#No parent would let their kid disrespect them like that especially in front of their fucking boss. Where was her backbone in that scene???

[empyrean-thrones]

I refuse to believe that Lilith was a good parent at any point in her life especially when two out of three of her kids agree that their family was dogshit.

[finelinefae]

birdy [Pilot!harry x teacher!y/n]

synopsis: it’s the 1950s. harry's had a hard life and y/n just wants the truth

word count: 12.3k

contains: fluff, angst, childhood trauma, nightmares, abusive father, neglectful parents, grovelling, smut (size kink, tiny praise kink, breeding kink, oral m receiving)

this is part 3 of the aviator read part 2 here

this could have gone one of two ways...

. . .

Y/N was convinced that returning to the airbase took only half as much time as the journey to reach the campsite. She hated hiking, even more so after this trip, but she had places to be so she charged down the trail all the way back to the airbase. The clouds overhead seemed to mirror her anger, morphing into shades of grey, empathising with her mood. 

“Y/N, Harry went back earlier this morning. We came back from the bonfire and he was hyperventilating and shit. Thought he was gonna pass out so me and Pat went to get him some water but when we got back he was gone.” Sonny had told her when she had asked why Harry was missing. 

Y/N’s mind instantly went to the night she had woken up to one of Harry’s nightmares. She wondered whether or not that had something to do with his sudden disappearance. However, it didn't seem to cool the anger she felt that seemingly continued to grow with every fueled step she took back towards Offutt. 

As she made it out of the clearing, she noticed a figure sitting under a tree in the distance. She paused, squinting her eyes and immediately recognising those broad shoulders and that head full of brunette curls. Now that she could finally see him, she wondered if it would be better to just let him sit and wallow in whatever guilt he may or may not be feeling but she considered confronting things like this as self-care and she wouldn’t allow herself to return home without knowing why she had woken up alone this morning. 

She ignored the droplets of rain that began to fall slowly from the sky. Instead, she trudged through the slightly muddy grass. Y/N caught his head turn as though he sensed her incoming. He shot up, standing tall and began to walk towards her. 

Harry couldn’t even react when he saw the anger radiating from her face. He knew what he had done and there was no good reason for it, “Y/N-”

When she was finally in front of him, Y/N took a deep breath to steady herself. “Don’t ever disrespect me like that again,” she said firmly, her voice carrying her emotions. Then, turning away, she began to walk away from him. 

She felt a hand wrap around her wrist but she tugged it, breaking free from his grip, “No,” She turned around to face him, “You walk away from me, I walk away from you.” It’s what she planned to do all along, make him realise how much it hurt to have someone turn their back on you.

Harry’s heart seemed to crack as her voice trembled, “Y/N,” 

“Why?” Her bottom lip wobbled but she held her breath, trying to be stronger than him, “Why would you do that? Y’know, I’ve put a lot of faith in you Harry, I trusted you. People labelled you so many things and I always backed you up but that was just…Mean. You are being mean.” 

“I know, I know,” Harry said, which only fuelled her anger even more. He had no idea what it felt like to wake up alone, especially after admitting something so honest. 

“You have no idea,” Her voice raised, “You have no idea what that felt like because you will always be the person who leaves.” 

Harry couldn’t seem to find the words. She was right and finally seeing him how he saw himself. There was nothing good about him and he had been told that his entire life by all the people he cared about. Everything he loved as a child was taken away from him with claw marks all over them. He had been forced to grow up, leave home and raise three kids. He knew one day that they too would be taken away from him- they’d find better people, a happier life -  and he would be left with nothing because it was all that he had known and all that he had deserved. 

Y/N couldn’t seem to fathom how he stood there in complete silence. The silence seemed to birth a new feeling inside her, another seed planted in her slow-burning heartbreak. 

Until His voice murmured something, barely audible to her ear, "It was you."

She stilled, “What?” 

His head lifted and she finally got to see him through the fog of anger. His cheeks were tear stained, his eyes red-rimmed and tired like he had barely slept. His hair looked as though he had run his fingers through them one too many times. “In my nightmare, it was you.” He confessed. 

Y/N was struggling to breathe, “What are you talking about?” She whispered, her eyes glassy.

“I haven’t experienced it that way in so long, I-I thought I was okay now.” Harry's chest rose and fell with each heavy breath.

“What did they do to you?” Y/N took a step forward. 

“I thought I was at home. I-I was in my room in my own body and my pops was there sitting in his armchair. He wouldn’t stop laughing at me and then I looked down and saw y’ on the floor,” Harry inhaled sharply like he was picturing the moment as he was re-calling it, “I tried to wake y’ up but you wouldn’t reply, y’ wouldn’t wake up and he was just sat there laughing and laughing. I was calling for help but no one could hear me and t-then he started saying I did it.”

Y/N couldn’t hold back her tears anymore as Harry began to cry. She wanted to reach out for him, to remove every bad thing that had ever happened to him and replace them with good. 

“He said it was me who hurt you,” He cried, “I tried to save you Y/N but I couldn’t and he was just laughing.” 

“Harry,” Y/N whispered, grabbing his hand and feeling him grip her fingers so tightly she thought it would cut off the circulation.

“I woke up outside,” He murmured, sniffling, “I was sitting out somewhere in the morning and Sonny and Patsy found me. I could hardly catch m’breath and they went off to get something that’d help but I was too ashamed. I couldn’t face them and I couldn’t face you either.” 

"Why?" Y/N couldn't help but ask, despite all the times she had promised him she would be there for him.

Harry's gaze fell to the ground as he struggled to find the words. “Because,” He huffed, trying to smile but he just looked broken, “What’s a girl like you doing with someone like me? God, I love you so much Y/N. I’ve never loved anybody in m’ whole life and the only thing I know about it is that y’ give the people y’ love what they are most deserving of and you deserve so much more than what I can give.” 

Y/N’s lips parted but he continued, “I have nothing. I am nobody. Outside of this place, I have nothing. I come from a family of nobodies and you…you are everything.” 

Y/N’s heart ached with every word he spoke and the vulnerability and pain on his face. She felt as though he was cutting himself open and he had nothing more he could hide away from her, “Harry, you are changing that.” She whispered, her voice filled with conviction.

He frowned, puzzled by her words, uncertain of their meaning. “The way you are with your brothers and Elise, what you’ve given them, it is the biggest example of love I have ever seen. This life you’ve shown them here comes from your love Harry.” She said, a smile breaking through her tears as his expression softened. She reaches up to cup his cheek in her hand, “I don’t want you to give me something better, I want you to give me you and the love I have seen you give to the people you care about. And I want to give you love too because I love you more than words can even comprehend and you are so deserving of it.” 

Harry’s eyes close softly as if he can’t quite believe the words he’s hearing and he’s trying to absorb it all. Y/N pulls his head down so their foreheads are pressed against each other, “Maybe you thought you had nothing but you always had love and if this is your nothing then I want all of it. That is what I want you to give to me.” She whispers. 

There's a pause, a moment of silent understanding between them, as Harry processes her words. His eyes slowly flutter open, revealing a depth of emotion that takes her breath away. She sees in his gaze a mixture of disbelief and gratitude as if her words have unlocked something within him that he never thought possible.

And then, as if drawn by an invisible force, Harry's hands find their way to her face, his touch gentle yet firm. It's as if he's trying to memorise every contour, every line, every curve as if he's afraid that this moment might slip away if he doesn't hold on tight enough.

"There is nothing in this world that means more to me than you," he whispers, his voice barely above a breath. "Thank you," he adds, his words filled with sincerity and love.

Y/N smiles softly, her eyes reflecting warmth and understanding. "That's okay," she says gently.

The rain pours around them as they stand underneath the shelter of the tree. Harry doesn’t even ask for permission, too eager to, as he presses his lips to hers. Y/N squeaks in surprise but melts into him when she allows herself to feel all the things he can’t communicate, put into every motion of his lips.

Harry feels new like the burden of his childhood is eased from his shoulders as the light from her kiss injects itself into his body. He wonders how he could ever allow himself to walk away from this, “I’m so sorry Y/N.” He says against her lips, “I love you, I’m sorry.” 

Y/N sighs, “We’ll learn,” She says, “We’ll get better and we’ll both learn.” 

It’s more than just words of forgiveness, it’s a promise and the start of something new. 

When they finish kissing, they both look up at the sky and see how hard the rain is pouring, “I think I’m over this trip now.” Y/N sighs, “I don’t think I ever want to go camping again.”

“Oh c’mon it was fun,” Harry teases with a sniffle but then sees her deadpan expression, “Okay it could have been better but at least we’re together now.” 

Y/N takes her hand away from him and crosses her arms, “Who decided that?” 

Harry’s face drops, “I-I thought-.” 

She quirks a brow, “I haven’t forgiven you for leaving me yet. That was just cruel and you should know better!”

Harry looked at her apologetically “I know baby-“ He reached for her hand but she swiftly moved away, stepping out into the rain and walking back towards the trail. 

“I won’t be letting you off so easily.” Harry’s shoulders slumped as he stayed glued to the floor, watching her walk away from him. 

He tried not to smile as she stumbled over the uneven ground, her clothes getting wet from the rain. He cupped his mouth and yelled, “But y’ still love me right?” 

“Of course I do you idiot!” She yelled over her shoulder.

Harry smiled, “I love you too, bigger than the whole sky Y/N.”

“Oh yeah?” Y/N yelled, “Prove it!”

Harry chuckled, running over to join her in the rain. 

. . .

To grovel actually meant to get down on your knees and beg for not only days but weeks in Y/N’s books which Harry had gradually come to realise. 

They returned from the airbase before everybody else and arrived at Y/N’s house to shower. Harry had tried to persuade Y/N to shower with him, using the classic excuse of ‘it’ll save water’ but she was too smart for that and he knew better. 

Soon, life resumed its usual rhythm after the camping trip, but there was a noticeable change in Y/N and Harry. Others noticed the absence of tension between them, seeing the love reflected in their gazes whenever they looked at each other. However, they couldn't understand why Y/N refused to acknowledge their relationship, or why Harry seemed so smitten and eager- all of a sudden walking around like he was a lovesick puppy in need of attention. 

Every day Harry would be doing something for Y/N, whether it was buying her flowers at the start of every week or walking her home during his work breaks. He’d rarely ever be seen with another woman, let alone make eye contact with them, all because he was desperate to make it up to the only woman he’d ever want for the rest of his life. 

“Y/N,” Francine, one of the nursery workers, called her name as she was washing up paint pots in the sink, “He’s here for you.”

Y/N tried to hide her smile, “Could you tell him to wait please Fran?” 

Soon Fran returned and in her arms was a giant bouquet, “He couldn’t stay very long,” She handed Y/N the roses, “But he told me to give you these.”

Y/N’s eyes widened, her hands still dripping wet as she held the red roses in her arms. She placed them on the countertop and took out the card attached to the bouquet. ‘I love you bigger than the whole sky, your Harry.’ 

Y/N bit down on her lip as she folded the small piece of paper and slid it into the front pocket of her apron. “When’s that boy gonna put a ring on y’ finger?” Loretta, one of the older nursery workers asked. 

Y/N scoffed, “Only if he can get near my hand first, Loretta.” 

Although marriage would definitely not be happening anytime soon, the picture of it in her mind made her smile. 

In the evening, Y/N had been enjoying some much-needed girl time with Molly and Patsy. Y/N hadn’t seen Nancy since the night of the bonfire. She was rarely ever home to the point where the girls wondered why she even bothered renting her room out for much longer. 

They sat around the living room in pink robes, watching a movie and reading magazines. It had been a while since Y/N had had some downtime with her housemates. So much of her time had been either working or being trapped in the whirlwind that was her relationship with Harry. 

“Can I have some of that?” Patsy asked, unable to keep her eyes off the television as she held her hand out for the bottle of wine. 

Molly passed it over but her eyes narrowed on Patsy, “Is that Sonny’s sweatshirt you’re wearing under that?” 

Patsy finally looked away, her mouth opening and closing, “N-no?” She lied, terribly. 

“Did you sleep with him?” Molly questioned.

Patsy swallowed, “No…maybe…yes.” 

Patsy's feeble attempt at denial only made Y/N and Molly laugh harder. Y/N struggled to stifle her giggles, while Molly's laughter rang out loud and clear.

"And? How was it?” Molly urged, her eyes twinkling with mischief.

Patsy’s face flushed bright red, “It was good.”

“That’s it?” Molly frowned.

“Fine,” Patsy’s shoulders slumped, “It was wonderful, Mol. The best I’ve ever had.”

“You’re lying,” 

“It’s true!” Patsy exclaimed, “There’s just something about ‘em, right Y/N? You slept with Harry already didn’t you?”

Y/N’s smile fell from her face, “Huh?”

Molly smirked, “Now you definitely cannot lie about that. Everyone knows it.”

Y/N's smile faltered, confusion flickering in her eyes. "What do you mean, everyone knows?"

Molly's smirk widened. "Come on, Y/N. It's written all over your face. You've got that look all the girls have, you know the one where they lie about being with someone when it’s clearly not the truth."

Y/N's cheeks flushed as realisation dawned on her. "Oh," she murmured, suddenly feeling self-conscious.

"So, spill it," Molly urged, leaning in with a mischievous glint in her eye. "Have you?"

“I don’t know…Maybe,” She could feel the corner of her lips tugging upwards and her hands quickly shot up to cover her face.

Her two housemates squealed, jumping up from the couch with excitement, “You have?” Molly grinned. 

“Yes!” Y/N laughed. 

“Tell us all about it!” Patsy fell to the floor and leaned in towards her. 

“O-Oh, I-” But as luck would have it, Y/N was interrupted by the doorbell ringing and then the door swinging open. 

“Patsy?” Sonny’s voice rang down the hallway as he invited himself in again. 

Molly rolled her eyes, annoyed, “What is it?”

Footsteps sounded against the hardwood floors as Sonny entered the living room. His eyes landed on the girls as they sat on the floor, “What are you doing?”

"What does it look like we're doing?" Molly retorted, crossing her arms defensively.

"Can I join in?" He wiggled his eyebrows suggestively.

Patsy groaned, "Just tell us what you want, already."

“Oh,” Sonny shook his head as if reminding himself why he was here, “Elise is sick,”

Y/N stood up, “What? How sick?”

“George has had to bath her four times already and Harry can’t seem to get her to sleep. It’s manic in that house, y’ gotta help us out.” Sonny begged. 

"But it's girl's night," Molly said firmly, gesturing toward the girls in their gowns. "And we're not your nurses or your babysitters."

"Please?" Sonny's eyes pleaded, darting towards Y/N.

Y/N sighed, relenting. "Fine. Let me get dressed." She manoeuvred past the girls seated on the floor and headed upstairs to her room to change.

“What? Patsy, y’ can’t be serious?” Molly whined. 

“It’s Elise and Sonny’s sister.” Patsy shrugged as though it was reason enough. 

Molly huffed, knowing no matter what she said it wouldn’t be enough to persuade them to help a sick child. The girl’s night they had planned would just have to be put on hold,  “Alright,” She conceded. 

Sonny led the girls across the estate to the Styles’ household. Along the way, Y/N and Molly teased Patsy and Sonny when they noticed them holding hands inside the pocket of Sonny’s aviator coat. The closer they got to the house, the more they could hear Elise wailing from inside. 

He swung the door open, the girls following behind, “I’m back!” Sonny called as they entered the kitchen, “I bought reinforcements.”

Harry turned around when they all stepped into the room. He was shirtless, holding onto a crying Elise, her little face all scrunched up and red. His eyes immediately gravitated towards Y/N, “You’re here,” He sighed as if the sight of her had alleviated some of the stress he was feeling. 

Y/N walked straight up to him and took Elise out of his grip, “M here,” She sighed, “Oh sweet girl, it’s okay,” Y/N kissed the side of the two-year-olds head, swaying her side to side in her arms. 

“She’s been sick all afternoon, must have got it off some kid at the nursery.” Harry exclaimed, his eyes tired from taking care of his sister and being at work all day, “I’ve tried everything. Normally singing her to sleep helps but she won’t seem to settle and I’m all out of ideas.”

“Hey,” Y/N placed a hand on his shoulder, feeling his warm skin, “It’s okay, we’re here to help you.”

He relaxed beneath her touch, the sentiment making him smile, “Y’ don’t have to,” Harry murmured. 

“Harry,” Y/N gave him a stern glare, “I want to.” 

His lips curved into a grateful smile as he nodded. "Thank you."

Y/N was so ensnared by his captivating eyes she had to force herself to look away, “Go shower. We’ll clean up down here.” 

Harry saluted playfully, brushing past her but not before pressing a hasty kiss to her cheek. Y/N gasped, spinning around and seeing a hint of a smirk on his face as he ran up the stairs.

“Ha Ha,” Elise croaked, pointing at her brother. 

Y/N’s expression softened at the little girl’s tired voice, “Let’s get you cleaned up.”

As Sonny and Patsy helped clean the kitchen, Molly made a start on dinner and George and Y/N bathed Elise in the kitchen sink. Although Elise was exhausted from being sick all afternoon, everyone went about their chores whilst trying to bring a smile to her face. Whenever she giggled at George and Sonny's antics or Patsy's playful arguing with Sonny whenever he attempted to flirt with her, the group would cheer from their achievement at making her laugh. 

Once they’d put all the dishes on the table, Harry had come down from his shower. Y/N drew in a breath when he walked through the door with damp curls and a towel around his waist, “Jus’ need to grab something,” He smirked as he walked past Y/N who caught the smell of his coconut shampoo. 

As Y/N stood at the kitchen sink to get rid of Elise’s bath water, she felt his solid form come up behind her. Her lips parted, a breath of air escaping her, as he placed a hand on her shoulder and gently squeezed. With his other arm, he reached out, his hand still resting on her shoulder, to open the cupboard above her and pulled out a clean hand towel.

The warmth spreading through her body dissolved once he pulled away. She let out a breath she didn’t know she was holding when she heard his feet against the floor fade as he left the room. 

To her side, Molly and Patsy were trying not to laugh as they covered their mouths and tried to resume what they had previously been talking about before they were briefly interrupted. Y/N rolled her eyes and walked to the table to begin plating up dinner for everybody. 

Harry had returned from his shower and now sat at the end of the table with Y/N to his right and Elise beside her sitting in a high chair. She was nibbling at the food George had prepped for her, taking small bites when she felt like it.

Everyone tucked into their meal as a smooth jazz record lulled in the background. Suddenly, breaking the comfortable silence, George piped up, “So is everyone dating at this table?” 

Sonny groaned, “Why’d you bring that up?”

“Because!” George paused, cutting into his meat, “I can’t handle the tension in this room, it’s like you all want to have sex with each other.” 

“George don’t be so vulgar,” Molly snapped, her tone sharp, “But he does have a point.” 

“Well Patsy and I are together,” Sonny put an arm around Patsy’s shoulders only to receive an angry glare in return, “What?” He took his arm back, “They already figured it out!”

“Well, what about Y/N and Harry,” Patsy crossed her arms, wanting to divert the attention to something else, all heads turning to face the couple at the end of the table.

“Well, I-I-“ Y/N was all flustered, not knowing how to approach the subject until Harry stepped in.

“It’s up to Y/N,” Harry shrugged, taking a bite from his fork. Y/N’s head whipped in his direction, “I’ll do whatever she wants me to do.” 

As he spoke the words, she felt his hand land on her thigh. Y/N stilled as he squeezed her knee but instead of freezing like she always seemed to do with him, she placed her hand on top of his and flipped his hand over to intertwine their fingers wanting to show him at least some grace for his ability to speak when she couldn’t find the words. 

“Well good for Y/N. You see not all girls are easily swayed by you boys, you know.” Molly remarked.

“Ahh are you sure about that Mol? Maybe it’s just because you’re the only girl here who hasn’t tried to sleep with any of us.” George quipped with a teasing grin. 

Molly scowled, “Don’t you have to follow Nancy around or something?”

Sonny burst out laughing as George’s face fell, “Yeah yeah, you can all laugh but the other day I swear I almost got a smile outta her.” 

“Oh nice, an almost smile yeah that’s really great George.” Everyone laughed around the table.

By the time dinner was over and everyone had been ridiculed at least once, Elise was already half asleep. Harry volunteered to tuck her in, lifting her gently and carrying her upstairs to her bedroom. As the others stepped outside for a smoke break, Y/N took it upon herself to clear the empty plates and tidy up.

Before tidying, Y/N went upstairs to use the bathroom. As she climbed the steps, she noticed a partially open door. Intrigued by the humming coming from the room, she quietly peeked inside.

It was dark other than a small candle lit up in the corner of the room. Harry stood by the window with Elise in his arms. Her cheek was resting on his shoulder as her small hands fisted the sleeve of his shirt. His big hand rubbed up and down her tiny back as her eyes fluttered open and closed. She almost resembled a cherub resting on a fluffy cloud as Harry hummed her to sleep, his head turning an inch to press a soft kiss to the side of her head. 

Y/N's eyes glistened with an emotion she couldn't quite place. Her heart felt like it was trying to leap out of her chest and walk into the room to join them. The longer she stayed fixed on the two siblings, alone in one space, it seemed as if they were the only two people existing, if only for a brief moment in time.

Not wanting to disturb their peace and quiet, Y/N carefully tiptoed away from them to give them the space they needed. 

She stood at the kitchen sink and began filling it with water and soap. Her mind drifted to the image of Harry holding Elise almost as if he were her own father. Y/N’s heart had been hurting for Harry and his siblings ever since he had broken down to her on the hill. A part of her wondered if she was doing all this because she felt she had to fulfil some kind of duty to them but it never felt like work helping the Styles’ siblings, she just had a spot for them in her heart that was growing exponentially by the day. 

Y/N felt that presence that had become so familiar to her, come up behind her as she cleaned the dishes. His arms snaked around her waist, swaying them slowly to the gentle bossa nova that played over the record player, “Dance with me,” He murmured, pulling her away from the sink. 

Y/N laughed, spinning around in his arms and pressing her wet and soapy hands to his face. Harry’s face scrunches, “Have I told y’ I love y’ today?” He asked, nuzzling his cheek in her palm. 

“Hmm,” Y/N pretended to think, “I don’t think so.”

“Well I do,” He says, “I love you bigger than the whole sky, Birdy.” 

“I love you too,” Y/N replies because she always will no matter how angry she is or was with him. 

“Enough to forgive me?” He tries but his face already says he knows the answer. 

Y/N inches forward, her lips brushing his, “Almost,” 

Harry grins, pulling her in closer, “This could be our life y’know.” 

“What could?” 

“All this,” He motions to the house, “We have our own house and make our own food. Everyone is safe and we’re happy. Maybe have a couple of kids-”

Y/N scoffs, “A couple?” 

“Alright,” Harry chuckles, his head falling back, “One, five, eight or even zero, I don’t care I jus’ wanna be with you.” 

“That sounds nice,” Y/N sighed, falling in love with the image she had painted in her mind, “And we’d live here?” 

Harry kissed the top of her head, resting his cheek on it as they swayed, “We can live wherever y’ want Birdy, I go where you go.” 

Y/N can’t help but pull his neck down to kiss her. Even though they weren’t exactly together, Y/N couldn’t help but kiss him when she wanted to, which was more often than it wasn’t. She’d never tire of the way his lips felt against hers, how she’d melt in his embrace and feel his heart beating against his chest. 

“Just so we’re clear, this doesn’t mean we’re together,” Y/N mumbled against his lips.

“I know Birdy, I know.” He smiles, kissing her even harder.

Harry ends up helping Y/N clean the kitchen, drying the dishes while she washes them. It's a new experience for him, doing something domestic with the person he loves. It feels small and simple yet meant more to him than he could seem to understand.

“Since I’m tryin’ to be better, I gotta tell y’ something,” Harry pinches her sleeve, needing to touch her in some way at all times.

“What’s wrong?” Y/N asked, immediately beginning to worry. 

“Oh no it’s nothing so bad, it’s just my Mama sent us a letter a few weeks ago and I think ‘m gonna go visit her without the boys.” He shrugs, “Jus’ to check in on her y’ know?” 

Y/N knew Harry didn’t want to admit the truth about his visit. Despite the fact he never had a close relationship with his mother, he had always been her protector. Harry couldn’t stay away from his home no matter how hard he tried, too afraid that if he did, something detrimental would happen and he’d feel nothing but guilt for the rest of his life. 

“On your own?” Y/N frowned, “Y’ don’t even want George to come with you?”

“If George goes he’ll jus’ get upset. I probably won’t even tell ‘em I’m going, I jus’ wanna make sure everything is okay. Maybe if I show m’ face she’ll stop sending so many letters every weekend.” His voice carried a mix of concern and weariness.

“Well okay,” Y/N paused for a brief second, “I mean I could come with you, maybe, i-if that’s something you’d want.”

Fear flashed in Harry’s eyes, “No,” He stated firmly, “I’m not letting you anywhere near that old bastard.”

Y/N knew he was referring to his father, “I won’t let you go alone, Harry. It’s either me or one of your brother’s but I will not let you go into that house by yourself.” She wasn’t going to lie and say that she wasn’t afraid for him. She’d never met his Father or truly knew the depths to which he had gone into causing such trauma for Harry but she wasn’t going to allow it to continue. “Please, let me come with you.”

Harry opened his mouth to immediately reject her offer but paused, considering her words carefully. He saw the determination in her eyes, the fierce loyalty she held for him, and it touched something deep within him. He also knew she was stubborn and wouldn’t let up over something like this no matter how much he refused. 

After a moment of silence, he sighed, relenting. "Alright," he finally murmured, his voice laced with apprehension. "But promise me, Y/N, you'll stay close and keep your guard up. My old man... he's not an easy man to deal with. We’ll be in and out of tha’ house all in the same day.”

Y/N nodded solemnly, her resolve unwavering, “Thank you,” She said. 

. . .

With the days that passed before Harry would return to his childhood town, his fear and anxiety seemed to grow. His nightmares had continued to worsen, each one of them had turned into one about Y/N. On the nights when Y/N slept in her own bed, he found himself walking through the dimmed streets in the middle of the night to sneak into her house and crawl under the covers with her. She’d whisper soft things into his ear, promising that everything he dreamt of was simply just that, but he struggled to believe her as he held her tightly in his arms until the morning arrived. 

They took the two-hour train from the station to his home town in Wyoming on the day of the visit. Harry barely spoke a word as he held Y/N’s hand in his lap all the way there. They had decided on wearing somewhat fancy attire. Harry wore tailored trousers with a belt and a white shirt tucked into it, whilst Y/N settled on a new blouse she had yet to wear and a long skirt with kitten heels. They hadn’t spoken it aloud but part of them wanted to show without telling his parents just how well they were doing for themselves. 

“Baby,” Harry whispered, nudging Y/N awake after she dozed off on his shoulder, “We’re here now,” 

Y/N hummed, her eyes fluttering open to the window. Outside was the train station which was really just a raised platform by the train tracks with a small ticket booth nearby. The place was almost deserted, with only a few people stepping off as the train pulled in. Harry grabbed her purse and held Y/N’s hand as they exited the train and stepped onto the platform. It wasn’t long before the train was off again, leaving a bellow of smoke behind. 

Glancing around, Y/N noticed how grey Harry’s hometown was. The buildings seemed weathered, and besides the train station, there wasn't much else to see—just a row of buildings housing a grocery store, a clothing shop, and a bank. Everything became increasingly sparse and lifeless the further out of town you ventured, and Harry’s house just so happened to be situated on the outskirts. 

When they left the train station, Harry walked to a cab that was already parked outside with no other customers. He opened the door for Y/N to enter first, “Are you okay?” Y/N asked, sensing Harry’s discomfort.

“Y’ know there’s nothing more I wanna do than take y’ back to Offutt right?” His eyes were hard as he stared between the two front seats out of the windshield of the beaten-up vehicle. 

"I know," Y/N's voice was quiet, a hint of uncertainty creeping in as she wondered if she had pushed too far by insisting on accompanying him. However, before she could dwell on her thoughts further, he picked up her hand and pressed a kiss to it, reassuring her without words.

Y/N tried not to react too shocked when the vehicle stopped far outside of the town they had entered. In front of them was a house that looked as though it was made out of planks of wood hammered together. There was a front porch with a rocking chair that was rotting away and a clothesline with white sheets blowing in the breeze. 

“This is your home?” Y/N wondered, looping her arm with Harry’s when he came up beside her. 

“It’s never been m’home,” He replied, lowly. 

As they approached the front door, it creaked open before they could even knock. Standing behind it was a woman with the same green eyes Y/N had noticed in each of her children. Her hair was wispy and greying, with streaks of brunette that were a darker shade than Harry’s. She had heavy bags under her eyes and wrinkles all over her face. Her thin lips turned into a smile, her eyes watering as she opened her arms to the man beside Y/N, “My boy,” She croaked. 

Harry stiffened when he felt her arms wrap around him, “Mom,” He grumbled. 

The woman pulled away and then her eyes turned to Y/N, her smile drooping, “Who’s this?”

Harry opened his mouth to introduce herself but Y/N quickly stepped in, “I’m a friend of your son, we met on the Airbase.” She held her hand out.

Harry’s mother looked down at her hand and then back to Harry, “You’re bringing girls home now? Where are your brothers?” 

Harry’s jaw tightened, “They’re not here.”

“And Elise?” She went on. 

“She’s back home,” 

“This is her home,” His mother argued, “And I’m her mother,”

“We won’t be staying here for long,” Harry said, moving past his mother and stepping into the house. Y/N tried to offer his mother a smile but she just frowned. 

The inside of Harry’s childhood home was cold and empty, lacking any hint of life or sign of a whole family living here for well over ten years. Bits of furniture littered the house here and there, each individual piece looked battered and beaten. 

“Are you staying for dinner at least Harry? I’ve been cooking all afternoon,” His mother walked to the small kitchen and started stirring a pot that was already cooking on the stove.

Harry looked down at Y/N, “We can stay,” She told him even though she knew he didn’t like the idea, she didn’t want to let his mother’s cooking go to waste. 

“M taking Y/N to m’ room,” Harry grumbled, unwilling to wait for his mother to say anything. 

Y/N followed him to a small room near the living room. It was no bigger than an average old pantry, containing only a small, single bed and a little chair and table tucked into the corner. Above the bed hung a mobile adorned with wooden planes painted blue, dangling gently. Y/N reached out and held one of the jagged wooden planes in her palm.

The corners of her lips turned upwards as she examined it, wondering if Harry’s love for planes stemmed from a young age. Turning round to face him, she fell back onto his bed and sighed, “Come lay with me,” Her hand dangled from the bed, her fingers reaching out to brush his. 

Harry shook his head but fell onto the bed beside her, his feet dangling off the end. It was so small that Y/N had to practically lay on top of him, her chin resting on his chest as she looked up at him. She brushed some of his hair out of his face, “How are you feeling?” She checked in. 

“Strange,” He murmurs, “Seeing you in this house made me realise how foreign this place is to me now. You’re home and this is just… Something I don’t want in my life anymore.” 

Y/N’s gaze softens, “Your mom never told me her name, I don’t think she likes me very much.”

Harry’s hand slides up her back to play with the ends of her hair, “She doesn’t like anyone really but her name’s Debbie if y’ must know.”

“Debbie,” Y/N replies, her voice soft, “Hey, if things get uncomfortable we can go, just say the word.”

Harry felt an overwhelming sense of gratitude at her calming, understanding nature, “Thank you for being here.” 

“There’s nowhere else I’d rather be,” Y/N teased and Harry laughed, the sound echoing in the darkened room of his childhood. 

Despite Debbie’s cold attitude towards her, Y/N still tried to make an effort by helping set the table for dinner. In the corner of her eye, she caught Harry fussing over his mother when he saw her hands were all scathed from being outside every day as she poured stew into each bowl. The image made her eyes glisten with tears that threatened to fall until she blinked them away.

As they placed each bowl of stew on the table, a thud sounded from outside and then the squeak of the hinges on the front door as it swung open. Y/N’s heart stopped as Harry paced towards her, moving her behind him as an old man stumbled in. She grabbed Harry’s sleeve, peeking past him to see a man with hazel eyes and balding, grey hair. His face was wrinkled and scruffy, his nose red but his face gaunt. His footsteps were heavy against the wooden floorboards, with every inhale of his breath he seemed to suck out the warmth from the house. 

His eyes fell on Harry and then to Y/N, “Hello boy,” His voice sounded like gravel as he spoke. 

“Old man,” Harry’s voice was something Y/N had never heard from him before. It felt like he was trying to control all of his anger whilst also trying not to show his fear. She squeezed his arm a little, hoping it would give him some reassurance. 

“Nice to know you’ve remembered your family,” He sniffled, closing the door behind him. 

“Y’ make it hard to forget,” Harry replied. 

Debbie walked in between them like it was something she had done many times before whenever there was tension, “Jack, you’re  just in time for dinner.” She was much too cheery but it felt hollow and insincere, “Harry’s friend is joining us from that camp they’re staying at.” 

Jack glanced at Debbie with a flicker of annoyance before turning his attention back to Harry and Y/N. "Well, aren't we all just one big happy fuckin’ family," he muttered, his tone dripping with sarcasm.

Y/N felt the tension in the room thicken, a silent battle unfolding between the family members. She exchanged a knowing glance with Harry, silently urging him to stay composed.

Ignoring Jack's jab, Debbie gestured towards the dining table. "Come on, let's sit down and eat. I've made your favourite, Jack," she said. 

Sitting at the table, Jack's presence felt heavy in the room. Y/N looked at Harry, silently showing her support. She knew dinner would be tricky, but she was committed to being there for Harry. She held his hand under the table and squeezed. Harry rubbed his thumb over the pulse point on her wrist in order to relax himself. 

It was just dinner and they’d be going home straight afterwards. Home to his real family, where it was safe and he was most loved. 

Debbie came out of the kitchen with two cans of beer and placed them in front of Jack before sitting beside him. He cleared his throat as he opened both cans, “Where are y’ brothers?” 

“Not here,” Harry spoke, lowly.

“Don’t get funny with me boy, where are they?” 

“I already told you.” Y/N jumped when Jack’s hand smacked down on the table, Harry’s hand squeezing her in assurance like this was a normal reaction to have. 

“You’ve left y’ brothers at that camp and bought this random whore here?” He spat.

“Don’t call her that,” Harry said through gritted teeth. 

“I don’t even know her fuckin’ name and y’ bought her into my house?” 

Harry opened his mouth to reply but Y/N interrupted him, “My name is Y/N,” She said, her eyes hard, “And if that’s how you speak to someone you don’t know Mr Styles, I hate to see how you speak to those you do.” 

Y/N could feel all eyes on her at the dinner table but she ignored them, acting as though what she said didn’t matter, as she tucked into the stew that was in front of her. “Next time you come back here,” Jack gruffed, “Y’ bring your brother’s. Much prefer them here anyway.” 

This time it was Y/N’s turn to feel a bubble of anger rising within her, “Don’t want no more whores in my house, except y’ mother,” He chuckled, darkly, “She’s the only one allowed here.”

Harry shot up, his chair scraping against the floor, “How fuckin’ dare you,” He spat. 

“Sit down,” His Father ordered, refusing to look up at him. 

“Harry,” Debbie whispered, tugging on his hand to try and pull him down.

Reluctantly, Harry lowered himself to his seat. His jaw clenched as he stole a glance at Y/N, silently grateful for her unwavering support in the face of his family's hostility. He’d refuse to open his mouth for the rest of the dinner, in hopes it would speed things up and they could leave. He was filled with regret that he had allowed Y/N to come to this Hellscape, even more so for even considering it in the first place. 

It fell silent- nothing but the scraping of cutlery against plates- until Y/N decided to speak, her anger too much to withhold any longer, “I’d appreciate it if you’d stop calling me that Mr Styles,” Harry must have gotten whiplash from how quickly his head whipped around to look at Y/N as she spoke. 

“Say that again,” Jack replied, lowly.

“I said I would appreciate it if you’d stop calling me a whore, it’s rather distasteful.” Y/N dared to look up at him, meeting his lifeless eyes when she did. She felt Harry’s fingers squeeze hers but she refused to break eye contact with the only man who she had ever hated before even meeting him. 

“Distasteful? What are y’ a slut from Preston?” 

“No,” Y/N continued, “I’m not a whore or a slut from Preston and if you knew me or your own son, you’d know he wouldn’t dare bring someone with the likes of you home with him.”

Rage flashed in Jack’s eye, “Why you little-” 

Harry rose to his feet as Jack raised his hand in the air, bracing himself for the impending blow. But before Jack could strike, Y/N intervened. "The fact that you assume so little about me, Mr. Styles, is your first mistake," Y/N declared, her voice unwavering. "Truthfully, I know people. Put a hand on me, and I'll go straight to my father. He's a doctor, you see—a very important one who knows a lot of important people. One of his patients just so happens to be the Governor. Do you know the Governor, Mrs. Styles?" Y/N directed a smile at the timid lady sitting opposite her, who blinked in response and quickly nodded her head.

"As much as I hate throwing around big names, sometimes it pays to know people more powerful than those who assume they have it all," Y/N continued, her gaze steady on Jack. "Wouldn't you say, Mr. Styles?"

Y/N stood up from the table as Jack’s jaw clenched, biting his tongue to stop from speaking. She grabbed Harry’s hand and intertwined their fingers, “To answer your question, your sons are at Offutt Air Base not camp. It’s their home where their older brother raised them along with that little girl you both abandoned. You can assume I’m a whore or a slut or whatever you think I am however much you like Mr Styles but I will not let you sit there and strip all of the love your son has shown to your children when you weren’t willing to give them anything.” 

“Thank you for the dinner Mrs Styles but we’re leaving,” Y/N looked up at Harry who was already looking at her with nothing but pride all over his face, “I’m sorry Harry but I can’t stay here anymore.”

He nodded, following her out of the house but stopping when his father stood in front of him. Y/N gasped when Harry raised his arm and punched his father straight across the face. Jack groaned, cupping his nose as blood began to drip from it. Harry gripped his shirt in a fist, “Call my wife a whore again and I’ll fucking end you.” He spat, pushing him away. 

Y/N and Harry ignored his mother as she fretted about his now injured Father, walking out of the house. 

As soon as they stepped off the porch, Harry pulled Y/N to the side of the house where they were shielded from view and pressed her against the wall. His lips met hers eagerly, his hands cradling her face as her eyes fluttered shut. "You called me your wife," she breathed between kisses.

"Easy mistake," he replied quickly before his lips seeked hers once more. 

Once they pulled away, their chests heaving and Harry’s lips tinged pink from Y/N’s lipstick, the biggest grin stretched across his face, his eyes sparkling more than she had ever seen before, “I didn’t think I could love you any more than I did.”

Y/N’s eyes watered, a mixture of love and the come down from the adrenaline that had fueled her in the last few moments all began to hit her at once, “You are everything to me,” He murmured, “Everything.” 

"I love you too, Harry.” Y/N leapt into his arms, wrapping herself around him and refusing to let go. 

After leaving the house, it felt as if a heavy weight had been lifted, as though a burdensome weed had been plucked from their lives. The air seemed lighter, and even the moon appeared to shine a bit brighter overhead. As they walked, Y/N couldn't help but notice the peace reflected in Harry's eyes whenever he glanced up at the sky.

Though it wasn't the end, it felt like the first step towards releasing the things that brought no good into Harry's life. With Harry's arm lazily draped over her shoulder and hers around his waist, they stumbled down the street, unable to find a taxi or any passing vehicles to take them back to the train station. To outsiders, they might have seemed like a drunken couple, but in reality, they were simply two people deeply in love and, for that moment, they felt truly free—and that feeling was even better.

They boarded the last train back to Offutt that night, and Harry was adamant about keeping Y/N close. Despite the empty carriage, he insisted she sit with him, to the point where she was practically sitting on his lap.

As Y/N grew tired, Harry allowed her to rest her head in his lap while she stretched out across the seats. He gently played with her hair and traced the contours of her face. "Can I show you something when we get back?" he whispered. Although exhausted, and longing to simply fall asleep with him in her bed, she nodded in agreement.

Y/N giggled as Harry skipped ahead, the smile on his face had yet to be replaced as he led her to the warehouses at the airbase. “C’mon slowpoke,” Harry called much too loudly for this time of night. 

“Alright, alright, I’m coming,” Y/N shook her head, her cheeks aching from smiling so much.

Keys jangled in his back pocket as he pulled out a chain that had too many keys for Y/N to count dangling from it. He plucked one out and put it into the padlock that was keeping a lock on the large, metal doors to one of the hangars where the planes were kept. 

The doors clanked open as Harry pulled them apart enough for them to walk through. The light from the moon slipped through the gap, creating a dim light within the hangar. Harry switched on the lights in the panel on the side and the whole room lit up. Y/N followed Harry as he took her to the back of the warehouse where some of the planes which needed fixing up were kept. 

He stopped in front of a single-engine propellor aeroplane, painted blue with white stripes. It had a cockpit with a glass canopy and seated two people inside. Y/N frowned, “Is this what you wanted to show me?” Living on an airbase, she’d obviously seen plenty of planes that were different variations of the one in front of her so she was unsure what she was meant to be looking at that had got Harry so excited.  

Harry rolled his eyes playfully. He came up behind her and placed both his hands over her eyes to cover them. She stumbled as he nudged her forwards towards the side of the plane, “We’ve been working on this for a while and me and the boys have been struggling to give it a name. It was only until I met you that I realised what the perfect name for it was.” Harry removed his hands from her eyes, Y/N’s eyes squinting to adjust to the light until they focused on a word written in yellow on the side of the plane. 

Birdy. 

Y/N’s lips parted, walking up to touch the yellow font to see if it was real. She turned on her heel, eyes watering, “You named a plane after me?”

Harry bit back a grin, eyes twinkling, “Of course I did,” He whispered, “Need you with me all the time, now I can have you in the air too.” 

“Oh Harry,” She sobbed, wrapping her arms around his neck, “It’s wonderful,” 

“Yeah? Y’ like it darling?” He kissed the top of her head. 

“I love it,” She sighed, her eyes darting to the cockpit, “Can we sit in it?”

“Course,” Harry helped her up the little ladder and into the cockpit, before sitting in the spot next to her. “The electrics aren’t on so if y’ touch anything it won’t move.” Y/N’s hands pressed some of the buttons, still unable to believe she had a plane named after her. 

Harry smiled watching her and then leaned in to kiss her. Y/N ran her fingers through his hair, pulling him closer. Their lips met in a passionate kiss, and Harry deepened it, his tongue sliding into her mouth and his teeth nipping at her bottom lip. “Harry,” Y/N breathed, her eyes fluttering shut as he began to kiss down her neck. 

“This is for you baby. There ain’t nobody else for me,” He whispered, “and I don’t want anybody else.” 

His fingers brushed down the skin of her arms as her head rolled to the side. He kissed the base of the column of her neck, “You love me?” He asks, voice raspy. 

“I do,” Y/N hums, her hands all over his clothed torso gripping the fabric in tight fists. 

“How much,” Y/N gasped as his fingers played with the buttons of her blouse before he slowly undid the first one. He pressed his lips to her collarbones as he continued on the next button. 

Y/N’s hands fell to the buckle of his belt, tugging on the metal to pull him closer. With every inch of skin that was revealed, Harry would place a small kiss there like he was worshipping every inch. Y/N could feel his breath fan over the top of her breasts as he got to the middle button, “C’mon baby, how much?” He taunted. 

His hand slid up her back under her shirt to the clasp of her bra, “Tell me how much y’ love me and I’ll make y’ feel good hmm? Is that what y’ want birdy?” 

Y/N nodded, “So much Harry, so much.”

“What?” Harry grinned, “Y’ love me so much or y’ want me so much?” 

“Both,” Y/N gasped, “Please,” 

Harry’s lips mould with hers as he uses both hands to remove her blouse, the buttons flying everywhere. Y/N’s hands fumble to remove his belt as Harry tugs his own shirt off hurriedly. His hands are hot against her body as he unclips the clasp of her bra, “So beautiful,” He says, in awe. 

Y/N’s cheeks heat at the compliment. His hand splays across her bag, his pinky finger digging into the hem of her skirt as he continues to kiss her deeply. “Harry, I-” Her face feels hot as she stops herself, feeling too embarrassed to ask the question.

“What is it darling?” He cups her cheek in his hand, brushing his thumb over her cheekbone.

She looks up at him, her eyes round and full of lust, she cups the bulge of his dick through his trousers in her hand, “Please?” She whines.

“Y’ wanna suck on m’ cock sweet girl?” He smirks, seeing her get all flustered as she nods quickly. She’s already trying to unbuckle his belt before he has time to say anything else. Her eyes widened when his cock springs out of his boxers, she still couldn’t get over how big he was as she wrapped two hands around the thick girth and pumped up and down. 

Harry groaned, feeling her hands wrapped around him. She pulled away to sit up on her knees in the seat, tucking her hair behind her ears and bending forward. Harry’s head falls back against the headrest as she puts one hand at the base of his cock and kisses the tip. “So big,” She murmurs. 

“Gonna take it in y’ pretty mouth baby?” Harry taunts in a playful tone.

Y/N sucks on the tip, her eyes closing as she tastes him for the first time. Gradually she takes him deeper, inch by inch, her tongue sliding against the thick vein of his cock as she does. “Good girl,” Harry praises her, grabbing her hair and holding it in a fist. 

She stops when the tip hits the back of her throat, using her hand to jerk off what she couldn’t take in her mouth. Harry groans when Y/N gags and pulls away to catch her breath, “Careful baby,” He squeezes her cheeks together and forces her to look at him. Seeing her red, glossy lips and hazy eyes, drool falling from the corner of her mouth from how big he was, almost made him cum right there. He wiped his thumb over her chin and kissed her, “Doing so good my girl,” He murmured against her lips. 

As she goes back to mouthing at his cock, he can’t help but run a hand down her back and squeeze her ass beneath her skirt. Y/N makes a sound that sends vibrations down his cock and he knew she’d have to stop before he came down her throat, “Need to be inside y’ baby,' ' Harry spoke. 

Y/N’s pops him out of her mouth, “Are y’ gonna fuck me now?” Her big doe eyes look up at him. She almost looked innocent if it weren’t for his cock in her fist. 

“Yeah darling girl, M gonna love on y’ now.” He tucked a loose piece of hair behind her ear. 

Y/N's hands tangled in his curls as she adjusted herself to lay back on the seats. Harry’s lips parted as he looked down at her, her chest heaving and her nipples pebbling under his gaze. He ran a hand through his hair, the glass canopy around them fogging up with their breaths. 

Harry swallowed, moving on top of her and holding himself up with his hands pressed into the plush seat beneath. Y/N’s legs parted for him to rest between them, her hands going to his back, fingers digging into the hard muscle. 

“Are y’ okay?” Harry murmured, brushing some of the hair from her face.

Y/N smiled, “I’m fine,” 

Y/N could feel his hardened length on the inside of her thigh as he pulled her skirt up and revealed her white panties. Harry tutted, “Did sucking me off make y’ this wet baby?” He asked, his fingers moving her panties to the side to reveal her dripping cunt. 

Harry’s fingers dipped between her folds, brushing over her clit to collect some of her wetness before smearing it all over her pussy. His hand travelled down, smearing her juices over the tip of his cock before he lined himself up with her. 

“Y’know, I don’t think I ever apologised properly for what I did that day,” He pressed open mouthed kisses a long her jawline as the tip of his cock teased her entrance, “What do y’ say darling girl? Y’gonna let me be good and fuck my apology into you?”

Y/N’s hips bucked into him, “Mhmm,” 

Looping her arms around his neck, Y/N’s lips parted as Harry eased himself into her. She was suddenly reminded of just how big he was as he moved further and further inside of her until he bottomed out and she could feel every inch of him as she clamped around him,  “S’ good,” She hummed, her eyes fluttering open and closed. 

“Yeah?” Harry chuckled, kissing her quickly, “M nice and snug? Can y’ feel me in y’ baby?”

Y/N nodded, grabbing his hand and spreading out his fingers to press them against her tummy, “Feel you here,” She sighed.

Harry kissed her forehead, “Y’ like that?” 

“The best,” She smiled, lazily. 

“Made just f’ me that’s why,” Harry smirked.

Slowly, Harry began to slide in and out of her, taking his time knowing this moment was different to their first time. It was softer- gentle even. Y/N whines, feeling all of him against the walls of her pussy. Harry groans when he sees her stomach bulge when he moves back in her - a sight he could never overcome no matter how hard he tried. 

“Y’ fucking perfect Y/N. Feels so good.” Harry’s voice wavered as he felt himself get lost in the feeling of her.

As his hips moved faster, the closer he was to his release. He held her hips, glancing down to see his cock moving in and out of her. He feels her pussy clenching tightly around him, signifying she was close to her release too. 

“Am I making my girl feel good? Hmmm?” He presses his nose against her cheek as her head falls to the side. “M’ best girl, lovin’ me the way you do, how’d I get so lucky?”  Y/N couldn’t seem to find the words to reply, her body writhing beneath him. 

Harry pressed his hand down on her tummy, the added pressure making her groan, “Y’ gonna have my babies in there one day?” 

“Yes,” Y/N gasps as he fucks her harder. 

“Yeah? Gonna have all my kids and be a pretty little housewife?” Y/N whimpers, her hands scratching down his back. “I love y’ so much.” He whispers. 

“Love you,” Y/N slurred. 

Harry’s hand begins to rub at her clit, the added sense of pleasure filling her entire body with heat that only continued to build the more he pumped his heavy dick inside of her. Y/N feverishly craned her neck to kiss him, needing that extra physical touch. 

“Y’ gonna let me cum in you, darling girl?” Harry murmured, his voice shaking. 

“Please cum in me Harry,” Y/N’s eyes blurred as the bubble of heat burst in her belly. 

With a final thrust, Harry released a heavy groan as his cock filled her insides with his cum. Y/N’s back arched into him as her breath caught in her throat, her eyes rolling back when she came around him at the same time. 

Harry fell on top of Y/N, his sweaty forehead against her chest. She lazily moved her hand to his hair, running her fingers through his soft curls. Harry puckered his lips to press a kiss right where her heart was beating erratically. 

A silence fell around them as they tried to catch their breaths, “Have y’ forgiven me yet?” Harry murmured, his hands tracing patterns on her hip.

"I think I forgave you ages ago; I just wanted to punish you a little," Y/N admitted, a truth she had realised for a while now.

"I deserved it," Harry agreed.

"You did," Y/N acknowledged.

“But I’ll be better. For you, I’ll be anything but I’ll always try to be better,” He looked up.

Y/N cupped his face, “I don’t need you to be anything but you.” 

Harry kissed her palm, “Thank you… For it all.”

. . .

“Are you nervous?” Patsy asked as the girls sat on top of the hill on a picnic blanket. 

“A little,” Y/N lied, she had hardly been able to sit still since this morning. 

“Hey,” Molly smoked a cigarette, “These boys have done this plenty of times, I’m sure he’ll be fine.”

“I just hope it all goes well, they’ve been working months on this.” Y/N’s eyes darted around to see if she could spot him. 

Elise sat on the picnic blanket in a diaper, chewing on her fingers and making noises. Molly swooped her up in her arms as she stood, “What do you think Elise? Will your brothers actually do something smart?” Molly cooed. 

Patsy hit her shoulder lightly, “Don’t be so mean,” 

Y/N’s ears pricked as she heard the sound of an engine in the distance. She removed her sunglasses, trying to see where the source of the sound was coming from. “Look!” Patsy pointed towards the thing moving in the blue sky. 

Y/N’s caught sight of the blue plane flying in the air, if she squinted enough she could see the yellow spelling of her nickname on the side, “He’s there!” Y/N laughed in disbelief, “He’s there!”

The plane flew closer and Y/N could make out Harry sitting in the cockpit with George beside him. All the girls waved, Elise giggling as they jumped up and down. Y/N took her hat off and started waving it around to try and catch Harry’s attention.

His head turned and a huge grin spread across his face as he saw her wearing a red dress just like she had told him she would after he told her they’d be flight testing the plane again and he wanted her to be there to watch. 

“Will you be able to see me on the ground?” Y/N asked as she sat atop his worktop whilst he worked on the plane, her legs swinging backwards and forwards. 

“It depends on how close y’ are. I can’t really see that well when ‘m flying high up.” He tells her.

“Hmm,” Y/N thinks, “What if I wear something colourful? Will y’ be able to see me then?”

Harry bites back a smile, “Maybe,” He shrugs, coming up to stand between her legs. He leans forward to kiss her, “Why? Y’ planning on wearing something special for me Birdy?” 

Y/N bites her lip, her eyes sparkling, “Possibly.”

“C’mon,” Patsy snatched the blanket off the grass, “They’re going to land soon,”

The girls headed back to the runway where the plane would land. They could already see Sonny looking through his bicolours. Patsy waved, running towards him and falling into his arms. “Did y’ see?” He looked down at her, happiness all over his face. 

“It’s great baby,” Patsy kissed him. 

Y/N watched as the plane descended, growing bigger against the sky. With a rumble, the wheels made contact with the ground, the plane gradually slowing down as it ran down the runway. Everyone ran towards the plane as Harry lifted the glass chamber and hopped out with George coming round the other side.

Cheers sounded through the air from everybody. Harry’s eyes immediately met Y/N’s, his hands reaching out to catch her in his arms. She leapt into his embrace, moulding her lips against his, “That was incredible!” She squealed when they pulled away. 

“Yeah?” Harry was trying to remain calm but she could tell he was proud of what he and his brothers had achieved today, “Y’ proud of me?” 

“So unbelievably proud,” Y/N spoke, her eyes radiating the truth in her words. 

“Ha, Ha!” Elise squealed for her brother.

Harry’s smile widened into a grin as Molly placed Elise into his arms, “Did you see that Elise?” He kissed her chubby cheek, “Did y’ see your brother flying?” 

Elise just babbled in response. 

Y/N wrapped her arms around Harry and Elise, joining in the embrace. At that moment, surrounded by the people he cared about most, Harry knew that he was exactly where he was meant to be. With a contented smile, he squeezed Y/N's hand, silently thanking her for always believing in him.

“Hey have any of you seen-” George glanced around before his eyes landed on someone in the distance, “There she is,” He murmured to himself. 

Everyone watched as he ran towards a woman standing by the entrance of the warehouse, “Is that Nancy?” Molly held a hand over her eyes to block the sun so she could get a better look at them.

“Hey, I think it is,” Patsy agreed, her eyebrows furrowing. 

Y/N looked up at Harry who just shrugged. 

. . . 

The same evening, the Styles’ house was filled to the brim with people who had come over for their house party, celebrating the success of today. Elise was staying at a family’s house since the party would most definitely be going on well into the night. 

Y/N observed Harry from across the room as he engaged in conversation with his pilot friends as she sipped on a cocktail Patsy had given her. She had no idea what was in it but she drank it anyway, knowing it was probably better not to ask. Every so often, their eyes would meet, and a smile would pass between them as they communicated in a language only they knew. 

She noticed his lips were still tinged red from the lipstick she had kissed him with as they got ready for the house party. Y/N had offered to wipe it away for him but he liked the idea of people knowing he had been kissing you just by looking at the colour of his lips and yours.

Y/N’s heart felt so at peace as she glanced around the room and spotted each member of her found family. Her life had been so grey and mundane until she came to Offutt where everything changed and love had given her a whole new palette of colours. 

It had been hard and full of ups and downs but it was worth it, every second of time was worth it. 

She felt a presence come up beside her and turned expecting to see Molly or Patsy but was surprised to see Nancy standing there, leaning against the wall next to her. “It’s funny, I’ve been here longer than you and I don’t think I’ve seen anyone look at somebody the way Harry looks at you.” 

Y/N’s eyebrows furrowed, “Thank you? I’m not-”

“Listen,” Nancy turned to face her, “I’m sorry.”

Y/N’s eyes widened, “W-what?”

“Please don’t make me say it again,” Nancy turned away again, “I was a bitch and I liked Harry but not for the same reasons you do. I should have stood up for you and him the night of the bonfire when that asshole came and spoke to you but once again I was a bitch and quite honestly I probably still am a bitch but I’ve met someone who I really like and I’m trying to be better.” 

Y/N’s eyes softened, “Nancy-”

“I totally get it if you hate me and I don’t expect to be friends with you but George is Harry’s brother so we’re probably going to be seeing more of each other and-”

“Nancy,” Y/N interrupted her rambling, “It’s okay,” 

Nancy’s shoulders dropped, “Really? You don’t hate me?”

“I’ve never hated you, I just haven’t particularly liked you but I think that could change if we truly got to know each other.” Y/N shrugged. 

Nancy's eyes widened with surprise, hope flickering in them. "You mean that?" she asked, her voice tentative.

Y/N nodded, offering a small smile. “If you're George’s sister then one day we might be sister-in-laws and that would make things awfully strange if we didn’t get on, don’t you think?” 

“Yeah,” Nancy huffed, “Those boys sure do need a break from family drama. I mean there’s some serious daddy issues in that family.”

Y/N laughed, it was the first thing they both had ever agreed on, “You can say that again.”

Nancy's face lit up with relief and gratitude. "Thank you," she breathed, her voice trembling with emotion, “I-I’ve never been good at having friends and I truly am sorry for being so horrible. If it helps, I guess you managed to prove me wrong, I think I even proved myself wrong with the way things are now.” 

Y/N reached out and squeezed Nancy's hand reassuringly, “It’s all okay.” 

Nancy and Y/N spoke for a little longer. Giggling as they compared their boyfriend’s habits with one another until George came over and whisked Nancy away. 

A hand snaked around Y/N’s waist, her gaze falling on those ring-clad fingers. She turned to look up at those beautiful, green eyes, “Hi Harry,” 

“Hi Birdy,” He whispered, his eyes darting from her eyes to her lips and then back up again. “Y making friends?”

“I’m trying,” She grinned. 

“Good to know,” He smirked and then held out his hand, sliding his fingers to thread with hers, “Y wanna dance with me?” 

“M not very good you know,” She had told him plenty of times before.

“S just swaying,” He repeated the words he said to her the first time they danced together. 

Y/N laughed softly as Harry pulled her closer, their bodies swaying gently to the smooth jazz music filling the room. She rested her head against his chest, feeling the steady rhythm of his heartbeat. With a contented sigh, Y/N relaxed into his embrace, letting the music wash over them. In that moment, as they moved together, there was nowhere else she'd rather be than in the arms of the pilot she pictured spending the rest of her life with. 

"What are you thinking in there?" Harry tapped the side of her head with the pad of his finger.

Y/N hummed, "I'm just happy,"

"Yeah? You are?"

"Yeah," Y/N sighed, resting her head against his heart, “I love you, Harry, so much,” Y/N murmured. 

“I love you too Birdy,” Harry leaned down to brush his lips with hers, “Bigger than the whole sky.”

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Please, Be in the Chair, Dad

Tell Them Universe

pairings: jake 'hangman' seresin x wife!reader

characters: jake seresin, y/n seresin, grayson seresin, kennedy seresin

warnings: third person pov, parents fighting, arguing, mentions of canon dangers of being a pilot, anxiety, please let me know if missed anything

word count: ~1.5k

a/n: this is based on a request! thank you @tia--2323 'Tell Them' Universe

summary: the first time grayson stood up for his mom

Grayson sat on the couch, trying his best to flip through the channels and find something to watch. He had been tasked with keeping Kennedy occupied while his parents talked in the other room.

He wasn’t quite sure what his mom and dad were talking about, but apparently it was very much an adult conversation – given that they told him to take his sister to the living room and turn on the TV. The volume was turned up loud enough that it muffled the sounds of the conversation, but didn’t totally drown it out.

While he had been raised to respect privacy and not eavesdrop on conversations, Grayson couldn’t help it this time. When Y/N told him to take Kennedy to the living room, her voice sounded tired and strained. It roused a fear in his stomach, an unsettling churning somewhere in him that told him he needed to pay attention to this one.

Eavesdropping one time wouldn’t be the end of the world.

“Jake, all that I’m asking is that you stay home! I know you’ve been working late, I know that. But one night, that’s all I’m asking.” His mom’s voice was desperate – pleading even.

And she was right, Jake had been working late. He was coming home well after dinner completely exhausted. Y/N was staying up after bathtime, putting Kennedy to bed and sending Grayson to his room to wind down before bed.

“Y/N, it’ll just be one drink. I should be back in time for bedtime,” Jake said, his tone bordering on dismissive. It made Grayson ear twitch, his fingers making quick work to turn the volume down.

“The kids miss you, Jake – I miss you.” There were tears in his mother’s voice as she spoke, a punch to his gut. He hates that sound, the sound of his mom hurting.

Grayson’s stomach dropped in anticipation, straining his ear to hear what his dad had to say. Jake had always been good with conversations, at least that Grayson is aware of. So surely his dad wouldn’t say anything to make his mom feel worse.

Right?

“You miss me?”

The tone in his father's voice made Grayson sit up straight. He didn’t like that.

“Yes! Of course I miss you! You’re my husband for God’s sake. I’m not trying to control you or saying I don’t trust you. I just want you at home.”

“Then I need you to show me. Because to be honest, home doesn’t feel much like home lately.”

“I do show you, Jake. Every night, I’m waiting for you to get home so you can have dinner. I sit with you even though I am exhausted because I love you and I want to hear about your day. If I didn’t miss you, I wouldn’t do that,” Y/N drew in a shaky inhale, tears closing her throat as she tried not to sob out the last sentence. “And you’re right, home doesn’t feel like home – because you’re not here.”

If his mama’s broken, tearfilled voice didn’t push him off the couch, what Jake tried to pull next certainly would have.

“Oh, so it’s my fault now? You know damn well-”

“Don’t talk to my mom like that.”

Both of his parents looked at him, watching his moves carefully as he put his 12 year-old frame in front of his mother’s. 

“Gray-”

“No, Mama, he doesn’t get to talk to you like that,” Grayson said, feeling bad for interrupting her but knowing that he couldn’t let his dad get away with the tone he used.

Grayson fixated his eyes on Jake’s, the similar shades of green meeting each other in a battle.

“You may be the adult here, Dad,” he almost spit the name out, almost mocking the authority it held. “But I’m the son that isn’t letting anyone disrespect his mom, especially not her husband. Not the man that’s supposed to love her.”

Despite the anger in his throat, a twinge of anxiety roused in his chest. He wasn’t worried about anything getting physical, even now he knew his dad would never raise a hand to him. But he didn’t want a verbal argument to ensue, scaring his mom and his baby sister. 

But, all Jake did was cross his arms, nodding for Grayson to continue.

It didn’t quell the anxiety, but it helped Grayson to stand up straighter and hold his ground a little firmer.

“I’m here every night. I’ve sat at that table every night for the last eight months and stared at an empty chair. I watched Mom check her phone habitually, waiting for a text or a call from you. Do you know how often she checked the door? Praying a chaplain wasn’t about to ring the bell? How many times I got to the mailbox first so she didn’t have to be the first one to see the letter telling her you weren’t coming home?”

Tears stung Grayson’s eyes and he clicked his jaw as he shook his head. “No one is saying you not being home is your fault. We understand that this is your job. But please, be in the chair, Dad. One night, please.” 

Grayson’s vision was slightly blurry, tears clouding his vision as he looked his dad over. He wasn’t sure what to expect from him now. 

Jake’s jaw flexed before he cleared his throat. He looked at the floor, hiding his face as his eyes began watering as well. He sniffled, his arms uncrossing so he could put his hands on his hips.

“Okay…”

A weight lifted off of Grayson’s chest and he let the tears fall. He nodded, not bothering to hide his feelings as his voice cracked. “Thank you…” 

And, while he was glad he was able to get through to Jake, the issue wasn’t resolved yet.

“Please apologize.”

Jake nodded and patted Grayson on the shoulder, letting him know it was okay to stand down. Grayson took the hint and stepped to the side, his arms now crossing over his chest as he watched his parents interact. He wasn’t going to leave until he knew his mom was okay.

Y/N looked up at Jake, a waiting but patient look on her face. Her arms stayed wrapped around her stomach, clearly still upset.

“Sweetheart, I’m sorry. I know that doesn’t fix it and I can’t make excuses. Grayson’s right. I shouldn’t talk to you like that. Not when you do so much for me, for this family. I was out of line, accusing you like that. I’m sorry, I’ll work on it. I love you.” 

Y/N nodded, sniffling as they pulled each other into a hug. “Thank you, Honey. I love you, too.” Jake kissed her head, holding his lips there with his fingers in her hair. “Why don’t you go pick out a movie? I want to talk to Grayson for a minute, we’ll be in there in a moment.” She nodded again and pecked his chest before turning to her son.

“I love you, Gray,” she said softly before hugging him and kissing his head. He wrapped his arms around her, smiling against her shoulder. “I love you too, Mama.” 

She walked away, shaking out the tension in her hands before wiping her tears and walking to the living room. “Oh, hi baby girl…” Her cheery, motherly tone eased Grayson’s anxieties significantly as he looked at his dad.

Grayson stood up straight, his chest puffing out a little in pride. He didn’t know what Jake was about to say to him, but he would walk away knowing he did the right thing.

Jake leaned against the counter, arms crossed again as he looked at his boots. “That must have been a lot, hearing me talk to your mom like that…” Grayson nodded, his arms crossing as well, “Yes sir. You shouldn’t talk to someone you love that way. Even in arguments.” 

His dad nodded, looking up at him. “You’re right, they shouldn’t. Thank you for reminding me of that.” Jake rubbed his jaw, sniffling a little. “I know you know that life won’t always work out that way, and me and your mom won’t always say the kindest things to each other – it doesn’t mean we love each other any less. I’ll spare you that talk, for now.” 

“I know,” Grayson said softly, an airy sigh behind his words. “But I don’t like it when she cries. And you shouldn’t be the one making her cry, Dad.” 

“You’re right. And I’ll work on it. I’m tired and I’m stressed, but that’s no excuse. I shouldn’t have used that tone, I was only making us both more stressed.”

Jake stood up straight, grunting a little as he clapped a hand down on Grayson’s shoulder, squeezing it gently. “I’m proud of you, son. For standing up to me like that, standing up for your mother like that.”

Grayson felt the emotions surge in his chest, his arms falling to his side as he swallowed the lump. “I learned from the best.” 

Jake gave him a watery smile before pulling him into a hug. “I love you, kid.” 

He hugged him back, tightly. “I love you too, Dad.”

it's been awhile since i posted something related to this series! it was really fun jumping back into it! i hope you all enjoyed and i'm so sorry if i missed any tags!

thank you again @tia--2323 for the request! this was so fun to write!

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[restinslices]

I really liked your post for LKBS parents. Can I request more HC about them as parents?My main idea was what they would be like with a girl or boy who tends to behave quite badly, but you can do it however you want if you decide to answer this :3Thanks in advance. Your blog is very entertaining :D

Here you go bookie. Also I broke a thumb nail and my typing is so off now😔

May the Elder Gods give him strength-

Bi-Han has such low patience and a kid that acts bad would drive him insane 

Especially if this child is the first born and therefore has to be the next Grandmaster? Oh boy 

Imma be real with y'all, I can see him whooping his kids-

Y'all know how people debate on whether or not whooping your kids is okay? I think he's on the pro whooping side. Not ABUSE tho. There's a line there 

“give me my belt” type shit. Very much a black mother-

If his kid wanna act up, then he's making life terrible 

He's pulling all the stops. They ass ain't going NOWHERE. 

Oh they wanna sneak out? Aight. He's boarding up the window. He's boarding up the front door. He might even take their own door off 

Play stupid games, win stupid prizes 

He's already a strict dad, so acting out will really get him heated 

Kids are assholes but I think there's a difference between regular kid shit and making life way more difficult than it has to be 

The type of parent to make his child sit next to him for the whole day. He's not playing with them 

He's escorting them to school and escorting them back home 

They legit have no freedom until they're over this phase 

And cursing at him? Absolutely not. 

This man does not argue with children at all. The going back and forth shit ain't happening. If you wanna act like a toddler that needs to be watched, then he'll treat you as such 

“I don't wanna be out here anymore” the teenager next to him sulked with their arms crossed and their mouth in a deep frown. Wrinkles spread from their frown and their pulled down eyebrows. How they hadn't gotten a headache yet, he was unsure of. 

Bi-Han ignored them, so they repeated themselves louder. “I don't wanna be out here anymore! Did you hear me?!”. 

Bi-Han didn't spare a glance at them. He turned a page in his book and said in a dangerously calm voice, “control your emotions before I let mine loose. What you want is irrelevant now. If you don't want to sit, then stand”. The teenager huffed and slouched more in the seat. 

“Is there something you'd like to say?” he said in response to them mumbling something under their breath. They knew better than to repeat themselves, and stayed silent. 

Not dealing with that shit at all 

Do I think he has more patience than Bi-Han? Yes 

Does that mean he'll deal with disrespect? Absolutely not 

It's not even the rebellious acts that bother him. He knows teens will be teens. It's the disrespecting him that pisses him off 

He's also not going back and forth with nobody 

Arguing isn't happening. At some point he's just finna start handing out groundings 

Since they have so much energy when they're doing all that extra shit, he has them train more 

Keeps them incredibly busy so they're too tired to do anything stupid 

Not entirely foolproof but it works 99% of the time

Has no problem taking away their door if they're always up to bullshit 

Lowkey I can see any of them pulling up to the school if his kid is acting up there too 

Will forbid them from seeing any of their bad acting friends 

He cannot wait until this phase is over. He is EXHAUSTED 

The teenager collided with the hard ground under them and winced. Their breath was knocked out their lungs and they glared at the older man that knocked their feet from under them. 

“Again” Kuai Liang said sternly and stepped back. The teenager stayed on the ground and crossed their arms over their chest in defiance. 

“So I can get knocked down again? No thanks! And you can't make me!”. Kuai Liang rolled his eyes. He put his hands on his hips and looked down at the teenager, that acted more like a toddler with each passing day. 

“You're right. I can't. Well if you won't do this, then I won't give you any of your privileges back-”

“Wait-!”

“No no” the older man walked towards their house with the teenager quickly jumping to their feet to catch up with him. “You can tell me all about what I can't make you do over dinner”

Exhausted 

He just wants to live life without hearing bullshit in his ears 

Tries to figure out what the problem is but when he finds out they're just being a brat to be a brat, he's at a loss for words 

He assumes that maybe he said or did something and the acting out was a result of that 

He didn't know they're just in an asshole phase 

He has hope that this phase will end soon, so he doesn't react immediately 

Once the week is up he's like “they're still going? Damn. Now I gotta be strict”

In one of the dialogues he said his mom was no nonsense and tough as nails so I can see him trying to embody her spirit and do what she would do 

It probably surprised his kid that he starts actually being strict with them and raising his voice

He's the most chill parent out the 3 so the strictness is a switch up they weren't expecting 

Groundings getting handed out like coupons 

They're losing any privileges they have 

He doesn't enjoy making life miserable for them but he can't NOT parent them 

Hoping the phase ends soon 

“What?!” The teen exclaimed. “You can't ground me!”. 

“Why not?”. The teen had no answer. They just stammered nonsensical sentences that Tomas didn't care to hear. He kept trying to be patient with them, but everyone has a limit, and he had reached his. 

“I keep trying to hear you out but you don't wanna talk-”

“We can talk now!”

“You're right! We can talk after you hand over all your electronics and anything else you've been hiding in your room! Now!”. 

By the end of the day Tomas cleared their room of anything that resembled fun. Needless to say, his kid was far from pleased. It was fine though. They'd look back on this time soon enough and be embarrassed by their actions. 

Or so he hoped. 

[autistic-ben-tennyson]

Anakin: Why I relate to him

I’m going to change gears a bit from my usual anime/Ben 10 posts to talk about Anakin. I had a period where I pretended to hate him and was super pro Jedi to try and fit in with that fandom. I have changed a lot of my opinions since then. While I’m still not a huge fan of him, my opinion has softened greatly. A lot of Jedi stans act like all people who sympathize with him are conservatives who think you need a 50s nuclear family to be happy and hate Buddhism or aroace people. So I am going to share why I relate to this man’s struggles as a progressive, transgender neurodivergent Asian American.

A lot of people view Anakin in AOTC as just whiny and ungrateful. While the Tusken massacre was wrong, I can emphasize with his anger towards Obi Wan. I have felt belittled, over patronized and gaslit by my father, as well as yelled at. While Anakin was being disrespectful in that scene from AOTC where he reunites with Padme, the way Obi Wan handled it was uncalled for. He should have pulled Anakin aside to let him know there’s a time and place for everything, not humiliate him in front of their hosts.

I’ve made small mistakes due to my autism and dad would make a big deal out of it and tell me “we need to work on your awareness” in front of everyone there. I can also relate to that “he’s jealous! He’s holding me back” scene as someone who wants more out of life and feel like my dad is getting in my way. That scene also reminds me of how a lot of parents treat their kids for having an “attitude” or “talking back” when they’re just trying to explain themselves, are having a bad day or have a different opinion. I’ve also been forced to apologize for lashing out at people who’ve bullied me like in that comic.

When Jedi apologists talk about how Anakin was just greedy for not wanting to share his feelings with Obi Wan or the council, I get the feeling that they’ve had a fairly privileged upbringing. I’ve had trouble opening up to my dad because of how dismissive or terrifying he could be in the past. As a trans person, I’ve had to prepare for the worst possible outcomes and while my coming out went better than I expected, he just invalidated all my fears and acted like I was wrong for not telling him when he did little to provide a safe space, never apologizing for insensitive things he said. Similarly, fans expect Anakin to tell Obi Wan about his marriage despite all the dismissive behavior from him as well as faking his death and doing little to help Ahsoka. People who’ve been gaslit or dismissed for their feelings often resort to keeping secrets as a safety measure.

A child shouldn’t be expected to tell adults anything until they prove they can be trusted. Whenever I talk about my issues with my childhood, people dismiss it as legitimate discipline or tough love, which is another reason why I feel uncomfortable when Jedi apologists act like Kenobi was a good parent. People only see abuse if it’s physical or sexual, but never care or notice if it’s more subtle or emotional. Anakin recognized that Kenobi’s training methods wouldn’t be good for Ahsoka which is why he acts more like Shmi when teaching Ahsoka. My dad is also very sarcastic and is aware of my autism, even praising it at times, but expects me to just understand his “jokes” or insensitive comments.

People say you can’t critique the Jedi because they’re based off eastern philosophy but are they really that different from conservative evangelicals? Obi Wan straight up tells Anakin he can have romantic feelings but can’t act on them. Fans claim Anakin chose to get married and it was on him for not just leaving. I remember being the “weird” kid in a community that was very conservative (family, faith and football) who felt like I couldn’t talk about my interests without being shamed, especially after coming out. I can also emphasize with wanting to leave but feeling an obligation to stay because the people who’ve hurt me do love me and it being complicated.

I think a lot of people who dismiss Obi Wan’s insensitive remarks or child rearing methods are looking at it from an adult’s perspective, since they aren’t bothered by it as much. Adults can yell at, gaslight, spank or humiliate their kids, then act like nothing happened, but when you’re a child, it sticks with you, and is irritating when they try to be “buddy-buddy” with you later. I am also someone who struggles a lot with sarcasm and struggle with letting go of negative emotions because it keeps happening.

This is that post I talked about where I asked a popular Jedi stan their views on adoption. I’m not anti adoption, mind you. I felt Matilda, Suzume and Kung Fu Panda tackled it well with sensitivity. I responded with decency and acted like I agreed with them. But something about their response gave me the ick. I don’t know why but I do have a desire to find my birth mother, eventually. Is it really wrong to worry about your mother if she could be suffering, and you can’t do anything to help? It kind of confirms that a lot of Jedi apologists come from privileged upbringings. I also felt like I had to ask permission to enjoy media that went against the Jedi fandom’s beliefs.

I think that wraps up why I relate to this character even if I don’t agree with his actions. People who say he was just lazy or selfish don’t seem like they understand much about human psychology and abuse and how even “small” things can build up and make a child distrust the adults in their life. I worry a bit about when they become parents and what how their kids will end up. A lot of kids are shamed for not wanting to share their emotions when they have good reasons to keep secrets. How would Jedi stans respond to that? They only care about abuse if it’s physical which is why they make a big deal out of that training scene from TOTJ or act like Anakin abused Rex when throwing him off that wall on Geonosis.

[glitchy-creations]

I’m sorry I need to rant for a minute; why do people think it’s okay to touch artwork in a gallery, especially after being told not to??

I work at a gallery on my college campus and we just had our second reception for our current show (the artists have unfortunately passed and today was easier for the family to stop by but Thursdays are best for students) and the way not only kids but grown adults have no respect for the artist or the work is astonishing. I had these kids (one way maybe 10 the other was early teens) touching and picking up some of the 3D pieces so I kindly told them that we would appreciate it if they didn’t touch the artwork. What did they do? They not only went to touch the work again (their parents stopped them) but they went over and began touching other works! Like one of them was legit knocking on the frames! The dad had to actually pull his wife away from one the works because SHE was going to touch one.

Not to mention another woman started touching one of the pieces and I’m already stressed because not only are the works thousands of dollars but some of them can be easily taken or broken.

Like I don’t understand how hard it is for people to understand that they can’t touch artwork being displayed unless it says otherwise. Maybe I’m biased because I’m an art major and I love going to galleries but you’d think it was common sense??? Apparently not I guess??? And like, I can understand if the kids aren’t aware of gallery etiquette, they’re curious and typically their immediate reaction is to touch stuff but that’s why the parents are there to tell them not to. But I can’t excuse adults touching things they aren’t supposed to; like you should have the common sense and respect to know not to touch artwork that isn’t your own. It’s ridiculous to me that people feel like they can do this and think it’s okay.

Not to mention that half the people who came in didn’t even want to come for the art they came for the reception food! Like the family that came in and was touching shit stopped in like three times just to take our food, but we’re so busy making sure nothings being stolen or anything that we can’t keep an eye on every individual person. And this was the end of the night, so we’re all tired and should have closed like an hour before this happened so we’re also trying to finish clean up so we can leave.

Idk, I just don’t get how people can be so disrespectful and do it right in front of not only the staff but the family of the artist as well. It’s disrespectful to us, disrespectful to the family who was kind enough to let us share the art, and it’s majorly disrespectful to the artist especially because he’s passed away.

[crazyunsexycool]

we've seen how Ransom would react if the kids disrespected Thimble, but how would all your other guys react to the kids disrespecting their readers?

Uuhhh great question. Let’s start with the series that have kids.

My little love: this situation is very difficult because the Henry and Charlotte were imprisoned and abused for the first part of their lives. If they’re lashing out or being disrespectful it most likely means something is wrong. Bucky would sit down with them and talk to figure out what’s wrong. There would be no yelling or cursing. When he found out what the issue is he’d handle it and then he would ask the kids to apologize to their mama. Depending on what they did against reader they might get toys or something taken away but honestly reader would probably feel so bad about it so the punishment wouldn’t last long. However their punishment would never be something like they have to stay alone in their room because that would do more harm than good and their rooms are a safe space.

In these situations Bucky and reader understand that they’ve been through incredible trauma so their goal is to stop the behavior without having the kids be scared of them which is tricky.

Heart’s Munition: now Steve absolutely adores Eli and he wants the best for the kid. That doesn’t mean he won’t step in if Eli ever stepped out of line with his mother. Especially if it happened in a common area like the living room or in front of other people. If Eli embarrasses reader Steve will embarrass Eli, it’s that simple. He’s a mob boss he doesn’t give a shit about raising his voice to a kid especially if they’re being rude and disrespectful. After Eli is sent to his room with his gaming privileges taken away reader will try to go and talk to him but Steve will stop her and go himself.

After giving him some time to think about what he’s done Steve sits down with a teary eyed Eli and they talk about what happened and why Steve can’t allow disrespect to reader or women in general. Eli apologizes to reader but he still has some of his privileges taken away because that’s the consequence of his actions.

Unbreakable: I haven’t decided if I’m giving them a kid but if they had one this is the most well behaved child to have ever existed. I mean a kid is a kid and they might not listen from time to time but to be outright disrespectful would be very out of character for them. So Steve would calmly sit down and talk to his child. He knows reader doesn’t like yelling or even just raised voices so he’s calm about it. He finds out what’s wrong (if there is something wrong) and deals with it. Then depending on how old the kid is they would either be sent to time out or to their rooms without their cell/tablet/tv or whatever. After they’ve had time to think about it they would come out of timeout/room and apologize to reader.

Is it a crime?: their kids will be troublemakers but look at the parents can you blame the kids l? 😈😈😂😂 They however know not to be rude or disrespectful to adults (unless the adults are rude first) so if they are disrespectful to reader Bucky is going to be furious. There would be no time for talking or explaining anything. They get their things taken away. (Now this is assuming the kids are older like teens) their money, phone, tv,laptops…. All that stuff. After a while Bucky gets them together and is pissed as hell but tries to have a calm discussion. He won’t let them explain why they reacted the way they did because there is never an excuse to behave that way towards their mother and he expects them to apologize when they’re ready. He does explain that the rules he and their mother have placed is for their protection though that she only has their well being in mind.

Til the end of the line and back: if you think dealing with one upset dad is bad, imagine 2. Because that is what this kid is getting if they disrespect reader. They would totally play the whole mad dad and disappointed dad because their mom does so much to make sure the kid gets everything they want. Why would they be so disrespectful? I feel like having the disappointment from both dads would do the trick. This kid is bursting into tears just by the look on Steve’s face.

☀️🌙✨ boys: if you thought 2dads was bad 3 is worse. 😂 no this situation is so much different I think. Because they all work together to raise their kids but then you have the added dynamic of alpha/beta/omega. Depending on the designation is how they handle it. Alpha and beta are handled a little bit more stricter. An omega pup though? Could probably get away with anything. The alphas would come to their senses though and realize what their little omega is doing l. This would be come a very important lesson/discussion on the importance of respecting others not just because they’re people but because of their designation. Their alpha and possibly beta pups would be taught that they can’t abuse their power just because of their designation and their little omega would be taught that while yes they need to standup for themselves they don’t always have to be disrespectful to do it.

[lights-and-cameras]

There Were Hellos . . .

SHIZUOKA, JAPAN — SPRING of 2004 A family of 4. The Masaharu parents and their children—Damian Masaharu (aged 9) and Finnegan Masaharu (aged 7). Living in Shizuoka with a modest home. Everything was perfect. Was.

"Niisan is unfair!" A young lad pointed his finger at a kid older than him. "It's not unfair if it's mine," the elder mockingly replied. What led the lad to call his older brother unfair? He took the better-grade Gundam kit for him to assemble. Their father had come home from work with gifts prepared for his two children. He assumed a few Gunpla kits would be enough to keep them occupied after attending classes. It is not as if they did not have other toys at home, but sometimes, the children would get bored playing the same things over and over. One cannot blame their curiosity for more, especially with how often advertisements of toys may appear on television. Bless the children's love for trying new things. At first, the children happily accepted their father's gifts. After all, who would complain about free Gunpla kits? Every time their father comes home with new toys for them to play with, to them, it feels like Christmas. With a household income that is more than enough to provide for themselves, they should express gratitude for their father. His consideration of their materialistic views as children is worthy of a 'thank you' card and doing good deeds to pass such favor to those who are worthy. "Dinner is ready!" Their mother announced as they were busy arguing about who deserves the better Gunpla kits. "Finn, you can take the two SD kits! Let me have the HG one," Damian reasoned as the child in front of him continued to have his arms in front of his chest. "Niisan, but this HG is better than what I assembled!" Finn replied, pouting and attempting to sway his older brother with his eyes. While they were about to start a worse argument, their father hurried them to the dining table. "Now, now, children. Let's eat dinner before worrying about who deserves a better model." The father of the Masaharu family let out a chuckle as their mother watched close by with a welcoming smile spread across her lips. "Dear, it is healthy for them to have minor arguments from time to time. Especially about those things they call Gunpla!" She laughed, patting the top of Damian's head before ruffling his hair. This action alone earned a whine from the young lad who had a cold glare, eyes seemingly boring holes into Finn's. Finn sat down beside his father, sticking his tongue out in front of Damian. As the older brother had noticed, he scrunched his nose before facing their mother. "Mama, he's disrespecting me," Finn pressed his lips into a thin smile and looked away. Still, his actions were not left unnoticed by the woman. Their mother shook her head, making the younger child lower his head with a hushed 'sorry' falling from his lips. He could hear Damian chuckle as he won the argument before he joined in with a laugh. He's grateful enough to accept the kits left to him. For dinner, as he still had the palate of a child, he was served with Chicken Katsu. As he would always tell his mother, it's his favorite dish ever. Included in his meal were the usual side dishes that he told his parents he can tolerate. Having this specific viand for any time of the day can easily make the young lad happy. Even made better if his mama prepared the meal! To everyone's satisfaction, the dinner went well. In between the consumption of their meals, they had small conversations to catch up on what happened during their day. According to their father, he spent a lot of time dealing with angry clients. To their mother, she had an enjoyable time browsing for new items to improve their home. For the older child, he went scouting for frogs near the ponds. As for little Finnegan, he enjoyed a lot of dango skewers that he ended up spending a lot of his 'savings' on. After eating supper and doing chores, everyone was all smiles as they watched whatever was on the television until the children have fallen asleep. Oh to have this setting every day, but fate had different plans for the family.

[servin-up-surveys]

survey #123

What do you like about the house you live in? I mean, the house itself is nice. But I absolutely despise its location, and the fact our landlord is a very long-time family friend (she was actually mine and my older sister's science teacher in high school, and our families really connected when she met me and I shut the disrespectful-ass class the fuck up for not listening to her)... and it just complicates things. Primarily because Tobey is 500% the person who will NEVER let you forget the great kindnesses she does for you; she wants endless recognition for doing good things. She's can also be REMARKABLY rude, just shoving her nose into business that is never hers, fully intent on giving her uneducated opinion (this woman, who has zero kids, literally asked my mom's former co-worker "shouldn't [your LITERAL INFANT son] not be nursing anymore?", and oh my god Ariel almost fucking decked her). Tobey is just A LOT. My whole family - Mom especially - can barely stand her anymore, but it's not like we can do much when she literally owns the house she doesn't charge full rent for, but only because otherwise we'd still be homeless.

Have you ever played paintball? Did you get hit? No, and it absolutely does not look fun.

How do you feel today? Tell me about it. I'm okay now, but it's been a tired day. I was physically unable to sleep 'til past 3 AM this morning because I was experiencing a fully active anxiety attack for over an hour, but it'd been building up for more. I had to miss PT today because it was scheduled early and I texted my mom at like, 2 AM telling her to not wake me up because I needed sleep so fucking badly.

Do you ever use a laptop in bed? Not anymore, because I quite literally lived in bed with laptops for many years approaching my trauma, and it was this behavior that caused my leg muscles to eventually atrophy. Nowadays, the mere idea of chilling in bed for just a little while with it makes me freak out, I just can't let myself.

Are you wearing socks right now? What color are they? No; I actually really, really dislike socks. I will only ever wear them if I put on normal shoes, but I almost solely wear flipflops. It's a sensory thing, I just REALLY hate the feeling of them.

Are your parents still together? If not, do you know why? No. Financial shit, supposedly Dad cheating on Mom with his now-wife and Dad also being suspicious that SHE was cheating (I'm fully aware she didn't), and Mom has said that he was also making certain sexual demands that led to more fighting. Eventually one day while only Dad and I were home (Mom and Nicole were out of town at a dance competition), he packed a suitcase and just left. I still distinctly remember him peeking into my room and asking if I'd be fine alone, and I said yes because I thought he was just going out to do something and be back. For some dumb fucking reason I didn't immediately figure it out when I saw the suitcase.

Have you ever been evicted? Why? Yes, because Mom couldn't keep up with rent.

Would you say you’re an organized person? For the most part, I think. I've absolutely noticed I've been becoming more organized lately, as well as more attentive to tidying stuff up. Which I'm fucking ecstatic about, because I struggle with that stuff.

Have you ever worked as a manager or supervisor? Ha, no.

Do you eat at a table or on the couch? Usually the couch, and depending on what we're having we might take out small foldable tables to sit in front of us. We usually only eat at the table for more formal occasions like Christmas, or if we have certain company.

What was the last thing you voted for? Probably a Tumblr poll, haha.

Do you remember much from high school? My memories of high school are, for the most part, almost scarily vivid. I remember the smallest details. My memories of the years with Jason are specifically so aggressively trained into my brain, and we started dating when I was a sophomore. And guess what, I DON'T remember my freshman year all that well.

What’s the longest you’ve ever stayed awake? Why did you do it? Around three days, because I was manic.

Have you ever been wrongfully accused of something? Yeah, I think most people have at some point. Nothing like, criminal, but other things.

What are the five apps on your phone that you use most often? Instagram, Facebook, Tumblr, Pinterest, and Discord.

Would you change your name if you got married? I do plan on taking Girt's surname if we get married, even though I hate his more than I do mine, haha. I just want to. I feel like I would with any other partner too, of any gender.

Were you in any clubs in high school? Yes: Honors and Art Honors. Uh, maybe one more? I can't remember.

Do you share a bathroom with anyone? Yeah. Mom will usually use the one in her room, but sometimes she'll just use the hall one. The hall one is what everyone else uses that comes here, too.

Have you ever had a panic attack? Ohhhh yes. They are honestly one of THE scariest things you can experience. I'm more prone to anxiety attacks, though.

What’s your favourite kind of frosting? It's hard to go wrong with chocolate.

Have you ever taken a painting class? Yes, during my last college attempt. My instructor told me I was really good at it (she said I was one of the class' best, but I think she mighta just been saying that when she learned I might be dropping out), but I definitely begged to differ. I wasn't bad at it, but more than anything I just found painting extremely stressful with how damaging mistakes can be. Yeah, you can wait for something to dry and paint over it, but that doesn't always work and sometimes it's also just very noticeable that you covered something. I felt too much pressure to get everything right. I also HATED that we couldn't like, sketch with a pencil or something first.

Is there a store or restaurant where you’re considered a regular? No.

How old were you when you started wearing a bra, if ever? Oh I don't remember.

What was the last video game you played? Some of the Spyro: Ripto's Rage! remake, quite a while ago. Girt and I have been going back and forth between that and Silent Hill 2, but we haven't played for a lil while. OH, I played World of Warcraft for maybe not even 15 minutes earlier, but that's a computer game. Still a game though, so w/e.

Are there any recipes you really want to try? BROSEPH my sister Misty recently shared a picture + recipe of an alcoholic beverage named after the Aurora Borealis because of the colors and holy FUCKING shit I want to try it. Girt's sister also shares recipes on FB a lot and basically every single one I see I want to try, girl let me move in 😭

Has anyone asked how you feel today? No. Girt pretty much always does at some point, but today's a work day for him so he's busy. He'll be over tonight though.

What’s your favourite cookie? Uh, probably just a soft chocolate chip one.

Do you have a doorbell at your house? Yes.

Have you ever visited someone in a psychiatric home or ward? No, I was always the one being visited. My older sister was in one following an abusive relationship, but I know I never visited. I don't know why... The hospital was far away though, so maybe that. Or I was just scared of mental hospitals because I hadn't been in one yet, but was definitely dealing with mental illness. I would absolutely believe that perhaps I was afraid of it upsetting me too much.

What was the last podcast you listened to? Do you listen to it regularly? I can't remember what it was called, but it was with Girt and basically told true murder mystery stories. The guy was a great storyteller, I was really into it.

When was the last time you threw up? Why were you sick? It's been years since I actually did, back when I was on a medicine my body really didn't agree with, but not even a week ago I think, I woke up feeling sick as hell and when I actually got up, ended up sitting on the bathroom floor in front of the toilet, actively fighting vomiting. Like it was THERE, I just didn't let myself; if I'd accepted "I need to puke" and actually looked at the toilet, I absolutely would've hurled. This happened while I was on my period, and it was THE most aggressively symptomatic period I've had in my *ENTIRE* life, so I blame it entirely on that.

What was the last thing you wrote in a word document? This survey, haha. Because I combine so many, they take a while and I use it to save progress.

Do you know anybody who is gay and married? I'm pretty sure I do? I know he's gay, but I can't remember if he's married... but I think so.

What did you last take painkillers for? A monstrous headache that resulted from extreme stress and anxiety, and then crying too.

Are there any hobbies you want to get back into? ugh I need to start DRAWING again

Have you ever shared a home with a friend? Not legally, but basically, with both Jason (and our two friends that were also a couple) as well as Colleen, each for a few months. I... think, in the apartment w/ Jason case. I really can't remember clearly how long I was there.

Have you ever been on a date with someone you met online? How was it? Well, technically. Sara was an online friend first for a very long time, then we dated long-distance, but we did go on a breakfast date once while I was there.

Do you call it a couch, sofa, lounge or something else entirely? Couch.

When was the last time you used a pair of headphones and what for? Right now; I'm listening to the German version of "Monsoon" by Tokio Hotel. I love the original, but this one is even more beautiful.

What sort of games do you like to play? My absolute favorite is horror games, especially those that are psychological horror, and NEVER shit that is just solely a jumpscare fest. Put some SUBSTANCE into your horror games, man, versus just triggering a natural body reaction to surprise. I also adore games set in a completely fantasy universe; the bigger and more complete the world, + the more unique it is, the better (I think Elden Ring is the best example of this that I've EVER encountered, FromSoft knows how to fuckin do it). I love nostalgia games too, specifically Spyro (honestly, almost ANY game with a big dragon focus are automatic wins for me, haha), and I've invested an insane amount of time (literally over a full year of collective playtime, seeing it makes me want to unalive lmfao) into World of Warcraft, which is an MMORPG. It's the only MMO I've played though BECAUSE of how severely I was once addicted to it; I'm afraid to try any other ones because I never want to relive how dependent I once was on a game. I only got better when I had no choice but to stop for over a year, maybe even near two; even when I first started playing it again, I had anxiety attacks every night for a good few days because I was so scared it was going to happen again, but thank GOD it didn't. I still play it a lot, just because I have such an empty schedule and it's a strong way to kill time, but I'm able to have days where I'm like "eh I don't wanna log on" so don't, and I'm also keen to do other things if something more exciting is presented to me, especially if it involves family or friends. That once wasn't the case.

Have you ever been to a baby shower? What was the baby’s name? Yeah; my sister had one for all of her kids (which she didn't want, but was encouraged by others for various reasons): Aubree, Ryder, and Emerson. I know I also attended my former dance teacher's for her second child, Caydance (yes she literally spelled it that way because of "dance" lmfao), and MAYBE her first, Colton, but I don't remember it. Then there was Jenn's, Jason's brother's wife, for their first son I'm still fucking devastated I never got to meet and love, Dominic. I was lucky I even got to go to it, because Jason and I had already broken up very recently. That day was honestly awful because I learned he was already talking to another girl <333333 I think that's everyone's I've been to.

What mode of transport did you take to high school? Mom drove us.

Name a personality trait of yours that you like. I cherish and am very thankful that I'm deeply empathetic.

Name something about your physical attraction that you dislike. More than anything else, my weight. I don't inherently think fat people are ugly, at all, but of COURSE I think so for myself.

What gifts do you usually receive at Easter? Just some candies from Mom. I'm sure she'll get a Voltage for me too, because of how I've been avoiding soda but always miss it.

Who was the last person you sent an email to? It was just a link for my mom to look at.

Are there any posters in your bedroom? Yes, but I'm probably taking them all down (maybe I'll keep the meerkat one up) when I FINALLY redecorate my room to a more minimal, nature theme. Before that happens though, I honestly need more decor to prevent my room from being depressingly blank.

Do you know anyone who is an actor? Pretty sure no? I feel like I know at LEAST one person who's been in a small project or something, but definitely no bigger actors.

How many weddings have you been to? Bobby (brother) and his ex-wife Scarlet's, Randi (another - and my favorite - dance teacher) & Shane's, Jonathan & Jenn's, and uh... I feel like that's it? At least, as far as attending on a personal level. I did take pictures of my sister's friend Meg's wedding, as well as this random bitch named Shonda's who never paid me more than the $15 sitting fee (and I shot the whole-ass wedding process from preparation to finish while dying of dehydration in the summer hell-heat and did entirely thorough postproduction, YES I'm still fucking salty), as well as Bethany & Spencer's, a brilliant couple who's had me take a lot of pictures. Besides Ashley, they were THE most supportive people of getting my name out there as a photographer, and they actually learned about me through Ash.

Do you watch YouTube? What channels do you like? LITERALLY constantly, haha. I'm either watching something on the side or have music on. These days I've been most into watching Game Grumps, John Wolfe, WoolieVS, jacksepticeye, and Gab Smolders, but I enjoy SO many more.

What’s your alcohol of choice? Fruity, sweet stuff, like sangrias. There can't be a strong alcohol concentration, because that taste is total shit.

Have you ever used a public pay phone? No.

Do you have a Twitter account? It EXISTS, but is only ever used for like, giveaway stuff if there's one shown on a different social platform that I'm VERY into. That kinda stuff doesn't even happen once a year, probably.

What’s the longest you’ve been without showering? As someone who struggles with this, especially before I had a shower chair, I'm not comfortable sharing this.

Name one of your guilty pleasure songs. Y'all I fuckin love "Flesh" by Simon Curtis 😭😭😭 and honestly a lot of Hot songs slowed down w/ reverb help me PLEASE

Have you ever made an item of clothing? No.

What was the last topic you read about? Various social justice statistics.

Name some of your favourite sitcoms. That '70s Show is #1, but other notable ones I enjoy are The Nanny, The Golden Girls, The Munsters, The Addams Family, The Beverly Hillbillies, and I Love Lucy. Most of those I was kinda raised with by watching with my mom. <3

Who is the 7th contact in your phone and how did you meet them? [TW: RAPE] Katie. She's my mom's oldest child. I can't remember how old I was when I actually met her though; Mom had to pretty much give Katie up for adoption because she was alone and couldn't care for her (after being kicked out of her home because she was literally drugged and date-raped out of wedlock, her mom was fuckin' peachy), and it was only later in life when Katie was an adult that I met her. I don't remember it at all, though.

What shirt do you wear the most? If they're clean, my go-to tank tops are generally either of my candy skull ones; I'm almost always in tank tops because that's what I sleep in. If we're talking NORMAL shirts, definitely my "equal in our bones" Cloak one.

Has anyone ever come out to you? Yes, an old school friend. I don't remember her name anymore.

Have you ever been part of a bridal or groom’s party? My sister's, yes. Idk if this counts as being in their party, but at Jonathan & Jenn's wedding, I was seated at the main table with Jonathan's family, beside Jason. Actually this reminded me, the picture that was used for their mother's obituary was a shot from the wedding, of her smiling and dancing, and you can see me seated there in the background. Seeing that picture on Facebook basically stabbed me in the fucking heart, like it physically hurt, because it reminded me that I was once there in her life, but wasn't any longer. I think I'm going to die grieving the fact I never got to tell her goodbye.

Are there any rooms in your house that don’t have windows? Yes, both bathrooms.

What’s your go-to order from KFC? I don't go there.

What was the last album you listened to in full? Uh I'm not sure, but probably one of Rammstein's when I decided to go through their entire discography lmfao

[cryopathiic-a]

Inosuke was not exactly spoiled; not in the way Dōma himself was. But he wasn't the best at waiting for this. That was something the child's young caretaker had picked up very early on. Especially when it came to food, where he could get downright aggressive about it. He had absolutely no manners, he was cantankerous around his peers and, worse, he picked up on every self-indulgent habit Dōma had as if he were looking to sponge in only his hedonistic vices. Dōma remembers that western book his parents had gifted him for his English classes about a child that was abandoned in the jungle and raised by a bear and a panther. King of the Jungle, they called him. In reference, Inosuke held the affectionate title 'Lord of the Mountain'.

❝ Of course, my Lord! You have my word. Would you like it in writing? ❞ Rhetorical question. Still, he makes a point to reach out and only retract his fingers when they're a hair away from the boy's teeth. Normally, this would be something to laugh off, but Dōma has a court hearing next week with one of the babysitters he had tried to hire for a similar thing. The kid bit a chunk of her flesh off. And it's on her, for trying to pry a piece of crayon out of his mouth. For all Inosuke had known, she was trying to get his food away — that would be the court defense they'd go with.

He did not regret adopting him. In the same way he did not regret most things he had done. But it had been a spur of the moment thing and he had certainly not thought out the extent of responsibilities it would come with. Dōma didn't really know what the typical child behaves like, let alone one with such troubled beginnings. The social services were constantly on his back, endangering the cult's front operations moreso than ever before with their snooping.

Knowing this had prompted some loose cannons affiliated with the cult to start disrespecting the rules of the turf. And Dōma was exceptional at getting people's money; even better than his predecessor. But tying those loose ends? Earning the respect of people who had been part of Japan's seedy underbelly before he was even born? It was safe to say his parents' sudden passing a few years back had left him woefully under-equipped for the job.

He spent his days partying hard, scamming those who believed in his foretold clairvoyance, jumping from one heated fling to the next, breaking the law in the most miniscule ways yet always finding a way out of it. For as good as his people skills were, there was a lack of vision. And mobsters could pick up on that. Uncle Sano had picked up on that.

Owner of a trade company in the eastern shore. Uncle Sano, he was a businessman through and through. After the late Lord Founder's tragic death at the hands of his wife, he continued to collect payments from the cult's middle men without ever giving them actual 'product' in turn. It was like paying for someone to rob you. Every month there was a set fee for Dōma's dealers; one that he had not imposed himself. And nobody dared say anything about it because Uncle Sano had enough money to buy the silence of whomever witnessed their inevitable disappearance.

At some point he had sent Naraku to try and reason with the man. And Naraku came back with stitches and a note pinned on him that affectionately warned Dōma against touching upon the topic. Something about Uncle Sano showing him mercy because he was his 'nephew'. It had been very embarassing to read out loud, so Dōma had only read it once and then soaked it in sake. And he hadn't done anything about it.

Until today.

So even taking him along here was probably a bad idea. But what other option did he have? He couldn't leave him alone at home because of all the choking hazards ( and his poor couches getting torn apart again ) and couldn't leave him with Naraku because he'd given him the day off. The car was the safest option.

❝ Hey, if you throw my car at people's houses you're going to have to compensate me for the damage, young man. Or else I'm telling the purple man that you've developed a shrimp allergy. You know what that means? ❞ It means he'll never get to eat tempura shrimp again. Dōma laughs over his shoulder as he turns to rummage the front seat and pops open the cabinet. There's a small black case inside, which he stuffs in his purse. As his sunglasses come on, he peers over them into child's reflection on the rear view mirror. ❝ Alright, little guy, I'm going to see you in a couple of minutes, okay? Remember, stay in the car and no eating the food wrappers. ❞ He wags a finger, before shifting. The door shuts quietly behind them, leaving naught but the oppressive smell of his perfume.

From an outside perspective, what happens next is inconspicuous. The young man prances his way to the front door and rings the bell. A girl, presumably Mei-Mei, opens. Dōma immediately throws his hands up and pulls her into a hug, like they know each other very well. And over his shoulder, the girl's eyes find the pink Maserati and fix through the window, find Inosuke on the backseat and widen slightly. And she appears reluctant. But then she steps back. Dōma's voice can be heard muted in the distance, chatting her up. He disappears in the house and Mei-Mei throws one last worried glance outside before shutting the door.

It almost seems to move in slow motion before it clicks shut. The porch falls quiet. And then —

THUD.

[reallyromealone]

I sure can!

You're very welcome!

Also in this Mikey is still friends with his old friends

@kodasstar

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(Name) was quiet as he sat up front with Takeomi, their son currently getting chewed the fuck out from the rest of the pack as the eldest alpha rested his hand on (name)s thigh, rubbing gently as he drove them home.

"You come from an Omega and yet you disrespect them?! Have we taught you nothing!" Koko said heatedly as (sons name) shrunk more, trying to make himself invisible from his parents lecturing because fuck did it hurt.

They were disappointed and angry with him but (name) still said nothing to him.

That's kind of what terrified the tween the most.

Mama hadn't said anything.

When they got home the alphas led (name) to the sitting area and made sure he was comfortable and smooched his forehead before going to sons room and literally taking everything that could possibly bring him entertainment out of his room as Ran ordered Omega rights books and books written by omegas (basically this universes version on feminist books and women's rights) and Rindō looked up classes that were sure to take up all his spare time outside doing homework "when these books come we want a report on what they were about and what you learned from them"

"B-but--"

"Do you really think arguing with us is the smartest move right now?" Mikey's voice was cold and thankfully (name) was away from earshot.

He knew (name) didn't like that voice even though it's never been directed at him.

Their son shut up at that and just silently fumed at this.

This made him hold a grudge against not just the student but omegas, he didn't understand why omegas were put on a pedestal and why his mama got away with Yelling at his dad's like that.

It didn't make sense for his dumb tween brain.

After all his stuff was locked up in the basement he was sent to his room for the night, dinner would be brought to him.

"Now..." Mikeys voice was soft as the men went to their mate who was fidgeting slightly "why didn't you tell us baby?"

"Which thing"

"Well first the whole Omega thing and then the pregnancy thing preferably" Ran said as they all got comfortable around their mate who looked down "You guys were really busy with that project and I didn't want to add more stress... I chose to stay at home so I could handle this...." (Name)s voice was meek as he avoided eye contact.

That 'project' aka drug trade was six months ago.

"He's been acting like an ass for that long?"

"I-I thought it was a phase ya know? Edgy teen stuff... He's apparently hanging out with these other elitist alphas and I don't know what happened "

The alphas watched (name) crumble and stepped closer "baby no matter how busy we seem you can always come to us... He's our kid too even if he's being a complete dick "

"Speaking of kids, bow long have you known about this one?" Mochi said pointing at (name)s stomach and the Omega blushed a bit "since my doctors appointment two days ago..."

"Why didn't you say anything?"

"I was already stressed, I didn't know how to bring it up" (name) slowly looked up "I'm sorry alphas..."

"Just talk to us when you're dealing with stuff, ok?"

(Name) just nodded and the alphas were reluctant to let him cook dinner especially after the events that transpired but (name) managed to convince them so long as they could supervise.

They didn't want their pregnant omega lifting anything heavier than an egg.

Dinner took considerably longer with the Alphas trying to help him though none of them could cook by any means.

"I'm gonna take (sons name) his portion" Ran said grabbing a plate and a cup before going to their sons room, Mikey nosing at (name)s neck when he smelt the slight distress coming off him "don't worry baby, we will get him right"

"I just miss my pup..." (Name) mumbled and the family began eating, the Alphas trying to feed (name) more with the new information of a pup on the way.

Ran walked to their sons room, he was still pissed with him.

Treating his dam like that?

The person who loves him unconditionally and would die for him, just to turn around and belittle and treat them like a second class citizen.

Disgusting.

(Sons name) was stewing in his room, doing homework as ran set the food down and stared at him "you know despite your shit show, your dam still loves you" Ran said simply as he looked around his sons room before looking at the tween "even tried to have us go easy on you"

(Sons name) said nothing as he continued working "breaks coming soon, we will decide what you will be doing with your time off"

Ran left without saying anything else, returning to the others and smiling at his omegas much better mood.

When (name) went to bed the men gathered around the sitting room as now they would discuss the real punishment that would come when their pup would be on break.

They loved their kid, thus why they are sending him to work under the most terrifying Omega they all knew outside of (name) when they fuck up.

Nahoya Kawata.

Everyone in the room agreed he was not to be fucked with and maybe a few weeks with him and Souya would prove to show (sons name) that omegas weren't weak and definitely not to be fucked with.

Mikey would be making the call come morning as they went to go change for bed, smiling as they looked at their mate who was snuggled in the Alaskan king bed in one of their shirts.

They stopped buying (name) sleep attire unless it was for non sleep activities.

[l0v3lyr0ses]

Security Breach as your s/o's HCs

I'm not joking, Freddy, Roxy, Sun/moon, and monty had no business being attractive.

I mostly made this bc my energy is low today- and headcanons require less of me than one-shots :)

I don't do Vanessa bc I'm unsure how to write anything for Vanessa! Chica's wasn't that long im sorry- i kinda spent all day trying to write her in a way that isn't too ooc-

some of these are shorter bc I suck at conveying their personality

also not me listening to SL songs and 'mama hates you' while writing something wholesome-

the reader is gender-neutral :)

anyways I hope these HCs are to someone's liking!!

Glamrock Freddy

Dating Freddy just includes him greeting you with a bear hug every time you come to his room.

he loves spending time snuggling with you <3

he calls you superstar but it's a lot more soft and loving with you than it is with the kids!

protective dilf papa bear mode? on

He doesn't get jealous per se but he will tell off people who are disrespectful to you, he will not tolerate his s/o being uncomfy in their workspace

although if an adult or a kid starts acting nasty Freddy will not hesitate to warn the parents about the behavior or notify the staff that there is a problem and someone is just acting plain mean in a kid-friendly diner.

although he did make sure all the animatronics had you on their face recognition systems' so, they know not to attack you

he loves watching you play with the kids' Freddy will just stand there and watch with a silly grin on his face

if you let him, he'd love to style your hair!!

Freddy wouldn't hesitate to force you, to get a good night's to rest

there is no point in refusing, he'll carry you to his dressing room and cuddle you

he doesn't do PDA that much, mostly. hand-holding but kisses are reserved for after-hours in his room.

you don't do much PDA in public, and when you do it often goes unnoticed but in his room,

he is very affectionate in private, but I guess there's a reason Freddy is a bear.

Montgomery Gator

Dating Monty is fun!! you always have cuddle sessions or mini-golf dates

he'll teach you the ways of mini-golf if you don't know how to play

if you do he'll compete with you!

he is so touchy omg-

Monty is somehow always touching you in some way, shape, or form. Whether it's his arm around your waist or on your hip, or if he's holding your hand, giving a hug,

or slapping your ass-

HE IS ALSO VERY FLIRTY OMG

Monty will approach you, sliding his sunglasses down, and proceed to flirt with you

although Monty will not do anything remotely affectionate in front of children, he wants to but simply won't do it.

he will literally fight for you

Monty is a very protective alligator

a very angry one too

he will not hesitate to threaten about what horrid things he's going to do them and how he's going to do towards anyone who hurts his s/o

You're literally the only one that can prevent him from ending a son of bitch's life.

sometimes he feels like a replacement for bonnie and wonders he truly deserves an amazing person like you, especially in case bonnie was a better performer than him

pls comfort him and reassure him

Monty gave you a small monty plushie so you're never without him

Monty likes cuddling you, which is usually cuddling the plushie, bc he insists on it.

Roxanne Wolf

dating Roxy would include her styling your hair, no matter what length or what gender you are she'll certainly find cute hair clips that suit you

lowkey a tsundere

Roxanne claims, she hates affection coming but it's obvious that it's a lie.

she'll teach you how to play the keyboard!!

her hair is actually soft! it isn't metal so she'd love it if you combed it sometimes! or even tried styling it.

she loves forcing you to play dress-up with her

just that Roxanne has an immaculate sense of fashion!!

she always walks you to the entrance, Roxanne is secretly worried that one day she doesn't walk with you. something will happen to you

When Roxanne feels insecure, she needs someone to set her head straight! pls, tell her she's loved and pretty.

she's very protective in ways she kinda treats you like her mate

she lowkey growls when a staff member is getting too close to her s/o!

she has the protective instinct of a wolf! so she'll literally pounce on anyone posing a threat to her s/o!

pls, stop her or they might have more than rips in their clothes-

Sunrise

dating sun is fun!! there's never a dull moment with him

he loves watching you in the daycare playing with the children,

lots of kisses n' cuddles although you eventually don't remember who's been initiating.

he'll warn you not to turn off the lights, and if you step closer to the light switch he'll panic and be frantic. he doesn't want you to get hurt! he might be upset for the day bc of it. pls, refrain from doing things that'll worry him!

Sun eventually starts trusting you a lot at tells you the reasoning why the lights always have to be on.

Sun trusts people very quickly but for him to talk about moon is a whole another level of trust!

he'd love to dance with you in the daycare! he'd be very giggly

Sun pick you up and skip around the daycare if you'll let him.

he will also lowkey chase you in the daycare and tackle you to the ground, and give you snuggles!

if you get tired he'll let you sleep on him until the shift is over.

Sun can't exactly have any romantic dates, not like a romantic dinner or a movie date. but he'll cuddle you in the daycare

Sun will not do anything too intimate in front of children

he'll at most, hold your hand but affection is mostly reserved for after-hours when it's just the two of you.

if you are insecure for one moment, I kid you not Sun will carry you and run around the daycare until you start laughing.

if one of the kids is being disrespectful, he'll be stern and tell them clearly to apologize and put them in time-out.

however, if it's an older kid or an adult he will simply alert security that someone needs to be escorted out

he wants you to be as comfy as possible

Sun calls you sunshine and darling okay?

Moondrop

Moon is a lot less energetic than Sun is.

he will carry you around but Moon will walk calmly and not run and skip around the place

he likes cuddling with you

a tsundere but he's more of a tsundere than Roxy is-

he talks about how gross affection is yet, he craves it so much

Moon likes scaring you okay? he will sneak up on you, and tell you to hide

you've scolded him before but he just finds it funny how scared you are when you know it's him.

tho he's only allowed to scare you-

ngl he's protective, I'd say borderline possessive

he hates it that ppl who don't deserve you get to speak to you more than he does

it makes him restless

he'll lowkey try to steal you away when only talking to Vanessa

during naptime for the kids' he lets you sleep on his shoulder, telling you it's time for naptime

Moon lowkey threatens that you have to take care of yourself.

omg, he loves squishing your cheeks, Moon often does it when he wants to prove a point.

Moon: take care of urself *squishes cheeks*

- he likes sitting with you with a hand on your thigh, he just does

Glamrock Chica

Chica is responsible, I get that vibe from her that dating her includes Chica being stressed and making sure her s/o doesn't do something they'll regret

Chica loves cuddling and hugging you just not for hours at a time.

Chica will try to give you expired food for a date but, you brought your own food enough for the both of you!

she always loves the food that you make, despite the fact that she doesn't really need it.

she often gives you compliments

Chica will teach you how to play the guitar with her!! <3

like Roxy, she has good taste in fashion and Chica would love for you to let her do something to your hair or dress you up!

she's the big spoon

she always walks you to the entrance and tries to make up excuses to keep you in the pizza plex a little longer<3

[d-s-winchester]

My Only Wish This Year

(gif credit to the creator)

Part One

Master List

Pairing: Jensen x Reader Word Count: 2,249 Warnings: angsty teens, mentions of death, mentions of a dead parent, mentions of a dead spouse A/N: I’M BACK BITCHES!!!! I haven’t posted writing on this blog in exactly two years and seven months. I’m happy to be back and to be back writing Jensen. Writing Jensen (and Dean) always seems to come easiest to me so it makes sense that this was the way to go. If you’d like to be tagged let me know, in an ask (it’s the best way for me to keep track)! Hope you guys like it! Anyway, feedback for this is crucial seeing as I’m just stepping back in! :)

Jensen leaned against the back of his SUV and let out a sigh as he stared at his front door. He knew he was going to have a hard time getting his teenagers to agree to going on this trip so close to Christmas, especially when the option to spend Christmas with their grandparents was still open, but he wasn’t expecting it to be quite this hard. He knew he could have taken the easy road, not pick the fight, and just let them go to their grandparents but he wanted them to find some way back to a semblance of normal.

In the two years since his wife passed away he’d been having more than a hard time keeping things normal. Sure, he’d taken as much time off work as he could, and tried every coping mechanism in the book but the one thing he couldn’t figure out how to navigate was raising two teenagers on his own. His parents helped out a lot, especially when he was away filming, but he knew they were a poor substitute for the mother his children lost. So he tried to pull it together whenever he was home, especially during the holidays, and he knew that this Christmas needed to be better than the last.

That first Christmas was a rough one, Jensen could hardly get out of bed. She’d only been gone three months and he was having a hard time coping and his kids had suffered because of it. His parents did a good job of making it as happy of a Christmas as they could but his kids wanted their father and sure Jensen was there physically but mentally he was totally checked out. Which was why he was determined to make this Christmas better than the last.

“Alright, that’s it,” Jensen mumbled to himself as he pushed away from the truck and went back into the house.

He could hear the music blaring from his son’s room and it was so loud it almost drowned out the sound of the blow dryer coming from his daughter’s bathroom.

“Jordan!” he called out as he made his way up the stairs, knowing full well his son couldn’t hear him.

Figuring his daughter would be more likely to listen to him he changed course and headed toward her bedroom. He pounded on the door so she could hear him over the noise that was taking over the second floor of his house and waited for her to come to the door. It only took a minute before she opened the door.

“What, Dad?”

“Lizzie, I told you over an hour ago to be packed and ready to go by now,” he sighed. “If we don’t leave in the next five minutes we’ll be late checking into the hotel for tonight.”

“I’ll only be like two more minutes, I promise. My bags are already packed,” she said gesturing to the two large duffle bags seated on her bed.

Without another word she turned and made her way back to the bathroom. Jensen sighed for what felt like the thousandth time that morning and went to grab her bags before dropping them at the top of the stairs and going toward his son’s room. He pounded on the door but the music just got louder. At that moment he wondered if he had ever been this disrespectful to his parents at sixteen. He knew he’d been difficult on the occasion but he hoped he hadn’t been this bad.

“Jordan! It’s time to go!” Jensen called through the door and the music finally shut off. “We’ve gotta be out of here in five minutes, you better be packed.”

“Of course I’m packed,” Jordan said, yanking his bedroom door open. “I packed this morning when it became obvious that this stupid trip wasn’t a joke.”

This time Jensen opted not to pick this fight, knowing full well he didn’t have the energy to get into a screaming match with his son.

“Just grab your bags and bring them down to the car, please.”

“Whatever,” Jordan groaned and grabbed the bag off his bed and pushed past his father toward the stairs, grabbing his sister’s bags as he went.

Jensen was grateful that at least he was still willing to help his sister even if he wanted nothing to do with his father. Jensen wiped a hand down his face and ran his fingers through his hair and was about to try and rush his daughter out of the bathroom again just as Lizzie was coming out of her room, pulling her winter jacket on.

“Is Jordan outside already?” she asked and Jensen nodded as she pushed past him to join her older brother down by the car.

With yet another sigh Jensen followed his daughter out of the house and toward the car, it was going to be a long couple of days on the drive up to the B&B in Maine – even with a stop at a hotel for a good night sleep along the way – and he was hoping against all hope that maybe his kids would come around during the trip and they could find a way to be a normal family again.

The entire drive to the hotel that marked the halfway point of their drive was spent in almost complete silence with both Jordan and Lizzie spending a majority of the time with their headphones in, only pulling them out to have whispered conversations with each other. Needless to say, Jensen didn’t have high hopes for the second half of their drive. They were about an hour away from the B&B when his son had fallen asleep. He thought Lizzie was asleep too until she spoke.

“Why’d you pick Maine for Christmas, Dad?” she asked. “We could have just gone to Grandma and Grandpa’s or even to Uncle Jared and Aunt Gen’s.”

“I know that, Half Pint, but I figured we could go away for the week. Spend some time just the three of us. As a family. That and I thought some snow for Christmas wouldn’t be so bad.”

“Don’t let him fool you, Liz,” Jordan piped up from next to her, clearly having woken up from his nap. “We’re not a family, we haven’t been since mom died and we never will be.”

“Hey! Watch it!” Jensen said, eyeing him in the rearview mirror.

“What? It’s the truth!” Jordan shouted.

“Jordan –” Lizzie cautioned her brother.

Jensen took a deep breath, ready to lecture his son, but decided against it when Jordan turned toward the window and crossed his arms over his chest.

“Whatever,” Jordan mumbled, shoving his headphones back into his ears.

Lizzie, too, sat back in her seat and put her headphones back in her ears. Jensen let out a sigh and turned his own radio up, more than ready to get to the B&B and get checked in.

Prepping for new arrivals always had you stressed, no matter how often you had them. This one was particularly stressful as the family had booked the only adjoining rooms your B&B had to offer, which meant a little extra prep. It stressed you out but that didn’t mean that you didn’t enjoy your job. You loved being able to have people experience your small town by staying at the B&B, especially this time of year. The town, and by extension the B&B, seemed to come alive during Christmastime and the large evergreen tree farm spanning the back couple of acres of your land didn’t hurt that holiday magic.

You were putting the finishing touches on the smaller of the two rooms when you saw the headlights pulling up the drive. You didn’t have any other patrons booked for an arrival that day and everyone else was already halfway through dessert in the large living room which meant that your newest patrons had arrived right on time. Taking a deep breath, you gave the room one more look to make sure everything was in order, and made your way back downstairs to wait behind the front desk.

Jensen pulled into the small parking lot of the Evergreen Forest Bed and Breakfast with just enough time to get the car unloaded before their check-in time. He parked the SUV, climbed out and stretched before opening up the trunk and pulling out bags.

“Alright you two, I need help with all the bags. Out of the car, please,” Jensen said from the trunk.

The groans of protest didn’t go unnoticed as Jordan and Lizzie got out of the car, slamming the doors behind them, and came around to meet their father by the trunk. Jordan practically snatched his bag from Jensen’s hand as Lizzie reached into the trunk to grab the two bags of her own. Jensen grabbed his bags and shut the trunk of the car, hitting the lock button on his keys, before leading the way up to the front of the B&B – his kids all the while complaining about their shoes getting caked in the snow that was covering the ground.

The building was larger than it looked in the photos on the website and it sat on a pretty large piece of land. In the distance Jensen could see the large tree farm and seated slightly off to the side, in between the tree farm and the large house in front of him, was a smaller house which he assumed is where the owner lived. Figuring he could always get a lay of the land when it was light out the next day he led his children up the front porch steps and stomped the snow off his shoes before he opened the front door of the B&B.

The bell above the front door chimed and you looked up from the computer to see a tall man and his two teenagers walk through the door, the man reminding his kids to wipe the snow from their feet.

“Welcome to the Evergreen Forest,” you greeted. “You must be the Ackles family.”

“That we are,” the man smiled, approaching the desk. “I’m Jensen and these are my kids, Jordan and Lizzie.”

It took you a second to get your bearings when his brilliant green eyes met yours. You composed yourself quickly, hoping no one noticed your momentary loss of the ability to speak. You couldn’t remember the last time a man had been so handsome that he rendered you speechless – something that was difficult to do since you normally couldn’t shut up – but you shoved the thoughts from your mind and reminded yourself that he was one of your guests.

“It’s nice to meet you all, my name is Y/N. I am the owner and manager and basically everything but the cook,” you chuckled. “Now, let’s get you checked in.”

You went through the check-in process and grabbed the keys to the adjoining rooms from the hooks on the wall behind you and motioned for the family to follow you. When you reached the two rooms you handed the keys over.

“The room to the left has the two twin beds,” you said, handing Lizzie the key before turning toward Jensen and handing him the other key. “And the room to the right is the master. If you need anything at all my number is next to the phone on the end table. I live in a small house on the property so I’m not far in case of an emergency. We do breakfast at seven and I have to say our chef is one of the best on the east coast so even though I know it’s kind of early you won’t want to miss it. Dinner is usually around six every night followed by dessert in the living room. I’m afraid that leaves you all on your own for lunch but the town has some great restaurants and tons of stuff to do. I hope you all enjoy your stay and like I said, if you need anything, I’m just a call away.”

“Thanks, Y/N,” Jensen said with a smile.

“Anytime, Mr. Ackles,” you replied.

“Call me Jensen, please,” he said.

“Ok, Jensen,” you smiled. “Have a goodnight.”

You gave them all another smile and headed back downstairs to help clean up from dessert and get the house back in order before lights out.

As you walked away Jensen couldn’t help but watch you. He was so sure that he would never look at another woman again when Laura had died but somehow he knew that you would be the one to change that. He shook his head and went to unlock his door.

“Get yourselves settled and then maybe we can watch a movie together before bed?” Jensen asked his kids.

Jordan and Lizzie shared a look, both clearly fully aware of how their father was looking at you.

“Rain check,” Lizzie said, “we’re both kind of tired from the drive.”

“Oh,” Jensen said, clearly disappointed though not entirely sure why he was expecting a different answer. “Ok, sure, yeah. You guys get some sleep then. We should get up early for breakfast.”

Jordan and Lizzie agreed that they would be up in time for breakfast and Jensen waited until his kids were in their room safely with the door shut behind them before heading into his own room, all the while trying to figure out why he felt such a strong connection to you.

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[callme-harris]

d ofjames-levin​:

Seeing the young man’s expression he almost felt bad for his lie, he knew that Juliet wouldn’t mind, that she might even add something worse if Harris did find her just as a laugh, but he knew that worried expression too well since he was the one that normally had it stamped on his face. “I would tell you not to worry, that she can handle herself, but I know that doesn’t exactly help.” He knew his daughters were more than capable of handling themselves, but that didn’t mean James didn’t want to be there to protect them. “If I see her again, I will send her your way.” He said honestly, he would love to tease him a little more, but deep down he knew Harris was a good guy.

“Is hard to truly enjoy a day out, is like I have two Juliets to look after .” He answered. “I think for the next event I will ask Sterling to let me look after Sunny, that way I can focus on the little one.” His granddaughter wouldn’t run after boys for a while and he wanted to enjoy that time since it didn’t last long. “And I’m sure my reputation is enough to keep any jerk away from my girls.” James hated men flirting with his daughters and he would give them hell for it, as Harris was finding out, but he would truly only punch them if they did something they shouldn’t, like making his daughters cry or disrespecting them in any way.

Harris may never relate to what the older gentleman had been through as a parent. He wasn’t a parent, but he was an older brother and he knew he had been protective of Juliet since the two of them were kids and he doubted he would ever change, even though he did try to lighten up since the pair got older. But since his accident the pair got closer. She was someone who stuck by his side and didn’t allow him to wallow in his own misery and he owed her  for keeping him together. “ Yeah, I appreciate the words but you’re also right it doesn’t alleviate the tension” He noted before nodding his head at her being sent his way. 

“That feeling never goes away as a parent does it?” He replied not realizing that he was part of the reason the man in front of him probably seemed tense today. In his mind Harris thought he had a relatively okay relationship with the other man. He looked after Juliet at work and he respected the other man endlessly for that. “ I’m sure that would be a more fun distraction. “ He noted before falling silent for a moment. He liked Sterling and he was getting to know her more lately, it started to click in slowly that his growing crush might be more complicated, especially  knowing how intimidating James Levin could be. “ One can only hope” Harris replied unsure what to say in that moment. He didn’t think anyone deserved to be stuck with a jerk, but then again was he considered one? 

[many-but-one]

Trauma Responses

Hi folks! This is not going to be a huge educational post about trauma responses. I mostly didn't know how to title this. I am in a conversation with a person on Tumblr who I will not name for privacy and the topic of trauma responses came up between us and I feel like I need to share this. It might not be super helpful, but it helped me understand the people around me better and I feel like sharing this might give you some perspective.

Imagine: You are a kid whose parents are really awful to you. They are always on your ass for not doing work, for not finishing tasks quickly enough, for dressing a certain way, for acting a certain way, etc etc I could go on forever. When they yell at you, you might dissociate a little. You might go numb. You might nod along with everything they say, agreeing to everything they say about you ("you're lazy, you're stupid, you'll never amount to anything, how are you ever going to get anything done when you're living on your own, etc.") because you just want to get it over with. They might yell for a few minutes or a whole hour. They might get physical with you. In your mind, as long as you stay small and agree with them, it'll get done quicker. And it usually does. You're a teenager and have perfected this by now. Just agree with them until they leave you alone. Then you can go to a "safe place" (your room, a bathroom, outside, etc) and show your emotions there, whether it's crying, anger, or whatever else. This is a trauma response called "fawning."

Now, you have a sibling--younger or older--who gets treated the same way you do. Only they don't get how this works. See, you agree and agree and don't show anything until after it's over. It's tried and true. It doesn't keep them from getting mad, but it usually makes their outbursts much faster. Your sibling doesn't do this. They immediately respond with anger right back. They don't like being treated like shit. They don't like being disrespected. They will yell and scream and fight with your parents, to the point where they will fight for hours. Your parents are especially horrible to them, trying to pull out all the nasty tricks they have to get them to shut up and submit. Only your sibling never admits defeat. Sometimes you have to sit and watch. Sometimes you're in your room or bathroom in hopes your parents won't direct their rage toward you. Your sibling has the "fight" response.

When you and your sibling are alone, you admonish each other. "Why don't you fight back?" they complain. "They expect me to be like you. I don't like being treated like that." You frown. "If you would just let it go and let them yell it out, it wouldn't get so bad." you reply. "You just make them angrier and angrier. You know they won't stop until they have you broken." Your sibling doesn't care. They don't deserve such treatment. Neither do you, but you hate conflict, so you just try to end it as quickly as you can. This causes a great divide between you two. You don't understand how the other can act the way they do.

This was me and my younger sister. She fights like hell and will not stop. I fawn immediately unless an alter with a "fight" response fronts. All our lives we were angry at one another, not stopping to understand that we were in the same shitty position and were trying to cope in the ways we knew how. We are both adults now and have gone to therapy. When I realized that her "fight" response was quite literally involuntary and my "fawn" response was the same, it changed everything. It's how we coped with the excess traumatic stimuli. I talked to her about it and apologized for all of my anger directed towards her growing up. When I told her that my response was "fawn" and I couldn't really do anything else, she had an "Aha!" moment. She had no idea I couldn't fight back. These realizations have helped us heal our relationship and we are closer than ever--when we were kids we despised each other. In all honesty, this was likely for my parent's benefit. We wouldn't team up against them.

So just understand that trauma responses cannot necessarily be controlled. With DID this gets even more complicated because you will often have alters assigned these different trauma responses. (Not purposely, that's how structural dissociation works.) You will likely have at least one "fight" response alter, a "freeze" response, a "flight" response, and so on and so forth.

Hope this helps someone. :)

-Jules

[cryptidofthekeys]

This uh- this involves the AU that I made- I call it The Even More Dysfunctional Family AU where uh BoD adopts Daniel essentially and he becomes a new brother of destruction p much, its all kayfabe stuff (I never do anything o u t of kayfabe) and it might not be fully canon to the lore of both Kane and Taker BUT I just decided to put my own twist on things either way so shh

TWs: Fire, Death, literally burning alive p much, and overall just sad feelings and very big emotions

Daniel’s been curious about what happened to Taker and Kane as kids, he also feels awkward in joining them by visiting the grave of their parents, he feels as though he shouldn’t, he doubts they would have even accepted him as a son if they were alive... Little does Daniel know is he’s about to find out things he’s been wanting to know and more...

“Daniel! Come on, let’s go!” He heard Kane yell out and he yelled back “Just give me one more second! Gosh…” The bearded man rolled his eyes as he finished adjusting his outfit, he didn’t want to wear his normal attire going to well, where t h e y were going… He felt like it’d be disrespectful in a weird sort of way, especially considering he hadn’t been with the infamous brothers of destruction for too long… Undertaker had pretty much the perfect outfit for going to places like this, it felt fitting, Kane just wore what he always wore… Even the mask over his face but Daniel understood why, at least on that front. Daniel had felt like he didn’t deserve to go with them at first, not to the graveyard, not where their parents were buried, because hell… Daniel never got to meet them, he knows a bit about their history but not too much… And asking Taker or Kane is like talking to a brick wall, no emotions, no feelings, and nothing much said so Daniel never tried to push it, it wasn’t in his place anyways, if they wanted to tell him he knew they would.

…Still, Daniel couldn’t help his curiosity, he had always wondered just how and why they turned out in the ways they did, now don’t get him wrong… He loves his newfound brothers! He loves them just the way they are and he would never change them or their ways but whatever happened must’ve really messed them up inside and out… And then Kane’s voice called out from the doorway “Daniel?” That made the man jump and turn around to face the masked man who had his arms crossed “Are you… Er… Alright? I was talking to you and you didn’t uh, respond or anything…” And that’s when Daniel realized, he had gotten pretty lost in thought about that, the man sighed “Sorry, I uh, y-yeah I’m fine… I was just thinking about things…” He still felt like he didn’t deserve to go, he felt it was going to be awkward but both Taker and Kane insisted, it’s only fair that he at leasts gets to meet them in the only way he can now.

Kane nodded at that “Come on, the deadman’s already outside, he’s going to leave without us if you don’t hurry up” Daniel sighed and nodded “Okay, I’m ready, just had to fix my uh, clothes…” Kane once again nodded and began to walk off, Daniel slowly trailing behind him as the two headed out the door, and there was The Undertaker, standing there, he seemed to be a bit impatient “Well… It’s about time, what took you so long, boy?” Daniel looked down “I uh, had to… Fix my clothing, so it wouldn’t, it wouldn’t have wrinkles in it?” Taker could sense Bryan’s nervousness and he walked over, gently placing a hand on the other’s shoulder, it still made Bryan jump, he looked toward the deadman and it felt very strange to feel such a gentle touch from him “Look… I know you're nervous, I know you said you feel like you won’t fit in and it’d be awkward to go up there… But, both me and Kane feel that it’s only fair… You should meet them, at least in some way, they’d be just as much your parents as they were ours, you know?” Daniel blinked, he was stunned and didn’t know what to say, he looked over to Kane who was nodding along.

Daniel was silent, he didn't know what to say or what he even could say so the deadman then turned around after patting the man’s shoulder “We should… Hurry, the sun is beginning to set now…” That’s another thing, they both wanted to wait until the evening time, now Daniel figured that was just because maybe the incident happened at a certain time at night on this day, which would make sense, but before he could continue to get lost in his thoughts he trailed after Kane and Taker, staying in behind them for the most part, he was just looking down to the ground as he walked, just thinking about this whole thing, sometimes he’d glance up at Taker and Kane as they walked in perfect sync with each other actually, it was a slow walk, but it was a rare sight to see them walk fast or especially run. Daniel then began to think, he wondered what their parents had looked like, now sure he knew what Paul Bearer had looked like but he wasn’t… Exactly… Well, y-you know… Either way, he knew that bit of history there, Kane didn’t seem to mind too much but Taker had an absolute scowl on his face at the mention of Paul.

Daniel uh, doesn’t think he wanted to meet Paul too much either way, he remembers seeing mere glimpses around of that man and needless to say he looked pretty creepy… The walk was long, even longer with the slow pace these two took but eventually they made it there, and tonight was a full moon, there were some clouds but it merely looked like smoke in front of the moon, it felt eerie around this place… This is the first time Daniel had ever gone to the graveyard and that’s when he noticed… This… This graveyard, it had no lights first and foremost, the only way Daniel could see is when the two brothers turned on their flashlights (they mostly did it for Bry bc im sure they could very much find their way around that graveyard even in pitch black darkness) The place looked to be in pretty rough condition and that’s when Daniel realized… This Graveyard, it had been abandoned, abandoned for a LONG time in fact… The Graves were all unkempt, some were even broken, old flowers wilting away, pots broken, and then the grass and many plants had overgrown and taken this area hostage.

Overall the place looked like it hadn’t been touched in a very long time, that was until they got to one particular gravesite, two tombstones right next to each other… Daniel peered out from behind the two, looking at the graves a bit closer, it read off their parents’ names… This was the only patch right here that was well taken care of, and then Bryan noticed the tombstones were cracked, as if they had been broken before “Wh-What happened there…?” He whispered, not wanting to be too loud and then he noticed Kane looked away shamefully, Taker glancing toward him, it was silent for a moment before Kane spoke up “...I broke them… It was a really long time ago, I came here with Paul and we… We…” Kane clenched his hand into a fist, he seemed angry but more so at himself “...We smashed them, and then set them on fire…” Daniel looked shocked at this, jeez… Okay NOW he understood why Taker seemed to hate Paul Bearer at the very least… Taker said nothing, he merely stared at Kane who shot him a sorrowful glance back, that seemed to take the deadman off guard, he had held a slight grudge against Paul and even Kane for that but… Seeing the guilt, it made his expression somewhat change.

It looked softer, and then Kane sighed, looking down toward the graves “...I’m sorry…” The Undertaker said nothing for a moment, he then placed a hand on Kane’s shoulder, it was extremely awkward for these two to show any kindness or affection toward each other…

They hadn’t done so in decades, in fact… Neither one of them can remember the last time they shared any care or affection between each other, it had to have been when they were young kids, somewhere there… Even something as simple as a hand on the shoulder felt awkward, and he had felt Kane tense up at that but then the two shared a look before glancing down to the graves, Daniel now standing somewhat off to the side, he didn’t want to get in between the two during this moment, he stared down at the graves, keeping silent now, all three of them were silent, just simply paying respects to the dead… Daniel felt awkward still, like he didn’t fit in here at all, but he knew nothing about their parents, he didn’t even ever feel like he could call them his own, he has no idea if they would even accept him as their child if they were still around, sure Kane and Taker might have already taken him in as a new brother but their parents could have just turned him away…

It was silent for the longest time before Taker looked over at Daniel, who shared a glance back at him, and that’s when Bryan had to suppress a gasp… Now sure, Daniel has seen Kane cry before, it was extremely rare but he has seen Kane cry, and he has been there for him even if sometimes it was against his better judgment, but this was the first time he had ever seen tears on the deadman’s face, he didn’t figure he’d ever see Taker cry in his entire life but here he was, tonight, just tears cascading down his face, he cleared his throat and then spoke slowly, trying not to stutter “...She would have loved you, you know that Daniel?” Bryan blinked, he tried not to stare at Taker’s face too long even if he was in shock “...You think so?” Taker nodded “...I know so, both our parents would have loved you…” Kane nodded at this, just standing shoulder to shoulder with his brother, not looking at anything but the graves, this shocked Daniel even more, well he wouldn’t doubt that then, Taker should know more than anyone…

And then Kane sighed “...I can’t even remember what my own mother looks like… …The most I remember is that she was very nice, kind, soft, gentle, and caring…” He admitted, Taker sighing, wiping his eyes with his sleeve as he looked toward Kane, Daniel was shocked to see another side from the two of them tonight but he didn’t say anything, he merely watched as the two embraced each other, man… Coming here really brought out an entirely new side of these two, one Daniel had never fully seen, not… Not like THIS anyways… They didn’t hug for too long though, both breaking away from each other and then turning away “...We miss you” Taker began and then Kane spoke up “We’ll always miss you…” The two then both simultaneously told them to rest in peace and with that they began to walk, however Daniel stayed behind for a moment, now standing in front of the graves, looking over the both of them, after a bit, Kane noticed and looked back, calling out for Daniel “Are you coming or what?”

Daniel turned and shook his head “Uh, no, actually… I’ll catch up with you two later, promise, I know how to get back to the house so just uh, g-go on…” This confused the two but they didn’t question him too much, just told him not to stay out TOO late… Daniel nodded and said he wouldn’t before looking back to the graves, now he was alone… In this eerie abandoned graveyard, well, half-abandoned… Bryan wasn’t even sure why he stayed behind, he felt as if something compelled him to stay as he knelt down to the graves, looking over their names, this felt… Awkward, he should’ve gone home with those two but he didn’t, something compelled him to stay and he needed to figure out what it was, he just kept staring at the graves…

Searching for something, anything… A sign of some kind of what compelled him to stay behind like this “...I guess they care a lot for you… Huh?” He glanced at their mother’s grave now “...I wasn’t around for anything that happened, they just… Took me in not even that long ago, but… I can tell they care a lot about you guys huh?” And then there was a pause, god, he would’ve probably looked like a crazy person had anyone been around “...I wish I knew what happened to them, what happened to you, what happened in general… …I wish I could meet you as well…” There was silence, which of course there was, what was Daniel truly expecting, he sighed and stood up and that’s when he felt dizzy “Ugh… Jeez, o-okay, that’s… That’s new…” The dizziness was so bad that Daniel had to actually sit down, beside the grave, he felt like the world was spinning extremely fast right now, he groaned and rubbed at his head and then he froze upon hearing a voice, he couldn’t look around right now because of the dizziness but he was sure he just heard a voice.

And then it was confirmed, he heard a soft voice calling out his name, a gentle soft spoken voice called out to him and now he should be scared of this, he knew he should but this voice, it didn’t sound like any kind of threat… It didn’t sound like it was trying to threaten him, and then it went dark… After a bit, Daniel awoke with a gasp, he stood up immediately and began to spin around, looking at his surroundings but yet… He saw nothing, it was a pitch black void that had swallowed him up, there was nothing and nobody around and if it hadn’t been for his own heavy breathing, the silence would be deafening… Bryan got into a fighting stance when he heard a voice call out behind him, spinning around to see who might be going to attack him, however his eyes widened when he saw a lady, staring at him, a soft smile on her face, she had a literal glow to her body, she looked to be wearing a long purple dress and that was the most Daniel could see, his body relaxed somewhat and he got back into a normal stance “...W-Who are y-you…?”

The lady gently spoke up “Hello Daniel… My name is Eliza, it’s a pleasure to finally meet you more properly…” Before Bryan could speak up “I know… You are very confused, allow me to explain dear… I brought you here for many reasons… But I should tell you who I am more specifically… I am both little Taker and Kane’s mother… I’ve watched over them for as long as I can remember now… And I’ve never seen them like this before… Before you came along, things between them had always been so very complicated but it seems like… You’ve really begun to help my two boys… And for that, I thank you… Now the next thing I should say…” Eliza gracefully waltzed over, almost like she was floating in fact and she gently cupped Daniel’s face in her hands, it was so strange, this was all so much for Bryan to process, and it should have felt unnerving to feel her hands on his face like that, but they were so warm and so gentle…

“Taker was right… Me, and my husband, we both accept you as our own… You needn’t worry yourself or doubt such a thing… Both my boys have accepted you as their brother already and you’ve helped them so much, even if you may not think it or know it… And for that, we have to thank you…” And then her husband appeared, wearing a similar outfit to Taker’s and then Daniel began to see where he got his style from and favorite colors… He had a similar expression to Taker, a hardened look for a moment before he smiled “She’s right, boy… We accept you, we want you to always remember that… Son…” Daniel was in such shock at this.

He couldn’t move or speak and then Eliza gently chuckled “Yes son… Even if we might not be on the same plane of existence as you, even if we might have passed on… We still love you, love you as our son, and your brothers love and care about you very much as well… They might not admit it out loud but we can tell…” Daniel almost felt tears pricking his eyes at that, to which Eliza gently took a hand and wiped them away, her husband walking over and giving Daniel a pat on the shoulder, Daniel then looked at the both of them “I… Th-Thank you… I appreciate… That…” That gives him some closure on one front, but now he had questions, he wanted to ask but then he thought it might be rude, I mean some of those questions involved the incident… So he shouldn’t- “...Daniel, sweetie… I know you are curious about what happened…” …Ask… Well okay, that’s… “I-I’m sorry, I shouldn’t… That’s-” Before he could speak, Eliza shushed him “Shh… I promise, we aren’t offended or upset, I mean… Curiosity is a natural thing for everyone…”

And then she got more serious “But, honey… I can’t sugarcoat any of this, this won’t be a pleasant thing to view, it might even scar you… And we really don’t want to do that, I would never want to scar one of my own children… But if you REALLY wish to see, then I’ll grant you that wish…” Daniel thought about it for a bit, he had been wanting to know what happened so badly, he had wanted to know the truth and what happened between this family, why Taker and Kane were the way that they were, what they went through, he wanted to know it all… …Even if it may be scarring, at least he’ll know now the truth about his own brothers. After giving it some more thought and knowing his curiosity would only eat away at him he slowly nodded “...Please, I want to… I-I wanna know, I need to know what happened to my brothers… Please, uh… Mo…” He hesitated on that front, but Eliza merely sighed and smiled “...It’s alright, you can call me mom, you can call us mom and dad if you wish to… I promise, it’s okay…” Bryan nodded “...Mom… Dad… I wanna know what happened to my brothers… Please” Eliza’s smile was a sad one, and her husband sighed “Very well son… But please, if at any point you wish to stop the vision… Tell us… And we won’t continue…”

Daniel nodded and then the two ghosts shut their eyes, Eliza’s hair gracefully blowing as if there were a gust of wind… And for a few minutes nothing happened before Daniel suddenly blacked out again… …The next time Daniel woke, his eyes slowly fluttered open, he felt like he was standing up but then… He… He felt taller, w-wait… Wait, something was wrong… This didn’t feel like Daniel’s body at all… And then Daniel heard Taker’s voice, it sounded more so like a young version of him and then suddenly the head of this body was turning toward that direction “Coming big brother!” That was… Kane’s voice, he was stuck in his body, viewing the world from his eyes, he wasn’t in control or anything, just merely viewing the world in Kane’s perspective… He watched as Kane ran toward Taker, laughing as he tackled his brother in a hug who only rolled his eyes “Ugh, get off me…!” The deadman was trying to push Kane off but he had a tight grip on his big brother, this was so weird for Daniel, okay well seeing Taker be an edgy emo-like kid? …Seems legit but Kane being so… Innocent, so full of joy and so happy, just enjoying life like a normal kid would…

He listened as they shared playful banter and then… Taker began to pull out some matches, and that’s when Kane’s eyes nearly sparkled, he got off and stood by Taker’s side now.

“Ooh! Are we going to make the fire come out again big brother?!” He sounded so excited… To which Taker laughed at and ruffled his hair “Yeah we are you lil arsonist… C’mon lil man grab one” Now he knew Kane’s love of fire, that’s partially why he grabbed the matches like he did, because deep down he loved to see his brother so happy… Taker showed Kane how to strike up a match, swiping it up the sides and little Kane’s eyes sparkled with pure delight as he took the match and looked over the flame, a wide smile on his face as he watched the flames dance and wiggle, Taker did the same, before a harsh voice called out “HEY!” That startled the brothers and even Daniel who was still watching in absolute awe of this, to see his two brothers, so full of innocence, just… Like normal human beings, just living normal lives and living out normal childhoods, then Kane’s head spun around along with Taker’s and it was their fathers who ran over quickly and snatched the matchbox and matches from them, quickly putting out the fire “Boys! You know better than to play with fire like this!”

Their dad tried his best not to yell but he couldn’t help it, Taker only looked like an edgy teen, arms crossed and eyes rolling, meanwhile Kane was looking down, clearly upset about getting in trouble “Listen, we have VERY flammable liquids here at the Funeral Home, son… Ya can’t be playin’ with these you hear me? And YOU… Taker, you KNOW better! You know better than this, you're much older!” Taker still had his arms crossed but he was looking down now “...I know, I-I’m sorry…” Their dad sighed and hugged the boys close “Listen, I… I just don’t want you boys getting hurt, your mother wouldn’t want you getting hurt either… And playing with matches, around a funeral home like this? And NEAR the flammable liquids no less? Taker, you know better, like I said, you’re older… And Kane… You just… Just don’t play around with fire like this again, y’all hear me?” The two muttered a ‘yes sir’ and then their dad hugged them tighter and thanked them “Now, go on, get… Taker, you go do your chores” Little Taker sighed but went to do as he was told, Kane watching him and then watched his father walk off, taking the matches with him.

Daniel wasn’t surprised, he knew Kane’s love of fire, he figured he had loved it just as much as a kid… But then Daniel was watching through Kane’s eyes, the little kid was sneaking around after watching Taker walk off to go do his chores and making sure no one was in sight… Daniel was confused as he snuck into the shed, and that’s when Bryan realized what Kane was going to do… His eyes wide, he tried to call out for Kane to stop but he couldn’t speak, he couldn’t control any of this… It was a vision, even if he wanted to he couldn’t do a thing… Daniel watched as Kane gathered some of the flammable liquids, even when the ghosts reminded him he couldn’t do anything, he called out for Kane to stop, begging Kane to stop as he carried the liquids to his home… Kane wanted to see more flames, wanted to see bigger flames… And didn’t want to get Taker in trouble again, so he’d do it himself! And Kane betted he could create an even BIGGER flame than Taker! His plan was full proof! As he poured the liquids around, Daniel began screaming at Kane to stop, screaming to not do what he was about to!

But Kane continued on, the little kid walking over and sneaking the matches back before slowly doing what Taker had taught him, slid the match up the side and then… Kane gasped as the match lit up, he grinned so happily at it, the flame was so pretty, he knew he could make the flame even bigger though! Bigger than his brother ever could! Kane then tossed the match…

Right to the floor to which Daniel screamed out “NO! NO NO NO!” And that’s when he watched things go up in flames around him, he could see through Kane’s eyes, at first Kane had been excited, clapping and cheering but then some fire had gotten onto him… And that’s when Daniel heard Kane screaming, screaming in agony! Bryan had a hand clasped over his mouth as he watched the scene unfold before him, he heard the dad yelling out for Kane and then his mother screaming in terror, she had a hand clasped over her mouth as she called out for her husband, she began to scream about the fire and that’s when it got so hectic… The fires were quickly consuming them and the funeral home along with them… And that’s when perspectives changed… Before Daniel could see them all being charred by flames, now he was suddenly seeing through Taker’s eyes… He was watching Taker coming back from doing all his chores, Daniel heard little Taker gasp and yell out as he began sprinting toward the funeral home, he heard the sirens and saw the police and firefighters, trying to put out the flames so desperately…

Daniel watched through Taker’s eyes, as the kid tore past everyone, he was about to run into the front door before officers restrained him, he heard Taker screaming for his mom, screaming for his dad, and then screaming for Kane, the little kid screamed for his family, trying so hard to break free from the officers grasp, Daniel was watching in horror at this display, he felt absolutely sick to his stomach… “O-Okay! Okay okay okay! I-I’VE SEEN ENOUGH! STOP!” He yelled out and just like that, he was brought back to the void, he gasped and looked around before seeing Eliza and her husband in front of him, the two holding hands, looking very saddened, tears streaming down their face “We’re sorry Daniel… Perhaps we showed you too much, we- We should have tried to stop you…” Bryan shook his head “N-No! I mean… No, it… It’s… I… I wanted… I needed… t-to know, no matter… I-If it traumatized me… I… I needed to know…” There was a pause before he slowly hugged them back, despite being ghosts, he could physically feel them somehow… It was strange “...I’m sorry… M-Mom… Dad… You… N-None of you deserved that…”

Now Daniel understood to a certain degree, he understood why Kane was the way he was along with Taker, now that he knew what they had both gone through… The screams from Kane wouldn’t leave his mind, the screams of them all really, Bryan couldn’t escape those screams of agony and then screams for a family that was long engulfed by the flames… Eliza and her husband smiled, her husband ruffling his hair “Don’t be sorry, it wasn’t your fault, we should have… Paid more attention to those two… I should have locked the shed up tight, I should’ve put the flammable stuff somewhere Kane couldn’t have reached…” Eliza shook her head “Playing the blame game, trying to pick who's at fault will get us nowhere darling…It was just an accident, it was… A Tragedy… Tragedies happen all the time, we just wish for the boys… Wouldn’t stay at each other’s throats so much… …We wish for their peace, the both of them…” Daniel was silent for a bit before pulling back “...Then… I-I’ll keep trying… I’ll keep trying to help them achieve that peace… F-For their sake, and f-for yours… I promise” The pair of ghosts smiled and interlocked hands “...We know you will son, you’ve already accomplished so much …So before we return to the spirit world, we want you to know one thing…”

And then they both spoke simultaneously “...We love you, son, take care of your brothers for us”

Bryan nodded, tears cascading down his face as he smiled “...I will… G-Goodbye…” They waved him goodbye and then suddenly Daniel woke up with a gasp, jumping up from the ground and looking around, he was right back at the graveyard again… “...W-Was it all a… A dream…?” Daniel looked around and then looked back down at the graves “...No… No it wasn’t…” Bryan sniffled slightly, wiping some tears from his face “...I’ll take good care of them, I promise, love you… Mom… Dad… Rest easy…” Daniel then turned to walk off, it was late, his brothers would be worried sick about him if he didn’t return home soon…! Daniel practically sprinted back to the house, it wouldn’t take him as long since he was running down, still thinking about that vision… Thinking about his mom and dad, he could call them that now, he knew next time… Things wouldn’t be so awkward returning to the graves… Taker was right, he should’ve not doubted him… After all he would know… And after a bit of jogging, he finally got back to the house, he opened the door to both his brothers standing by.

Kane snapped his head up “About time you…” And then Kane looked surprised, he looked in shock as he shot up from his seat, Taker doing the same, the two walking over “D-Daniel? …Wh…What’s wrong? Why are you… Crying?” Kane looked concerned, before he could start threatening anybody if they hurt him, he quickly ran over and hugged both Kane and The Undertaker, hugging them in a tight embrace, the two shared each other confused glances but just merely hugged back, albeit a bit awkwardly “What uh, what’s this hug for exactly?” Daniel smiled “...Just hugging my brothers… That’s all” …That wasn’t the case, Bryan was hugging them for so many more reasons than just being brothers but there’s no way he could tell them what happened, he just… Couldn’t… Even though it was awkward, he knew the two appreciated the hug… “...I’m sorry…” Daniel couldn’t help but feel the need to apologize either, which confused them even more, Taker speaking up “What are you sorry for, boy? Look, we- We’re not mad for you staying out late or anything like that… Don’t worry about it, man…”

Daniel wouldn’t tell them the reason he was apologizing either, he wouldn’t tell them about any of the things he had witnessed tonight, at least, not yet… He wasn’t sure if he’d ever tell them, or if he ever could, but at least now he knows he’s accepted not only by his brothers but by their parents as well, he felt closure, he felt closure in more ways than that tonight, and then he felt their hug get a bit tighter, it was comforting and secure, it made him feel… Safe… This made Bryan sigh, it was a content sigh… And then he had one thought in his head, that he wished he could say out loud but if he did, he’d have to explain what happened tonight, so for now… This was Daniel’s last thought for the night “...You deserved so much better… You all did…”

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