#Old Debts 3

[i-dreamed-i-had-a-son]

“because he never accepts that it's never been about righteousness--it's about repentance.” except javert killing himself IS repentance.

well, it’s like 12 different things, because bro had gone days without sleeping and very little food and water and he already had low self-worth and kept asking the amis to kill him and just assumed he was going to die AND THEN valjean upended his understanding of the world and morality. he was really going through it & there are a lot of overlapping reasons for why he jumps into the seine.

but javert is like Number One Most Responsible guy in the whole story. taking responsibility is his Thing (forever bitter the musical doesn’t include the punish me monsieur le maire scene). how else, in his derailment, could he atone for his conceived misdeeds other than by handing in his resignation to god? in the brick he had already left a note urging his superiors to treat convicts at toulon better, which is another step in his repentance (and another crime the musical commits by not including it). jumping into the seine was another step.

honestly a lot of ppl who like the book think the musical was dead wrong to exclude him from the big heaven group sing, because it COMPLETELY undermines the themes of forgiveness and compassion threaded throughout les mis. like the musical was simply wrong lol.

This is helpful context! I am still finishing the brick, although I have fully read the abridged version, and that detail about the letter wasn't included, so I didn't know that occurred! (And thank you for the message--this is a long response but I'd love to hear more of your thoughts!)

I agree that Javert is certainly deeply distraught and remorseful; like you mentioned, his worldview is literally falling apart, and his actions reflect his mental state. But his death isn't really repentance--in the sense that it's not what God would have wanted. To me it reads like a Judas situation: a desperate realization of a huge mistake, and doing the only thing you think can make it right, namely, ending it all. That's the just punishment for someone so wrong, isn't it?

But true repentance, meaning the repentance that the Lord desires, is about changing your ways, not "paying a price." Had Javert really understood the beauty of Valjean's mercy (an image of Christ's, just as the bishop's undeserved mercy was to Valjean himself), rather than killing himself, he would have lived to also become "an honest man"--in heart. One who could forgive and understand forgiveness, for himself as well as others. One who could recognize that he is not The Law, that he can fall, but that he can also be "brought to the light." One who could accept that men like Valjean, and men like himself, CAN change, and be changed.

It's tragic to me because so much of "Stars," and his character in the book as well as the musical, is about wanting to be righteous, to rise above his birth and the sinfulness he associates it with. It's about wanting to please the Lord by his actions. But in his end, he shows he never understood what God really wanted from him, and that's where my original phrase comes in: not righteousness, but repentance. To live, and face the man you were, knowing it's no longer the man you are. That it's never been about what you've done or can do, but about what's been done for you. That's the Gospel that he could never fully accept.

To use another example you mentioned, that misunderstanding drives why he asks the Mayor (Valjean) to punish him--in his worldview, mercy is unjust, or at the very least, unfair. Evil must be punished; "those who fall like Lucifer fell" receive "the sword." But "as it is written," God "desires mercy, not sacrifice" (Matthew 9:13). God would have wanted Javert to live, and Javert couldn't see that, and that's why it's devastating to me. In his misunderstanding of the heart of God, he misses what would have set him free from the chains of sin he's always been trying to escape.

That's why he's contrasted with Valjean, who (though he carries guilt about his past till the end of his life) is eventually able to face it and confess what he had done to those he loves. He knew there was mercy to be found, if only it was asked for. Javert was too blinded by pride and shame to realize it, and so, while broken, he never was able to truly repent.

For that, you must go on.

[britneyshakespeare]

you know someday i'm gonna feel so good when i have my student loans paid off

that ain't gonna be soon, trust me, but i think about it

[songmingisthighs]

ateez : work

ateez's outfits : hobo

[grocerystoreanxiety]

k did the math, and if I stick to the budget, I have until next march to get money from somewhere (bc by april, I can’t afford my rent). Things aren’t as bad as I thought, like that’s 6months-ish away, if I don’t manage to get a job in 6months I deserve to pass away. I thought I had like until december, so this gives me some extra months

[hella1975]

some people really still treat drugs like it's a fun little thing and im trying SO hard not to get mad about it

[mybeautifulchristianjourney]

The Seventh Year

At the end of every seven years you must cancel debts. This is the manner of remission: Every creditor shall cancel what he has loaned to his neighbor. He is not to collect anything from his neighbor or brother, because the LORD’s time of release has been proclaimed. You may collect something from a foreigner, but you must forgive whatever your brother owes you. — Deuteronomy 15:1-3 | The Reader’s Bible (BRB) The Reader’s Bible © 2020 by Bible Hub and Berean.Bible. All rights Reserved. Cross References: Deuteronomy 15:9; Deuteronomy 23:20; Deuteronomy 31:10; Nehemiah 10:31

[bueris]

everyday I get a little bit closer to purposefully tripping over and bouncing my skull off the pavement because I don't want to be able to comprehend anymore

[ervona]

first unlike Orin and Gortash, Ketheric didn't go through horrific child abuse... when he lost first his wife then his daughter, he reacted in a harsh way that's understandable for that deep grief he felt, his whole family abandoned by the goddess they'd served... but what he did with that is then take it out on innocent people all to fill an empty space. he was absolutely ruthless as a Sharran, I can easily put him on the same level as Orin and Gortash in cruelty... and he kept on being selfish while punishing people he transferred his shame on like Aylin who had nothing to do with Isobel's death but she was alive while Isobel was dead so she had to pay. he's an immensely wounded and heartfelt character but are we being serious here when we say he is more sympathetic than those two who went through hell. how is he any better

[lunar-fandoms]

Why the fuck is insurance and medical bills so fucking stupid

[troublewithvampires]

@bxtsence said: 👁 for Rowan of course hehe

(come get sal's honest thoughts on your muse - open)

"Rowan is a fuckin' jackass," Salvatore says with a roll of his eyes. "I don't know what crawled up his ass and died, but I think he's an asshole." A long pause. "I get the kid's been through a lot, but he doesn't need to be such a prick about it."

Salvatore leans back against the wall, resting his hands casually in his pockets. "But... he's what, twenty-two? I was a fuckin' shithead when I was his age." He sounds like an old man, but well, that's exactly what he is. Whatever. "I don't have the room to judge, all things considered, and he ain't always that bad. Sometimes he's even nice to talk to."

Despite himself, Salvatore cracks a smile. "I feel bad, really, seein' him get caught up in all the bullshit with Dio. I know it ain't my place to do anything, but..." He trails off. "Guess we're both chumps for endin' up in this mess. Can't hold it against him for bein' an asshole sometimes, like I said."

A laugh escapes him then and he shakes his head. "His music taste is dogshit, but I bet he'd say the same about the records I like. So we're even on that."

[vrnicky]

Hand over the ocs 🫵👁️👁️🫳

Aye aye captain 🫡

Imma just first go with..

Eros! What happens when you mix the Eros god with sans? This lol. But he isn't a Sans, he just chooses to have that form. The god of lust, etc etc

A motherfucker, he appears as the right hand of.. someone and helps the ones in desperate need but when they don't pay back? Cain appears and take their lives instead. Actually based on a song hehe

What happens if you fuse my wine and money? Cider lol. A smooth operator, can manipulate his way out without no one asking further information. Literally the worst of both worlds: manipulation of Wine and reading through lies of Money.

My beautiful girl who's a drider monster! Aka another version of spider monsters lol. She isn't fierce or anything, loves getting his spider side caressed, it's like a centaur but.. with a big spider, she's nice I swear

Following the monsters, here's Ceto! A shy bb who's a gorgon monster. Don't worry, they won't turn you into stone if you don't scare them, intention before everything! Each spider is a own mind but they're all sweethearts. Baby <3

I drew Sans as a human AND Mexican because intrusive thoughts, he's stinky, full of dad jokes, loves to drink spicy sauce as water, barely leaves his house. Those aren't grey hairs.. maybe some are but he dyed his hair to match his brother!

Same thing with Samuel, here's my take on a Mexican human papyrus! My baby boy, who's full of mischief and can trap you on a maze! Loves tamales and any other Mexican food! He designed his own battle body!! He's so cool oml

And that's it! Feel free to ask questions about anyone!! <3

[ndjams]

father ruining shit for me once again. i been on medicaid for the last almost 5 years but just recently got cut off. i have top surgery in THREE DAYS and my plan was to not get insurance until after bc im having it at a not for profit hospital i was gonna get on an out of pocket payment plan w them then file to have the medical debt erased but my mother in law ran into my father yesterday and said he has had me on his private insurance (for 5 years ?? and ive never used it ????) and one of the few times i ever said anything to him was in 2021 (twenty twenty ONE) i told him dude take me off ur health insurance its fucking w my medicaid (i couldnt get T for like 6 months) and he was like okay when open enrollment starts or whatever ill take u off. what the fuck im so unbelievably pissed. MIL also said he seemed like he was on meth or very drunk so. they met at aa so as u can imagine this was very jarring for her jtfo.

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[starlightkun]

well this isnt right