#Please let me be overthinking this

[sillylittlevulpine]

♡

[thedesertpenguin]

This has been bothering me for the past couple of days, and I REALLY hope I’m just overthinking this, but in the promo of the next episode we see this

Now let me tell you, if we had to go through that breakup between Canaan and Whitney ONLY for her to start feeling something for this dude I may stop watching the show💀

[teeth-draws]

Ohhh but he used to think nothing of it…

Torturing my fav RO again from @shepherds-of-haven

[lovesodeepandwideandwell]

ok this is a deeply deeply weird manifesto and i'm sorry but i feel suddenly very burdened to say it so. if you felt like we were friends and i unfollowed you, this is for you. (don't be scared this is not about problems with anyone this is just my mess. that I think is ok to have which is why I'm talking about it)

so I joined tumblr in 2020 when a) the world was isolated b) I had just moved to a new city and was living alone taking Zoom classes in my apartment. what started as a mindless distraction became such a lifeline of connection and friendship! and still such a support as things started to open back up and get busier in 2021, when I was teaching and in class in person but still struggling for close in-person friendships. I know the group dynamic on here has shifted a number of times, as some of you probably experienced from various vantage points. my use of tumblr has shifted too, on and off, as I've needed different things out of it and been in different spiritual and emotional states. and I've kind of come to realize that I probably threw myself in too eagerly in some ways. it was so exciting to have actual friends on here and for them to actually turn into friends in person, that honestly I maybe prized that dynamic too much for what it symbolized over actually valuing the people. I'm sorry for doing that.

anyway, that worked fine for a bit, but as (glory be to God) I've become much more plugged into my in-person community in the last couple years, I've felt more and more emotionally strained. I've taken up a new attitude towards my family that's much more in line with God, but also much more draining as it means I have to just pour out in prayer and love and wait with patient sorrow over some things rather than fighting and defending my perspective as always right and necessary; and then there's the church-related grief my family has gone through over the last year. I've had a very delicate and difficult friendship that pulled up a lot of unresolved stuff from a college situation and felt endlessly wearying at times. I've had another issue from college recur in a way I thought had been healthily resolved years ago. I've had this whole roommate marriage situation that as y'all know is a very weird trial and pressure. My church has been dealing with a strange and tough ongoing struggle that was already stressing me out before I started working there. My small group has been amazing and I've loved connecting with and relying on them more, but that connection also means more fully bearing the griefs of a lot of different people dealing with the different struggles of life. My advisor situation has been so weird and tough, making my academic work really hard, and then this recent church work has been fulfilling but physically and often mentally exhausting. My future location, work, and community is up in the air after a few years of stability. (I really didn't mean to make this a recitation of my woes, but honestly it's really helpful to see it all written out here; helps explain my deep deep exhaustion, I guess.)

If I ever followed you on tumblr, I love you. In a number of different ways. I feel fondness at the thought of you and at your presence; I want to know you more fully; I desire the good for you; and I find my well-being to be, at least a little bit, tied up with yours. That last one is the rub. As I'm sorting through all the callings and duties in my life, trying to identify what counts as changing my tires versus what wears my tires out, I've found that my tumblr dashboard can switch back and forth very unpredictably between one thing and the other. Often it's a delight to come on here and find my friends and the cool things we're showing each other and the joys and sorrows and goofy moments of our lives! But at other times, when what I desperately need is an escape and rest and humor to provide solace from in-person cares, I find myself pricked all over again by the sorrow of the world and the stress of sin--or even just irritated by stuff I find irrelevant or disagree with or don't want to be reminded of.

To be clear, I'm not saying anyone's doing anything wrong on here. The opposite; I love the freedom y'all have to seek out what helps you, whether that's a lot of facts and ideas or a lot of goofy content or recipes or weird TV or music or venting about life or seeking prayer or advice! We all have the freedom and responsibility to determine how to use the tools we have to aid us in pursuing the good, whether the good is a quick laugh or building up virtue. But I think for me, at this point in my life, my duty and calling has swung back towards my in-person connections in a variety of ways, and I have to honor that.

The lie of infinity that the internet offers is just that--a lie. for me, that lie right now is being laid bare in my inability to have infinite care for everyone whose path I cross. I could follow everyone on here whom I'm endeared to, could keep messaging and replying and building relationships, but it would be a lie to think I can offer that love and care to everyone I would like to. In-person friendships are limited by physical proximity and time; online friendships can't be unlimited either. I need to apologize for acting as though they could be, and committing myself beyond my limits; but also, my life has really changed, and I'm not going to be caught either by the lie that online is only worthwhile if it's permanent.

I want to be clear that I value the connections I've had with you. I've loved exchanging mail and phone calls, messaging fun things back and forth, being online at the same time or learning about your day after the fact. Please know, also, that I have gone to war in prayer for you, and I continue to do so. I wish that I knew how to love widely without feeling pulled apart and worn down, by difference and sorrow and sin (mine and yours). I hope God is sanctifying me toward that end. But right now I'm fairly convinced I need to honor my calling to in-person friendships; I need to protect my mind and heart from even little pricks and distractions, so that I can keep my desires in order and use my energy for prayer and Scripture and to do good work and love the people God's made my physical neighbors. I really do love you, and I wish we had infinite time to talk and think together. I'm so excited to be with y'all in heaven forever. And who knows--maybe my life will shift yet again (it's looking likely) and I'll have a ton of spare energy and love and will come sheepishly back looking to connect with you again. We'll see. You deserve love and attention and connection, in person and online, and I'm sorry that--at least as it feels to me--I held out the promise of giving you that and then had to withdraw it.

so. there's all that. My dash is super quiet these days, thwarting my dopamine search but pushing me towards texting friends, towards meditating more fully on Scripture, towards praying over my work and burdens. I hope you can understand and maybe even be glad that, God willing, this is how I'm able and needing to work for the kingdom right now. love you love you

[worriedvision]

Wait am I cooking or charring with this one shot idea?

Reader is an NPC, wanderer is wanderer. Self-aware au, reader keeps hearing people talk about Wanderer positively which isn't an issue until an (obviously not real) update comes along and the story attached reader to Wanderer - quoting them as an official couple.

Reader immediately notes how many people approach them - a LOT of them looking like the wanderer. Identical, apart from the jolty movements. A lot of them joke about how someone so average could get him of all people. Even flicking to characters "on par" with Wanderer.

Basically leads to Wanderer being aware of this only when the reader becomes distant, no longer spending time with him as they've heard that much that they think Wanderer is just keeping them around until someone better takes him. No matter what Wanderer does, he has to wait for the player to go offline before trying to get to them.

When he eventually gets a moment with you - getting caught by another player and playing off a conversation he was about to start with you with an 'Oh, traveler. I was just thinking of you...is that what you wanted to hear?".

Basically you're fed up, and Wanderer unfortunately does NOT have any time to talk to you because of players that log off once they get their 'juice'. It can take months in your time!

He desperately wants to be able to hold you, to do couple things, for people to see just how amazing you are as you've been able to stand by him and hold him accountable. Meanwhile, you're hoping to get over him before he does find someone better than you -as he was an important character, you suppose it would only make sense that you'd have to be the bad person.

How about a plot where you get killed off? No longer able to maintain physical contact with anyone, you have some friends that are no longer 'alive' in genshin - it's almost like an odd combination of a game and a film set?

But ultimately, what ending do you want?

...As I'm typing this out it feels ALSO like a slow burner tbh...

[welcomehomeincorrectquotes]

Frank: Do you want to take this upstairs?

Eddie: Sure!

Frank: Do you have protection?

Eddie: *blinks twice* Why? What's up there?

[idon-twannabeperceived]

Btw seeing gringos trying to dance tango or salsa is so 🫥🫥

Like I don't mind at all bro go off but like put some flavor in there I AM BEGGING i swear u won't die WHERE IS YOUR SOUL DO YOU NOT HAVE A HEART

[blooming-cecilia]

here's a thought: we all know by now that scene in furina's demo where she imitates other archons on the swing yeah?

i had the thought while watching it again,, what if she studied up on other nation's lores particularly how their archons (and other highly revered beings, ex, adepti) are like or how they are depicted in human literature and historical writings?

like... she had absolutely no idea how to be a god, and an actor does need to be acquainted with their role to ne able to portray and embody it... call it role study lol

[graysanatimony]

I had only meant the “joker out things that live in my head from the carpe diem series” to be a one off 5 minute video then I realised it was only 3 of the 10 odd videos from that series and there was a lot more than just what was in those videos. so now I’m in the process of making another one with the rest of it, it will probably be at least two more videos so that the file isn’t too big for tumblr to upload and they will probably be up before the end of today

[trentcrimminallybeautiful]

help this post has infected my brain i can't stop thinking about some journalist ex-colleague of trent's just watching the entirety of richmond's football team + several members of the staff (including ted lasso) scoop him up and sprint across the pitch holding him aloft. this has so much comedic potential. im just picturing so many different like. tableaus. jan maas giving an absolutely stoic trent crimm a piggyback ride. exact same position but it's jamie tartt and trent crimm appears to be pointing directly ahead as tartt cackles and charges. they topple over. dani rojas has elected to carry him bridal style for some reason. sam obinsanya, who was supposed to be one of the reasonable ones, follows his example. one of the players has trent fully sitting on his shoulders somehow and somehow they don't fall. both the participating coaches (ted and beard) simply throw him over their shoulder and book it. for one of them he appears to be laughing loudly for the other his arms are crossed and he is making such a pointed expression of grumpy tolerance (like a cat who has been picked up and is resigned to it but he's not gonna like it!) that it is clearly exaggerated. trent makes exactly one (1) attempt to carry someone else (it's roy) and he actually does fairly well considering but they do end up sprawled on the grass and just. roy flat on his back staring at the sky, trent having half pushed himself up on his elbows, hair a complete mess, laughing. they're all arguing about times. there are fans sitting in on practice who can Just See All This. like. you know how there's like bullshit nothing articles about dumb shit? just. some "article" that's like "richmond appear to be doing wife-carrying races as training for some reason, and even more bafflingly, trent crimm appears to be the wife in question. anyway here's our top twenty photos of this because it is funny and weirdly wholesome." and then it's all over twitter for like three days. trent's ex-wife is texting him like "babe why are you a meme now". keeleys like "good news this is great pr! bad news [sends trent a candid shot of ted scooping him up unexpectedly and trent very obviously blushing]" and trents like "ah." some of the photos are hilariously blurred in motion. they're pretty much all smiling. forget about the realistic "but would they get criticism for not taking practice seriously" shhhh. everyone is enjoying this. it's about the wholesome nature of the whole team playing around and genuinely having fun together and also trent is too. formerly feared respected scary journalist cackling like a little kid while balanced precariously on the shoulders of a premiere league footballer. it's cute. it's also extremely funny. how did anyone find this dork scary

[thesis-rose]

Okay so this might be me overthinking about last night but why didn’t Adam suggest to Max about teaming up with The Aclaimed or The Kindgom. I mean i do kinda understand why Adam wouldn’t want Max to have to team up with them but what about The aclaimed people who do really want to help MJF (and who he ultimately teams up with for match)

Why did Adam only tell Max to go with Somoa Joe. Like MJF did raise a point with how Somoa Joe did injure his neck.

Idk if anyone wants to put there own theories to this question please do I would love to read and message me if you want to talk about any of this.

[kabukeo]

tonight's little doodles

[deaconsleatherpants]

The Sharpest Lives (Are the Deadliest to Lead)

Summary: Shelton's increasingly stringent rules for your safety had always struck you as infuriatingly excessive, but after a rival gang kidnaps you in an attempt to get to him, you're left anxious and traumatized from the experience. This, of course, is something Shelton can't let stand.

Fandom: Mega Time Squad (2018)

Rating: M (hurt/comfort: descriptions of a kidnapping, mildly explicit blood/violence, and descriptions of panic attacks)

Relationship: Shelton/Reader

Chapters: 1/1

Link

Reading List - ( @brughy @strange-birdy-me @gigabats @papyblook )

[dawdlecentric]

好きだから -- ぼ虹の日 edit

This is very self indulgent and I wasn't even expecting to finish it in time for boniji day. Maybe I just love the pairing so much I wanna make something for it also cuz I still haven't drawn anything about them lately cuz depression go brrrrr

This is initially from Nijika's POV towards Bocchi but some lyrics strayed from that especially the dog part and the last one. But this could also be from Bocchi's POV visualizing Nijika's feelings about her since the edit did start and end with Bocchi in it so...yeah that's how this edit is interpreted (also I kinda got stuck of not knowing what clips that could fit in some parts so ignore if most of the clips are from episode 8)

Btw at the 「またね」 and 「また明日」 part, I was originally going to put the same lines by both Nijika & Bocchi from the show but it sounds out of place so I scrapped it. Tho if I'm better at editing I could make it work and blend it along with the song without it sounding weird (but I'm not :P)

Another thing is that although the lyrics did say 授業 (class) / 放課後部 (after-school club) / LINE in some parts, I changed it to バイト (part time job or in this case I chose work) / 帰宅部 (go-home club) / LOINE to fit the terms in BTR

[sweet-berrry]

So at the end of 21, Martin barges through the door and we hear squelching noises. John even yells "What are these things?" Implying that Martin entered the archive with multiple worms either on him, chasing him, or maybe captured as evidence. But there's no mention of any worms actually making it into the building in 22? Which seems like it would be a big deal when discussing security upgrades like they do towards the end of the episode. Instead of even hinting that there might be a worm inside, all conversation goes towards keeping the worms out. Never acknowledging the fact that clearly multiple worms made it inside. (And as for the "captured" option, there is no mention of Martin making any attempts to catch one in his statement, and Martin actually stresses his lack of physical evidence multiple times)