#SOBS THEYRE SO IN LOVE 💔💔💔

[arniewashere]

AHHHHHHHHH

“Would fall in love with me again if you knew all I’ve done?”

[alexandrafxx]

authors notes: sorry it’s taken so long for me to get this out, ive been busy with my tennis schedule. ill try to get to my inbox either tn or tmrw!! ily all 💗

theacademy

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theacademy Y/n Y/l/n takes home the Oscar for Best Supporting Actress for her role in Quentin Tarantino’s ‘Once Upon a Time in Hollywood’

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user12 she’s an angel

username99 her acceptance speech brought me to tears 😭

user03 the way nicholas looked at her as she was on stage tho omg

user35 y/n deserves all the awards

theacademy @user35 we agree 🥹

florencepugh the best winner 🤍

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user09 she looks so good omg

username27 GUYS NICHOLAS WAS THERE

user89 she’s his gf ofc he’s there lol

yourusername

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yourusername grateful beyond belief to have been able to stand on that stage and accept this award.

id like to send thanks to my family and friends for showing me nothing but support, i love you all! id also like to give my deepest gratitudes to Quentin for allowing me this opportunity.

lastly, nicholas, you’ve been my rock through long nights - reminding why i love this industry. i’m only where i am today because of your love and care and i cannot wait until it’ll be my turn watching you on that stage.

this award is mine as much as it is all of yours. i love you all! 💗💗

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bellahadid forever proud of you 😘🦋

username21 STOP im sobbing

user99 the most genuine and real celeb in a WHILE

username34 can they just get married alr????

nicholasalexanderchavez I love you more than you’ll ever know! 💗 so very proud of you, my winner 🏆

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user81 she deserves this so much

username23 i literally screamed when they announced her name

user88 were in the era of y/n

user56 MOTHER IS MOTHERING

bestfriendsuser she’s a ⭐️

yourusername im flying you out here RN

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nicholasalexanderchavez winner winner chicken dinner 🍗

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user23 i love how the majority of their posts is just each other now

username89 HOW DOES IT FEEK TO LIVE MY DREAM??!😭

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user67 im never gonna stop talking abt this

user45 THEYRE SO PERFECT KMG

username00 i want what they have

user39 when am i gonna find a man like nicholas 😔

username92 that’s my wife

nicholasalexanderchavez 👎

username92 HELP OMG ILY

user68 when’s the wedding??????

user01 hopefully never

user67 girl bye he don’t even know who you are

bestfriendsuser fiyeeee 🔥

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[rayroseu]

They're releasing merch for TWST Halloween !! OH MY GOODNESSS NEW CARDS⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ NEW CARDSSSS‼️‼️‼️🥺🥺💕💕💕💕💕💕

source also diasomnia zoom ins ahead lol

MALLEUS AND SEBEK FANGS OHHHHOSJDKWJDKW🥰🥰🥰💕💕💕💖💖💖💖💖💖

AND LOOK AT HOW PRECIOUS MALLEUS' SMILE??? I CANT FIND THE FULL ILLUST YET-- BUT OH MY HEART??? HES SO ADORABLE 🥺💕💕💕💕 the world is healing you guys, the diasomnia family is happy again ✨✨ (also i never noticed that pink candy(?) on lilias hairrr such a cute detail as welll💖🍬)

im sobbing so much for the first picture,,,,,oh what a painful contrast to what is unfolding at book 7 right now but we be delulu rn and be assured theyre in their silly time again 😭💕💕💔💔

AND PLEASEEE SILVER REACHING OUT HIS HAND TO US???? AND LILIA WAVING TO US TOO ALL OF THESE CARDS ARE SO CUTE HELP SKKDKS💖🥲💕✨

others have already posted these but i know these are halloween nuis??? PELASEEE DOES MALLEUS HALLOWEEN NUI HAVE HIS DRAGON TAIL DOES IT HAVE HIS DRAGON TAIL DOESIT---⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️😭😭😭😳😳💕💕🙏🙏

i love how Grim/Ramshackle is leading the group!!! And, Heartshackle wins again 🥰🥰💖♥️🌹♠️♦️♣️🐈‍⬛🦐‼️‼️

[rottingmelancholycake]

Introduction!

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[[[ Heya! I'm Mars, (They/them prns please) and I got struck with the Dandy's world brainrot, so here I am with a blog for my favorite toon Cosmo!! Except he's twisted and sad of course. ]]]

HEY UM I'M A MINOR. Don't be weird around me.

This is also my first time making a blog/using tumblr in general! Please be patient towards me :]

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DNI: Pedophiles, Zoophiles, homophobes 18+ suggestive etc. Don't be a NSFW blog either. basically, don't be a weirdo. ASKS:

ASKS ARE USALLY ALWAYS OPEN.

I'll post something when they close or when their back open!

You can ask these!:

SPECIFIC LORE RELATED QUESTIONS. If they get too lore things, i'll throw a devious /ooc and cackle /lh

You can ask to interract with Cosmo, like give him hugs, sweets, heavy objects he may not like all of it though.

Feel free to curse Cosmo with anything, i'll set a curse limit for 20 asks maximum. (For example, you can curse Cosmo to make him only speak backwards lol. Go wild! M!a s are really cool too...

When Cosmo does a action, his text would start out with [🖤🍰]

Ask me, Mars!! My text will be in this green colour :] (NO NSFW ASKS WITH ME NEITHER OR WEIRD STUFF AND ESPIALLY DONT SHIP ME WITH NOX EW. )

Please don't ask these:

ANY NSFW OR SUGGESTIVE THINGS. Big no.

Please no romantic things. You can ask Cosmo to give you a hug (Maybe) but no more then that.

THIS IS TEMPORARY!! But please no roleplays with Cosmo yet. The only account i'll be roleplaying with for now is @melancholichugs. I'll be sure to notice ya'll if things would change though!

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I DO NOT SUPPORT ANY OF THE PAST CO-DEV OF DANDY'S WORLD (aka Rox's) ACTIONS.

This blog won't have much ship stuff going on really, but it does have implied fruitcake (Sprout x Cosmo!!) You won't be seeing like much sprout AT ALL though so. Feel free to ask Cosmo about Sprout (or any other toons really)

ABSOUTELY DO NOT SHIP MY COSMO AND @melancholichugs's GOOB TOGETHER. They see eachother as CLOSE FRIENDS. (Platonic, even!!)

A FEW WARNINGS. This blog will include:

Lots of gore

Character death (?)

Cannabalisim

Se!f H34M

I will of course give warnings to these! Please proceed with caution...

OF COURSE I would love to thank my lovely friend and QPP Nox (Aka @melancholichugs owner for deciding to make a duo blog with me... I will do lots of art for their blog and in exchange theyre gonna do lots of writing for mine! Were a power duo fr.... 💚

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HASHTAGS:

#🖤🍰- The Ex-Baker snarls. (Cosmo responds to basic asks!) ||

#🩹🍰 - Cosmo explores. (Normal posts) ||

# ❤🍩- Confused Gargling. (Cosmo interracts with other blogs!) ||

# 💙🍰- Joy with the hugger. (Cosmo interracts/mentions @melancholichugs's Goob!) ||

#💔🍓🍰- Pained sobbing. (Cosmo interracts/mentions Sprout.) ||

# ‼🍪 - Confused screeching. (Cosmo interracts with normal toons.) ||

#💔🤎🎂 - TEAR MY HEART OUT. LET IT BLEED. (Cosmo remembers past events. This is also the lore tag!) ||

#🤎🍰 - Rotting Cake. (Cosmo..GETS CURSED??) ||

#💔‼ - Despair and screaming. (This is the tag for the trigger warnings above.) ||

#💚��� - The planetary gremlin yaps (Mars speaks!) ||

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EXTRA STUFF

(TW FOR ICHOR)

But yeah heres Cosmo's design!!! silly..

FEEL FREE TO DRAW HIM!! I love fanart..

Welp..Thats basically all! Hope ya'll enjoy fellas :]

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[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

@softgirlgonehaywire @staryukis @dollsuguru

“If you want to kill me, kill me. There’s meaning in that too.”

[rusty-gloinks]

MURDER DRONES EPISODE 5 : Random details and favorite parts of this episode

Will be putting major spoilers under cuts if anyone has NOT seen the new episode, or has yet to see it. CW/TW: Blood, body horror, murdery stuff! SPOILERS!! AHHH!!! You get the point. I am not responsible for your actions :3

(This post is a mix of different things btw, Md related tho)

None of this will be in order, and I might need to make a PART TWO!!! Since the total is 45 images. :’)

FIRST UP. I would like to take the time to appreciate doll so have some LOVELY LITTLE images of her I took.

She looks so fucking awesome???? Like holy shit. She slayed!!!!!

not to be fruity .but. yea

SHE. also Isn’t that the campsite? Or just a different location with the same appearance.

OKAY. Next up. BABYGIRL . I SQUEALED AT LIKE EVERY SCENE OF THEM SHES SO FUCKING CUTE. MAN😭

BLEEEEEH (I’m going to make this my icon soonthat was the purpose of the screenshot. Also because I love them)

World is mine by Hatsune mi- cyn. World is mine by cyn. The famous vocaloid /j (HSES 😭😭😭😭)

Noticing how her balance is SOOO Much better while holding someone?. Also MOOD .just like me .real 💔

i lov e you🥺EEEK /p. Shes melting

MY SIB AND I WERE FUCKIJG DYING OVER THE PUPPY EYES.LMAO. I love their humor

J* , and they locked her in the basement. I am so SAD about this information

PROTECTIVE BIG BRO MODE…babys

Okay, listen, i know these 2 got shipped before the release but OUCH this makes things so much weirder!!! eugh:( (mainly saw em as friends.tttotallt not becsuse I project my friendship with my silly mutual onto them.no. /sarc)

anyways forget them being friends as my headcanon. THEYRE FUCKING SIBLINGS EVEN BETTER!!! (prjdedcts me and my elder sib onto th— *gets killed /j*

GAY RIGHTS(After the 2nd watch i realized she was making them kiss each other and I started laughing so hard my sides hurt)

Okay glitch QUIT SHOWING OFF. god damn !!!!! Literally appreciating this scenery so hard. 10000/10. :3

YKNOW HW I WANTED TO SEE TEARS IN THE NEW EPISODE!! LOOK. KIND OF CLOSE!!

LOOK HES SOBBING!!!! ALMOST. I GOT WHAT I WANTED OMFG!!!!! YAYYA!!!! (Love it when ppl cry /j

Lovely little lad. Reading abt dogs:) so cute…

subtle hints of favoritism..👀(she obvs likes J more I think,)

I love how immediately i could tell this was drawn by Liam. Canonically J in the show but like his style is so adorable and bouncy!!!! AND LIKE yummyys:3 eated

Cute detail in Uzi’s room. SHE LIKES BABY COWS GUYS. ITS TIME TO MAKE FANART OF UZI WITH BABY COWS. /J

Blushys:)!

For those wondering what this is it’s basically a ripoff of YouTube. The caption is titled "Top 100 Doors ever!!11!" and then the views at the bottom 😭😭. KHAN AND HIS FUCKING DOORS GOD DAMNIT

This part scared the shit out of me i was literally about to cry. I THIUGHTT SHE KILLED HIM

I had to slow this down and repeat the same clip OVER AND OVER Just to get it right, apparently the solver can swap roles? (The order is supposed to be yellow then purple since Uzi takes over as an admin instead of CYN.) very cool.

STP FIGHTING D:

BOTH VRY SCARY :(

Better glimpse of her backpack. Cute little skullbat zipper!! Also batteries. 👍

Apparently DEAD BATTERIES, aka the logo on Uzi’s sweater could be a possible band? Or reference to a band I don’t know? Like how they have my chemical robots (or something like that) as a ref to the band MCR (romance).

Sigh., N was that you.

Conlang? Fictional language? Glyphs? I’m assuming it’s VERY important (since liam lovessss foreshadowing, i will further elaborate). Hoping there will be ways to "simplify" it to english!

Yknow how in episode 2 Uzi takes braidens sentience or sumn like dat. Yea 💀

Alright I’ve hit the limit, gonna rb again with part 2!!!!! Soon. Maybe

[delphientropy]

i am thankful so much for my boyfriend. ive been getting such awful imposter syndrome lately and god i love him so much hes the best at reassuring me

"were ___ and ___ even real...?"

"i sure hope theyre real. they felt real. they all did. they all acted different from you"

stop making me SOB in a GOOD WAY im gonna GET YOU/dir

hes so sweet. hes so patient with me god hes so perfect i love him so much i want to cuddle up to him and fall asleep in his arms rn 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 but he is cursed with FAR AWAY

[the-snowfall]

oughhuofhh *violent sobbing* <-still not over the juanaflippa days

SHE LOVED THEM TOO💔💔 AS TERRIBLE AS THEY WERE SHE LOVED THEM SO SO MCUH BECAUSE SHE KNEW HOW HARD THEY WERE CONSTANTLY TRYING FOR HER

There's just. something about this little girl who's first day is spent being ignored because your caretakers are already getting fucking divorced and any other time its them putting your life at risk <//3 They make the shittiest cave room because both of them cant build for shit and tell you its your new home.

They still let you decide your name, even if you can't properly talk yet.

By the time you see one of your parents again you've already lost a life because of their absence. Still, your father measily fights off the approaching monsters for you. He accomodates for your needs and lets you eat first, even though he's starving too.

Your first toy is a gun. Your first proper time spent with your dad is watching him make a pact with the devil. What is it like to witness someone unable to afford the bare minimum? What is it like knowing that the reason he is putting himself in these situations is because of you?

Your first toy is a gun because your father can only measily defend you. Your first murder was in the middle of a lullaby inside your burning home - except it's not as serious as it sounds. Your father's lullaby is an improvised rap, dedicated to you. You are dancing and jumping around, the glowing embers dont hurt either you or him and only bring more light into your tiny, tiny room that slowly starts to feel more like a home.

The next time your parents reunite they argue again.

It's weird how they bring out the worst of each other. You spend your rare few times with your mother and you understand that she loves you too. He makes you cake, you go fishing together and she gives you armor and a chainsaw as a gift for Easter. You go to sleep soundly that night because your mother is right there with you in your room.

The next time you wake up, it's to their happy tears and warm embraces because they missed you too.

.

You know your parents are good- even if theyre not. They're good because they are trying to be and you get to be the center stage, witnessing all of it.

So you watch as your father kills your best friend

and you see the swinging blade belonging to your mother approaching you,

you love them anyway.

[javierduffy]

IH Y MY HOF

℧ Suna No Hoshi (Stars of Sand) ✴︎

The guys ever fishing together !!! with both a version of the blockbench default plains background and a transparent version so you can both see em easier and put them places :3 all credit for the designs goes to the lovely @javierduffy !!! check em out !! notes, details, and extra bonuses all under the cut !!

Here is Kieran on his own bc the above lil scene includes them both and I haven't showcased kieran by himself !! !!!! i tried to keep his pallete a little colder than javiers bc i think hot and cold palletes contrast rlly well but idk how well i achieved that goal >.<

Keiran's face without the hair bc he's cute :3 (this is from before i decided i wanted to make him just a pinch less pale)

This bow was originally smaller but i think i remember javierduffy mentioning that he has quite big bows so i made it bigger !! :D and also cus its cuter and more fun like this to me :3

his hair was quit tricky to recreate but thx to this lovely art i had a great reference image to base the shape on !! :3

close up of his boots bc once again its always the footwear that gives me issues when modelling even more than what hair does >_<

also additional note !! the title of this post is a lovely little song from the trigun soundtrack. its a series i adore and i love the song and thought it would be fitting for these two goobers, i defo reccomend listening to it !! other title related note: i thought it was cute to use the lil blue symbol as a horseshoe to represent Kieran (wanted an upisde down one cus,, hes unlucky but that would just be the omega symbol >.<) and the orange symbol is a star that reminded me alot of javier's specific spur shape !! which i thought was like a cute detail to have so i used it :3 silly bonus scenes aka me playing with them like dolls: this is purely to show their height difference which i based off this post

i dont have many models made rn so ive not really gotten a chance to pose characters together before this so omg this is so fun-

i call this one "wdym kieran got taken by o'driscolls the night of jack's party??? he's right here sleeping off the alcohol with javier watching out for him!"

[shiftyyyy]

@ch33s3yp00fz APPRECIATION POST BECAUSE I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE AAGGHHHH

AAAUGG UGHGGHHHH **UGLY SOBBING** LQSCNLNADVSCNFNAFNLAFNLAFJLAJFNVP SLCN 💥💥💔💔💔❤️❤️😭😭❤️❤️❤️💥💥💥💥 I CANNOT GET OVER THIS OMFMFGGHGHF THIS HAS ME SMILING SO MUCHOOUGGHH THANK YOU SO MUCH?!?!?!?!

OFOGHO GUYS I LITERALLY LOVE THIS MOOTIE SO MUCH THEYRE SO EPIC AND COOL AND NICE AND THEIR OCS ARE SO FRICKIGN COOL PLEASE GO LOOK AT THEM AND ALL THEIR OTHER ART RRHGGASDHADH I WANT TO CRUSH THIS OOFMIE AND THROW THEYM AT THE WALL/VPOS THIS OOMFIE IS THE NUMBER ONE FAN OF OREN X RADDY SO WATCH OUT!!!!! 😱😱😱 IM GOONG TO BITE THIS MUTUAL IM PULLING OUT ALL MY HAIR OH MY GOD IM GOING. TO EXPLODE AAAAA💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

IM VERY UNNORMAL FOR YOU OOFMIE UR SO COOL PLEASE DONT GET EATEN BY 17 PREGNANT HYENAS YOU OH MY GOODNESS IM GONNA CATCH YOU CHEESEY. CHEESEY WHEN I CATCH YOU CHEESEY CHEESEY WHEN I CATCH YOU CHEESEY CHEESEY WHEN I CARCH YOU CHEESEY CHEESEh WHE n I

CHEESEY

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[dustcrumbs]

Because I love dust so much he has insane amounts of trauma and daddy issues.

Basically.

Dusts mom lived in South Korea and his dad lived in America and was visiting South Korea for some nerdy scientist shit idk anyway theyre we’re both scientists blah blah they fell in love and his mom moved to America to have dust uh shit was pretty good until it wasn’t because I am a bitch. His mom died during childbirth but whatever papy was still alive so single dad taking care of newborn baby and this 5 year old or whatever.

Long story short there dad almost lost his job and went mad because of the whole like oh no his wife died and now he’s even more stressed and alone than he was before.

Honestly it’s just the timeline of abuse because he envies dust in a way because dust reminds mr. Dad guy over here. He didn’t have the best childhood with a lot of like rejection and being ignore idk something like that and dust is honestly just like him. He’s super into science and even looks like him except dust has a loving brother and is genuinely content with life for a while. It’s not really enough though, as Papy was basically favorited because Dad didn’t like seeing this younger version of himself and liked the child that resembled his wife the most which is kinda fucked up but mwahaha.

He fucks something up really REALLY and loses his job and his whole science license or something of the sorts so he resorts to like making drugs and doing other illegal shit for people to make himself a living because nobody will hire him after his cute little criminal record and last job experience.

Killer does tie into some of this bit of Dust’s past but shhh this isn’t about him.

Anyway, dust is like ‘hey, I should help my dad out and get us some money’ and he also resorts to doing illegal shit because he doesn’t have time to get a job because he has to watch papyrus and make him meals and shit because dad is too busy and he’s like failing all his classes. Basically he just steals money from this gang (wow I wonder who’s) and uses that to try and help out.

Finally dust snapped under all of the pressure from taking care of his brother and scrounging up money while trying not to get caught and doing school and just oh god it was too much. Not even including the abuse he endured from his father. Either way he pulled a gun on him and was about to like pew pew him until papy got in the way and dust ended up killing two people with one bullet womp womp oh well

Then dust was arrested and thrown in the rubber room with the rats who made him crazy then he ended up breaking out of the mental asylum and is living off of whatever money he could find from where he where he had been hiding it and then basically he shows up at horrors place

sorry this feels so terrible and poorly written I am sick and dying I hope you get the jist wails

I do get the jist dw dw

I was smiling as I started reading and quickly frowned with each word. I am now going to sob in my hands as I curl up..

But god DAMN. He can't catch a break.. Losing ur mom and BASICALLY your dad, since he changed after her death, isn't fun. 😕

The stress of taking care of someone when you are also still a child is just terrible. Especially if you are struggling to get yourself together as well. ANDHHRBSJ THATS NOT FUN AT ALL AND WITH SCHOOL BEING A DICK?? 💔💔

And woah, I totally hope that gang doesn't threaten his life or someone he adores anytime soon! That would be TERRIBLE!! Phew, thank Asgore that it won't be happening at all..

But at least he did find Horrors coffee shop, lil comfort place (hopefully) for him

[sickficideas]

Spare fyolai and ranpoe HCs🤲

okay i can't promise this will be in character because i don't consume much fyolai content but i will try my best 🙏 also i assume ur asking for sickfic hcs if you meant something else pls correct me !! (also sorry this took so long omg)

also fyolai gets like a little nsfw bc theyre freaky like that 💖

ranpoe

- ranpo has never been Really sick a day in his life just out of sheer luck I'd imagine but those eating habits of his have to get him some solid stomachaches. and he is definitely complaining about it!!!

- he is asking (demanding) poe to rub his tummy when he doesn't feel good. poe is a good man and obliges every time. it always makes ranpo fall asleep 💖

- but he gets really bad food poisoning one day and ends the day like sobbing in poe's arms because he's so overwhelmed. the nausea, the actual act of throwing up, the cramping/soreness, burning in his throat, the headache from the dehydration is too much. poe is very sad about him being so upset and almost cries with him💔💔💔

- poe coming in clutch w the sweet factor though. "are you feeling alright dear?" "sweetheart, tell me where it hurts." "i need you to drink some water for me, my love."

- poe with the forehead kisses 😭😭😭💖 ranpo secretly loves them

- poe looks like a sickly man to me but i think he looks after his health very well...he has a personal doctor that regularly checks on him </3

- ranpo puts the pieces together quick but never says anything because he doesn't know if it's his place. he always has yosano on speed dial if he thinks something is wrong with poe however

- poe gets quiet when he's not feeling well but he always quietly seeks out ranpo's affection. he wants to hold hands and cuddle

- ranpo will always help him

fyolai

- nikolai is a dedicated emetophile for sure. making himself sick on purpose...he definitely likes puking. being sweaty and sore and being loud about it. fyodor thinks it's hot to watch.

- (thinking abt that official art) nikolai will also involve fyodor by force feeding him sweet things until he's nauseous and drooling

- nikolai is always the first to offer to stick his fingers down fyodor's throat if he mentions his stomach being sick

- fyodor canonically has anemia right LOL?? or is that a fandom delusion...lol regardless he does to me. he is elegantly fainting all the time. i bet he has a fancy fainting couch. i like the imagery of nikolai taking his arm when he stands up to prevent him from getting too dizzy from standing up too fast

- nikolai def likes seeing fyodor ill tho. sweat, drool, glassy eyes. fyodor catches him staring and says things like "take a picture, it lasts longer".

- nikolai watches him sleep and plays with his hair

- nikolai absolutely wants to be comforted if he doesn't feel good against his will though💖

[lucygraysboy]

it’s now or never, billy tells himself, rolling onto his side as his forearms begin to go numb. he either cuts all ties to his past and lucy gray now or she’ll keep coming back, doing what she’s done earlier today, bombarding his phone with strange messages that feel more like invisible knives, cutting into his heart, haunting him. he can’t say what’s possessed him to type all those cold, cruel words when he could have just blocked her number, but there’s no taking them back now, not when she’s already viewed them. awaiting her response, he contemplates his choices and can’t say that he’s proud of them, but once again reassures himself that it had to be done. she doesn’t want him. she’s been playing mind games with him, giving him nothing but mixed signals basically ever since they both hit puberty. he can’t be hung up on her, waste away his life because she’s not done messing with his heart just yet. and so he doesn’t think about the consequences of his actions, about how his texts might affect his childhood sweetheart the other, because he won’t be there to pick up the pieces of her broken heart or witness the aftermath first-hand. 

when his phone lights up again, he presses play almost automatically. it’s like ripping off the band-aid. he knows there’s nothing pleasant awaiting him, quite the opposite, but postponing this moment won’t make it hurt any less. tears well up in his pale blue eyes the second lucy gray’s voice fills the air, part of him feeling like she’s right beside him or talking to him from the other room, his chest constricting violently. he’s dead to her. good. but then why doesn’t it feel good? isn’t this what he’s wanted this whole time? as more words keep pouring out, he realizes that he’s not the only one crying, that she sounds so different because she must be fighting back tears. it hits him at once, all the memories of her bambi eyes, so big and innocent, glistening with sadness. when she begins to belittle her looks, he sits up and cradles his head in his hands, fingers sinking into his dark curls, pulling, tugging until his scalp’s gone numb. none of this is true. not a single word. he wants to scream and cry and get on the first plane back home just to beg her for forgiveness, but… he can’t turn back now. he’s made his bed, now he has to lie in it. 

by the time she gets to the part about their mothers, how his own would be ashamed of him, how he doesn’t have the right to insult hers, he’s overcome with fear and heartbreak and anger, and barely listening. he throws his phone at the wall out of sheer helplessness, her voice stopping abruptly mid-sentence. he will not remember much from this moment in the morning, his emotions too strong, his grief all-consuming — he’d felt this way before only once when he learned about his mother’s death. now it’s lucy gray. she’s the one passing away and he can’t save her… or maybe he’s the one holding the knife that’s cutting her heart out. either way, the pain of losing her, really losing her, is so great that even his lungs constrict, and suddenly it seems he’ll never be able to breathe again. he races to the bathroom and doesn’t even lock the door, climbing into the shower with his underwear still on. originally, he only intends to cry, hugging his knees to his chest and rocking back and forth, letting the cold water wash away his tears, but then he spots the scissors just sitting there on the counter. he crawls out and picks them up, and soon his dark curls are falling into the sink, one ringlet after another as he begins to chop off his hair. billy’s dead. he’s dead to her. and she’s always loved his locks so… it somehow makes sense. the water keeps running, muffling out any desolate sounds that might leave his mouth. he uses the razor to shave off what’s left of his beautiful hair, and then, once he’s exhausted both physically and emotionally, his body finally sinks to the floor and somehow more tears fill his eyes… he stays on the bathroom floor until charlie finds him in the morning.

she expected some smart ass reply again, but not another shock. not another knife to her chest. ripping out what's measly left of her heart. for a moment she just continued to stare at the screen like it wasn't real– this was just a nightmare she'd wake up from, her heart lurching, panging, feeling the actual painful vibrations those detrimental words took a toll on her beat against her ribcage. forget typing, she pressed voice record,

‘i dont know but you’ve gone too far now billy bonney, you’re dead to me now’ she hiccuped, her throat constricting, ‘like you're one to attack my looks. don't get so high above your raisin'. like you haven’t always been that dorky lil boy in school? but you know what,’ she bit her lower lip to keep it from wobbling, sucking in a breath, ‘i always thought you were the most handsome one there.’ her nose sniffed, ‘not anymore... not ever.' voice cracking, a hard cry tearing from her throat. wailing as she clutched her shirt at the hurt that caused, 'you’re the ugliest person on the inside. usin' me like an object, while thinkin' i'm ugly. maybe i am...but you got nothin' but the devil in you for sayin' shit like that to me. and yeah, your mother WOULD be a damn shamed of you at what you've turned into.' it's not an attack, it's the truth. she knows his mother as well as he does, it wasn't like she didn't spend endless days with her too. lucy gray loved his mama as much as he did, her cries become even more out of control because she can't just go over and tell her how he's acting anymore. can't just go over and tell her to help her make this better.

because she's gone, neither of them have her anymore. he's selfish even more if he thinks she didn't see her as her second mom she could confide in. a mom she mourns everyday, too. 'and don't call MY mama names, she'd be even more ashamed of you,' she gritted her teeth in a streak of anger, jabbing the bed with her finger, 'she's been nothin' but KIND to you all these years and loved you like her own ALL these years. you can hate me all you want to cause jesse told you to, but she did nothin' to you. but it don't fuckin' matter anyway,' chest heaving, coughing up the words her throat was so terribly tight as the tears continued to explode out of her eyes, 'you're dead to me, billy bonney.' she hit stop on the voice record then sent. DEAD. he was dead to her as she finished screaming and crying into the mattress. she might as well hit block on his contact number because she didn't want to provoke anymore evil things he might say to her, but she couldn't dare move right now, not when she could do nothing but wear herself exhausted with the violent emotions he'd turned over in her head all from one line.

[amourjins]

STAWP VDAY POV!AERI INCORPORATING HER LOVE FOR LEGOS IS SO CUTE I'M GNA SOB

i'm imagining pov!aeri throughout the differemt holidays of the year and christmas is the one i'm going for...

christmas pov!aeri who makes a whole LIST of presents for her girlfriend. like can't tell me this girl won't go on shopping sprees WEEKS or maybe even a MONTH before christmas. every time she sees something she KNOWS y/n likes/wants, she'll buy it and save it for christmas. she'll either wrap it in cute wrapping paper w/ a little bow or put it all in a BEAUTIFUL LY decorated bag...

imagine pov!aeri shyly asking y/n if they can wear matching pajamas, exchange gifts at midnight, and watch christmas movies while drinking hot chocolate and cuddling on the couch together :((( maybe they build a christmas lego set together per aeri's request

AHHHH CHRSITMAS POV!AERI!!!!

yes wbk she is getting TONS N TONS of gifts for her gf, realizing that november is just about coming to an end.. AHHH aeri immediately buying cute gifts, hell maybe even bringing the girls or ning along to ask “do you think she’ll like this?” even when they (except ning) know nothing ab yn.. 😭 AND WHEN SHES SHOPPING FOR GIFTS ALONE, she’d snap pictures and post it onto her close friends ig story, the text like “i hope she’ll like it ..”

shes so “oh, you mentioned something about it so i got you it!” AND LIKE “i remember you said you liked this.. so,” AHHHHH 💔💔

YESS them wearing matching pajamas, aeri having the biggest loser smile EVER. them cuddling on the couch tg til they fall asleep 💔💔

THEM BUILDING A CHRISTMAS LEGO SET TGGGGG. and when theyre building it, aeri’s so focused, not even speaking a word, while yn’s just sitting there, smiling at how much aeri loves legos 😭 (she secretly took a picture/video of aeri building them n posted it on her ig story w/ the text “LEWSER ALERT 🚨🚨🚨 (not for grabs)” OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT!!!!

[can1nezz]

I’m worried you’re not being cared for properly by your doctors if you’ve been diagnosed with everything listed in your “about me” at your age. I’m a med school student and if a doctor has formally diagnosed you with BPD and DID without heavy supervision, therapy, and testing before you’re at least 17 I don’t believe they should be practicing medicine. If it’s an informed self diagnosis, more power to you, but please seek professional help with you get the opportunity too. Therapy is a vital tool and I hope you’re able to access it. My uncle has DID and the amount I’ve seen him go through is one of the reasons I chose to go into medicine to begin with. I’m wishing you and your system all the best, and take care of yourself. Go drink some water, cuddle your pet, and spend some time with loved ones.

my bpd and DID are my only informed self dx, ive been trying to go to a doctor about it but theyre all like "DID and bpd are SO!!!! rare!!" and im like 😐 and im not allowed to be on meds or get therapy cus of my parents so ill probably suffer until im able to do that stuff myself 💔 but tysm 4 worrying ab me sob sob sob grabs you, ill try 2 take care of myself as much as i can, ive been having flare ups more frequently recently so

[hex-rex]

arcane, scarlet hollow, aos, and bg3 for tha fandom asks!

THANK YOU THANK YOU 😁

putting it under a cut cuz itll be long

Arcane:

Favorite Male Character

Ekko! All the men in that show suck besies Ekko, Vander and Silco so that was NOT a hard decision 😁

Favorite female character

I wonder. Who that could be. *glances at my pfp* I truly dont know. *glances at my popular tags* I have no idea. (ITS JINX!!)

Least favorite character

Jayce and his little nerd friend. Characters are WHAGEVER but the fandom is so annoying over them I can no longer stand them. Also that little MUPPET.

Favorite ship

Caitvi! Also easy choice cuz there arent really any ships I enjoy that much in the show.

Favorite friendship

Jinx and Ekko! I actually enjoy them as friends more than I do lovers.

Favorite quote

Its actually my queue tag lmaoo, "You're Perfect" bc it just hits hard EVERY time.

Worst character death

AUGH. SILCO. Heartbreaking everytime 💔 character death was actually very good but I'm taking 'worst' to mean 'saddest.'

This made me sososo happy

Absolutely no joy can be retrieved by watching this show. You will be beaten up. The director will come find you and kill you slowly. (I actually really like the intro scene in the first episode when theyre stealin and theiven)

Saddest moment

Hard question because there are. many. Scenes to choose from, but Vi punching Powder is up there, along with the tea party scene and the oil and water scene.

Favorite location

Well there are two. But I like the underground more 😁

Scarlet Hollow:

Favorite Male character

You never realize how little male characters there are until you think about how little male characters there are. My real favorite in my heart of hearts is Dustin the Possum, but I also like Wayne because. Well. He's neat♥️

Favorite female character

HARD question they have so many good charas but my favorite is Tabby. Mean old grumpy cousin❤️ (and also Grechen. Of course:))

Least favorite character

THAT OLD LADY SIBIL!!! MAKING MY DRINK THE TEA. LOCKIN KANEEKA AWAY. OLD WOMAN!!!!!

Favorite ship

Stellabitha or whatever there ship name is!!! Love me some lesbian denial.

Favorite friendship

Avery and Stella !! Very underrated duo. (Also using this as an excuse to say Avery is my favorite, despite not being able to say that anywhere else)

Favorite quote

SCREW YOU AND YOUR PEANUTS!!!

Worst character death

I actually only got one. SO. Im saying Gretchen because she CAN die even tho I never let her 😁

This made me sososo happy

THE SCENE WHERE YOUR DRINKING CREAM SODA WITH TABITHA!!! YAYAYAY!!

Saddest moment

Technically I didn't get this but the scene where your burning Reese alive???? Is so sad?????

Favorite location

I like Oscars haunted house quite a bit. And the diner :D

Aos:

Favorite Male character

FITZ!!!! Autistic little man who may have some dead braincells 😁

Favorite female character

SKYE!!!! Autistic little woman who may have some attachment issues 😁

Least favorite character

Truly a hard question to answer bc there isn't anyone I dislike that much, but I suppose Ward? He is a really interesting character though and I enjoy how he breaks the typical trope.

Favorite ship

Hard to answer cuz there arent alot of great ships unfortunately! But I am officially rooting for FitzSimmons 😁. I have to admit they're cute, I take back what I said before 😞

Favorite friendship

Fitz-Skye. The parallels between them and Ward is crazy. I als really like Simmons-May.

Favorite quote

Hard to answer AGAIN cuz this show has a lot of good one-liners but currently I like 'sometimes a miracle can be born from an accident' or whateva it is!

Worst character death

RAINA!!!!!! SOBBING AND SOBBING AND SOBBING.

This made me sososo happy

Ward getting beat to death 😁

Saddest moment

So far, Fitz drowning himself for Simmons and also Skye visiting her father at the vet clinic 😩

Favorite location

I really liked the inhuman sanctuary!!! Great season all in all.

Bg3:

Favorite Male character

WYLL!!!!

Favorite female character

Least favorite character

ORIN!!!!

Gale. Chris started giving headcanons on his lesbian hating and now I can't stand him .....

Favorite ship

Karzelheart or whateva it is! KarlachXlaezelXshadowheart 😁

Favorite friendship

Astarion and Shadowheart!!!!!!! Mean girl elves with white hair.

Favorite quote

THE🔥FULL💯CONCENTRATED😑POWER📣OF‼️THE🫵SUN☀️🌞⛅🥵🔆♨️🔥🌶️

Worst character death

ORIN!!! AAAAAARGH ORINNNNNN

This made me sososo happy

THE SWIM SCENE WITH SHADOWHEART IS SO CUTE!!!!! Also Karlachs first romance scene !!!

Saddest moment

The conversation with Karlach right after killing Gortash hits me in the guts everytime :(

Favorite location

Idk if this counts but I really like all of act 3. Very fun 👍. Real answer is the carnival tho 😁