Hi :D 👀👀 I'm very much intrigued by Surrender, Please!!! <3
The evil!Codywan AU that takes over my brain whenever I’m feeling especially volatile! They travel dimensions and of course got caught up in good!Codywan’s universe.
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“You love me,” Cody grits out, roughly squeezing Obi-Wan’s body to his own. “You promised.”
“But—“
“No.”
Obi-Wan is shaking like a leaf in his arms, the pieces of him clattering apart, and Cody won’t have it.
“It’s calling me,” Obi-Wan rasps out.
“Don’t go where I can’t follow,” he begs, tightens his grip and presses his nose into the grey-tinted neck, the red veins. “You have me. You know you can’t lose me.”
“It would destroy me,” Obi-Wan agrees softly and a part in Cody’s chest relaxes in an increment. “I can’t lose you.”
And Cody can’t lose him. Not any more than he already has, like he lost himself.
“Help me turn around, please,” Obi-Wan orders softly after a while. Tremors still flit across his limbs but it’s getting better, slowly.
Together they take care not to aggravate Obi-Wan’s knee, Cody offering his body as a brace as always. Golden eyes flick up to his face before they vanish under grey eyelashes.
Sometimes he wonders when Obi-Wan lost all his colors except gold and red. Maybe it started when Cody caught him staring at the Open Circle Fleet insignia more and more often, lost in thought and grief.
“You’re not letting me go, are you?” The question is hidden in the robes and blanket, careful in its presentation as if there’s more than one answer.
Cody rubs his nose against grey hair, his lips against a grey forehead. “I’m not strong enough to do that.”
“You aren’t,” Obi-Wan says, echoes of mischief in his voice. He curls into himself, into Cody. “They want to see monsters.”
Cody glances at the mirrored transparisteel window along one wall. Their counterparts, the good versions, he thinks with a sneer, are probably watching. Watching and waiting.
“They’re wondering what made us this way,” Obi-Wan continues, voice raspy and rough ever since the gold broke his eyes. “They’re wondering where our roots are in their heads.“
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[kmg] morning at the edge of time
pairing: mingyu (svt) x reader
genre: friends to lovers + hinted fwb + angst + mainly just a mess of a flash fic
wc: 2.2.k
warnings: perhaps a little swearing but other than that none!
when you wake up that morning, you say some lame joke. he laughs, and a siren goes off in the distance. you listen to that over him.
it doesn’t take long to pack his things up. in fact, it takes so much less time than you had both planned. you still have an hour before you have to be at the station.
he zips up the final piece of luggage, an old brown duffel bag that’s filled to the brim. the one you have to tug by the front pocket to get it to close all the way. you fight back something bitter coming up in your throat. it’s one of the same bags he brought on his way here. you remember watching him leave then too.
“so,” he says finally, standing up from the zipped duffle bag and shoving his hands in his pockets. a boyish little habit that makes you feel like you’re both still 20, finding your footing in this brand new and bright place, holding onto each other and begging the other not to miss home too much. when did you stop missing home? when did he start? “do we have a little time on that schedule of yours for coffee?”
he gestures to the legal pad behind you, a bright yellow paper with your scribbled schedule made in a stressed hurry the night before. a joke, you realize belatedly once you register the sound from between his lips as a laugh. you feel so suddenly exhausted with it hanging in the air. you shrug, “i guess.”
he grins. and you remember being 13 with him by your side. you ignore the shaky feeling in the corner of your eyes.
–
the train ride is so long, you think an hour in. how many more? you almost ask before remembering how he’s asleep. you stare at him. there are lines across his forehead and around his eyes that weren’t there a couple years ago. last year you found a gray hair right behind his left ear. you look for that sitting here.
he wakes up just as your finger finds it.
he squints and yawns at the same time. not even registering your hand shoved in his hair, your face two breaths from him. “morning.”
he jumps in his seat. your fingers lose the hair.
“what are you doing?” he asks, voice muddled by the sleep. you know this voice. you used to wake up next to it every morning. there’s a lump in your throat suddenly that chokes down every other emotion you would rather be feeling.
“i was looking for your gray hair.”
he perks up. “do i still have it?”
you want to smile at this. the way he embraces this old age, with open arms and a big bear hug. the way mingyu does with everything. fearless and expectant. like he’s been waiting for it, for you. there was a time when you were the one in his embrace. you want to smile at it, him. but you don’t. or maybe, it’s that you can’t.
you nod. “i think it’s grown a bit actually.”
he hums, absently, craning his neck to see something you don’t care to see. “i’m gonna use the bathroom. meet in the dining car?”
you nod, he leaves, and for the first time since stepping on this train you can fucking breathe.
—
“doesn’t it feel like the train ride gets longer each time you go back?” he asks.
you squint at him, picking at a potato before shoving it in your mouth. “not really.”
he shakes his head. “that’s cause you never go.”
and you know he doesn’t mean it with malice, but it’s a stab either way. you scoff. home is many things. it’s where you were born. where your parents live. where you met mingyu. home is many things. but it’s mainly just a tiny town full of memories and people you’d rather forget.
“i’m sorry,” he offers half-heartedly, noticing your silence a second too late.
you try your best to shake it off. you don’t want to ruin this day.
instead you say, “we should get dessert.”
he smiles, big and wide. all teeth showcased right in front of you. somehow, it breaks your heart.
—
“my parents sent me this a while back.” mingyu says, showing you the screen of his phone.
it’s a picture of when you both were young. 10 or maybe 8 years old. sitting together at the beach, covered in sand and smiling. “i remember that day.” you mutter to him, taking the phone from his hand and staring at the photo. “you made a sand castle, and let me stomp on it.”
“gosh,” mingyu starts with a fake sigh, “you’ve always been an asshole huh?”
you roll your eyes, pushing his phone back towards him. “it was a shit castle anyways.”
—
you and mingyu’s family have been friends since his family moved to town. you must’ve been 4 the first time you met him. you don’t really remember that evening. but you do remember riding your first amusement park ride with him.
“i know mom,” mingyu says into his phone. you watch the end of his call. he picks at the collar of his shirt. you recognize it as the one his dad gave him for his birthday last year. you wonder if he did that on purpose. he hangs up the phone and gives you a look.
“hey,” he quips, snapping his fingers in your face, “where are you?”
he knows you so well. “was just thinking.”
“about?”
you push your chin out a bit, glancing at the scenery running past the window beside you. “i can’t believe it’s been 2 years since i moved from home and joined you in the city.”
“it’s been 6 years for me.”
“i know.” you say, understanding the gravity. the city has this way of pushing you in. like a trap you step into knowingly. “when you moved here for school, i…”
your eyes move back to his face. he tilts his head, waiting for you. “you what?”
you inhale, reaching for the napkin in your lap and folding the corners in. “i don’t know, i just never imagined that i’d also move.
he scrunches his entire face. “be honest, did you miss me so much that you moved just to be closer to me?”
you take the napkin in your lap and throw it in his face. he catches it snickering. “but seriously,” you start, exhaling and watching him fold the napkin back up and place it on the table, “i don’t know if i would’ve moved if you hadn’t done it before me.”
“and now look at you,” his lips curl upwards, “you love the city.”
you match the motion. “i love the city.” more than you ever thought you would.
“how long do you think you’ll stay there?”
he asks it casually, but the question makes your heart stop. it makes this bile that’s been sitting in your gut ever since mingyu told you for the first time that he was thinking about moving back home rise up again and burn the back of your throat.
you cough. “forever hopefully.”
he gives you this look. this raised brow and side eye look that says you don’t mean that. that mocks you and means to tell you: you have no idea what you’re talking about. eventually, you’ll do what you’ve done our entire lives and follow me back home too.
“i mean it.” you say steadily. he doesn’t flinch. neither do you.
“home is different now, you know–”
you scoff. how many times can you and him have the same conversation.”
“–minghao doesn’t even really come into town that much anymore and–”
“stop it, mingyu.”
he bites the inside of his cheek. “why won’t you even try?”
—
you don’t like to think about minghao. the three years you spent loving someone who just up and left. you don’t like to think about him because there’s a part of you that isn’t sure if you ever really got over him.
—
“it’s just time.” mingyu says, voice soft and quiet. “i think it’s just time for me to go back home.”
the train rattles a bit. you stop your shoulders from shaking. “why?”
he just shakes his head and sighs. “it just feels right.”
the words are like a splinter, wedging itself into the pad of your index finger.
“i’m sorry.” he tells you.
you go to the bathroom and pretend not to hear it.
—
you stare at your face in the mirror. you never liked the long train rides; there’s a grayness evident in your face. and it makes you think about mingyu’s gray hair that’s grown longer. it makes you think about the first time found it.
shortly, after you had moved to the city, you and mingyu’s friendship had taken a different form. nights spent laughing turned to something deeper, something blurry and messy. a kiss, a confession, a night spent together. you’ve always loved mingyu. he had been your best friend for so many years. and so it just felt so natural that your friendship would take such a shape. it didn’t feel awkward or hard or forced. it just felt like you loved him and it felt comfortable and honestly, just a tiny bit, it–
it felt like home.
—
the first thing he says when you retake your seat across from him is: “do you think you’ll ever forgive me for moving back?”
you rest your elbows on the table, hold up your chin with your hands, and stare at him. his eyes look so brown. inhaling, you say, “eventually.”
he chuckles lightly. “we had some good times together in the city.”
you smile, and it feels like a breath of fresh air. “we really did.”
“and our friendship has nothing to do with distance.”
“i know.” you shrug slightly. “i’m just going to miss doing life with you by my side.”
he frowns, ever so slightly. “you know i’ll always lov-”
the train screeches, masking his voice, his confession with a sound so unpleasant and yet somehow better. you know what he has to say. you don’t want to hear it.
you stare at your finger, where his words pierced your skin. you don’t see the small stick of wood anymore. it’s been sucked in. bitterly, you think, there will always be a piece of you inside me.
—
the train stops in your town eventually. you both grab his bags and head out onto the platform.
you sit on a bench just outside waiting for his parents to pick you guys up. it’s colder up here than it is in the city. it nips and bites at the bits of your skin that’s exposed. mingyu pulls out a scarf from one of his bags and wraps it around your shoulders.
you recognize the color of it and the pattern. you gave this scarf to him 8 years ago. you can’t believe he still has it. you can’t believe he lugged it with him to the city. you can’t believe he lugged it back.
you look at him, really look at him, and realize how terrified you are. you’ve spent so much of your life with mingyu. you don’t want to remember what life looks like without him.
“you’re my best friend in the whole world.” you tell him, placing a hand over his.
the wind picks up, picking and poking at your eyes. you feel a tear fall down your cheek.
you know he’s sad to say goodbye to you and to the city, but you also know that more than that, he’s happy. excited to be back home and closer to his friends and family. you can see it in his eyes. you can see it in his gray hair sticking up with the wind.
“i’m just not ready to come back yet otherwise i would.”
he looks at you, like he really pities you. you hate it. “you did come back with me.”
you shake your head. “otherwise, i would stay.”
he pulls you into a hug. you relish in the warmth. you’ve been in this position many times before. but never like this. you aren’t in college anymore. you know you’ll never be this close to him again. and maybe that’s what makes this all so painful. maybe that’s why when you pull away from the hug you catch a glint of something sharp in his hand. you look down at your torso and see your entire body carved open, with his hands digging inside, searching for the words you stole from him. maybe it wasn’t a splinter. maybe it wasn’t an accident. but why won’t he let you have that at least? why does he have to leave and take every trace of him with him?
a car pulls up. mingyu’s father. you recognize the paint job on it. you both stand. he faces you facing him.
“are you happy?” you ask him.
he smiles, wrinkles appearing all over his face. “i can’t wait.
you help him and his father pack everything into the car. you say hi to his mother. she asks you to stay for dinner; you tell her how you have to get back to the city.
you say your final goodbye to mingyu. and watch his dad’s car pull away. you don’t know when you’ll see him next. and it’s only once the car is entirely out of view, do you realize you’re still wearing the scarf you gifted him. you take one last inhale of your hometown and board the train back
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