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*stares at your face hungrily* damn.... you gonna finish that?

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I also almost passed out in the middle of our quest but we'll ignore that cause we ball☝️

Least I think it was me almost me passing out

I almost fell as I tipped to the side while walking, and things got a little blurry, then ever since then, I felt weird and dissociative idk 😭

I'm back

So I decided to blow a party horn at public safety and I scared them away

Other than that, I pet a dog, and ate some Spanish baked goods, it didn't have a name to what it's called sadly so I don't know what it is

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I'm back

So I decided to blow a party horn at public safety and I scared them away

Other than that, I pet a dog, and ate some Spanish baked goods, it didn't have a name to what it's called sadly so I don't know what it is

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Alright guys I'm going outside to touch some grass nobody explode while I'm gone okay 😭

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Oh

they're gonna need sooooo many new diagnostic terms for the dsmVI

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is it possible for a disorders to evolve and morph like the way we get new forms of the flu or covid or am I just stupid?

they're gonna need sooooo many new diagnostic terms for the dsmVI

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I'm stable for now (<- my internet)

Now I saw someone said they were going to kms and on DNI, and I don't know this guy personally enough I just have him on my friends list

So my dumbass decided to text him saying Stay Safe and all that

IT WAS SARCASM

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW IT WAS SARCASM ON STATUS

FML 😭

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MY INTERNET IS GOING IN AND OUT AGAIN

RELEASE MEEE FROM THE SHACKLES OF LIMBO LACK OF COMMUNICATION

WHYYYY

GUYS I'LL BE STUCK IN LIMBO

also it smells like weed suddenly?

MY INTERNETTT

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MY INTERNETTT

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I forgot clicker training is a thing, so I watched a man click a clicker in my face with confusion

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I GOT JUMPSCARED BY YOUR THEME CHANGE I THOUGHT YOU WEREN'T YOU AND GOT SPOOKED HELP 😭

The difference between blow-dry (yesterday's photos) and towel dry (my hair right now) will never not be funny to me

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The difference between blow-dry (yesterday's photos) and towel dry (my hair right now) will never not be funny to me

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yeah you’re right i should just *remembers that suicide jokes worsen the suicidal ideation* go to the meeting room. perhaps i has simply missed a memo.

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Yknow what I hate about delusions and paranoia, other than the obvious?

For context, I need a Trusted Individual™ to talk about them with because if I don't speak to someone about it, I'm going to be walking around with it, accumulating that thought in my brain, like expired milk (Sometimes it gets better on its own, sometimes it morphs into something worse, and I start to react to the world in a certain way that most of the time will destroy relationships- or at least from my end)

Anyhow, the issue is that despite having Trusted Individuals™, my delusions might target those people or target people in general that don't do a good job proving otherwise

I worry about people's feelings a lot, so when I feel like a delusion(s) can be a bit too harsh or the other person may not understand where it's coming from, I tend to hold it in

I also feel like my delusions are too prominent and repetitive, so I feel like it would get tiring for people to hear over and over and over again, nobody should be my parent for my problems, so I just decided to deal with it on my own

I've been holding in too many of them, where my body physically feels the pain in my chest all the time and to the point where I'm reacting aggressively to small things that realistically shouldn't be a sign of the delusion being correct

I'm thinking of making an entire blog dedicated to... what I assume are my persecutory delusions- and maybe the rest of them

I'm not exactly sure if it'll help though, I feel like it's also pointless in that regard

The other person I usually go to this kind of stuff with isn't even real so I'm kind of shit out of luck

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I hope my weird speech and awkward walk and nervous mannerisms are attractive to you

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ur hair is cool asf

THANK YOU!! 😭

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I decided to clean my room and hang my laundry

While I did so I found something that was handed down to me by my grandma, and of course, I had to style it

Was this a fail guys? What did I even style at this point?😭