#Since You're Gone

[mirrorworld12]

Here , you go again

Falling and never hitting the ground

Waiting for the hands or perhaps,

the wind to carry you to a better place.

Do you hear the voices again?

I wish this time, the voices sing

the never ending song

made of heartbeats you loved so deeply.

I hope all the hurt you carry

becomes the wings

and rather than fall you land

softly

like a dream .

[rastronomicals]

8:48 PM EST December 10, 2023:

The Cars - "Since You're Gone" From the album Shake It Up (November 6, 1981)

Last song scrobbled from iTunes at Last.fm

File under: New Wave

[khaopybara]

❝Oh, hey. The grilled pork is pretty good. Where did you buy it?❞

FIRST KANAPHAN as KANT PATTANAWAT, KHAOTUNG THANAWAT as BISON and KENJI KANTHEE as BABE episode 6 of THE HEART KILLERS

[acoraxia]

huge fan of aus that perma kill macaque. do tou think ur gonna do that

i literally nuked him in my new aus because him being alive isn’t that important to the plot

[oh-hush-its-perfect]

MARINA, BABY!

I guess I've been in a redrawing mood as of late. No original ideas lol. Also I spent about 30 minutes trying to track down the reference I used and I can't find it, so DM me if you'd like to see it.

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[maythedreadwolftakeyou]

After Bellara's personal quest, she mentions she's reading Cyrian's "death letter", saying they're something Veil Jumpers keep since they're working in such a dangerous area surrounded by wild magic. Which makes me wonder if Rook Aldwir kept up the habit after leaving to travel with Varric... they're still in such dangerous circumstances I think they must have. Maybe told Bellara where in their room they kept it tucked away just in case. I wonder how long Bellara (if not chosen for the mirror) sat with that knowledge after Rook gets dragged into the Fade... after the first few days would she go read it herself? Would she leave it and just keep hoping that it wouldn't be relevant, that they'd get her back? Would she get it, and pass it along to Rook's LI (if other than herself)? fantastic angst potential there

[useless-catalanfacts]

Btw if you come on holidays and stay at an AirBnb instead of an actual registered hotel I hate you personally. Not "I hate the gentrification and touristic massification and the way we can't live in our homes and are forced to move away because of tourism" in an abstract way- No, not just that. I hate you.

[wimpy-imp]

I remember many times when my grandmother would make off hand remarks about how testosterone would make me look like a joke. that it would be funny and unnatural for someone like me to have a beard.

before that i remember my mother outing me to my grandparents without my knowledge or consent. and then having to sit with both of them on different occasions for a year while they tried to tell me i was just a masculine woman. One where they thought it was okay to ask if I'd get pregnant if a potential partner "really really wanted it 🥺" (Which. sidenote. what the actual fuck??)

i remember the day after one of those conversations my mother took me into town for a "suprise" from my grandma. and they tried to make me get my ears pierced. even when i said i didn't want to. the only reason they stopped was because i had an autistic shutdown in public and they were too embarrassed to keep trying to force me into it. That happened 2 years ago. i have very real trauma from that day.

They never cared about my gender nonconformity until i came out.

They still seem to believe that I'd only be a man if i actually secretly hated myself.

[thankstothe]

[lil-gae-disaster]

So. How exactly is Jonathan doing during the spy mission? I really need a nickname for him

He's not doing too great! :D

He's missing Freddie a lot, plus at the same time he's kinda glad Freddie ls away so that he could consider a response to an inevitable rejection. Which is kinda freaking his tentmates out since he's muttering to himself.

He's also very lonely, so he might start socializing after putting it off for very long since he didn't need to, in his opinion (Jonathan tends to keep his social circles rather small out of paranoia he might accidentally be neglecting the friendship with one of them)

He also lost his (signature) braid since he doesn't wanna bother people ("You're just wasting my wifes time with your senseless requests, boy!")

He's also starting to recieve letters from Annabelle and his father again, talking about how irresponsible his running away was (they finally managed to locate him to sent him berate-letters) so there's that....

Honestly I think he'd start getting closer to either Cathy or Giles, or trying to get closer, and just whining about everything that's been going on. After they left that awkward stage of "what should I say...?"

I mean the three could certainly bond over awful fathers.

He's also shivering a lot since mah boy was living in a hot blacksmith for the past years and he had his (high quality) cloak (which he stole from his father when he ran away btw) which he gave Freddie because "you can't die on my due to hypothermia" so he might start asking around if anyone has a spare and he also starts to wear his coat more often than in the other seasons

All in all he has very much a self doubt era where he's constantly overthinking if Freddie would follow Hammy and commit treason and stay with the rebels or if Freddie hates him now of if Freddie might not want to at least be his friend anymore and-

Plus he's starting to have a lot of regrets. Most of them aren't justified though.

Like, it was completely reasonable to leave before he trapped Annabelle in an unhappy marriage and it was also completely reasonable to leave a letter of explanation and it was also completely reasonable to kiss and confess to Freddie

But Jonathan doesn't know that

So he's just kinda drowning in self doubt and spiraling thoughts without an anchor to hold onto because he didn't even talk properly with other soldiers because "why should he? Freddie will always be with me and he's the only one who needs to know me" (bro is lowkey scared of forming new relationships - even when platonic)

Well

Now Freddie isn't here and Jonathan is hanging on by a thread.

(Meanwhile Freddie and Joseph are about to start strangling each other before the argument™️)

[ @hamalicious-soup @papers-pamphlet @marsfingershurt @paradox-complex @half-eaten-baguetteee ]

[holograph-skullz]

Gonna chew this guy like taffy

[mirrorworld12]

Sometimes we all become gushing wounds in the hearts of people we love and if it is not the ugliest part of love that we think is so predictable turns into a maze where no matter how much we run we don't find a way out then what it is ?

Is it the letters burnt in a bin or throwing away all the things that remind you of people ? Typical as said by many others.

So many quotes , jokes, paragraphs and books and none of us feels the same like other but still we hang on the words said by others and built a home out of words with our own way to love and when things wrong we keep looking for the answers in the ruins of words written by someone else for someone else and the way they loved.

Somedays we are the golden light that shines through people , but how much is it worth to have that , to hold someone , to know someone as if they are part of you ?

Ayana

[rastronomicals]

4:44 PM EST November 9, 2023:

The Cars - "Since You're Gone" From the album Shake It Up (November 6, 1981)

Last song scrobbled from iTunes at Last.fm

File under: New Wave

[kaikamahine]

.

[klanced]

Keith walking into the holding cell greeting all the regulars by name while Lance is sobbing lamenting that his life is over and his future is ruined (they were like. Trespassing or some shit he’s going to be fine)

lance: (actively dry heaving in the corner, on the verge of a panic attack as he imagines having a permanent record)(actually what does a permanent record even look like?)(omg is he going to have to go to COURT? like in JUDGE JUDY?)

keith: remy, this is lance. lance, this is remy, she’s my favorite alcoholic :)

[vaguely-concerned]

returnal did not cure my depression but it did give me a strangely healing new perspective that makes it all a bit easier to bear. that perspective being 'I may be having a rough time right now, but at least I'm not inside the head of returnal protagonist selene vassos'