#My bf who pays for things and has changed my life

[teddytrash-101]

What I have learned from MXTX protagonists is that I need a hot sugar daddy to turn my life around.

[lesbiansanemi]

We’ve officially hit the point where I can’t fucking sleep because of this shit and on top of everything the AC went out I literally want to cry I’m so stressed I physically feel like shit like I need to throw up I’m so tired but between my stomach hurting, the stress, and the heat I can’t

[nemesyaaa]

i'm sorry but i'm the type of person who thinks that drew starkey doesn't care about your body, the way your body is. do you have a big tummy or not? not a problem. do you have stretch marks? not a problem ? do you have too many tits or not enough? not a problem. do you have scars ? not a problem at all. you're small or too big? not a problem.

It’s not the thing that will make him fall in love with you. I see Drew with someone funny, sensitive, and interesting. and he will not find you boring.

when I see his videos, interviews, life etc, I can say that he is someone who listens a lot, and relate sometimes. he will like someone who speaks, who has things to say no matter what it is

I know that this man doesn't care about your origins, your skin color, where you come from, it's not a limit, even less a barrier

I know that this man will do his best, that he will love you properly. I know he doesn't judge. and that he will be more understanding than anything else. I can say he will be a good boyfriend and a good confidant

I also know, and it shows, that he is a sensitive man who pays attention to details

if he hurt you, I can tell you he will apologize and fix this

I think Drew wants someone who doesn't take themselves seriously but still passionate and interesting, who takes life as it is, someone who is just fun, who likes random selfies, going to parties, but doing cheesy things like watching movies, going to amusement parks, dancing and singing

you can be shy or confident. just be yourself.

and since this man is a photographer, I know he will enjoy taking some pictures of u. you will be his favorite subject. do you want to be a star on social media? ask him. he will take the best photos.( i know he's not a social media bf, but he will be so supportive to his gf)

do you need to cry? he will take you in his arms

do you need to take a nap? this man likes to sleep so much, he will take a nap with you

he's so cute, i feel it, i see it, you can't change my mind

i mean.....LOOK AT HIM ???

[colourstreakgryffin]

hii!!! if I may, could I request obanai with an s/o who is sweeter than sugar and extremely lovey? she often worries abt ppl and asks stuff like “have you eaten yet?” or “how’s your day been? are you tired?” mostly bc her parents/ppl on general didnt pay much attention to her and wants to make everyone feel appreciated ^_^

I haven’t had a solo Obanai request in so long and I’ve missed him so much, thank youuuuu~! Always keep Obanai requests coming

Iguro Obanai- Sugar Catches the Fly

When it comes to your and your extremely lovely nature. There is only three words to describe how Obanai feels about you; Obanai. Adores. You. He adores you so much, it hurts

You’re so affectionate, you’re so sweet, you’re so compassionate. You care for him all the time and ask how he is, he feels so special and gets flustered each time you express your hand of empathy. He doesn’t know what he did to deserve you, but he doesn’t want you to shine away from him

Obanai has grown to love you so quickly. You’re one of the very few people who truly cares for him and the fact you always want to make sure he is okay, he never wants to worry you and he realises he must care more for himself

You help him. You help him recognise his own self-preservation and he values you intently for that, his love for you grows as he feels motivation to care for himself. You give him love and support, he couldn’t believe somebody has changed him so much

Obanai can barely keep himself composed when you finally get the confidence to tell him your motivation behind your intense care. You never got that type of love throughout your life and he feels needed to give you that love himself so he can heal you like you healed him

Obanai is quite affectionate but he is also just as protective, he won’t let you shine your consideration on people or things that don’t deserve it! Such as demons or cruel people. He won’t let them hurt you and break your cute peaceful little world

Obanai will do anything you ask when you express your concern for him. “Have you eaten yet?” He is grabbing something to eat as to not worry you, your love motivates him to care for himself but he does forget to care for himself sometimes. Your consideration makes him remember

With how sweet and cute your voice is, Obanai just wants you to talk all the time as he silently listens with the most lovestruck look humanely possible. He is so in love with you that you could be standing still and staring at nothing and he’d still be having the time of his life

Protective hugs galore when anybody dares to say your short BF is nothing like you and the contrast doesn’t match. He doesn’t care if you’re sweeter than sugar and he is sourer than rotten lemons, he loves you and he can’t let you go!

“Oh? My love, how has my day been? It’s been… I suppose, decent. As decent as a Hashira can get, but what about you? Nobody has been bothering you, right? You know I’ll do anything to make you happy”

[yourstrulyrika]

a short drabble about Leon as your bf because I love this man. pure sfw and comfort!! just mention of mental health struggles and a self harm mention in one of the sentences, just a mention but i’m saying it just in case.

Leon would be the sweetest type of lover. Like actually. yeah he may be distant and all, but he loves you, and he tries to make sure you know it. always hugging you, comforting you, kissing you. it’s the little things. he notices everything— he always pays attention to your face, body talk.

Leon is so comforting in general. this man gives the best hugs and it’s canon (confirmed by me i am capcom). his arms just wrap around you, covering you like a warm blanket on a winter night. he likes sitting with you in silence, not talking about anything in particular but being with you. like a cat, in some ways. he wants your attention and affection, but he’s also reversed and won’t show it besides the subtle signs. he loves rocking you back and forth in a soothing motion, whispering sweet words in your ear.

Leon loves forehead kisses. he loves kissing your pretty face, holding hands without a word. he loves when you cover his face with kisses, it’s his favourite thing.

Leon is the type of person to kiss your self harm scars if you have them. he doesn’t even have to ask to understand. he knows. and that’s okay — he doesn’t comment on them, just kisses your scars and tries to make you feel validated.

my headcanon is that leon did at least try sh once in his life. there’s no way he didn’t at least think of it.

Leon who is grateful for your existence. you saved him. thanks to you, he started smiling again. it’s still just that small smile of his, but it appears more often and only around you.

Leon who would give everything to you because you’re his everything. he doesn’t want anything or anyone else because he has you — his dear, his angel, his beloved person.

Leon is a quiet lover. but, he loves listening to you. he listens to you rambling for hours, whenever its about games, netflix, work, anything — he likes listening to everything you say. later on he remembers the little details from all your stories and mentions them later.

Leon is so protective over you. when he notices even a subtle sign of distress or even a small tremble or change in expression, he’s growing protective. he went through so much, he’ll do everything to protect you from what he went through.

[kentosbabes]

I'm obssessed with your eren writings, they're the best, THEY ALL ARE AMAZING

I LITERALLY LOVE YOU SO MUCH !!!!!!!

as a token of my appreciation here are some bf Eren headcanons hope you enjoy <33 part 2 here

Bf-Eren who is a little controlling but in a sweet way like covering you in his jacket when your dress is a bit too exposing for him. He needs to know where and who you are with at all times because your the best thing to him and he cant risk loosing you. Also his trust issues are SCREAMING and although he gets an ego boost knowing how others look at you knowing your all his, he can get a little insecure and gets all clingy and cute.

Bf-Eren who makes sure you live the rich lavish life. He's paying for your hair and nails and loves it when you get his initial painted on one. He's taking you out to fancy restaurants and ensuring everything you eat is of the best quality. He loves cutting up your food for you and treating you like the princess you are.

Bf-Eren who takes you shopping constantly watching you spend all of his money while he sits as you change in and out of dresses in the dressing room, and sometimes when he just cant take it anymore he's joining you for a quickie so he can get rid of his hard after seeing you in those short skirts and dresses.

Bf-Eren who begs you every night to shower or bath with him. He loves how you massage the soap into his skin after an long day at work. Your fingers running through his hair rubbing in the shampoo as he leans to place his forehead on your shoulder as you massage his scalp.

Bf-Eren who has to be touching you at all times, weather its walking hand in hand or having you sit on his lap while he works. Even if your cooking dinner he will be behind you running his hands up and down your body with his chin on your shoulder whispering 'your skin is so soft' in your ear.

Bf-Eren who cant kiss you for longer than 10 seconds without it leading to sex. your too irresistible to him the taste of your lips just beg him to take more of you. With you pushed against the wall of the shower he's thrusting slow and deep into you from behind leaving hickeys all across your shoulders and neck.

Bf-Eren who cant stop talking about you to his friends and co- workers. He would be sitting at his desk eating one of your baked goods while he gushes about you to Armin at the desk next to him. and when its a 'guys' night and they are out at the club he's often laying in bed with you instead watching videos of drunk Jean, Connie's sends into the group chat that you both laugh at.

Bf-Eren who adores how innocent you look when you wear your glasses and one of those tiny crop top as you sit on the couch next to him reading a book. You have no idea what your doing to him and he's quick to pull you onto him making you sit on his cock while you read aloud to him whining for him to just fuck you 'But baby you look so cute. just a little longer I promise mama and then I'll fuck you senseless.'

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[bubuslutty]

MIKE WITH A PISS KINK PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

tbh I've never really wrote for piss kink before the other post. but I'm exploring and dipping my toes very slowly into stuff (am I being slow? idk? anyway. who fucking cares.)

Mike is a nasty little freak and nobody can convince me otherwise. he likes having some power over at least certain aspects of his life, he likes being in control of things he chooses to control. not like paying the bills and going to work. cuz he has to? to live?

but he can have control over his gf. her body. her bladder. Just because he can.

so when he first was plagued with the image of his gf just pissing on him, his brain chemistry changed and he kind of wanted to make it a reality, trying without freaking his gf out and also without really telling her.

maybe it was him convincing her to let him fuck her when he knew she drank a bit too much water today and felt like going on the middle of him fucking her. maybe he'll let her go, maybe not, maybe he'll ask her to hold it in until he's done, she can wait, right? She can do it, she's a big girl <3

and maybe he'll hold onto her waist, dig his fingers super close to her belly button, press down a bit where her bladder should be in guise of him just holding her up, but really, he just loves her little squeals of panic and flinches, and not once does she tells him to stop, just whines and whines and moans while getting rocked on his cock.

And as soon as he's done and at this point, his baby is shaking and overwhelmed, he'll help her to the toilet, and help her sit and relieve herself while she's still. panting. and he's there, standing over her with a hand on her shoulder, so she wouldn't somehow slip and fall?

he's just a good bf after all, he has to make sure his gf is safe and taken care of <3

and then obviously Mike will take care of her, hop in the shower, wash her body for her and all, dress her up in some comfy clothes and lounge in their bed together <3

perhaps this keeps happening for a long time, his gf needs to go, but he needs her more than she needs to go, and how can she say no to those eyes??? and the cycle repeats until she realises that maybe he really, really, want her to let go.

So it happens then, for the first time, while in the shower, because its the perfect place to make a mess, and it starts off pretty innocent, just showering in silence, together, then washing each other's hair, giggling and slowly getting touchy until her back is to the wall and he's moaning in her neck with the sound of his hips snapping against hers echo in the shower.

And she doesn't tell him she needs to go, she just holds him tighter, wraps her arms around his neck and presses herself closer, he moans, and then he feels something, he's confused at first, terrified that he somehow hurt her because why the fuck is something hot dripping down her thighs, and when the smell hits his nose he absolutely loses it.

"Hah- Had to go, hm? Couldn't hold it in? Hm, baby? Fucked you so good you just-- Pissed yourself? Fuuuuuuuuuccckkk... Yeah. Yeah, you're mine. And I'm yours, yeah?"

his eyes almost roll to the back of his headand his rythm stutters and he snaps them harder, tries to get himself deeper, closer, all the while making the most debauched and pathetic noises he's ever made, he's so unbelievably horny he cums in no time.

and from that day on, everything changes.

[lyramundana]

Since @whatudowhennooneseesyou wants more and I’m a people pleaser, here’s another version, again based on another convo we had. 

This time is about my man, the icon, love of my life and the only person that makes me want to have children. His children only. My bias and the reason I got into Stray Kids. 

Christopher Bang

Now here’s the thing:

This man is a fuckboy. That much it’s obvious. Just look at his interactions with Stay and his messages on bubble. Not to mention he’s an aussie (and a former eshay) this men are the definition of “danger”, For fuck’s sake, his nickname among friends was “Mr Steal your girl”, which fits perfectly with a Libra’s description because that’s what they usually do: Stealing girls (and make anyone question their sexuality). 

Now there’s a wrongly extended misconception that fuckboys have to be “cold, sarcastic, too-cool-for-love type” type of dudes. That they go around wearing leather jackets, riding motorcycles and spend their days fucking everything that moves. But this isn’t it. A fuckboy is simply a man that gets off from being desired and having the people he wants at his mercy, specifically in bed. There’s not a settled manual of dressing and general behaviour to be one, the name says it all: A boy who fucks. Easy. 

Christopher it’s exactly that. He fools us with his good boy persona, acting all shy with pick-up lines but still fishing out for more. Showing off his muscles at every single opportunity he has (like that one concert where the members went to lift his shirt and he just let them, putting his hands behind his neck in surrender), but if you pay close attention, he doesn’t really hide his fuckboyish manners. I can’t explain it, but there’s something in his attitude, the way he speaks sometimes and acts, that screams “i make girls orgasm every week to relax”. 

“Does that mean I’m your daddy? MOvIng oN”

“You know what else is big?”

“Say please”

Do you need any more proof? I think not. Now back to my delulu intepretation of him:

Christopher is the type of bf that would feel that he must be the "caregiver" of the relationship. He's the one who leads, who provides, who looks after you. That's his role and you shouldn't ever take that away from him. You can take care of him for a change sometimes because he also needs some coddling and attention, but most of the time, he's in charge. I think raising his members by himself for so long has enhanced this side of him. He's very protective, very picky and a perfectionist, so his partner has to learn patience because this man can be mentally and emotionally exhausting for them.

In his toxic version, he's extremely controlling and possessive. He doesn't let you hang out with other boys, or anyone he doesn't approve of. He makes big decisions over your own life for you because "he knows what's best". He'll treat you more like an accessory that needs to look good on him rather than a person. In his mind, you belong to him and that's final. If gets hit on, he’ll accept it with zero regrets and may return the gesture. He’ll show it when he likes someone’s physically and may flirt with them, but you’re not allowed the same behaviour. He expects you to be always at his beck and call, but he’ll most likely never be completely loyal to you. Funny thing is that he truly believes he loves you and you should be grateful for all he does for you. He simply wants his partner to be the best version of themselves, and if that casually fits his standards of perfection, well, does it matter? Every single thing you do has to pass through him first. He’s the type to end fights with angry sex and call it “talking things out”. He’ll make sure you never move on from him. If you break up, he’ll be the ex that still calls you “his” and sabotages your love life. He’ll manipulate you to the point you’re totally dependant of him, his perfect delicate doll. Remember this guy is one perfectionist dude and he has very high standards, and as his partner, he expects you to meet at least some of them.

As a yandere, he’ll be pretty much the same, with the difference that he won’t look at anyone else and he’ll never be unfaithful. He’s a smooth motherfucker, and so he knows how to keep you with him subtitly without you noticing. He’ll isolate you from everyone else, planting seeds of suspicion in your mind and pushing you to overthink stuff and doubt everthing around you, becoming almost paranoid. He’ll deliberatly create situations than can be easily misunderstood so you come running to him for comfort, believing he was right all along, while he hugs you tightly and kisses your hair, smiling to himself at seeing you right where you’re supposed to be. He’ll use every dirty asshole trick during arguments to win. Gaslight, pulling out insecurities, emotional manipulation, everything. He’s mad at you for not behaving the way he wants to but he doesn’t want you to leave him either.  He’ll start fight with you with the twisted purpose of getting you to be vulnerable and having the excuse to put you in your place. He does everything for you and gets angry if you try to do stuff for him. Your autonomy is taken away and you can’t leave him. Ever. He has a way to make you feel so loved, so cared for, so desirable, that you won’t notice the darkness closing around you until it’s too late. 

As a normal person, he’s also territorial, but in a relatively healthy way. His caregiver complex is still off the roof tho. He feels like it's his duty (and also his joy) to take care of you and make sure you're content. This man, when he loves, he does wholeheartedly. He worships the ground you walk on, he sees you as a heaven sent angel just for him, he adores you and would give you the world if he could. He hates when you go to other people for comfort or advice, because in his eyes, who's gonna help you better than him? He lives off feeling needed, of having you rely on him. He doesn't let it get to the toxic point because he's mature like that, but there are times that he wishes he could hide you from the world and keep you to himself. If he's in a bad mood, the members know they only have to bring you where he is and suddenly it's all good. The bad mood might not always wear off, but at least he wouldn't snap at anyone if you're there.

He gets shy with other people's compliments, but with you? He pulls out the fuckboy manual. He loves to make you blush, push your body against him and whisper the most indecently, spiciest pick-up linea. Those wicked pick-up lines he's not allowed to use with Stay? You've heard all of them. His incessant need for control purrs when he has you all flustered and nervous under his hands, submitting for him. We treat it as a running joke but I truly believe this man is an Alpha in an alternative universe.

The type of bf to assert his claim over you by physical contact. Throwing an arm around your shoulders, grabbing you by the waist, pushing his hand in your lower back to guide you. He makes sure you're never far from him when you guys are out. Another dude staring at you too much? He moves right by your side or behind you to send him a message. He's another one that loves seeing you wearing his stuff. The type to place his coat/jacket on your legs or shoulders, not only to keep you warm, but also to mark you even further as his person.

Honestly most of your fights are because of his jealousy, because when it comes to other problems, he talks it out like a champ and communicates his feelings. The only thing that makes his blood boil is the idea of losing you, especially to someone else. He can't stand people getting close to what he considers his. Like I said, an Alpha.

If I don't stop here this post will never end. Feel free anyone to add your own opinion about the matter.

[lovelymessybubbly]

I love how there are all these “SFW” communities out there.

In my experience and opinion, these people are all just a bunch of late bloomer minors who haven’t discovered true arousal yet, and a bunch of teens, high school and college kids who are in denial that these weird ass things turn them on, manifesting those feelings into butterflies in their stomach, not their groins.

In essence, I think everyone’s a hypocrite lol. Except for the kinky adults who are actually honest with themselves.

And to the tickle community in particular: You’re going to sit there and tell me that getting red in the face and blushing, getting butterflies in your stomach, getting flustered and wanting intimate affectionate physical contact and giggling out of excitement…you’re really going to sit there and tell me that’s not some sort of arousal?

Do me a favor. Try masturbating during your next lee mood.

Boom.

Fireworks. You’ve just had your sexual awakening. You’re welcome.

oh ! actually, i am aroused by tickling ! i have a tickling kink (＾▽＾) and i have been very aware of this for a while. but i also know how to appreciate tickling in a fun and cuddly way, without it being sexually driven !! sometimes when i cuddle with my boyfriend, it leads to sex. other times, it’s just nice to cuddle. we take a nap and snuggle and all our clothes stay. sometimes, i give my bf sensual massages, with candles and oils. but then sometimes, i scratch my friend’s back as an expression of companionship. sometimes my mom rubs my shoulders because she loves me. and sometimes my boyfriend just scratches my back because i ask him, and it feels nice, and it’s a form of love, and that’s it.

sometimes my bf tickles me during sex. sometimes he ties me up with no top on and feathers me. sometimes i moan when stroked on my feet. sometimes i finish faster when being teased under my arms

but sometimes, my boyfriend tickles me to cheer me up, and his attempts to lighten the mood make me laugh more than the tickling. sometimes i ask him to tickle me while we are cuddling, and he playfully spiders my sides while i giggle into his shoulders. sometimes he times me at how long i can be ticked in one spot. sometimes he blows raspberries on my neck. sometimes he just coos at how cute i am while laughing. and no loins grow wet, no clothes come off, no sexual acts happen, and we still enjoy it very much.

i can appreciate the sfw side of tickling because i love tickling, i love drawing, i love seeing my favorite characters laugh, and i know how to respect others.

you, on the other hand, have way too much time on your hands and are going into the inboxes of people who are minding their own business and spouting this blue-balled nonsense (and to many MINORS at that) thinking that you are making a point, that you are the next andrew tate, and everyone is just going to have this hypnotic eye-opening and change all their blogs to Deviantart fetish accounts because your shallow words touched them so much, when in reality you are probably a single, unemployed, studio-apartment, mom-pays-my-phone-bill unshaven, unhygienic, uneducated, shallow and narrow-minded individual who will probably never experience a woman’s love (and trust me, women are WAY better in bed when they actually find you attractive) and will be miserable and alone because you spend your time spewing your garbage at people who don’t care you exist instead of doing something with your life.

you are so starved for attention and compassion that you are begging for attention from strangers, even if it’s negative attention. no wonder you cannot fathom people enjoying any form of affection that isn’t driven by sexual desires or ulterior motives. no one has ever given you that pure kind of affection, have they?

thank you for stopping by my blog, anon ! but please do not make an appearance again. tamadachi, keep doing what you love ! ♡ฅ(ᐤˊ꒳ฅˋᐤ♪)

[angriel]

Hello!!!

Can you do Broken reader x Neteyam where the readers bf was cheating on her with some bitchy Na'vi and then your Rival Neteyam comforts you then the both of you fell in love and the rest is up to you!

Damn! You want some Angsty Drama huh? Your wish is my command hun!

Disillusionment [ I ]

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part two

Warning!: Aged up! Neteyam x Reader, Mentions of cheating!, Toxic Relationship, Some super duper Angst everywhere, Absolutely Ass writing, Mentions of Ab^se, Mentions of Blood, Curse Words, Mentions of 💀 thyselves

(I DO NOT OWN JAMES CAMERON'S AVATAR CHARACTERS PLOT AND ETC. I ONLY OWN MY OC'S)

Also pretend that they're still staying on the forest and not yet migrated to the High Camp. This is also a 2 shot fic okay???

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Stupid

Fiasco

Disappointment

Good for nothing

Failure

Bluff

Fake

Dull

Those are the words that best describes you, You're considered as the Black Sheep of your family. They've never recognized any of your personal achievements, even when you became one of the people they were never there to support you THEY NEVER CARED ABOUT YOU.

You were not entirely useless, you were Neteyam's RIVAL You hate him to the core. Mainly because you always get compared with him in terms of Fighting and Hunting. He was neither kind nor mean to you he was a balance, he always look at you with a straight face and talking to you in a nonchalant manner further destroying your self esteem.

When you found your Mate Wo'kan he was the best thing that happened to you, he was the only one who cared about you and treats you gentle and kind. He was the exact opposite of your parents his touch was full of love and is being considerate of your feelings. Unlike your so called family who do nothing but beat you and is always scolding and insulting you.

This was the time that Neteyam begins to act like a dick around you always playing pranks, Becoming overly competitive, Insulting you and casually shot glares in your way a couple of times. He made your life a living hell, it was a bittersweet moment in your life as you have mated with Wo'kan infront of Eywa and you two have lived together.

You were finally able to freely breathe without being cautious in your surroundings, you experienced being loved and you'll be lying if you said that it didn't changed you. It made you become brighter and optimistic about life, you and Wo'kan was inseparable and is leading a happy life for what it seems for forever.

Because that's how it's suppose to be right? Being Mates means loving each other eternally, that was what you thought. One night Wo'kan went home late at night you had asked him where he was and what happened to him to go home so late at night but he ignored you, it hurts you when he's not paying attention to you when you're talking to him as it brings many bad memories from your past.

You decided to let it go and ask him tomorrow morning what happened, that specific night made you feel cold on your joint bed. When you woke up in the morning your mate was no where to be seen and it made you feel down, but you sucked it up and thought that he will be back to normal later on in the day.

How you were so wrong about that he went home late AGAIN but he was drunk this time. "Paskalin, What happened to you?" You worriedly asked him but he just grabbed a fistful of your hair and you let out a loud yelp of pain while grabbing his hand that is on your hair.

"Shut the fuck up Snumina muntxate" He said with venom lacing his voice, you widened your eyes you couldn't believe that your beloved husband was saying those things to you. Was it the influence of alcohol? You thought, as you were about to speak he suddenly gave you a harsh slap across your right cheek.

"Words don't shut you up huh? Perhaps my fist will" He spat those words to you before beating you up, he punched you everywhere and left you curling into a ball and then proceeds to kick you. He ab^sed you until the sun has risen up, you feel your body aching and asked Eywa why did she make your life so miserable.

You hoped to Eywa that this will be the first and the last time that this will happen, little did you know that this was one of the many beatings you will take from him. You don't know what to do honestly going back to your parents house was never the option as they will criticize you about how you're still a failure beig a wife.

Every beatings took a toll in your body forming bruises everywhere making hunting hard for you, Neteyam noticed your bruises and proceeds to question you about it. You made up a lame excuse about you being clumsy and falling down a tree when climbing it up for picking a medical herb for your ointments.

Neteyam was suspicious at your lame excuses knowing you almost rival him in terms of combat and flexibilty but he didn't pushed it any further and proceeds to continue the hunt, and as usual the two of you competes but because of your bruised body from your husband's beating you were 2 kills behind Neteyam and he gave you a teasing smirk causing yiu to get angry.

He was getting worried about you seeing you with new bruises every time you hunt with them, and you were getting weaker and thinner. one time before the hunting session he pulled you to a secluded area and begin to question if your excuses were true and since you don't want to ruin your relationship with Wo'kan you said that you're fine and all of your excuses were true.

Neteyam loves you, not as a rival or a friend but as a lover but yiu were too stupid to know that. You were head over heels for Wo'kan, it was one of the reasons why he doesn't have a mate yet he knew that the right time will come but he doesn't know when it will happen.

There was a celebration of the clan as 2 more young boys have become an adult, your husband Wo'kan warned you beforehand to not do anything stupid or he'll kill you for real. And by warn I mean beat you.

You got a wound on your lips from his punch and you covered it with ointment before going out to follow him. You saw him with a beautiful Na'vi Ayn'at, she was everything a man would look for and sadly despite being your mate Wo'kan is a man too. A mated one. You saw how they interact with each other you're stupid in love but you're not stupid enough to understand what was going on between them.

All your worries turned true and all the questions lingering in your mind were answered, Wo'kan was having an affair with Ayn'at. You feel a stab on your heart as you felt the feeling of pain eating you away as you stare at the two, tears began to well on your eye but you blinked it away and then ran to the Tree of Souls.

You connected with Eywa with your tsaheylu and you began to speak out all of the pain you feel in your heart.

"Ma Eywa why are you doing this to me? Do you not love me? Do you not favor me as the others? Ever since I was little all I ever felt was pain. Is this my Fate? Am I destined to live my life this way?" You silently cried to Eywa as your voice cracked at the end. You cried your heart out but you heard a twig snapped, you opened your eyes and hid between some trees.

What you saw made your eyes widened and made your heart feel way worse than it was already feeling, you saw your BELOVED HUSBAND and AYN'AT holding hands together and smiling. They looked so happy together like the two of you in the past. They began to kiss each other and feel each other, you know what they were about to do.

They were about to mate before Eywa, Your eyes widened and as finally tears fell down from your cheeks and the constant stabbing of pain in your chest increases. When a mated Na'vi has mated someone else before Eywa, their partner feels the opposite of what they're feeling. If they feel pleasure of someone else their mate feels pain.

Your heart ached more and more as you began to hear their cries of pleasure from feeling each other. You couldn't take it anymore the pain was becoming unbearable each second you hear their voices, you silently made your way back to your favorite spot where you and Neteyam held your first Competition. The Hallelujah Mountains.

As you landed you've thought about jumping and ending your life but you remained strong. you curled yourself to a soft moss on the rock and cried your heart out, you wondered why Eywa is doing this to you. She really doesn't love you huh?

All the talk of the Natives about finding your mate and finding love seems fake, it all gives you the feeling of...

DISILLUSIONMENT...

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[annislittleshopofhorrors]

We all see that she even tries to leave behind and ignore the films that may not do well. Maybe she has changed and improved. She is in a relationship with a man who is more experienced. Both in life and at work. She may have learned a lot from Chris. And she is trying to get better...//

Margs here, late night rant. (Post at your own discretion, friend). Uhhhhh. What is this? Are you forgetting MHGTP and her peak show WN? MH did well in getting attention for fashion/costuming. WN she was the lead character who was supposed to be a bad ass. While they might not have been critical successes, she failed to truly invest in the projects as far as overall promotion. Sure there are interviews, one premiere- but she dropped these projects like a bad habit …and the fact…the glaring fact that her coworkers were happy to put the time into it made a big difference. It comes off as selfish and entitled from her side. Idk if the goal is to just…stop acting…..but if it’s to learn from Chris, I’ve got some bad news. He didn’t want to do cap. He doesn’t want to direct anymore. (We think). He doesn’t want to produce. He turned down really good roles in favor of mediocre ones…and for the money. If it’s to stop acting…well that’s funny too, bc remember when Chris was like “wah wah if I didn’t act, idk WHAT I would do” 😂😂🤷🏻‍♀️sounds like he true love has helped him really explore his potential.

I really fail to see where she’s getting better. She doesn’t invest in the people that invest in her (and I mean from a public front. Which just seems odd). Why even have a dumb Instagram if all you’re going to do is delete negative comments about yourself and let your bf do all the heavy lifting….so you can benefit by looking good? What did she learn? Not to contribute bc she’s garbage? You notice she’s v concerned with how things look. I won’t shame a photoshopped waist. Who GAF. but defending her moms age (when no one asked her to), doubling down re: yoga certificate (when no one asked her to), attempting to post her noods then getting an article about it (that no one saw), asking her FANS. HER. FANS to take down pics she’s not happy with, having her own mother claiming her shutting down IG was to improve things (and it’s not true) like…for someone who is learning….she’s awful concerned with how she’s perceived, but to like an odd level in my opinion. Trust me when she grows up and her balls drop, she won’t GAF. But to say she’s learning and growing i just 😂 did alba just write her own GD ask so we can take her seriously?

**I realize me writing this dissertation means I’m paying attention in any case. But don’t get it twisted. I am a disgusted fan, who is scooting out the door So 🤷🏻‍♀️😂

I really love your late night rant (when I'm having lunch 😅). What really gets me is how she treated her fans. Her fans spent money on her and the only thing she could do was posting a tweet. And this this was not long time ago - "trying to get better" my ass 🙄

[welcome-to-the-petting-zoo]

Looking back on my life now, I'm seeing how formative it was to me to follow this blog. You presented challenging texts on psychology and queer activism, and gave me an example of a polyamorous life far richer than I could allow myself to imagine. From the bottom of my heart: Thank you. I wish you well. Thank you. How are you doing? Thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you

Hi Frozenbasalt!! Cat ( @neuroglitch ) here! Thank you so much for this wonderful message! It means the world to me - us - that this blog was able to provide you with something that was helpful and formative to you ❤️ I sent it in the group chat and it's much appreciated!

While none of us have been very active on this blog, nor have we been making updates to the podcast for years by now, it's not because we aren't doing well, it's just that other projects took precedence and in some ways it's hard to come back to something like this years later, when everything has changed but also everything is the same. Also there definitely have been some rough patches of life where the energy just hasn't been there. But running this blog + making the podcast is a very dear memory to me and I'm so proud and happy to hear that it was helpful to someone!

I still live with Moose and Hound+TP&Co. Moose ( @moose-mousse ) finished his education and got a job as an engineer. The firm is kinda crazy, but hey, they pay him, so that's good :p He's doing a lot better overall now that uni isn't constantly fucking him over anymore.

I finished my education as a psychologist, but ended up on disability pension for now. I'm working hard on making time for my own projects and dreams, but it's a work in progress, especially as I've been struggling a lot with negative symptoms and/or executive dysfunction for a while.

Hound and TP are now more of a collective than they used to be (lots of new and old faces) but at the same time they also have less in terms of dissociative amnesiac barriers between them, and can better be described as a collective rather than two very seperate people who never get to hang out. This past year they've gotten back into driving around the countryside on a scooter, and they have collected an infinite amount of pebbles. Also he's 2 years on T!

The wonderful Bear ( @prygelknabe ) has found work helping students with special needs get through high school. They are on a type of partial disability called flex job, where they work 18 hours but get paid full-time. They are also rediscovering their kink social life and figuring out how to live their best life!

Bat ( @the-life-of-bat ) is learning how to draw, making a comic, doing an internship at a comic book store and more. She has long since recovered fully from surgery and it's been awesome to see her grow. And it's been great for the two of us to be able to meet each other on more equal footing ❤️

Katten is still going strong at @compassionatereminders , bless her - she was broken up with by her long-term bf, but as a result, she is also having a glowup bc dude was kinda .. uninspiring. She went down in medication, has had more energy as a result, and now she's starting to get involved with the local political scene and stuff!

and Lynx is trying to get back to the job market after a lengthy battle with her mental health + immigration services trying to throw her out of the country. Definitely early stages of picking things back up, but there's a momentum now and there's a sense of depression lifting.

This all to say, that yes, ofc we are all facing challenges, and have been as well, but there's good to be found in everyone's narrative too, and we are still in each other's lives, and there's love and care to go around!

I hope you are also doing well! I'm always happy to see you in my notifications, and this message means a lot to me. Thank you for sharing!

[andrewknightley]

final thoughts of my reply of da2 all here to not mega spam

-gosh i remember how shocked i was when i saw the chantry exploting for the first time. i wish i could see myself again. the biggest plot twist of my life. (now replaying anders is like "yeah the potion we pick this and this and bum!" and im like i see what u did there)

-im not a big fan of sebastian and i usually dont bring him around much but goooood i love when he is full of blood telling me how he is gonna come for my bf anders and show us what real justice is. its so epic

-replaying makes me love bethany even more ... my lil sister... i wanted to bring merrill in the final battle but in the end i had to bring bethany with me :_) all the legacy stuff and all the pretending to be happy in the circle because she doesnt wanna be a burden and her complicated feelings about being a mage gosh... i love her

-also i didnt say it here before but merrill mission destroys me everytime its so fucking sad. she did it all for people who loathe her. 6 fucking years in a shitty situation of hey your clan doesnt want your help or the eluvian this is like. bad for everyone ToT she could had spend all that energy with the city elvves and she admits she didnt even pay that much attention cause she has the "we the dalish are the real elves" thing.... gosh i love merrill and her story and im so sad

-anyways living with all the anders convers but what else is new

-isabela friendship is also a thing i treasure very much GOSH i love it...

-fenris saying im his only friend when i know he hangs out to play cards with varric and aveline's husband and isabela like what are u saying boy

-orsino turning to blood magic at the end of the game its so so stupid it will always be so stupid and made no sense but i know apparently they were forced to add 2 final boss for gameplay and they had to do this shitty story reason but god. awful. he doesnt even fight templars he just fight us like fiojfdigf

-last minute change of heart of cullen could also. be done better dffddf

-IM NOT CALLING YOU A LIAR JUST DONT LIE ON ME (cries)

-best credits

-anyways im emotionally destroyed i wish there was another dragon age to play but alas i have to wait for veilguard

(now for reals there are some stuff i would play inquisition again for, but god i think about the open world and walking and walking wthout nothing and the missions and ugghhhh)

-im gonna replay the emotional anders scenes now

[heartshattering]

/// venting, past SA mention

Stress is wrecking my sleep again, I really wish I could just feel okay but there's always so much spinning around in my mind. The problems I'm going through with my friend are hitting me harder than I thought, like I had all these annoyances bubbling inside of me and it's only now that she's gotten even more irritating that they're finally starting to surface and I'm questioning why we even stay friends. We don't have any common interests anymore, she's rude all the time and says things that are discouraging or flat-out dismissive.

If I open up to her about issues specifically related to one of my disorders, she'll be like "People without ADHD go through that too, it's not your ADHD causing that issue! :)" or "Oh I do the same thing and I don't have BPD! *proceeds to tell me about an incredibly mild form of mirroring she does which isn't nearly as severe as what I literally just described to her*".

It's been years already but I hate that she told the person who SA'd me after rejecting them that maybe I would "change my mind" about them and date them in the future. Told me I should have given them another chance. And didn't stick up for me at all during a conversation with them where they were putting me down and saying things like I was wrong and immature for not forgiving them and that I'm going to be alone forever.

This guy (not her current bf but one she was interested in for a while) used to call me crazy and a liar for being mentally ill and she always sided with him too. And there's been other examples too, the only time she sides with me is when I'm talking about my mom but in pretty much every other instance she takes the other person's side and acts like I'm just mean/crazy/unforgiving or whatever.

She's weird about my ethnicity too like asking me "Why don't you put biracial on forms?" or "Why don't you identify with your dad's background?" when I literally haven't been in my dad's hometown since I was a kid/don't have contact with anyone on that side of the family except him.

She flat-out told me "Your life is never going to get any better" (lol) and tries to pressure me all the time even knowing how difficult my life situation is and how it's unrealistic for me to pull some stupid stunt like running away from home or calling the police on my parents and all the other "advice" she gives me while knowing that would just make things worse and send me into a breakdown/spiral (which has happened before). But everyone loves to see drama break out I suppose so this would just be another "show" for her, it's just like when I was in that shitty support group where this lady tried to get me to check into a homeless shelter as a way to hide from my aunt and my mom.

Honestly I'm just so sick of dealing with her. I feel bad because she's done really kind and thoughtful things for me before, it just feels like the bad things are what are at the forefront of my mind right now. But I feel like I've been way too lenient when it comes to some of her comments and behavior towards me, most recently this new bullshit where she wants to use me for money and keeps saying things like "I'd understand if you were poor but I know you can pay for it" and thinking that just because I did one nice/expensive thing for her, now I have to do similar things all the time.

[rhymaes]

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the way ive been trauma dumping on this site this past year & each post has felt hopeless but with an air of 'i know it will pass because i have purposefully created an open future where i can surpass my fears, create my own life where i can be me & enjoy what i love, & conquer what [x] did to me' & then it all collapses within two weeks & there genuinely is no hope for it & not in a haha it feels hopeless way but in a no things are happening so far outside my control that the people who Are in control were like. nah your fucked dude. sorry. is like. a different kind of horror helplessness. like okay lets rewind. i dont get into medical grief on here bc then id kms but like. okay. so 2022 i thought [x] was going to die & i told No One ever but also they knew i had [x] who i cared abt & was concerned for & everyone in [x] kept treating me like shit over it SPECIFICALLY & spreading rumors abt me bc i am a lesbian & then 2023 [x] & [x] & [x] all decide, separately, they want to be fun & quirky & try it with the gay girl so they can brag abt it to their bfs (im genuinly not being biphobic like. i mean they are straight women who would. do this. shit like. they said it. and then tried to queer it up when i told them to fuck off with it & they still needed their gay card bestie to fuck their ugly ass men who abuse them??? what the fuck!!!) & still gaslight me for caring abt [x]'s health & then tell me im selfish bc i wont drop everything for them & then try to out me & usher me into my greatest fear. okay. anyway. then 2024:like. u didnt think it could get worse is whats so funny!! like i faced my ed, lack of medication, insane financial struggles, tore myself out of a codependecy she imbeded in me so far that this now is the only time ive actually been Me for two years, & so many interpersonal issues & on-going griefs & then like. 2024 was like so? u know. that thing. the one youve been working for. that u were emotionally banking everything on & then u Did actually achieve it like we have the paperwork over it & u were also using it to prove to yourself that [x] may steal your work but she cant steal everything from u & also this is the only thing u could spend ur life doing without waking up every morning thinking abt how to kill urself? yeah actually you cant have that we changed our minds lol!!! & we didnt know how to tell u :/ so thanks for reaching out! but its not u is the thing like. youre so good bro. its an outside factor & oh yeah no theres like. nothing u can do like. u should drop it man. try next year. its not like u got through this year for that alone & put up with every thing that cut u so deeply bc u knew this would pay off not because u deserve it no but because u actually earned it & worked for it. but bye try again next year. like!! oh!! okay!!! im going to find the sexiest fucking ledge i can actually hahaha!!!

[hypergamiss]

Maybe you can help me understand the way insta's recommendations work....But I think If someone has ever had your phone number, you will be suggested to follow them on insta and vice versa. I think this is the gist, I've tried reading thru the policy but can't find anything that explicitly states this.

Anyway, I'm bringing this up because I'm about to change my phone number because I keep getting suggested to follow people I haven't seen in 6+ years. Like co workers and people from group projects in college. I have accidentally stumbled across so many girls' OF/sex work accounts and it makes me sad and embarrassed for them. The trend, especially for gen z, is to give sex work a chance because the media tells us it's lucrative. I'm so glad I chose not to put myself out there like that--the internet will do you dirty every time. The fake user names are not hiding anything.

I just got done reading thru mess on twitter. A young girl who had a lot of promise, went against my advice I gave her years ago and gave up a full ride for OF content. She really thought she would be better off without a degree. Well, she found a pimp/bf and they're both struggling while they rely on her content to pay the bills. Selling pics of her privates for 8.99 a month. I found all this because she was randomly suggested on insta. Neither one of us have the others numbers anymore, yet because we had that digital connection several years ago we will never be able to escape each other online.

I'm a sex positive woman, but I hate that so many girls lacked guidance and discernment when they made these decisions. If I am stumbling across these accounts against my will, imagine who else in their life is seeing this. The internet is forever and people are not as stealthy as they think they are. I just feel so sad knowing this digital footprint is going to haunt them later on. I had a SD in college but I met him through a friend and didn't need to put myself online. He was actually the one who taught me how to be truly anonymous online because he knew I'd be thankful for it once my career took off.

I'm not very knowledgable on instagrams recommendations but I'm guessing that it's using data that goes back all the way to when you first created a facebook profile since Meta became a thing and they're all under one umbrella now. There is so much that is being done with everyone's(personal) data, at this point it might have to do more with your email than you're phone number(or both).

I never fully understood the pimp dynamic. I legit thought the pimp concept was a made up thing that they used only for films and music videos(naive, I know). Then I grew up and one day met a "pimp" in real life(laughed at his face, I thought he was joking about it) and my jaw was glued to the floor. I still can't fathom why any woman would just hand over all her earnings to a man so he can just live off of her income and work her to death. Oh and they have multiple women at once??? My brain still doesn't want to accept that pimps are a real thing😅 Obviously now I assume that a trouble history and maybe drug abuse might lead women to this path, but even then. Pimps are NOTHING without women...

I agree with you on the digital footprint topic, I wish everyone took it more seriously.... It's a forever thing. More permanent than a tattoo or a marriage will ever be!

It also saddens me that many young women don't have the guidance that they could really use. I wish I could personally be there for each and every one of them.