#My heart is healed and all is right in the world 🥺💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

[holyadoptionpapersbatman]

*INTERNAL SCREAMING*

@holyadoptionpapersbatman doodle of little Damian saying “baba” as requested 💚💚💚

[hannie-bees]

Hey lovely 💕 Can I request Seventeen reactions to reader being in pain during periods? I know this is so basic and common but rn I’m going through a lot of pain and my delusional self needs this kind of comfort 🥹

oh angel 🥺💕 first of all, i’m so sorry you’re going through that right now—period pain is no joke and you deserve all the comfort in the world. i promise this isn’t basic at all—these are exactly the kind of delulu daydreams that get us through the worst cramps 😭 i’ll get on it right away and make it extra soft for you. sending you all the warmth and love rn 💗💗

SEUNGCHEOL — the provider

Instantly enters “dad leader” mode.

"Do you want a heating pad? I’ll go get it. And I’m ordering food. No arguments."

Tucks you into bed like you’re made of glass. He insists you don’t lift a finger.

Holds you in his lap with your back against his chest and rubs your stomach gently.

Tries to distract you by showing you videos of puppies or TikToks.

JEONGHAN — mischievous but soft

At first: “It’s just a period, baby.”

Ten minutes later, he’s got you in his arms like “my baby is suffering 😭"

Teases you lightly just to make you smile but immediately apologizes if you frown.

Offers to brush your hair and brings you chocolate like he’s sneaking drugs past security.

Sits through whatever show or K-drama you want to watch, no complaints.

JOSHUA — the perfect balance

Knows the cycle like a calendar. Has supplies ready before you even ask.

“I made you peppermint tea. It helps with cramps.”

Gives you gentle massages and wraps both of you in a soft blanket cocoon.

Makes breakfast in bed and feeds you strawberries.

Sweet forehead kisses and constant soft “you’re doing so well” praise.

JUN — the lowkey

Doesn’t make a big fuss, but does everything right.

Cooks warm, comforting meals like congee or ramen.

Quietly slides a heating pad under your back while you’re curled up.

Puts on a fantasy movie and lets you lie on his chest while stroking your hair.

If your cramps are bad, he’ll Google remedies and say “Don’t worry. I got you.”

HOSHI — the sunshine (1)

Tries to make you laugh to distract you: “Let me dance away your cramps!”

Brings you a plushie army and says “they’ll guard you while I go make soup.”

Worries more than necessary: “Are you sure you don’t need to go to the hospital??”

Tries (and fails) to make pancakes in the shape of hearts.

Wants cuddles and won’t let you move: “Just lay here with me, I’ll make the pain go away.”

WONWOO — the quiet comfort

Sits beside you in bed while reading his book, hand in yours the whole time.

Lets you lie in his lap and quietly reads to you or plays soft music.

Will write a list of all the things he can do to help you. Seriously.

Buys extra snacks and pads and hides them around the house “just in case.”

Massages your lower back with gentle, warm hands until you drift off.

WOOZI — the secretly sweet one

Grumbles a little like “you should take better care of yourself,” but he’s actually worried sick.

Will give up his studio time to stay by your side.

Makes homemade ginger tea and grumpily says, “Don’t complain. Drink it. It’s good for you.”

Strokes your hair while you nap and adjusts the blanket on you every 20 minutes.

Kisses your forehead before whispering, “I hate seeing you like this…”

THE8 — the healing presence

Immediately lights candles and sets a calming mood.

Offers to do meditation or slow stretches with you to ease the cramps.

“Let me run you a bath, it’ll help.”

Speaks softly and strokes your cheek until you calm down.

Gets philosophical: “Pain is temporary. But love? That’s forever.” (yes he’d say this. Not really, but wtv)

MINGYU — the kitchen boyfriend

Chef mode: pancakes, hot chocolate, ramen, cookies — he makes it all.

Constantly checks on you: “Need water? Snacks? My soul?”

Cuddles you on the couch while watching cartoons and says, “You’re so cute even when you’re grumpy.”

Kisses your tummy

Tries to help but panics if you suddenly wince: “Do I need to call someone!?”

DK — the sunshine (2)

Brings a smile no matter how awful you feel.

“Okay, so you’re cramping, bloated, AND moody? Let me love you harder.”

Plays your favorite songs on guitar and sings to you.

Builds a pillow fort and declares it your “Period Palace.”

Makes dumb jokes until you laugh through the pain.

SEUNGKWAN — the emotional support

Panics at first but turns into the ultimate comfort boyfriend.

Brings you a weighted blanket and insists you take it easy.

Distracts you with gossip and dramatic storytelling: “And THEN you won’t believe what Hoshi did—”

Keeps tissues nearby if you cry during a commercial.

Gives a hundred kisses on your temple and says, “I wish I could take the pain for you.”

VERNON — the quiet caretaker

Notices you’re uncomfortable even before you say anything

Silently queues up your comfort show and hands you a mug of tea.

Doesn’t say much, but keeps checking if you need anything with soft eyes.

Will 100% let you cuddle him like a giant human pillow and let you fall asleep on top of him if it helps ease the pain.

Might text you a random meme while sitting 2 feet away just to make you smile.

DINO — the thoughtful baby

Very concerned and very eager to help: “Is this normal? What do I do? I Googled it.”

Learns your cycle schedule and sets reminders for himself.

Carries your bag and brings your hoodie even if you didn’t ask.

Tries to cook for you even if he’s not that good at it.

Tells you you’re strong and brave, even if you’re crying over a commercial.

🌸 Masterlist 🌸

[eunnieboo]

IYHM ask replies! (2/3)

🌸 @csevet asked:

hi my copy of iyhm just came in and my fiancee and i snuggled up and read the whole thing cover to cover and CRIED!!! i love when lesbians 💕💞💝💗💝💗💘💞💖💗💝

AHHHHH thank you SO much!!! OMGGGGG 🥺 live laugh lesbian..... 💞💗💖💕💖💞💕💖💗

🌸 @chrysalis-the-butterfly asked:

I read If You'll Have Me a few months ago and I loved it! Your art is so pretty and Momo and PG are such cool characters! 🥰 If you're okay with sharing, I'd be interested to hear what inspired you during the creative process? Were there any pieces of media or any other characters which influenced the formation of Momo and PG? Or did you do your own thing?

oh my gosh! thank you!! i really love character interactions and relationship dynamics, so i wanted to depict two girls who seemed like opposites - one cool and laid-back, the other soft and sweet. after a while they started to take on a life of their own, and i thought it'd be wonderful if their story could evoke the feeling of a shoujo romance!

i had a lot of things on my mind when i wrote the script... friendship, intimacy, communication... communication can be so hard! sometimes it's harder with someone you're close to because their opinion is so important to you. and what happens when you've got a character who's non-confrontational and has low self-esteem + someone who prefers actions over words, and would rather burn bridges than admit to feeling vulnerable? how would they get past that? i wanted to write their flaws as believable, and how their life experiences have shaped the way they think about themselves / the way they respond to personal conflict... but also how they learn from each other and grow ❤️ tysm for the question!!

@bisexualgoof asked:

Hi Eunnie! I just finished reading “If You’ll Have Me” and let me tell you, it was spectacular! I saw it in a local bookstore the other day and it was a no brainer to grab. The characters are so fun, the story is beautiful and heartfelt, and honestly every character is attractive… I especially fell in love with the pages of the books without words, especially 312-313, it made me cry. Such beautiful art! I related to PG’s annoyance with her long hair, I felt very seen with her comments. I’ve definitely said “I’d like to forget” so many times myself, right to my butch heart haha. Thank you for sharing this story with the world, and thank you in particularly for your acknowledgment at the end of the book, it made me feel seen. What an amazing love story, hope to see more of this adorable couple in the future!

oh my goodness!! this is so lovely and wonderful and ahhh T_T thank you so very much. it's such a dream, having these girls be out in the world with their personalities and backstories revealed at last! and i'm so happy to hear about the cast and side characters, i love designing people hehe ♥ i'll definitely keep drawing this couple, alongside more sapphic couples that are to come 😍 thank you!!

🌸 @skittles-rainbow-cat asked:

HI HI HI!!! you’ve been one of my fave artists forever and i just got done with iyhm and it’s sooooo amazing im in love with it. also i think strawberry blonde by chloe moriondo fits mono and pg very well :] i hope you’re having a good day and thank you for all your art it heals me in many ways <3333

HIIII omg!!! thank you so much! this song is so cuteeee oh my gosh this line:

Takes my hand in hers when the lights aren’t on Smaller than mine and oh god I am gone

it's so sweet ;_; thank you forever, i hope you're having a wonderful day!! <3 <3 <3

🌸 @lord-of-the-froggies asked:

Howdy Eunnie! I know you're probably swamped with work right now, but I just wanna let you know that I got my copy of your book today!! I'm gonna start reading it right away, it looks and feels amazing. From a fellow Washington artist to another--congratulations on such a huge achievement!

yay hello fellow washingtonian! and fellow artist!! thank you so much for your kind words 🥺 and i'm so glad the book got to you safely! wishing you a happy read~

🌸 Anonymous asked:

I just found your art today and after scrolling through your stuff I went and pre-ordered your book. I'm so excited!!

omggg thank you that means so much!!! ;_; <3

🌸 @ddooyoung asked:

I got my (signed!) copy of the book, and I love it SO MUCH. It's everything I was hoping and more. I love finally getting to know them, especially Momo. Since the first time I saw them, I thought Momo was a lot like me and now I have confirmation 😆 Thank you so much for writing such a wonderful story!!! I'm excited for everything you do 💗

WAHH thank you so much!! yesss i'm so overjoyed to finally share their story after so long! i hope the signature turned out okay, i was very nervous signing books for the first time (shaky hand and everything) 😱 i think next time it would be fun to make a custom stamp and stamp a doodle next to my signature hehe. thank you again!!! 💕

🌸 Anonymous asked:

I somehow missed the news about your having created a whole damn book?? was just flipping through yu & me books's holiday gift guide and did a double take when I saw priscilla and momo!! zoomed in and sure enough, there was your name at the bottom! congrats on ihym and congrats on being featured on rec lists from shops as cool as yu & me 🎉😍

omggg thank you thank you!! 🥰 AHHH yu & me books looks so amazing! i've been to new york just once but if i ever get to go back i have to visit them... i'm always looking for indie bookstores to throw my money at 😤

🌸 Anonymous asked:

1. Will there be an “if you’ll have me” sequel? 2. Is Momo her full name or a Nick name? If it’s a Nick name what is her full name? Thank you i love your work! ❤️😊

ahh there's no sequel planned as of right now! but i'd love to make one if i get the chance... i have some ideas that i think would be fun <3 and momo gardner is her full name! i liked gardner because it made me think of flowers ☺️❤️ thank you so much!!

🌸 @upsidedown-shadow-dreamer asked:

Hello, long time fan here. If You'll Have Me was delivered an hour ago and I've already finished my first read. OMG it's AMAZING. I love the story, the beautiful art, the inner thoughts, the pacing, the page color changes for back story… Just major WOW. I hope you are so proud of this work. I'm already looking forward to reading it again. Thank you!!!

this is sooooo AHHHHH T_T i'm in tears. i can't tell you how happy and thrilled i am to hear this!!! it's so encouraging and uplifting and ahh!! i want to make more stories... and just knowing that this book will be read by the same person more than once, omg! it's truly the highest of praise. thank you from the bottom of my heart <333

🌸 Anonymous asked:

Hello!! I just remembered I could borrow graphic novels as e-books from my local library, found IYHM, devoured the entire thing in one sitting, then went through your tags so I could look at all your other IYHM art, and I was wondering if you'll make more stories about Momo and PG because I can't get enough of them! Absolutely obsessed with these two and I love seeing them so happy together 💖💖💖💖

hello!! oh i'm absolutely over the moon about this! i can definitely see myself making a follow-up book if i'm so lucky 🙏 but i'll keep on drawing more minicomics and illustrations no matter what!! thank you so much for this wonderful message 💕💕💕💕

🌸 Anonymous asked:

hi!! love love love your art!!! do you think we can expect to see another graphic novel about momo and priscilla in the future?

🌸 Anonymous asked:

I’ve read IYHM so many times already and I absolutely loved it!!!! Are you planning on writing another book with Momo and PG? Is is there a way we can buy more of your stories?

thank you both so much!!!! <3 a sequel is actually one of the ideas i pitched for my second book! my editor cautioned against it in case IYHM didn't perform well, so i ended up going in a different direction - but my fingers are crossed for future opportunities 😤 realistically, it will probably depend on sales... but for the record, i'd want to do one regardless of the numbers...

i have one more book coming out, which i'm working on right now! the timeline is a bit up in the air atm but i'll try to keep everyone posted. making a book is so slow but i'm so grateful to you all for waiting 🥺💛

🌸 @randomqueernoun asked:

Do you make webcomics for other apps/websites? If yes where can I find them and what do I search in them to find your comics?

ahh not at the moment! but thank you SO much for the interest! one of my biggest goals right now is to set up a website where i have all my work in one place, and that would definitely be the place where i post future webcomics 👀

also, just as an aside... i want to make webcomics so bad. i think after my next book, i might take a break from traditional publishing to do that. sometimes i can't believe i'm drawing hundreds of pages i can't post... i'm like, how are people supposed to read this if i can't show them? how will they know?! ahh it kills me... but yes... someday!!!

part 3 to come~

[legacyshenanigans]

Bare with me... I'm feeling the big sentimental

I can't express to you how much Marvolo means to me, the emotional connection I have to him I've never felt for another fictional character.

No matter what happening in my life I can just look at a photo of Volo and it physically heals me (my favourite ones are those where he is smiling)

Anytime I need to disassociate from my real life I come here, like when I thought that you left for good and won't be posting anything at all I have to literally sit and think what I would do to escape to someplace better. (but also thankfully you didn't delete the blog entirely)

I lost all my photos a while back god knows how... And one of the main reasons I was sobbing my eyes out at midnight was that I had so many photos of Marvolo and Rowan and I lost them all.

There aren't many places in real life where I feel safe... Your blog is one of the few where I do, feel safe to say the first thing that comes to my mind (even if they are mostly horny thoughts heh)

I feel like I have said so much yet I still want to say more...

The main thing is that you've felt safe since day 1 and I can count on my hands how many people in my life have made me feel that way

I can't see through the tears anymore so I'm going to end it here <33

Love you so much

Wolfy 🐺

I cannot fucking express right now how much this ask touched me. I swear to god, im speechless. 🥺

What lovely words to tell me, Wolfy 💕

I was never going to go forever in general, just from HL stuff.

Your support and love has been amazing, and I really appreciate it, like, A LOT 💜

I'm so happy that my little world helped you in some way, hearing that makes me smile. 💚

BIG love to you, Wolf, seriously ❤️🤍

Also,

I do remember at one point that I had said if I left the HL fandom, I'd be taking my blog with me.

I've since realised I don't want to do that because of the bond I have to this blog now and you guy's.

Tbh, the last few days was mainly me saying goodbye to HL side of things. Because I'm not going to be posting HL content anymore (aside from a few audio's that I may make to use up my 11labs letters, then after that, I won't be posting the HL stuff anymore. And at first I thought that was also going to include my OC stuff, i'm still on the fence about what I wanna do regarding content on my OC's, but i'm happy posting murder hubby pics for now, I will make some audio's of him too, I still don't know if its worth me writing anything currently, and I wanted to take a break from doing written posts anyway for the time being, I really don't know what I wanna do.

All I know is that RIGHT now, my heart is still VERY invested in my creation of Marvolo, and tbh, Rominis too (Ominis being the only HL character I still care about because of what i built with him and Rowan) so it's hard to decide what I want to do right now in regards to written posts. I've had so many people reach out and tell me to stay and JUST write Marvolo / OC stuff if that's what makes me happy, and I mean, they're right, I should just do whatever I want, but my brain isn't my friend at the moment.

I've got pictures to post, and those 11labs letters to use, I'm just kinda taking each day as it comes to see what I want to do.

I've also had people tell me my HL love might spark again when HL2 comes out, which let's be real, isn't going to be for a long time I reckon, but yeah, I'm going to keep this blog up definitely, and I'm still going to be around ❤️

Sorry to blabber on 😅

[mysticinsightstarot]

heyyy how are u? So i saw that im on the free tarot game! (Tysmm)

My question is if GA (his first letter of his first name and the second letter of his second name) and me are going to be something? Like who he sees me and his feelings

Thank u❤️🙏🏻

💖✨ Will You & GA Be a Thing? ✨💖

Hey beautiful souls, buckle up for a wild tarot ride full of cosmic chaos, deep emotions, and spicy potential! 😍🔮 Let’s unravel the mysteries of your connection with GA!

1. Current Energy Between You Two

The Devil, The Moon, The World Oof, talk about intense! 🔥🌓 The Devil hints at undeniable attraction, a magnetic pull that you both probably can’t ignore—think obsessive thoughts or that late-night overthinking spiral. The Moon suggests confusion, hidden feelings, and uncertainty clouding the way. 🌌 Yet, The World wraps it up by saying there’s potential for fulfillment if you both can rise above the shadows and fears. It’s like a karmic roller coaster that could come full circle. 🎢💫

2. GA’s Current Feelings for You

8 of Cups, Queen of Cups, Hierophant GA’s energy is a mystery wrapped in complexity. 😶‍🌫️💔 The 8 of Cups shows they’re trying to walk away from something emotionally heavy, maybe past wounds or something unresolved. But wait—the Queen of Cups says they feel deeply for you, with compassion and care. 🥹✨ The Hierophant speaks of tradition, meaning GA might crave commitment but are dealing with inner struggles first. You’re touching their heart, but they need to find themselves before diving in.

3. Your Feelings for GA

High Priestess Ooh, secretive, are we? 😉🌙 The High Priestess tells me you’re keeping your cards close to your chest, maybe trusting your intuition and vibing on a soul level. This is a deep, spiritual attraction, like you know there’s something more but don’t want to spill all the tea just yet. 🍵✨

4. Obstacles in the Connection

Ace of Pentacles, Page of Swords, Queen of Wands, Knight of Cups, 2 of Wands Holy obstacles, Batman! 😵‍💫 The Ace of Pentacles reveals issues around stability—could be financial, practical, or even timing. Meanwhile, the Page of Swords warns of immaturity or gossip, someone snooping or talking without thinking. 🤔 The Queen of Wands? She’s bringing passion, but maybe too much drama! The Knight of Cups shows romantic dreams, but watch out for inconsistencies. The 2 of Wands? There’s distance, maybe literal or metaphorical, making things tough. Decisions, decisions! 🗺️💭

5. What Attracts GA to You

2 of Cups, Page of Cups, Chariot Heart eyes alert! 🥺❤️ The 2 of Cups says GA feels a soulmate-like connection, a bond that’s hard to ignore. The Page of Cups makes them adore your sweet, dreamy side, and The Chariot means you bring out their desire to chase, to go after what they want. You inspire them to take action—they’re so into you, it’s like a love song stuck in their head. 🎶🚗����

6. What Makes GA Hesitate

6 of Cups, 5 of Swords, 8 of Swords, 7 of Wands Oof, here’s the tea! 🍵🥀 The 6 of Cups brings past memories—GA might still be dealing with a nostalgic longing or an ex-situation. The 5 of Swords is all about conflict and feeling defeated. Add in the 8 of Swords, and they’re stuck in their own mind, paralyzed by fear or self-doubt. And the 7 of Wands? That’s defensiveness, feeling like they have to fight off external pressures. It’s a battlefield in their head, for real. 🥺🪖

7. Advice for You

10 of Wands, 9 of Wands Whoa, you’re carrying a lot of emotional baggage, my love. 😩💼 The 10 of Wands says you’ve been shouldering too many responsibilities or expectations. The 9 of Wands? It’s the wounded warrior, telling you to hold on but set some boundaries. Protect your energy, but don’t give up if this feels right. Healing and patience will be your BFFs. 💪✨

8. Potential Outcome

8 of Pentacles, 8 of Wands, The Star, Strength Triple 8s for abundance and change! 🔥💸 The 8 of Pentacles says progress is possible if you’re willing to put in the work. The 8 of Wands brings a rush of communication or sudden developments. And The Star? It promises hope, healing, and divine timing—wish upon that shooting star, babe! 🌠 Finally, Strength is all about taming inner demons and growing stronger together. If you both stay resilient, this connection can be beautifully transformative. 🦁🌟

Bottom of the Deck: The Magician

Manifestation mode ON! 🌟✨ The Magician says you have all the tools to make magic happen in this relationship. Focus on what you truly desire, and speak it into existence! You’re both more powerful than you realize. 😇💬

📝 Feedback means everything, babes! 💌 Tag my blog with your thoughts and be sure to reblog my pinned post with a 💎 to officially claim your reading. Trust me, it’s essential if you want to keep this good energy flowing and make more magic together! ✨💖

[itzsana-kiddingmenow]

my loveeee. my little banana puddin'. honestly, friendships can be really difficult to navigate sometimes! i get that completely. & if i may, that whole situation doesn't seem to be your fault at all. whomever your friend was - she had every right to speak up on what she wanted or didn't want to hear from you. the problems always begin when one doesn't speak up, but instead leaving it to fester and become an even bigger problem than it was from the get-go.

but the issues here are that a) you sought solace and even advice from some other classmates of yours, and they turned it around on you to shine a negative light and b) your ''friend'' had no right to tall shit. talk shit, get hit, so to speak. feel me? (ik you'd never do something stupid nor waste your time and breath but i'm just sayin :'])

you're so, so smart. and you have a golden heart. you don't deserve any portion of HALF the crap you go through, and you most certainly deserve better friends. loyal friends who will make efforts to communicate with you and love you for who you are and support you through thick and thin!! it's true: friends come and go, and garnering experiences with some fake ones are a sad cycle we go through. but i'm rooting for you one hundred percent; you will come out of this stronger and you will come into some company that is soothing to your soul and refreshes you like a soft kiss to your forehead. 🫶🏼🥹

you never have to stop talking about yourself. i know for one, that if i was blessed to have you in my company, i would and could listen to you for hours. days, even! i mean that.

i love you so so sooo much, sana!! anyone would be lucky to be your friend, a TRUE and UNDERSTANDING FRIEND. forget that girl. (writing the letter and lowk gaslighting was nefarious activity 😒) i know we're just a little community living in your phone, but i hope you know that we love you.

not just for your writing either!! (even tho they are quite healing and delicious 😝🥹🥰), but for YOU. sweet, amazing, thoughtful, charming you. never stop being you. embrace all parts of yourself! i know it's hard, and it's a whole process! but you've got support from a whole community here who loves you immeasurably. 💕 your culture is beautiful. american-indian, just means you have more of the world inside your golden soul to share and bask within!! don't ever let yourself be convinced otherwise, okay? <33 and even if you are - don't hesitate to come here.

🤗🫂💖

i love you, sana. if you're gonna change, let it always be for the better. but you're absolutely lovely in every way and i wouldn't change any integral parts of you for anything!!! 😠 so you'd better not either, okay? 🫂

zeep 🥺 i feel like i can’t write out a thought long enough to even decribe the happiness i felt reading this. it was almost healing, and i feel so much better >.< thank you so much

gosh i love you 🩷💖💗 imma talk to you more about this in dms later today 😁🤟

[onlyswan]

Hi Art 💕💕

First of all, I wanted to say that I was listening to Hozier yesterday and I thought of you and the iw couple! And actually listening to Hozier always makes me think of you, Art!! I think your writing and his lyrics give me the same feelings honestly, something about both of them hits me so deep in my soul and yet it also makes me wish I saw the world though your eyes because you make it seem so much more beautiful and full of love. I don't know if that makes any sense at all but I was thinking about it, so I wanted to share!

Also about your question of which parts have made us cry the most, I think I'm pretty similar to everyone else and the parts that had me constantly crying while reading were the ones where the characters are sad too and are feeling hurt.

In "in which you don’t want to give up on jungkook (even when he gave you reasons to, even if they give you reasons to)." I was absolutely right there with them, feeling all of those emotions and crying my eyes out and then I cried even more when Jungkook was comforting OC, all of it was so beautiful and emotional. And of course I will never not mention this line: "four months have passed, but it isn’t time’s job to heal all wounds. it’s his." Because I think it perfectly shows how they take responsibility for the way they make each other feel (both bad and good) and how considerate and emotionally intelligent they are 😭😭😭

OC feeling sad will always get me the most I think, because we know how much pain they've already gone through and I just want them to never ever feel hurt again 🥹🥹🥹 So things like this from "in which jungkook is giving up on you but you have so much love left to give." really get to me: “i tried living without you like you wanted- but i can’t-” you hiccup in between small sobs on the other line. “i love you, jungkook. i can’t live carrying around all this love with me. it’s too heavy…” Thankfully Jungkook is always there to make them feel better the way they deserve 🥺🥺

Your beautiful writing makes everything a thousand times more heartbreaking and lines like these: "you let jungkook come too close. he slept on your bed and he learned that you’re always cold. he enveloped you in the safety of his warm embrace and you couldn’t will yourself to leave after the first time. you’ve surrendered to him the control over your body, and also your heart, which you may be breaking alongside your rule but… walking away would mean forsaking yourself." from "in which jungkook misses you before he even leaves" feel like they're speaking to the rawest, deepest parts of my soul.

Another thing that made me cry from that drabble was this part: "he tenderly strokes your hair, eyes filled with galaxies memorizing every inch of your face. he’s scared, too. he’s scared that he’s overestimating himself. too ambitious, too greedy for wanting both the world and the most beautiful person he has ever seen in it to love him. he’s scared of getting too exhausted. he’s scared that you won’t be there anymore when he opens his eyes." Their fears are so warranted, they could really end up being hurt or hurting each other, and yet that makes them even braver for still trying to make it work, for still loving each other despite all of that.

In general every time I think or read about them putting the other first, the care with which they consider each other, OC getting so worried about Kook being hurt, or him thinking about just how beautiful of a person OC really is, anything can have me sobbing on the spot. I think I've said it before but even just your titles are enough to make me cry sometimes. Your words just have such an effect on me, and I've also really grown to love these two and the love they have for each other so so much.

Sorry for rambling a little, I feel like I've said all of that a hundred times before but the love I have for you and your stories is too much for me to keep inside. Hope you're doing well, Art 💞💞💞

oh my god i’m so honored. thank you so much for thinking of me alongside such an incredible artist my sweetest ivi 😭💕💕💕

I think your writing and his lyrics give me the same feelings honestly, something about both of them hits me so deep in my soul and yet it also makes me wish I saw the world though your eyes because you make it seem so much more beautiful and full of love

and honestly you’re one of the people who makes me view the world as beautiful as i do 🥺🫂

And of course I will never not mention this line: "four months have passed, but it isn’t time’s job to heal all wounds. it’s his." Because I think it perfectly shows how they take responsibility for the way they make each other feel (both bad and good) and how considerate and emotionally intelligent they are 😭😭😭

YOU GET MEEEE this line is definitely the most memorable one in that work for me as well 😭😭😭 (the both good and bad got me. i’m sobbing) often times it feels like the easiest route is to allow enough time to pass to bury our mistakes, but the guilt stays ❤️‍🩹 and i wanted to show that taking accountability is what allows both parties to heal 🥺

OC feeling sad will always get me the most I think, because we know how much pain they've already gone through and I just want them to never ever feel hurt again 🥹🥹🥹

honestly same >:( writing about oc’s pains got me crying the hardest than i ever have while writing and i’ve written a loooot of sad stuff 😭 oc is the type of person i want to build a personal utopia for 🥺

Their fears are so warranted, they could really end up being hurt or hurting each other, and yet that makes them even braver for still trying to make it work, for still loving each other despite all of that.

i feel like a proud parent tearing up rn my babies you’ve fought so hard to keep loving each other </3 you said this so so so beautifully. thank you 🥺🥺🥺

I think I've said it before but even just your titles are enough to make me cry sometimes.

i remember this toooooo 🥹 coming up with the titles is like one of the most fun parts about the iw series i’m so geeked when they’re acknowledgedhfkdhfjdjhg i freaking love you !!! and your ramblings !!! thank you for matching my energy 🥹🥹🥹 bc when you ramble i also get to ramble about them without feeling silly as the writer hEhehehe the nasty ass flu got me knocked down rn so i’m veryyy sorry if this messy and incoherent T_T but seeing you in my inbox is so healing and made me feel all warm inside 🥰 please be healthy and happy my baby love

[the-earth-priestess]

hello my friend alice the druid :3 i loved my last reading and im here for another one!!! thank you again 💖 i would like to know if there's anything i should know about my source of income right now

yaaay yaaaay hello my dear friend cinna. 🥺💕 thank you so much for commissioning me. i'm very happy to share my insight with you today! ���🦋

your tarot reading:

what does cinna's source of income situation look like right now?

2 of Cups -- something profound is occurring. it looks like your current trajectory holds the opportunity for a business partnership or people who truly touche(s) your soul and makes you feel fulfilled. you may already have the resources and/or connections for it, or it may be on the way. whatever the case, be on the lookout for opportunities and situations where you can find someone or more than one someone who truly speaks to you as a human being.

The Fool -- this Major Arcana card suggests the theme of this reading. new beginnings are on the horizon, and it may be time to dive off the cliff into the ocean below. you may be scared to take that leap. you may be battered by the winds a bit as you dive. breaching the surface of the waters might be rough, too. but you may find that what you discover below the surface is a teaming coral reef full of colour and vivacity, crystal clear waters showing you your chosen path with iridescent light and magic. wonders await, but you'll need to put in the effort. you'll need to take a leap of faith. you can have courage, because this brand new beginning has the potential to make all your dreams come true.

10 of Wands -- your current situation appears to be really heavy. this is a card of responsibilities and burdens, but also of being so close to the finish line. you can ask for help, you know! sometimes it's hard to because we have always been rejected or our needs have been unmet when we do ask. but you need to know that not everyone will turn you away, and no one is a mind-reader. you need to communicate your needs! and you need to prioritise them yourself as well. it can be difficult when you're used to prioritising everyone else but please know you deserve to have your psychological, physical material and spiritual needs met just as much as anyone else. you deserve the good in the world. you deserve to find a source of income that doesn't just provide for your needs, but also for your desires. so you can ask for help, you can delete unnecessary tasks, you can put yourself first.

Knight of Pentacles in reverse -- this card delivers the idea that you may be stagnating right now, or perhaps focusing solely on wealth. you may be preoccupied, distracted, deprioritizing what's important. your soul or heart has a measure of health just as much as your mind and body. remember to nurture it with steady care to lay the foundations of your life. remember that by living by being true to what you want to be, do and are is so important for the wellbeing of your soul. only you can decide where to go from here, only you can decide what your soul needs for it to be healthy, but remember that by being creative you will find enrichment of all kinds in life. and with this success, wealth will pour in naturally.

your oracle reading:

what does cinna need to know right now regarding its source of income?

Bear Spirit for healing -- as you wander the winter wonderland forest, you come face to face with a bear. it reaches out and touches its nose to yours. it looks at you with gentleness, warmth and love. you feel safe. you feel comforted. you feel whole. this spirit is letting you know that profound healing is underway. you're healing right now, and you're going to heal, too. by progressing down whichever path you choose regarding your income, you will find yourself and you will connect with people and you will heal yourself. you will heal what has been broken regarding your material wealth.

Pine Spirit for purification -- it's still winter as you wander, and you brush up against a pine tree, displacing some snow. you find that the touch makes you feel an internal shift. you hear a soft giggle of delight from the spirit as you find that you're feeling cleansed from head to toe, like a renewal of spirit, mind and body. pine is an antiseptic and antibacterial substance, and is used in many rituals and ceremonies in indigenous cultures across the globe. this spirit is reminding you to take the time to practice extreme self-care. try to clutter-clear your home, take long showers or baths, eat well, and empty your mind by journalling or talking to a friend or allowing yourself to cry. maybe even make yourself experience catharsis by watching media! you will find that the more you do these things (the more you take care of yourself), the more comfortable and at peace you will feel, no matter the circumstances. this card could also be an indication of the process of finding your source of income purifying you, and allowing you to get in touch with your true self.

Pegasus for transcending -- as you come across a clearing in the snow, a Pegasus stands before you. he waits for you to climb onto his back, and then takes off into the skies with you. you soar above the forest, looking out across the snow-covered trees and fields. you find that all your doubts and hesitation are all falling away, and you find that you can see everything from up here. Pegasus indicates that it may be time to take a more transcendental perspective. it may be time to ease back on the material aspect of gaining wealth, and focus on your goals, dreams and aspirations. what makes you feel fulfilled to do, and how can you take baby steps to get there? what do you really want to do with your life? what do you want to accomplish? why? ask yourself these questions and more, and really reflect on them. perhaps what you need isn't just a new job, or lots of money, but a whole change of perspective. perhaps you need to get to the core of what's important to you and try to achieve something for yourself going forward. (which isn't to say you haven't achieved anything already.) in this economical climate chasing your dreams, being creative and finding fulfillment are some of the greatest challenges of all, but even if the chances are unlikely, the possibility is still not zero that you can accomplish them. so trust in your heart. trust in yourself. trust in whatever it is you believe in. you will find your way.

thank you for reading cinna! i hope this serves you well. 💕🍃🦋✨

this is a commissioned reading. for your chance of similar treatment, see my pinned for information, rules and terms and conditions.

[leejenowrld]

hiii sophie, it’s 🪽 anon again, thank you sooo much for posting the newest spoiler of h2h, i’ve just woken up from a good night’s sleep and to see that spoiler firsthand in the morning is the best thing ever 🥺

omgg the gang is back!!! i’ve been wondering if we get to see the gang (especially our beloved married couple jeno and bty yn) and i am sooo happy to see them in h2h 😭 and i am also happy that ryujin and shotaro also get to make an appearance more too 🫶

and of course karina!!! hayoung telling lexie yn (i know you said i can call her h2h yn but the name lexie yn is cute to me so i cant stop calling her that entirely, i hope you dont mind 😭) about jaemin’s past with karina, and her looking at the gang, especially karina bonding with haeun, cant help feeling the imposter syndrome hits me hard in the feels. i can totally understand her feeling like an outsider and feeling intimidated with how perfect karina is and karina’s history with jaemin. i just want to hug this girl so much 🥺 and at the same time, her wondering what it would be like to get with him, omg i am so excited to see the smut scenes and dynamic of this couple and how it will play out.

and as someone who follows the universe and the character’s journey, although i resonate with lexie yn, on the other hand, i also understand how much jaemin’s absense wrecked karina, and i still hope that in h2h she can heal and can find love for herself too. and as i remember correctly, donghyuck is still single right, so i am still thinking if there is any chance of him and karina being endgame. or maybe, a new pairing like renjun and her? (now i’m feeling like i’m playing matchmaker for karina haha).

again, thank you so much for feeding us with spoilers, and i am really looking forward to the next chapters 💕 but pleasee dont overwork yourself, you take care of your health and get enough rests please sophie ❤️

oh, my sweet 🪽 anon, you always write the kindest, deepest messages—it’s a privilege to wake up to your thoughts, honestly. i’m beaming. it means the world that the spoiler hit right and brought you joy before your day even started. yes, the gang is back, and you know i couldn’t resist giving you a good, tangled reunion—seeing jeno and bty!yn side by side again, with all the messy, layered love and history between them and jaemin, ugh, it just feels right, doesn’t it? and of course ryujin and shotaro, i love them far too much not to weave them back in, even if just for those glimpses of chaos and comfort.

and don’t worry at all—call her lexie yn as much as your heart wants, i find it adorable and honestly fitting, she really is a little sunbeam in this heavy universe. i love how you always see through every character’s layers. you get it so well: lexie yn’s imposter syndrome is raw, and i ache for her every time she stands on the edges, watching this glossy, perfect group with their impossible connections and histories. i just want to wrap her up too—she’s soft but so much braver than she realises, and you’re going to watch her step into that light, i promise.

you also get karina, which makes me so happy. she was so shattered after jaemin’s absence, and i will never let her be left behind—i want her to get a real, rich arc in h2h, whether that means new love or just a deeper healing. and i’m gonna be completely honest i never did ship donghyuck and karina and it felt unnatural to put them together but something will happen with karina hehe … maybe the story will surprise you? (you’ll have to keep reading for crumbs 👀)

thank you for always being so gentle and loving about the pace i write at. it means a lot that you want me to take care of myself as much as you want the next update. you’re the heart of this community, truly. your words always make me want to write more and write better, and you remind me why i love sharing these stories with you. take care of yourself today, okay? i hope the rest of your day is as soft and golden as your message made mine. sending so much love 🩷🪽✨

[montanababe7]

These three prophetic words that this precious woman of God shared; describe me to a t🙏🏼🥹🥲💕☺️🥺😭💯🎯:

DIAMOND HONEYCOMB

You are a Deborah and a mother to many. I have called you as an apostolic prophetic voice for Me. You don’t want to see anyone stay the same or in the mundane but be transformed from glory to glory. I have given you have a heart for people to encounter Me and My transforming power. You desire to see people healed and whole, body, spirit, and soul. You are a visionary and a builder. You are multifaceted and gifted in many things. You are a connector and love for others to experience the healing benefits of community and relationship. I have created you to release My light and glory to many different spheres and arenas. I have placed a plumbline in your hand to determine where the adjustments should be made. I have placed My heart of love in your mouth to release healing, hope, and restoration. This next season you will really begin to see the fruit of your labors as you flow with Me from a place of rest. The plowman will overtake the reapers as you see the generational blessing unfold before your eyes.

Honeycomb-connection, community, cross pollinating, sweetness of the Lord

Honey-Holy Spirit, prophetic revelation, wisdom, anointing, healing

Honeybee-Deborah as a prophetess and judge, hard work and diligence, a friend who gives sweet, encouraging words from the heart

Diamond-reflection of God, multifaceted, spiritual clarity, refractory power of God’s light to reveal God’s truth, motherhood, birthing vision

“O taste and see that the Lord is good; How blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him!”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭34:8‬ ‭‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬

“Beloved, I pray that in all respects you may prosper and be in good health, just as your soul prospers.” 3 John‬ ‭1:2‬ ‭‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬

“And Jesus came up and spoke to them, saying, “All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth. Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”” Matthew‬ ‭28:18-20‬ ‬‬‬‬

Amy Rylander Art

I AM WITH YOU

A mother to many. You have a deep love for people and a tender heart towards children. You have a heart of a servant. You give of yourself and what you have without any hesitation. You trust Me and know Me as your Abba Father.

Your heart is to go. You love to travel and see and experience the world. You love to meet and love new people. You desire for everyone to know Me and My love. We have history, you and I. You know and have experienced My mighty right arm. I Am your Deliverer and Redeemer. I Am always with you and I always have your back. I Am very protective of you and call you as My own. You are Mine.

You love and trust My voice. You are not afraid to go out on a limb because you know I Am with you. You are not afraid to walk into the fire because you know that I Am with you. You are not afraid to walk on the water, for you know I Am with you.

“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are Mine! When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they will not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched, Nor will the flame burn you. For I am the Lord your God."

Isaiah 43:1‭-‬3 ‬‬

"Pure and undefiled religion in the sight of our God and Father is this: to visit orphans and widows in their distress, and to keep oneself unstained by the world."

James 1:27

"Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit."

Matthew 28:19

Amy Rylander Art

FIELD OF DAISIES

Daisies symbolize innocence and purity. They also represent motherhood and new beginnings. The Father has given you a kind, nurturing and gentle spirit. He sees you as a mother to many. You are full of compassion and have a heart to hear the burdens of others. You are a faithful friend. I saw David’s harp. For like David you are a worshiper. You love to sit in His presence and be with your Savior. Like David, you carry wisdom beyond your years. People trust you and look to you for council and guidance. You are gentle in correction and understand the importance of a soft answer. You love deeply, passionately and fully. I saw the field of flowers representing the place of rest and joy in the Lord. Take time to rest and enjoy the precious season you are in. He has anointed you and is filling you to overflowing. His goodness is chasing after you. He is leading and guiding you by His Spirit. In Him is perfect peace.

“The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters. He restores my soul; He guides me in the paths of righteousness For His name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You have anointed my head with oil; My cup overflows. Surely goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life, And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” Ps. 23

Amy Rylander Art

[siriustaylorsversion]

A Taylor Swift x reader social media au PLEASE! I know that you're a swiftie so maybe the release of midnights with songs being about the reader and the reader also being a singer. face claim- selena gomez?

oh my god!! i have the best idea and as always... taylena>>>> requests open enjoy!

PART 2 PART 3 PART 4

𝖘𝖍𝖊'𝖘 𝖆𝖑𝖜𝖆𝖞𝖘 𝖔𝖜𝖓𝖊𝖉 𝖒𝖞 𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖙

taylorswift

taylorswift Midnights, the stories of 13 sleepless nights scattered throughout my life, will be out October 21. Meet me at midnight. liked by yourname.official, blakelively and 8,135,006 others.

yourname.official i say that's my baby and i'm proud 🥺

taylorswift 💕 forever.more their friendship >>>>>> tay.y/nslover they are my favorite thing in the whole world istg!

blakelively i heard it before you did ;)

yourname.official i was there DURING the process y/n_sink wait they were toGETHER?! sadist.sinks oh my god, I'M HEALED

tomholland2013 you guys did not just hear the scream that @yourname.official just scrumpt.....

y/n.official it'S TS10 STFU- tay.y/nforevermore they're like siblings 😭

yourname.official

yourname.official i am so so honoured to be able to say that i will be featuring in a song with my heart (my hips, my body, my love) @taylorswift... trust me, you're all not ready for this. remember it. october 21st. liked by taylorswift, zendaya and 5,09,800 others.

taylorswift this has to be my favorite song... not only because it is the best on the album but because it has the most talented artist i've ever met in my life...

yourname.official i loVE YOU- forever.more the MUSIC INDUSTRY called it the best song? okay, HOW LONG IS OCTOBER 21ST GONNA TAKE??!! SHEAKWDBGJEDBEFKJSHF

blakelively new favorite song???

tomholland2013 you've bribed her haven't you? YOU? BEST SONG?

yourname.official oh hush, you're just jealous. zendaya atleast she figured out how you get the girl... y/n.sink wHOT?

e!news

e!news "she's my best friend, and means the most to me in the world... being able to make music with her would be the greatest blessing ever i mean, she's TAYLOR SWIFT, i guess everyone has a girl crush on her!" - y/n y/l/n, 2019

"oh she's my favorite person in the world, she owns my heart. i love her so so much... i could never have come here without her."

" i am so so honoured to be able to say that i will be featuring in a song with my heart (my hips, my body, my love)" - y/n y/l/n, 2022 liked by taylorswift, sabrinacarpenter and 1,09,800 others.

e!news after zendaya teased a 'how you get the girl' lyric in the comments of y/n y/l/n's new post, fans have lost it thinking the former best friends of more than a decade have finally taken a step forward.

taylorswift

taylorswift this is the BIGGEST thank you to all the people who've helped me in these past few years... jack, aaron, blake, ryan, gigi, mom, dad, olivia, merideth,benji, y/n and all the others who've stayed with me and supported me. midnights is officially out and i love you all so much! enjoy...

yourname.official oh my god, look at my talented gf 😌

forever.more GIRLFRIEND????????? blakelively oh, finally!! tomholland2013 taylorswift her?! taylorswift zendaya him?!

ememyers Can we talk abt her eyes?😭 or better her everything?😭💗

costataylorsversion omg i feel like a proud mom???????

snehit.13 more like she and y/n.official are our moms.... yourname.official okay, idk how that's so funny but exciting at the same time??!!

forever.more

forever.more Y/N CALLED BLONDIE HER WIFE IS THIS THE CONFIRMATION WE SO DESPERATELY NEEDED??? p.s. did you like midnights? (I'M IN LOVE WITH IT) liked by e!news, taylorswift and 300,405 others.

donna'sversion icons, queens, lovers everything and more!!!!!!!!

costataylorsversion 🧣💕💕🥺💘

ememyers Just heard it on a plane….. damn it was so raw and so honest!

satanicmoosic LOVE THIS DUO THEY'RE EVERYTHING OH MY GOD MY HEART IS GONNA BURST SWEET NOTHING?? MAROON?? SERENDIPITY?? THEY REACHED RIGHT INTO MY CHEST AND PULLED MY HEART OUT.

taylorswift

taylorswift didn't read the note on the polaroid picture... they don't know how much i miss her... liked by yourname.official, blakelively and 7,90,600 others. comments on this post have been limited

yourname.official

yourname.official if you kiss me would it be just like i dreamed it? will it patch your broken wings? liked by taylorswift, tomholland2013 and 5,09,080 others.

comments on this post have been limited.

part 2? maybe more for the tour? idk...

have a good day <33

[just-some-random-blogger]

No cuz the title and the summary had me SCREAAAMMMMMINNGNGGGGGGGNGNGNGGNGNGNGGN GIRLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL I WAS SQUEALIN ALREADY BEFORE I STARTED READINGGGG GIRRLLLL

The sun dipped below the horizon, casting a warm orange glow over the homes that surrounded Joel’s in the little commune in Jackson.

"Joel, you alright in there?" Ellie's voice called from outside the door. He'd been in there for a while and she was getting worried. His admission about the bullet that missed his head had stayed with her, and she was always wary about leaving him alone when he was in a mood.

My Ellie my love my dear my heart 🥺💔

He replayed the events of the day in his mind. You all had been out scavenging, laughter mingling with the desolate sounds of the overgrown world. But then, a clicker had appeared out of nowhere, its monstrous form lunging at you. Joel had reacted quickly as soon as he saw it, but the deafness in his right ear had made him slow to hear it in the first place.

Joel fr 💔💔:

By the time Joel had got his arms around you to pull you away and shoot the clicker, you were already dripping blood to the ground. What should have been a preventable altercation with a clicker turned into a deep gash on your arm. The scream you let out when it got you would become an addition to his nightmares.

When you reached your neighbourhood, you both parted ways silently with Joel not even sparing a glance backwards to see you get into your home. 

DAMN BE SO FOR REAL BABE WHAT HOW COULD YOU IT DONT HAVE TO BE LIKE THAT

Days turned into weeks, and your wound healed. But the distance between you and Joel only grew. While you still hung out at his home with Ellie most days, Joel found himself retreating into himself, unable to shake the image of your pain, the godawful terror that ripped through his body when you screamed, the image of you trusting him to protect you. Trusting him to protect you when he was fucking deaf in one ear and too damn old to move fast enough to reach you in time. 

You reached across the table to grab Joel's hand. "Joel, we don’t have control over everything. I could walk outside tomorrow and get trampled by a horse and you’d still find a way to blame yourself. You need to stop this. I’m not going anywhere.” 

This is how i reason to combat my anxiousness. Think of something super. Ridiculous but still plausible and just huh youre right it could be worse

Joel pulled his hand away harshly, his gaze distant. "Maybe you should."

"I've been thinking," Joel began, his voice heavy. "Maybe you should.. Go.” 

daamn just like that 🤠

But Joel was stubborn. He started to stand, gathering his dishes in his hand, his voice rough. "Think about it. I have, and I think it's time for you to go." He leaves, leaving you stunned. Not wanting to stay where you’re not wanted, you leave too. 

Weeks turned into months, and Joel's heart grew heavier with each passing day. He watched from a distance as you began to spend time with Adam, that young and lanky idiot who helped at the doctor's office, who seemed to make you smile, who was probably stronger and more capable. No but this is good, Joel thought. This is good. Now she’ll be safe. 

ALEXA PLAY BACK TO DECEMBER BY TAYLOR SWIFT

You pull him into a tight embrace. "Well.. I guess I’ll have an interesting conversation with Adam when I see him later,” you say to lighten the mood. The truth is you and Adam both knew that what you had was just for fun. You had even told him about Joel and you knew he’d be happy for you.

Adam for adam driver and i respect that i love you adam 💕💕💕💕

I DIDN'T GET TO COPY THE PART WHERE JOEL WAS LIKE NO. NO OTHERS. NO ADAM. ONLY JOEL HES SO 😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩 I WANNA BONK HIM WHY IS HE SO STUPID

THIS IS ME SWALLOWING MY PRIDE STANDING IN FRONT OF YOU SAYING IM SORRY FOR THAT NIGHHHHHHHHHTTTT

Taylor ate. Joel ate kinda ig. BESTIE THIS WAS GREAT BUT THE MASOCHIST IN ME WANTED TO HURT MORE BUT THATS JUS ME COS I LOVE ME SOME GUT WRENCHING ANGST THAT MAKES YOU INSANE BUT THATS JUST COS IM INSANE WE LOVE A HAPPY ENDING

Deaf Ears, Loud Hearts / Joel Miller x Reader

Description: Haunted by guilt over an accident that injured you, Joel pushes you away, urging you to find someone better. As you grow closer to someone else, Joel wrestles with his jealousy and regrets, realizing his own mistakes but unsure if he can reclaim what he's lost.

Word count: 1.4k

The sun dipped below the horizon, casting a warm orange glow over the homes that surrounded Joel’s in the little commune in Jackson. He sat in his room, lost in thought as he cleaned his revolver, each metallic click echoing in the quiet room. You had left him just a while ago after spending the day together, but your absence felt heavy in his heart. He realized he hadn't even said goodbye to you, mind too occupied with the thoughts that wouldn't shut up.

"Joel, you alright in there?" Ellie's voice called from outside the door. He'd been in there for a while and she was getting worried. His admission about the bullet that missed his head had stayed with her, and she was always wary about leaving him alone when he was in a mood.

"Yeah, fine," Joel grumbled, not wanting to admit the truth.

He replayed the events of the day in his mind. You all had been out scavenging, laughter mingling with the desolate sounds of the overgrown world. But then, a clicker had appeared out of nowhere, its monstrous form lunging at you. Joel had reacted quickly as soon as he saw it, but the deafness in his right ear had made him slow to hear it in the first place.

By the time Joel had got his arms around you to pull you away and shoot the clicker, you were already dripping blood to the ground. What should have been a preventable altercation with a clicker turned into a deep gash on your arm. The scream you let out when it got you would become an addition to his nightmares.

“It’s okay, it’s not that deep. We can keep going,” you had insisted after your wound was dressed and wrapped.

“No, we’re going home.”

“But I’m–”

“Right now.”

Joel couldn't shake the guilt that weighed heavily on him. The walk back home was silent - a stark contrast to how you had set out on the journey today. Even Ellie sensed the tension and didn’t dare to speak a word. 

"She deserves better than this," he thought to himself the whole way home, repeating like a mantra in his head. 

When you reached your neighbourhood, you both parted ways silently with Joel not even sparing a glance backwards to see you get into your home. 

Days turned into weeks, and your wound healed. But the distance between you and Joel only grew. While you still hung out at his home with Ellie most days, Joel found himself retreating into himself, unable to shake the image of your pain, the godawful terror that ripped through his body when you screamed, the image of you trusting him to protect you. Trusting him to protect you when he was fucking deaf in one ear and too damn old to move fast enough to reach you in time. 

One evening, after a tense dinner, you spoke up. The silence was eating you alive and Ellie didn’t deserve to be in this awkward situation anymore. "Joel, we need to talk."

He stared at his plate as he pushed his food around. "What?"

“Really? You have no idea what I’m about to say?” 

Joel sighs and rubs his face. “Can we not–” 

“No, I’m not gonna put up with this anymore. You’ve been shut off ever since the incident with the clicker. It’s not fair to me, or to Ellie for that matter, to have to tiptoe around your mood. What’s going on?” 

Ellie senses an argument brewing and quietly gathers her dishes and leaves the dining area. 

Joel clenched his jaw, his fingers tightening around his glass. "Don’t act like you don’t know. You know this was all my fault. I couldn’t hear the goddamn thing. I was slow to reach you. If I’d been just 2 seconds late? If– God, you would be dead or worse by now.” 

You reached across the table to grab Joel's hand. "Joel, we don’t have control over everything. I could walk outside tomorrow and get trampled by a horse and you’d still find a way to blame yourself. You need to stop this. I’m not going anywhere.” 

Joel pulled his hand away harshly, his gaze distant. "Maybe you should."

Your brows furrowed in confusion. "What?"

"I've been thinking," Joel began, his voice heavy. "Maybe you should.. Go.” 

Your eyes widened, hurt and anger flashing in your gaze as you let out a scoff in disbelief. "Are you serious? You think I should just walk away because of one accident?"

Joel's jaw clenched even tighter. "It's not just one accident. It’s not the first time and it won’t be the last."

Your anger softened into something more sorrowful. "Joel, I love you. What happens out there is not your fault.” 

But Joel was stubborn. He started to stand, gathering his dishes in his hand, his voice rough. "Think about it. I have, and I think it's time for you to go." He leaves, leaving you stunned. Not wanting to stay where you’re not wanted, you leave too. 

Weeks turned into months, and Joel's heart grew heavier with each passing day. He watched from a distance as you began to spend time with Adam, that young and lanky idiot who helped at the doctor's office, who seemed to make you smile, who was probably stronger and more capable. No but this is good, Joel thought. This is good. Now she’ll be safe. 

One day as he was returning from patrol, Joel found himself outside your home. He stared at the illuminated window, watching the silhouette of you laugh with the new guy. It was like a scene from a movie. A pang of jealousy and regret gnawed at his chest. He clenched his fists. He couldn't stand the thought of you being with anyone else, but he knew it was for the best.

Which is why Joel surprised himself when one day he found his feet taking him to your doorstep, his heart pounding in his chest. When you opened the door, surprise and wariness in your eyes, he cleared his throat.

"Can we talk?" he asked, his voice rough but sincere.

You studied him for a moment before nodding. "Yeah, come in."

You sat down in the living room, the silence heavy between you both as you sit on opposite ends of the couch. Joel stared at his hands, struggling to find the right words. Finally, he looked up at you.

"I’ve been doing a lot of thinking. Or more like Ellie.. has been making me do a lot of thinking," he admitted, his voice gruff but vulnerable. "And I realized I let my guilt and my anger and my frustration drive you away. But those are my demons. Not yours. You don’t deserve to be hurt over the things that hurt me.” 

You stared at him in silence, processing his words. You thought that Joel had given up on you and you were prepared to move on with your life. Seeing him open up to you was a shock to your system. 

“I come here with no expectations, sweetheart. I don’t expect you to forgive me or take me back, but I am so sorry. I have a lot to work on. I can’t promise you I won’t be like that again. But if you.. If you still want me.. If you would still have me.. I will try my hardest to be deserving of you.” Joel’s eyes were filled with tears at this point and he reached out to hold your hands. 

Your gaze softened as you took his hands. "Joel, I will always want you.” 

Joel stared at the floor feeling slightly abashed as he admitted softly, "I love you. I don't want you to be with someone else.” 

You pull him into a tight embrace. "Well.. I guess I’ll have an interesting conversation with Adam when I see him later,” you say to lighten the mood. The truth is you and Adam both knew that what you had was just for fun. You had even told him about Joel and you knew he’d be happy for you.

At the mention of another man’s name, Joel’s arms tightened around you and he buried his face into your shoulder saying, “No more Adam. No more whoever-the-fucks around this town. Just Joel.” 

You laughed at the way he sounded like a possessive child. You stroked his hair and think for the first time in a while, that maybe you and Joel will be okay.

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[rayroseu]

They're releasing merch for TWST Halloween !! OH MY GOODNESSS NEW CARDS⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ NEW CARDSSSS‼️‼️‼️🥺🥺💕💕💕💕💕💕

source also diasomnia zoom ins ahead lol

MALLEUS AND SEBEK FANGS OHHHHOSJDKWJDKW🥰🥰🥰💕💕💕💖💖💖💖💖💖

AND LOOK AT HOW PRECIOUS MALLEUS' SMILE??? I CANT FIND THE FULL ILLUST YET-- BUT OH MY HEART??? HES SO ADORABLE 🥺💕💕💕💕 the world is healing you guys, the diasomnia family is happy again ✨✨ (also i never noticed that pink candy(?) on lilias hairrr such a cute detail as welll💖🍬)

im sobbing so much for the first picture,,,,,oh what a painful contrast to what is unfolding at book 7 right now but we be delulu rn and be assured theyre in their silly time again 😭💕💕💔💔

AND PLEASEEE SILVER REACHING OUT HIS HAND TO US???? AND LILIA WAVING TO US TOO ALL OF THESE CARDS ARE SO CUTE HELP SKKDKS💖🥲💕✨

others have already posted these but i know these are halloween nuis??? PELASEEE DOES MALLEUS HALLOWEEN NUI HAVE HIS DRAGON TAIL DOES IT HAVE HIS DRAGON TAIL DOESIT---⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️😭😭😭😳😳💕💕🙏🙏

i love how Grim/Ramshackle is leading the group!!! And, Heartshackle wins again 🥰🥰💖♥️🌹♠️♦️♣️🐈‍⬛🦐‼️‼️

[taegularities]

Now that the pain has passed I can finally leave a baby ass review

Rid. RID. How do you manage to make us feel so much? I cried reading this fic, I felt the pain right in my bones and I literally could not stop. You have a way with words that just makes me break and heal and smile and cry and I hope you appreciate that precious talent of yours as much as you should <3 cmi is a work of art from start to finish, and it is definitely the kind of story that will stick with me for a while. I can’t wait to see more of Jungkook’s pov bc homie is fucking up real bad. I can’t wait to see reader with hobi bc it’s pretty obvious that that’s where this is going (hopefully not lmao). I can’t wait to see Jungkook and reader finding their way back together bc I know for a fact that you don’t write sad endings

Oof. Just so many emotions and so little words in a dictionary to explain just how much I feel each time I’m reading you. Thank you for sharing your art on this platform✨

But I am still in pain. Do not think that I’m not in pain smh… that okay.. okay at the end?? NOT OKAY. She should fight for him, tell him that she’ll move out and drop the job and become a writer bc that’s what she needs to do if she wants to be with him. And he needs to stop thinking he doesn’t belong in her world bc he literally IS her world like come on jungkook😭

Brb, I’m going to go cry some more

ella, two days later and i'm still so 🥺🥺🥺 about this review. you're too kind and i don't deserve you and i love you and i just, i'm running out of words, bc how tf is everyone here so kind, i'm fkn baffled ??? 😭

i definitely appreciate whatever i put in my docs, but the biggest reason for it are readers like you 🥺 i mean, i'm 100% sure i wouldn't have the confidence to put out so many chapters of a slice of life fic if you weren't so encouraging and sweet about it. like... "a work of art from start to finish"? how could i not feel all the motivation in the world, reading such praises :(((

okay whew, once again, we're a little more emotional today hahaha

but anyway, yes, you're so right. homie is fucking up real bad, but i also hope you guys will understand him a little better after the next chapter. i'm already working on it and my heart is in shambles. ha ha also the hobi bit 🥴 no comment...

yes, absolutely correct!! we don't do sad endings in taegularities town 💕

THE "Okay... Okay" GOSH, THE STAR OF THIS CHAPTER FR. i love and hate how much this has been affecting everyone bc same 😭 like, she wants to fight for him, but she's also done yknow?? she just. shut herself off :( her becoming a writer is such a good idea. it'd be so nice if both could follow their artistic dreams.

and yep, once again.. "he literally IS her world" broke my heart. that's it. ella i love you. a lot. please don't forget, you're one of so many lovely people who keep me going on this platform, and i'll never be able to express my gratitude <33

[prewarstucky]

MIA BABY GIRL NOOOOOOOOOOOO 😭😭😭 I'm so sorry you're feeling rotten, and on your birthday too, that's the woooooorst :(( So unfair, you deserve so much better, honey! Sending you all of the healing vibes and birthday hugs 'n kisses ✨✨💖💖 I know you're not feeling very happy right now, but still, HAPPY BIRTHDAY my darling, and I hope you'll feel much better very soon and that you're going to have an amazing new year of your life, despite the less than ideal start 💛💛💛💛

Minnie my darling!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺 I may not feel so great but how can I not be happy getting a message like this?!! I'm so lucky to call you my friend! You're the loveliest and thank you for all your sweet words, they're like a balm on my heart 💓 And honestly my birthday is turning out much better than I'd anticipated, thanks to messages like this. LOVE YOU SO MUCH Minnie, you mean the world to me! sending you back lots of love and hugs and kisses 😘💖💕💓💞

[leejenowrld]

Bb!🫶🏼There are stories that entertain, stories that move, and then there are stories like this… chapters that breathe, that unfold not just on the page, but in the soul. The next segment was an experience, intimate and profound in a way that left me genuinely breathless.🥺

You’ve captured something so achingly tender and real here: the way love repairs, restores, and softens even the quietest ache. The gestures: folded laundry scented like memory, the lighthouse and teacup constellations, a magnolia petal in a wood grain crack. They weren’t just poetic, they were sacred. Every detail felt lived in, intentional, like the emotional architecture of a home being rebuilt from hope.🥹

You didn’t rush their closeness. You let us feel it: in the rhythm of a thumb across skin, the careful folding of laundry, the scent of cedar, the hidden ache in their memories, and the way silence carries whole conversations. And then the way you ushered in the revelation of new life, not loudly, not with drama, but with the gentlest touch of foreshadowing… it was devastatingly beautiful. That unspoken promise, growing warm and quiet under Jeno’s hands, is one of the most emotionally stunning moments I’ve ever read. I don’t know how you do it, how you thread grief, healing, desire, and domestic intimacy so seamlessly, but it’s rare and remarkable.

This is love not just as fire or longing, but as care, as constancy, as everyday devotion. It’s the kind of writing that makes you exhale slowly and think, yes, this is what it means to be seen. To be safe.

Even your humor, especially Mark’s chaotic affection, felt like love in disguise. The banter was a perfect pressure release, layered with history and brotherhood and blessing. His loud encouragement to “hurry up and be happy” might just be my new favorite love language.🥰

Thank you for letting us into this world, for showing that love doesn’t always need grand declarations, sometimes it’s a box of neatly folded shirts, a softly murmured apology, or the choice to stay even when the world intrudes. Sometimes, it’s choosing to answer the stars together. Please never underestimate what your words are doing. I love you!❤️

-💕

bb, i’m honestly just sitting here rereading your words with my hand over my heart. you always know how to reach right into the marrow of what i’m trying to do, like you’re reading not just the lines, but the breath between them. stories that breathe, that’s everything i’ve ever wanted, and the fact that you feel it in these chapters, in the slow unfolding and all those quiet gestures, means more to me than i can say. you saw every detail i tucked in—the laundry, the lighthouse, the little petal caught in the wood. those were my love notes, proof that even the smallest things can hold so much memory, so much hope. it makes me emotional that they felt sacred to you, because that’s what home-building really is, right? the soft work of tucking hope into corners, patching cracks with intention, never rushing the closeness, just letting it grow in the hush.

the way you picked up on the rhythm—the thumb across skin, the ache, the silences that mean more than words—i swear, you’re the kind of reader every writer dreams of. and that gentle reveal of new life? i wanted it to feel like the softest secret in the room, just waiting to bloom. your words about it being an unspoken promise growing under jeno’s hands? i want to hold that sentence forever. i never want to write love as only drama or fireworks. i want it to be care, presence, domestic devotion. i want it to feel safe, and quiet, and real, and you get it every single time. even the humor, the mark chaos—i’m so glad you love him, because that loud “hurry up and be happy” is 100% how i wish more people showed their love. it’s messy, and it’s honest, and it’s all blessing underneath.

thank you for being here and for seeing everything—not just what’s loud, but what’s quiet and tucked away. thank you for reminding me that softness has a place, that care is powerful, that you can answer the stars together with someone and it counts as a love story. i love you, always. never ever taking for granted the way you read and feel and reach back. this story wouldn’t be the same without you. ❤️ love you hemi 🫶