#NO. I WILL CHOOSE LOVE. I WILL CHOOSE FAITH.
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it's nice to see mystery trio aus that aren't fiddlestan tbh. The amount of times I'll see one, think it looks interesting, and then it just turns into "wow Stan, you're so much nicer and cooler than your lame brother! Lets date!" And act like it's some kind of karma for Ford or something.
I definitely agree with your take that so often fiddlestan is just used as a way to express dislike of Ford, while ignoring any of Stan's canonical flaws
As a side note, since this is more of personal headcanon territory, but i think Stan would find Fiddleford too reminiscent of Ford when he was young to actually be interested.
Anyway, i always love to see Stan in his natural habitat (being a chaotic uncle)
I love the idea of the Mystery Trio. I think these three would play off each other really well. They're cute and funny together, but you don't need Fiddlestan. It feels like people treat it as a given that if offered the choice between Stan and Ford Fidds would choose Stan. Which is kind of shitty. (Low key it kind of reads to me like Ford is assumed the worse partner because he's autistic :/ even if people aren't consciously treating him that way.)
I think it's kind of presumptuous to assume Fidds would be into Stan anyway. Like physically attracted to him? Sure, obviously. If he finds Ford attractive odds are good Stan would also be nice to look at, but relationships aren't just physical attraction and it's obvious from the journals and BOB that Fidds had a very strong connection to Ford. If he's in love with an autistic nerd enough to throw his life away for him why would people assume Stans's wildly contrasting personality would somehow be more appealing?
I've actually had this comic kicking around in my mind for a while and this ask gave me a good excuse to draw it. (Though it took longer than expected)
While I don't think Fidds would ever choose Stan over Ford, I do think Ford would be a bit of a jealous and insecure partner. He's used to a lot of social rejection and struggles to maintain connections with people. Not to mention trust issues, especially after Bill who tried to sabotage his faith in Fiddleford in particular.
I wouldn't put it past Ford to get antsy seeing Fidds get along with his brother even if there's absolutely nothing going on there.
Also, I hadn't considered the suggestion that Stan might find Fidds nerdiness a turn-off because it reminds him too much of his brother, but yeah I could see it. Still, I'd buy Stan being interested in Fidds before I could really see the other way around happening. I think Stanley's tastes are bit broader but Fiddleford I imagine to have a bit more of a type. At least where romantic attraction is concerned. That said I don't think Fiddleford's actual tastes are really considered, I think he gets shipped with Stanley by people who want to see Stanley get that kind of overbearing love that Fidds showed to Ford. I do understand wanting to give him that kind of partner but Ford deserves love too, we don't need to be taking his healthy romantic option away from him and leave him with Bill. (His abuser.)
#gravity falls#ford pines#stanford pines#ford^2#fiddauthor#au#fiddleford hadron mcgucket#young ford pines#stanly pines#young stanley#papa ford au#mystery trio
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#glad other christians are catching the odd statements about hell#idylls denies the eternity of hell as it is warned about and it inevitably bled into the post#keep in mind that Jesus spoke more about hell than He did about heaven as it has very real consequences#christianity#be mindful of what you read
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Hi. Firsts things first my name is Kaleb, not Idylls which might be a stupid thing to be upset about but you would know my name if you knew me, which you do not. And as such you really should be more mindful about what you say.
I am well aware of all the people mentioning what they think are my views on hell and I have ignored all except 1. Idrc what a bunch of strangers think; I am following @/greater than the sword tho and tho I disagree with her on a lot I would prefer she think well of me.
You, however, are just rude. I am not a hell denier. Actually talk to me for five seconds about my thoughts on divine justice and you would know that. After reading my essay — if indeed you did read it — do you really think I am unaware that of the theology of hell? I have been a conservative Christian all my life and grew up in a conservative southern Baptist premillennialist young earth creationist church. I assure you, I know about hell 🙄.
That said I also know many other things. Like Gehenna — either 1) the Valley of [the Son of] Hinnom or 2) the Valley of Wailing — being a trash heap in southwest Jerusalem where kings would slaughter their children and so Yahweh declared he would slaughter them in the valley. I know that translating Gehenna as hell is pretty unhelpful. I know that the hope of the Christian faith is not life after death (heaven) but life after life after death (resurrection after heaven). I know that the hope of the Christian faith is the rebirth of the universe and the marriage of heaven and earth. I know that Christians do not die because they are united to Christ and Christ is forever alive and we are forever alive in him. I know that the ancient hebrews lacked belief in an immaterial soul. I know that God is not a sadistic tyrant who needs his pound of flesh. I know that God hates hell. I know they God is an eternal community of other centered life giving love from the Father to the Son (and extension to his body the church) communicated by the Spirit. I know that I do not sing forever the praises of thd God who didn’t kill me, but rather I am willing to die at the hands of evil in the name of the God who liberated me from slavery to sin and death by dying the death of a slave tho he knew no sin. I know that the Orthodox believe that heaven and hell are one play and that your experience depends on theosis. I know (some?) Roman Catholics believe that hell is not burning fire but deprivation from God who is source of all goodness and beauty. I know that annihilationalists believe that since God is Life, to reject God is to reject Life thus choosing death. I know that C.S Lewis believed hell is an autonomous choice and God’s respect to human dignity where the doors are locked on the inside.
I mentioned in the post that “some Christians idea of hell has developed past “God mad. Punish sinner.” And into a more temporary condition and even autonomous choice on the individual.” I meant to say “or” not “and”. That is 100% my mistake. Those are 2 completely separate views.
It is also a mistake I cleared up in the tags of a reblog so if you cared they deeply you could’ve found it.
The view that hell is basically a purgatory and all will eventually be saved is called purgatorial universalism.
I am not a purgatorial universalist and think that while valid it is still wrong. Universalism is just diet-Calvinism (which I disagree with) dunked in sugar and candy and icing. (Me and a friend haves talked about both at length in dms)
Even if I was a purgatorial universalist, it would not warrant your response because it is not a denial of hell, even if it denies the eternity of hell. It is a denial of your conception of hell, if your conception of hell is just burning torture for eternity. That said, many many many conservative Christians from Nondenominational Evangelical to Eastern Orthodox would disagree with that conception.
As for what my conception of hell actually is, it’s that you shouldn’t be rude by accusing people of being hell deniers. I am literally some random teenager on the internet like come on.
Goodness. Is this what Tim Mackie feels like when he’s called a hell denier? As for the people in the reblogs calling TBP hell deniers: just admit you don’t understand their conception of hell. Just say you disagree or don’t understand but for the love of Christ don’t say they (or I) are hell deniers. We’re not. Chill out.
Also hell is mentioned twice in this entire post. Like. Maybe focus on the actual topic which is the sovereignty of God over life and death, his abounding faithfulness and loyal love, and the justice he will bring on his own people if they do evil towards others.
insane for parents to read the story of isaac and abraham to their kids like ok so would you also kill me if god asked you to, dad?
#this is probably incoherent#and possibly mean#if anything is rude please forgive me#(I haven’t eaten all day 😭)#if anyone does want to know what I think of he’ll feel free to ask#just don’t throw accusations at literal strangers
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“Unrequited”
I always find myself drawn to the unreachable,
Hearts that beat in rhythms I can’t seem to match.
I’m a spark hoping to light their world,
But they are rain, indifferent and detached.
When I care, I give—
Pieces of myself folded into small gestures,
Words crafted with meaning,
Time gifted without measure.
But their responses are echoes,
Faint and fleeting,
A half-hearted text,
A smile without meaning.
So I stop.
Because chasing love feels like chasing the wind,
Grasping for something that slips through my fingers.
I stop.
Because my worth isn’t tied to unanswered calls
Or empty spaces where effort lingers.
Still, the questions whisper in the quiet:
Am I too much or never enough?
Is there something broken within me,
Too jagged for someone to hold,
Too fragile to be seen as whole?
Why do I keep landing in the friendzone,
A comfortable purgatory where feelings are shelved?
Why do I always find myself
Caring more than they ever could?
But maybe it’s not me.
Maybe it’s the ones I choose—
The ones who don’t see my worth,
Who can’t hold the depth of what I offer.
I remind myself:
Love shouldn’t feel like begging,
Like a garden watered but left to wither.
Love should grow wild and free,
Effort met with effort,
Eyes that see, hands that hold.
So I’ll wait.
For someone who texts back,
Who sees me as I am—not broken,
But a mosaic of strength and flaws,
Beautifully human.
And until then,
I’ll love myself the way I hoped they would.
No more chasing, no more questioning.
Just me,
And the faith that someday,
Someone will stay.
- DK
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Tolkien's fandom may have created the opposite of woobification and I really need to figure out why because this is the first time that I stumble on people actually wanting to reduce a hot male villain to a irredeemable caricature Often villains played by attractive white males (or describe like one in books) are excused of about anything and turned into poor little things that can't help but act like they do because everyone is so fucking mean to them In this vein all is forgiven Rape, murder, whatever But over here people will try their darn best to shut any discussion of sauron that hasn't him pinned down as mustache twirling unfeeling black hole and this confuses me so much Is possible to understand why a caracther acts like he acts and even sympathize with them in a way without having to excuse their actions and agree with their pov Why seeing Sauron (that canonically begun as pure and full of ligth like none of us simple humans will ever be) as a complex individual that still is capable of goodness (and still chooses evil wich to me it only makes worse) and consider that his time under Morgoth has left a mark upon him seems to bother people so much ? I've said before but I will repeat myself Sauron's intentions are good and I find this absolutely terrifying He is not very different from Galadriel In the show both are willing to do anything to achieve what they consider to be the the best thing Both are self righteous and have a fanatical faith that themselves and no one else knows what is best for middle earth Both refuse to listen to others and are single minded in their pursuit of what they find to be their destiny and don't make me go trought their entitlement and appetite for violence The difference between him and Galadriel is obvious Morgoth but even more deeper than that is that gal have experienced love and is surrounded by friends that despite their own flaws always pushes her back to the ligth Poor Mairon never had that And no me feeling for him in this way don't make me an idiot that is fooled by him To me Mairon's/Sauron's tragedy is that he never had a village to civilize him He never learned love and now he confuses power with goodness Love with ownership and care with tyranny He really wants to get things right but he can't do it since no one taught him and now he chases to fix what's broken in middle earth so maybe whatever is broken inside him may also be healed and this won't happen because he is destroying himself as well as the world he is trying to save
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This is exclusive to those who feel like or who felt like they had to choose between their faith or their queerness. This is NOT open to simply anyone who is religious.
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Caitvi and Timebomb nations, Meljay democracy feels your pain.
Having these characters you love and their stories and their love being pushed to the side because of a “ship“ that not only isn’t canon and is brotherly love but also watching the pain that majority of your ships are going through. Seeing how the show and certain fans ignore it and leave all these characters you love in this horrible position.
I would’ve loved to see Vi get to have her own journey where she doesn’t end up without anyone except Caitlyn but having her sister back in a different way where they all take care of each other. I know an older sibling out there needs to see themself being taken care of and growing from past hurt with their younger sibling.
Or Caitlyn getting to properly heal from losing her mother and all these changes in her beliefs at once. Seeing her making the choice to be better than the beliefs she might have seen her parents embody while growing up. Who can’t relate to wanting to be better than what your parents showed you?
Or Ekko who doesn’t, we don’t even know, lose his tree and doesn’t lose the best friend and love he finally got back. How many of us are tired of just constantly giving all of ourself and the universe seemingly not caring?
What about a world where Jinx got to choose to live? Where she gets to be the representation we deserve for people who are struggling with mental health every day and still choosing to fight while still being loved by her sister and childhood best friend?
Where Mel isn’t just another black woman who has to be strong on her own and can finally rely on those around her? Where she can grow from the anger she was raised to only see and instead choose love and the family you make in the real world?
and where Jayce isn’t just another man of colour pushed to the side where his only purpose is to lift up the meow meow of certain people. Where men can love their friends and wear their hearts on their sleeve and at the end be rewarded with chosen family (Caitlyn and Vi) and love (Mel)
We deserved to see these stories. We deserved some semblance of hope because the world is so scary now. And just having moments where we can celebrate loving someone from the other side while being women or your long time love seeing a flicker of hope and carrying on or you seeing hope in all that you fight for or just taking the step to move away from all that you’ve known (your blood family) and holding the hand of the person who gave you the space to grow that or or just the reward that not losing faith in humanity is in a bad thing I’m being punished for still having hope would mean so much to so many different people.

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saw a post on here that i dont want to be negative on and detract from but it made me realize that yeah. my parents would choose their faith over their child. and have. neither of them said i love you or goodbye the day i came out, after i wrote a big long letter to them explaining more about my gender and bisexuality, in which i compared being trans to the stress of being a moth when everyone expects you to be a butterfly, my father told me i had “better be celibate or else i’d not only be a moth but a dirty one too.”
and it is hard to look past the hurt of this sometimes and realize that it is just cruelty. they are so rigid about god they would rather bring the hammer on their own suffering child than examine their own belief system and admit maybe they were wrong. or at the very least, learn something.
but my mother told me once she was “too old to learn something new” and my father has been very consistent and open about the order of priorities in his life, which he has constantly repeated are “#1 God, #2 Family, #3 Self” but it is of my opinion in being this way to his own child he has actually chosen to put Self before all, because he would rather not violate his own invented priorities than extend empathy for his child. Because in his set of priorities, to do so would violate #1, and to violate this set of priorities harms no one but himself.
but why do I call such priorities invented? Isn’t that the rule we are taught in our faith? Well in my faith I learned that God is imminent within everything. So this hierarchical priority list sets a false expectation of reality that simply doesn’t exist. Why must every situation in life default to this hierarchy? Why must your expression of love be tiered? Why would you rather conform to this tiered and hierarchical structure that suppresses those you love underneath others than understand that each gives equal and unique value and is shifting priority at different times? Not only that, but to venture out of this constructed hierarchy for two seconds to examine other aspects of our faith that say that God is in our words and our actions, and thus by merely holding the intention in your heart with words you say and actions you do you can actually still prioritize him at all times without subjugating others beneath him.
But what do I know? I wasn’t raised by these same staunch Christians or anything. I certainly don’t know that hierarchies of power thrive on fear and that in fact these actions of cruelty to your family and children, in this model, are actually expressions of love. Because if you don’t conform to God’s expectations, then you don’t get into heaven, so anyone who tries to quash any sense of nonconformity out of you is actually looking out for the best interest of your soul. It is hard to explain to someone who has built an entire lifetime on fear of being punished that their actions of cruelty are not expressions of love.
When my parents hit me as a child, this was not an expression of love. This was an expression of power and fear. I had done something wrong that I didn’t know better and from their worldview the only way to “teach” me correctly would be to make me suffer a corporeal punishment. This did nothing but make me fear and distrust them. This did nothing but drive extreme distance between us, and yet my parents would call these expressions of love. Because I was learning the proper way to behave. And not only this, but this understanding of discipline is indeed false, because I work with young children every summer and never once have had to even think about raising a hand to them to get them to understand. These priorities are the same.
Their actions were cruelty. It’s as simple as that. They were disrespectful and unkind, and they drove the final wedge that made me understand that they would rather hang tightly on in fear to the expectations of their own faith than share joy with me at my hypothetical gay wedding. And why would I do them the disservice of inviting them to such an event, an event that may ask them to compromise their own values, when I already know what path they have chosen? Perhaps the expression of love to them, then, is keeping them away. But I do wonder if they’d still feel this way if they weren’t invited to my wedding.
When I was 18 and going into college my mom told me that “my beliefs were very strong, and to never do anything that compromised my values.” And I never have. I never have.
#current mood#christianity#religion#they’re just miserable people#i saw them for dinner yesterday and i dont think my mom smiled once#truly i think part of why my dad prioritizes god over family is because he’s not happy with my mother#and so he spends all his time away from home doing charity etc#but thats an entirely different discussion#their faith has ruined their lives i really do think
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HOTD OC FACE CLAIM HELP
I am an indecisive little bitch and I always struggle with finding a proper cast that actually suits their vibes. So I am just going to leave it to Tumbl to help me decide based on their parents, personality and the vibe I am looking for in their looks and YOU, yes you, are gonna help!
Subject: Myrielle Vallici
Part 2 - Alaric Vallici
Part 3 - Nymeria Vallici
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Personality: Myrielle Vallici is an intelligent woman to begin with. Wherever she moves, people’s attention is sure to follow. She has this innate ability to charm people, and put subtle influence to good use as she plays both the social and political affairs of court. Being given her charm is not some kind of a gift for her but an art that comes with practice. She feels at ease in commanding any space, whether it’s with her words, her elegance or her empathy for others that makes people feel heard. Myrielle is sophisticated and well-mannered, having a great appreciation of music, art and literature. A huge history lover and somewhat of a nerd, she delves herself deeply into all her passions. Despite her calm demeanor, she harbors a fierce ambition. As a child, Myrielle was wide-eyed and optimistic, enthralled by the beauty of the world and its possibilities. While she started off meek and quiet, Myrielle grew to become fierce and independent. Despite her ambitions, Myrielle’s heart is shaped by a deep need for love and belonging. She is in incredible need of love and some sort of physical affection, deprived almost. She is often torn between her personal desires and the demands of family, duty, or her Faith. Her father is a religious figure, putting his ideologies in his children and it was Myrielle who connected most with them. Incredibly devout to the Gods and when something bad happens, she thinks the Gods must be punishing her for a sin. Myrielle’s charisma makes her both admired and envied. She understands how to influence others, using her beauty and femininity as tools with understated elegance. This ability allows her to identify others’ desires and insecurities which allows her to position herself above them. According to the court, Myrielle is frequently the subject to speculation, envy, and malice. She is portrayed as a whore, bastard or scapegoat, even when innocent or well-intentioned. This only fuels her determination to protect herself and her loved ones, which usually hardens her against the world. Yet at heart, she is still the sweet and innocent girl she is. When not needed to be in politics, she is a warm hearted person and always reaches out to people. She is soft with her words, being the Mother figure to her friends and siblings. She is the eldest daughter syndrome personified. Her heart is however the most genuine and sweetest when she allows herself to open up. She is incredibly stubborn though. She refuses to be in the wrong even when she knows she is. Have I made it clear that she is one cunning yet gentle women?
Vibes: Thick long curls that frame her face. Pale of skin. Almost feline like eyes. Soft face and small lips. Soft curves and stands at 5”5.
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I’m not going to force a whole rant upon you /lh (edit: I lied) but I think when the game told us about ‘forced prosthetics’ most portrayals in the fandom focused on prosthetics being his trauma and not him rebelling against something that his family tells him will be good for him. Like, to me, since his story is about finding himself, it makes sense he felt very strongly about being pressured by society to take a step he wasn’t ready for, thus villainising it fully. He felt like there was no escape (the book expands on that, he feels like if he fails his family’s expectations by refusing to do things or straying from the expected path, he will become a prodigal son. Demian tells him that maybe it’s not so bad to be Cain, because Cain was his own person, so no matter if you’re condemned or not, at least it’s for actions you willingly took). So like, it makes sense that, on his own, he could consent to augumentation when he’s older. He doesn’t despise it or isn’t repulsed, I think. That’s Kromer’s thing. For Emil it’s more so that he felt trapped and as a result, he pushed away everything tied to his upcoming procedure. I think it actually adds a lot of depth to consider that, after he went through his trauma and grew a little as a person, he looks back at that event and realises that what he wanted was to feel free to choose and do things at his own pace, meaning just as much as he hated feeling judged for making his decisions he judged his loved ones for making the opposite decision to what he believed was right
In the book this arc was a religious ceremony (bierzmowanie, sorry for polish, no idea how it’s called in English). Like, officially entering the church. The church that filled him with more guilt that faith and the church he was beggining to question. It didn’t feel great to feel like he has to do it. But instead of hating all religion he gets to experience different views on spirituality and meets people with varying opinions as years go by. And he never fully fits because in the end it’s about forming a path that is right for him
So all in all, his trauma isn’t really based solely on prosthetics. It’s about how feeling like he has to do something pushed him so far towards the other direction that he (not on purpose) got others hurt. For something he himself was afraid of getting hurt for (like, his sister choosing to follow his parents; that was her choice, something she wanted and he was so afraid of not being able to choose what happens to his body that he started feeling distain for what she chose to do to hers; a distain that turned fatal for her and the rest of the family)
Hey. HEY. Are we gonna talk about this?
Emil "I have trauma from my family wanting to roboticize me" Sinclair, getting "augmentations"?
What happened to you, babygirl...
#not coherent cause I’ve got works soon#I have more thoughts#but I already sound a bit dim probably hhh#limbus company#limbus sinclair
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*thinks about ult dirk* *crushes phone between my teeth*
#THE WORST OUTCOME FOR HIM THE WORST WAY FOR HIM TO FIND MEANING AND PURPOSE#HE WAS ALWAYS CAPABLE OF IMMENSE EVIL BUT HAS THE CAPACITY FOR THE MOST ARDENT LOVE#TO BE COMPOSED OF EVERY VERSION OF YOURSELF WHEN ALMOST EVERY VERSION IS A DEAD END#WHERE IS THE HOPE. WHERE IS THE FAITH THAT THINGS WILL GET BETTER.#SOMEWHERE OUT THERE. IN THE VAST EXPANSE OF PARADOX SPACE. A SINGLE VERSION OF DIRK IN AN OFFSHOOT TIMELINE SAID. NO.#NO. I WILL CHOOSE LOVE. I WILL CHOOSE FAITH.#IT WAS A ONE IN A MILLION CHANCE. AND THIS. THIS SINGLE INSTANT. WILL EAT AT ULT DIRK FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFR.#BECAUSE IT MEANS THAT HE COULD HAVE CHOSEN WRONG. BECAUSE IT MEANS HE HAS.#HE HAS THE ABILITY TO TRUST. AND TO HOPE.#AND NOW. HIS STORY. THE ONE THAT HE WAS SO DETERMINED TO SEE THROUGH.#IS NOW. INDEFINITELY. INCOMPLETE.#lofaf ramblings
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man, you know, nobody asked me, but I have such conflicting opinions on some of the fat falin art, where on one hand: it's always nice to see A Fat Body in fanart anywhere + it's being done in positive ways, for funsies and on the other hand, there is something so familiar about how you are automatically The Fat One if you are a woman simply standing next to a more petite woman, bc I've had a 0% hitrate in seeing people change Marcille's body type and keep Falin's, or change both of them. it's just Falin
#it gives me a negative feeling that I seldom/never get from seeing fat art which is rare#like she's not fat out of thin air For Fun And No Other Reason and she's not fat bc of context#(out of thin air being like just picking a character you like and changing their design just cuz. Kabru maybe.)#(and Because Of Context being the way ppl draw fat Usagi from sailor moon. which i have been meaning to do btw)#but rather she's fat just bc to be Not the thinnest woman in the room is to be fat. like it happens specifically by scale#because marcille is so much physically smaller and petite and falin is bigger in the ways that a Human Woman is bigger#than an elf woman#and it's funny bc it's something i see all the time already#people also really don't seem to have an interest in making marcille butch in fanart in a way#that is sort of sad for me bc it's like ah well she's the thin small one so of course she gets to be feminine#if you're physically bigger then of course you get to be masc of course of course of course...#i also love good butch art esp fat butch stuff but this is about the phenomenon where if you're with#a thinner shorter woman then that means you're the butch now which is a place I have been to#and I did not like it there#I think part of why That sticks it to me is bc marcille has such a Butch Girlfriend personality and falin acts so demure LMAO#but she's slightly bigger so the writing is on the wall#sergle.txt#Godspeed to you if you choose to read these thoughts in bad faith bc I can't give you more clarifying statements if I try#like I said. conflicting feelings#i don't know if anyone else has similar thoughts it May Just Be Me#I don't think ppl think about this stuff when they make their fan redesigns but it gives me a certain feeling
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Thinking about how, at the end of the day, at the fatal moment, the sunset of the Republic, it wasn’t Yoda, or Obi-Wan, or even the Chosen One himself standing in the way of Palpatine. It was Mace Windu.
Mace Windu, the inventor of Vaapad and Master of Form VII, the Jedi's strongest duelist, the only person to ever defeat Palpatine in combat. Mace Windu, Master of the Jedi Council and the youngest Master ever appointed to it, the revered leader of the Order. Mace Windu, who forgave even those who tried to kill him, who risked his life over and over again for his troops, who, after 3 years of desperate war, tried to negotiate with battle droids. Mace Windu, who knew the clones were created by the Sith and chose to trust them, who saw every Shatterpoint in the Republic, and loved it still, and fought for it until his last breath, until he was betrayed by Anakin, who he believed in and trusted despite everything.
Mace Windu, High General and hero of the Republic, the embodiment of the Light, the last and greatest champion of the Order, the best Jedi to ever live.
#I’ve said my piece goodnight#don’t play with me Mace Antis I have receipts for every last one of these#pretty much everyone agrees that he was the best duelist there was and he obviously won the fight#Anakin's choice wouldn't make thematic sense otherwise#also vader did not defeat palpatine in combat sorry he just grabbed him while he was distracted#it literally had to be a fair fight and Anakin had to be the one to choose to create the empire that's what the prequels are about#Star Wars databank calls him ‘revered’ shatterpoint tells us he was the youngest (real) member of the council#Boba Fett (tcw) and Prosset Dibs (comics) tried to kill him and he asked for amnesty and forgave them#literally just watch the Ryloth arc he spends most of his screentime saving his men#in tcw season seven he pleads with the battle droids to surrender hoping that no one else has to die#there's the part near the end of tcw where the council realizes that the clones were created by Dooku but Mace and the rest of the council#trust the clones so much they're willing to ignore it#the scene from Mace's POV in the rots novelization talks about how much he loves the republic and how he was blindsided by Anakin's betraya#because he trusted him!! we see in aotc that he has more faith in Anakin's abilities than Obi-wan#and he defeated the most powerful sith of all time single-handedly#BEST JEDI EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!#sw prequels#star wars prequels#prequel trilogy#sw prequel trilogy#star wars prequel trilogy#sw rots#star wars rots#revenge of the sith#star wars revenge of the sith#galactic republic#pro mace windu#mace windu#pro jedi order#pro jedi
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ok but like, Modest!Alicent Hightower au (more modest than she already is) cause I feel like it, it adds ✨layers✨
Alicent who veils her hair during her day to day life, elegant laces and silks adorning her long ginger-brown hair, covering it completely at the Sept.
Alicent who wears dresses with long heavy skirts and always covers her elbows with billowing sleeves.
Alicent who conceals her silhouette with thick shaping garments. they also just helped her back during her pregnancies and taking care of kids (her servants recommended them so she'd have full range of motion and support)
Alicent who was stripped of her modesty, her dignity and sense of security whenever Viserys wanted her. stripped of it by her own father when he sent her to Viserys's chambers in a dress that didn't cover as much as she would have liked, especially when she visited a man with those (silent) instructions.
Alicent who lets her hair down around people she trusts. covering it around Rhaenyra after she abandoned her, a blow to Rhaenyra, a blatant "you hurt me and broke my trust". letting Criston see her hair after he becomes her sworn sword. covering in front of Viserys until he demands she stops. Alicent putting a little makeshift veil on her daughter, who wanted to look like her mum, promising it would protect her from how loud the world was.
Alicent who only trusts her closest servants to dress her, and even then insists on being in a full shift before they can come in.
Alicent who felt stripped bare while giving birth to her children.
little Alicent looking up to her mum who was also very modest, and spending her childhood playing in long skirts.
Alicent who wears shawls and scarves out in public or at events. Criston watches to make sure she remains properly covered. her hands fiddling with the patterns or tassels while she talks to others.
Alicent doing this with her kids:
Criston offering her his cloak when she's put in bad situations like sudden crowds or outings.
wearing flowy but opaque fabrics during the summers, looking ethereal and goddess-like with her layers skirts and sleeves.
the whole Larys situation being even more sickening.
all 3 of her sons being protective of her modesty alongside Criston, always offering their cloaks to her or standing to block her from the wind or wandering eyes. Aegon holding her veil in place when it's windy, Aemond placing a cloak over her in public, Daeron fiercely defending his mum from lusting glances or lingering stares.
Helaena continuing to veil with her mum when they go out, they love matching veils and trying ornate styles.
Alicent fixing her daughters veil in attempts to get it to stay in on dragon back. it doesn't. but they don't mind the extra bonding time none the less.
gold veils that literally make her look like she's dripping in gold.
tucking her babes in her shawls or holding them against her skirts that are practically swallowing them whole.
Alicent collecting layers. Ornate undergarments that cover her arms in gold and embroidered patterns, some almost like tapestries others more simple. undershirts that cover her neck, with "choker" patterns and sewn in jewels. modest nightgowns and robes made of the softest, most breathable fabrics in existence.
covering her face on holy days/days of importance.
I just have so many thoughts.
#based vaguely off of my modest Catholic family#cause modesty is so fucking beautiful and I think we should talk about modest Alicent more cause it has so much potential#I think giving her that kayer of preserving her modesty. showing more to those she trusts. having it robbed from her. the way it involves-#those she loves. its all symbolism and its making me salivate. im chewing my own leg.#plus the etheral almost divine beauty that comes from modesty#(but also intentional and consented immodesty. cause they are two sides of the same coin)#is indescribable#especially when its a choice made by someone for themselves and themselves only#alicent (in my mind) chooses to be modest. she wants to be. she does it for herself as a commitment to herself. her faith. her mother.#she loves her modesty and creates her own rules as to who sees what#ita control#it's self care and love#its beautiful#alicent hightower#pro alicent hightower#queen alicent#alicent my beloved#ser criston cole#criston cole#pro criston cole#vauge#alicole#platonic Alicole#aegon targaryen#aegon ii targaryen#aemond targaryen#helaena targaryen#daeron targaryen#pro team green#modesty
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Soichiro is worried about Light’s taste in men. (Let’s assume that somehow Yotsuba was never involved with Kira junk in this reality, lol.)
#drawn by me#my fanart#my fancomic#Death Note#Soichiro Yagami#Light Yagami#L#lawlight#Reiji Namikawa#Teru Mikami#I was asking myself why Light would choose L over Mikami and realized it's because Mikami's too boring for him#I love Mikalight as much as the next shipper but...#without the Kira worshipper thing he'd have a hard time catching Light's eye#he may well still be Kira here memories and all but he has no real desire to stray from L (for now)#Light's gotta shatter his beliefs and faith to get Mikami to cross the 'bitch' line#Light needs a lover with teeth~#I literally yelled when I found out that Namikawa is 12 years older than Light XD#Light doesn't come out to his dad until he's well into his career or keeping his relationship secret is no longer viable#couldn't add proper transcription to the pictures again. had to settle with long captions#as if they'll even be able to be seen and read =__=
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Rewatching aos s5 and s6 and it's so funny that regardless of whether the writers intended it or not, the way Daisy communicates with fellow agents she leads makes is clear that she would in fact, be a great director. She's compassionate and practical and confident and not a single agent we see outside of fs family and yoyo have issues with her. Her fatal flaw is that she's too attached to her old friends who she loves and trusts despite them both having gone a little evil and ruthlessly immoral due to the past season's trauma. Like literally if fitzsimmons respected her as much as they respect each other and as much as Daisy respects them, s5 and s6 would be drastically more positive for the whole team.
#aos#aos rambles#daisy johnson#rewatching 6x01 and the way she talks with piper and davis#right before simmons risks all of their lives for her own selfish desperation to find fitz#makes it so clear what the actual problem with daisy's leadership is#and it's literally just that she still has faith in jemma to be a good person when fitz is involved#which I understand because you don't want to lose your family but the jemma daisy loved couldn't survive fitz's actions in 5x14#she had to choose her morals or her husband and she chose and it was tragic to see#but daisy's still like no it's fine we can all still be a team!#which I understand why she wants that to be true but also piper and davis deserved to throw eggs at simmons for this
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