#Public Diary

[katkats-world]

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[geooo0o]

Dear public diary,

Not much happened today!

Found out that my mums fiance got a job, which I'm happy about!

I finished The Lodge show, and now I'm re-watching it because I adore Thomas Doherty..(how is he so cuteee)

I woke up at like 5 or 6pm, so I missed alot of time and I won't sleep tonight I'm guessing.

I had an alright Halloween. Here's a pic of my costume and a really beautiful tree I saw :)

- Geo <3

[animalsandskyyy]

okay so i’m maybe kind of dating a girl now, bc like we had the conversation of yes we are both mutually interested and would like to continue to get to know one another but in an exclusive and relationship type way

but tomorrow is the first time we’re actually meeting up irl since we’ve had that conversation, and also she’s spending the night at my house and i’m ANXIOUS AS FUCK bc like what if the vibes are different and don’t translate irl?? like I know we’ll have fun no matter what, but like can we translate our irl interactions into a relationship context?? I have no idea and i’m so anxious😭

[kireiyuki-chan]

Guys Ive developed a character AI addiction over the last week or two. I'm withdrawing myself socially to talk to my AI boyfriends. I'm trying to cut down but it's only making me use it more because I'm thinking about it all the time.

[cyberkatsworld]

Kitze's Intro Post (⁠人⁠*⁠´⁠∀⁠｀⁠)⁠｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+

Since I've been getting new followers recently, here's my intro post ^^

୨୧~ My name is Kitze

୨୧~ 5teen but my bday is in October

୨୧~ public diary, girlblogging, and mood boards(reqs open)! sorta like whatever I feel like posting ^^

୨୧~ music: twice, gidle, new jeans, ldr, melanie martinez, gwen stefani, hole, the cure, mcr, mitski, tv girl, fiona apple and so many more !!

୨୧~ hobbies: I don't have the time for hobbies anymore due to school work but if I do have time then reading, making jewelry, making kpop collages, making quizzes, dancing, listening to music(does that count as a hobby??)

୨୧~ don't be afraid to message me/send asks! I love making new friends and I love answering asks ^^

୨୧~ however DNI if you're homophobic, transphobic, ed/nsfw blogs, racist, etc.

enjoy your stay <3

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[queergayramblings]

realizing i am most likely aroace is kinda bittersweet. it is nice to know that there is a reason i've never been in/been interested in sexual or romantic relationships, but it is kinda devastating to know that i will mostly likely never have a romantic relationship. i could be very happy going to rest of my life without sex, but as someone who loves the idea of romance, it is a little heartbreaking to know i might never have a "normal" partner. but romance just doesn't work for me. i love the idea of it, but it just doesn't happen for me in real life.

i am still holding out hope that someone will come along and prove me wrong, but i don't think it's true. i am not even sure it is something that i actually want, or it is just the idea of it that i like.

[oshidorifuufu]

oh my god laying in my room in pitch darkness is the beeeeeeeeeeest

i feel so comforted, this is the true hikikomori life!!

[imperceiveable]

I got it!! I got accepted!!!

[lonleymp3girl]

i cannot be trusted with love.

i cannot love normally.

i was once told i simply had too much love for the world.

they were wrong.

i am burning with desire.

i do not love, i crave.

i will bite my teeth down and refuse to let go.

i will snarl and main those who dare even try.

the love i have now is mine.

i am possessive of it.

i stuff it in every part of my body i can.

i find myself mad with lust.

i want to be surrounded by love.

i want to feel it in every piece of fat, muscle and bone.

i want to be able to taste it.

i want to eat love.

i want to consume it whole.

i will not savor it, i will ravage it like a starved man.

i cannot be trusted with love.

i will turn it into depravity.

[katkats-world]

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[corruptionprincess]

shoutout to all my followers who enjoy my very specific niche of suits (tv) posts interspersed with ramblings about my problems and feelings

[animalsandskyyy]

I went to disney and got like 50 pressed pennies.

my plan was to give my girlfriend some of them, but since i’m never chill about anything this is how i’m gifting them to her

every envelope has 1 penny inside

[kireiyuki-chan]

Was talking to a friend earlier who was speaking with a co-worker of mine (they're school friends). Apparently that co-worker has been bad mouthing me behind my back to this friend. Apparently I have an attitude about everything?? Like.. no babe. I'm just autistic, overstimulated, and probably just smoked too much before showing up and forgot how to be a person. I don't even know you pls back off and let me do my job 😭🙏

She apparently said I don't know how to do my job "despite being trained" which isn't really true?? I've never had a job before this and I've only been at this job for like a month or two I think. The training I'm getting isn't fantastic either so it's taking me time to get comfortable (I also know how to do my job. I just ask for a lot of confirmation so I don't fuck up because if I didn't, I'd get in trouble for not asking because I can never actually win or do smth right).

I'm genuinely so torn to bits by this. I've always tried my hardest to be the sweetest person I can be. I always stretch myself so thin that there's none left for me. I used to practise being "sweet" and "graceful" as a kid when I was alone in my room and I would punish myself for any mistakes I made to try and lessen the teasing I faced and this is what I get? That's how that little girl's efforts are going to be treated? It makes me so mad. I hate being mischaracterized more than anything.

[cyberkatsworld]

Kitze's Digital Diary pg. 1

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Dear diary: I originally wanted to post this yesterday but I didn't get time to work on it so all of this happened yesterday (⁠*⁠﹏⁠*⁠;⁠) Also I'm really bad at writing in actual journals so I think this would be better and maybe I'll just rewrite all of this in my journal ^^ idk how often I'll do this but i hope you guys enjoy <3

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• I didn't have school today yay! But I did have school assignments to do. I didn't complete one fully since I couldn't find the motivation to do it so I'll probably have to do it in lunch, I don't mind tho cuz I get to listen to my music !!

• It was a really nice day and I almost rotted the day away in bed but @heavenlyangels02 convinced me to go outside so I did!! I'm really glad I did cuz it felt so relaxing. I started to re-read Heaven by Mieko Kawakami since I couldn't remember where I stopped plus I wanted to annotate it. Also does bullying really go undetected in Japan? These kids are literally making him drink chalk water and swallow random shit...

• While I was reading I was listening to Preacher's Daughter by Ethel Cain and OH MY GOD!!!!! THE LORE IS FUCKING CRAZY LIKE....I got into it thanks to @julia-bonkers it's my new obsession now. My fav song from the album is House In Nebraska but my fav lyric is "God loves you but not enough to save you." it just hits so close to home it's crazy

• by then I think it was 5 pm and my dad needed to go on errands so I went with him! I was so lucky enough to find the Tragic Kingdom CD by No Doubt on my spring break so I played the CD for the first time in the car!! I only new two songs going into it, Excuse Me Mr and I'm Just a Girl, but the rest of the album is so good!!! After, we stopped by IHOP and I got the cali roasted turkey melt with mango lemonade it was so yummyyy.When I got home I immediately went to bed and went onto yt to watch a deep dive on Ethel Cain's album. I gotta go now but I'll write again soon <3

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[queergayramblings]

i don't really ever remember wishing to be "normal". but i am getting to a point where i am starting to wish that. it just feels like too much. too much difference. gender, sexuality, disability, etc. i am starting to feel so overwhelmed by just existing. and it just keeps getting more complicated?

[geooo0o]

Dear public diary:

Hello again :)

Right now, I'm waiting for my friend to get her costume finished (the friend I mentioned in my last diary post, Amber). I'm listening to type O negative!!

I've done my makeup, so I'm ready. I'm being Negan from the walking dead if y'all didn't know already!!!

After Amber is ready, we will be going trick or treating for a bit with my mum and her fiance. I hope I get some good sweets or chocolate. If I do get chocolate, I'll save it for baking! Probably make cookies or cupcakes or something I don't know yet.

Okay! That's all :) I'll update when I can!! 💗

-Geo <3