#Ramblings of a tired mind?

[forestwhisper3]

Behold!

‘Tis the simplest of doodles, but it is mine.

I just felt like drawing something silly, and who better than my favorite turtle?

[teslacoils-and-hubris]

I'm sick of mafia bosses and sexy ceos! No more royalty and knights and sexy fae courts! I need the mad scientist to enter the public mind as a sexy figure! I want shitty tiktok thirst traps in lab coats and goggles! I want a million mad scientist au fics where person a is the scientist and person b is their experiment! I need a mediocre movie to get teenage girls drawing Frankenstein stitches on themselves like vampire bites for twilight! My hubris in trying to bring my niche interest into the public eye could never be my downfall!

[unclewaynemunson]

Pt2 to this post

'Is something wrong?' Nancy asks, not long after the two of them have taken their familiar spots on the hood of Steve's car. They're basking in what might be the last warm sunlight of the year, looking out over the quarry, at a safe distance from the edge.

It's become a tradition the two of them share, ever since they reconnected back in March. It calms them both, to just sit here and take in the view, no one around but each other. Nancy is one of the few people Steve can share a comfortable silence with: sometimes they sit here quietly for what feels like hours, side by side, listening to music or to nothing but the birds singing around them. But they also have their best conversations here: it's the place where Nancy entrusted him she wanted to break up with Jonathan; it's the place where they talked about their shared past and decided they would always love each other as friends; it's the place where they finally talked about Barbara in a way they couldn't when they were younger. It's where Nancy talked about the ghosts still haunting her and Steve talked about how lonely he sometimes felt.

Steve huffs. 'How did you guess?'

'When you frown, you always do it with your whole face,' Nancy notes. 'So it's hard to miss, really.'

Steve glances at her side profile. There's a serenity to her features that's still relatively new. It means she's healing, slowly learning how to be happy again. It means she stopped waiting for the end of the world and started believing in a real future again. It makes Steve proud of how far they both have come.

'I had a fight with Eddie,' he confesses. 'And with Dustin, I guess.'

'What happened?'

He sighs. 'It's complicated.'

'Wanna tell me about it?'

The look in her eyes is kind and inviting. Steve hesitates. He wants to, but he doesn't know if he can. It's a risk. It's scary.

But he can't imagine Nancy Wheeler ever being careless with his secrets. He can't imagine her judging him, can't imagine her being as small-minded as most people in this town.

He was planning on telling her anyway, because things had been going so well with Eddie lately and – no, he shouldn't think about that right now. But maybe it would actually be nice to talk about it with Nancy.

'So, um...' His throat feels tight and his hands are sweaty. 'I recently discovered some things about myself. I-' The words get stuck somewhere on the way to his mouth, and he clears his throat.

Nancy doesn't push, but only gives him an encouraging nod, waiting for him to find his voice again.

'I found out I like boys,' he finally manages to confess. 'And I need you to know that – that that doesn't mean that what I felt for you wasn't real. It was. I loved you, and now I fell in love with a boy. And-'

'Steve.' Nancy's hand suddenly covers his, causing him to finally jerk his head away from the view over the quarry, to focus on her face again instead.

Her eyes are wide, and she squeezes his hand.

'You don't have to explain yourself to me,' she tells him. 'We're good. But thank you for telling me. For trusting me with this.'

Steve heaves out a relieved sigh, and Nancy smiles; it's that genuine kind of smile which reveals all kinds of dimples and soft lines across her face.

'We might be more similar than you thought,' she tells him, a faint blush spreading over her cheeks.

'Really?' Her words make his breath catch in his throat. He squints at her, trying to see her in this new light. 'Are you saying what I think you're saying?'

She shrugs. 'I don't know. I'm not sure yet,' she admits. 'Still figuring things out.'

'Take your time, there's no rush,' he tells her. 'But...' He bumps his shoulder against hers. 'When you're done figuring it out, talk to me, okay?'

She nods. 'Okay.'

For a while, it's quiet between the two of them. Some kind of raptor circles high above them in the sky. They both follow it with their eyes until it disappears among the tree tops west of the quarry.

'Is it Eddie?'

Steve blinks dumbly a couple of times.

'Wha- what?'

'The guy you were talking about. The one you fell in love with. It's Eddie, isn't it?'

'Jesus, Wheeler, what kind of sorceress are you?' Steve exclaims.

Nancy laughs again. 'You're not being as subtle as you think,' she tells him. 'The two of you have been hooking up for a while now, haven't you?'

Steve huffs dramatically. 'This is unfair. You know everything; I can't even tell you my own secrets anymore!'

'So what happened?' Nancy asks. 'You said you had a fight with him?'

'It's fucking stupid,' he sighs. 'Dustin was getting way too excited about the fact that I was gonna be hanging out with you, so I told him I was seeing someone. Next thing I knew, he was telling Eddie all about how I was seeing a girl.' He waves his hands around to make annoyed air quotations. 'I wanted to tell Eddie it was a misunderstanding, but Dustin was there, so I couldn't out us just like that, and he looked so betrayed and heartbroken... He didn't wanna listen to me.'

Steve sighs; he still can't manage to forget that look in Eddie's eyes when Dustin delivered the big news. 'I wish I would've talked about what I felt for him earlier. I should've been honest when I had the chance, y'know. But I was afraid he wouldn't wanna label what we had, that he wouldn't feel the same way – and now we're in this whole mess. God, he must hate me right now, Nance.'

To his surprise, Nancy gives him an unexpected slap against his arm.

'Ouch, what the hell was that for?!'

'What are you even doing here with me, Steve? You should've gone after him, tell him how you feel!'

'I tried, obviously, but he didn't wanna listen to me!'

'So make him listen! You're in love with him, he obviously feels the same way about you, and you let him leave to wallow in a broken heart he doesn't even need to have!' She rolls her eyes and slides off the car, adding something under her breath that sounds suspiciously like an exasperated 'Boys!' before she pulls Steve off the car as well. 'C'mon, time to get your ass over to the trailer park. Right. Now,' she says through gritted teeth. And, well, Steve knows better than to argue with a determined - and truthfully quite terrifying - Nancy Wheeler.

Read the last part here Taglist: @withacapitalp @ultimatedreamer104 @irregular-child @jcmadgirl @estrellami-1 @myguiltyartpleasure @hallucinatedjosten @jaybren @thew1ldblueyonder @melodymeddler @alycatavatar @zoeweee @lolawonsstuff @fairy-princette @saramelaniemoon @phirex22 @krazyperson @xxsky-shockxx (I only put people on this list who explicitly asked to be tagged. That's really no problem, I love to do that so dw about asking, but I got a lot of relatively vague reactions to the previous post that i'm not gonna dissect and interpret, bc I don't wanna clog anyone's notes unwanted. So just to be clear: i consider it a huge compliment if anyone asks for a tag but please do it clearly if you do!)

[iamespecter]

HOLY SHIT I FOUND YOU!! I SAW YOUR FNAF ART LIKE A YEAR AGO ON PINTREST AND I WAS LIKE DAMN THATS PRETTY FUCKING AWSOME BUT FOR THE LIFE OF ME I COULDN'T FIND THE ARTIST BUT I JUST DID, ITS YOU!!

I have no idea which art of mine you found from pinterest but based on what you're implying I lowkey think it's this screenshot redraw I made for the FNAF movie lmao (which I hope I'm right)

Unfortunately you won't get much FNAF art from me nowadays anon, ever since Ruin disappointed me immensely I've just lost most of the hope I've been clinging onto for the franchise, now I'm just here... reminiscing, watching from the sidelines, and making a once-in-a-blue-moon art for it if I'm feeling extra

[zan0tix]

These two make me SICK reading their introductories back to back was actually killing me the way the narration describes jakes blue ladies and janes detective/funny men are direct parallels of eachother it makes me INSANE

[debaucherri]

i feel that light cant forge deeper, more sincere relationships/bonds with people that dont match his freak um i mean. his intelligence and mental level. he meets L and is surprised to find someone he can finally understand and who can finally understand him - almost like this is his first and/or only chance at a meaningful relationship with another person - but he is, like many that grew up 'gifted', unused to having any competition for being at the top, so L is just as threatening as he is enticing. L is similarly unused to competition! He is the world's THREE best detectives!!

But they are just as much rivals, threats to each other, as they are reliant on each other for human connection and mental stimulation... tl;dr this is one way out of many that they totally match eachothers freak trust

[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

[nervocat]

Boothill gives cat vibes honestly.. like he'd be the cat to follow you around and stay attached to your hip when he doesn't have anything to do.

Very affectionate as well. Since his head is the only thing he can feel your touch from, he'll nuzzle into the crook of your neck like a cat would bump it's head against you asking for affection.

Boothill likes to put his weight on you as well. He'll lay on your chest, when your standing he'll hug your wait from the back and lean on you (which makes you stumble bc of his heavy metal body, but you manage to (maybe) stay standing. Maybe you'd fall).

On the other side though, he's very sassy. Pobably. Like Boothill would bite you (playfully + spitefully, depending), keep you from moving, say (silly) snarky remarks, you get it. Maybe.

But yeah um. I'm tired and ik I have more thoughts on this specificly but I can post more later.. gn reader btw and didn't proofread this.

[zhongrin]

honestly i'm probably gaslighting myself and there may be lores/texts that disproves this, but the fact that zhongli and neuvillette has so many parallels, how zhongli is avoiding neuvillette constantly, how zhongli isn't given the spotlight on the literal year of the dragon, and hyv's tendencies to fuck around and drop 'misleading' hints (i.e. we're made to believe that zhongli is avoiding neuvillette because the latter wants to 'judge' him in that voiceline).... it all makes me feel like they're doing all of it because don't want to expose zhongli as the geo dragon sovereign.

listen. i say they don't want to expose zhongli's dragon form up close in detail for too long in-game because they know we'll catch onto something. and wouldn't it be crazy if this is yet another parallel, but in reverse? wherein neuvillette had only half of his power but gained it completely after he received the gnosis, while zhongli had his full power from the start and then later it's 'taken away' because he chose to give the gnosis to tsaritsa? plus, if the tsaritsa is planning to do anything with the gnosis ー for example, destroying it in the process of using it to overthrow heavenly principles/celestia, in any case the power will return to him anyway. like, come on. man has lived for 6k+ years. he's mischievous behind that elegant facade. it's a win win situation for him either way. man is gonna say 'get bamboozled bitches' at the end of the game i just know it /j /silly

[cupidsbeaux]

i've been thinking a lot about teeth in the suckening. Arthur starts off with purposefully dulled teeth, meaning that he had to rely on Void to properly bite into whatever he'd hunted. when he gave up his appearance his teeth grew sharp and grotesque, preventing him from properly hiding behind the same facade as before.

Shilo's teeth resemble a classic vampire look with just sharpened canines, but he refuses to use them. he's disgusted by the idea of biting into someone; he feigns humanity by drinking from a cup and willfully ignoring that the blood is still from a person even if he doesn't have to use his teeth.

I think Emizel's teeth are the most interesting since every tooth in his mouth becomes serrated from the moment he becomes a kindred. he didn't make much effort to hide his vampiric abilities once he got them, but he couldn't even if he wanted to because his teeth made it obvious that he was no longer human. plus, edward removed all his teeth that one time, wasn't that cool.

there's no point i wanted to make here, these are simply my ramblings. i just think teeth are cool and that it's neat how they reflect aspects of their respective characters.

[spoopup]

UM. heres this. my hand hurts

[foldingfittedsheets]

My beloved’s mom is staying with us until Tuesday. I’m gonna start this off by saying she spent a morning cleaning our kitchen. That was really nice. It’s not her fault I’m a territorial autistic who’s really fussy about things.

But I can understand what’s going through her head most of the time. I get the reasoning.

Today though. Today she did something so baffling that I keep coming back to it with just ???? looping around my head.

My beloved took her out for coffee and I stayed home. I did two loads of laundry while they were out. I may not be a champion folder but I do 90% of the laundry and I don’t mind the chore. Our washer and dryer live in a closet upstairs. The washing machine must be left open or the Mold Notices.

She’s done two loads of laundry since staying with us and left the washer closed both times. So when I went to run my laundry today I made sure to leave it open. I can smell that damage has been done but once she leaves and I can turn the heat back on I should be able to gain ground.

They both came home when the second load had finished in the dryer. She had no reason to go in the laundry closet. But while reading downstairs I heard the distinct sound of the closet doors opening and I twitched to listen. The dryer door clanged shut. No further laundry sounds.

Hours later when heading up to bed I went to fold and realized she’d moved the clean sheets into a basket but she hadn’t realized they were still damp. But she’d also closed the washer again.

I keep being so confused. Why did she go in the laundry closet??? She didn’t know I’d done laundry. The door was shut like always. It could be construed as helpful that she moved the sheets except that they were still damp and might have dried more in the warm dryer. But why open the closet at all????? Was she bored? She did not know I’d done laundry!

[alluralater]

just saw this girl on tinder that i had the most insane rollercoaster thing with in college but she now identifies as a goth dyke and let me tell you… i swiped right so hard but almost didn’t because i wanted to keep looking at her pictures. she looks the same, just different style but it suits her so so well. and as ya’ll know i am a whore for goth/alt aesthetics to my colorful dyke look. the contrast is so giving but it just so happens to be what im usually drawn to. if we even go out to coffee and end up making out over this, it will have been worth the swipe. even if nothing, it was still totally worth it. i cannot lie, she was such a disaster in college though and nearly tanked an entire group project for me but my professor was also a lesbian (shoutout to this professor bc i loved her so much and she really cared about me) and she was like “hey allura,” and proceeded to tell me that this girl was a less experienced gay than i was and was clearly very obsessed with me (cause apparently she had gone to our professor to talk about me and had accidentally dropped a weird amount of concerning info??) and so my professor was going to separate her from me as much as possible (cause at that point she was like causing a crazy ton of issues for my school stuff and in my social life) but i mean… she was/is REALLY hot. her intensity was really sexy and the way she was so shameless was ALSO very sexy. plus i mean, even though she was doing wild shit it wasn’t like she was an awful person. i found her to be super yummy in all respects and was really shook when she flew off the handle and was basically harassing me. now this all sounds really insane i know but… ugh i want her so bad and i really hoped that some years apart would change those toxic obsessive pieces so let’s hope yes and find out

[bluegekk0]

I suppose at the end of the day all I really hope for is that what I do makes an impact on someone's life, big or small. That people think of my art after they see it, maybe feel inspired or touched. That they notice the details I put in it and perhaps piece together the intent of why they're there. That they feel encouraged to draw themselves, to improve and in turn to inspire others. I try to draw for myself, but there are days where I feel like I'm not worth the effort. It would be comforting to know that my work is more than just a self-indulgent thing that looks nice

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Hi, I hope you don't mind this message, and idk if anyone else has told you, but there's this troll going around on Tumblr named @/freethepuppet. They claim to be “fighting for justice in the puppet industry”, but really they're just sending hateful and threatening messages to Welcome Home and My Friendly Neighborhood artists/fans.

I myself have receive multiple death threats from this person, and they have sent threats to many of my friends over the matter, some of which are minors.

Because of this issue, I have decided to keep myself and my friends anonymous, especially considering the fact that @/freethepuppet intends to send threats to PartyCoffin himself, along with the creator behind My Friendly Neighborhood.

I just wanted to warn you about this person, so that you can block and report them, as well has tell others in the community about the troll. If you decide to ignore this, then that's fair and I respect your decision.

In any case, I hope you and your friends stay safe. Best of luck!!

blocked! thanks for letting me know! to add on to this, a little advice for everyone:

Don't Engage With This Person At All!

Don't Look At Their Stuff, Don't Respond To Messages, Don't @ Them Or Give Them The Time Of Day. Just Go Block Them And Let Them Exhaust Their Own Hate

[cactus-cass]

Why yes jooper is my favourite crackship how could you tell