#Part Four

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── .✦ [ FIC ]: can i really stay here? [ part four ]

[ part one & part two & part three ]

mullet stanley pines x innkeeper reader

tags: angst, fluff, hurt/comfort, sfw

word count: 1531

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it took you about a half hour to get ready.

okay, maybe you spent a solid five minutes screaming into a pillow, but that’s besides the point.

descending the staircase of the inn, you emerged in the lobby, dressed up and dreamy. stan pines has spent years perfecting his poker face, but when he laid eyes on you, he couldn’t stop his jaw from dropping.

he was so glad that he gambled on a ‘yes.’

“sweet moses.” he breathed, rubbing his face with one hand before taking another good, long look at you.

“how do i look?” you carefully pushed a stray hair back into place, glancing expectantly at your flabbergasted date.

“like you fell from heaven.” a smug grin grew on his face. he was smitten. “i’d offer you my arm, but you look too perfect to touch.”

his charm was working wonders on you. you chuckled softly, rosy cheeks hinting at the feelings that raged within. “i’m far from perfect, you know.”

he held out his hand to you, his voice low. “not in my eyes, doll. i call you angel for a reason.”

you took his hand, and he led you out to where his car was parked. he made a point of opening the passenger side door for you, shutting it after you were situated and coming around to the driver’s side.

you could faintly smell the cigarette smoke that stubbornly clung onto the car, but he had totally cleaned up the interior, having crammed all his things into the trunk and scrubbed away troublesome stains. there was even a small pine tree air freshener hanging from the rearview mirror.

“i hope y’like the place i picked. it ain’t much, but i figured it’d be nice.” starting the engine, he snaked his arm around the back of your headrest, looking over his shoulder as he reversed out of the parking lot and made his way out onto the road. you could feel yourself practically buzzing with excitement and curiosity, smiling and folding your hands in your lap.

it was about a five-minute car ride, and neon lights illuminating the bustling cityscape made for a nice view. you found yourself pulling into the parking lot of one of the nicest restaurants in town. wait a second …

your brows rose. “stan, this is—”

you were cut off as he shushed you, waving his hand dismissively. “don’t even think about it. don’t worry about it. just let me do this for ya, alright?”

“but—”

his hand gently pushed your mouth shut from underneath your chin, tilting your head towards him. “it’s my turn t’ be the nice one. ya got it?”

all you could do was silently nod your head. you wanted to question how much this was costing him, but it was obvious that he didn’t want you to know that.

a moment later, you walked into the restaurant, and a waiter led you to your table. sitting down across from stan, you looked around the place, fascinated.

“you know, i’ve always wanted to check this place out, but i’ve just never had a reason to.” you smiled, returning your focus to him. “this is exciting!”

“oh yeah? huh, musta been a lucky guess.” he sighed, his eyes narrowing as he gazed at you.

the waiter came around, and you placed your orders. stanley could barely take his eyes off you the whole time, and they stayed just as glued in place after the waiter left.

“so, i’m gonna cut to the chase …” he paused, fidgeting with a fork on the table, never breaking eye contact.

“... i wanna know everything about you.”

you felt your face heat up. he was staring at you with a lot more intent than he had the last time you’d gone out to eat together.

“you do? … everything?”

“you heard me.” his tone was soft, but serious. “whatever you’re willing t' share, i’ll gratefully take.”

your heart beat louder in your chest. this man genuinely wanted to get closer to you.

“well … my mom is a schoolteacher, and my dad works for the bank.” you stroked your chin thoughtfully. “i’ve always been told i’m good at hosting people. i think that’s sort of what inspired me to open an inn in the first place.”

you continued to infodump about your life, your passions, and whatever else came to mind. stanley was loving every single second of it. he’d occasionally pipe in with a comment on something you’d said, but for the most part, he just gazed dreamily, leaning his head against one hand.

the conversation kept on going throughout the meal, and the two of you took turns talking while the other took a few bites of food. you hadn’t spent quality time with someone like this in so long—you’ve only been worried about minding the inn for the past few years—and you found that you were totally captivated by him.

you wanted to stay like this forever.

after swallowing a mouthful of food, you met his warm brown eyes with your own. “hey, stan?”

“hmm?”

“how long are you staying for?”

he paused, setting down his utensil and straightening in his seat.

“i mean … i wanna keep doing this with you.” your voice was quieter. “getting to know each other, just … talking. but … i know your stay with me is probably temporary …”

his bit his lower lip for a moment, looking down. the bill came, and he scribbled a signature, handing the waiter a few folded bills along with the receipt.

“let’s head out, yeah?”

“okay …”

the car ride back to the inn was silent, save for the ambience of surrounding traffic and the low hum of the radio. there was a certain tension hanging in the air.

pulling into the parking lot, stan put the car in park, taking the key out.

“look.”

he shifted in his seat, turning his body towards you. nervously, he reached one hand out, placing it on your arm and capturing your attention.

“i’ve been walking a tightrope for what feels like forever. and … i don’t know if i’ll get the privilege of keeping you in my life.”

your heart skipped a beat.

he took a deep breath. “i know damn well i don’t deserve you. hell, you’re the best thing that ever happened to me. when i’m with you, i feel like i can be appreciated by somebody …” he swallowed a lump in his throat.

“... nobody has ever made me feel that way before.”

tears welled up quietly. he clenched his teeth, fighting to keep his composure, but ultimately failing.

“i … i had no … idea how much i needed that. how much i needed you.”

a single tear rolled down his cheek, succeeded by another … and another. he was choking the words out.

“i … know we haven’t known each other that long, but … do you … feel it, too?”

there was desperation in his voice, in his eyes.

it was as if he were asking for a miracle.

tears were already clouding your vision. turning in your seat, you gently wrapped your arms around him, pulling him into a tight embrace, which he quickly returned.

“i feel it too, stanley.” you murmured, biting back a voice crack as you felt the tears falling. you just squint your eyes shut. he held onto you even tighter, as if he was afraid that you would disappear.

“hah … so i’m not crazy …” he laughed weakly, sniffling and pulling his head back to look at you. his thumbs gently wiped the tears from your face. his touch was so delicate … almost reverent. “i knew there was something between us.”

you sighed quietly as he held your face, smiling upon hearing his laugh.

your next words escaped your mouth before you could process it.

“i love you.”

stanley’s eyes went wide.

“you … what?”

“i … i lov—”

you didn’t get the chance to repeat yourself, as he had leaned in and pressed his lips against your own.

stunned at first, you gradually returned the kiss, letting your eyelids shut on their own. it was sweet and sincere, as if it held the meaning of a thousand words.

after a moment, he pulled away, leaning his forehead against yours, his eyes still closed.

“i love you, too.”

he shifted closer to you, moving his head to rest on your shoulder as he pulled you into another hug.

“please … no matter what happens, please promise me you won’t ever forget about me.”

“oh, stan … don’t say that. i couldn’t forget you, even if i tried.”

his strong arms tightened around you even further. you could feel his heartbeat through the rise and fall of his chest, and it lulled you into a trance.

“... my love. mine.”

he kept mumbling vaguely into your shoulder, refusing to let go of you. you smiled to yourself, bringing your hand up to his ponytail and undoing the hairtie so that his mullet fell loose.

and for the next half hour, you ran your fingers through his hair while he clung to you like a magnet.

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So, imagine you're a teenager from rural Arkansas who grew up working on the family farm equipment. And you grow up in the poverty of the Depression, then as you first come to an age of understanding the world, a war breaks out.

And then that war hits Pearl Harbor.

And you, teenager from rural Arkansas, end up a mechanic because you grew up working on farm equipment, and you're really fucking good at it. And at the age of 19--probably the same age your parents married, frankly--you're in charge of a whole crew of other mechanics for an entire bombing company. And you are considered the absolute best of the best. You're not just respected; you're talked to as an equal. You're teased by men way above your own status but in a friendly and welcoming way.

And you are so goddamn good at what you do that one of the very best pilots in that whole company absolutely believes that you can fix a serious issue while he taxis on the runway and you balance on the landing gear.

And then you do it.

And then that pilot doesn't come back.

*

And imagine you're a guy from Wisconsin with wishes of being a gangster from New York City, so you create yourself a bit of a persona, all charm and swagger and quick smiles. And you go to flight school and meet a guy who looks like your childhood best friend, and when you nickname him the same as that guy, this other guy doesn't stop you. And he doesn't like any of your vices. But he doesn't care that you have them. He doesn't mind being around them. Enjoys watching you act out and enjoys riling you up as well.

And he tells you, "You need a pass to London," and you invite him along, meaning it, but also not surprised when he turns you down. Because he doesn't paint the town red. He has fun in his own way. Like picking up a full-grown Husky and dancing with him to the slow song the band is playing.

And you go to London and drink and fuck and start realizing your own mortality. And then you see how bad the bombing run really was, and you call in and find out that your dearest friend in the world (so dear that no matter how casual you come off, everyone knows how devoted you are to each other), didn't come back.

From a raid you could have been on.

*

And imagine, one last time, you're a navigation genius who makes the best charts in the whole company. And your best friend is damn near as good as you but just needs a little confidence. So fucking good is he, in fact, that he can pick up on the fly when you're sick and take care of those boys you both care about so much.

You give him your good luck charm and tell him to keep it. He never tells you he kisses it or puts it where he can always see it when he's scared.

And your best friend knows you don't actually like the part where you have to be in the bomber, and he gives you a gift: When asked to be the one to stay on the ground (where he wouldn't have to fight air sickness to do his job), he says no. And gets you the job instead.

Because you love each other. You care for each other. You take care of each other.

And then he doesn't come back. On a mission you personally plotted for the whole company. On a mission that might have been yours if you'd stayed in the air.

And his wife says hello to you in all her letters and the way she signs her name makes your best friend smile like nothing has ever gone wrong in the world.

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The Wrong Robin AU:

Tim Drake saw Danny do a quadruple somersault, which resulted in him believing Danny was the first Robin for years. He still figured out Bruce but thinks Dick is in the dark. Now with the second Robin dead, and Batman quickly reaching the end of his sanity, Tim takes it upon himself to get Robin to come back.

Danny is very confused when this random kid tries to blackmail him into becoming Robin.

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Part Four Preview - Crown of Exile

It's been a while since I last shared any sneak peeks here on Tumblr so I thought I'd whet your appetites with a preview of Part Four. This is the last part of the game which consists of the final three chapters and then the epilogue.

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The Hate Formula

Joseph Quinn x Fem!Reader

Summary: Living in the same building, across from each other shouldn't be much of a problem, right? But how come you and Joe tend to always push each other's buttons every day? Is it because you both truly just hated each other or is it because there was something more to it?

Author's Note: Decided to upload this a little early because I'm going to be busy next week at work! Here's more chaos... Enjoy!

Disclaimer: 18+

Wordcount: 3.3K

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As much as you tried to find comfort and ease in the thoughts that you kept telling yourself, your heart still felt heavy the moment you entered your apartment building. Looking back, you watched as Garrett gave you an apologetic smile before walking away. You felt your heart drop to the floor, and you couldn’t seem to pick it up with your own hands. It was almost like you were just watching it beat slowly until it shattered. You knew that you were dreading about this in the first place when Sara first introduced you to Garrett, but you really thought there was something there. You thought after giving this a chance, he was going to make you happy. 

You were wrong. Again. 

Taking a deep breath, you felt your legs finally give up as you sat on the bottom steps of the staircase. You couldn’t help but let your thoughts wander and asked yourself if you were just going to be a second choice all the time. You couldn’t help but wonder if you were ever going to find someone who wouldn’t leave you this easily. 

Was there something wrong with you? Was there something that you were doing that made them treat you like this all the time? 

You didn’t want to go upstairs yet because you knew Sara was going to ask how your date went, and you honestly didn’t have the energy to really explain what just happened. You just wanted to drown yourself in your own fatalistic thoughts. You just wanted to have your own space for a moment. 

“It’s a nice place you have here.” The woman intertwined her fingers with Joe as they entered the building. 

He smiled at the woman and paused for a moment when he saw you sitting at the bottom steps of the staircase. He watched as you hung your head low and played with your fingers. You looked crestfallen, and he couldn’t help but wonder what happened. This was the first time he saw you like this. 

Slipping his hand away from the woman, he turned around to face her, giving her an apologetic smile. 

“You know what?” Joe set both of his hands on her shoulders and turned her around towards the doors. “I’m sorry, I just remembered I needed to do something tonight.”

“Wait, what?” The woman furrowed her brows as she stumbled on her feet, while Joe pushed her out the door. 

“Yes, I’m sorry. It’s great getting to know you though.” Joe waved goodbye at her as she scoffed and rolled her eyes at him. 

Joe didn’t really care about the woman being pissed at him. Most of the time, he was always used to that constant reaction he would receive. However, it was your reaction that was worrying him at the moment. Turning around to face you, he slowly walked over to you. Joe stood there for a moment, oblivious how to start the conversation. Then, you gazed up at him and he saw the unshed tears in your eyes. He felt his heart crack a little bit. 

You scoffed at him when you saw his presence in front of you, rolling your eyes in annoyance. 

“I’m not in the mood to fight tonight, Joe.” 

Joe let out a deep breath and sat next to you on the steps. You gave him a side eye as you moved yourself farther, making him chuckle softly and shake his head. You were acting like he had some cooties or something but honestly, he was the last person you wanted to talk to tonight. 

“Who said I’m here to fight?” Joe said.

You stared at him and didn’t say anything before looking away and looking down at your feet. Joe cocked his head to the side, his eyes studied you, and he wondered what happened for you to look like this. It wasn’t like he was stalking you or anything but the last time he saw you this afternoon, you seemed happy when you left with a man from your apartment. 

“What’s wrong?” Joe asked, his voice sounded soft and genuine.

You couldn’t help but let out a sarcastic chuckle, shaking your head. Did he really just ask you what was wrong? Why did he care if you were all in your lonesome tonight? 

“Are you here to make fun of me? Because I’m not in the mood for that either.” You argued. 

“No… I’m here because you look like you’re about to burst into tears any time now.” Joe said. 

You furrowed brows together, confused. “Why do you even care? Don’t you have some girl to fuck tonight?” 

Joe didn’t want to press the subject on you because he could see the devastation in your eyes. You didn’t have to explain anything because from the looks of it, he already had an idea as to what happened that could make you react like this. 

He has seen it. 

He has seen it twice now. 

He knew because the two times that this reaction of yours washed over your face was because of him. The first time was when he first met you when you just moved in and the second time was just a few days ago when Mrs. Johnson had come knocking on his door, and you ended up spilling out something that Joe knew you didn’t mean to. 

“He doesn’t deserve you.” Joe stated, his eyes staring deep into yours. 

You didn’t understand what was happening. Why was Joe wasting his time on you right now? Why was he here next to you right now? Why did he even care? You couldn’t help but wonder if this was all just an act. He was an actor after all. You wouldn’t be surprised if this was just part of the act, so he could look good in front of everyone else. 

“And how do you even know that?” You asked, a hint of bitterness in your voice. 

Joe shrugged and stared at the ceiling for a moment, thinking of the right words to gather in order for him to answer your question. He didn’t want to add more fuel to the fire that was slowly burning inside of you. 

“Because you’re more than just someone who they fuck and then tells you that they don’t want anything to do with you.” Joe replied. “You’re intelligent, headstrong and have a good heart.”

Your lips parted as you stared at Joe, stunned. You have never seen this side of him before. His chocolate button eyes were staring into yours, and he seemed so different. You reminded yourself of what you told yourself two years ago. You reminded yourself about the promise that you would never believe anything that Joe would tell you because from the first time you met him, he was always a liar and would do anything to get what he wanted. He was just charming you, and you couldn’t help but think how vile he was that he would use your lowest moment in order to get to you. 

Besides, why the hell would he say all of that anyway? If there was a part of him being genuine, how the hell did he know all of that about you? He didn’t know you that well. He never interacted with you unless the both of you were arguing in the middle of the hall. He had no right to be giving you some advice when he didn’t even personally know you. 

“Are you stalking me?” You asked, one brow raised at him.

Joe couldn’t help but chuckle softly. His small dimples indenting his cheeks, and you couldn’t help but think how adorable he looked when he was smiling.

Wait, what were you doing? Why were you thinking about this right now?

“Do you think I haven’t seen the men you brought back in here for the last two years, love? They all don’t deserve you.” 

There it was again. 

That stupid nickname that he kept calling you. A frown plastered on your face as you listened to the sentence he just told you. 

“And who deserves me?” Your voice sounded challenging. 

Joe moved closer to you, and you couldn’t really move anywhere else since you were already in the corner. It was a dead end. His face was inches from yours as his brown eyes twinkled. You swallowed the emotions that were slowly coming up in your throat as you watched him study you for a moment. The air suddenly felt thick between the two of you, and you were frozen in your place, feeling your heart pound hard inside your chest. 

You saw how Joe clenched his jaw. You saw something in him that you haven’t seen in a long time. It was almost like a version of him that you only saw when you first met him. Then, the last couple of years, it was a different version that he had been putting up. You couldn’t help but wonder if it was true. You couldn’t help but wonder if you were actually seeing the real Joe, or this was just your emotions fogging up your brain right now. 

“Someone who could see the real you.” Joe murmured, his eyes staring at your pink lips before gazing up into your eyes. “Someone who could see your own potential and doesn’t get scared because of it.”

Your own potential? What did he see in you?

Moving your face closer to his, your eyes studied his facial features. 

“Well, good luck with that because that’s impossible.” You said, staring into his eyes before getting up from the steps. 

Just right before you could walk away, Joe gently curled his hand around your wrist. You couldn’t help but hitch your breath from his touch and slowly looked over your shoulder to see that he had gotten up from where he was sitting. His eyes staring into yours and twinkling with sincerity. 

“I meant what I said.” Joe said sternly. 

Pulling your wrist away from his touch, you swallowed the emotions that were resurfacing from two years ago. Then, your reminder about not to trust anything he said echoed in your mind. You kept your lips shut as you gave him one last look before walking away. 

You thanked your little stars above when you entered the apartment and found it dark and empty. The city lights outside the tall glass windows reflected through it, and you didn’t bother turning the lights on. You would just feel more exposed, and you didn’t want that. You made your way towards the bathroom and ran the warm water, finding your naked body on the marbled floors later on that night. You hunched down as you pulled your legs close to your chest and wrapped your arms around it. When things like these happen, you let yourself dwell on the disappointments and sadness for about a day before picking yourself back up. 

It wasn’t like you and Garrett had been seeing each other long. It only has been a week, but you couldn’t help but let yourself wonder if you were ever good enough for anyone. If you were ever going to be a first choice. As time went on, you could feel your skin getting all pruney from the water, and you weren’t sure anymore if the water running down your cheeks were from the shower, or they were your tears. 

Probably both.

Sliding underneath your covers that night, you grabbed your pillow and wrapped your arms around it, letting yourself feel all the emotions you were feeling until you were too tired to think and sleep overtook you. 

The next few days were eerily quiet. It wasn’t what you were used to at all. You haven’t told Sara about what happened between you and Garrett. You felt as if it was too embarrassing to talk about. You kept telling yourself that one day, you’d let her know. Besides, she would probably start questioning soon when she starts noticing that Garrett wasn’t taking you out on dates anymore. 

Although, the stillness in the apartment building was what was bothering you more. Not that you didn’t like it. You were actually glad that you weren’t bumping into crying or angry girls every time you came home from work because Joe had probably told them it was just a one night thing. It was on the second week where you noticed the quiet stillness of the hall. No doors getting slammed. No woman yelling at Joe. 

Maybe he wasn’t home.

You were slowly starting to realize that ever since that little odd conversation you had with Joe in the lobby, you haven’t seen him for a while. 

Then when Saturday night arrived, a sudden knock on your door interrupted your movie night with Sara. The both of you exchanged looks before shifting your eyes towards the clock. It was sort of late, and you wondered who was knocking on your door at this hour. 

“I got it.” You told Sara, getting up from the sofa. 

The moment you swung the front door open, you found Joe standing in front of you. A soft smile tugged on his lips, and he was carrying two packages in his hands. 

“The mailman was dropping off packages downstairs and thought I should just bring yours up too.” Joe handed the packages to you. 

“Why are you doing this?” You knitted your brows, staring at the packages he was holding in front of you. 

Was this one of his games again? Because you were sort of tired tonight to even deal with it. You just wanted to relax with Sara and finish the movie that you were watching. 

“I don’t wanna get kicked out, so I’m being neighborly friendly.” Joe shrugged. 

You folded your arms in front of your chest, raising one brow at him. 

“She said to be civil. You don’t have to do all of this.” 

“Yeah, but I want to.” Joe handed the packages towards you again as you stared at it for a moment, acting like he put some sort of explosive device in there. 

Grabbing the packages from him, you felt Joe leaned in close to you. It made you hitch your breath again, remembering his soft touch from two weeks ago when he had held your wrist and told you all those nice words. You still didn’t believe what he told you, but you couldn’t help but glue it inside your brain. 

“I hope you enjoy your new toy.” He smirked. 

You knitted your brows, wondering what the hell he was talking about until you felt the package that was underneath the other box. It was the little vibrator you bought last week, and the company you bought it from had packaged it in the shape of the toy. Your eyes widened, looking down at it before slowly gazing back up at Joe, who was smirking at you. You felt the blood rushed to your face, your nostrils flaring from anger from the way Joe was teasing you right now. 

You knew he had an agenda!

He wasn’t here to be “neighborly friendly!” He probably saw the package being dropped off downstairs and saw the packaging and took the opportunity to piss you off. 

“You’re such an ass!” You exclaimed, dropping your packages on the floor and grabbed your slipper, throwing it at him. 

“Hey!” Joe laughed, using his arm to dodge the slipper you threw at him. “I don’t blame you! Those men aren’t giving you what you need.”

You groaned in frustration, standing there, looking at him full of anger. Your eyes were literally lit as if a whole wildfire burned inside of you as Joe ran back towards his apartment, while you picked up the slipper on the floor and threw it at him again, hitting him at the back of his head. You picked up the other pair from your foot and walked towards him as Joe turned the doorknob of his apartment, only to find it locked. He curled his hand into a fist and banged on the door, looking over his shoulder to find you about to launch the slipper at him again. 

“Mate, open up!” He called out. 

Right before you could throw your slipper, his front door opened and he quickly ran inside, shutting the door behind him as you groaned in frustration. Walking back, you picked up your packages and slammed the door behind you.

“Seriously, I don’t want to get kicked out of here!” Sara scolded you as she poured herself some hot tea. 

“He is nothing but an ass, Sara!” You exclaimed, dropping the packages on the table. “He comes in here all nice, only to piss me off at the end.”

Sara shook her head and knitted her brows together as she stared at your packages. 

“Damn, they really didn’t know how to pack that.” She picked up the package that was shaped as your vibrator, suppressing a slight chuckle. 

“Right?!” You looked at it before Sara dropped it back on the table. “I mean what the fuck?!”

Sara cocked her head to the side and stared at you in wonderment. You ripped your packages open and threw the boxes away on the bin before looking back and saw the look Sara was giving you. 

“What?” You asked. 

“Is… Is Garrett not… good?”

You bit your lower lip and realized that you haven’t told Sara what happened because you were too embarrassed to talk about it. You knew this day would come and there was no getting out of it now. 

“He…um…” You cleared your throat. “We’re not seeing each other anymore.”

“Why?” 

You took a deep breath and said, “He went back to his ex.”

Sara placed down her mug on the table as you saw her shoulders immediately slumped down from the news you just told her. 

“I’m so sorry.” Sara said, reaching for your hand. 

“It’s fine.” You squeezed her hand gently. “Things just don’t work out sometimes.”

As much as you spent that night crying in the shower and crying yourself to sleep, you didn’t want any sympathy because you knew it would just make you feel even worse. You gave her a small reassuring smile as she pulled you into a hug. 

“I’m more frustrated with that asshole from across the hall.” You changed the subject, scoffing as you parted from the hug. 

You sighed and flopped yourself back on the sofa, while Sara settled next to you. 

“I didn’t know that asshole had a roommate. I don’t know how he deals with him.” You mentioned as Sara played the movie again. 

“He does?” Sara pursed her lips, her eyes laser focused on the television. 

“Someone opened the door for him when I was trying to throw a slipper at his head.” You murmured, letting your shoulders finally relax. 

“I didn’t see the face though.” You added.

“Oh, I didn’t know that.” Sara’s voice was almost a whisper. 

You turned to her and saw that she was too focused on the movie that was in front of her. You figured maybe she didn’t want to talk about this anymore. 

“Me neither.” You murmured, ending the conversation. 

You could tell she was getting tired of these games between you and Joe, and you felt bad for making her feel that way. Even after you had promised you would try to be civil with Joe, you still ended up screaming at him again in the middle of the hall. 

Then, the thought of Joe seeing your new shiny little toy earlier got your cheeks all flushed. You felt embarrassed that he actually saw that. You couldn’t help but blame the company that packed that because what the fuck? Not like there was something wrong with you wanting to touch yourself and giving yourself pleasure from time to time. You were just a girl, and you have your needs too.

Maybe Joe was right. 

The men you dated never really gave you what you needed. Even with Garrett. You had a good time with him, but you felt like there was always something missing. You just couldn’t figure out what it was. 

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[viveela]

It's almost time for Craig to find out...

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[icallhimjoey]

Lost & Found

♥ ♥  Joseph Quinn x Fem!Reader    

Summary: You take a little break, a week away to somewhere warm to relax and calm your senses. So does Joe – same flight, same hotel, same travel plans and, worst of all, same suitcase. What was meant to be a lovely trip to the sun starts off on the wrong foot when you find expensive designer outfits belonging to a man in what you thought was your suitcase.    

CW / disclaimer: rpf, fem!reader, lots of swearing, we get a little spicy but nothing too bad, 18+ just in case though!    

Author’s note: um little warning, my current state of being is starting to mirror this fic in all the worst ways, so apologies bc this isnt doing my writing any favours (little unfair how it's only the bad things like the lack of sleep and the stress and the hangovers and not the, you know, joe of it all, but, whatever i guess) hope you enjoy!

Wordcount: 3.8K

part one - part two - part three - part four - part five

So, um... let’s go over this again…

You were in Joe’s hotel room. In his bed. Coffee in hand. He was no longer holding you, wasn't even in the room now, but he had held you. For long. When you were all sweaty and gross, and your heart was beating out of your chest in the dark. He had held you until your breathing turned normal and then he’d very softly moved aside and it was sort of... perfect. Did exactly what it needed to do.

It wasn’t ideal to have someone witness what you were like when a nightmare set your skin on fire and made your blood run cold, but it was nice to not have to deal with it yourself for once. Had you been alone, you’d have gotten up and out of bed. Gone for a shower, maybe. Would’ve gone to sit out on the balcony to watch the sunrise.

This time, it had gone different.

Better.

You'd managed to go back to sleep and get a couple more hours in.

Something unheard of.

Everything was different and better, because Joe had invited you into his hotel room even though you didn’t even really know why you’d walked inside.

Joe did know.

“Couldn’t sleep?”

You were stood in the middle of the room as Joe locked the door behind you.

You shook your head.

“I can never sleep.”

Joe's shit was everywhere. Just, all over.

Why were you in his room?

“Insomnia?” Joe asked as he walked around you, grabbed you by the biceps to move you out of the way as he got back to what was obviously his side of the bed, crumpled covers, pillow dented.

“I guess? I don’t know, just... stress, I think.”

“You didn’t have trouble falling asleep earlier,” Joe said all casual, like it was normal to have this conversation in the middle of the night in his room as he climbed back into bed.

He nodded his head to the empty spot next to him and beckoned you with an arm.

What were you doing here?

“You came back for another massage?”

“I came to bring over your jacket.”

“At... at one in the morning.” Joe pointedly said, eyebrows raised up high on his forehead and a smug little smile playing at his lips.

You carefully sat down on Joe’s bed near the end, folded your legs and pretended not to want to get under the covers with him. Joe sat up against the headboard and leant his head back. Tired. Clearly very tired.

“It’s not one in the morning.”

It wasn’t. It had just gone midnight.

“But I wouldn’t mind another massage,” you shrugged as you said it, feigned innocence as you touched a shoulder. “You know, it still hurts a little...”

What were you doing?

Joe didn't move and looked you over all slow, took a moment to think of what to do next.

“Did you eat?”

Ugh, you didn’t need that. Didn’t need him to fret over you not taking care of yourself. He wasn’t your mum.

You were also strangers, still. Let's not forget.

Yes, you were on his bed, and had worn nearly all of his clothes, and he’d sat outside of your bathroom as you showered, and then he’d massaged you to sleep after, but... you were strangers still.

“I didn’t see you downstairs,” Joe clarified after you rolled your eyes. “Or am I wrong to assume you’ve also got a table booked downstairs for the whole week?”

Oh.

Yea, you did.

“I do, but tonight I got room service.”

Why were you there?

“Did you drink?”

“If you count the overpriced corona from the minibar, yes, I had one drink.”

You didn’t know why he was asking the questions he was asking, but it seemed like he was considering something and needed to know. Needed to know all these little bits of information before deciding.

Deciding what?

To get his hands on you?

The silence lingered a bit too long and Joe kept looking at you with his head leant back against the headboard, all half-lidded eyes, mouth in a weirdly charming half-smirk that made you grow self-conscious at a steady incline.

“Sorry, I’ll… maybe I shouldn’t have come, you've got– I gave you the jacket back, I’ll just–” you went get up off the bed, already had one foot touching the carpet, but then Joe leant forward and grabbed what he could.

“No, don’t,” he got you by the wrist.

Don’t what? Get up? Leave? Be awkward?

Well, too late.

You were being awkward as fuck.

You hadn’t walked into Joe’s bedroom to have sex with him. The attention was nice, and you did want him to touch you more. To use his hands. Make your skin tingle underneath his fingers.

“No, don’t,” Joe had said, and you took a second to look at where Joe's fingers wrapped around your wrist. You frowned as you sharply inhaled and answered,

“I don’t... I mean– sorry, I’m not...” you trailed off, unsure of what to say.

Joe scanned your features, then nodded in understanding and said, “Okay,” before moving the covers aside for you to get into bed next to him.

Was all you needed.

“So, stress, huh?” Joe held up covers with two hands and helped as you crawled in.

Were you just... going to sleep? With Joe? In his bed?

Who were you?

“Just, work, you know how it is,” you slid under the covers and were surprised by the warmth you found there. Instant comfort.

Joe moved over to turn off the light and chuckled as he said, “I thought I did, but... I don’t think I do,”

“I’m fine!”

So defensive.

“Clearly.”

Sarcasm.

“I am!”

“Stop biting at your fingers,”

Caught red handed.

Shit.

“Sorry,”

“Don’t apologise,”

“Okay sorry,”

You both huffed breaths through your noses in laughter before silence took over the room.

You were in Joe’s bed, and you weren’t exactly sure why you were in Joe’s bed. But here you were. In Joe’s hotel room and somehow, it was million times better than being in your own hotel room.

It was silent for a second and you weren’t touching each other, but you were close enough to feel Joe’s body heat radiate, that side of your body tangibly warmer.

My God.

You realised you had so much to update your friend on.

How were you ever going to explain what the fuck this day had been - this whole trip had been, so far?

It had all been weird naps followed by weird experiences with Joe followed by weird naps followed by weird experiences with Joe.

What a trip.

“Did you... did you just come over to come stare at this ceiling instead of yours?” Joe whispered after a while.

“I came over to return your jacket,”

You did. You had returned the jacket, hadn’t you?

“Here,” Joe said, and gave you his wrist. He used his fingers to place yours on his pulse point and you felt how his fingertips found yours.

“Feel that?”

His heartbeat. Warm skin. Soft skin. He made you feel his heartbeat as he monitored yours in tandem.

Oh, Jesus. This was intimate.

“Focus on that.”

And so you did. It was steady. Slow. If you didn’t focus on it, you stopped feeling it, would lose it altogether, so you kind of had to pay close attention.

As if on autopilot, your breathing grew just as steady and you couldn't fucking believe it when you realised your eyes were closed. You didn't remember closing them.

You were in Joe's bed, and you were touching hands and wrists, and listened to each other breathe, and felt each other's heartbeat.

You knocked out in no time.

But different surroundings and no alcohol in your blood made your brain do silly things, didn't it?

You dreamed of intruders that you could hear and feel but couldn’t see.

Strange people in your house that were there to harm, who made the hairs on the back of your neck stand up as their voices whispered in the wind, and you could sense they were there, you knew they were there, but where could you hide?

You couldn't fucking see anything.

You were alone and it was dark and there was real danger so close to you and everything inside you said run! Hide! Get the fucking fuck away, you dumb bitch!

A touch to your shoulder woke you up in a panic. Sweaty. Panting. Choking on hyperventilating breaths.

And it was dark. And, shut the fuck up, who was shouting?!

Fuck, why couldn’t you see anything?!

“It’s me, it’s me, it’s just me, it’s me,”

Joe had latched onto your back, wrapped arms around and held you tightly. Squeezed the panic right out of you. Whispered right into your ear, soothing shushes followed by reassuring words of being safe, and it was just nightmares, was just thoughts in your mind, and it was just him.

It was just him.

But it didn’t help.

Joe was a stranger and why the fuck were you in his bed again?

Yea, it was just nightmares. Just hallucinations the night plagued you with on the reg. You knew and understood in your mind that you were fine. That you were safe.

But fear didn’t just leave your body so easily.

Fear had a way of grabbing onto you with long fingernails that dug into your flesh and squeezed you until you had to remind your lungs of how to ask for oxygen again.

Breathe.

“Hey, hey, you’re fine, you’re okay, shhh, take deep breaths,”

Easier said than done, you thought.

Joe found your wrist again when your breathing didn’t steady quick enough, and helped you locate his pulse with your thumb.

“You’re fine, you’re fine, shhh, feel my pulse? Match it. Match your breathing, you’re fine. It’s just me. Relax your shoulders, you’re okay.”

And it was so stupid.

So silly.

It fucking worked.

Something about feeling a heartbeat that wasn’t practically vibrating helped.

Helped a lot.

It took a little while for you to fully relax again. To catch your breath. To even consider going back to sleep. Had you been alone, you’d have gotten out of bed to pace the room a second. To have a sip of water and to maybe scroll TikTok for...um, yea, for hours, you couldn't lie.

God.

How fucking embarrassing.

Maybe this was the time to get up and go back to your own room. Coop up inside there for the rest of the trip. Avoid Joe at all costs.

Or, maybe not.

Joe was still hugging and squeezing, had an arm tightly wrapped around your waist and, yea, you felt gross. Damp. Hot and sweaty and sticky and absolutely disgusting.

But you also felt protected. Cared for. All safe and shit.

“Don’t apologise,” Joe suddenly whispered and wasn't that exactly right. You absolutely were about to tell him you were sorry. Sorry for waking him. Sorry for being all wet. Sorry for being there to begin with.

But you were just told to not do that, and so instead brought a finger up to your mouth to bite at the skin there.

“Go back to sleep,”

You felt Joe press his forehead to the back of your neck. Felt how he rubbed his skin against yours like a cat would.

“Can’t, I never can,” you croaked, voice in pain for whatever reason, slightly muffled from the fingers at your mouth.

“Try,” Joe said sleepily as he used the hand that wasn’t holding your wrist to save your other one from being bit at without looking. Brought your hand down to your stomach where he held it in place.

And, fine.

You could try.

You always tried and it never worked, but Joe was holding you with heavy limbs and trying felt like the easiest favour you could do for him right now.

Joe held you for long.

Joe held you until he detected no more tension in your body.

Joe had eased off when he knew for sure you'd fallen asleep again, surprised that it had even worked, happy to have been of help, and gentlemanly enough to then give you space.

Because... what the fuck was he even doing?

Giving a girl his clothes to wear. Making sure she was okay after a miscalculation in energy management. Leaving his jacket after he'd massaged her to sleep in her hotel room. Inviting her in when she knocked on his door in the middle of the night...

What was he even doing?

Yea, what was he doing was the right question.

Made him reflect for a moment in the quiet dark of the early morning, pretty girl next to him now calm and asleep again.

What was he doing.

Helping.

Helping, he decided.

He was just helping. That was all.

Like he helped by not making a huge deal of meeting you in one of his literal outfits. Like he helped by lending you another jacket upstairs at the bar. Like he helped when you'd fainted and you needed to get out of the sun and into the shade.

Getting you upstairs.

Listening as you showered.

Kneading your knotted muscles.

He was just helping.

That was all.

And then Joe helped more when he woke up a little later and made two coffees.

Joe helped more when he slid out onto his balcony for a cigarette, and stayed out there to give you time and space to wake up slowly by yourself without another person in the room.

And Joe helped even more when you peeked your head around the sliding glass door and smiled a squinty smile at him, coffee cup in hand, and he greeted, “Good morning.”.

“Thanks,” was all you said, raising and moving the cup around enough to show Joe that it was empty.

You meant for the coffee. Thanks for the coffee. But also, um, for all the other things.

“You’re welcome,” Joe replied, gave a squinty smile in return.

He meant for the coffee. You’re welcome for the coffee. But also, for all of the other things too.

You awkwardly pointed a thumb over your shoulder, stammered through reasons of why you should be getting back to your own hotel room, to shower, to go have breakfast, to get out of his hair. Before you disappeared back inside, Joe asked, “Have you been down there yet?” and looked out towards where the sand met the still ocean, sun reflecting on the barely-there waves.

You hadn’t.

“Up for a beach day?”

And just like that, the unspoken agreement became that you would just... spend the trip together. Why not, you know? You were both on your own, in similar situations if you squinted, and seemingly enjoyed each other’s company enough to spend it in each other’s vicinity.

Not together together, but together enough.

You didn’t sit down at the same table for breakfast, but sat near each other.

Raised your cup of freshly squeezed orange juice in cheers over the tables in between.

Bit into your croissant as you saw him bite into his and tried to not laugh croissant flakes all over your table-for-one.

Got into the lift together, said, “Meet you in the lobby in 30 minutes?”, then shaved your legs in record time and before you could even think to slow down enough to grow doubtful of your choices, your eyes found Joe in the lobby and he looked... not ready for a beach day, that was for sure.

“Are you... do we have a boardroom meeting first? What’s going– should I get changed?” you poked fun, and thank fuck, Joe immediately matched the playful energy. Went, “What’s wrong with this?” all cartoonish and exaggerated.

“You’re not wearing a black button-down shirt to the bea– a long-sleeved black button-down Dior shirt?”

You gave him a look. Really, Joe? Really?

“I’ve got the sleeves rolled up!” Joe stuck out both arms to display his forearms and... those didn't have the right to look so nice.

“Oh my G– I can’t. Please go wear what you wore yesterday? Or– no, you’ve got that– you brought T-shirts. Wear a T-shirt.”

Joe couldn't fucking believe what he was hearing, mouth slightly agape, pulling into a smile.

“Please go change into a white T-shirt, or even the black one. I’ll wait here.”

Joe chuckled, shook his head and was about to admit defeat and turn back to walk to the lifts, but then he stopped, said, “All right, but you get someone to get a new plaster for your eyebrow,”

Ugh.

“Fine,”

“Fine.”

Two hours later, you found yourself with your feet in the water and sand between your toes, a fresh new way thinner plaster stuck over your eyebrow and Joe right next to you.

In his black T-shirt.

The one that still smelled vaguely of your perfume which Joe only realised when he pulled it over his head earlier.

You were walking and talking and it turned out you’d booked the exact same trip on the exact same website.

Same agency. Same flights. Same hotel. Same dates. Same suitcases.

It was a lot of the same for this one week.

Everything else you could think to talk about? Vastly different.

You lived in opposite ends of London.

Worked in severely different fields, ones where you couldn't even imagine what each other’s day to day looked like.

Liked different music genres. Film genres.

Had different interests. Different hobbies.

Same humour though.

Joe had you giggling the whole time.

And, dared you think it, same love languages.

Joe reached over hands to touch you a lot. Small fleeting little moments, never inappropriate or crossing any boundaries.

You fucking loved it.

You spent time walking the shore, went into the water til it reached your knees for a little bit, and then spent time on sun beds that you had to pay for.

Well.

Sun beds that belonged to a restaurant so they made you order food and drink, which was fine.

Before you could order yourself a cocktail, Joe’d asked for fresh fruit and mocktails.

Mocktails.

When the waiter’d left, you softly scoffed at him.

“We’re in the sun,” Joe reasoned, the image of your face draining of colour before your knees gave out still fresh in his mind from the day before.

“We’re in the sun,” you mocked him, ready to burst into laughter when he would.

But then instead Joe reached over and removed your hand from your mouth, and fuck all the way off, you hadn't even realised you were biting at a nail again.

Ugh.

You groaned, annoyed with yourself, were about to say, why can’t I stop making myself bleed? but were stopped by Joe’s fingers that interlaced with yours.

You looked at the tangle of fingers that rested on his thigh and your vision went a little fuzzy.

“There.” was all Joe said, just helping.

You ate fresh tropical fruits in the sun.

People-watched in the sun.

Drank mocktails in the sun.

You drank expensive juice and then even had some water because you were being all sensible now. Stayed hydrated. Kept food in your system. Were well rested, for once. Held hands with an attractive man. Ate a chunk of pineapple from his fingers.

Handsome man in expensive clothes.

Handsome man who made you laugh a lot.

Handsome man who’d held you through a nightmare comedown.

Handsome man whose nose was starting to burn from the sun a little.

Handsome man who awkwardly said he should probably get out of the sun. Go back to the hotel. He didn’t want to, he was having a great time, but he hadn’t brought sunscreen with him and it was probably best to head back.

You said it was fine, you were kind of ready to head back yourself too.

You didn’t hold hands as you walked back to the hotel together.

You didn’t hold hands as you stepped back into the air-conditioned hotel lobby together.

You didn’t hold hands as you stepped into the lift together, and then you didn’t hold hands as Joe pressed the button for his floor and then didn’t hold hands as you waited until the doors closed.

Joe looked at the buttons.

Then at you.

You hid a smirk.

Joe didn’t catch it and pressed the button for your floor.

Just helping, wasn’t he?

Okay, well... no worries. You just... you just thought that maybe you’d been on the same page, you know? But it was fine. Fine. Okay.

Joe didn’t catch what you were trying to do and it was fine.

Joe had pressed the button to the 11th floor because that was where your room was and he just hadn’t caught on to why you hadn’t pressed it yourself.

Fine.

Joe was just helping. Didn’t see what was going on underneath the surface with you.

Fine.

It was fine. Deep breaths.

But then he did catch it. It took him a second, maybe two, but then he caught it in your reflection. In the way you bit your lips into your mouth and nodded slowly at yourself as you looked down at your feet. It took a moment but then he caught on and... yea. Yea, that could work. Would work. Was going to work. Absolutely. Yes.

Yes.

The lift reached Joe’s floor and you held your breath as the doors opened.

Joe didn’t move.

You thought maybe he didn’t know what to say. How to say goodbye. How to maybe ask you to dinner later.

Joe didn’t move until the doors slowly closed again. You made eye contact in the reflective surface and both let sneaky smirks pull at the corners of your mouths.

Yes.

Good. You were lying before. Nothing was fine. But now it was.

More than fine.

The lift moved again and you saw how Joe’s eyes trailed down the reflection your body ’til they found your hand. You saw how Joe watched his own hand reach for yours.

Soft touches.

Fingers intertwining.

You held hands.

Joe squeezed your fingers and you held hands.

Smiles were no longer hidden. Bashful and blushing, absolutely, but nothing hidden as you held hands.

You held hands as the lift reached your floor.

You held hands as you both stepped out, sand from the beach still in between your toes.

You held hands as you walked down the corridor until you reached your room.

You held hands as you found your keycard to open your door, and then you held hands as you both stepped inside, and then you held hands until the door fell into its lock behind you.

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[abybweisse]

Ch211 (p4), Travel-ready

Just like with Baldo's mission with Lau, we are getting a cliffhanger, so hopefully the kids make it to our earl ok....

We go back in time, yet again, to Lau's opium den. This time, it's Sebastian and our earl getting ready to leave on their mission to Brighton. Sebastian's uniform is now clean, so he dons it.

Then Ran-Mao and the other ladies who work there bring in a bunch of clothes ordered by Sebastian. I see a hat box with Lock & Co Hatters on it and several boxes from Nina Hopkins' shop.

Sebastian goes to get his master ready to leave, but our earl doesn't know how to pay the tab to Nina. Sebastian seems confident that our earl will regain his title and funds, then he can pay the bill plus a nice tip.

"Clothes reeking of opium are unbefitting of you." 🙄 😆

Sebastian goes over his master's cover story, for going to the resort hotel, while dressing him.

And emphasizes the importance of Earl Phantomhive being fashionable in bespoke clothing.

Ready for travel... and another turn at chess with his brother.

I'm wondering how on earth they will walk into the hotel controlled (ultimately) by Undertaker and real Ciel... as Earl Phantomhive and his butler. Are they not going incognito this time? A bold chess move, indeed, if they just walk in like this, even if it's run by some random person from the Aurora Society. People will recognize them; there will be talk. There's been front page news about the scandal.

Maybe that's the intention, at this point. But... can they get away with it for long enough before local police or the Yard shows up again?

🤔 Maybe they take on some disguise before they enter the hotel....

[siddyyyyyyyy]

University Romance

Johnny 'Soap' McTavish x fem!Reader

part four; three, two, one

!MDNI!

wc: 2.1 K

summary: You and Johnny are two professors at a university, and he often catches you working late in your office. Also, you're just really good friends and there's probably more to it.

warnings: 'crazy' chemistry professor Soap, no y/n used, Johnny and Reader are about the same age, hickeys, oral (fem receiving)

a/n: welcome to the final part of it! decided to spoil you guys a little bit with smut, I'm tired from their constant pining, so here you go. Enjoy!

The restaurant looked actually really cosy from the outside as you‘re waiting for Johnny to arrive. After not even a minute, he shows up and looks absolutely handsome. You don‘t remember the last time you‘ve seen him in more formal clothing, the formal yet casual attire brings out his well-sculpted muscles. Trying not to stare, you pretend to check your phone for any messages before he is right in front of you, tapping your shoulder with a small smile.

»You there? Please don‘t tell me you‘re gonna spend the entire time looking at your phone. You‘re gonna miss out on the view.«

What is he doing to you? Is this on purpose? Is he still standing in front of you? Judging from the way his subtle cologne still wavers in the air, he is still standing right in front of you. With a small sigh to ease your nerves, you put your phone away into your purse, mustering your eyes at him.

»Relax, I‘m not missing out on our hangout.« You answer back with a small smile and notice his expression falter for a moment at your words. He recovers quick though, and you both get inside the new restaurant, being greeted by dim lights that create a warm and cosy atmosphere around. The waiter leads you both to a table for two in a far corner, glad you can have some sort of privacy in that corner.

You were about to sit down when he gets behind you, pulling the chair out for you, doing the overly cheesy gentleman move. It forces a small chuckle out of you, trying to tell him that you can do this yourself, but he doesn‘t care. You really try not to think too much about it and just see it as a friendly way of messing with each other, but he seems completely serious about it.

Okay, you are confused. He is claiming he will pay for everything tonight, so don‘t bother taking your purse out at all. What is this about? Did he do something and is trying to cover it up by being so sweet? There‘s no way, he is doing too much.

»Sorry, did I miss something? What is this all about?«

You finally manage to ask during the dinner, the food on the table being the only thing actually calming your nerves and making it seem like a normal hangout to you.

»What? Nothing, what do you mean? I‘m just treating you tonight.«

Obviously, you don‘t buy it and tilt your head at him, making him purse his lips almost sheepishly.

»Okay, be honest, Johnny. You‘re being too sweet right now.«

Your table falls into a brief moment of silence; the background noises from the other guests eating and talking fill the silence softly.

»I‘m.. I am bad at this, but I actually tried to ask you out. Back then, at your dad after the grill. This was supposed to be a date, but I guess I didn‘t express myself correctly.«

Processing his words is difficult. He tried to ask you out, and you were too stupid to realise. This is your love life, wow. It could also very well be a very bad romcom. It‘s humiliating, really.

»We don‘t need to pretend this is a date though, I probably overstepped with being… so overbearing.«

»No! No, don‘t apologise, I should be the one to apologise. Actually, now that I think about it, I missed so many signs...«

Johnny‘s heart beats probably faster than a racing car drives as he listens to you, trying to focus on the words you say instead of focussing on how gorgeous you look in the dim light right now. Finally, he snaps back and tries to reassure you, a sheepish and dorky smile threatening to form on his face.

»It‘s totally fine, I‘m a patient man after all.« His audacity to throw a little tease into this is unmatched. But it helps to ease the tension and bring a small smile onto your face, looking down to your lap for a moment.

»So, this was a date all along?«

He nods slowly at your question, watching your reaction closely as he does so. You‘re not sure who is more nervous at the moment, feeling like a high school couple right now.

»Well, if you‘re not comfortable- «

»No, no, I‘m okay with that! Promise.«

Johnny smile brightens, and for a moment, he is unsure of what to do or say next. The silence doesn‘t last long though, as you get to talk more freely with each other once it‘s settled, feeling butterlies across your whole body the entire time. It‘s such a nice feeling to know someone you certainly cherish and care for feels the same about you and probably even more. The rest of the dinner is spent with more loving looks and soft gazes, lingering touches on each other‘s hands over the table, resulting in following him back to his home.

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Big hands cup your thighs, lifting you up and carrying you to his bedroom, not wasting any time on exploring your soft lips with his own. He doesn‘t care that he is being a little messy with you, it feels perfect and right to be with you like this. With a soft thud, you land on the cushions of his bed, enveloping you in the faint scent of his cologne and the distinct smell of the musky but inviting smell of him. It‘s enough to get you going even more, wrapping your arms tighter around his neck to keep him as close as possible while making out. Your lips move against the other in a rather frantic rhythm, subtle sounds of lips smacking echoing in the dark room.

With a small sigh, he breaks the kiss and trails his lips down your throat; leaving hot, open-mouthed kisses on your delicate skin. You loose your grip around his neck, trailing your hands down his arms, all the way to his shoulder blades. It leaves goosebumps and electrifying shockwaves through him, resulting in him groaning lowly against your neck. That, however, only caused for you to shiver lightly and attempt not to hum back in response.

His kisses trail down to your collabones, gently gracing his teeth against the sensitive skin before tugging at your collar and works on unbuttoning your shirt. Of course you let him, helping him with the process, starting to get impatient and wanting more from him. His touch is addicting, his scent is intoxicating and the way he feels against your body… you can‘t get enough.

Soon, you are both almost fully exposed, Johnny hovering over you again, and trying to keep at least a little of his sanity under control.

»Tell me, how bad do you want me?«

»Johnny, not now...« You sigh out, hands trailing up his well-built chest, sounding way more needy than you wanted to be.

»Impatient, hm? Just tell me you need me. Please.« He also sounds more desperate than you‘ve ever heard him speak, especially to you. What he demands only makes your cheeks grow even more rosy, putting on a darker tint of pink across your face. Thankfully the room is fairly dark, even though you wish you could see more of him.

»Need you, Johnny...now.«

It seems like he crumbles at your words, resting his forehead against your shoulder before he collects himself and moves down your body.

»Fuck, always wanted to hear tha‘ from you.« He mutters as he traces his hands down your bare sides, settling down between your legs and gently pries them apart. You lean up on your elbows to watch, feeling another rush of adrenaline at him being right in between your legs, feeling his hot breath against your legs and aching core.

His fingers tease at the seam of your panties, eyes focused on your whole form. The material of your panties are more than soaked after all the making out and hot touches across your body, not sure how long you will last with him like this.

Your thighs are being pushed back with his hands after discarding your last piece of clothing, laying down flat on your back for him. He wants as much access as possible on you, humming lowly at the sight of your dripping cunt. A sharp gasp leaves you as soon as his tongue meets the sweet and messy bundle of nerves, bucking your hips into him without meaning to. More gasps and pants leave you as he gets more intense, his tongue pushing and putting more pressure against you, making you a breathless mess underneath him. You grip tightly onto his sheets, thighs trembling around his head.

He seems like a madman, thirsty for any amount of slick he can slurp from you, the sounds becoming more obscene and embarrassing for you. Johnny doesn‘t mind one bit, in fact he seems to be enjoying this more than you. Finally getting to taste you, smell you, please you as he dreamed of.

His big hands tighten their grip around your thighs, making sure you don‘t clamp your legs around his head and suffocate him. Even when he would be more than happy to die that way…

It feels like you are growing closer to edge, moans getting high-pitched while one hand finds his head, urging him to keep going.

Johnny groans against you, nose nudging against your clit as his tongue works on you and brings you over the edge. With a final thrust of his tongue, you gasp and clamp around nothing, your grip around the sheets being even stronger than before. You become a babbling mess, thanking him and saying something about feeling good while you bask in the shockwaves of the climax, moaning and shaking under him.

Johnny lets you ride out your high on his tongue, probably as satisfied as you, if not more. He cleans up any cum that drips from you, making sure there is nothing left, even when he still wants to lap at you even then.

»You okay?« He asks more softly and massages your thighs gently, watching your fucked out expression as come down from your high. You can‘t respond verbally, but you give him a thumbs up, receiving an amused snort from him. He moves off from between your legs and settles on the bed beside you, brushing out some hair sticking to your forehead.

Once he lays down beside you, you realise that only you received pleasure. You want to make him feel good too.

»We can… go on. If you want.« Johnny snaps out of his stare, his hand still resting by your stomach as he traces small circles into it.

»No need to. I don‘t have any protection with me anyway.«

You‘re not sure why, but you feel slightly disappointed at his words. But that he is responsible enough and neglects his own pleasure for both of your safety is enough to warm your heart again in a strange way.

You end up falling asleep after he cleans the mess up from between your legs, cuddling up in each other‘s arms, under the comfort of his blanket. And that was probably the best sleep you‘ve ever had, safe in his warm embrace after he took such good care of you.

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The next morning, you wake up to Johnny sleeping over your whole body, legs entangled with yours, and arms trapping you underneath him. You trail your hands up and down his back, nails lightly scratching against his bare skin, which causes him to stirr lightly.

After some longer moments, he seems to finally wake up and shift on top of you to get comfortable again.

»You are heavy.« You mumble out from underneath him, making him let out a groggy groan as he rolls off you but keeps his arm over your middle. The room is quiet again, save for the slow and gentle breathing from both of you.

»What time is it?« Johnny huffs out as you crawl over him to his nightstand, taking a look at the digital clock on it.

9:53 AM

No way. You overslept. Both, for that matter.

»John- Johnny, c‘mon, we need to get ready.«

You urge hushed, shaking his shoulder with your hand as you sit up beside him. He doesn‘t move as much though and only grumbles something under his breath before he searches his hand for you. He manages to grip your thigh gently, squeezing softly in a lazy attempt to calm you.

»Relax… no one cares anyway, and you never missed a day before.«

He mumbles softly, still laying on his stomach, but eyes on you. ----

Redcrest High University, Monday 9:53 AM

»Seems like those two won‘t appear today, huh?«

»Finally. I was getting sick just from watching Mctavish‘s puppy eyes. Good thing they are catching a break.«

Professor Garrick answers to the biology prof, earning a nod from the other. ----

Johnny‘s bed, Moday 9:54 AM

You soften at his touch and words, sighing out and finally settle down beside him once more.

»Don‘t tell me you wouldn‘t want to spend more time with me and instead go to work.« He shifts to get closer, pulling you close to his chest. His words make you shake your head, nuzzling into him in return.

»Wouldn‘t dream of it.«

You mumble back softly to him, making him smile and squeeze your waist with his arms.

a/n: I really hope you enjoyed this very small series, I didn't plan on writing some smut, but decided it would only be fair and also wanted to try out how well I can write that (it was really hard typing with one hand okay). thanks for reading!

[brian-in-finance]

A Tale of Two Tonys

and Brian knows the difference 😉

Part Four of Four

It was suggested elsewhere in July* Brian confuses the Tonys’ roles. It’s also suggested one Tony entered the spotlight only when a(n imagined) narrative required a participant. (*Waited for today’s Happy Birthday 🥳)

Longer still before TV-Outlander…

The Fratellis — Jon, Mince, and Baz — and manager Tony McGill at SXSW 2007 (Photo: Wikipedia)

Music agency wound down after discord over funding

A MUSIC organisation which helped Franz Ferdinand and Snow Patrol find fame has been wound down amid uncertainty over its financial future.

One official from NewMusic in Scotland (Nemis) has criticised the government and the Scottish Arts Council (SAC) for failing to give contemporary music the level of support of other art forms.

However, the SAC said Nemis had failed to provide audited accounts and a business plan, and pointed out that a number of its board members had resigned recently. It has already had GBP 100,000 of public money.

Nemis, which has an office in Jamaica Street, Glasgow, offers advice to musicians and bands on a one-to-one basis and through organised seminars, as well as helping with marketing and promotion. It also has had a pivotal role in the annual Musicworks convention in Glasgow.

Two years ago, it produced a promotional CD of Scottishbased bands which went to some of Europe's most influential industry executives at the MTVEurope Music Awards in Edinburgh, including offerings from the-then little known bands Franz Ferdinand and Snow Patrol.

But now the four-year-old development agency has said it has run out of money and it will effectively have to halt operations. Only its website, offering contacts and diary dates, will remain.

The agency has had arts council grants worth GBP 70,000, and GBP 30,000 in start-up help from Scottish Enterprise.

Alec Downie, new music development officer forNemis, said the body could not continue its work and was scathing of "elitism" in arts funding.

"In my view, the arts council is nepotistic and bureaucratic and, most of all, is out of touch with what is happening now. I would argue that the likes of The Delgados, Chemikal Underground, and Belle and Sebastian are culturally significant, but they (the arts council)would not.

"That shows the mentality of the people that control the arts here."

Scott Twynholm, of the Glasgow electro-pop band Hoboken said help from Nemis had proved vital. The band released an album last year and will release a single next month.

"Through Nemis, we appeared on two CDs which were distributed at the majormusic conferences throughout the world, " Mr Twynholm said.

"There is no way we would be in the position of recording our second album, or our new single, were it not for the help and advice Nemis has provided."

Tony McGill, manager of The Fratellis, who recently signed to Island records, said: "I have got the MD of Island to send a strongly worded e-mail to the SAC because the work Nemis does is crucial.

"When you are starting out as a band, you don't knowwhat to do, you don't have the contacts or the knowhow, and Nemis supplies all that. I am shocked this is happening."

An SAC spokeswoman said there was no doubt of "absolute commitment" by Nemis to its work, but the council was "a steward of public funds and needs to be confident that public funding is being spent to best effect in an organisation that can clearly articulate where it is going".

She said it was not accurate to say that Nemis's funds had been cut, as it was not given revenue grants, but one-off assistance. Neither, she said, had it officially applied for new funds of any kind, nor did it raise any of its own income.

The SAC statement added:

"Essentially . . . it is an issue of confidence: information requested has not been supplied - fundamental information such as audited accounts and a clear business plan.

"We are primarily concerned with the governance and structure of Nemis. It is unclear whether Nemis is a membership organisation solely or is a limited company purporting to represent the contemporary music sector in Scotland."

SUCCESS STORIES

NEMIS promotional CD given out at MTV Europe Awards in November 2003 included:

The Darts of Pleasure - Franz Ferdinand

Spitting Games - Snow Patrol

I Love You Cause I Have To - Dogs Die in Hot Cars

Sons & Daughters - Johnny Cash

With Aplomb -Biffy Clyro

Maybe It's Time -The Grim Northern Social

Black Path - Aereogramme

Destroy Rock & Roll - Mylo

The Herald 26 October 2005

Music Week 2 September 2006

World Radio History 26 April 2008

World Radio History 7 June 2008

Remember… when you are starting out as a band, you don't know what to do, you don't have the contacts or the knowhow, and Nemis supplies all that. I am shocked this is happening. — Tony McGill

MD - music director

Later edit: “Waited for today’s Happy Birthday” in the first paragraph should say “yesterday’s.” The birthday is 12 October. I got busy, posted late, and forgot to update. Oops… (This bit won’t show up on reblogs posted before 19 October 2024.)

[blmpff]

✨ Various Tropes: Back Hug (4/?) ✨

TITLES IN ORDER: 1. Addicted (2016) 2. Sodom's Cat (2016) 3. Mood Indigo (2019) 4. History 3: Trapped (2019) 5. Secret Roommate (2020) 6. His (2020) 7. The Tasty Florida (2021) 8. Y Destiny (2021) 9. House of Stars (2023) 10. My Personal Weatherman (2023) 11. Jack o'Frost (2023) 12. For Him (2023)

[therealmintedmango]

Cerberus - Part Four

Genre: Werewolf/ Shifter AU; Medieval AU; Strangers-To-Lovers AU; Heavy Angst; Soulmate AU; Eventual Romance/ Smut

Rating: NC 18+, Explicit

Words: 8,746

Pairings: (Eventually) ot7 BTS x Human Female Reader

Warnings: Dark themes; Yandere Vibes; Blood; Death; Gore; Murder/ Killing; Dark Dreams; Non-consensual touching/being touched without consent; Men who pray on women when they are vulnerable

Tag List: (Please notify me if you wish to be added/ no longer want to be apart of the tag list!) @openup-yourmind, @deeepvibes, @xxsunny-side-upxx, @heoniebaby @applelovesposts, (Sorry I've I've missed anyone! It's been awhile!)

Cerberus Playlist — Apple Music (Let me know if you have a good song to add to the playlist and I’ll chuck it in there!)

A frightened yell ripped through the large estate, shattering the peaceful, quiet evening like fragile glass thrown against a wall. The blood-curdling scream stopped all the brothers in their mundane tracks for the evening while they all were sitting in the parlor.

Taehyung flicked his paintbrush down on his wooden easel, flecks of green splattering across his canvas, a deep growl of confusion emitting from his throat. Hoseok snapped the book he was reading about hunting large game animals closed, eyes narrowing at the harrowing sound. An awful sour tone rang out, Yoongi’s long fingers slammed on the ivory keys of the piano as he stood abruptly.

A beat of silence ticked, stretching between the princes’, as realization set in.

“Little bird!” Seokjin yelped as he leapt from the news docket and the glass of brandy he was nursing all evening.

They take off into the house like dogs deep in the thick of the hunt. Their legs pushing into the carpet and marble of the home, scrambling for purchase against the ground. Snarls, whimpers, and growls echoed in the mansion as the brothers seemingly moved as one, thundering through their halls. The wolf-boys arms pushing them faster as their nails rake across wooden walls, shredding banisters in their wake. They feel like time is slowing, the clock is the enemy, pushing them back from the only thing they’ve cared about in what feels like ages.

In reality, they move like a flurry of hungry, wild beasts. The wolf brothers fly through their home with quick, superhuman strength. Worry and fright heighten their senses, a kaleidoscope of emotions changing every few milliseconds. 

They needed to get to her. They needed to race her. They yipped and groaned, pushing, clawing their way to her room. Their wolf blood pulsing and flowing with fear scorching through their human forms. 

Nails grew from deep within their human skin. Lips lifted, exposing their gleaming canines and bright pink gums as her room came into view. The prince’s wolf bodies rippled against the soft flesh of their mortal forms. The feral, wild hounds that they really are were threatening to escape as snarls and low growls toppled from their throats. 

Malice, violence, something benevolent they all think as they enter her room unannounced. They wanted to choke, maim, take pleasure in killing something that would hurt her…Make her scream like that.

Seokjin enters first, throwing the wooden doors open. Normally he would knock but he hasn’t a clear thought, wanting to know what or who could have made their little bird react the way she did. 

It’s eerie and quiet inside the guest living quarters. 

The younger princes’ enter next. They pant, shake and sputter, drinking in the smell of sharp terror that hangs heavy in the air of her lavish room. The fire in the hearth is out, moonlight pools through her windows creating a dim glow to cascade across the room…Their mate is passed out in a cold sweat in her bed…

And their youngest brother was in the corner of their room looking utterly ashamed.

A gust of melancholy October wind hit the house, the fallen leaves rustling on the ground and in the trees outside. The windows rattled, the panes shuttered against the cold breeze howling against the walls of the mansion. Silence coated the room, hanging in the still air was the chill of fear from their mate and the scent of shame wafting from Jungkook.

It took the wolf-boys a beat longer until it finally clicked. 

“What is wrong with you, Jungkook?” Seokjin remarks, lips peeling back, white teeth bared at the youngest brother. Rage flashing across his amber eyes. “Revealing your wolf form to her?”

“She was having a bad dream, hyung.” Jungkook sheepishly responded, shaking his head back and forth. “I wanted to be there for her when she woke up.” He bit his lip as he grabbed his cloak, covering his naked form. “She was terrified, hyung. I could smell it through the walls.” 

“Poor thing.” Hoseok cooed as he placed a cool hand across her blazing forehead. His amber eyes roamed over her still face, drinking in every inch of her flushed flesh.  Her hair pooled around her head on her pillow, wrapping herself in a halo of strands and tresses. Hoseok’s nostrils flared as his eyes reached her slightly parted mouth; her split lip she arrived with was almost completely healed. 

How badly did Hoseok wish to press his lips into hers... 

“What if she died on the spot, Jungkook?” Taehyung asked, standing next to Hoseok, watching her attentively. His voice shook with concern, his thick brows furrowed as he studied her like a beautiful painting. “She looks like she has seen a spirit!”

“I-I used my magic on her to make her forget seeing me and go back to sleep.” Jungkook then admitted in a soft, small voice. 

Seokjin gasped softly. 

Another egregious sin they were not supposed to use upon the poor mortal kind. Using their werewolf powers on a regular human was quite shameful. That was something that the creatures beyond the veil would do, nay, not the brothers that rule Bangtan. 

“Magic?” Seokjin snapped and Hoseok yelped at the same time, sharing a look of anger and dismay, respectfully. 

Yoongi heaved a heavy sigh, collapsing into a purple velvet armchair by the hearth of her fireplace. The second eldest licked the edges of his mouth, running his long fingers through his white hair in a defeated manner. “Jungkook, we cannot shift in the mansion. You know how we all feel about this.”

Jungkook couldn’t meet his older brother's amber glare. “I know, hyung. I just—“

Without even looking at him, Taehyung and Yoongi both emitted low, warning growls, their voices deep and huskiest of the brothers. It was quite a scary duo to witness. Jungkook froze, his amber eyes sliding to the ground in obedience.  

Pack order, as well as family dynamic, was something that was established, but changed from time to time. In this room right now, the order was Yoongi, Seokjin, Hoseok, Taehyung, then Jungkook. When all the princes were together, the order was usually eldest to youngest, though that was challenged by Taehyung and Namjoon often. However, Seokjin never failed to be at the top of the pecking order normally due to his birthright. 

“No ‘hyung’ this or that.” Yoongi snarled, head hanging as he rested his elbows on the tops of his thighs, speaking directly to the cold ground beneath his feet. “You shifted…then got scared when she screamed at the sight of your wolf form, so you made her pass back out with your magic!” He got up then, pounded over to the youngest brother and single handedly picked Jungkook up off the floor by his robes. “Why were you in her room in the first place, huh?” The second eldest’s eyes were ablaze, fury seeping out of his pores as he searched the youngest’s own fearful orbs. 

Yoongi had already reprimanded Namjoon today. Tensions were on high alert today because of that. He was so fond of all his kin, he hated being the villain, the bad part about their day. Seokjin and himself very much had to play parent because theirs have since passed. 

“I’m going utterly insane, hyung…” Was all Jungkook could muster before Yoongi let out another deep sigh, his free hand rifling through his white locks. 

“I know.” Yoongi admitted, releasing him gently. Yoongi agreed, solemnly nodding, the fire extinguishing from his words and his sunset colored eyes.  His gaze traveled to the lovely young lady in their guest room who they worshipped the ground she walked on.  His nostrils flared, “We all are, Jungkook…we all are.” 

———-

Soft, featherlight touches upon my cheek roused me from my slumber.  Though I remember fainting, I cannot recall why that occurred. Blinking slowly, I opened my eyes only to see rich amber-coloured orbs peering down at me in the flickering candlelight. Pushing the sheets away, I sat up, rubbing the sleep from my weary eyes. I wasn’t fully awake nor was I registering who was in my room with me in this present moment. The air around me was thick, laced with anticipation and it smelt of fresh linen and morning dew. I stopped moving at once and drank in the human sitting opposite of myself. 

Prince Jungkook.

My mind started to race with questions. Why was he here?  In my room? What time was it? His eyes widened as I stared at him. “Little bird-“

“Prince Jungkook.” I clutch the sheets to cover my chest, my cheeks flushing a bright red hue. Jungkook looked completely sheepish as an innocent gleam flashing across his amber eyes. “W-What are you doing here?” 

“I beg your pardon, my lady.” He sheepishly looked down and away from me. “One of the hunting dogs became loose in the castle, found its way into your room and gave you quite a scare.… I think.”  The youngest prince runs a hand through his curly, richly-colored locks, sliding his palm down to stroke the side of his neck. “I do not wish to frighten you or have you think ill of me, as I know a young lady should never be unattended without a chaperone…”  Jungkook turns the complete opposite direction of me, looking toward the foot of the bed. “It was my turn to put the hounds away and I utterly failed.” Jungkook solemnly looks out the window, his tone grim. “I’m deeply sorry, Y/N.” 

My heart cracks into little pieces.

Prince Jungkook reminds me of my brother Chan at this moment. So sweet and earnest, never truly meaning to harm anyone, a wash of teasing in his tone. He was all but sass and silliness, but he would never bite--lest not bite me.

My stomach lurches at the memory of my brother.  

I lightly touch Jungkook’s shoulder to steady my spiraling thoughts of my family I left not long ago. I lean into the young prince and whisper, “Do not feel ashamed, Prince Jungkook.” He whips his head back around to look at me with his bright, amber eyes. His lips part while his eyes appear glassy in the soft glow from the morning light flickering through the sheer curtains.   

Prince Jungkook opens and closes his mouth several times, reminiscent of a fish gasping for air once plucked from water. His amber eyes flit from my own eyes to my extended hand on his shoulder. Jungkook suddenly clears his throat and gets up off my bed in a fluid movement. He bows deeply and silently exits my room in the blink of an eye. 

And like the breathing out of a candle, he is gone in an instant. 

I look to the end of the bed, a small shudder skates down my spine, a chill of ice flows through my veins, my teeth chatter. That hound from last night was utterly frightening. Its glowing eyes, its huge body, curled up by my feet…I can still feel its eyes upon me, raking over my flesh as if it was cognizant, searching my features as if it was a real person…

“That’s impossible…” I whisper to myself, pulling the covers up over myself, turning to the other side of the plush bed. “A hound cannot possibly be a person!” A chuckle leaves my lips as I nod into my pillow, rationalizing that magic isn’t real and I should probably see a doctor before someone claims I am mad. “What utter nonsense.” 

-

“You' been having bad dreams, Miss?” Sophia asks me, worry clouding her features as she helps me get ready for the day. Lacy, Sophia’s sister, braids the other side of my hair, twisting and folding my locks to look perfect. This is the trend for young girls my age right now--or so they tell me. 

“A few,” I sheepishly admit, shrugging my shoulders. “Can you tell?”

“Jus’ look like you’ seen a ghost, tis’ all.” Lacy worries her brow as she works on the other side of my locks, preparing me for the day. “Tis’ the time of year for goblins and demons and other creatures from the realm below to run amuck on Earth.” 

A small snort leaves my nostrils. “You two don’t believe that,” I say as I study them in the mirror behind me, “...Do you?” They share a look behind me, adding the finishing touches to my hair with their long, hard working hands. My heart sinks into the pit of my empty stomach. I know that sibling look. 

They know something I do not. 

“You’ feel it right, Miss?” Lacy whispers, stepping back, gathering her skirts as she turns and walks out the door. “This time of the year especially.” 

“There are strange things that happen ere’ every day, Miss.” Sophia nods, doing the same as her sister. “But this time of year…” She trails off, looking at the portrait of the prince’s with amber eyes, “is dangerous…even for people they consider family.” She whips around suddenly, throwing me a cautious, soft smile.“Best keep a watchful gaze in front as well as behind you during this time of year, Miss.”

The door announces it is shut with a small click and I am all alone in this big, wide room. 

I look at the painting she was giving the oddest glance at. Sophia was wistful, yet apprehensive in her stare which was odd for her. Lacy and Sophia were usually very warm(and a little neurotic), but maybe they heard me scream last night and I spooked them with some local superstition or something? I get up from the vanity to study the painting a little closer, moving to stand in front of the hearth, looking at the enormous canvas stretched almost the eternity of the wall. The prince’s golden eyes shine and sparkle under the warm morning glow that hits the painting perfectly. They all look so regal, so handsome and yet, so mysterious at the same time, hanging over the hearth just so. 

Something catches my eye. My gaze narrows, squinting as I see the tiny, orange and black butterfly in the corner of the painting.

I slowly realize as a thought fills my mind, my eyes widening. “...Just like the one I saw in the garden-”

A knock sounds at my door. “Little Bird?” Prince Hoseok’s voice filters through the wood, startling me from my thoughts. 

“Y-Yes?” I stammer, collecting my dress in my fists to move to the door quicker. “Yes, Prince Hoseok?” I ask, opening the wooden frame with a small smile on my lips.

“Good morning, Little Bird.” The cheery, red-headed prince, bowing slightly. He was already dressed to the nines in his gray wool day suit. The princes’ all dressed handsomely, but I do have a thought that Hoseok and Taehyung sport the most trendy and interesting colors and pieces out of all the princes. “I hope I am not disturbing you, but Jungkook informed us of the-” he pauses, looking for the correct word, his amber eyes roaming my face as he does so. “-incident that occurred last evening.” His eyes seem to flash with acute anger for a split second. “We have all come to the conclusion that we would not want you to be unaccompanied today, if that is quite alright with you?”

His hand extends to mine and I take it almost right away, leaving the comfort of my room. 

“Good girl,” Hoseok purrs softly so only I can hear as he loops my arm to intertwine with his. A jolt of lighting rushes to my nether region and I know my eyes expand at the feeling. That has never happened to me before. It excited me,  however, it also made me feel a small speck of terror stewing in my guts. “Right-o! Shall we?” He happily carried on as if I wasn't going through an internal crisis at this very moment. 

“Ye-yes.” I squeak. 

Hoseok began to walk me down to the dinning hall, the smells of breakfast wafting through the mansion. The prince quipped to me about how he wanted to dance with me right away at the ball as it was one of his favorite activities after hunting. 

Once Prince Hoseok and I stepped down onto the main floor from the grand staircase, the large house seemingly exploded with a flurry of hurry and mild panic. Maids and butlers ran to and fro, the service staff were almost fully complete with their ritual of turning the lavish home into one of pure royalty and splendor. One day more and the Harvest Moon Ball shall be hosted in the Bangtan Castle. Everyone has been in such a state of hustle and bustle, it was making me a little dizzy watching them shuffle around the marbled floor! 

The staff look like worker bees, buzzing about the hive, making it the most spectacular ball I have ever laid my eyes upon. Which might not be saying much as my father never threw such parties and gatherings. He hated that sort of frivolity. 

I thought of my beautiful dress Prince Seokjin had carefully crafted for me and sighed. “I am very delighted I can take part in the ball tomorrow.” I said as beautiful flowers from Jimin’s garden came through in huge golden vases by the tens of hundreds. The fragrant, colorful plumages needed two or more gentlemen of the Bangtan kingdom staff to carry them as the ornate containers appeared rather cumbersome to tout around.   

A wolfish grin spread across Hoseok’s face and he watched her with hungry, ravenous eyes while she took in the wealth and glamor that they have worked tirelessly to transform their den into. “We are too, Little Bird…We are too.” 

Breakfast was simple: sweet fruit, perfectly cooked porridge, crispy bacon, and fluffy eggs. The options were less plentiful then when I first arrived, but I imagine the staff very obviously had their hands full and they were busy attending and preparing other facets of the mansion. And rightfully so. A ball seems like it takes weeks, if not months, to prepare for. 

And now I am an extra burden for the brothers to shoulder. 

I must give them my thanks tomorrow. I did not have a lot to give them nor do I believe they are hurting or could ever want anything more. They live a comfortable life, or so it seems. I ponder as I chew my food all the ways that I could thank them as only Hoseok and Seokjin eat beside me. All the other brothers had their hands full with the impending ball happening tomorrow eve. 

I scanned the table as I watched the two princes nourish themselves for the day. Seokjin ate slowly as he read the news docket, his amber eyes roaming row by row, drinking in what he was reading. Hoseok scooped porridge into his mouth quickly and snatched more bacon off his plate, wolfing down his meal as it would be his last. He didn’t eat like a child or like a brute, he just consumed his meal with haste and less tack than his oldest brother. 

It was peaceful. Even with so much movement happening throughout the castle, the dining hall was calm, the demeanor of the room was quite content. I am happy I think to myself, basking in the glow of autumn sun pouring in from the windows. I inhale deeply as I set my teacup down which earns me glances from both princes. 

“Everything alright, Little Bird?” Seokjin simpered, amber eyes gazing at me over the black and white folded paper. 

“Oh, yes, indeed!” I exclaim as the dining staff start clearing away the fine china in front of me. “I was just thinking about how content and happy I am.” I smile at him and Hoseok at the head of the table. “It is the first time I have felt like this in a long while.”

They both smile with warmth and adoration. The prince's grins are genuine, which made my own smile spread across my lips. A thought from this morning crossed my mind and I uttered the question without thinking. “I have a question, if you both don’t mind?” 

They nod in tandem, Hoseok finishing the food on his plate finally. Seokjin folded the docket and set it down on the table beside his teacup. 

“Well, uh-” Nervousness flooded through me, their bright eyes watching me with anticipation made my heart skip a beat. “I was studying the lovely portrait of you all in my room. And I couldn’t help but notice a small butterfly in the corner like a signature an artist gives…” Their faces fell as I continued. “And I saw a monarch butterfly in the garden and wanted to know, I suppose, if your family has a connection to butterflies in some manner?”

“You what?” Hoseok choked, panicked in his query as he coughed and beat his chest with vigor. 

“Are you sure you saw a butterfly?” Seokjin asked me in alarm as he stood from his seat. “An orange and black butterfly?” 

I became puzzled. “Ye-Yes?” I questioned, glancing between the two brothers as they stare at me with shock, worry coloring their handsome features. 

“We do not have butterflies in Bangtan.” Seokjin spoke in a grave manner, approaching me with slow steps. His golden, amber eyes were the size of dinner saucers, looking down at me. I have never seen him behave in such a way. I fear I have said the wrong thing at the wrong time, shattering the peaceful and tranquil morning in the dining hall with my stupid question. 

I spoil everything. 

“They are a bad omen here,” Hoseok stood, walking over to join Seokjin, staring grimly into my orbs. I have rarely seen Hoseok not smile and it was a sight I wished not to see again. His smile was one of my favorite things about him. “Butterflies are the harbingers of death and destruction.” 

An eerie feeling like I was being watched spread across my body, just like in the garden, causing a shiver to climb its way down my spine. I fret I truly made a mistake bringing this up to the princes. My raw questioning and curiosity has gotten the better of me once more. I felt like this was a rabbit hole I did not want to dig around in, lest I fall in.  

BAM!

“Seokjin-hyung! Hobi-hyung!” Jimin cried, flying through the dining hall door, worry and terror clouding his pale face as he puffed, out of breath, “He is here early!”

I whip around behind me to the cause of the noise and see the silver-locked prince shaking. He appeared disheveled in his haste to get to the dining hall as quick as a crack of lightning. Jimin’s always perfect hair was out of place, his breathing labored, and his legs wobbled as he scrambled for purchase, for support on the wooden door. 

A low rumble leaves Hoseok’s throat now as he stands behind me. “How?” He hisses out through gritted teeth, his hot breath tickling the top of my braided locks. 

“Are you certain?” Seokjin asks, all niceties gone from his tone. 

“P-Positive, hyung.” Jimin clamored, knees buckling as he fell to the ground in a heap. Prince Jimin was as still as a statue then. No movement came from his lump of a body on the floor.

I lurch forward, my arms extending in concern toward the silver -haired prince on the ground. I was still, not daring to move as two strong, mighty hands held me back, gripping both shoulders so I could not move. 

“Who is here?” I question in a whisper, not daring to move. The situation was dire it seemed. Jimin needed assistance, a mysterious guest had appeared and butterflies were quite a sore subject in the kingdom of Bangtan. 

My peaceful morning was no more. 

My ears perked at a hearty laugh that suddenly echoed through the halls. All the commotion happening in the halls seemed to die out, like the flame of a candle being snuffed out. Time was slowing, melting around me as if I was trapped in molasses. A cold shiver radiated through my body making me rigid. My back burned but I still dare not move a muscle, still in the confines of the two prince’s grasp. 

A black-gloved hand pushed through the frame of the door Jimin was slumped in front of. The two men behind me inhaled, holding their breath as the easement produced a man in orange and black riding leathers standing before us. The air was tense as this mysterious stranger floated through the door as if he owned the wind he strode through.

“Is this how you treat an esteemed guest?” His voice had an accent to it, definitely not from your kingdom or the one you’ve stumbled into. “And right before the ball too?” He grinned a devilish gleam as he made his way over to the three of you, which you all were as still as statues. 

He flicked a strand of curly, dark brown hair back away from his face, his warm, chocolate gaze was locked onto the men behind you. This man was handsome. The type of man that would make women swoon and make men jealous. He was neither too large nor too short. He was neither too feminine nor too masculine looking. This stranger was a nearly perfect man, seemingly sculpted, handmade from the gods. 

Though, you couldn’t help but think the princes’ would be the ideal personalities you’d like to be courted by...as if that would ever happen to someone like you…but, maybe one day.   

Prince Seokjin and Hoseok were utterly quiet as this man fluidly strode toward the three of you.

“Thank you so much for the snack after the long journey.” The stranger continued, surveying the beautifully ornate dining hall. “Next time could you provide me with a virgin, you know how much I prefer them over--”

“Chris.” Seokjin practically snarled, disdain rolling off his tongue. “Why are you here?”

The man shrugged, his riding leathers crinkling, cracking the tense air around the lot of you. “You didn’t get my RSVP?” This Chris fellow tilted his head, smiling as he did so. “My creature said it found someone in the garden.”

“You. Are. Early.” Prince Seokjin said, ice dripping with every syllable he uttered. The Prince gripping my shoulder tightly glazed over Chris’s question. “Today is not a good day.” 

“And you are uninvited until tomorrow.” Prince Hoseok growled over my other shoulder. 

“Gentlemen, please.” Chris chuckled, plucking a strawberry from the tray of colorful fruit, examining it in his long fingers. “My brothers and I came to spend an evening with you, for old times sake.” His brown orbs glow red in the sunlight hitting his face in the dining hall windows. 

“We do not have time to entertain guests until tomorrow, good sir. I suggest you leave.” I blurt out. I jump with the sound of my voice, startling myself. 

I blush, flushing a crimson color I am sure, and look to the floor immediately. “We” I said...I do not truly live here. I am nothing more than a visitor here. What gives me the right, the gall, to say any of this at all?

“Is this your ward I’ve been hearing about?” Chris said, bending so our eyes could meet. “My, you are a pretty thing, aren’t you?” His nostrils expanded as he leaned down to stare into my orbs. At this angle they look ravenous, mad with desire or hunger…I cannot tell the difference nor do I wish to dwell upon the thought any longer. “Now, this is the type of snack, nay, meal I’ve been hunting for.” 

My brows furrow as Chris’s devilishly playful grin deepens. 

“Christopher Bangchan.” Prince Namjoon’s deep timbre cuts through the tense air. He helps pull prince Jimin to his feet as he comes-to. The silver-haired prince grabs his face in his hands, groaning like he just woke up from a long, restful slumber. “Let us talk in the parlor or library, perhaps. That way we do not disturb our ward any further.” Namjoon grins, dimples popping out of his cheeks and I swear I think swoon every time he so much as smirks at me. “Now, shall we? We have much to catch up on.” He steadies his younger brother like nothing even happened, righting him upright to his feet with a few pats on the back. 

Jimin stands on his own two feet, however they wobble like a newborn calf. The prince finds the nearest chair and slumps over in it, giving a slight moan of pain as he does so. 

I find Prince Namjoon’s amber-colored orbs and hope he can feel my many words of thanks and cunning praise I am sending him with my gaze. He gives a small wink in my direction, turning his back to the group of us and exits the dining hall. Christopher retreats with a salacious grin upon his face, gliding to follow behind silently.

A chill runs up my spine as his orbs flash red for a split second before he fully vanishes from view. 

Another wash of awkward silence ticks, time seems to come back into focus for me. Birds chirp and chatter outside the windows, the staff chatter amongst themselves as they are hard at work preparing for the ball tomorrow. The world begins to spin again and I feel like I am coming out of a year-long slumber. 

What an odd fellow. I think as I exhale a deep breath I never even realized I was holding. I shall try and stay clear of him tomorrow.

“Y/N…” Hoseok says, spinning me around. A large smile sat upon his face, gazing at me with so much adoration. “You can be quite the powder keg, can’t cha’?”

“My little bird.” Prince Seokjin strokes the side of my cheek with the back of his long, comforting hands. He looks at me with his kind, rich eyes. “Well done.” 

I smile wide, grinning from ear to ear. I don’t know that talking rudely out of turn was deserving of so much praise, but nonetheless, I am happy once more. I am content with these brothers I have come to live with. 

“But, please Little Bird…” Prince Seokjin furrows his brow, his smile slightly falling. “Please do not go anywhere unaccompanied without one of us from now on.” I’m sure I give him quite the puzzled expression as he continues. “The Harvest Moon Ball, while magnificent and splendid as it is, also brings with it some…unsavory characters to the castle. Do you understand?”

I nod.

“Good.” He claps his hands. “Wonderful, wonderful, yes.” Prince Seokjin nods back to me. “Now, let us go fetch some things I need in town. I believe they should all be finished.” 

“What about Prince Jimin?” I ponder, giving his brother a worrying glance. “Is he quite alright?” 

“I have got him.” Hoseok exclaimed, walking over to the silver-haired prince and ruffled his hair about. “You two make sure the ball will be fantastic for tomorrow. I’ll manage things here.” 

“Marvelous!” Seokjin took my hand in his and led me to the door as footmen rushed and worked to dress the oldest prince in his outside attire. “We have much to do in town, Y/N. Much to do, yes.”

There must have been an accident in the kitchen or maybe with a decoration? Several staff members were mopping and cleaning a giant spot of dark-colored liquid near the door. They always work so hard, I hope the princes give them enough time off. And especially after the Harvest Moon Ball. The substance was both liquid and gooey at the same moment; chunks of possible beef or pork were being scooped up with haste, the castle staff meticulously restoring the ground of the threshold of the grand entrance way. Did one of the staff drop a stew of beef on accident?

 “Shall we wait for Paisley?” Another query finds my lips as we walk outside to the gleaming black carriage that was getting ready to go into town for the day. Two beautiful tawny work horses snorted, stamping their feet onto the ground, their hooves large and heavy in the mid-morning light. I noticed Jongbak was nowhere to be seen on this morning either, which was rather odd. He would do everything in his power to be in the presence of Paisley. 

Seokjin paused, stilling his movements as a footman opened the door for both the prince and I. He was a few steps in front of me and I felt his aura darken with my question. My heart was beating wildly, trapped behind my sternum. I haven’t seen Paisley this morning…or come to think of it, last night Sophia and Lacy have been attending to me. They often rotated in their care of me, but it was not normal to go this long without seeing my friend. 

“I am sorry that I didn’t inform you earlier,” Prince Seokjin walked to the carriage door, spinning on his heel, holding out his hand to assist me into the  carriage. “Paisley is no longer with us.”

A small gasp climbs from my throat, my eyes widening with surprise. “You mean she left? She no longer works in the castle?” I find his gloved hand in mine as I step closer to the carriage door. He helps me climb into the wheeled device, seating on the other side of me as Sophia silently follows, sitting next to me with a grim expression on her face.

Seokjin shakes his head, a sheepish smile springing up upon his pillowy lips. “I’m afraid not, Little Bird…I’m afraid not.” 

“Do you know where she went off to?” I query further. “I will miss her so!” Growing up with brothers was fantastic and I wouldn’t change it for the world, but in recent weeks I have grown close to Paisley, considering her akin to a sister to me. I felt utterly shameful. I didn't know she was planning to leave Bangtan Castle. I would have done everything in my power to make her stay. 

Prince Seokjin shakes his head, his rich locks swaying with him as the carriage begins to move. “She didn’t say anything except I know she went somewhere far, far away.” 

-

Riding into town, it was exceedingly calm and quiet today, which is out of the norm. Usually the village is swimming with life. Everyone outside, the shops full, restaurants buzzing with customers, the park always packed with lovely couples and families playing. The weather was not a deterrent as it was indeed chilly, but altogether sunny. I’d be remiss not to say that it was a beautiful autumn day!

Seokjin visited the butcher, which he told me was no place for a lady, so the Prince had me wait in the coach. Footmen carried crates full of items in glass, storing them above and below the carriage. I wished to know more about what was in the containers, but I held my tongue. 

I had enough outbursts and speaking out of turn for the day, I thought. 

Next, the carriage strode to an apothecary where Prince Seokjin let me pick a delightful, sweet yet mild tea. He said he was very fond of my choice. We received bundles of dried herbs, containers of what looked to be sludge, and colorful powders in vials. The prince paid the apothecary a hefty sum, a sack of coins exchanged for these small items seemed like the shopkeeper was ripping Seokjin off, but, no haggling was made, so I said not a word. 

We stopped for tea and sandwiches in a restaurant which was inside of an enormous green house located in the heart of the town. Fragrant flowers, leafy green vines, and tall tropical plants inhabited the glass dome. The air was warm and the atmosphere was relaxing as we made polite conversation. There were only a small handful of other patrons in the dining hall, making it feel as if I was shouting to the prince sitting across the table from me. 

“Y/N.” Seokjin addressing me by my name made my cheeks flush. I do hope he doesn’t notice, I shall just play it off if he does! The warm air in the greenhouse must be affecting me so! “Are you most excited for tomorrow's event?” Seokjin queried, finishing his meaty sandwich. 

I nod, wiping my mouth with the edge of my napkin. “Indeed.” I smile at him. “I am most looking forward to wearing my sparkling, glittering gown Madam Hwasa has created for me in little-to-no time. My mind wanders away from itself as it thinks of the dressmaker pointing to the middle of my back, to the small, bird wings-like birthmark I’ve carried with me since I came into this world. 

“I do hope you save me a dance, Little Bird.” Prince Seokjin purs, looking at me with a glimmer of desire in his eyes. I am sure my cheeks have only grown more pink by the minute. My fleshy center in between my legs jolts with electricity and I blink rapidly, trying to think about morphing away from my ever changing thoughts. “...Possibly two dances?” 

I melt at his velvety, swoon-worthy words. “Y-Yes, of course.” I stammer. 

“Good.” A wolfish grin spreads across the prince’s face. His amber eyes glint as he lightly touches the top of my hand. “Very good.

-

“Why the fuck are you here early, Chris?” Hoseok thunders, throwing the wooden library doors open. His amber orbs flash red, anger seething out of every pore. “Who invited you in?” 

“The cute little maid with the freckles.” Chris stated, a coy smile on his lips. “She was quite the snack.” Chris smuggly looks over his glass of brandy. The outsider was sitting on the red velvet couch in the library, looking comfortable in his orange and black riding leathers.

“Monster.” Yoongi’s deep timbre growled, baring his pearly canine teeth.  The brothers, Yoongi, Namjoon, and Jungkook, all stood facing the man adjacent to them, scowls on their faces, brows knit in frustration. 

“Come now,” Chris chidded as Hoseok strode across the room, standing in the menacing line with his wolf brethren. “We cannot help what we are. You all should understand better than mortals, no?” 

“There is a contract in place. You cannot harm one of our staff during the ball.” Namjoon frankly states. 

“But, it is not quite time for the ball, now--is it?” Chris snickers.

“You never sent a calling card, which is something you are supposed to do as well.” Jungkook folds his arms across his chest, a loathsome attitude souring the merriment of today. 

Chris gives a fake gasp, putting his free hand across his smirking mouth. “I did,” he said, feigning innocence, “my butterfly said someone saw it who lives in the castle.” He shrugs. “I thought you boys knew.” 

“Y/N saw it, but she didn’t know it was one of your…creatures.” Hoseok sneered down at the man sitting down, sipping his brandy casually. 

Yoongi slams his hands on the coffee table, splintering the wood on the cherry-wood table, sending pieces flying. Spittle flies from Yoongi’s peeled back lips, snarls erupting from his throat. “You are not welcome here this evening.” Prince Yoongi decides, the collection of wolf-men nod their heads in agreement. 

“Tell me about your ward.” Chris chuckles, his accent coming out in full force now that he is becoming more comfortable, ignoring the question. “She is awfully pretty.” The wolf-brothers snarl, feral noises emitting from their lips. “Keeping her all to yourselves, huh?”

“Don’t. You. Dare. Think. About. It.” Jungkook riles, enunciating his words with dark, animalistic noises. His wolf form rippling under his human skin, threatening to burst free. 

“Once you finish your drink, you need to leave.” Hoseok snaps. A darkened look glazing across his usually happy-go-lucky features.  

A small snort leaves the stranger’s nostrils. “You haven’t marked your territory very well, boys.” Chris takes a small sip of his brown colored alcohol. “Anyone, or anything, could gobble her right up.”

“I’m going to get my hunting rifle.” Hoseok angrily says as he spins on his heel to retreat out of the library.

“I’ll go with you.” Namjoon agrees, his lip lifted in disgust. 

“Alright, alright.” Chris stands, draining the last drops of the strong drink from his glass. “I know when I’m not wanted.” He stretches, smiling as his fangs poking out from his top lip, smiling at the angry group of wolf-men. He makes his way to the window, climbing through the frame, and disappearing into the daylight. “I’ll see you tomorrow.” His words echo in the library. 

Hoseok lets out a wild howl, informing the pack what just happened here and who they need to watch out for. 

-

The next day, I was told I should keep to the guest room as the princely brothers were very busy preparing for the ball happening this evening. 

I was rather confused as to why. Did they not wish me at their side all the morrow? Do the princes not deem me fit to be in my company? Do the princes of Bangtan wish me not good enough company? Do they loathe me now for speaking out of turn yesterday?

In these moments, I deeply missed my brothers. I fear I would never be a solitary creature, preferring the company of many over being alone. I craved their smiling faces, their boisterous laughs, the way they teased me so. 

I wondered about why I was in solitary confinement all morning while I ate breakfast of buttered toast, sausage, and eggs. My mind raced as I read through the latest news docket, my eyes scanning other the black and white text, never actually reading anything. I pondered as I was scrubbed from head to toe, being rubbed raw as if I was poultry, going to be prepared to be eaten as the ball later. Thoughts of confusion were all that hovered in my brain all morning and afternoon. 

I couldn’t concentrate on anything. My mind is springing back and forth like a ball on a wire. And to top it  off, my two attendants were no help to my restless mood. 

Sophia and Lacy flit and flounce about the guest room, rushing in and out all day. They brought me breakfast, the news docket, and all other petty gossip that was brought up from downstairs. The women are usually on edge, but I have never seen the sisters in such an anxious state. 

This just added to the tense air of the guest room, making me feel desperate to leave. I felt like a trapped, caged animal in this wide room the princes have provided for me. I felt both ungrateful and agitated with the same thought. I am grateful I have a place to live, a home that has welcomed me even though I am a complete stranger. However, I am rather displeased because they are telling me I need to be shut up in my room all day, never getting to help or see what the ball will look like. I felt as if I was in my role of little sister once more, being told what I can and couldn’t do. I feel like  these thoughts were unfair, but true at the same time.

The only moments I was allowed some respite from my whirling thoughts and oppression room was when I needed to relieve myself. 

Staring at myself in the mirror of a cold, private bathroom on the second floor where the guest room I stay in resides, I wonder why the princes have shut me out this morning. My brow wrinkles and I raise an arm to the ceiling, turning my head to my armpit. No, I don’t suppose I smell, but perhaps one's own smell doesn’t affect themselves?

I look rather odd, I think, clothed in a very casual and modest dress of thin, light blue colored silk. It was chilly this morning and I had chosen to skip wearing socks on my journey to the lavatory. I feel like I have rings under my eyes, sleep torturous from the nightmares of large wolves and dogs that meet me when I shut my eyes.  I shall give my face a good wash before Sohpia and Lacy apply makeup the princes have purchased and wished  for me to wear. It was almost time time for me to step into my beautiful-

Run.

I still, sucking in a breath. I was mid-rinse of my face with cold water, feeling a shiver run down my spine. A dreadful feeling was crawling down my back, making every hair on my body stand at attention. My body is crying out that I am in danger. My heart was beating quickly. I need to flee! 

Water drips down my chin, as I hang over the marbled wash basin. I am too afraid to look up as I hear a shuffling sound behind me. I had not heard anyone come through the door and I was worried that the man from yesterday would be making another unexpected appearance. I gulp. I am alone. Sophia and Lacy are at the opposite end of the hall…Would they hear me if I screamed?

Would I even be able to scream?

“I’ve been looking everywhere for you.” A smooth, buttery voice wafts from behind me. I jolt, though, still not brave enough to look up at the reflection in the mirror. A man’s voice. This was not the same accent the man, Chris, had from yesterday. This voice was new, more playful, more devious--if that was even possible. “Such a pretty ward.”

I should run. I plead with myself. I think about a few weeks ago, a scowl forming on my moist face. I am not helpless. I remember the red spray from my fathers wrinkly throat. I will not run anymore.

“This room is occupied” I say, not glancing up, my tone cold and not friendly. “Do you have no manners that you do not knock when a door is closed?” 

“Oh-ho!” The man behind chuckles, his fingers lightly brushing across my exposed shoulder blades. I shudder. It felt like this man reached into my body and caressed my soul with a simple stroke of his warm fingertips. “You are a feisty one, aren’t you?” 

“Who are you?” I clench my fist, whipping my head up, my fears dissipating with his jeer.

My eyes blew wide as I stare into the reflection, wildly looking behind me in the mirror. There was no one in this dimly lit, cold room. No, that’s not right. It can’t be. His fingertips trail down my clothed spine, the silk making it easy for him to trail down lower and lower. I have never been touched like this and I have never been touched without permission which makes me feel queasy. 

“What, pet?” The man with the rich baritone was still behind me, taunting me. “You look as if you’ve seen a ghost.”

Enough of this nonsense! I turn suddenly, punching the man square in the face. He stumbles backward, a loud crack emitting from the middle of his face. “Unhand me, you heathen!” I shout, bellowing as loud as one possibly could, hoping someone would come and assist me with this ruffian in the lavatory. 

“Fuck.” Shiny, bright red rubies drip from his broken nose, falling on the beautiful white marble floor. His eyes flash red with anger as he cradles his bloody face, staring daggers at me. My tight fist throbs, hurting from the force I just used on this stranger. “I’m going to kill you, you filthy human.”

Human? I don’t dwell on his weird descriptor of me. “Try it.” I sneer, adrenaline flowing through me, making me speak before I think clearly. 

This evil man lunges at me, giving a loud shout as I glower at him, my fists coming up defensively to my chest, ready to hit him again. I’ll show you who has killed a man.

“Y/N!”

It happened so fast, I feared if I was blinking too fast, I would miss it. 

In a flash of black and white, Jungkook, who is dressed rather smartly in a posh tuxedo, races into the room, kicking this man in the face. This sends the stranger flying, hitting the hard, marbled walls. A loud thump He lands with an, “oof” sound, his head lulling to his chest. 

“Are you okay?” Jungkook’s amber eyes search mine, sparkling in the dim light. He lightly grips my shoulders, looking me over to see if I’m alright. 

I quake, my body shaking with pent up fear coursing through my veins, adrenaline dying down. But I nod. “Y-Yes.” I manage. “I am fine.” I look at the man slumped over, knocked unconscious. “My fist hurts a little…I suspect I broke his nose.” 

He blinks slowly, jaw dropping down, my words sinking into his skull as he processes what I uttered. “You what?” His sunset-colored orbs expand. The youngest prince stares at me with a mix of admiration and awe. “You what?” He repeats. 

I can’t help but give a small laugh at that, my frown flipping into a small smile. “He touched me inappropriately,” I sighed, “…So, I punched him.” 

Jungkook snaps his jaw back in place, hastily removing his hands from my shoulders. I notice how cold it was without his warmth there. “I was coming up to tell your attendants that the ball was kicking off soon and I heard you yell.” 

“Thank you.” I shiver, looking back at the man as Jungkook guides me out of the room. “Thank you, Jungkook.”

“I know today must have been agonizing for you.” The youngest prince ushers me into the hall, closing the large lavatory door behind us. It groaned on the hinges, making a loud thud as it clasped shut. “I am sorry we had you stay in your room all day.” Jungkook nodded to the door, "We didn't want riff-raff like that to find its way to you.”

A thought crossed my mind now that I was more rational, more-level headed. “Prince Jungkook, I didn’t hear him enter.” He blinks at me as I continue. “I had the door shut and locked.” I shake my head, brow furrowing. “He had no reflection in the mirror…” Jungkook continued to blink slowly at me as I finished. “And…he called me a…human? Isn’t that all…rather odd?”

A beat of silence and I feared I was going to be burned at the stake, accused of witchcraft or something akin to that for saying a ridiculous thing. A person with no reflection! What a queer thing to suggest! Maybe I was losing my mind, maybe I was seeing things and needed to be locked away, living away from others until the end of time. 

“Indeed, rather odd.” Jungkook nodded, leaning down to place the back of his hand on my forehead. “Are you feeling poorly, Y/N? I know that man gave you quite the fright. Are you sure you would like to attend the ball this evening?”

A wave of calm fluttered over my body at his touch. I reveled in the feeling of this soft, light sensation traveling through my body. It was a tingling feeling like butter melting on a hot stove or chocolate in one's mouth. I felt my worries float away on a fluffy cloud with his touch. “I feel fine.” I respond, feeling like I’ve been rejuvenated. 

“Wonderful.” He grins, gently guiding me back to my room to be placed in the eager hands of Sophia and Lacy. “One of us will be here to escort you to the ballroom when you have finished getting ready.” He says as he shuts the door softly in my face. 

The youngest prince gives a low snarl, Hoseok and Taehyung stalking upstairs in tandem, scowls painting their handsome faces. Jungkook rolls his shoulders, his wolf form rippling under his human skin as he marches to the lavatory. The brothers growled, throwing open the door as the strange man moaned in pain on the ground. Jungkook snickered as he hoisted the man up by his lapels. “We have vampire trash to take out.”

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Author's Notes: Wow, has it really been two years since I worked on this story? That's crazy to me! Thank you for sticking around if you have been waiting for this story to continue! I have a portion of the ball written out, so hopefully it won't take me years to complete and upload the next bit! Haha. Anyway, a comment, like, or reblog is always appreciated but not necessary. Love you all and thank you again for reading. 💕

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Part Three l Part Five

[the-brainrot-central]

*drops these and leaves*

Every day is like painfully empty idk what to do I feel like I’m losing it

[sweetprfct]

Permanent December

Joseph Quinn x Fem!Reader

Summary: You and Sara have been best friends for a while now and when Sara had started dating Wes, you realized he also had a best friend. Joe. But somehow, you and Joe tend not to get along all the time.

Author's Note: I apologize, I keep forgetting to re-upload the rest of these parts LMAO. Anyway, here's part four.

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part one - part two - part three - part four - part five - part six - part seven - part eight - part nine - part ten

Work had been exhausting. 

It was the constant phone calls, constant meetings every week from his manager, Alex, that was making him all worked up. He wasn’t going to lie, he loved his job. 

He really did, but he was tired. 

He was tired ever since his character from Stranger Things became an overnight favorite. He loved every single fan of his, and he was grateful for all the love that he had received, but he needed a break. A break from all the stricter rules that he had been receiving back and forth. The constant nagging of how he needed to stop smoking for real this time. He tried. He really did. But it was hard and from all the work that kept being thrown at him, it made him even smoke harder. 

The constant nagging that he has to be careful because every move he made was now being watched by everyone. He needed to get away. He hasn’t spent time with himself nor with his friends anymore. It wasn’t like Wes had not been busy too. Wes would usually tag along with him to attend events in America. Little advance screenings or award shows whenever he was free but that had been a while since it happened, didn’t it?

Wes had been busy too. 

Joe understood that, and he was happy for his best friend. Ever since he had met Sara, the lad had been nothing but happy and more of himself. Joe saw that in his eyes, and Wes had been nothing but talk about Sara all the time. Wes would fly over to Germany to visit, and Joe had met Sara when she had flown to London for the first time. He was quick to introduce her to Joe, and he thought that Sara was actually good for Wes. He understood it better when they had started hanging out more together as to why his best friend had fallen so hard for her. 

Sara would hang out with the both of them when she was in London and to Joe’s surprise, he actually got along with her pretty well, but work had been busy where he hadn’t seen the both of them for a while now. So, when he was doing his little Dior photoshoot in Paris, Wes had called him asking when he was going to be done. Honestly, Joe hesitated because for the first time, he had some free time for two weeks. He wanted to just go home and have some peace on his own. Get away from everyone for a little while.

“C’mon, mate. You’ll love Germany.” Wes had convinced him. “You need a holiday.”

Joe sat in his dressing room that day, contemplating whether he should go join Wes and Sara or just go home and maybe spend some time by himself. 

A real peaceful two weeks that he really needed. 

Eventually, he gave in anyway because he thought maybe a little holiday in a different country was going to take his mind off of work, but that wasn’t the case was it? Because the moment he flew to Germany and he had walked into Sara’s apartment for the first time, his eyes immediately caught you. 

You sat there on the sofa next to Sara with a smile on your face, and Joe swore he had forgotten the whole English language. You were so nice too. You were so welcoming, but he just stood there for about an hour unable to move his feet. Unable to really say anything. 

He had heard about you. Sara had mentioned you through conversations before and even Wes had mentioned you before. Joe wasn’t exactly sure why they couldn’t stop talking about you but now, he understood.

The whole afternoon was just him listening to conversations between you, Wes, and Sara, and he would chime in from time to time. You were funny, understanding and you knew what you wanted for you, and he stood there like an idiot under Sara’s doorway and just… watched. 

He stood there trying to find the right words to join in the conversation and when Sara had suggested to go to the Christmas market that night, Joe was determined to try and talk to you. To get to know you better because for some reason, you just immediately pulled him in, and you didn’t even know, didn’t you? You didn’t know how much he was struck by you by just one look, but unfortunately, his work never stopped, did it? Because he was caught up texting Alex back and forth that night at the Christmas market talking about his schedule and upcoming projects. Joe wasn’t even in Germany for a full day, and he was already being bothered by his team again. 

Wasn’t he on a holiday? Wasn’t these two weeks supposed to be a break?

Joe got all tense and worked up again that he didn’t even realize that he wasn’t enjoying his night anymore. And oh god, all he wanted was to try and talk to you that night. Get to know you better.

“Glühwein?” 

Joe had gazed up from his phone for the first time that night and what did he see? You handing him the hot steaming glass of wine, and you looked so thoughtful. He couldn’t help but think how you glowed with the Christmas lights that flickered around you.

And Joe? 

He was kicking himself mentally for not being a gentleman and offered to get you one. You stood still in front of him, waiting for him to take the drink and if he wasn’t such an idiot already, the next few words didn’t slip out of his lips correctly. 

“I could have paid for one myself.” Joe had told you, and he swore he wanted to just stitch his mouth right there and then because he didn’t mean it that way. 

He meant he could have paid for one. He could have paid for you, but he was exhausted and in a bad mood that his brain wasn’t even running correctly anymore. 

You gave him a short answer that Sara had paid for it, but he already had fucked up, didn’t he? Because he already could hear the offended tone from your voice. His eyes shifted towards Wes and Sara from behind you, and he didn’t want to make things worse than it already was. He didn’t need to offend Sara either. So, he took the glass and muttered a small thank you to you, hoping he wouldn’t say anything else that was stupid for the rest of the night. 

“Take a picture, it will last longer.” Wes smirked at his best friend. 

Both men had distanced themselves from you and Sara later that night, and they were busy looking for a gift for Wes’ mum. Joe hadn’t realized it yet until he saw Wes smirking at him that he had been staring at you. He was feeling defeated that he wasn’t able to really talk to you and get to know you better and to make things worse for that matter, he had offended you also. 

“She’s so fit, isn’t she?” Wes teased him even more, making Joe nudged him on the arm. “Well, are you just going to stand there, or are you actually going to talk to her?”

“No, you wanker.” Joe rolled his eyes at his best friend. “I already fucked it all up tonight.”

Wes let out a small laugh, shaking his head. “You could try again, but don’t even think about hurting her because she’s important to Sara.”

Joe exhaled sharply and gave up for the rest of the night. He didn’t want to risk saying something more stupid and that was how it went for the next two weeks. Him keeping his distance from you, and him being bothered by his team throughout his holiday. It wasn’t a holiday really if he was still constantly talking to Alex on the phone. 

Meanwhile, you sat there the whole time, making Joe feel so hypnotized by you, and you didn’t even know about it. You didn’t know how for the next few years, all Joe would be thinking about was you. 

All he would think about was how your eyes would twinkle when you were talking about something that you love and how the sound of your laughter was so pleasant in his ears. Joe would mentally kick himself that next year for not being able to actually make an effort to talk to you, and he would constantly kick himself and question himself as to how did you occupy his mind so constantly when he only had known you for two weeks? Joe would count the days, months and hours until he was able to see you again in December. 

But work had gotten worse.

It had left him more exhausted. It had him try to hide from everyone in public because now, there were people following him all the time. There were people taking pictures of him with the longer lens camera, and it had got him overthinking over the fact that he couldn’t disrupt your life like that. He couldn’t bring you into his messy and tangled world, so the next two years were like that. He would spend two weeks in Germany during December, spent time with Wes and Sara, and kept his distance from you. 

Always an arm’s length. 

Always making sure he didn’t get near you because if he did, he wouldn’t be able to stop himself from making a move. That was why when he had seen you on the set of the show he was guest starring in LA, he couldn’t move. 

You saw him, and he has seen you. 

Both of your eyes had locked with each other, but he couldn’t. He couldn’t do anything about it because his team was there, and he needed you away from them. He needed you to be safe from the noise of his life. So, Joe had walked away. He had walked away and had acted like he didn’t know you. 

It was better that way. 

He kept you safe like that. 

Just safe in his heart. 

And that whole day was pure torture for him. He kept trying to avoid you, kept trying to make sure you didn’t lock eyes again. Joe knew. He knew that you had pretended that you didn’t know him too. You had kept your distance the way he did and by the end of the day, he had seen you leave the set. Not one word came out from both of your lips for each other. It was better that way. 

Don’t hurt her. 

Wes’ voice would echo in his mind from time to time. If only Wes knew how much Joe had fallen for you over the next few years he had gotten to know you better every December. If only Wes knew how much Joe was always thinking about you throughout the year when your presence wasn’t around. 

If only you knew. 

But Wes wasn’t stupid either. 

He had seen. 

He had seen many times how much Joe would drool over you. How much Joe was trying so hard to stop himself from walking over and talking to you. They knew each other since primary school, so Wes knew his best friend too well. So, he finally asked Joe one day if he had feelings for you. 

Feelings for you? Psh, no. Wes was being mental.

Joe denied it. He denied it many times. 

But eventually, Joe admitted it. He had admitted it when he had a few too many beers one night. Wes couldn’t help but smirk at his best friend when he had slipped up and told him how he really felt. 

They both were sitting in a pub on a Friday night, and Wes had been sulking over the fact that he missed Sara so much, and he wished the distance wasn’t so hard sometimes. 

That was when Joe brought up the subject of you. 

If Wes had been sulking over Sara, Joe sulked over you a lot worse. He was rambling about how at least Wes was with Sara. That they love each other. With you, however, it was harder because Joe never wanted to disrupt your life due to the fact that he was now being watched by everyone in the world. How you have kept your distance too. How you were always so aloof and quiet around him, and you probably didn’t feel the same with him.

But goddammit, he just couldn’t stop thinking about you. He tried to stop too. 

He tried hard.

He had started dating other girls but the thought of you never left his mind. None of them were like you. Eventually, he had given up going on dates and had told himself that maybe just admiring you from afar was just enough for him. As long as you were happy. 

But why did he have to open his mouth again the next time he had seen you? You were all back at the Christmas market in Germany, and Wes just had dragged Sara away from the both of you to go look at something. Meanwhile, you had occupied yourself by looking at the porcelain dolls that were in front of you. You had pulled your coat closer to your chest as the winter air blew a little harder, and Joe had noticed you were wearing your usual winter coat and even if you had so many layers on, Joe could tell that you were still cold. 

All he wanted was to give you his own coat, keep you warm, but he wasn’t even sure what he was doing most of the time when he was around you. All he knew was that his feet had betrayed him as he continued to follow you from behind. Joe couldn’t bring himself to talk to you, so he stood there next to you for a moment. Maybe a little conversation between you two wasn’t going to hurt, right? So he tried, and he stupidly did. 

He had started the conversation pretty well until his lips slipped the wrong words again, making you feel insulted. Joe wasn’t going to lie. He really thought that doll you were holding was adorable. He thought it wasn’t creepy like the porcelain ones that were on the table.

But he just had to open his mouth, didn’t he? He had to make a little comment, hoping it would make you smile or laugh at least. He didn’t even know if that was his way of flirting with you but either way, it insulted you instead. 

He had spent two days apologizing to you after that, trying to explain what he meant wasn’t supposed to be insulting, but you had ignored him for the next two weeks. He didn’t blame you. He was an idiot. It didn’t help either when Sara had suggested taking the holiday in London next December. 

The whole month. She had said. 

That meant you were going to see his city. You were going to meet his friends. You were going to see what he really was like and that scared Joe. He was scared that maybe you would just dislike him even more if you got to know more of him. He wanted to just fly out of Germany after that.

Wes wasn’t helping either when his best friend just laughed at his face when Joe told him about what happened.

“Are you taking the piss? You literally did not just tell her she looked like a raggedy old doll.” Wes laughed, his face was so red, he could barely breathe. 

You and Sara were still asleep, and the two of them had spent the morning making tea and breakfast for the both of you. Joe sat on the chair, burying his face in his hands. As if he didn’t already feel guilty for what he had said, Wes had to laugh at him too.

“Oh, fuck off!” Joe scrunched up his face, throwing a piece of bread at Wes.

“You truly have gone mental over her.” Wes smirked. 

“I can't,” Joe shook his head, taking a sip of his tea. “I can’t disappoint her even more.”

“Ohmygod.” Wes rolled his eyes, pulling up a chair next to him. “So, you’re just going to just sit there and not do anything about it?”

Joe sipped his tea, shrugging his shoulders. He didn’t say one word after that, and Wes just shook his head and scoffed. He had to make it up to you somehow, right? Keeping you at an arm’s length didn’t mean he could stop showing up for you, so he did. 

He offered Sara that you and her could stay at his house because he wanted both of you to be safe and comfortable, but you had declined. He didn’t blame you though. He had been giving you a cold shoulder and stupid insulting comments. He brought this all to himself. 

However, Joe was quick to volunteer to join Wes when he found out Wes was going to pick you and Sara up at the airport. Joe was nervous that you would be in London, especially since Wes already had invited all their friends for a little party in his flat that night. Though, at the same time, Joe was excited because you were able to see his city. See London and how beautiful it was. 

But goddamn. Fucking Alex. 

At this point, Joe wasn’t sure if Alex had put a tracker on him because for some goddamn reason, he was always at the most perfect timing whenever he was trying to reach Joe.

Another fucking work meeting. 

Not even a minute after seeing you, Joe had focused his attention on his phone to reply back to Alex, who had told him that he needed to be at the meeting as soon as possible. So, he had to go. Joe quickly explained to Wes what was happening, and Wes was quick to understand the situation. He had quickly told both you and Sara a welcome greeting before leaving the airport. 

In the cab, the whole ride towards Alex’s office, all he could think about was he needed to stop. He needed to stop thinking about you because at the end of the day, he won’t be able to pursue you. He would just hate himself if he had put you in the spotlight, making you experience all the shit that Hollywood has to offer. 

He could never. 

So, after the little meeting with Alex, he went straight to Wes’ flat and prepared the place like he promised Wes and then, Joe had found himself drowning in alcohol that night at the party. He had made sure everything was great but the rest of the night was spent talking to his friends and completely ignoring you. 

Hell, that was a lie. 

No matter what he did, his eyes would always linger towards you. His eyes would linger just for a second when you weren’t looking to make sure you were okay. To make sure you were also having fun but as the night went on, he had noticed how you had put yourself in the corner. He wondered if you were uncomfortable with his friends. He wondered if you weren’t feeling well that night and when he had decided to take a smoke break, he had found you out on the balcony by yourself. 

With the alcohol running in his system, his thoughts had taken over also and god, he wished he could just hold you. He wished he could just talk to you, sweep you off your feet and charm you with all his ways. But you were also drunk. You were so drunk that you almost had fallen back on the chair behind you, and Joe was quick to almost catch you. 

But you can handle yourself though, right? Because you quickly caught yourself, but he saw how your cheeks had turned red. Joe couldn’t help but laugh at how cute you were when you were drunk but that laugh got you feeling insulted again. 

Of course, because when did Joe ever make a good decision whenever he talked to you? Just to add into his stupid decisions, he had teased you that made you even more upset. 

“Just shut the fuck up for once.” Joe whispered to himself as soon as you left to go back inside. 

Joe had distanced himself since then. He couldn’t even say goodbye to you that night. It was better that way. 

Just keep the distance.

But Wes had to butt in, didn’t he? 

He had to kill two birds with one stone because he had called Joe up the next morning asking if he could keep you company that night. Wes apparently had a small surprise for Sara, and Joe, of course, couldn’t say no. He wanted to help out his best friend, but he knew Wes’ plan always had a reason. He knew part of it was because Wes wanted Joe to spend some quality time with you, but you weren’t too happy when you had figured out Wes' little plan that night. 

Could Joe blame you? Why would you want to spend time with someone who had been insulting you and was constantly giving you a cold shoulder?

It was his own fault. It was his own doing.

He brought this tension between you two. It was his own choice to stay away. To draw this imaginary line that he couldn’t cross over. So, he just sat there that night. He sat there and just watched you drink all the shots of tequila and tried to enjoy your time. You had asked him if Wes was paying for all this, but Joe had told you that Wes wasn’t. He was. 

In all honesty, he’d do more than just paying for your drinks. He’d do anything for you. Anything that could make you happy. And if that meant just keeping his mouth shut for the night, leaving you alone, so you could enjoy your time, then he’d be happy to do it. 

Though, the night got worse when he had come back from the restroom and had seen you talking to another man. He was sitting in his seat. Joe’s seat. And the man was enjoying it too. The man was enjoying your company, and you were enjoying his. Unlike how you have been miserable sitting next to him all night. Suddenly, something started bubbling up inside Joe. 

Jealousy. 

Why was he jealous? You had every right to talk to any man you wanted. It wasn’t like you two were together. He didn’t have the right to feel this way, but why won’t it stop? 

So, he had sat in the corner of the bar that night. Away from you. Away from your line of vision, making sure that you wouldn’t see him. You didn’t realize how much Joe wished it was him that you were talking to. It was his jokes that you were laughing at. It was him that could make you smile, but he had to always stop himself. He always had to make sure you were protected and safe. Joe had found himself having another bottle of beer that night, trying to drown his feelings for you as he watched you giggle over what the man had whispered to you. 

Then, the next thing that his eyes saw made him angry. 

The man’s hand had slid up to your thigh, and he saw how your smile faded. How you quickly took his hand away, but the man wasn’t going to budge. He wasn’t going to stop until he got you. 

How dare he? How dare he touch you? 

Who did he think he was that he could just touch you like that? Joe didn’t think twice getting up from where he was and immediately walked over to you. His hand on the small of your back. All he wanted was to protect you. Shield you from this disgusting pig that you were talking to but that didn’t really help, did it? Because you got angry. 

Angry at him. 

“I didn’t need your help!” You yelled at him down the sidewalk. 

Joe wasn’t sure what he should do. So, he froze. Joe knew he had pushed you away. He knew how he had kept you at an arm’s length, but he didn’t realize how much it had affected you. 

It affected you? 

How? You were always so reserved too. You always knew what you wanted, and you never showed any interest in him? Joe knew you were technically there for Sara and sure, you had gotten along with Wes also. He didn’t know that his presence—distant presence—would have an effect on you. So, he was taken aback when he had found out that you thought he hated you. 

He hated you? The complete opposite of what he was feeling. 

“Just fucking leave me alone.” You had told him that night before walking away from him. 

All Joe wanted was to hold you because even if you had turned away from him, he knew that you were crying, and it was all his fault. He was the one who made you cry, and he couldn’t do anything about it because now, you just wanted him to be away from you. He did leave you alone that night but that didn’t mean that he wasn’t going to make sure you got back to the hotel safe. 

So, he just followed you all the way back from a distance. Joe didn’t try to do anything else as soon as he saw you enter your room safely that night. He went home with so many thoughts reeling in his mind. He wanted to apologize to you, tell you how he never hated you. That he was actually in love with you.

So in love with you that he’d do anything for you, but he just couldn’t. He couldn’t bring you to his messy world. So, he had told himself to focus on his work for a while, and he had disappeared from your life for a week. 

The fact that he had to do a lot of things for work also helped. He had sat in work meetings and had gotten an earful from Alex about everything he needed to do. He had sat in his dressing room all week to do another Dior ad, and all he could think about was the little updates Wes would text him throughout the week. 

The little pictures of the three of you that Wes would send to him, visiting the best spots in London. Wes had invited him to his little surprise party for you, but he couldn’t make it. He had an event to attend to, so he had bought you a cake that morning instead and brought it to Wes.

“Just don’t tell her it’s from me.” Joe had told Wes when he had popped in at his flat that morning. He hasn’t technically told Wes what really happened that night at the pub. 

“Really, mate?” Wes raised an eyebrow at him. “Why not?”

“Just please don’t.” Joe begged before seeing Sara appear behind Wes. 

“What’s this?” Sara asked, looking at the sprinkle covered cake. 

Joe and Wes had stared at each other for a moment, and as if Joe hadn’t felt guilty enough. He felt more guilty that Wes had to lie to Sara. 

“Oh…um… Wes asked me to get the cake.” Joe answered, seeing Wes roll his eyes at him.

“We already have the cake.” Sara furrowed her brows. 

Wes raised his brow at his best friend, signaling him that this lie wasn’t going to work. Joe, however, had gave him his begging eyes to just keep it between them

Wes let out a small sigh and turned to Sara. “Yes, but that’s for the party, darling. This is for when we surprise her in her hotel room.”

“Oh.” That was all Sara could say before Joe had said goodbye to them, making an excuse that he was going to be late for work. 

The event that night had been boring. 

Joe had found his thoughts elsewhere as he sat there, looking at his phone constantly to see what time it was. He was hoping all night that maybe he could skip the after party and just go straight to yours. If he could actually make it on time. 

However, the event had run a little longer than expected, and Joe had missed your party. It ran a little longer that he had found himself rushing home, wrapping the gift he had gotten you because he was so occupied that he forgot to wrap it the night before. It ran a little longer that when he was on the tube on the way to your hotel, he had hoped that you were still up and hadn’t fallen asleep already because he had an hour left before midnight and didn’t want to miss your birthday completely. 

And when you had opened the door for him, a relief washed over him, knowing that he didn’t miss your birthday. He ran from the station all the way to your hotel that he was out of breath when he had arrived and his hair was all in disarray. Though, the sight of you had pulled in his breath even more because that dress–oh my god that dress– got him hitching his breath, and he felt like he couldn’t find air in his lungs any longer. 

“Hey.” That was all he could manage.

You looked beautiful—stunning actually— and Joe was trying his best to control himself. To keep his distance. He wouldn’t be able to stop himself if he was going to ever try and cross that imaginary line that he had drawn for himself. So, when he gave you the gift, he was quick and ready to walk away and say goodnight, but you offered him a piece of cake. You had to be nice and invite him to your hotel room. 

Joe kept his mouth shut the whole time. He looked around your room and couldn’t help but think how organized you were. Another thing he had noticed about you. He watched you serve him the cake, and you even gave him a bottle of water. 

Thoughtful. 

And good lord, you just had to eat that piece of cake in front of him, didn't you? You just had to keep licking off the frosting off your bottom lip, while Joe had tried his best to make a normal conversation with you. 

Joe was weak. 

He kept looking down at his cake and avoiding eye contact because he knew how much you were making him want to fold for you, and he couldn’t cross that line. He couldn’t. He had told an actual joke and showed you an actual genuine smile that night, and he didn’t know he could just fall for you even more when you had given him a smile that was just meant for him and a small thank you that night. Joe got so distracted that he had forgotten the one thing he wanted to tell you. 

“I don’t hate you.” He had told you in the middle of the hall.

He never have and never would. That was one thing he could at least give you. 

Reassurance. 

A reassurance that your presence never bothered him and that he never wanted to make you feel that way at all. In fact, if he could, he would have told you how much you made his life brighter since you had walked in. How much he loved your laugh. How much he wanted to hold you, but he couldn’t because his life was too complicated. His world was too messy that he couldn’t let you experience all the messiness that came with it. In fact, that was all he could think about until the next day. How he was too close crossing the line last night. How he couldn’t let himself do that again. 

Joe had to keep distancing himself. 

It was better that way.

When Joe had found himself sitting at his dining table that next morning, sipping his cup of tea, his thoughts about you were interrupted by a knock on his front door. Getting up from his chair, he made his way towards the door and opened it, finding Wes looking so tense in front of him, brows furrowed, and he was all agitated. 

“I need your help.”

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