#My hands literally hurt
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the thing about art is that it was always supposed to be about us, about the human-ness of us, the impossible and beautiful reality that we (for centuries) have stood still, transfixed by music. that we can close our eyes and cry about the same book passage; the events of which aren't real and never happened. theatre in shakespeare's time was as real as it is now; we all laugh at the same cue (pursued by bear), separated hundreds of years apart.
three years ago my housemates were jamming outdoors, just messing around with their instruments, mostly just making noise. our neighbors - shy, cautious, a little sheepish - sat down and started playing. i don't really know how it happened; i was somehow in charge of dancing, barefoot and laughing - but i looked up, and our yard was full of people. kids stacked on the shoulders of parents. old couples holding hands. someone had brought sidewalk chalk; our front walk became a riot of color. someone ran in with a flute and played the most astounding solo i've ever heard in my life, upright and wiggling, skipping as she did so. she only paused because the violin player was kicking his heels up and she was laughing too hard to continue.
two weeks ago my friend and i met in the basement of her apartment complex so she could work out a piece of choreography. we have a language barrier - i'm not as good at ASL as i'd like to be (i'm still learning!) so we communicate mostly through the notes app and this strange secret language of dancers - we have the same movement vocabulary. the two of us cracking jokes at each other, giggling. there were kids in the basement too, who had been playing soccer until we took up the far corner of the room. one by one they made their slow way over like feral cats - they laid down, belly-flat against the floor, just watching. my friend and i were not in tutus - we were in slouchy shirts and leggings and socks. nothing fancy. but when i asked the kids would you like to dance too? they were immediately on their feet and spinning. i love when people dance with abandon, the wild and leggy fervor of childhood. i think it is gorgeous.
their adults showed up eventually, and a few of them said hey, let's not bother the nice ladies. but they weren't bothering us, they were just having fun - so. a few of the adults started dancing awkwardly along, and then most of the adults. someone brought down a better sound system. someone opened a watermelon and started handing out slices. it was 8 PM on a tuesday and nothing about that day was particularly special; we might as well party.
one time i hosted a free "paint along party" and about 20 adults worked quietly while i taught them how to paint nessie. one time i taught community dance classes and so many people showed up we had to move the whole thing outside. we used chairs and coatracks to balance. one time i showed up to a random band playing in a random location, and the whole thing got packed so quickly we had to open every door and window in the place.
i don't think i can tell you how much people want to be making art and engaging with art. they want to, desperately. so many people would be stunning artists, but they are lied to and told from a very young age that art only matters if it is planned, purposeful, beautiful. that if you have an idea, you need to be able to express it perfectly. this is not true. you don't get only 1 chance to communicate. you can spend a lifetime trying to display exactly 1 thing you can never quite language. you can just express the "!!??!!!"-ing-ness of being alive; that is something none of us really have a full grasp on creating. and even when we can't make what we want - god, it feels fucking good to try. and even just enjoying other artists - art inherently rewards the act of participating.
i wasn't raised wealthy. whenever i make a post about art, someone inevitably says something along the lines of well some of us aren't that lucky. i am not lucky; i am dedicated. i have a chronic condition, my hands are constantly in pain. i am not neurotypical, nor was i raised safe. i worked 5-7 jobs while some of these memories happened. i chose art because it mattered to me more than anything on this fucking planet - i would work 80 hours a week just so i could afford to write in 3 of them.
and i am still telling you - if you are called to make art, you are called to the part of you that is human. you do not have to be good at it. you do not have to have enormous amounts of privilege. you can just... give yourself permission. you can just say i'm going to make something now and then - go out and make it. raquel it won't be good though that is okay, i don't make good things every time either. besides. who decides what good even is?
you weren't called to make something because you wanted it to be good, you were called to make something because it is a basic instinct. you were taught to judge its worth and over-value perfection. you are doing something impossible. a god's ability: from nothing springs creation.
a few months ago i found a piece of sidewalk chalk and started drawing. within an hour i had somehow collected a small classroom of young children. their adults often brought their own chalk. i looked up and about fifteen families had joined me from around the block. we drew scrangly unicorns and messed up flowers and one girl asked me to draw charizard. i am not good at drawing. i basically drew an orb with wings. you would have thought i drew her the mona lisa. she dragged her mother over and pointed and said look! look what she drew for me and, in the moment, i admit i flinched (sorry, i don't -). but the mother just grinned at me. he's beautiful. and then she sat down and started drawing.
someone took a picture of it. it was in the local newspaper. the summary underneath said joyful and spontaneous artwork from local artists springs up in public gallery. in the picture, a little girl covered in chalk dust has her head thrown back, delighted. laughing.
#writeblr#warm up#this is longer than i wanted i really considered removing that part about myself and what i went thru#but i think it really fucking bothers me that EVERY time i talk about being an artist#ppl assume i just like. had the skill and ability to drop everything and pay for grad school.#like sir i grew up poor. my house wasn't a safe space. i gave up a FREE RIDE TO LAW SCHOOL. for THIS. bc i chose it.#was it fucking hard? was i choosing the hard thing?? yes.#but we need to stop seeing artists as lazy layabouts that can ''afford'' to just ''sit around and create''#when MANY - if not MOST - of us are NOT like that. we have to work our fucking ASSES off. hard work. long and hard work#part of valuing artists is recognizing the amount we sacrifice to make our art. bc it doesn't just#like HAPPEN to us. also btw it rarely has anything to do with true talent.#speaking as someone with a chronic condition i hate when ppl are like u have it easy. like actively as i'm writing this my hands r#ACTIVELY hurting me. i haven't been posting bc my left hand was curled in a claw for the last week#this isn't fucking luck. after a certain point it's not even TALENT. it's dedication & sacrifice.#''u get to flounce around and do nothing with ur life'' is a narrative that is a direct result of capitalism#imagine if we said that about literally any other profession.#''oh so u give up 10 yrs of ur life to be a doctor? u sacrifice having a social life and u get SUPER in debt?#u need to work countless hours and it will often be thankless? well i wish i was that lucky''#we should be applying that logic to landlords ONLY#''oh ur mom and dad gave u the money to buy a house? and all u did was paint it white and rent it? huh.''
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Quick drawing b4 I knock out
He misses his war criminal boyfriend))
Og ref⬇️⬇️⬇️
#my art#tf optimus prime#optimus prime#tf one megop#megop#tf one#orion pax#transformers d16#art#maccadams#transformers fanart#transformers one#literally drew this half asleep#my hands hurt#urrrgggggg#digital art#artist on tumblr#alcoholic Optimus?#I think not.
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Courtney Sketchess
#my hand it hurt#pokemon oras#magma admin courtney#no other tags for this one#literally just trying to get my poses more dynamic. i can do it in pixel art i want to be able to do it regular style RAHHHH#also rare moment of me using the official colors#had a jumpscare by how white and also pink her skin was#like my usual bg color is a very pale yellowish . nice n easy on the eyes#but it made her skin look like neon whitepink#girl was GLOWING
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today i learned that in the 1700s beauty marks (referred to as mouches) held different meanings based on where they were placed. wearers would put one near the corner of their eye when in love, and one one their cheek to indicate flirtatiousness.
so that COULD mean izzy deliberately erased his ‘taken’ X and redrew it to say ‘available’??
i hate myself.
#ofmd spoilers#ofmd season 2#ofmd s2#izzy hands#our flag means death#edizzy#steddyhands#ofmd#con o'neill#our flag means pain and suffering#literally sobbing#somebody take away my internet because i keep hurting my own feelings
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from page to screen - Good Omens
#I absolutely love how some scenes are word for word the exact same from book to show#guess thats what you get when you have the author writing the show. wish we had more adaptations like that#yes this took forever. my hands hurt#good omens#these are literal scans from my copy of the book btw#david tennant#michael sheen#neil gaiman#terry pratchett#good omens book#ineffable#ineffable husbands#aziraphale#ineffable idiots#goodomensedit#ineffable spouses#aziracrow#crowley#anthony j crowley#aziraphale and crowley#goodomens#nikkirookgif#gomensnaap
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Trust fall.
(alternate versions below the cut - click for better quality :3)
#not mil#school bus graveyard#school bus graveyard fanart#sbg fanart#ashlyn banner#aiden clark#ben clark#taylor hernandez#tyler hernandez#logan fields#my art#worth noting I used refs for poses so yeah :3#first full drawing with csp so pls have mercy on me :’)#I’ve been working on this LITERALLY all day it feels good to draw again and my hands hurt lol#anyways <3
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I don't need to breathe when you look at me
check out my Deviantart :)
#oshamir#my hands HURT#I literally did not rest until this was done you guys#im down bad#the acolyte#sw#my art#qimir#osha aniseya#osha x qimir#disney#artists on Tumblr#Star Wars#Manny jacinto#amandla stenberg#nory draws
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Drive to Survive Season 6, Episode 9
#daniel ricciardo#f1#*#**#dts#dts6#they edited this to appear like this was singapore but this was literally brazil and he was already driving in brazil#his hands still hurt this bad in brazil#the way his lips literally turned pale im gonna kms#i want to expunge this scene from my memory but i can't and if i have to look at this you have to too 😭#tw injury#tw injuries
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Did a ワンドロ (1hr drawing) challenge trade with @petite-pumpkin!
#friend oc#pumpkin (oc)#its she!!! magical pumpkin!!#i bullshitted that scepter so fucking hard#it does not look the way i intended but hey i had LITERALLY ONLY AN HOUR#my hambs#my fucking hands hurt so bad yall#i am gonna go make dinner hgjhggh#enn art
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#i read this engiespy fic coughs (there's things that you swore you'd never do) coughs RIGHT before my autism official diagnosis test#so it deserves my dumb art#im so damn sure ill score a 100 on that !!#my head hurts so much i feel like theres some mistakes in this doodle but it's like. midnight and i can barely see anything.#couldnt even reread the fic too literally on my deathbed holding my stylus with a shaking hand on my last dying breath#tf2#team fortress 2#tf2 spy#tf2 engineer#engiespy#practical espionage#spy head tf2#my art#jokz doodles
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i get so jealous of euthanized dogs.
-- june gehringer
#teen wolf#twedit#scott mccall#theo raeken#sceo#gay hands murder yearning etc etc#you know the drill#i just think that both scott and theo mourn the murder in interesting ways#scott has that ragged literally wounded exhaustion#and even after he heals he's still panicked about being hurt again#he's dragging himself to each fight#and then throwing himself into it fatalistically#and every time he sees theo he's on the verge of snapping#whereas theo i think has these quiet really miserable moments#where he claims something like 'my record's spotless'#while the camera focuses on his clean hands#but we know they're stained and so does he#and even if he washes them#he'll get blood on them again#and every time he does#he becomes more alone
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Who knew sewing an elastic waistband on a skirt for 2-4 hours would give you a hand cramp and hurt your fingertips? :o
#I did this with the denim jacket as well lol#*shocked pikachu face*#sewing with a literal needle that’s pretty sharp on both sides for hours without a thimble… HURTS? :o#fucking time loss is a BITCH#brain turned off and now it’s 11pm and my drink is almost entirely flat#🪲#hand sewing#sewing project#hand sewn#sew#sewing#sewblr#sewist#handsewn
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I know tea time was bad BAD, but I missed my favorite bastard SO much!!! I was so happy to just see him... Imagine the emotional roller coaster!!
#rwby#rwby spoilers#rwby v9#roman torchwick#neo politan#my art#i literally clapped my hands so fast when i saw him on the thumbnail my palms hurt#ruby rose#rwby 9 spoilers
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a starlet is born
i headcanon that sally is probably the last to arrive in the neighborhood
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tw airy abuse 🙄
#airy#backpack#hfjone#liam#hfj one#lairy#tw lairy#liam plecak#my art#tw abuse#????? i guess#its literally object specific like there is no equivalent#bro is picking shards of glass off his face#he puts liams hand to his mouth cos hes trying to help him feel better 🥲 thats what airy does whenever he gets a cut#even while liams hurting him he just wants to help liam#auguhhh they make me sick
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the mock up sketch is DONE OH MY GOD
#desert duo#grian#scar#goodtimeswithscar#desert duo fanart#gtwscar#gtws fanart#grian fanart#goodtimeswithscar fanart#3rd life#3rd life fanart#blood tw#death tw#duuuuude my hands hurt#sharky’s art tag#literally oh my god
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