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At this point I genuinely think I might be the bitch who has asked themselves the most questions about this game
Especially the weirdest and most specific
#sso#ssoblr#And if you don't believe me just wait for me to throw up this entire longfic on Ao3#and I'll put my money where my mouth is tenfold#Currently asking myself the profound question#WHY does Pi want so many fucking five leaf clovers#Got it answered and I realised I got to connect two dots I already had#If anybody who isn't my actual friends#Sticks around for when I'll be releasing Squirrel Punt#In 2058#Y'all are going to see exactly why I keep joking about this shit#Real talk tho my general hope is that I don't spend more than a year on each draft#Which is to say Quint first draft was one year#And I hope Quint second draft will be at most a year too#Because lbr it's going to take a while too lmfao#I want it fully up before the year she said#Well she fucking lied#Mostly because she didn't know better#I KNOW BETTER NOW THO#If this shit is up before the year ends I'll need to turn myself in to science#That's how fucking unlikely it is
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Whenever someone tries to make a point about something the Konoha kunoichis, I need to make a pause and remind them how out of character they were in some of those moments.
Kishimoto pretty much abandoned Sakura and Ino's friendship and then tried to bring it back during the War arc. Ino lost her sensei and then her dad, and when was Sakura? You mean to tell me she wouldn't care? About any of it? Or when Sasuke was declared to be killed, do you mean to tell me that Ino wouldn't have run to find Sakura?
The way Hinata was written on Shippuden???? Naruto aside, people forget that Hinata refused to give up during the Chunning Exams and forced Neji to almost kill her if he wanted the victory. She was stubborn, she was prideful too, she had more going on than simply a crush on Naruto. She was told by her father she was a failure and yet she didn't give up on becoming a kunoichi, did she?
Then why is that Shippuden wrote her like her sole ambition was Naruto, hm?
And Tenten? She was MEAN when she wanted to be because she was highly competitive. We know that she wanted to train under Tsunade, so where did the death of that dream take her? She's such a powerful kunoichi and yet we know so little about her personality, her life...
We got "Ino and Hinata know some medic min techniques" in the most random way possible... We know Sakura would walk around with Hinata even, so what about their girl bonding moments during the genin to Shippuden years?
It made me so angry whenever the girls treated each other like strangers in Shippuden. So many stupid situations made to highly their teammates even if I meant to write the girls out of character...
#Hinata was ambitious back then!!! Yes she was inspired by Naruto by the fight was her own#she didn't fight for him she fight for herself#the whole point of their connection is that they were both losers rooting for each other to succeed#out of the Team 7 members Sakura was the one who spend more time with the rookie 9#I'm not saying they should like her better than Naruto but they shouldn't definitely know her better!!#and you mean to tell me they didn't care about her mental state when they were told that Sasuke was to be killed?#none of them?#I love Sai but Kishimoto took the character who knew less about it to give Sakura a lecture and no one else showed up? at any moment?#I'm convinced Kishimoto only did that to force the Sakura confession to Naruto and feed the love triangle agenda#it sucks to be the female love interest in a story focus on the male parts of the love triangle#I'm actually glad Kishimoto didn't write Tenten so ooc but it's still a shame we got so little Team Gai on Shippuden#they were mostly filler after being one of the strongest genin teams in Konoha#bless Temari and Tsunade for being the best written female characters of Naruto#because I'll never forget Kushina wanted to be Hokage and they gave it to her husband#anyway#naruto#sakura haruno#ino yamanaka#hinata hyuuga#tenten naruto#kunoichi#kunoichis#naruto female characters#naruto shippuden#konoha kunoichis
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i think this was funnier in my head.
#puppy draws#yo-kai watch#katie forester#jibanyan#whisper#whisper ykw#usapyon#hailey anne thomas#as a diagnosed autistic person i can confirm that the autism evaluation results#just being a picture of the autism creature with text saying you have the tism is accurate#i don't even remember how this idea came to me i think i was just overly tired this morning and then this happened#also ignore the fact that i refuse to accept nate as being canon protagonist katie is like way better sorry besties <3#that's like 80% a joke. every main yo-kai watch character is my blorbo and nate is included in that#i just also prefer katie. playing 3 and rewatching the anime + reading the manga did endear me to nate more though#i like how he's average but also totally bisexual. no i will not elaborate#why do my tags always get so derailed. uhhhh back to autism. hailey is so fucking autistic ngl#there's like at least five different instances in 3 of her just completely failing to read the room#she's totally hyperfixated on sailor cuties and next harmeowny#she has adhd vibes too i think but. the tism is very strong#i can't decide my favorite part of this between the “yippee!! you have the tism” image and jibanyan asking what autism is#he doesn't know because he has autism by default through being a cat he didn't need a diagnosis#i feel like all of them are autistic tbh but that's probably just me projecting. i totally gave katie autism in the rewrite though#i wasn't even trying to i just don't know what neurotypicals are like because i got that autistic rizz. and adhd rizz. mostly the adhd#i am definitely also autistic but i think my adhd effects me a lot more in day-to-day life#since i usually just interact with my moms who know i'm autistic and are also both neurodivergent#and people online. most of who are autistic because it's mostly on tumblr and this is the autism website#yo-kai watch more like yo-gay watchtism amirite-#oh also very amused by hailey just poofing into existence in the second picture. as you do
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Sometimes I still think about The Owl House Gang all trying to watch ATLA together but then Zuko's backstory in The Storm retraumatizes Hunter so bad they have to stop
#luz is too young to have grown up with the show she just heard it was good#SHE DIDN'T KNOW GUYS#they all get super into it and the gaang and maybe even make some jokes about how Zuko reminds them of Hunter#and then suddenly it is Not Funny Anymore#they just straight up stop watching it because it was So Bad#and then months later Hunter is like '....... i really want to know where that show goes'#so they pick it up again#everytime Zuko makes a bad life decision Hunter is just dying inside#'your dad DOES NOT LOVE YOU YOU CAN DO BETTER'#season 2 is such an emotional rollercoaster#like zuko is figuring stuff out and seems like he's gonna redeem himself and everyone is getting so hype#because at this point they NEED to see this character get a happy ending because they have been throufh WAY TOO MUCH over him#and then in the season finale he regresses#the BETRAYAL#they are like wailing and rending their clothes like dudes in the bible#hunter just sitting there with his head in his hands#season 3 storyline with zuko at the fire palace is also massively triggering for him but he's being so normal about it#the rest of the squad on the copium like 'he can still turn this around guys'#secretly several of them have given up on him at this point but they can't admit that there's too much riding on this#and then zuko DOES IT but the scene is so tense that no one even feels like they can celebrate because they're all projecting way too hard#and then zuko redirects the lightning and they're like 'FUCK YEAH!!!!!!!!!!'#there is much crying at the finale#luz and amity kin assigned eachother as aang and katara so they're really happy when they get together#hunter like 'mostly this is making me glad I didn't have to become the political leader of The Boiling Isles as a traumatized 16 year old'#'can you imagine'#these tags were not supposed to be this long lmao#toh#atla#avatar#my rambles
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with all these gaston crackships/rarepairs that are coming out lately it would be so fucking funny if he had a flig with all the main characters (ambar, nina, simon... hell luna too if you want) and they all know it except matteo
#mf would feel so betrayed once he finds out#and not because he's jealous or anything - or maybe yes (they kinda have a vibe between them if you get what i mean)#mainly because his best friend didn't tell him#gaston would 100% use “you didn't ask” with a shit-eating grin while shrugging his shoulder#he would have the time of his life making fun of matteo reaction lol#and matteo would also lowkey be insecure (understandable because gaston was probably a better boyfriend for all those people [real])#[from here on i'm gonna yap but like... YAP - get ready]#type of flings/situationships/whatever i think he had:#LUNA/GASTON : [barely a fling/ a kinda relationship (?)] - them just trying it out for the hell of it#they had a lot of fun and it strengthened their friendship#they never talk about it unless they're sure that they're by themselves#gaston sometimes reminiscences about it in front of others(to make luna panic/embarass)but in such a vague enough way that they don't get i#it always comes off as them play-fighting#it either happened before he and nina got together (which is what i'm running with for this post) or they did it after she left#because they were the closest to her and were the only people that could understand what it meant to lose nina#(luna also dated her in the past by this point)#GASTON/NINA: [literally canon and one of the main ships] so i don't have to explain it i guess#GASTON/SIMON: [was a “they were all in their feelings” during those moments - kind of deal]#that scene i reposted the other day is a good way to pinpoint when they started to actually eye eachothers /put a start to what they had#it ended two or three months later - don't know who put an end to it between them#but it wasn't a problem because they both had something else they wanted to focus on more - they're extremely chill about this#GASTON/AMBAR: [kinda the same - got to know eachother when they were kids and became extremely close (even tho it took A BIT since#even if gaston came from a good family ambar was still as standoffish as now (and also a bit shy even if she wouldn't admit it)]#gaston was the one that did the first step#at that point ambar actually never stopped to think about dating in general but especially him#but the idea of losing him as a friend for something so stupid as a relationship terrified her#he reassured her that whatever happened nothing between them would've changed#which was real but also not really#they ended up breaking up a year and a half later and became a bit awkward around eachothers for a bit (mostly because of ambar)#they're still cordial with eachothers
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Just saying, a lot of Edelgard's White Clouds interactions with TWSITD are a hell of a lot more forgivable when you remember its not just an Emperor and the devil she made a deal with, it's also a deeply traumatised teenager forcing herself to continue to interact with her abusers because she's trying to convince herself that her suffering at their hands meant something.
(with a side of a very clearly displayed implication that they won't hurt her while she's useful to them-)
#Like. That is the one thing I don't like about Hopes so far#It should've been Hubert suggesting the plan#And Edelgard fretting about the risks#Would've given both a chance for a rare scene of emotional vulnerability between those two#AND a lot more weight and stuff to work with for Edelgards guilt in Monica's supports#Cause. As is her guilt mostly feels like a 'haha she rescued Monica here but YOU know a timeline where she didn't don't you player?'#Which sucks because if it were handled better it could've been an amazing exploration of both thier characters#Instead of the (admittedly funny) Monica simping hours we got-#But yeah I will argue to my dying breath that taking down Cornelia is Edelgard's most important character development on CF#And it's the reason we don't need to see her take down the entirety of the Slithers#THAT is the moment Thales illusion of control over her conpletely shatters#Which is only emphasised by the fact that this is the point he LOSES.#We know from the other routes that the second he fired those javelins his days are numbered#And here he did it as little more than a power play- a futile attempt to remind El of his control#fe3h#fire emblem 3 houses#fire emblem three houses#edelgard von hresvelg#edelgard discourse#edelgard positive
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i just think it's so funny that when *i* lash out and start bitching *about* management to my coworkers because of a stressful day at work, i get pulled into the office to discuss my attitude, but when a manager lashes out and bitches *at me* because of a stressful work day, i get a halfassed "oh sorry, but-" and i'm expected to roll over and take it.
#ace rambles#negative//#boss prompted us to stop talking and keep it moving. okay sure whatever.#i lightheartedly asked what the rush was because we were almost done for the day#boss immediately snaps and starts yelling about how she's been busting her ass and hasn't gone to lunch yet#and she's ''not gonna watch four people stand and talk'' while she busts her ass#we were standing there for maybe thirty seconds. i didn't put you in that fucking situation girl#you're flying off the handle at the wrong guy#and i just know that if i had lashed out like that at her it would have at BEST been another ''conversation''#and more likely i would have been written up#i guess it's just another reminder that she's my boss. not my friend.#because if she were my FRIEND i would have been able to explain to her that that was incredibly hurtful#and that it really could have been just a minor issue at most#but i can't exactly look my boss in the eye and say ''hey you major overrracted and really hurt my feelings''#i've tried it with other managers and it doesn't end well#and look. i'm no stranger to getting frustrated and losing my cool.#it's a thing i'm actively trying to get better about but i'm big enough to admit that i have a long way to go.#the fact that she yelled at me isn't even what's bothering me#it's mostly the fact that i did not get a real apology and i really doubt i will.#and if i try and bring it up tomorrow or later then *i'm* going to look like the one who's overreacting and can't let it go#which tbh i probably maybe am?#i think i'm probably being stupid but i have a bad history with yelling and anger#which i don't need to get into you guys know the origin story already#whatever man#i want to cry but i'm in public still
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sometimes my bestfriend is like an angel in disguise istg
#i was justttttt thinking that aw it's so sad that navratri music is playling everywhere and i don't have friends to go with#like last year atleast i had tuition sorta friends but now ive isolated them too it sucks#but i was like well it's okay ill do it when i grow up celebrate every festival i didn't get to in my house because we just never do#and then she calls and she's like let's go this club jahan every year famous hota hai full celebration#and i was like ehh i don't want to i don't even know how to play and ill have to convince dad for raat can't we just#go to a cafe or something dopahar mein uske liye i don't even need permission#and she even agreed but she sounded sad and disappointed about it so i was like well fuck it you want to go club na#and she was like yeahhh so i was like aagh okay and i asked and we're going tomorrow!!!!!#and it's so ridiculous like i just say i don't want to go but it's actually so exciting to go someplace other than a cafe!!!!#and i was complaining to her ki okay ill go but i won't dress up and five mins later me and mumma are making full outfit with dupatta#style decided jewellery she has saved for years that are specifically navratri types and she's like we'll get my blouse altered it's fine#you know being sick has really given me perspective on my parents#im not going to hate my mom anymore i never used to growing up i always thought she was brave but helpless#but a stupid day in 12th i realised when we were talking that technically she COULF get divorced she just#doesn't want to because she'll be alone and she thinks we're growing up and leaving anyway so why should she let go of financial#stability for us. which is wild to me because girl you can't buy anything you want without his permission so i don't understand what's the#point if he's rich or poor but whatever whatever she's been raised this way etc etc#but anyway being sick really made me realise who the real monster is😭 all dad did was shout horribly at me all the time#and was like don't you dare take meds they're fake this is all just junk food stop eating it and you'll be fine. when i was literally#having 103 FEVER.#and mom was the one who was making me different drinks juices cutting up fruits staying with me as i get my blood drawn#checking my fever sote jaagte#like wow i literally wouldn't have gotten better if it wasn't for her and i couldn't believe how attentive and nice she was being#like yes i understand she just thinks this is her duty she's just playing her role a mother a housewife but still#idk i just realized that okay atleast she's good at being a mother dad isn't even that why am i feeling good about him when his love#not even love his politeness is so fucking conditional#and mom healed me even tho i told her about clubbing and drinking lots of alcohol she's kinda against it because she's seen#horrible things in life family yucky men but still she understands ans trusts my sister mostly and know we just do it for fun and she#wasn't even mad!!!!!!! like wow ooay#moms love is actually not conditional for the first time in my life i felt like if i fall maybe she could be there to catch me and dad wld
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yu yu hakusho is really fun
#i finished reading the manga about a week ago?#idk i can't get over it <3#yyh is actually a big part of my childhood in that my sisters would watch it all the time but mostly the eldest#she always had anime on lmao#but yeah we used to have the first 5 volumes and i would just read them over and over never knowing what happened next#until recently hahah#anyways GROUP PHOTO 🥺😭 they're so cute!!#kuwabara wanting to share a glass with kurama is sweet too I think#URAMESHI'S DEVASTATED REACTION...I can't get over it like. The dark tournament is really what#hits for me. like it was insane. like do u understand#Kuwabara was this guy that wouldn't leave him alone but it was fun to beat him up and then there was the righteous anger#when rando nearly killed kuwabara#but here. the dark tournament. that anguish is for one of the most important people in his life#because yusuke didn't have friends. he thought he didn't. he figured Keiko his mom the teachers kuwabara everyone was better off#but he saw for himself the effect his death had and now he's on the other side of it. Idk smth about it#kuwameshi#Sort of?? Romantic platonic wtv they're all close and care about each other so much <3
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I forgot to watch Survivor tonight and instead watched a 60 minute long video essay called Martha Jones Deserved Better (And Other Correct Doctor Who Takes)
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I regret nothing.
#martha jones#doctor who#forgot to watch survivor is a strong way of putting it by the way#it was more i didn't feel like sitting through commercials so i'm just gonna watch it tomorrow instead.#the first 2/3-ish of this video are about RTD and Martha and then the last half is about Moffat era mostly River#anyway. i have 2 small complaints about this video:#1) the angel sending amy to the same time as rory had canonical precedent from billy shipton in blink landing in 1969 too#so i get it seems very 'oh of COURSE she conveniently will end up in the same time'#because prior to that point there was the complaint of weeping angels going from scary to stupid#but that aspect of the angels was there from the beginning#2) i adore clara so i'm sad the video creator has 'avoid-Clara-itis' or however she worded it#but i get it.#a small third minor complaint is that the creator said she has been wary of properly watching Bill's season#and also Jodie's seasons because she is scared of more mistreatment of companions of color#and she seems to not be aware of the existence of Ruth!Doctor at all. i hope she'll like her.#but i hope that she does watch it eventually. especially because Bill was a definite improvement.#almost purposefully meant to be like 'yes Martha had a scene like this but this time Bill gets a better outcome'#and she also says she wanted to know who was in the writing room for Jodie's era and that's one of the best things about Chibnall#that for episodes like Rosa and Demons of the Punjab the co-writers were people of color from the specific cultures#anyway besides those small things i was watching this video like girl you are preaching to the choir#highly recommend for all my fellow Martha Jones Defense Squad members#Youtube
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If anyone heard me talk about some of my 'takes' on inclusivity/diversity headcanons, they would think of me as an asshole- but it's not because I don't want/enjoy/indulge in diversity/inclusivity headcanons, it's because you FOOLS the PERFECT candidate is right THERE!!
#this is lighthearted#and mostly jokingly said#I get people give their blorbos projection headcanons and that is so valid of them#but I am a godawful annoyance when it comes to adhering to canon#if I wanted a character to be transfem she/they/fae I would not pick the most bland clown guy on the planet#I really like diversity headcanons that build up the story instead of contradicting it#like tiger and bunny#everbody makes Barnaby a trans guy- okay I guess he's a little on the femmeish side if you squint#but homeboy didn't have a PERSONALITY outside of [his parent's death]#he was asked on screen what he wanted to do after avenging his parents and he basically said that was his only goal in life#now contrarily#Kotetsu T. Kaburagi doesn't have a conflicting childhood#all he has is a kid right?#in season one at least we never got any shots of his wife pregnant with Kanade#so I raise you:#Kotetsu and his wife were t4t and just forgot how ''straight'' couples actually were since they were both in love with each other#Kotetsu carried Kaide but his wife ended up doing most of the childwork since Kotetsu wanted to be able to provide for his family#EITHER his T interfered with his ability to ''mother'' Kaide (for lack of better word)#or Kaide knows that he father was the one who carried her into term and she just didn't question it because why would she?#it's funny AND it can fit into canon if you bs enough#I have no problem with making characters post canon trans#(most of the time I am also sometimes just A Little Hater)#transmasc mafuyu my beloved he is my son#sometimes I am just a little hater though and they be like 'I headcanon this Boy Of All Boys as transfem post canon'#and I am like 'so they realized they were performing masculinity the whole time?' No... 'so... they were repressing their true identity?'#Of course not! 'but they still transed tho...?' Yes! Duh. 'why the change in heart?'#stoic abused boy from a neglectful household is transmasc of his own will? when he couldn't even even pick put his favorite food?#no stoic abused child was ''forced'' to live as a boy because his father was sexist comes to realize that he enjoys being 'seen as a boy'#some headcanons remind me of that 'Remmy the rat is trans' fan joke/theory#anyways I just really like my trans!Kotetsu idea even if I don't strictly headcanon it
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not to place my own experiences above like my moms / the one who Actually Has Type One Diabetes (the one having constant medical emergencies) but there are just some life experiences i have that i think it took me a while to register other people didn't have like the fact that it was like a once every month or two scenario where between calling the ambulance and not calling the ambulance your parents asked you to quit doing the former unless you *really* have too so you're just trying to force your barely conscious extremely combative mother to drink a goddamned soda. or physically prevent her from trying to drive a vehicle while she was essentially extremely intoxicated and she has a good like.... 100 pounds on me and my sister at the time
#she actually dented the garage doing that once#thank god im mostly out of the period where it's plausible i'd have inherited it#we didn't get one of those emergency glucose shots until Later and i still dont think i could use it properly tho in theory i can i guess#idk. parents screaming at each other downstairs because my mom's default state when her sugar was low was to decide that it wasn't#and get angry when you tried to tell her it was and we actually are going to have to get an ambulance if she doesn't help us help her#when i was like three i think she almost died because i didn't know why she wouldn't get up from the couch#i think her current pump / monitor setup is better at catching it or something because it's been a while since it's been that bad but i als#don't live home full time anymore...
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I love my coworkers so much. (For many reasons, including that they're all genuinely pretty good people, open and accepting, and funny.)
One of them and her husband are going to a metal concert this weekend, and it turns out that our manager is going with his oldest daughter because they're also fans of this band. The one coworker commented that she wonders what people must think when they hear about the different concerts she's gone to this year since its kind of a weird variety--an old folky-country singer who's mostly only popular with older people (in their mid 50's and up; she and her sister were the youngest there by quite a bit, in their late 20's and early 30's respectively), Taylor Swift, and now a metal band.
Another coworker piped up, "That's why I like you; your music tastes are eclectic. You're poly-jam-orous!"
I about died laughing, y'all. Her pun game is on point, as usual.
#not knitting#not crafting#puns#personal#its so nice to have coworkers who all get along#the team i had when i first started mostly got along but after we lost half of them at once because of the old manager it went downhill#and it seemed like everyone who got brought on for a while was super conservative and racist and religious#if they thought someone was making a joke about their religion or brought up politics they didn't agree with they cried to the manager#it didn't matter if they were part of the conversation or not#it didn't matter if they only heard part of the conversation and took it out of context#they didn't even bother talking to the three of us remaining before they got offended and cried that they were being discriminated against#those were also the laziest most entitled bunch that ever worked in my department#never wanted to work and always wanted the three of us to cover for them but gods forbid one of us has an emergency and needs them to help#suddenly 'kids these days' and 'no one wants to work' and 'some of us have lives you know we can't always cover for you'#boomer mindset on all of them#i damn near quit because i was tired of their shit but i held on out of spite since they clearly didn't like me#i kept the mindset that 'im not trapped here with you. y'all are trapped here with ME'#literally stayed late with no complaints to cover for one of them for a week at a time 3 months in a row so she could go on fancy vacations#and when i asked her to come in early for me once because i was puking my guts out from a migraine she bitched that she was tired of#covering for me all the time and refused to come in half an hour early. i had to come in to open and leave once a couple more people were i#she'd been there for literally only 4 months at that point and had already been on those 3 vacations which were planned AFTER she got hired#and i hadn't missed a day of work the entire time she'd been there so she had never had to cover for me. or for the other two who remained.#all that to say im very thankful for my current team#we communicate and are willing to help cover or switch shifts and even though we come from different walks of life everyone is respectful#no one acts like theyre better than everyone else like fancy vacation bitch did (cuz she was a rich white conservative christian lady)#it also doesn't hurt that im no longer the only queer in the office and most of the current team is also crafty#we hype each other's work up and share supplies and tools if someone needs it#and then weve got the puns#so many awful puns and dad jokes and its the best
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Gave someone $20 today (which is what I usually do because the cash on me tends to be only $1s and $20s) and was struck by the fact that I make less than $20k a year, which means that this single piece of paper is worth over 0.1% of what I make a year, and 1/1000 doesn't sound that big but there are 366 days this year, so it's well over a third of my allotted money for the day. Like, the money that's supposed to cover food, housing, gasoline, medicine, taxes, everything.
Now I don't give money daily, and my food and housing are covered by my parents and my medicine is covered by Medicaid.
But still. $20 is a significant portion of my income. Wild.
#This post probably brought to you by: even though I was in bed and had taken my medicine by 11:30 last night I didn't fall asleep until 1:30#because I was on Reddit reading complaints about the MLIS and how people regret the time and money spent and how libraries will not even#look at you without experience but apparently if you do have experience there's nothing new in the classes.#And like I know part of this is Reddit being Reddit but like.#Should I give up a job that I *like* with measly pay that I will never be able to live on from an agency that will never give me health#insurance to go to a school program that is mostly writing papers when I hate writing papers?#And like it's not like an MLIS will guarantee me a job because the market is oversaturated.#But it WOULD open up the possibility of higher pay. And if I ever wanted to retire (lololololol) then like. Higher pay earlier in life is#better. (Feedback from the mom of my mom's friend who regrets how late in life she got her MLIS.)#And like this would all be SO much easier if I just did an online program part time while working but I would absolutely suffer with an#online program. But also health insurance?????? If I want to do in-person school then I literally have a single POSSIBILITY and I don't even#know for sure if Medicaid would cover me if I was in school and intentionally unemployed.#personal#learning to function
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#hey dude. words are going better today#i'm trying to be more sincere about how i feel and not cover everything up with jokes#idk if you remember how often i do that. i hope you don't. i like to think you mostly remember me for my horror movie thing#there are things i wanted to tell you but i was too busy hiding all my emotions. anyway. you know now. i tell you all the time#like that friend I really like? the one you met last week?#i always get so sad when she talks badly about herself#and i never tell her that. i just fake laugh at her self deprecating jokes#i stopped doing that#it felt... really intense. more than it should have#i'm just so not used to doing that#she said “you can be a dick to me anytime man lmao i can take it”#and i just said “I could never be horrible to you.” and i wasn't covering it with a laugh or anything like i usually do#i don't know how she reacted because i wasn't looking at her#but i said something that i really meant. no bullshit#the rush was fucking incredible#and i did it again today#she was saying how she was shit at something and i just said. i didn't agree that she was shit at things#i don't think she sees me as anything other than a friend but#i'd still like her to see the real me. not the bullshitter that turns everything into a big joke#i don't know many people i want to be real with. it never feels safe#i want to hold onto this one#i like being myself with her#anyway sorry if tonight's movie wasn't up your street. especially since it was an audio commentary#or maybe it was? you loved behind the scenes stuff. just not sure how much you're into behind the scenes stuff for Saw#oh my god!!! i just remembered!!!!! we literally had a conversation about Saw when you were still here!!!!!!!#holy shit dude i continue to annoy you with my Saw agenda from beyond the grave#this is fucking hilarious#tw death#own post#big stupid crush
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More screenshots (bonus, managed to find Bull a shirt and don't know how to feel about that)
#anyway i continue to Lavellan post because i did some stuff and I'm tired now anyway. thinking about the beginning of the game and#how he's mostly leaning into the herald bullshit because he thinks it'll help him belong here and make people like him and how#devastatingly it's going to hit him after in your heart shall burn (I'm basically leaning into it as much as#possible without establishing him as faithful since it's more difficult to make Leliana pope that way but in my head#he took every 'yeah I'm herald I'm heralding so much andraste right now' option besides one with cass and one with Leliana)#like. he doesn't even really believe it but most people either like hearing it or if they react negatively it's in a way that still#acknowledges him as in charge so he'll roll with that. but then. everything in YHTB happens and it's just like. Oh. Oh Shit. like#it was this mix of bullshitting for fun and saying what people wanted to hear and kind of believing that maybe he was chosen by#Something at least. and like. it's not like he didn't do anything on his own or at least without any special abilities but then#The classic seeing all that be swept aside. realizing how this is going to be remembered because it's already happening. maybe#he should have known that the second he was asked if there was room for more among his gods.#but then. what do you expect. his first memory is being discarded (that's not entirely what it was but that's how his child brain#precessed it) and practically going feral because of it and then. having So Much catching up to do when it came to. basically every#aspect of being a person#and like. he was accepted along with Rella but that still gets to you. especially since. sure he didn't fully understand what it means to#be pitied but he could still recognize that from others. could still want to prove he was Better Than That. could still want to shatter tha#sheet of glass between himself and seemingly everyone else (even Rella to be honest. if only because she almost left him behind too). how#would he not lean into being seen as something special. whether he fully believed the narrative others were spinning or not#i dunno i see a lot of people talking about their Lavellan pushing back against the narrative from the start but i kind of like the#idea of going along with it. thinking it won't get that far and surely he can correct it if it does. he's in charge after all. right? only#to get hit harder than an avalanche by the realization that he's not in control after all. he can direct as many forces as he wants#but he can't change how he'll be remembered. how he's already being remembered. and he contributed to it too? i dunno his specific#combination of pride and insecurity and need to just Belong. to just belong as himself. is. compelling#If anyone is reading this Ive seen posts about all Lavellans having the same personality but no one's elaborated? am i just doing that?#i actually want to know. you know. assuming anyone is reading this.#i dunno just thinking about his continuous need to prove himself for so many reasons (partially because of Rella too since#yeah Rella is a mage but not the first or anything. she's just there because people knew she had nowhere else to go). okay I'll shut up now#but yeah what is this Standard Lavellan Personality i keep hearing about?#original posts#but like. something something he's being discarded again but he understands it this time and he can't fight it and just
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