#Peter and Remus underrated friendship

[marvelomadness06]

Headcannon that Peter and Remus were as close James and Sirius were

Headcannon that Peter took the blame for the prank because he knew that it would break Remus if he were ever to know the truth

Headcannon that James had no idea, as Peter had found Sirius first after the incident

Headcannon that Peter was completely outlawed by everyone but Sirius, and even he could barely get away with talking to him without raising suspicion

Headcannon that he was eventually forgiven but never quite treated and trusted as one of the group ever again

Headcannon that Peter grew resentful and bitter over the course of time, which led to his eventual betrayal of James and Lily

Headcannon that when Sirius was dragged away to Azkaban by the aurors, he was no longer laughing manically, but sobbing hysterically

‘I’m sorry Pete, it should’ve been me, I’m so sorry’

[elysianymph]

sirius and mary being close friends in their early years at hogwarts and mistaking that closeness and comfort as romantic feelings so they start dating and they're both happy bc it just means they have more excuses to spend time together. they tried to kiss but it just doesn't feel right so they conclude that they need more time together bc they're just too young for something like that, but neither of them ever initiates romantic contact like that again. so they just date for like a whole year without realizing that this is not how actual relationships work. when they finally come to the conclusion that they are not made for each other romantically, they continue dating just to feel safe but spend all their time alone talking about their crushes.

meanwhile the people who have actual crushes on them are devastated thinking they've lost all their chances.

[del-stars]

explain your fav underrated marauders era character? and tag with #underratedmarauders

okay love this!! she's def not the most underrated but she is MY favorite & that is marlene mckinnon. she is Very Personal To Me so here's my essay:

marlene loses a lot of her teenage years to just like. depression and anger at the world and being dissatisfied with herself. my girl is just constantly mad. she fights a lot with her parents (why can't you just go back to being our sweet little girl?) and gets too mad about quidditch (why do you care so much?) and she has no idea why. she wants to be different, wants to be the girl her mom wants her to be, and yet she just can't. she's a force to be reckoned with, she's all hard edges and split knuckles, she's the best beater at hogwarts and she doesn't take shit from anyone, but sometimes she looks in the mirror and wonders how she got this way. she looks at the first-year girls, all smiles and bows in their hair and giggles, and wonders if it's going to happen to them, too.

and then she graduates. and she's excited to leave hogwarts, to leave that part of herself behind, to grow up and get better. she expects this big, bright world where she can change herself and become someone that she actually likes. the glimmer fades very quickly when she realises that she's stuck in the middle of a war, and there's no time for healing when you've got to do so much fighting. but she's going to do it. she has this determination to be better, to be different, to stop blowing up at people and start being more levelheaded and even get along better with her mom. she's got her entire life ahead of her, she's got every opportunity to ditch the angsty teen girl act and be someone good. there is a marlene in the distance, at the end of her twenties, who looks in the mirror and is happy with what she sees. she just has to make it there.

and so, when she hears peter's laughter ringing down the halls of her family home, hears the sounds of her parents' and brothers' bodies hitting the floor, hears the footsteps thundering toward the bathroom she's locked herself in, her first thought is not yet. she's going to get better, she has to fucking get better, and now it's all going to be cut short. she just doesn't get the chance. she doesn't ever meet that marlene at the end of the road. she dies a lost 21 year old, and nobody ever gets to find out who she was going to become.

maybe i am,,, projecting onto her as a 23 year old girl but she is the patron saint of twentysomething girls to me. confusion, clawing desperately at your soul to try and find yourself, wondering if you'll ever be better than you were at seventeen. and i can't think of anything sadder than not getting to survive this phase of my life, putting all this work in and never getting to see the outcome of it.

in conclusion: they all say that it gets better, it gets better, but what if i don't?

[mrsfrecklesmarauders]

We all talk about how Sirius and James sneaked into each other's beds to talk about random stuff at night. And how close they were because of it.

But I like to believe that Remus and Peter talked as well, when they bumped into each other on the way to the loo and the way back to bed and one of them noticed the other sad or melancholic.

It wasn't as frequent and common as Sirius and James, the bffs, but they got closer because of these late night talks.

Peter trusted Remus with many things, especially about his insecurities and fears, because Remus felt them as well. And Remus told Peter not to compare himself to Sirius or James. To love himself more.

And Peter was like: "You are very special and worth it as well, Moony. Don't forget about it"

It was mainly them complimenting and cheering each other up.

[twink-remus-lupin]

my unpopular marauders opinions

- remus is trans coded

- sirius and james were the tallest

- jegulus is a bad ship

- regulus is aroace

- snape was awful

- james was better for lily

- atyd remus is too mean to be canon (i like him he’s just not canon remus)

- peter was a good friend until the betrayal

- remus & james have an underrated friendship

- jily is one of the best maruaders era ships

- the slytherin skittles were terrible people and we’re acting like they’re all gay icons with tons of piercings who like wearing crop tops and blah blah

- ^ like no they were racists??

- i still don’t like jegulus if you’re looking for a good mlm ship WOLFSTAR IS RIGHT THERE

- rosekiller is a good ship i just don’t like how they’re characterized in fanon

- sirius wasn’t feminine

- remus is gay and sirius is queer

- sirius was a ladies man before he and remus got together

- marlene is a lesbian

- dorcas is also a lesbian

- marylily isn’t a good ship

- james is straight

- james was more sirius’s brother than regulus ever was

- sirius wasn’t a monster for leaving regulus he was just a kid

- hope lupin was an amazing mother

- remus wasn’t angry after the prank, just heartbroken. it was james and peter that were angry

- remus, peter and james were super close, especially post-prank

- snily is literally the worst goddamn ship ever

- wolfstar is oversexualized in the fandom

- remus had daddy issues

- james was desi

- the marauders weren’t that popular they were just nerds

- james has adhd

- remus is made way too mean/possessive/overly masc in 90% of fanon

- people make sirius gender-fluid just because he has long hair

[danaris112]

TROTO EPISODE TWO WAS SO GOOD

I really liked the friendship between Regulus and Dorcas. They're so underrated and it was really sweet seeing Regulus encourage Dorcas to ask out Marlene. I also really liked how worried Dorcas was about what her friends would think, especially considering how that changes over the course of the episode

And then there was Dumbledore asking Remus to join the Order. I get why he did it, since it would be an advantage for their side if they could convince the werewolves not to join up with Voldemort, but Remus is so young. And James and Sirius being so willing to fight and so confident that they would be fine made me so sad. They're just kids, and they shouldn't be fighting in a war, but they also don't really have a choice. The war will affect them, whether they fight or not

And Peter just broke my heart. He's scared, he doesn't want to lose his friends or his own life, but he's pressured to join. I actually think that he was the most pragmatic one. He is terrified, but justifiably so, while James, Sirius and Remus don't seem to fully understand what joining the war will be like. Of course, like I said, they don't really have a choice. But I just feel like they're overconfident, and aren't as scared as they should be

AND JAMES IS WEARING RED CONVERSE

I also really liked the conversation between James and Lily. They're so sweet, and I love how Lily is finally seeing how James changed, which is now letting them become closer

Everyone singing "happy birthday" to Sirius was so adorable. Lily being the only adult was also really funny

And then, there was Barty. Let's just say that he's not my favourite at the moment

But that scene with Dorcas was so heart-wrenching for me. Dorcas is finally seeing that her friends aren't the best people, and she's angry about that. Her confronting Barty made me applaud her. But it also really hurt seeing how Evan and Regulus weren't really stepping in, and while they didn't take Barty's side, they also didn't take hers. It's the moment she really realizes that she has completely opposing views from her friends, and that she can't simply ignore it for the sake of their friendship anymore. And she shouldn't have to

Off-topic, but I really love Dorcas' earrings

And then, we have Regulus, Barty and Evan talking about what happened. Regulus is torn up about what happened, and you can see how he hesitates with agreeing with Barty. And with what happened last episode, it really just seems to me like he doesn't fully agree with the views of his friends and family, but he also doesn't want to betray them. It's different from Evan, who seems to agree with Barty more, and the only reason he's not as loud about his views as Barty is because he doesn't want to damage his friendship with Dorcas

And Pandora putting flowers in Regulus' hair was just so sweet. I love their friendship, and I love how Pandora is willing to be there for Regulus, but also doesn't compromise her own values for it (like when she refused to call Sirius nasty names). I definitely feel like there will be conflict between Pandora and the others for the same reason as Dorcas. This episode really showed us the cracks in their friendship, and how those cracks are only widening because of the war

I also just really loved Dorcas and Marlene. They were off to a rough start, but then Dorcas came to Marlene to talk, which is how they became closer. And their flirting was just so cute. Even if Dorcas' friendship with the others is falling apart, I'm really glad she has Marlene

And another James and Lily scene! I still really love how they're growing closer and being friendly, especially since they were also off to a rough start

Regulus apologizing to Dorcas was... interesting. He really seems to want to fix their friendship, but like I said earlier, he doesn't want to betray the views of his friends and family. He can't choose Dorcas over them, so instead of it fixing their friendship, his apology only drives them further apart. And Marlene punching him was unexpected, but absolutely deserved

I loved Barty and Evan playing chess together. They have such good chemistry, and their banter is really fun. I also liked how they mentioned that Regulus and Pandora always go off on their own. Their friendship means everything to me

Dorcas and Marlene holding hands was just really cute, as well as Dorcas healing Marlene's hand. Neither of them seem the least bit remorseful about punching Regulus, which is totally fair, honestly

[junkiepunkie]

underrated marauders friendships

ok, yes James and Sirius. Yes Remus and Lilly, yes Regulus and Barty.

but can we stop for a minute and consider Remus and James, Sirius and Lilly, Sirius and Mary, Peter and Remus, and, my personal contraversial one... Remus and Regulus

I just think we all need me RegRem content.

[messrsrarchives]

I'd love to hear your headcanons about Peter, specifically his friendships with the other 3 marauders on like an individual basis?

hi hello :3 pete is my guy fr (ask game)

okay so the marauder he's closest to? remus (i've been having a lot of thoughts about romantic moontail today but that's another post i fear). remus is the one he can be quiet with, he can just sit back with, they understand each other. remus helps pete out with school work and lets pete help him with herbology even if he doesn't need it, pete is a shorts and shirt guy through and through but he starts taking remus' cardigans and remus is 100% okay with this. it's just,,, comfortable. they can get into debates, they can be quiet and chill together, pete is the one collecting remus' classwork after moons and it's after the prank where they realllyyyyy become friends yk? that solidifies it for them

sirius and peter !? underrated friendship. i dislike the sirius hates peter trope. sirius goes to pete vefore a quidditch match and asks for the rundown on stats, what he thinks is their best plan of action etc etc. peter buys sirius fun laces for his docs, sirius introduces peter to new music. sirius doesn't "show off" as much with pete and he does with james and yk what? sirius is the only one who can hold his ground with peter at chess. they have a very practiced??? is that the word??? friendship. very strategic and teamly, until they aren't and all that quidditch, prank, and chess strategy comes in handy at The End.

james and pete,,, a bit dicier. unrequited prongstail is canon to me (and yk what i love requited too) but pete and james' friendship gets a lot more disjointed as the years go on and peter starts to realise how he feels. james doesn't notice, remus does though. pete and james were joined at the hip as kids and did everything together and then,,, well it's the same. just plagued by the fact peter knows that this is all it will be. it's a lovely, familiar friendship but it hurts that that's all it is

overarching hc: pete's love language is food but not in the way everyone always makes it. it's pete sending effie a letter in first year asking for her to send over some of her recipes for him to sneak into the kitchens and make for james (he's been feeling homesick and peter wants to help out). he uses his herbology knowledge for remus. remus hates potions, hates the taste, hates the necessity, hates the fact he has to chug them down so often so pete uses his herbology knowledge to infuse chocolate!! he finds what works best and he makes them something thats still so remus, but helps him out at the same time. and for sirius? pete teaches sirius that family meals are so different to what he knows. he puts his elbows on the table and invites sirius to do the same, he introduces sirius to finger foods and made him his first sandwich, he is adamant that the marauders sit and eat together for at least one meal a day and they fill with it with laughter and jokes and crumb-dusted fingertips that are nothing like grimmauld place. pete's mum always makes the best food and pete strives to share that comfort with the boys and being them into his lil family.

[enbysiriusblack]

What is your favorite underrated friendship?

james & remus.

strong second contender is peter & sirius (maybe lily & sirius, but i feel like they're popular? but also i may have just curated my blog to see lots of lilypad so idk)

[annabtg]

I have to ask why is the marauders fandom so obsessed with Sirius and his looks? You guys act like he’s this Casanova but there’s no proof of it. Yes, he’s mentioned to be good looking but I’ve met my fair share of pretty boys who turn me off as soon as they open their mouths. Everything around Sirius is always made so sexual… it’s either Wolfstar or Jilypad. It’s like you guys can’t get over this looks and dig deeper into his personality, family history, and his life story. There’s so much material and stories that could be told but everyone focuses on his looks and it’s so condescending. If you guys do tell his story it’s like 20% his story 80% of everyone trying to shag him. I can’t find one story that actually does a great job of telling the brotherhood between the marauders, without turning it into some story of how everyone is obsessed with Sirius’ looks. James and Sirius were brothers in every way but in blood. We don’t know much about Lily and Sirius but with the letter sent she obviously cared enough to reach out to him because James missed his best friend and was having a hard time at the cottage. Remus and Sirius relationship is tragic and isn’t talked about enough. The guy was willing to become an animagus to help him but didn’t trust him enough to think I he was working against the order? Then there’s Peter who is by far the most underrated marauder and fooled them all, and got Sirius sentenced to Azkaban for 12 years. There’s so much more to Sirius then his looks and making up sexual relationships with the marauders. I used to love marauder fandom but the new writers have ruined everything and turned it into stories of everyone wanting to shag Sirius. There’s no plot, no story line, only the whole wizarding world fawning over how gorgeous Sirius is.

My poor dear anon,

What shallow, misguided corners of the fandom have you found yourself into?

I don't know if you found me through my writing or my latest shitpost. Probably the latter, because if you'd spent any time around here, you'd know that Sirius, for me, is so much more than someone to fawn over and shag - he's one of the most intelligent, most loyal, most characters and I'm fascinated by so many more of his facets than his indubitable handsomeness. (I do love to thirst over good artwork of him, but that's not exclusive to him.) I don't really have much tolerance for people who view Sirius as the person you describe and I don't engage with them.

But let's take a look at some definitions before we proceed.

1. The Marauders fandom. These days this is a term that hardly means anything, as it's been liberally adopted by anyone who focuses on any HP character who was alive sometime before Halloween 1981. Wolfstar shippers and Jilypad shippers, for instance, are two different groups with very little overlap, in my experience.

2. Sexualization. Sexualization means to reduce someone to their physical attractiveness and sexual potential and ignore their other qualities and characteristics. It does not mean being in a romantic relationship and/or having sex.

So, anon, I believe one of two things is what's at play here:

Possibility #1: You found yourself in some corner of the fandom that does sexualize Sirius. I don't know where that might be - I think even Wolfstar doesn't do that (it seems to me that they have the opposite problem these days, sexualizing Remus instead!). My main ship is Jily, though, and I find that overall people here have great appreciation for Sirius.

Come to the dark side. We have cookies biscuits, we appreciate Sirius as a friend to James and Lily (oh look, a whole fic fest dedicated to Sirius's friendship with Lily!), and while himbo Casanova Sirius used to be a popular trope in the mid-00s, I haven't seen it in fic since I got back into fandom two years ago.

(Disclaimer: There are always going to be thirsty fics. Prongsfoot, Lilypad and Jilypad, which I delve into, are not devoid of that either. And sometimes you just acknowledge that Sirius is one of the hottest characters in HP and just want to see him in action. Those fics are E-rated and usually pretty easy to avoid, and do not, in my experience, constitute the norm of how Sirius is treated within these fandoms.)

Possibility #2: You just don't like shippy fic at all; you want to read gen instead. That's completely valid, and I understand that completely non-shippy fic is hard to find. Especially with Jily being canon, so if you have to explore Sirius in a canon context there's probably going to at least be a side of Jily - that people always tag, because ships make or break fics for lots of readers, and it's recommended to tag for even minor presence or mention of a ship.

It does seem to me that the Marauders fandom now is more ship-focused than it used to be, I agree with you. I feel like gen fic back then was easier to find. I'd attribute that to a lot of us being older now and more interested in more "adult" situations, where some sort of romance is usually present, compared to the mostly teenaged fandom of 20 years ago that was more concerned with friendship and teenage shenanigans. But there are still people interested in Sirius and his non-romantic relationships with others - like those of us who wrote for Blackevans BFF fest (linked previously) and the people writing for @goodgodfathersiriusblack.

Bottomline: Do you want good quality Sirius content, or do you want Sirius content exactly how you want it? I can help with the first - stick around for posts, fics and recs. For the second, you'll have to be the change you want to see in the world.

[strznringz]

Sometimes I love the marauders friendships more than the ships itself like hello??

Marlene,Peter & James (practically siblings)

Regulus & pandora (platonic soulmates)

Sirus & mary (underrated besties)

Lily & remus (also platonic soulmates!!!)

[iamintoomanyfandomsistg]

James and Remus's friendship 😭✨

(I ahve no idea what tehir like anme is -wolf buck???, wolfchaser?? sunwolf???) Just a rant abt James and remus

BRO, James and Remus’s friendship is like so underrated. Yes, Remus loves Sirius with hsi whole, and Sirius was his best friend, but let’s be completely honest—Sirius was notalways the nicest. Sometimes Remus needed the special bond James and Remus had; they were just together in peace, loyal to each other, and Remus admired James just like all the Marauders did. James was the first friend Remus had, he was the one who wanted to be friends with Remus and Remus never forgets that. (lets be fr rn, Sirius was still a posh stuck up boy for most of his first year, not yet melted down by James; warmth, hence he wouldn't have even glanced towards scrubby Remus) James was like a mother to Remus, force-feeding him when he was refusing to eat, pulling him away from his books, and giving him proper notes (because as much as Sirius loves Remus, he CANNOT take notes for the life of him).

No one talks about James after THE PRANK, but that’s a whole other rant about James himself. As for James and Remus’s friendship post-prank, Remus would be forever indebted to James. James would definitely be Remus’s best friend for the weeks after THE PRANK. They had such a delicate and cozy bond that no one talks about. Yeah, cozy is the perfect word. They weren’t platonic soulmates who told everything to each other and VIBED (Sirius and james); they weren’t dopey in love with each other (wolfstar), and they definitely weren’t strangers. They were just cozy.

Remus was the person James could just be quiet around. He could wind down and not worry about having to be loud and happy for people (like he had to around Sirius or Peter or literally all of Gryffindor), just sitting in comfortable silence for hours. This probably happened a lot during the winter breaks when Sirius would be forced home by his parents, Peter would go home, Remus would stay at Hogwarts, and James would stay for Remus.

James saw the goodness in Remus that sometimes Remus couldn't see in himself, and Sirius was too busy (or nervous) to point out. James was always there to encourage Remus, to challenge him, and to remind him of his worth. Even though they weren’t BEST FRIENDS (like James and Sirius) or lovers, they had their own peaceful friendship, and it isn’t talked about enough.

(THE STRUGGLE TO FIND FANART OF JUST THESE TWO)

[poolpvrty]

Favourite underrated character/headcanons about them??

had to take a minute to think about this because I'm honestly not sure... maybe peter? i don't have too many headcanons for him because i really enjoy his personality/character in canon and i don't want to mess with it too much, but i do have a few!

he grew up sheltered with only his mother for company, no sisters or brothers and no father figure. i like the idea that his mom has some sort of mental illness (severe and dibilitating contamination OCD, bipolar disorder with psychotic features, maybe munchausen by proxy) and this leads to their relationship morphing into something wildly unhealthy. peter is rarely let out of the house due to his mother's varying fears and he's forced to take on an almost care taker role with her, despite him only being a kid.

↑ this leads to his own issues being overlooked/never seen by anyone other than his mother. I've seen the hc that peter is a psychopath or a sociopath a few times, and i do think it's really intriguing. like i can totally get behind him being a sociopath and hiding it from his friends for years. but i like the idea of peter just being a selfish, unopinionated coward with no clinical reason for it way more. but i subscribe to both visions.

he has the biggest, most disgustingly obsessive crush on james. it developed very early on in their friendship, and it only gets worse as the years go by. he silently despises lily/anyone james gets romantically involved with because he's so unbelievably devoted to james it's actually a little insane. I'm talking genuine worship. james potter can do absolutely no wrong in peter's eyes, he is a saint among men and nobody can love him the way peter loves him. the first time peter ever has thoughts of harming others is when lily insults james publicly for the first time because how dare she say anything negative about the most perfect person alive

adding onto this: i hc that peter is bisexual but male leaning. however, I've seen him as demisexual/demiromantic before and i really like that, too! although, i don't think peter would actively try to find a label that aligns with his feelings. i don't even think it would be something he thinks about, he just is who he is and he's fine with that. i can picture remus one day mentioning/describing the term bisexual to the group and peter briefly thinks something like "oh yeah that's me i guess" before moving on completely but that's pretty much it.

he's pretty much average in most school subjects, but out of his friends he's the best at arithmancy and ancient runes. peter isn't nearly as academically or strategically intelligent as the other 3 boys but he isn't a complete idiot!! he did just fine in school, passed most of his exams, and was a solid part of the marauders joint mischief making (he was their friend for a reason guys, c'mon...) i also really like the hc that while, yes, sirius james and remus were better in classes than him, peter was talented at thinking on the fly. much more than they were. he's a huge procrastinator and pressure drives him to not only complete tasks, but to do them well. the other boys look to him in times of crises (eg. escaping filch, lying to teachers, etc.) because peters brain just works faster than theirs do when adrenaline is pumping.

he's a fantastic liar. i mean truly, it's absurd and a little scary. the boys used to treat it as some sort of joke because they often underestimated him, but peter is a very talented manipulator. if sirius is good at charming those around him, peter is good at straight up gaslighting you and making you doubt yourself/your memory. he's so meek and quiet and kind that you really wouldn't expect it, but that's exactly why it works so well for him. he's an observer, he gages peoples emotions with ease because he's always watching and listening, he knows how to act and what to say to make you feel crazy. and he does it for fun sometimes. i like thinking he's a pathological liar, too (sirius is the only one who picks up on this, and it's part of the reason why he asks him to be secret keeper instead → 1. he's less noticable as a person, 2. peter is literally so good at talking his way out of things he'd be fine regardless).

i have more thoughts on peter but these are probably my favorite things to think about! especially the bit with his mom. i rarely see anyone giving headcanons for his upbringing/home life and it kinda irks me... me personally, i picture young peter as this kinda morally repugnant ten year old staring longingly out his bedroom window at the neighborhood kids. because he desperately wants friends but he literally isn't allowed to leave the house... and also people sort of terrify him. meanwhile his mother has her face against their kitchen floor scrubbing at the tiles with a tooth brush and bleach. he's talking her down from a complete mental breakdown whenever she's convinced she somehow accidentally put a dead animal in their dinner and he's helping her clean their already basically sterile bathroom on christmas eve. the whole situation is so unhealthy and toxic and suffocating... but it's consequences are so fun to think about

[mrsfrecklesmarauders]

Peter was nothing compared to his friends. Sirius was handsome and charming. Just with a little smile of his, girls giggled and sighed. James was confident and funny. Everyone wanted to be his friend, everyone wanted to be around him. He was a winner. And Remus was smart, sarcastic and many girls considered him cute.

Peter didn't have a particular quality. He wasn't handsome, funny or smart. He was just average.

Susan had been the only girl that had fancied him. His first girlfriend. His first everything. And maybe she would be the only one. And now she was no longer with Peter. Peter felt like there was a hole in his heart. His body ached. He felt miserable. As if it was pouring raining inside him. With a black clowd above his head.

Peter refused to get out of bed that morning. All he wanted to do was cry until he could fall asleep again.

"Woormyyy..." Peter could sense James leaning towards him. Peter rolled his eyes "Waky Waky.... Rise and shine, sweetheart"

"Fuck off!!"

Peter covered himself with the sheets.

"Come on, boo..." James carried on "It's Saturday. We can do something fun, yeah?"

"I told you to fuck off, James!!" Peter's yell sounded muffled "I want to be alone"

There was a moment of silence. Peter hoped his friends would simply just leave. But he knew them well. They were stubborn.

And Peter was angry. It was their fault Peter broke up with Susan. She was making him chose between her and them. But now Peter didn't know why he chose them. The boys didn't really care about Peter. All they did was tease him. They messed up with him and only cared about their stuff. Peter wondered why he made that decision.

"Okay..." James sighed "I was gonna ask you if you wanted to play on my computer... You really like those video games.... But I guess you don't want to"

Peter didn't answer. He could feel tears on his eyes.

"Wormy, maybe eating will help" Remus suggested "You know Manolo gives us pancakes on the weekends"

"I'm not hungry" Peter groaned.

"You cannot stay in bed all day..." Remus added carefully.

"Oh yeah?" Peter asked "Watch me!"

Peter could feel a knot on his throat. He was so angry and sad that he was capable of killing anyone that bothered him.

He heard Sirius sighing.

"Come on, Wormy..." Sirius said "She was just a girl... You can have another one"

Peter's blood boiled. That freaking bastard. How could he say that? As if Susan was an ice-cream cone that had fell on the floor and could be replaced with a new one. Of course he didn't know anything.

Peter got out of the sheets furiously. Sirius was by his bed, smiling casually. Peter wanted to kill him.

"Just a girl?"

Remus and James looked between the Sirius and Peter, afraid of what might happen. Sirius shrugged.

"Yeah. Come on... I can help you get any girl you want"

Peter clenched his teeth.

"Tell me, Sirius" he said "Have you ever been in love?"

Sirius got nervous by that question. Peter saw how his eyes flickered towards Remus before answering.

"No" he shrugged "No, I haven't"

"Of course you haven't, you twat!" Peter got out of bed, facing and challenging Sirius "You are not capable of loving anyone but yourself!!"

"Lads..."James tried to intervene.

"Or maybe you don't even have a heart. You don't even have a brain! You are just a pretty face"

Sirius' mouth twisted and he snorted.

"I don't want to be in love or have a girlfriend if I am going to be bitter like you, Peter" he shook his head "You can't just tore yourself apart and give up on everything just for a stupid girl!"

"Don't say anything about Susan, you freaking wanker!!" Peter raised his voice and he scooped closer. Willing to hurt Sirius. But James put himself between them.

"You see?" Sirius smiled "She brainwashed you"

"Sirius..." Remus warned.

Peter made a fist, ready to punch Sirius.

"I care about you, Peter. You deserve better" Sirius continued.

"Sirius...". James sighed.

"I rather just fool around with plenty of girls than fall pathetically for someone that doesn't care about me. Or wants to separate me from my friends!"

"Shut up..." Peter whispered, clenching his teeth.

"The difference is that I have the guts to actually speak to girls..." Sirius smirked.

"Of course..." Peter rolled his eyes.

"It is not my fault they all are at my feet the minute I open my mouth..."

Peter couldn't take it anymore. He punched Sirius across his pretty fucking face. Hoping it would at least ruin his looks.

"Fuck! Peter!" James exclaimed while Remus was in shock.

Sirius touched his chin. It was bleeding. He bloody deserved it.

"YOU FUCKING BASTARD! IT IS YOUR FAULT! IT IS YOUR FAULT THAT SUSAN LEFT ME!!" Peter was crying. He couldn't take it anymore "SHE LEFT ME AND NOW NO ONE IS GOING TO LOVE ME. I AM GOING TO DIE ALONE BECAUSE I AM UGLY AND STUPID! AND NOBODY IS GOING TO WANT ME! NOBODY WILL LOVE EVER AGAIN!!"

The first breakup was always the most hurtful, they said. But God, this felt worse. Peter felt like was dying.

Peter's friends were silent, not quite believing what Peter was saying.

"Peter..." James tried "That's not..."

"You know what, Sirius?" Peter spat, ignoring James "You might be a pretty face but you are shallow inside. Like a shinny wrapper without any content. You have nothing!! And girls might desire you or whatever but at the end of the day, nobody is going to fucking love you! Not for real! Not like Susan loved me!! Because you are so fucking scared of being yourself. You are just a pathetic little boy that pretends to be a freaking macho man. But you are nothing, Sirius!"

It seemed to be hurting Sirius what Peter was saying but he wasn't able to stop apparently.

"Peter..." James started carefully.

"No! Leave me alone, James!" Peter exclaimed "You don't care! You don't actually care about me!! All you care about is having your little group of followers praising you"

James raised an eyebrow.

"It is easy for you. Everything is easy for you!" Peter continued "It is easy to have any girl you freaking want. Lily doesn't want you, you can have another one. But not for me! I am not as handsome, funny, or interesting as you all! Nobody cares about dumb Peter, do they?"

"Peter, please...." Remus sighed.

"No!" Peter walked to the door "Maybe I shouldn't have chosen you..." then he groaned "JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!"

Peter got out of the room and slammed the door so hard the three boys inside jumped. Then it was pure silence.

Then Sirius hissed and moaned.

"He freaking punched me"

"Well, you bloody deserved it, Sirius" Remus tutted.

"What..."

"You should probably apologize, Sirius" James crossed his arms, like a scolding father "Maybe we should all apologize...That was not cool"

"He was hurting" Remus added "Susan might've been a bitch to us but Peter really cared for her"

"Yeah..." James shrugged "Sirius, you are talking to him..."

"But..."

"You're freaking talking to him!"

Sirius sighed. But he agreed.

"OK" he said. Then he moaned about his chin again.

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Sirius was a coward. Sometimes he scared himself because he might have been turning into his father. A proud macho alpha that uses girls as objects. Someone who is too cool to have feelings. Someone so filled of himself that doesn't have space for others. Sirius had been trying not to be like his family. But maybe he was more like them that he thought. And he hated that.

Sirius wasn't good with words or anything. He sucked at apologizing. But he had to say sorry now. Sometimes Sirius thought that if it would be up to them, Sirius and Peter would never be friends. They were so different from one another. But now that they were, Sirius cared for him. But the problem was that it was easy to be with James. It was easier to be with Remus. And it was hard to be with Peter. Sirius didn't know what to say or how to start.

"There you are..." Sirius said with a trembling voice.

Peter was by the lake. Under the tree they used to hang out. Reading one of his comics or whatever. And he rolled his eyes when he realized Sirius was approaching.

Sirius took a seat next to him anyway, and he began tearing grass. Just to have something to do. Peter was ignoring him.

Sirius opened his mouth but then he chickened out. He was a bloody coward.

"I am sorry, Wormy" he said quickly "You're not longer angry, right?"

Peter was still ignoring him. He snorted angrily.

Sirius closed his eyes and sighed. What would James do in this situation? What would he say?

"I am sorry... I don't..." Sirius started "You were right... I... I've never been in love. And I don't know how a real relationship looks like... So I don't know"

Sirius had always preferred his friends before any girl. He didn't want a girlfriend because he was a free spirit. And no one could tame him. But lately he had been scared of how Remus made him feel. But that was another issue.

And Peter continued without speaking.

"Maybe you are right... Maybe nobody is going to love me"

Peter groaned as he put his book down.

"Says the king of Hogwarts... Everyone wants you"

"Only because of my face... And the fact I am rich and a Black..." Sirius answered "I am pretty sure that if people knew me, the real me, nobody would want me"

Sirius remembered his mother's words: OH please, who would love you, Sirius. With an impossible temper and your tantrums... Nobody will stand you.

"That's not true..." Peter sighed.

"I rather be more like you..."

Peter raised an eyebrow "Like me?"

"Yeah" Sirius nodded "You're genuine and you are naturally funny and you have a cool sexy mum..."

Peter hit his arm "Watch your mouth, Black. That's my mum you're talking about!"

Sirius giggled "Well, I am not blind. She is hot"

Peter hit him again and Sirius whined in pain.

"Okay!" Sirius smiled "My point is that any girl would want you, Peter... You just have to find the right one. And Susan wasn't..."

Peter's eyes filled with tears again.

"Do you think someone that tries to get you away from your friends is someone good? She just wanted you to herself and that's not fair. You are crucial part of the Marauders and our operations"

Peter shrugged, looking down and playing with the grass as well.

"You are right. That's why I broke up with her"

Sirius gave him a pat in the shoulder.

"Sorry about that. You deserve someone better"

Peter's smile twisted into a smile.

"So do you... I am sorry I said all those things about being you shallow and shit..."

Sirius nodded. But Peter had been right. So right.

"And sorry for punching you... Although I really wanted to do that. It felt so good..."

"Thank you, Boo" Sirius said sarcastically.

"You're welcome"

Peter smiled which made Sirius smile because everything was okay between them. They even giggled.

"So what does it feel like?" Sirius asked, feeling his cheeks on fire.

"What? To punch you?"

Sirius laughed.

"Pretty great actually"

"No..." Sirius giggled "To be in love"

It was an embarrassing question. These matters of the heart weren't Sirius' forte. What if his mother was right and nobody could love him or what if he cared about someone and they left him? Why was Remus running through his mind now? He quickly shook that thought away.

"Oh!" Peter shrugged "I actually don't know..."

"Weren't you in love with Susan?"

Peter shook his head "I don't think so... I mean I was but not for real, you know? I don't think she was the love of my life... "

Sirius nodded. "All these trouble for someone you didn't even love?"

"Shut up, wanker!"

Sirius laughed.

"It still hurts though"

Sirius ruffled Peter's hair.

"I know... You will be alright" Sirius smiled "You got us"

Peter nodded "And a possible sexy girl you are going to get me?"

Sirius giggled "We'll see, Wormy boo. We'll see"

"Pinky promise?"

"Promise"

And their pinkies intertwined fixing the friendship again.

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Remus and James friendship! Their friendship is underrated

i agree nonnie!! i think a lot of the friendships and dynamics within the marauders group are heavily underrated and should be explored a lot more!!! remus and james is definitely one of them, but also remus and peter, james and peter, sirius and peter. i think ppl tend to focus a lot on james and sirius (which . fair bc their dynamic is incredibly compelling and all of us love their codependent friendship) when there are a lot more of very interesting combinations going on there!!