#ONCE AGAIN IM NOT A PROFESSIONAL
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hey ghost!! so ive finally taken the plunge and started plotting my first ever eddie x reader fic, and i was wondering if you had any tips?? i haven’t written fan fiction in so long, and ive never written an x reader and i really really don’t want it to come across like a ‘my mom sold me to one direction and they all want me because im perfect’ type of fanfic. and like i was outlining a scene that was kinda pivotal for eddie and reader’s feelings for one another and i love it but also. it’s so fuckin cheesy and i don’t want people to think that the reader has main character syndrome. and i don’t wanna write eddie out of character and ACK im overthinking this. the perfectionist jumped out.
if you don’t have time to give tips, feel free to ignore this ask, but if not, send me a message! seriously no pressure, i was just wondering if you might be willing to give me some writing advice when it comes to x reader fics. no hard feelings if you can’t or don’t want to!
i don’t mind at all!!!
i think the hardest thing with x reader fics for me is avoiding being too specific until reader is no longer relatable (in sense of background, experiences, emotions, etc. physical appearance not so much haha), but i have found that overthinking is the number one enemy.
who cares if it’s cheesy? life can kinda suck, we deserve a lil cheese to sweeten it up. who cares if reader has main character syndrome? we are the main character in this fictional world we set. i struggle with both of those a lot, but the best thing i do is sit back and ask myself if concerns like that ever deter me from reading stories. and honestly? it doesn’t! i like cheesy and i don’t mind when stories aren’t perfectly aligned to reality. half the fun of reading is escaping reality <3
the issue with writing OOC is honestly one of those things that’s scarier. i’ve certainly written and then chopped/rewritten scenes because i read back and go “oh he absolutely would not do this what”. most of my editing process has recently just become trying to reread my works as if they aren’t my own, as if i just came across them on the dash, and that’s helped a lot. putting myself in the shoes of actual readers and asking if i’d like it/read it!! trying to set aside that terrible perfectionism that lives in so many of us as writers.
overall, if you’re having fun and enjoying your work, that’s the point. as long as that’s happening — you’re golden, babe. <3
#ONCE AGAIN IM NOT A PROFESSIONAL#thank u ily <3#bllshitbel <3#writing ooc is a fear BUT sometimes… it’s like… you gotta be ooc a lil yeah?#it’s also easier said than done when it comes to not overthinking so much so i completely understand babe
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LOA Shiptober Day 4: How They Met
October content month was ambitious..
This one took me. Shockingly long. Whoops! I’ll probably end up jumping around the prompt list and it might extend into November 😋
I’ll try to do day 31 on the actual date of Halloween though 🫡
#the good or bad thing depending on who you ask about my ship art is that there are many more ranting tags#once again bringing my “he can’t blush but what if he did’’ agenda#Ngl the first panel reminds me of a children’s book it’s kind of fire#I feel like frost doesn’t like being touched by most people#but then he meets gricko professional animal friend and he’s so confused bc wtf why doesn’t he hate this#so that’s the drawing#sighs fondly confused grimmorning#except frost is the only one that’s confused#Im not joking when I say this one took me a long time I started it the day before the prompt and finished it like a week later#unintentional but frost is doing the Jim halpert thing#he wasn’t supposed to be but it turned out that way#frost don’t Jim the fourth wall.. community reference yeah..#I keep forgetting gricko tail agenda#also I love all the requests I’ve been getting once shiptober is over those will be popping up#anyways that’s enough out of me#but seriously some of those requests are so good they’re actually inspiring me to finish these pieces#legends of avantris#once upon a witchlight#morning frost#gricko grimgrin#grimmorning#gricko x frost#OH last thing possible stardust rhapsody art on the way I have to share my dandy art with the world
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Unpopular opinion #1,000,000
Y'all. Why are half the stories under the Rhaenyra Targaryen x Reader tag Aemond/Aegon/Daemon imagines? Unpopular opinion alert!! With all due respect ppl, if you're writing an Aemond x Reader story or whatever, you shouldn't put Rhaenyra Targaryen x Reader tags on it. Like I get it if the reader is Rhaenyra's daughter or something, and they have a strong relationship. But, regardless, if Rhaenyra is barely mentioned in the story, then what is the point of using the tag? It's misleading and a bit annoying. I can't be the only person with this issue. I've scrolled past about 30 Aemond/Aegon/Daemon stories in the past 20 minutes. Help.
#rhaenyra targaryen x reader#rhaenyra targaryen#hotd#professional yapper#its me hi im the problem its me#yes I'm complaining once again#hotd x reader#rant post#house of the dragon#team black#i need more rhaenyra content#i'm losing my mind#pls help
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Im so mad ab the think fast breakup I'm so serious
#fanart#my art#marvel#thinkfast#tommy shepherd#david alleyne#prodigy#speed#tommydavid#x factor#tommy maximoff#academy x#young avengers#ya#IM SO MAD literalky such bad writing on top of once again just fucking doing it off panel#what is WRONG with you#sorry im literally not buying this book#claims to be academy x fans... makes the worst decisions ever#plus that preview page sucked#poor writing all around on top of poor characterization ALREADY??#pick a struggle... ur writing professionally#im so mad#BUCJBSBJCSBJ#wjatever theyre still together 2 me#nasty
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I love fujoing out as much as the next man, but I just have to say this about Amadeus (1984) — I’m sorry, he did not want to fuck that old man. He just didn’t. He did not give a single fuck about that old man.
#once again the woke mob making everything gay#listen this film is in my top 3 of all time so you KNOW im not just saying that. I’m a professional here.#plus I’m always right about everything ever and my interpretations are always objectively correct.#oh just to be clear salieri did absolutely want to fuck him. it’s just it doesn’t go both ways#Amadeus 1984
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please believe me when i tell you i have been trying very hard to try and draw but it eludes me like the wind in one’s grasp. i’ve collected all the little doodles i’ve made to at least put SOMETHING up.
#not tagging more than that bc its just for u lot that follow me.#once i finish this comic ull get something a lil more polished#AGAIN ITS NOT PERFECT BUT WHO TF CARES IM NOT A PROFESSIONAL#my art#digital illustration
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ngl gamers, I think I'm gonna inevitably lose to the hormones and depression in the near future XD
Can't bring myself to be active cause I'm using a lot of energy to not vent post all the time. But fuck it, into the tags I go!
#I want NO MESSAGES regarding this. let me just be upset and alone#you spend most of your life trying to not succumb to sick brain but honestly I don't think it's worth it in the long run#my life is for better or worse....decent. but I've lost the drive and happiness to really DO anything a long time ago. like whats the point#the only reason I havent killed myself yet is cause Im too lazy (and dont have access to a gun for a quick getaway)#and I'm saying all this DESPITE having stuff to look forward to in the near future. it's like AUGH whats the POINT IM always gonna suffer#why does mental health take such a toll on ppl. this shit sucks ass. and I still feel excited for things in the future too? somehow?#but I also really want to die so. idk man. idk. maybe if I fall in love with someone then I can be distracted but all my walls are up#what's the point in anything anymore. *I* have to take the steps to improve myself and my situation#and I'd rather die. anyways who wants to make a pact that once we reach 40 we will marry each other#that might be fun#also my brain has gotten so bad that I am literally considering joining a hiking club to get out more and I FUCKING HATE HIKING#but I should probably do something out of my comfort zone to push myself and who knows maybe I will find a new passion#but let me tell you about the anxiety - oh BOY it's starting to act up again. hahahha#ah well sometimes you just need to scream your feelings out in the tags to get a lil clarity from the brain fog#one day I will fucking die/kill myself but for now I'll just try to make the best out of. whatever the hell this stupid life is. *shrug*#(but hey if any professional hitmen are reading this. feel free to. heh. you know ;) )#also I need to get back to art#gotta do my paid work and that one pic I lined months ago. and clay stuff *continues to bed rot another week because hahahahahahaha*#ah I wish I didn't fail all those years ago. then I would be free. I wish I was free#ok goodnight I promised myself that I would do paid work when I wake up tomorrow so hopefully no more migraines -pray emoji-
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No matter how much Helmut annoys me at times, but this man really was there for the beginning of Daniel's career. No wonder Daniel knows what he has to do to impress him. Their relationship is wildly complicated.
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Imagine you're Helmut Marko. You've seen hundreds of young drivers come and go. You've made the careers of some, and broken the careers of many more others. It's 2007 and you see this lanky guy with big poofy hair come 6th in some regional junior championship and you think he's maybe quick enough to be part of your junior team. And then he shows up to meet you and the team boss for the first time with his shoes squelching water all over the floor because he fell into some fountain outside because he was too busy gawking at the Red Bull headquarters. Surely, you wouldn't have much hope of him surviving the shark tank that is the red bull junior academy, but yet he surprises you by jumping through every hoop you throw at him, by his sheer dogged determination to show you he can be your next golden boy. So, of course, he's going to have your grudging respect and you wouldn't mind playing godfather for a bit and use your influence to get him a seat at some struggling team - it's like here's another challenge for you, show me what you can do.
#thinking how in those early years when Daniel first got the toro rosso seat and he did his first few interviews with the australian media#and they're all like so Dan you're a formula one driver now#and Daniel smiling all shyly because he didn't want to show his braces too much would just say#im really grateful to the red bull family for their faith in me. they've always pushed me and encouraged me#and at that point in time he hadn't yet known Christian; so every red bull family mention WAS Helmut Marko#he was in Daniel's mind the man who gave him his formula one career#so what if some ten plus years later you're 34 and you're back to where you started#and this man who in your mind made your career possible makes some criticism on your current performance#ofc you're going to take it on your chin and say that's ok that's how it is with Helmut#and you're kind of vindicated when a few weeks later you have one of those amazing performances#and here's helmut walking with you into the paddock and smiling and praising you once again#like you've known this old man for nearly half your life#and he's known you for as long#obviously at this point it's something a little more than a professional relationship#anon.txt
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I just had the horrible thought that I need to fall in love because having devastating crushes on beautiful, competent, authoritative women that I desperately want to please is exhausting and I need it to stop
#this one is straight so there's no room for delusion which is good#but my burning need to be her most favorite is eating me from the inside#it IS making me better at my job though#.......i mean i think so but what the fuck do i know#on friday night amongst the grueling psychosexual chaos that ensued a very smart guy that I LOVE said to me#i have no doubts you're gonna be a great psychiatrist actually#i traded a month with him to have another month with her#he's a phenomenologist she's a psychodynamic....ist? rival theories#I don't like most of psychodynamic theory.......so far#but i love the way she works and i can see how well it fits with her manymanyMANY patients and goddamnit i love personality dosorders#so i made the choice to go with her yes and im very torn casue i LOVE that guy and i wish i could become his friend like my bff from my year#also.......kind of dumb of me since I'd only soend two days a week woth her and the other three with very scary ladies#but I've been in scarier situation i can manage#and god when she praises me (silently obv she's only been forward about my merit ONCE and i almost pissed myself like an overexcited dog)#the endorphin rush is........man#but yes i need to work on this.......idk how to define it. closest i can get to explaining it is professional sub space#with strong aspects of praise kink#pathetic is what it is really#but hey if it makes me study harder who fucking cares right#I'm gonna be the smartest most intuitive fucking bitch amongst my peers so if I can't have her (them) carnally then goddamnit#I'LL HAVE THEIR PRAISE AND RESPECT AND ADMIRATION AT LEAST#........I'll be normal again in a week or two i just need to get over these next couple of days of....idk. inflammation i guess#yeah it's just like an infected wound right now#angry red throbbing hot pain#i know the drill it'll be better in a couple of days you just need to not freak out and let it do its thing#it's nice to be mature-r about emotional impulsivity and the shame that comes after an episode of deregulation#it really doesn't have to be a big deal even while it still feels like it#it still hurts but it's like......hour three of a tattoo. it's a bitch but you know it's gonna be over eventually and wriggling won't work#the only thing left to do is enjoying it all while it's happening or trying to#I don't think I'm doing a great job but what're you gonna do right
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Dude ur cosplays are genuinely so good 😭. I don't think I could cosplay anyone from RGG because I look too fem for it, but you're killing it!
AW thanks fam that means a lot :']] tbh if you really want to cosplay a character, you should go for it! even if you dont plan to go anywhere or do anything crazy, even just putting on the outfits is pretty fun :]
#snap chats#tbh ive never been super happy about doing cosplays cause i always felt like my face and whatnot never fit the charas i wanted to cosplay#though for me i just accepted that My Face And My Body is My Face And My Body and i didnt want those to stop me from cosplayin#cause it is fun to just dress up as a chara- its esp fun goin to cons and gettin recognized. once in a blue moon VLKAEVCJAELK#im too dicked to put make up on too but its so worth it .. it really does help if you feel your face isnt facing yk what i mean#like fuck man ig they were onto somethign with making make up#tbh whenever i feel awkward bout cosplaying i remind myself its just for fun and im not trying to do anything professional#i also remember this one jp girl who cosplayed mr satan from db and like. it was astounding to say the least#yk just tellin myself You Can Do What You Want Dont Worry About This Or That. easier said than done i know JVLKJVKLA#BUT baby steps. all of this said and done i cant wait to actually properly show my daigo and mine cosplays aka include my face#i have to make a silly post around convention time cause i still dont know who to go as so ima need audience input ig💀💀#see now i wanna test wear my daigo stuff again ..#i dont think ill go to animenyc as aoki but idk if ill go as chairman either and if i do do i want to grow my hair out for that ?#my hair's already almost at that point but. //shrug// i have until the end of august LOL#anyways. enough cosplay prattle from me LAKJLVKAJ i enjoy it too much <- take note of the ninety rgg outfits in my closet
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#vent#ahhh my best friend has once again told me to move out and look at shelters hahahahahahaha#like fuck man there ISNT A SHELTER HERE.#the only one we have is only open a couple months in winter#and also a shelter is THE WORST OPTION#esp in utah#like if i move out i need 2 have like help i cant just do it on my own yknow#he did have a good idea abt a mental health professional being able 2 help me tho..#but then im 2 scared my mom will find out im going to therapy!!!#but i am going to look into it#bc like. i just cant do this anymore yknow#this place is killing me#like literally#both my mental and physical health are. very poor rn.#idk what 2 do idk. i am fuckin scared abt everything yknow#dissociation has gotten worse#i keep seeing things#heart is acting up#cant eat#keep having nightmares#mom wants me 2 give her $1.5k#my dog is super arthritic n im the only one who will do anything with her#which is making MY joints and body pain way worse#i am always sick n i always have the smell of mold stuck in my nose now#i cant even function man#i just lay on the couch all day sick and out of my mind n then i get screamed at for it#bc im the only one who cleans so if im not cleaning the house is fucked and so the house is fucked#i cant see a way out idk#nothing makes me happy and i feel like im dying again#my entire life is fucked
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trying to decide if i want to show the counselor/therapist my self insert art or not djdkslsl I think it is too obvious that it's Me to ever be able to say "hey look at this cute art i did of two random characters neither of which are me or in any way connected to me :o)" but AUGHGHGH she wants to see more art of mine and most of my art recently (ALL of my art so far this year i think) has been selfship stuff,,,
#i dont think she'd judge but its just... trauma stuff fjdkdl#i am not ''allowed'' to have feelings for anyone ever fjdkdl i am not allowed to feel these things#its amazing I've been able to share selfship stuff at all even relatively anonymously on here tbh sjdkdld#the one time i put up any sort of poster/photos of a couple musicians i rly enjoyed (and wasnt crushing on at all lol) i was put thru hell#just for having a person's face up on my bedroom wall as part of a collage with my art and stuff#so fjfjdkl i never did that again and any selfship stuff w fictional characters has been a guilty secret until last year fjfkdl#WHICH HONESTLY. IS RLY GOOD PROGRESS I GUESS IN SOME WAY?#once again selfshipping and the community has somehow helped me more than any mental health professional ever has LMAO#okay im sharing too much and rambling but dhdksl decisions decisions... i have some art saved to show her maybe#I'll just delete the selfship art out of that phone photo folder if i decide i dont want to share it djdkdl#i would like to though bc goddamn I've made some rly good stuff the past couple months djdkdl#and i never get to share my art w ppl irl so fjfkdl AUGH#dandy.cmd
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btw i think one of the most impt hobbies in the world is having a mostly non-existent, mostly self indulgent crush on a professor/lecturer just to zone out to their classes to and focus instead on their hair and their hands and their dark circles speaking NAWT from experience. maybe a little bit.
#yeah he's got me a lil crazy i was doing dishes this morning thinking abt all the things i still have to do this week#bc we have his exam on friday and im trying to determine whether i should try to do some prep work or just leave it for the day of#& i was just thinking abt like. oh he's so fucking precious he like actively took the time over winter break to memorise the names of#the people who consistently show up to class and like its cause he's sweet and wants to eventually teach more focussed smaller groups#but like my man my absolute angel you have accidentally stumbled upon the number one surefire way to make people wanna keep coming to class#like his classes r great but mostly i like that he knows who i am#and like i was thinking abt like. we were talking abt language in art movements like dadaism and i asked if he'd read embassytow#-n and he said he hadnt but that he had a list of student recs i'd be on and then in a later class i asked if he read fever dream and he#like made the joke that he'd have a section in his list of just things i told him to read#You Dont Understand I Need This Man Carnally. THIS is what one direction meant when they said thats what makes u beautiful#fuck me i hope he has this effect on the ladies cause if not hey babe there's a whole world out here for you ready to be explored#its also jst funny bc we r genuinely all afflicted by this tragic desire of him i think its partially bc his classes r a little boring#again love him to bits he does try his best its just rly surface level shit because it has to be within the nature of his classes#anyway. convincing myself not to fail his class on purpose so i can retake it next year its going poorly#also just had like a rly long convo w him after class once and he's just. URGH SO SWEET IM LEAVING. IM GOING AWAY NOW.#dreamboy... ugh ! AND he's a poet professionally !!!
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it's astonishing what can make people think you're a genius in your field and i mean this in a negative way
#the lady who owns the local coffee supply shop hired me for whenever she needs someone in#like im permanently on call#but ive only ever been in once so whatever#anyways#she wants ME to help/be the spokesman/idfk with her very small tea selection because she wants to expand it#because i know how to make green tea without burning it so apparently that makes me a professional#i am reminded of the quote thats like ''magic is usually just knowing one extra fact''#im on a whole other plane#also i watched breakfast club again yesterday and it didn't help with sorting through my romantic confusion but the movie is still good#so whatevs#though i forgot about benders whole thing about fat people that was fuckin weird#brian is as kinnable as ever but thats a whole thing
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#had my final appointment with my (now) former therapist and thank god i’m never going to see her again#she’s so bad at her job#(at least in my sessions)#and today????????? killing her in my mind#she’s told me before that i annoy her lol and i think it Really shows in how she treats me?#at least i hope that she doesn’t treat her other patients like this lol#she tried to talk with me about my autism diagnostic process and the things she said??????? GIRL#she doesn’t know shit about autism (or adhd) (and it showed)#and she defended the first place i was seeing re diagnosis. the place where they were literally gaslighting me and wanted to diagnose me#with a PD#(misdiagnosis btw)#and i told her AGAIN that i don’t value what THEY THINK OF ME and she just went 😬😬😬😬#im still so mad at her#she also misdiagnosed me with a PD but a DIFFERENT ONE THIS TIME#goddddd#for once i want to speak to a medical professional that will actually listen to me#she was also contradicting herself???? IM SO ANGRY#mika talks
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a secret 11th option of I got my ears pierced at Claire's (as an adult), somewhere else (as a child), by a professional (as an adult), and did it myself (as a kid and adult)
Okay. I gotta ask.
Obvs pls share to get more votes etc etc
#my ears have gone through a lot lmao#i also pierced my nose myself as a child and then professional again as adult#i went to claires once to get one repierced because i lost my piercing needle and didnt want to pay $65 for it#i knew it would get infected by was used to infected piercings because i soent years using metals im allergic to not realizing#as well as an antibiotic cream im allergic too without realizing#so it was nothing compared to that and cleared up in a couple weeks
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