everything.
Chenya: Curiosity fuels exploration. It fuels art. It fuels everything. It fuels excitement. It fuels friendships. It fuels medicine. It fuels life. Curiosity is endlessly fun, and you think that is very whimsical
Meleanor: Sacrifice for others can be tragic. Knowing what another person has given up for someone else, maybe even everything, is gut wrenching but undeniably a selfless love to you.
Crewel: There can be kindness in strictness. In teachings, there can be a parental guide. There can be someone who cares for you and undeniably wants you to succeed. They know that you can, so they push you towards it. You want this support.
Trein: Love surpasses time. When the ones we love are gone, the memories of them are still held close, with the love once given to them, we can show to others through advice and guidance that comes with time. You find comfort in that.
Crowley: People are flawed. We all know this, yet despite a persons flaws... however many there may be, there is still something hopeful and human about it. About having those flaws and persisting regardless. You may even like those flaws, and the unashamed desire to press on even with them on display.
Fellow/Ernesto: Live for yourself. This is what you desire. People are often caught up in material or monetary things. After all, we live in a world that required it to survive and even be respected. To throw away those views and simply live as you see fit: regardless as to whether you earn those things or not, is something you admire.
Rollo: Sometimes the attachment we have to those we lost can be painful. Regardless, that pain is proof that there was care and love. The things done for others, whether alive or dead, are done selflessly. Grief can fuel hatred, but it can also be caused by love. To unlearn hatred and learn to love again after the fear of loss is a natural human experience. It is a process you understand and admire those who take the time and strength needed to properly love again.
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talk to me in your love language! bllk boys; kaiser , rin , reo , ness
(part 2; isagi , bachira , sae , nagi)
michael kaiser âËâč á° : words of affirmation ! and acts of service (??)
thereâs a void in kaiserâs life in terms of love, so itâs very difficult for him to open up to somebody entirely because he would let his insecurities consume him. he considers himself very vulnerable, which is why he has that front of high self-worth and defence because heâs afraid of letting somebody see him as âweakâ again.
kaiser would have to incontrovertibly love somebody to even consider a relationship, and when heâs in one then heâd treat them with the utmost respect, he would be extremely needy. he needs that reassurance that his partner loves him and would never hurt him - physically or mentally. he needs verbal reassurance because it would be the easiest for him to process & understand, but he shows his love to them in more tangible ways, through the way he treats them compared to other people. his biggest fear is becoming like his father and he needs that reassurance that he's not.
kaiser doesnât like to do things for anybody, heâll treat it as a chore unless itâs for his partner. heâll wake up a bit earlier to make them breakfast and heâll go out of his way to change his schedule for his partner. but he would get so embarrassed if somebody pointed it out lol. he would enjoy tending to his partner, like helping them bathe & he would ensure to be insanely careful because he doesnât want them to get hurt the way he was.
rin itoshi âËâč á° : physical touch!!, but also acts of service
rin wouldnât actively seek out a relationship, he prefers things to come together naturally, which is why he was slightly embarrassed when he realised his feelings for his childhood best friend were a bit more than platonic. he would feel extremely guilty and nervous around them until they noticed in less than a month. rin was very relieved when they liked him back because he thought that he could only build that sort of connection with one person, which was them.
rin was clingy when he was younger, they were his only friend alongside sae. so when his brother left for spain, rin became significantly more reliant on his friend, he would enjoy activities like holding their hand and stroking their hair. once rin started to despise his brother, he started using physical touch as a more tangible way to share his affection with his partner & the way he held them now seemed more possessive because he needed the reassurance that they wouldnât abandon him the way that sae did.
rin has a very individualistic mindset, he prefers small things in his daily life to be consistent. regardless, he doesnât mind tweaking his schedule ever so slightly to cater to the needs of his partner, and heâll happily skip a morning run if it means basking in their presence for a little bit longer. even when they were younger, rin would act like this, he has always just wanted them to be as safe as possible so heâll subconsciously move to walk on the roadside of the path or heâll have their arm wrapped around his so he can easily tug them towards him when walking past someone he considers unsafe.
reo mikage âËâč á° : leaning towards receiving gifts, but also words of affirmation
reo would be a good boyfriend, but in previous relationships, his affection was monopolised and many people dated him solely for material benefits such as gifts and status. he trusts too easily, which is one of his main weaknesses in terms of love. he appreciates a genuine connection with somebody who he can be devoted to without having to worry about being manipulated or used.
reo has always been expected to be the provider in all his other relationships, heâs had to spoil people with expensive restaurants and designer gifts, which is why it was a pleasant surprise to be spontaneously gifted something by his new partner. he found it refreshing - not needing to be the one to splurge on his significant other for no reason whatsoever. reo would be so grateful, cherishing and keeping every small gift close to his heart, heâll install little shelves in his room to decorate his living space.
reo is the most observant person, especially for his partner. he takes time just simply watching them do mundane activities, utterly absorbed until he figures out the most imaginative compliment ever and theyâll just be a bit stunned for a couple moments. reo would find pride in understanding his partner beyond his ability because he wants somebody to put in the same effort for him. reo would be utterly entranced & dedicated to his partner, he would assure them every day that he would never consider somebody else even if they werenât too insecure.
alexis ness âËâč á° : mainly words of affirmation (obviously!) but also quality time
ness would still tend to associate that âsubservientâ attitude with love at the beginning of his relationship. he would try to treat them as somebody above him, which is why throughout their relationship, his partner would teach him how to respect & love himself before them, but he still has that loyalty engraved into him deep.
since he was young, ness associated verbal affection with love because itâs simply something he watched other children receive and not him, which is why in a relationship he becomes quite yearnful for them to reassure him that they love and truly appreciate him. he would go out of his way to achieve their validation, doing tasks/errands for them until they assure him that theyâll happily shower him in praise and affection whenever he needs it - not just because he had worked for it.
again linking it back to his childhood, he was always alone & hated that feeling, so he feels the need to always be around his partner so they donât experience those emotions too. he enjoys doing activities alone with his partner such as watching movies at home, doing puzzles, and decorating cakes. ness associates love with time spent with his partner, so he likes to fill his free time up with doing small, but meaningful activities with them. although, he still enjoys small day trips/travelling with them because he wants to experience life holistically with his partner.
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casual | t.c
summary: after several months of a casual fling with tara, you come to the realization that she was using you for the sole purpose of forgetting about her unrequited crush. tara attempts to make amends and explain that it was all a misunderstanding.
pairing: fwb!tara carpenter x fem!reader
word count: 1.9k
warnings: minor cursing, mentions of sex, manipulation.
a/n: this is my first oneshot, i hope you all enjoy it.
A bead of sweat trickles down the side of your face, cascading down your chin until it lands on the bedsheets.
Only then do you realize that the night is approaching an end. You and Tara had stayed up all night, making love and savoring the feeling of being in each otherâs presence. Not an ounce of regret filled you; only she did.
Tara stretches her limbs with a soft yawn and rolls over onto her stomach, her skin clinging to the silk sheets. She peers at the clock that reads 4:51 am.
Her lips form into a tired grin, and she throws an arm over your waist, pulling your body flush against hers. âHm, that was really nice. Best way to spend an all-nighter.â She murmurs, her voice drowsy but tinged with satisfaction. Her touch is gentle as she brushes your hair back behind your shoulders, admiring the artwork of bite marks and hickeys along your neck.
Your gaze locks with hers for a moment before slowly drifting down to her lips. Tara has two rules for this arrangementâno feelings involved and certainly no kissing. Despite that, you canât stop yourself from imagining. You wonder how soft her lips feel and what they taste like. You hope deep down that maybe one day sheâll let you break those rules.
Tara stares at you, trying to decipher what youâre thinking about. When she notices where your gaze has landed, she lets out a weary sigh and pulls away, breaking the proximity between you. âHave you forgotten-â
âNo, no. I havenât forgotten.â You whisper and nibble on your lower lip in thought, repeating the rules in your mind. âNo kissing, no feelings, nothing.â You confirm with a hint of disappointment in your tone.
Tara runs a hand through her hair, trying to tame the messy and sweaty strands. âLook, I like you, but not in that way. I donât do relationships, and I made that clear the first time you attempted to kiss me.â Tara mutters and rests her hand tenderly on your stomach, trying to offer a small amount of comfort.
Despite the warmth of her hand on your stomach, a sense of coldness seeps through your body.
âI know, Tar. Trust me when I say I know.â You breathe and watch her hand trace gentle circles along your skin, the feeling being both painful and comforting. The vulnerability in your eyes is evident, as is the pain in your tone. âBut it just feels like Iâm a tool for you. You like Amber, but she doesnât reciprocate those feelings, so you keep coming back to me to make yourself feel better.â
Your words hang heavy in the air.
Tara falters momentarily at the mention of Amber and glances at you. She hesitates before speaking. âWell, of course, Iâm using you.â She casually agrees, as if sheâs unaware of how impactful her words are.
âAs you said, Amber doesnât like me, and I need a distraction from that. It feels nice to have someone who caters to my every need and does exactly what I say. Especially if they already like me.â She intertwines her fingers with yours, her grip firm. âLike you.â
Her words hit hard, like a punch to the gut.
You donât know if you can do this any longer, letting Tara use you while she thinks about another girl. Itâs tearing you apart inside, the act of pretending that youâre okay with this arrangement. That it isnât eating away at you, slowly killing you from within. Itâs nearly unbearable.
âI have to go.â You abruptly climb off of her bed to put some distance between you and her. You grab your clothes, slipping into your undergarments before your T-shirt and jeans.
You donât know how you didnât realize sooner that Tara only started a fling with you to distract herself from Amber. The most painful realization is that she had taken advantage of your feelings, knowing damn well that you wouldnât reject such an offer, giving her the endless perks of sex and pleasure.
Tara simply watches without uttering a word, her expression unreadable. When she hears the sound of the apartment door shutting behind you, she collapses against her sheets and lets out a groan mixed with frustration, and self-loathing.
âFuck, why am I doing this to her?â Her question lingers in the air, like a quiet confession that she canât quite understand.
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For the rest of the week, you maintain your distance. When she tries to approach you on campus, you excuse yourself and make a hasty retreat. Her messages and calls go unanswered, left unread, and unreturned.
Tara is well aware of your actions. The prolonged ignorance causes a deep sense of discomfort inside her, a knot in her stomach that feels increasingly tight. The feeling of hope begins to fade, and the idea of mending things feels like itâs slipping further and further out of reach.
After days of internal debate, Tara musters up the courage and pours her heart out to her older sister in desperate hopes of receiving some advice. Sam responds with a stern scolding and paints a sobering reality for her. Itâs a wake-up call for Tara, a powerful slap in the face. The realization of her mistakes and the damage sheâs caused to your friendship weighs heavily on her.
Despite that, sheâs not going to give up. She wants to repair the damage and she will. Even if it seems impossible.
A tired sigh escapes your lips as you tap away at the keys, finishing up the conclusion of your essay. Youâve been sitting at your desk for the past three hours, completely immersed in your work for your English class. Itâs a welcome distraction, helping your mind stay occupied and away from recent events with Tara.
Youâre jolted out of your focus as your phone buzzes, signaling that youâve received a new notification. Your heart skips a beat, a mixture of hope and uncertainty. Reluctantly, you pick up your phone and look through it.
Tara
Please meet me at the park near your house. I wonât bother u anymore after this.
I promise.
Pls show up.
A storm brews inside you. Part of you is tempted to lash out and tell her to fuck off and to never text you again. But a small voice in your head is pleading with you to go see her. To hear her out.
You push aside your anger and resentment, deciding the latter.
The walk to the park is short, just under five minutes. The cool wind gently caresses your face, blowing strands of hair out of your face. Despite the calming breeze, tension and unease churn within you.
You donât know what awaits you. Maybe tonight is the night that Tara officially ends the arrangement, cutting you out of her life completely. Maybe she already found solace in Amber, perhaps theyâve already become more than friends.
As you enter the park, the sight of someone sitting on the bench greets you. No guesses are needed; you already know who it is. You continue to approach her, your heart beating your chest and your breaths growing shaky. Tara sits there, fiddling with the rose in her hands, and as you get closer, she lifts her head. A small smile graces her lips at the sight of you.
She awkwardly hands you the rose and watches you sit next to her, the silence between you hanging thick and heavy.
Tara swallows past the lump in her throat and turns to you, Samâs words from last night echoing in her head. She takes a deep breath before speaking. âWhen you left me that night, I felt so much regret. Regret for using and manipulating you. It was a shitty thing to do, and you didnât deserve that, especially when youâve shown me nothing but kindness.â She whispers, her eyes growing watery with guilt and remorse.
âI donât like Amber. In fact, I never did.â Taraâs words catch you off guard, and you look at her with shock, a sense of hope in your heart. A small chuckle escapes her due to your reaction and she continues. âI had a crush on you all along, but I was afraid of what would happen if I tried pursuing a relationship with you. I feared that if we did start dating, one day you wouldnât love me anymore and youâd vanish from my life forever.â
A tear rolls down her cheek, and sheâs quick to wipe it, feeling vulnerable and exposed. âI had this stupid idea to start a fling with you because I knew you would agree without hesitation.â She confesses, her voice trembling. âIn my head, I convinced myself that itâd be alright, because if I ended the arrangement someday, then we would resume being best friends like nothing happened. And I knew it wouldnât last forever, but I thought that it would be better to have a little piece of you than none at all.â
âI owe you a huge apology for everything that I have ever said or done to you. I donât expect forgiveness or anything, and I certainly donât expect you to say anything to me. Iâd understand if you got off this bench and walked away. I just wanted you to know that Iâm sorry. I regret it all.â She whispers sincerely, her eyes searching yours.
Youâre quiet for a moment, trying to gather your thoughts. You can see the genuine remorse in her eyes, silently begging for forgiveness.
Finally, your lips curve into a small smile as you whisper. âYou really went through all this trouble, all this bullshit, just because you wanted to be with me?â A mixture of affection and annoyance fills your tone. âGod, youâre such an idiot, Tara.â
Then she does something thatâs both adorable and endearing; she pouts. âI canât tell if youâre insulting me in a negative or positive way.â
âItâs both.â You reply with a playful grin, scooting closer to her on the bench. âIâve been in love with you for the past three years. I doubt my feelings would change like that. Youâve been a complete dumbass, wasting all this time starting this fling when we couldâve been dating for, like, the last five months.â
Tara's frown deepens as realization sets in, finally realizing how much time has gone by. She scratches the back of her neck. âYouâre right about both things, me being an idiot, and we couldâve dated a while ago.â She sighs, feeling lost and confused. âDo you think itâs too late for us, though? Are you still open to being my girlfriend?â She looks into your eyes, hope and fear swirling in them.
A surge of excitement courses through you at the very thought of dating Tara. Thereâs no way youâll let this opportunity slip through your fingers. With a determined look, you stand up and extend your hand, still clutching the rose in your other. âItâs never too late.â You reply with a reassuring smile. This is a relationship you both deserve.
Tara quickly rises and places her hand in yours. âSo, what now?â She asks, her grin widening.
âWeâre going on a date.â You suggest, squeezing her hand. âIâm sure that pizza place is still open.â You start to walk out of the park, guiding her with you. Before you can fully exit, Tara tugs on your hand, pulling you back towards her. You turn around with curiosity etched on your face.
Youâre about to ask whatâs wrong when her lips crash into yours, her arms encircling your waist as she kisses you passionately. She kisses you with everything she has. The feeling is overwhelming, making you feel like youâve ascended to cloud nine.
While in Taraâs embrace, youâre enveloped by a sense of belonging, realizing that youâve finally found your place here in her arms.
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I TRIED TO DO A REQ EARLIER BUT IT WENT HORRIBLY CUZ I WAS IN A RUSH IM SO SORRY IF I MIGHTVE CONFUSED YOU.
My ask: Could you do the housewardens with an idol/ really famous reader from back in their world and they have a really bright smile that can blind people
THANK YOU AND. AGAIN IM SO SO SORRY
Housewardens x Reader with a Blinding Smile
hi! don't worry about it, i hope this is what you wanted and thank you for waiting <3
Riddle Rosehearts
Riddle is absolutely floored when he learns about your past life as an idol. It's not information he comes across on his ownâinstead, itâs Ace and Cater who excitedly tell him while showing clips of you performing for fun.
He watches with wide eyes as you move confidently on stage, each song accompanied by that radiant, nearly blinding smile. For a moment, heâs struck silent.
In those videos, you have a smile that can outshine the sun itself. His cheeks turn bright red as he watches, wondering how heâs ever going to handle dating someone with such star power.
Riddle finds himself wanting to shield you from crowds, too aware of how many admirers you have. Heâs conflictedâproud but also slightly intimidated, especially when he realizes that he's one of the people drawn in by your smile.
When you flash him that dazzling grin, he canât help but stammer, tripping over his words before eventually managing a whispered, âPlease... not so bright. I canât concentrate.â But even with his flustered protests, heâd never want you to stop smiling, not when it makes him feel like the luckiest person in the world.
Leona Kingscholar
Leona can be a bit jealous and even snarky, especially when others are drawn to your bright smile. He's familiar with admiration and attention, but not the type that seems to radiate from you so naturally.
Even in the middle of a crowded area, if you look his way with that blinding grin, heâs done for. He canât help the soft smirk that forms in response, though he tries to play it cool.
âKeep smilin' like that, herbivore, and youâll make it harder for me to keep you out of trouble,â he drawls, pulling you close with that lazy grin of his own. But heâs privately enchanted, even though heâll never admit it out loud.
Whenever he catches you smiling in his direction, he relaxes, his usual cynicism melting away, and in those moments, he thinks maybe, just maybe, heâs lucky to have you.
Azul Ashengrotto
Azul is utterly captivated by your charm and star-like presence. When he first realizes just how famous you were, his business mind whirls with ideas about how you could take Mostro Lounge to new heights.
However, the moment he sees your blindingly bright smile directed solely at him, his business schemes crumble, replaced by a warm, fuzzy feeling he can't quite control.
Heâs incredibly flustered around you, but he adores how you light up his world. Your smile has an almost hypnotic effect on him, and he finds himself working harder to impress you, pulling all the stops in ways heâs never done for anyone else.
If heâs feeling particularly brave, heâll murmur, âDonât go flashing that smile to just anyone⊠itâs far too precious to be shared,â though heâs always the one most drawn to it.
Kalim Al-Asim
Kalim is thrilled. Heâs already brimming with positive energy, but knowing you were an idol only excites him more. He eagerly listens to every story you share about your performances, begging you to show him your old routines, and applauding with boundless enthusiasm.
Your blinding smile is simply the cherry on top, making him feel like heâs basking in pure sunlight whenever heâs with you.
If thereâs a crowd around, Kalim proudly tells everyone, âDid you know my partnerâs a superstar?â while he beams at you, completely unashamed of his open adoration.
Your smile gives him energy, and heâd do anything to see it again and again. Kalim often finds himself daydreaming about throwing a huge festival in your honor just to see you shine on stage once more, with him as your biggest fan.
Vil Schoenheit
Vil understands fame and the effect that a dazzling smile can have. Still, even heâs caught off guard by the intensity of your presence and that nearly-blinding smile you give so freely.
He can hardly believe heâs dating someone who has a charm and radiance that rivals his own, and sometimes, heâll go silent just watching you, almost in disbelief.
âCareful,â he teases, brushing a strand of hair from your face. âWe canât have you outshining me now, can we?â Thereâs a competitive edge in his tone, but itâs softened by genuine admiration.
Though heâs usually focused on maintaining his own image, he quickly becomes protective, shielding you from the harsher side of fame and relishing in the moments when that radiant smile is just for him. In those rare times when youâre alone, heâll smile back, admitting softly, âYouâre beautiful⊠but letâs keep that our secret, hmm?â
Idia Shroud
Idia is bewilderedâand just a bit overwhelmedâby your past as a famous idol. He can barely handle crowds, let alone the idea of the entire world being captivated by your bright smile.
When he sees you perfom and realizes just how magnetic you are on stage, he spirals a little. To him, youâre almost otherworldly, and he canât believe someone like you would even notice someone like him.
When you flash him that blinding smile, though, he freezes, practically combusting with embarrassment. âN-No fair! Are you trying to kill me or something?â he stammers, face going red as he looks away.
Even as he complains, he finds himself replaying those moments when you smile at him, treasuring them like rare, legendary loot in a game.
Your warmth and brightness make him feel alive in ways he canât explain, and though heâs shy about it, heâd do anything to protect the light you bring into his life.
Malleus Draconia
Malleus is mesmerized by you, plain and simple. Heâs never met anyone with a smile so radiant it could rival the brightest stars, and he finds himself drawn to you like a moth to flame.
To him, your smile is nothing short of magic, something that warms his heart and fills the void heâs often felt in his life.
When you smile at him, Malleusâs usually stoic expression softens, and he watches you with an intense, almost reverent gaze. âYou shine brighter than the stars, my dear. Tell me, is that your true power?â he muses, half-teasing but fully captivated.
He takes your hand, holding it carefully, as if youâre as fragile as you are radiant. Your brightness becomes something sacred to him, and heâll make sure no harm ever dims it.
In his presence, your blinding smile is met with an equally warm, if quieter, adoration, and he would keep that glow alive forever if he could.
(you can let me know if it's too short or if it's not what you wanted, I'll be happy to write it)
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đday seventeen: monsterfucking + sukuna ryoumen
you're pliable â much softer too than the average concubine he chooses to fuck. you don't break at the rough manhandling nor complain at his nails digging at your skin. he can't even feel the bones being scraped by his nails. it only bleeds much to his amusement.
he's going to use you for all your worth.
there are no words that you can describe him with your mouth shut and lips trembling but your mind repeatedly described him â monstrous.
a tank of what measly left of him, a man â maybe but he wasn't even the size nor the height added by his four arms, one wielding a spear now sitting besides him as his grin widens at your snivelling form. the two pair of eyes never leaving you and what it makes it grotesque is the flesh-like plate where one of his eyes are placed.
you were dead meat. the village betrayed you. in exchange for a vast wealth as they asked for his blessings and you were chosen to be the sacrifice and like any other sacrifice you will be devoured like meat, bleeding from the skin where he cut you and for your blood to drip on his tongue and flowing down in his throat like it was honey.
for he was a king of the curses and death looms wherever he goes and it surrounds you suffocating what life has bestowed you with its grace, now being sucked out and being replaced with the doom of your own death. you were kneeling in front of him. bleeding where his sharp nails had dug out and it must be the way how he left the previous sacrificial lambs similar to yourself.
you closed your eyes and you wait for death. surrendering yourself cause fighting was as hopeless as living the life you used to be.
interesting. sukuna thought. there was a hundred of times where this happened. humans accepting their fate from his hands and to only scream at the end. begging for his mercy until they silenced their mouths with a slash from the flick of his fingers and he tastes them. they taste of something foul and rotten and regret but meat is meat and sukuna isn't too picky from how he eats at the flesh of those worthless humans.
you were a different case. a fine specimen assuming to be catered solely for him. sukuna plans to devour you but not what you think. the scent of your blood are sweet. impossibly sweet while it may taste the same as blood like the others but yours was different and sukuna was salivating at the thought of tasting you. he doesn't plan to slaughter you. he had a different plan that involves the whole you.
he was getting sick of all the women that has been presented to him. too easy to break. too easy to kill. too easy to eat. their flesh was nothing sort of fulfilling than what his appetite wants and surely this puny human in front of him will satiate his appetite. you won't be ending in his stomach. there are much thing more suited to you for his pleasure.
âstrip me, human.â he orders you and your eyes tightly shut, wriggles in confusion. did you misheard him and your ears were playing tricks on you to assure you of what may come? the second his voice reaches your ears, you were scrambling on to your feet. following his orders with a glimmer of hope that he'll spare you.
in which you regretted. there wasn't simply an astonishment. your eyes wide as saucers as your sight darts at the part of his body located between his legs. not one but two cocks stood hard and leaking with precum and does he wants to use you to relieve them. you were scared. the size intimidating and one of them will surely split you in half. there is worse than death and it's going to be torture.
he got you pinned, being slowly lifted up as the two upper arms of his holds your limbs. you were crucified at this position as he slowly lowers to his awaiting lengths.
there's the initial burn of your skin being stretched by one his cock and the other sliding between your ass cheeks and a tear descends from your eyes rolling down your cheek as he enters your hole.
it was heavy and thick. he might be as well scrambling your insides and your slick is the thing you're grateful for the relief. you can only gasp and moan and cry at every thrust. the onslaught of his cock to your insides is too much for you to take.
this is sweet. he can't help but to grin wider at your form being ravaged by him. your pussy was softer and was taking his cock soon the two of it and your body, does it feel like it was made for him. he was going to thoroughly enjoy you.
there was much skin for him to cover too that even the two of his arms hasn't had explored your body. pinching and manipulating them as he pleases you were perfect and he's going to spill lot of his cum inside to you.
sukuna had finally found his favorite plaything. you're not a concubine to him. you were going to be his own property.
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For Two
Hello, content specifically catered to me. This might be the whole damn month.
Just an Angel that works at a BnB all alone with their stalker future spouse... :3c
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You started your morning a little later than usual that Saturday, grateful for the extra half hour of sleep as you gathered ingredients. Only one pot of coffee to brew, one breakfast to make, one room to turnover while the guest went about their day touring the city.
You couldn't believe it.Â
Normally, the weekend was completely booked. This one was too, except there'd been not just one, but six no-shows yesterday. Almost every single room at the inn was empty despite being fully paid for.Â
Right at the usual check-in time, a single guest had shown up. Dressed in all black, a whole head taller than you, eyes that looked as tired as you felt from rushing around all day, and only a small duffel bag slung over one shoulder, they didn't look like the type of tourist you usually had this time of year. But who were you to judge?
The refreshments you set out didn't go to waste, though. He went back for seconds and thirds as you showed them to their room⊠then around the house⊠then around the garden while constantly on the lookout for other guests pulling up in their rental cars.
Oddly, he seemed more interested in you than the city. Rather than attractions on the pier or night life, the conversation flowed towards a few hobbies you found in common. Before you knew it, the sun had long since set, and no other soul had arrived for check-ins. You carried on with him a while longer, ending the night in a good mood despite the strange, once in a lifetime occurrence.
It felt like talking with an old friend. You wondered if the chat over breakfast would be just as nice.
The coffee machine loudly beeped, disturbing your current task. You stopped and poured it all into a thermos, then set it in the small woven carrier you'd prepared with a mug, creamers, sugars, and a pair of neatly wrapped shortbread cookies. You quietly took it up the stairs to your sole guest's room to set it at the door.
Just as you approached, the door opened with messy black hair and lightly flushed cheeks in greeting. He was the smallest bit shorter without the boots. No piercings in this early in the morning, but even his pajamas were all black. The tiny ghosts on his pants were cute.Â
The man's blue eyes came to life at the sight of you and he smiled. "Mornin'," they spoke in that soft, raspy voice you'd gotten acquainted with yesterday.
"Beat me to it. Good morning, Ren." You smiled back with ease. "Did you sleep well?"
"Perfect, actually." They yawned, eyeing the basket in your hands as they stretched. "All that f'me before 7am.? Fuck, y'might really be an angel." He paused and rubbed at his lower lip. "Sorry."
You held the basket out to him. "I heard nothing. No worries," you said. It was hard to tell if he was apologizing for cursing or flirting. Was he flirting?Â
He took the carrier, but still stood in the doorway, drumming his fingers on the sides as if thinking of what to say. "Soo⊠how d'you usually do these cute little coffee baskets for two people?"
"Two?" You hurriedly racked your brain. You were pretty sure his reservation was for one. He did have the door code already. Maybe he let his companion in late last night?
Did you need to make more coffee? Or tea? Did they have dietary restrictions you didn't know about for breakfast?!Â
Shit, shit, shit.Â
You never got to greet them and get their name and if they were still sleeping it'd be rude to wake them up just to ask and you couldn't expect a five star review anyways at this point but thisâ
"Ah, I meantâŠ" The man interrupted your silent panic with a surprisingly nervous tone. He shifted slightly, fingers tapping even louder. "If ya wanted t'join me. I mean, I'm the only one here so I thought y'wouldn't be too busy with breakfast."
Ohh. He was flirting. Your job be damned.Â
"Breakfast would have to be a little late⊠but if you don't mind, okay."
Ren smiled a lot brighter this time. "Great. I'll get changed and meet you downstairs in a few, yeah?"
You wanted to tell them there was no need to change with how adorable his PJs were, but kept it to yourself. You couldn't tease them like that yet. "Sure thing."
#14 days with you#14dwy redacted#14dwy#14dwy ren#momo writing#sorry it's 1am for me#normal hours are not real#self indulgence babyyy#I want redacted to come play house with me#I can cook I can clean#green titles = I'm being weird and strange đ€
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Note: this is me just making a wonderland post about the canonical character in twisted wonderland based on translations, vignettes and manga. everyone has differing opinions and interpretations and I'm not gonna bicker about someone's version of Trey in their writing or their au.
I feel like some folks in twst fandom are realizing that canonical Trey isn't really like early/previous fandom Trey, who was characterized as a sweet completely normal bakerman who's also the heartslabyul mom, but instead of just going "oh yeah no, Trey can be petty and mischievous sometimes. usually in situations where there are others also being petty and mischievous while still keeping on top of his duties and engaging in his hobbies" some of the fandom seems to have swung to the other side of the spectrum and are like "oh? so trey has been living a lie this entire time! He actually HATES baking and he's got a âšsecret agendaâš and he probably is a mastermind and is part of a heartslabyul shadow government!!!!"
And while i know that there's a good chance many are just being silly and making memes and jokes, i have seen the way fandom genuinely boils down characters and strips them of all nuance. Notable with the leech twins, sebek and rook who are all canonically dorks and goobers with their passions and interests in both the games and mangas. They're all intense but most are just awkward and passionate/invested in their interests. Like Sebek being boiled down to shouty malleus fanatic and ignore his various interests and hobbies. he can and will question Malleus notable in the recent chapters and also times when Malleus acts in a way that makes Sebek confused<- mainly in manga and vignettes. Like Floyd being boiled down to unhinged and unpredictable, when most of his actions and activities happen because he got bored of something being monotonous or tiring or repetitive and goes to look for something more interesting like drama or someone with strong reactions to mess with. Guy just gets bored and goes to look for something interesting. Or Rook who gets extremely invested in whatever is his current interest/passion to the point of ignoring everything else. Jade also does this. They're all goobers tbh. Just guys, just folks.
Trey Clover is also just a guy. He is just conflict avoidant tbh. Trey just wants to keep the peace, to make sure people aren't fighting, people are following the rules and aren't making messes. Like that's something he mentions often and that many of his actions reflect from how he checks in on all the students and makes sure they're following heartslabyul rules but doesn't tell Riddle about any rule breaks so as to keep peace, to holding back in activities so he doesn't draw attention and not mentioning stuff he might know specifically so that he doesn't get asked about it (notably when Jamil wants to read ancient texts and trey only reads it upon finding out it contained an ancient tooth paste recipe). He seeks convenience, peace and calm. He's not exactly a schemer, out to get something specific or complete some goal in life like those such as Jamil, Leona or Azul. He's also not necessarily someone solely attempting to coast by and only seek stimulus/fun like with Kalim and Cater.
He's not secretly cruel and not the secret mastermind behind heartslabyul. Yes, He's mischievous and sometimes petty. Notably he gets this way when other petty and mischievous people are around him and it's usually in response to those that were acting like that (messing with ace, messing with Jade, etc). He does care and he does look out for his dormmates and peers. Honestly if he truly didn't care about Riddle or Ace and Deuce then he really wouldn't have helped them, plus he doesn't necessarily go out of his way to help every person anyways. If he truly didn't care then he could've abandoned Riddle when he was at his lowest like the rest of the dorm, or even just let Ace and Deuce carry out their punishment instead of helping them bake tarts and pies to try to help out with Riddle's anger.
As for if he likes baking? Imma be real, that guy can't not like baking. If he hated baking then he's a masochist (joking) because fucker is baking everyday with a smile and trying get everyone to eat his baking and constantly sharing all the goodies he's made (genuine). He's baking constantly in both the game and in manga. There are so many instances where he bakes experimentally, he bakes recreationally or bakes for his dorm. There're so many instances where he just carries cupcakes and scones and cookies everywhere. He bakes some to share with his Science club members, shares some type of goody with every iteration of the Yuu's (mangas and game). He goes out of his way to buy new recipe books with his own money to bake more things. In one vignette he bought an entire recipe book specifically so he can learn to bake this one (1) type of dessert he saw once because he liked the way the dessert looked so much that he wanted to make it and went and BOUGHT AN ENTIRE NEW RECIPE BOOK just to make that one dessert. That guy likes to bake. Yeah sure, he says "i don't bake with love đ" but that doesn't mean anything in the context of NRC which is "emotionally repressed anti-feelings" central where nearly everyone can't be genuine and blunt with their feelings and emotions (even the more blunt and jovial characters have some deep sadness or deep trauma stuff that gets hinted at several times like with Cater, Kalim, Silver and Sebek). Folks in NRC are emotionally repressed and hate admitting connection with each other. Seriously, check out Yuurei20's post on how often the term "friend" is used in the original Japanese, there's very few canonical mentions of them calling each other friend EXCEPT WHEN ENGLISH TRANSLATION ADDED IT otherwise they don't normally actually acknowledge their connections and some never actually say friend at all. They'll call each other classmates or something but in JP they don't really like to acknowledge closeness.
Trey clearly likes to bake and invests a significant amount of time into it beyond just occasional cooking duty and he also shares his goods with practically everyone. Yeah sure he's from a family of bakers and I've seen some people say that "oh but he's just baking because of his family job" but it's not like they urgently need their son, who's in class and currently at the magic boarding school, to bake everyday for their baking needs and i guarantee that he doesn't need to go out of his way to get experimental with his baking and wouldn't bake that often if it's just cause of family business or practice. Plus if it's just that then why would he go out of his way to buy recipe books just cause he saw a single dessert that inspired him. He's not just baking for family business reasons. Trey likes to bake.
Honestly, I'm not surprised he says that he doesn't bake with love especially in a place like NRC. As mentioned earlier, everyone gets so weird and pressed about connection and also makes fun of each other for expressing care. Some even get anxious about another's intentions if given unasked for help (notable when Kalim helped Azul get his hat in the manga and Azul stresses about trying to repay this favor). Also baking is just a hobby, similar to crafting, drawing or writing and sometimes people just take satisfaction and joy in simply doing those things. When someone makes something, they don't always have to put in heartfelt feelings in it per se. When someone draws, sometimes it's cathartic or you just felt inspired and just wanted to draw. Sometimes it is specifically to destress or to get out feelings. Sometimes drawing is just because you can do it so you did. Similarly, baking can just be because you wanted to and you like baking. Plus it makes sense Trey wasn't like "i put all my love and feelings in my baking<3" because in the context of that line he seemed to be referencing baking for his peers and strangers. He's baking for people in his school or for events. So Honestly yeah??? Of course Trey wouldn't say he puts love in his baking. He's baking for his friends, for his club and for dorm stuff and also bakes experimental recipes. He isn't stirring that bowl of batter and going "now to put in all of my love and dedication <3" during those times because it would be kinda odd for most of those scenarios tbh. For experimental recipes, you're low-key kinda just fucking around and taking notes to see what works and i imagine trey would be doing the same and wouldn't be emotional over his bowl of batter during this time. For his club and dorm stuff, Trey isn't super close with EVERYONE in there and he's just trying to make sure there's enough so again fitting that he's not going "made with love". If he's making treats for his friends then he certainly tends to put in more effort, usually in regards to taste and diet (notable with vil and Cater as he tends to make things that they will actually like) and seems to like compliments on his cooking especially from those he's closer to. While he does put in that extra care which implies closer bonds, i do think most of the nrc boys would still be put off if trey was like "for you, made with love <3" (i think Ace would make fun of him so hard and even cater would be thrown for a loop). I will also note that in several vignettes as well as in several scenes in the manga, he gets genuinely put out if someone doesn't want to eat his cooking (notably in the manga if people were too busy to eat though this also happens in game) and in a few vignettes he even tries to adjust what he makes and what he pairs it with specifically so they will eat more of what he makes (notably with Vil and trying to make light desserts and pastries as well as pairing it with certain preferred teas) which to me shows he does put care and thoughtfulness into his baking even if he doesn't say it outright.
Long story short: Trey is not uncaring (he looks out for his dormmates and friends even baking treats specifically for their taste when he can), he likes baking (he wouldn't be so invested in trying new recipes, looking for inspiration or going out of his way to experiment with his baking if he wasn't), he's not really scheming so much as he's trying to keep the peace and avoid conflict to the point of either keeping quiet, thwarting shenanigans (notably with ace and deuce), or hiding his abilities (he's not like Azul, jamil or Leona who are aiming for top spot and in fact trey dislikes added fuss and dislikes the spotlight), and he's mischievous and petty at times though notably with those that are also mischievous or petty (he will mess with his younger dorm members though will try to stop them from actually messing up like with the oyster sauce joke for the chestnut tarts, and sometimes messes with others)
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stages - j. marino
summary: from gym girl to girlfriend
warnings: john x f!reader, swearing, fluff, mentions of a cold/flu and a broken wrist, mention of the reader running and catering business, consumption of painkillers/flu medicine
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âYouâre not going to stick around?âÂ
You stopped walking, your attention solely focused on trying to find your car keys from the deep depths of a hectic gym bag, but even you couldnât deny that the sound of an increasingly familiar voice distracted you.Â
It was a consequence of using the gym closest to the rink, you supposed. That, or just sheer chance that your gym of choice was also the exact gym that John Marino chose to frequent. But it was honestly just one heck of a fucking coincidence that each time you stepped foot inside the building, he was also there. Somehow youâd â against your will â managed to go from polite greetings on the treadmill to considering each other friends.
It was a weird dynamic, one that didnât particularly extend outside of this one gym, but he was clearly comfortable enough to insinuate he wanted you to hang around a little while longer. If you didnât already know his plans for the day youâd have probably thrown him an amused glance, or maybe even entertained the thought.
You shook your head, fingers clasping eagerly around your keys, before finally turning to look at him. He was wearing a compression shirt, his hair only slightly damp because this short trip of his was only to warm himself up before heâd journey across the street to the practice rink, and there was a careful kind of look on his face. He was watching your reaction, head tilted, hands wringing a water bottle.
He already knew what your answer would be, because like you knew his plans, he knew yours, and even though he knew the effort was futile, it would never stop him trying.
âAre you ever gonna come and watch me skate?â
You shrugged, watching him walk over to his own locker and pull out a hoodie, âIâve seen you skate.â
He shook his head adamantly, making for the door and holding it open for you to follow him, âNot in person, thatâs different.â
You were about to protest, knowing exactly where this conversation was heading, but before you could, he pulled a face, and whatever was about to follow you knew was going to be a teasing jab in your direction, âOh, wait. I think I get it, you just want to see me up close, because you wonât get that if you come to a game? Youâll miss looking at my face.â
You huffed a laugh, âThat psychology degree is finally getting put to use, huh?âÂ
The teasing smile was still on his face, even as he turned to look at you right as you both walked out of the building and into the daylight. He was confused, the slight and fractional twitch of his eyebrow showed that, as did the way his mouth seemed to twist as his brain reworked your words.
It must have been because you didnât deny his words that made him falter in his step and squint into the sun. You felt your cheeks heat up and your attention was thankfully stolen by the hollers and shouts from the other side of the street â you couldnât make out the face from where you were standing, but from the size of the pairing alone, it looked like the Hughes brothers waving on the sidewalk.
âMaybe next time.â You muttered quietly, more to yourself than to the curly haired man in front of you, because if you didnât say the words aloud like some kind of mantra, you knew you might actually never end up seeing him skate. This way, the promise felt real. And he seemed to have heard your voice carry over the slight breeze because he almost snapped his neck turning to look at you, and every morsel in your body recoiled at his quick reaction, âIâll let you get going.â You stuffed your hands in your pockets, avoiding his eyes (he still hadnât said anything, but there was absolutely no doubt in your mind that he had something to say).
âIâll see you later.â He mumbled, nodding.Â
***Â
You had a sneaking suspicion that John didnât know you were here â in fact, it wasnât really a suspicion, you knew he didnât know you were here. It was partly down to the fact that heâd already asked you and youâd had to decline because, technically, this was a work thing, it just so happened that his work thing and your work thing were the same work thing.
Youâd been debating on how to approach him, mostly when you should have been paying attention to whoever it was that you were in a conversation with, but he just kept catching your eye. You didnât know if he was just in a spot that you seemed to naturally redirect your eyes to, or if his almost lonely mood was catching you off guard.Â
He was a talkative person once you got to know him, but heâd spent the majority of the night stuck shoulder to shoulder with Luke Hughes, the two of them clearly muttering comments to each other under their breaths, usually one that would send them both spiralling into short fits of laughter before theyâd inevitably straighten and try to look more professional in the face of a big boss or investor walking past.Â
It was weird seeing him in such a formal setting, and in a suit nonetheless. Fuck, if you knew he could clean up that well, youâd have been eagerly accepting his game invites just on the off chance that youâd see him dressed up. It was certainly different to seeing him in his shorts or joggers and a gym top â not that an outfit choice such as that was entirely unappealing (it most certainly wasnât â he wore his gym clothes very well) for someone like him; meaning he could pull off a plastic bin bag if he really wanted to.
You hadnât really spoken to each other since the other day and that awkward comment was made. Even the texting seemed to have slowed a little bit, and if it wasnât for his âare you busy tomorrow night?â message, youâd have just assumed he wasnât even interested and taken a hint and left him alone until youâd found yourself enamoured by someone else.
ThoughâŠlooking at him now, smile lines making a full appearance and grinning mischievously, you werenât entirely sure it would be too easy to even look in someone elseâs direction when what was in front of you was so incredible.
That being said, the person in front of you wasnât John in any way, shape, or form. You didnât know who they were or what they did, but they were talking to you about something to do with hockey equipmentâ
âIâm the caterer.â You blurted, cringing almost apologetically when they halted with their glass halfway to their mouth, a look of mild shock passing over their features.
âOh.â They started, âOh, Iâm so sorry, I thought you were theâŠnevermind, I apologise.â They hurried to correct themselves, and they were being so polite about it all you couldnât help it when you jumped in.
âNo, please donât apologise, I should have said something sooner.â There was a brief pause where the both of you shared an amused look, âBut if you want to know about the food?â
Their eyes seemed to light up, âIs there a dairy-free option?âÂ
âYeah, there is. You want me to show you?âÂ
âPlease.â They nodded gratefully, eagerly hurrying after you, and it was just then that John saw you out of the corner of his eye.
Granted, it wasnât necessarily you that he saw, but a flurry of quick motion in his periphery. The kind of quick motion that would normally draw the eye under any circumstance, and it was as his eyes slid back to Luke that he felt something click in his brain â he didnât quite understand what it was until his eyes returned back toâŠyou.
He swallowed, his mouth suddenly dry and his lips parting, all completely against his will. He blinked once, twice, then three times just to be on the safe side, butâŠyou were still there: talking animatedly to one of the sponsors and pointing to the food assortment along the table with a bright grin on your face.Â
Lukeâs mouth was moving but John swore there wasnât any sound coming out, or nothing of that much value, anyway, because his entire attention was completely devoted to you, as he always seemed to find it. He felt his jaw clench, confusion beginning to stir as his mind reworked old conversations for something that he might have missed.
Boyfriend? No.
Family relations? He didnât think so.
Did you know anyone else on the team? He was the only one, he was sure of it.
Work?
Work. He remembered youâd mentioned something about catering, but heâd just assumed you worked in a restaurant with how vague youâd been about it all.
But it made sense.
âIsnât that your Gym Girl?â Luke bumped into his shoulder, his voice dripping with awe, and John wanted to cover his eyes. He wanted to grab Luke by the shoulders and physically turn his attention elsewhere, and that sudden desire to keep you out of his reach struck a nerve.
Heâd never found Luke annoying before. He didnât like it that much.
Instead, however, he schooled his expression into one that gave the impression that, yes, he knew youâd be here, and shrugged, still keeping his eyes on your figure, âShe has a name.â
Luke ignored his comment, âSheâsâŠwow.â
John frowned, turning to Luke and taking in the little glint in his eye and the drop of his jaw. He was beginning to find the child incessantly annoying, even if he was right in his words â âJack wants you, look.â This time John actually laid his hands on Luke and twisted him to point over to where Jack was watching them rather curiously, sheer dumb look he supposed, and pushed him in his brotherâs direction before making the rather bold decision to interrupt your conversation before he could psych himself out too much.
It had been a good few days since heâd last seen you, and since then he didnât think heâd actually had any mental reprieve from your earlier conversation about him finally putting his degree to use, and if he was honest, John kind of wanted an answer. Heâd like to bring it up somehow, maybe later on in the evening or maybe not even tonight â but if there was one thing heâd describe himself as, heâd probably say he was pretty good at checking off a to-do list once it had been established, and getting to the root of that was definitely on there somewhere.
It wasnât a priority, though.
But talking to you must be, because before he could even register the sickening thump of nervousness in his chest, heâd found himself standing directly to your right, one hand awkwardly holding his tie in place and his other shoved into the pocket of his suit pants.
You were still talking to the other person about the food, and he decided â for the sake of not wanting to interrupt â heâd made a dire mistake, and immediately changed course and darted left, only to find himself in front of a blank wall within a few short strides.
He sighed, placing his hands on his cheeks, and automatically pulled his phone out of his pocket with the faux urgency heâd mastered in the face of an awkward situation: wherever he felt a little bit too self-conscious in a public space, heâd reach for his phone. It gave his hands something to do, his brain something to be distracted by, and to onlookers it might make it seem like his awkwardness and fumbling was intentional: after all, no one could really avoid an important call or text, could they?
This time, though, he inhaled deeply, attempting to calm his nerves. He knew part of it was because he was technically at work, with his colleagues that were probably watching his every move if Luke had blabbed as expected â and that just added a whole new layer of pressure that he hadnât previously considered before.Â
Was it why you kept shooting down his invitation to a game? His teammates could be intimidating if they wanted to be.
His fingers hovered over the keyboard, a string of messages â your messages to each other â pulled up. He blinked, frowning briefly, unable to recall even opening his message app, let alone seeking out your contact.
Heâd been doing it more often, actuallyâ
âHi.âÂ
He whirled around on his heel, jacket flapping with the brusqueness of the motion, and came to face you. He slid his phone back into his pocket, never really finding the strength to concentrate too much on where he was placing it, and before he could even consider replying, there was a dull thud and you were holding his phone out towards him, looking equally as apprehensive as he was.
âThanks.â He muttered breathlessly, a flash of warmth tingling his hands.
You just nodded, your own hands fiddling with themselves in front of you, and he was watching â at least, he was until you seemed to become aware he was watching you do it and then you hid them behind your back almost instinctively.
He cleared his throat, eyes flicking back up to your face, âFancy seeing you here.â
And he did fancy seeing you here, if he was being honest with himself. You looked lovely. You always do, but thereâs something a little bit more thrilling to him about seeing you here wearing more formal clothes than seeing you inside a gym wearing sports gear.
It was a nice change, he decided.
You cracked a smile at his comment, and before he could think too much into it, he was echoing the same sentiment back at you, âI know, right? Youâre gonna be sick of me by the end of the night.â
âOh, please.â He shrugged, unable to help himself, âThat could never happen.â
He froze, hand once again attempted to put his phone inside his blazer pocket. He couldn't do anything, not even breathe, as he waited for your reaction. His words had slipped out a little too easily and with not enough hesitancy. He hadnât even had time to think that maybe he shouldnât have said that, before you stepped in, thankfully not too taken aback by it.
âNever say never.â
And he swore, right as his phone dropped into the pocket, that he felt something in him snap at the expression on your face and your sudden change in demeanour. But you seemed to flick out of it almost as soon as youâd done it, because in the next instant you were happier somehow, and he just knew that teasing lilt in your tone was more self-deprecating than he would have liked to think.
âSorry I didnât tell you, I donât even know, I guess I was trying to surprise you?â You got out, eyes darting everywhere but his face.Â
Maybe it was because he was beginning to take the breath out of your lungs with every second you spent actually looking at him, or maybe it was because you were conscious of other eyes watching you both from afar, but there was something a little bit odd about the way you were feeling in that moment.
It felt like you wantedâŠJohn. The man in front of you. In a âhold his handâ way.
Which was new.
So, the crush had intensified. It was the exact thing you had to realise at that moment in time. How terribly inconvenient of you.
It could only go downhill from here, couldnât it?
John did something with his face, and you glanced at him, noting the smile lines in his cheek from a closed-mouth smile, âIt was a pretty nice surprise.â
There was a lull in conversation, the both of you awkwardly looking at each other and then looking away, trying not to show the smiles on both of your faces. It was a weird coincidence that youâd been chosen as the caterer for such a large event for such a well-known team, but here you were, amidst Johnâs teammates â of who youâd been putting off meeting sheerly for the reason that it might be a little weird for the girl from his gym to purposefully attend a game or practice session with the intention of doing just that, but you supposed it couldnât really hurt if it was classed as a âwork thingâ.
Although, the man next to you certainly made the entire night more bearable. An hour and a half later you two were still talking to each other, sitting down this time with your kneecaps touching and an elbow resting on one of the tables, unconsciously tuning out nearly everyone and everything else.
It felt cliche and you almost felt sorry for inadvertently stealing him away from his teammates just because you happened to be there, but you couldnât really find it within yourself for that to be a genuine concern. It was the longest youâd ever talked to each other, really. A coffee after the gym was sometimes in the cards, but usually youâd just forgo wearing headphones when you saw his car parked in the lot and spend the hour in the gym talking to each other â but it never got this far.
Your attention was stolen momentarily by a sudden dimming of the lights and a change in the music, and a flurry of bodies slowly tiptoed out to the supposed âdancefloorâ. The person youâd been talking to earlier was there; there were players with their partners; coaches with their partners; parents with their kids.
You turned to look at John, an eyebrow raised in question at the spectacle, but he had a kind of soft haze about him as he watched his people begin to dance with each other; it wasnât anything particularly special â some people were off to the side chatting and some people were just swaying, but it was obvious it had become a kind of tradition at these kinds of events.
âAll staff and players are recommended to stand up at this point,â he started talking, head still turned towards the floor, giving you a perfect view of his side profile, and you watched him talk fondly, âApparently it encourages people to get âmore involvedâ or something.â And then he shrugged, inhaling and turning back to you, halting at the look on your face, âWhat?â
âYouâre still sitting.â
âIâm talking to you.â
That shut you up a bit: heâd said it so quickly and with such fierce conviction, as though there couldnât even be single other reason for him not doing as he was told, and all you could do was roll your eyes and breathe a short huff of laughter, trying with all your might not to read into it too much or blush under the lights.
Youâd done so well not to, so far.
âYou donât have to, youâŠdonât you network at these things?âÂ
He blinked, tilting his head in an amused fashion, âNetwork? Hm, thatâs cute.âÂ
You stared right at him, unimpressed, âYou know what Iâm talking about, donât you have to chat up the sponsors?â
Instead of answering your question, he turned briefly to the crowd of people on the floor, not uttering a word â and if youâd known him any less, youâd have just assumed he hadnât heard you at all, but the look heâd got on his face indicated he was clearly thinking about something. There was a slight furrow in the middle of his brows, and his mouth was twisted thoughtfully.
You hadnât even realised you were staring until he turned quite brusquely back to you, a hint of a mischievous smile on his face as he did so, âWho are you going to dance with?â
You felt your face drop more than you realised you were doing it at all, and the comical jump of his brows was enough to tell you heâd anticipated your reaction.Â
âIâm working.â You excused, almost scoffing at the question.
âYouâve already worked. The foodâs been made and put out. Who are you going to dance with?â He repeated the question with a considerable amount of vigour, and you had an inkling he asked it sheerly for coaxing a specific answer out of you.
You narrowed your eyes, dragging out the silence a little longer than what was necessary. You contemplated teasing him â maybe mentioning Nico â but ultimately opted on the side of caution.
âWith you.âÂ
He just grinned.
***
You blinked wearily, your head heavy and fuzzy and your wrist in so much agony is hurt to even stand up under the force of gravity. The hand in the cast was painfully cold, the fingers freezing to the touch, and you found yourself wincing on instinct as you used your other hand to curl the fingers into your fist.Â
You felt a little bit sick, if you were being honest. The painkillers must have worn off mid-nap on the couch because as soon as youâd pushed yourself into a sitting position a shooting throb seemed to echo right from the crack in your wrist bone to the very tips of your toes, and you walked rather blearily to the pile of meds on the table, washing some painkillers down with water.
It hadnât even occurred to you that youâd been woken up because of something else until a knock sounded at your door, quite frantically. You stood in the middle of your living room rather dumbly, only able to tug your hoodie sleeve further down the bulky cast to cover the tip of your fingers, your brain too exhausted to even contemplate what the knock could mean or who it could be.
Your feet didnât move, and you found nothing in you reacted to the sound like you usually would have. On a normal day youâd have jumped up to peer through the peephole to see who it was â but that didnât happen.Â
At least not until a rather dull thump echoed across your door and an equally tired groan could be heard from the other side.
That sent your mind working again, because you knew that voice, though not in that context. There was just something recognisable about the undertones there that seemed to ring a rather important bell in your head, and you stepped forward, peeking through the hole just to be sure.
As luck would have it, there leaned a mop of curly hair just next to the number on your door, and you didnât even need to see that familiar slope of his nose or the shape of his mouth to know who it was. He lifted his head, and from the resignation in his face you could tell he was just about to walk away.
You probably would have let him: you hadnât actually managed to tell anyone other than your parents that youâd broken your wrist, for a variety of reasons: there wasnât any cell service in the hospital; youâd got back to your apartment and immediately passed out from exhaustion and pain; and youâd broken your dominant wrist, which meant doing just about anything was twice the faff, and you hadnât quite mastered the art of charging your phone or texting with one hand only without getting frustrated ( youâd actually thrown it across your bed and lost it in the small gap between the frame and the wall). And the idea of opening the door to him all âsurprise!â didnât seem particularly appealing.
Or it wouldnât have if he didnât look as exhausted as you felt, with a red nose, pale cheeks and the packet of tissues clutched in his hand. He clearly wasnât too well either.
âWait!â You called through the door, voice still groggy and hoarse, and tried to unlock your door as quickly as you could without fumbling the chain or accidentally shutting the door before you could wedge your foot in the crack to prise it open with your non-injured hand.
You hid the cast behind your back, trying to appear chipper as you held your door open with your foot and smiled politely. It felt a little futile, though, with the way he seemed to blink uncertainty as his attention zipped to the bags under your own eyes and the lack of colour in your cheeks.
âHi.â You mumbled, your brain still a bit of a jumble as you almost slurred your words.
He yawned, leaning his head against your door frame in an adorable manner and clearing his throat, âHi.â
You had to stop yourself from lifting your hand up to comb his curls back from his forehead, and instead opted to give in to your instincts and smiled softly at him.Â
He reciprocated it, albeit a little sadly, âI thought you died.â
The smile on your face turned upside down, and instead of replying, you opened your door further, letting him step inside, still ensuring to keep your hand behind your back and away from his eyes until you felt as though you could tell him properly.
âYou didnât come to the gym last night and I texted but you didnât answer, and you always come to the gym even if youâre sick, and I was just a bit worried, yâknow?â He rambled, wandering towards your bathroom, âAnd then I woke up this morning and had to phone in sick because I feel like shit and I remember seeing the cold medications in your cuââ
He stopped, eyeing the packets of painkillers on the coffee table with both intrigue and concern, before turning to face you, eyes trying to justify any possible reason for that many packets to be out and already consumed, until his gaze came to a stop on the arm concealed behind your back. One hand came up to point at you, but before he could get any words out, he succumbed to three rather violent sneezes, all in immediate succession of each other, and by the time heâd finished, his eyes seemed redder and his cheeks even paler than before.
In fact, he blinked hard before moving himself to sit on the sofa, his head between his hands, still and silent.
âJohn?â You frowned, coming to sit beside him, this time uncaring if he saw the cast on your wrist or not, and placed one hand on his thigh. His eyes were screwed shut and his jaw was held ajar and crooked, deep breaths inflating his lungs slowly.
âDizzy.â He groaned, pressing his thumbs to the bridge of his nose, and you inhaled sharply, continuing his journey to the bathroom and pulling out the necessary packets for him. You poured him a glass of water, coming to sit beside him once more, this time having some trouble popping out the tablets with one hand, and it was a particularly frustrated sigh that had him blinking cautiously to watch you.
âSo, youâve come to steal my drugs and give me your germs, huh?â You muttered fondly, about to ask him for help, but he interrupted before you could say anything else.
âWhat the fuck?â He mumbled, clearly ignorant to your teasing comment, his eyes fixated on your cast before trailing up to your face, moving slowly so as to not disturb another episode of dizziness.
You cringed, âI broke my wrist yesterday.âÂ
There was a beat of silence when you watched him watch you, heart pounding a little harder than it usually would due to the unfamiliar situation. John was always caring, always wanting to help in some way, and you adored him for it, but this was a little different.
This time you guys were in a new relationshipâŠand there was a small part of you that was a little worried that heâd take this as you not trusting him.
âHow?â He blinked, the one word obviously not the only thing he wanted to say, but something heâd settled for for the sake of it.
You shook your palm, trying to get him to take the pills from you, and he did, swallowing them with the glass of water on the coffee table, before physically turning himself to face you, the look on his face suggesting he wasnât about to do anything until you answered his question.
âI wasâŠâ You inhaled sharply, eyes darting from his face and the flaming of your cheeks only seemed to make you more nervous for what you were about to tell him, and instead busied yourself with picking up the box of tissues on the coffee table and holding it out for him to take, âI was with one of my friends, and she was teaching me to skate.â Your voice trailed off pathetically, almost too embarrassed to even look in his general direction.
You could imagine he was blinking, trying to make the words compute in his head, eyes boring into the side of your face like a madman. Maybe he was managing a small smile, too.
âTeaching you?â He asked, voice somehow rough and soft at the same time, and it was the warmth in his tone along with the complete lack of judgement that had you hesitantly taking a peek at him out of the corner of your eye.
Youâd been right â on some level. He was hiding an amused smile behind his hand, and his eyes were wide with pleasant shock.
You nodded, rolling your eyes, âTeaching, yeah.â
He faltered, mouth open as though he was going to say something and thought better of it, before ultimately deciding to go through with it, âWhy didnât you call me?â
âBecause itâs embarrassing.â
âWhatâs so embarrassing about breaking a wrist?â
âNo, itâs embarrassing that I donât know how to skate. I didnât call you because thereâs no cell service in the ER and then it pissed me off that I couldnât type quickly enough and now my phone is wedged down the side of my bed and I canât reach it.â You rambled, eyes widening in a rather self-deprecating manner, âThen I passed out.â
He sniffed, plucking a tissue from the box, his other hand almost going to hold yours before thinking better of it, âDid you go to the hospital by yourself?â
You shook your head, leaning back against the sofa.
âWhat did the doctors say about it?â
âItâs a Colles fracture, so Iâm gonna have to wear a cast for a few weeks before they change it for a splint.â You sighed, picking at the end of the cast with disdain. The painkillers had eased some of the pain to a throb that seemed to beat on time to your pulse, but it was still uncomfortable. Very uncomfortable. And you were exhausted, as was the man next to you.
âIâd touch you but I donât want to give you my germs.â
If he hadnât looked so genuinely upset at that you might have said something else, maybe teased him a little, but with the heaviness tugging at his features already, you tilted your head, âYou do look pretty rough.â
He rolled his eyes, a gap-toothed grin showing itself, âThanks.â
âStill cute, though.â You grinned, nudging his hoodie clad arm with your own, unable to help yawning nearly immediately after, âDo you want to stay and have a nap?â
He raised his brows, clearly a little surprised by the offer, âEven when Iâve got the lurgy?â
You shrugged, âIâm probably gonna get it at some point anyway. Better to be ill together at the same time.â
âEven with your broken wrist?âÂ
You paused, acting like you were considering changing your mind, and John huffed a laugh. You could tell he was unsure about your proposal, maybe heâd feel a bit guilty giving you his cold when you were already in a state yourself, because it was clear he was holding himself back from being his usual affectionate-self.
âDo you have an ulterior motive?â He asked, raising a suspicious brow.
âNot entirely, but I might need you to reach my phone.â
It wasnât even fifteen minutes later that you were both cuddled up under your covers, your phone now safely plugged in and charging, you on the brink of sleep when John seemed to jolt up in remembrance of something. His sudden motions had your heart beating and a shot of adrenaline coursing through your body, perhaps thinking he was en route to throw up or something, but when you turned on your bedside lamp, he was grinning lazily, his eyes a little sleepy.
âWhat?â
He breathed a laugh, âWhy didnât you tell me you didnât know how to skate?â
You shrugged, âI was gonna surprise you, I guess. You said there was that skate thing coming up, right? I was gonna suggest we go, but I wanted to practise andâŠit didnât go very well.â
The cheeky grin seemed to melt off his face at your quiet admission, replaced by a softer, more sincere one, âYou were gonna say yes to that?â
You pressed your lips together self-consciously, unable to help feeling strangely vulnerable with the intensity in his stare. You were very aware of the fact that you didnât look your best, wearing Barbie PJâs, and your hair was an absolute mess. Add that on top of not having had the chance to shower, you were pretty positive you didnât smell too great either (you did douse yourself in deodorant earlier), so it felt almost unjustifiable that you were on the receiving end of such a look.
âYeah.â You muttered, âI thought it best to at least try to look like I knew what I was doing if I was gonna be in the presence of professional skaters and cameras.â
His brows jumped up his forehead animatedly, head unintentionally leaning closer to yours in excitement. One of your favourite things about him had to be the way he was so unashamed to show enthusiasm for even the smallest things â it was always written so seamlessly and effortlessly in the way heâd nod his head when he was listening to you or the way heâd hold himself to show you he was interested. It had always tugged on your heartstrings, even when youâd first met him.
He didnât say anything, but there was an odd expression on his face, like he was having an internal discussion with himself, and before you could stop it, you blurted a rather impatient âWhat?â.
He pulled a face, cheeks reddening slightly despite the chill to his skin, âI donât know how to â Iâm not good at talking about it, Iâm not sure how to talk about it because itâs kind of overwhelming in a way that I canât string the words together or something, butâŠâ he sighed, âIf I loved you less I might be able to talk about it more, andâAargh.â
âYou just quoted Mr Knightley.â You interrupted, eyes widening upon realising just what youâd interrupted him from saying.
âThatâs what you got from that?â
You paused, eyes darting across the shadows of his face. You could just make out the smile lines on his face and the slow, weary blinks as he fought off the sleep heâd been dying to succumb to, and if wasnât for the fact that heâd instigated this half-asleep conversation youâd probably feel a smithereen of guilt for teasing him in that state, but all you could do was nod and attempt to conceal just how smitted you felt. Fatigue tended to lower your inhibitions.
âWell, no, butâŠâÂ
His grin seemed to widen and he pressed his face into your pillow, curls begging for you to run your hand through, and sent you a rather expectant glance that had you rolling your eyes fondly.
âYou know I love you too. It justâŠâ
âIt still feels weird, huh?â He murmured, raising a brow and widening his eyes after a snotty sniff, âI still get nervous.â
âWith me?â
He breathed a laugh, âSaying it. You just constantly floor me, I wouldnât say you made me nervous, not like you used to.â
âThe noveltyâs worn off a bit, huh?â
âI prefer it that way.â He gave a short, self-deprecating huff, âI can function around you now.â
***
Luke knew John had been hiding something for weeks, if not months. And each time he cast his mind back to trace the source, the one thing that kept coming up was that Gala and Gym Girl being the surprise caterer â probably one or two days before John had shaken his head rather despondently after Luke had asked if sheâd said yes yet. After that night (each and every time Luke looked over their way, they were both completely enamoured with each other, ignorant to anyone else passing by at that moment in time), John had changed.
Whether it was just how generally happy heâd been lately, even without saying it; whether it was his sudden attachment to his phone; whether it was keeping an overnight bag in his car â it didnât take a genius to figure out something was up, Luke felt he was proof enough of that. But what he wasnât quite sure of, was if anyone else had noticed the slight change in the older Defenceman.
John was a quiet type, Luke could happily yap to him and heâd nod along and ask questions when it was appropriate to, but he wasnât entirely sure if he was like that with just him, or if it was just a John-thing.
Yet, here they all were â the team, families, friendsâŠJohn. With a girl. The girl: Gym Girl.
And because Luke had spent so much time with him, he knew that John wouldnât bring someone to these kinds of events if it wasnât serious. Itâd have probably been serious for a while and just kept quiet to let them both figure things out between them â Luke understood that.
In fact, it was Jackâs innocently curious question that made Luke feel a little bit more smug than he probably should have.
âWhoâs that Johnâs with?â
Luke glanced over at the pair once more: John with a sweet smile on his face that heâd never seen directed at anyone else ever before; his girlfriend with a cast on her wrist skating like a baby giraffe, John holding onto her pretty tightly as she wobbled on her blades.
It was a cute sight, Luke could admit that.Â
âHis girlfriend.â He replied, fighting a smile when Jackâs head snapped in his direction, shock dripping from every feature.
âHis what?â
âGirlfriend.â Luke grinned this time, âYâknow, his romantic partââ
âI know what a girlfriend is, you little shit.â Jack sighed, âWhen did that happen?â
Luke shrugged, âA while back, I think.â
Neither of the brothers said anything, but Luke was wondering if anyone else had had the same conversation within the last twenty minutes. Nico was talking to Timo, Curtis was hanging around with some of the media people â had they all asked the same questions, or did they already know?
âIf you could pick someone on our team to get married and not tell us until theyâve got kids, who wouââ
âJohn.â Luke interrupted Jack, the both of them sharing a knowing smile.
#john marino x reader#john marino fic#john marino imagine#john marino oneshot#hockey fic#nhl fic#hockey player x reader#nhl oneshot#nhl imagine
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Mera! I'm not sure if youve done this before but who are the winners and losers(and their tap out times) for no nut November??
Winners
⧠Riddle - the rule is to last the entire month without cumming; you know he's going to take it way too seriously.
⧠Jack - something something Ace and Deuce (losers) tease him about being easy, and he has his pride as a wolf and he always brings his all to competitions so,,,, he will ultimately win.
⧠Ruggie - if you bet money or food on him losing, he's going to win just to make sure he gets that from you. He is very serious and dedicated.
⧠Jamil - unfortunately, he only wins because he's too busy. </3 rip Jamil. You'll have all of December to make up for what you lost.
⧠Rook - no one knows how or why he does it, but because Rook was in the mood to see how he would fare in NNN he ends up winning somehow. He is so bewildering. Epel wants to know his secret.
⧠Azul - he would've gone in the loser category, but something tells me Azul is another type who is too busy to bother with NNN. And so he'll win solely because his mind is on other things (academics, Mostro Lounge, contracts, money, etc).
⧠Silver - he wasn't even trying to win. He just can't stay awake long enough to deal with his arousal. :(
⧠Sebek - miraculously, Sebek survives the entire month, but that's only because he treated the entire thing like it was a form of training. Also, he couldn't let Silver win all of the glory!! >:(
Losers
⧠Deuce - he lost the first day because he forgot what month it was and by the time he remembered it was NNN he had literally just came in his hand. T_T better luck next year.
⧠Ace - genuinely tries to do better than Deuce so he isn't teased for having a weak dick, but he folds like a week or so in.
⧠Cater - he is not winning NNN. </3 I think he can last at least half of the month if he isn't spending his time scrolling through risqué content.
⧠Trey - he's too stressed playing big brother to the underclassmen and making sure Riddle isn't overdoing it with the beheadings to pay attention to NNN. Stress relief is one of the few things he looks forward to when he has free time and isn't using it to do other hobbies. But also,,, he doesn't care as much for NNN as others might.
⧠Leona - another one who doesn't really care about NNN. He's a few days in when he loses, but he's not even participating.
⧠Floyd - lost right at midnight LOL. Not that he had any plans to genuinely try. Bragging rights isn't a good enough reward. Why is he going to suffer through a hard-on just for something as measly as bragging rights? :/
⧠Jade - you'd think he'd win because he's Jade, but it's precisely because he's Jade that he loses. He'll push himself to see just how far he can go and how many days he can last. While everyone else plays normal NNN, he is playing X-games mode. This eel is going out of his way to purposely get aroused just so he can edge himself throughout the month. Ultimately, once he's had his fill of fun and sated his curiosity, he'll handle his business. <3
⧠Kalim - he forgot NNN was a thing for a moment. He's the type to be like "Oops, I forgot about that! Can we pretend those four didn't count? Let me start over!" T_T he probably lost three days in.
⧠Vil - he is not going to deny his body what it needs all for a silly challenge. Firstly, masturbation can be healthy for the mind and body. Secondly, there's really nothing substantial to gain from a challenge like that. Vil sees no point in it.
⧠Epel - this means everything to Epel. It's to test his restraint as a man! To prove to himself that he isn't going to fold so easily! To show that he has what it takes to be strong! (He loses at the end of the first week. He really was trying his best...)
⧠Idia - no chance he is winning. He'll give it his best effort if he's feeling it, but it's impossible to resist the temptation when he's watching hentai. He either taps out in the very beginning or somewhere in the middle of the month.
⧠Malleus - he doesn't even know what NNN is, but based on these rules he lost towards the end of the month. In his defense, the horny nature of a dragon far surpasses that of the pride gained from winning NNN.
⧠Lilia - he goes on and on about how he may be old, but he's far from impotent. Thus, he will prove just how impressive his restraint is. After all, back in his day, it was impossible to find the privacy to get a good wank in when sleeping outside in inclement weather conditions. But perhaps that will serve him well now as he proceeds to win this NNN without trouble! ...he loses in just five days.
⧠Rollo - he is above these foolish, filthy challenges. Or so he claimed, but suddenly your undergarment is wrapped around his dick on the last day of November. He is strong, but lust is stronger.
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I am eating up your monster!au. Question: are the octotrio trying for a poly/share the mc situation or are they each hoping to be the sole winner of affections?
This is actually a thing iâve never thought about?? But for the most part itâs something I probably should call attention to (àčËáŽË)ï». This ask has made me think about it, and I think each group and its members for the most part, want you individually? If they had the opportunity to have you for themselves I think everyone would prefer it, buuut, if arrangements had to be made for a poly relationship with you, this groups would be more inclined.
In order from least willing to most willing: Octavinelle, Heartslaybul. Pomefiore, and Diasmonia.
Theyâre the groups I think could share properly. Though some issues do arise. Octavinelle, Is barely at the requirements, as Floyd and Jade are somehow willing to share, and not at all willing at the same time somehow?? While Azul only agrees because if he didnât, he would have to worry about giant sea serpents trying to eat him at every chance. Heartslaybul, Trey and Cater are okay with it, Riddle is middle ground, And Ace & Deuce are a bit selfish and wanna have you to themselves. They agree, but they try to eat up most of your time. Pomefiore, their only issue is Epel, Rook and Vil are fine with the arrangement. Diasmonia is the only one whoâs whole group is neutral about the arrangment.
Everyone else is in competition with eachother for your number one đ.
Like I said though, if they have the opportunity for you all to themselves, theyâre taking it.
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