#PIP GO TO BED
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I think weed helps me unlock a lot of my ideal self in that it's often much easier for me to make decisions that match my values when I have had time to sit down and think about something while high. I think because it helps me turn off the paranoid scared freaking out sympathetic nervous system reactions to things so that I can really get down to the core of what the actual reality of a situation is. It strips layers of really useless and harmful filters my brain is usually putting on everything and lets me see things both as they are and also more easily from other people's perspectivs. It's made me realize How much of my behavior previously was just on account of Being Paralyzed With Fear At All Times. Not clinical anxiety type fear (although that too) but like DEEP, EXISTENTIAL, SOUL GNAWING TERROR cast over every single thing in the world.
If I have one or two nights (usually . some things take more time) to apply myself to an issue while I'm high, it genuinely usually untangles itself in my head to the point where I am able to act in ways I am actually proud of. It's partly the not letting myself act on things when my brain is loudly telling me it's an emergency and always waiting for the smoke alarm to stop going off before I act, but also definitely due to the way it alters my brain state as well.
Haha! What the fuck! bitch you live like this????? I was really out there being like "I am going to let my first and strongest emotion about any given situation immediately dictate my response to it" lmao
#girl (gender neutral) comma#dysfunction junction#anyway its been more helpful for my PTSD than any other med lololol#bc this is fully cptsd shit. i have come to realize.#BONSAI KITTEN PROBLEMS#potion of write half finished essays in your notes app.#PIP GO TO BED
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This is how I'm feeling right now
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#i don't even know#pip x gregory#pipgory#phillip pirrup#pip pirrup#gregory of yardale#rarepair#foreign kids#south park ship#pipgory angst#one sided ships#shit post#south park#south park foreign kids#dies cutely#im going to bed
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I’m un-October19th-ing my pfp they don’t deserve it after that shitshow
#where’s that gif of nick miller going not like this#that’s me rn fr#I woke up at 7AM FOR THIS#I ONLY WENT TO BED AT 3:30#someone said why are we leaning back into no homo and they were so right#phan#dan and phil#amazingphil#dip n pip#daniel howell#phil lester#dnp#danisnotonfire#dan howell#dapg
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It could just be my brain putting this together, but I'm seeing parallels between Dan and Phil, and me and my roommate. Like, holy fuck, my roommate and I are literally Dan and Phil.
#dan and phil#phan#dip and pip#and they were roommates#parallels#its 1am and i need to go to bed#daniel howell#phil lester#teehee
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I cannot survive this day lol
#it’s only noon and I need to go to bed immediately and start over#our one triumph today: at the dentist he had his first truly epic blowout - we’re talking poop all up his back inside his onesie#no changing table in the bathroom#and my mom had taken the car so no access to the more elaborate changing setup in the car#so I had to change him on the floor using the three remaining wipes in the pack#while he screamed like he was being tortured and kicked poop everywhere#but we did it we made it and then he chugged a bottle of milk like a soldier who’d just survived his first skirmish with the enemy#I have to take ruthie to the vet in a couple hours but she’s started acting fine today so I’m afraid I’ll be wasting a huge amount of money#meanwhile Pip has started vomiting everywhere#but I think he’s just stressed about baby/sudden change#naturally though I had to have a huge crying jag in the bathroom about the fact of his mortality#anyway friends I’m hanging in there#I need to just simplify simplify simplify#I will lie down for a bit now#then I will try to walk the dogs so it’s out of the way#need to leave by 2:30 to get Ruthie in#and I can listen to a hockey podcast and feel more human on the way#then once that’s done I can just do nothing tonight if I need to#my mom is leaving around 4 for the evening but#I’ve mixed the formula and cleaned all the bottles so I think I can just like#hopefully lie around with the baby#the other thing I need to do is write my mom a thank you letter before she leaves#I just haven’t had the energy but maybe I can ask her to take the baby for an hour tomorrow#and sit outside somewhere and work on it#postpartum tag#today has just been a higher difficulty level lol but I’ll have other kinds of days too#all will be well
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my eyes are so tired but my brain is literally wide awake this is bullshit
#this would be fine had it not been happening every night for like 2 weeks now!! stop!!!#i was getting better too#like it used to take me about 5 hours to fall asleep after going to bed#but for about a year and a bit it's only taken 3 which is a massive improvement#but now im worse again#argh#pip squeaks
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Okay I’m all for the “Pip doesn’t have a family in America” trope all the time, as well as the abusive foster family/orphanage Pip.
But y’know what I’m recently coming to absolutely love?
Positive, loving, nurturing adoptive family Pip. Like, yeah, I am gonna put that little guy through tough situations, he does suffer, but what if I want him to just have a happy family? Nothing bad happens to them? I think it’s a topic that should be explored more.
Like, what if this couple adopted him?
I just think a good domestic home life is really sweet & I want him to have it
Like, LOOK AT THIS ART
#like he can have a room that’s all his own. have his own bed to sleep & be warm & comfy in#food always on the table#parents that will listen to him & give him more than the time of day & love him unconditionally#he can be woken from nightmares & call for mummy & she’ll comfort him & sing him back to sleep#gently running her fingers across his forehead to calm him further#a father who he practices archery with#AND THEY GO CAROLING TOGETHER EVERY HOLIDAY#& Pip not trusting them at first. just waiting for the shoe to drop & being sent back to the orphanage AGAIN.#he doesn’t open up much & calls them by their first names for a while#but eventually he realizes that they aren’t going to abandon him & he just breaks down & cries#completely in gratitude that someone finally loves him#& also dealing with when he falls ill for the first time & them having to treat someone with a MUCH weaker immune system than their used to#that is a close bonding moment for them#I could go ON about this omg#pip pirrup#south park
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pixel art is fun bc you can make big color shapes that don't need an articulated shading. then i come in
#why does it look like a big drawing that i reduced to small size? how am i able to add the aliasing like this hello?#about to go to bed anyway so it's a problem for tomorrow hihi#pip#<i even managed to make it not me related so you will see it posted hehehe >:] (eventually)
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DONT MOVE, HOLD STILL ! (feat. vi and sevika)
a/n : this is the three part thing i thought of randomly, the first one will have sevika and violet from arcane overstimulating you and lots of praise 😊
you were held down to the bed with your arms restrained in violets hands, tossing and squirming around the bed that all three of you shared when it was time to rest. it was overwhelming, the way sevikas hips flowed against yours, feeling the way her clit rubbed against your sensitive bud with absolute warmth and dampness. it drove you crazy how much sevikas and vi’s words could affect you and make you dumb, one of your quivering legs pipped up on sevikas shoulder while the brunette grinded her hips over and over against your cunt. both your hands in violets hands as she purrs at you with her sweet words, “yeah i know, she’s giving you such a hard time huh cupcake? making this pretty pussy feel so fucking good..” a faint hint of jealousy falling off her lips as if she wasn’t going to have her way with you next. vi’s evident strength holding both your hands in one of her own as she plays with your nipples, pinching at them while covering your face in kisses and sucking on your neck till it bruises - doing anything she can to touch you until she could feel your pussy on her own. sevika kissing at the thigh she was holding up as she’s on the verge of cumming, panting out of breath but still wearing her domineering disposition on her face, a shaky breath coming out when she feels your clit mush all over hers. “thaats it atta girl. s’’shame we have to tie you up like this.. love to see you struggle taking all of me baby.” her words only work you up more, pulling your hands from the pink haired girl even though it won’t budge, subconsciously grinding your messy cunt against sevikas despite your pleads of it being too much. the harsh grip on your hands tightening when vi pulls your arms back, “stay still alright? being such a good girl for us.” her stern tone reassuring you along with a kiss on the forehead . “but s’ too much please slow-“ your cut off by your own sobbing moans and twitching eyes, your hands and legs going limp as you cum from the stimulation. “oh g-god..” so overwhelmed you barley even feeling the mess between you and sevikas legs, trails of your slick coated your trembling thighs while your girlfriend rode her cunt all over your thighs, her eyes squeezed shut as she mumbled little nothings. violet cooing at you and making sure your watching as sevikas gets to her climax, commenting and asking you how it feels to see her this way. “f-fuck..” you hear her mutter as her hips stutter backwards, her chest heaving when she opens her eyes to see you looking at her with the most entranced eyes and vi with her teasing grin. “oh shut up.” she says as she leans down in between your thighs to give you a kiss, one she had been waiting for this whole time, with a snicker violet gets up from behind you with a release of your hands, “yeah whatever it’s my turn. you ready f’me cupcake?” taking a big gulp you could tell you were in for a long night.
#vi x reader <3#sevika x reader <3#sevika arcane#sevika smut#vi arcane#vi arcane smut#arcane smut#arcane#vi x reader#vi x you#vi x y/n#sevika x reader#sevika x you#sevika x y/n
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🎆 Happy New Year from Sydney! 🎆
May 2023 be incredibly, unbelievably kind to you.
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still working
started a batch of warm toned postcards 🤔
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Could you please do LDS boys +
Caleb reacting to reader being injured/severely injured?<3
HCs: You're Injured (ft. main trio + Caleb)
Pairing: Xavier x reader, Zayne x reader, Rafayel x reader, Caleb x reader (seperate)
Tags: hurt/comfort, reader is injured but won't die
A/N: Thanks for your request! First time writing for Caleb, yay. Sorry if it isn't good enough, I'm not feeling so good since morning.
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Caleb
"Hold on, pip-squeak, I'm right here."
Your exhausted body, covered in wounds from the battle with Wanderer, was ready to collapse to the ground if Caleb hadn't caught you in time.
He knew how dangerous your job was, but that didn't make him any less worried.
You protected him but got hurt in the process.
He's frustrated and angry because there's no way he could've protected you in that situation.
And Caleb just hates this feeling, but trying to stay calm for your sake. His emotions could only make everything worse.
"Sometimes even big girls need someone else's help. Right? And I'm here for you."
Concern was written all over his face, he couldn't hide it even if he really tried. The last thing he wanted was to see you hurt, especially like this.
He was supposed to be your main protector back then. But now things have changed.
You had really grown a lot, not just physically, but mentally too.
It was just hard to accept you're no longer a little girl.
Yes, you are strong and mature. But Caleb kept holding you like you were the most fragile being in the world.
He will give you first aid as quickly as he can, while calling an ambulance. Caleb is not the kind of person who would risk your life trying to handle this situation on his own.
Definitely going to the hospital with you while holding your hand and talking to you. He'll be around as long as it takes.
Probably will fall asleep on the chair near your hospital bed.
No doubt he'll continue to look after you like he did when you both were younger.
Rafayel
"No, no, no. Don't even think about leaving me like this!"
Maybe sometimes Rafayel was overly dramatic, but he's actually afraid of losing you again.
When he saw that you were injured after not-so-pleasant encounter with Wanderers, his facade of self-confidence instantly cracked.
Rafayel started panicking and it was clear from the look on his face as he crouched beside you, seeing how you trying to cover the wound by your bloody hands.
Not again. No.
All these years he had to watch you die over and over again, losing all memories of him.
Rafayel instantly began to examine your wounds, holding you close. He didn't care if his perfectly white shirt will be covered in blood as well.
He needed to be sure you won't die this time.
And his playful attitude is gone completely.
"Don't you dare to die on me, you hear? I won't forgive you. Ever. Promise me. Promise me you won't die."
He tried to remain calm and ignore the suffocating feeling of anxiety that has been slowly rising in his chest. But he couldn't.
Will do everything to stop the bleeding while help is on it's way. You can feel his hands trembling.
He'd better die for you himself, not vice versa.
I swear, this man is gonna get the whole hospital on alert. Nurses and doctors can be mad at him as much as they want. It doesn't matter to him.
Rafayel won't rest and eat properly until you get better. He just physically can't.
"Don't scare me like this ever again, please."
Xavier
"I failed you."
You accidentaly got injured during your mission. And poor Xavier decided it was totally his fault.
You both found yourself surrounded by enemies and before he could even react, one of them attacked you, leaving a deep wound on your side.
Needless to say, in the next couple of seconds all Wanderers were completely destroyed, and Xavier was fully focused on you.
This isn't the first time you've been injured during a mission. But each time Xavier is as worried as always.
Especially when your injuries are so severe.
Will administer first aid on the spot, even the bare minimum, before carrying you to safety.
With Wanderers around, it's not going to be easy to get you out of this dangerous zone. So Xavier needs to stabilize you a little at first.
"I won't let you get hurt again. I promise."
He is already experienced in these situations, so he's able to keep his emotions under control. But that doesn't mean that deep inside he isn't worried sick about you.
Will be looking for anything to treat your wound and avoid infection.
Guilt will slowly eat him up from the inside no matter what. He had to protect you, but he failed to do so.
Even if you assure him it's just an accident, Xavier just shakes his head in response.
As soon as you can get out, he'll take you to the hospital. It is unlikely that his skills will be enough to make your wound heal properly.
Better safe than sorry.
He still has a lot of work to do, but he'll come to you whenever he has a spare minute.
Will probably act like a guilty puppy for a long time.
Zayne
"You're constantly putting yourself in danger."
Zayne has a hard time showing his feelings openly, especially when it comes to you, so it's no surprise that his display of concern felt like he was scolding you.
But in reality he's really, really worried about you every time.
He knew right away that you were in the hospital after another accident.
And as soon as Zayne had some time off between surgeries, he came to you.
Looking at you in the hospital bed, he felt his heart ache.
While he was desperately searching for a cure for your heart, you kept getting hurt again and again.
Even when you smiled, like if trying to reassure him everything's fine, Zayne only sighed and shook his head. You have no idea how hard it was to see you hurt and vulnerable like this.
He's already been informed of the severity of your wounds and how much blood you've lost.
And he could've lost you.
But Zayne can't let his emotions take over. There are still a few more difficult surgeries ahead where he cannot afford to make a mistake.
And if he starts panicking right in front of you, it's not going to speed up the healing process.
"I'd be happy if you took a more responsible approach to your health. Then I wouldn't have to be so worried."
He moved his chair closer to your bed and sat in silence for a while, squeezing your hand.
Zayne will stay around as long as his job lets him.
Don't be surprised to find candies or plushies you wanted on your nightstand.
You can ask him about these little gifts.
And watch carefully as a faint smile appears on his lips.
"Usually only children get so excited about toys. So it turns out you're not that far from being a child?"
#love and deepspace x reader#love and deepspace#love and deepspace xavier#love and deepspace zayne#love and deepspace rafayel#rafayel x reader#zayne x reader#xavier x reader#love and deepspace caleb#caleb x reader
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we’re home!!!!!!
#got in four good hours of writing on the plane#pip was very good except for one episode of shrieking when I left our aisle to go to the bathroom#just unpacked and organized a bit and checked on all the plants#gotta pick Ruthie up in 10 min#then I’m working a half day so I just have to log in and see what’s happened in my absence#then picking my brother’s pugs up at 4 to hang out here for the evening until my brother gets in#hoping I can be cozy in bed and write more this afternoon/evening#oh might put in a grocery pickup order too tbd
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arguing with someone who has the mental capacity of a wet tea towel is fucking exhausting
#bro this has drained me#i'm gonna go to bed now tbh#pip squeaks#OH AND I BETTER NOT WAKE UP TO THIS MOTHERFUCKER SAYING MORE STUPID SHIT#jfc
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"I never meant to hurt you" dialogue
(Pref dip)
Summary: While Pip is on the mend after a firework show, bound to his sickeningly sterile hospital room, he gets a visitor. No one had ever wanted to see him before, so just who was this?
Thank you anon for the lovely request! I had quite a fun time writing this one!
#posting fanfiction at 4am babeeee lets go#I'm gonna go to bed now#of course I intended this to be a few hundred words but of course it turned into a few thousand#whoopsies (not really)#pip pirrup#damien thorn#sp dip#pip x damien#south park
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