#okay im sharing too much and rambling but dhdksl decisions decisions... i have some art saved to show her maybe | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

dandyshucks · 10 months ago

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trying to decide if i want to show the counselor/therapist my self insert art or not djdkslsl I think it is too obvious that it's Me to ever be able to say "hey look at this cute art i did of two random characters neither of which are me or in any way connected to me :o)" but AUGHGHGH she wants to see more art of mine and most of my art recently (ALL of my art so far this year i think) has been selfship stuff,,,

#i dont think she'd judge but its just... trauma stuff fjdkdl #i am not ''allowed'' to have feelings for anyone ever fjdkdl i am not allowed to feel these things #its amazing I've been able to share selfship stuff at all even relatively anonymously on here tbh sjdkdld #the one time i put up any sort of poster/photos of a couple musicians i rly enjoyed (and wasnt crushing on at all lol) i was put thru hell #just for having a person's face up on my bedroom wall as part of a collage with my art and stuff #so fjfjdkl i never did that again and any selfship stuff w fictional characters has been a guilty secret until last year fjfkdl #WHICH HONESTLY. IS RLY GOOD PROGRESS I GUESS IN SOME WAY?#once again selfshipping and the community has somehow helped me more than any mental health professional ever has LMAO #okay im sharing too much and rambling but dhdksl decisions decisions... i have some art saved to show her maybe #I'll just delete the selfship art out of that phone photo folder if i decide i dont want to share it djdkdl #i would like to though bc goddamn I've made some rly good stuff the past couple months djdkdl #and i never get to share my art w ppl irl so fjfkdl AUGH #dandy.cmd

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