#Mental Health Struggles

[phantomwithbreakfast]

A small piece from an upcoming chapter of my Phan fic 𝙎𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙧𝙚𝙙 𝙁𝙤𝙧 𝙃𝙖𝙡𝙛 𝘼 𝙇𝙞𝙛𝙚.

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A reflection stared back at him.

A boy—no. A man. A stranger.

His black hair clung to his forehead, greasy, dull, lifeless…

Just… this—this empty thing wearing his skin.

Blue eyes. But were they his?

Hollow. Glassy. A dull, dead shade that wasn’t supposed to belong to him. His gaze drifted downward, skimming over his body—ruined, broken, scarred. He didn’t even flinch at the sight anymore. The jagged lightning-shaped scar stretched across his cheek and neck, a souvenir from those seven months, from that collar.

Seven months.

The scar would never heal. Like the Y-shaped wound carved across his chest. Like the invisible ones inside him, festering, splitting him apart from the inside out.

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⟢ Ao3

⟢ More under the cut—some detail shots.

⟢ The drawings in the polaroids are older ones that I never shared before, way back from August last year ;3

[maxxsio18]

Asexual TikTok

I was scrolling away on TikTok just escaping my mind, and then an asexual video popped up, so I had a watch of it. 

It first spoke about a report saying how 75% of asexuals aren't open with family or friends because of the lack of understanding and medical history around being asexual. 

The lack of understanding about asexual is huge, I mean, just from this video, I managed to merge all the hate comments into one. 

Just a warning ⚠️ Ace phobia ⚠️ 

There's a lot of "you need therapy" comments, showing that most people think asexauls aren't stable human beings. I don't see why sexual attraction has to be such a huge part of being a human? Like some of these people, they probably only see asexual as not having sex, when that's incorrect as every asexual is different. 

It just annoys me how much hate there is to asexuals on TikTok and the lack of education about asexuals.

Anyways I hope you all have a good week. It's almost Christmas!

This is me signing in and signing out.

 🖤🩶🤍💜

[mayabishopgold]

100% sibling vibes Maya & Jack | Station 19 [Friendship series]

[underachieverse]

What a terrible time to be multicellular

[long-distance-love]

Loyalty is such an underrated thing. Not just as in faithfulness, but loyalty in everyday acts. You're always so loyally by my side and on my side, so fiercely. You'd fight even me to save me. It's tough love sometimes, but the way you challenge me helps me grow so much as a person. I'm normally so anxious, but with you change isn't scary, it's exciting.

[angeart]

[Ari au] Before and After - The Downfall

Ari AU in three stages:

at the height of fame

hounded by paparazzi after things started falling apart (featuring bodyguard Scar)

and the leaked, private photo of Grian taking his meds that got twisted by press into an addiction storyline

for @xoxo-ren-xoxo <3

[rootspiral]

Something funny happened last night. So, for context, I tend to brag and it's really embarrassing, whenever I'm in a social setting something possesses me and I blurt out stupid facts about myself to impress people, and then I feel AWFUL about it. Like a few weeks ago I was buying a book and for some reason I needed tattooed indie store gal to think I'm cool, so I said, out of nowhere, "I read 67 books in 2024." And she said, "Cool." And I mentally kicked myself all the way home for being such a needy self-centered little monster who can't have a normal convo.

So last night I was about to fall asleep and this thought occurred to me: "But what if a Blorbo from my shows was the one humble bragging, what meta would I write about them?" And my fucking brain IMMEDIATELY went, "Blorbo has grown up with parents who constantly dismissed and mocked their interests and whole personality, of course they'd be famished for people's approval now."

And I was like, oh.

And my TRAITOR professional meta writing brain said, "Blorbo has to work towards forming meaningful relationships with people who genuinely appreciate them and then try to communicate their emotional needs openly."

And I was like, goddmanit.

Now I guess I only need to not physically recoil in disgust when people do actually compliment me and list all the reasons why they're wrong and I'm a worthless piece of shit, actually. Little steps, little steps.

[skateisawesome]

i love that heartstopper is sharing real struggles with eating and sh and mental health issues. i love it.

it just sucks that i cant know if i'll be able to watch this show in october. i dont know if i'll be in a position where i can watch people struggle with food, or talk about sh, or experience tough times with their mental health.

i might not be able to watch it. and that sucks.

and i understand that is totally my own issue and i really honestly love that this show is spreading stories like these. but it really fucking sucks, man.

[jolivira]

a little story about hating yourself little monster

translation: there is a little monster that follows me wherever I go I see it in the mirror but little by little I'm noticing that hating it doesn't take me anywhere...

[belovedapollo]

some recent notebook spreads as someone who has BPD

reblog is ok, do not repost, edit or use

[pumpkin-the-girlie-girl-vixen]

Understanding Schizophrenic Hallucinations: Beyond Sight and Sound

When most people think of hallucinations, they often envision vivid visual experiences or unsettling auditory sensations. However, hallucinations associated with schizophrenia encompass a much broader range of experiences that can involve all five senses. It's essential to unpack this complexity to foster a more profound understanding of what individuals living with schizophrenia may face.

The Nature of Hallucinations

Hallucinations can be defined as perceptions that occur without any external stimulus. They can manifest in various forms:

1. **Auditory Hallucinations**: This is perhaps the most well-known type. Many individuals hear voices that may comment on their actions, converse with one another, or even issue commands. These voices can feel incredibly real and can lead to feelings of confusion, distress, or fear. The tone of these voices can vary significantly; they might be familiar or completely alien, nurturing or abusive.

2. **Visual Hallucinations**: Some individuals report seeing things that aren't there—shadows, figures, or even detailed scenes. These visual experiences can be disorienting and frightening, impacting one’s sense of reality. For example, someone may see a person standing in the corner of a room, only to realize that there is no one there.

3. **Olfactory Hallucinations**: While less talked about, smell can play a significant role in hallucinations. Some individuals might perceive foul odors that others do not notice, sometimes associated with memories or feelings of disgust. Conversely, they may experience pleasant smells that provide a fleeting sense of comfort.

4. **Gustatory Hallucinations**: Taste, too, can be impacted. An individual with schizophrenia might experience tastes that are not present, such as bitterness or metallic flavors that can be unsettling and contribute to a general feeling of unease.

5. **Tactile Hallucinations**: These involve the sensation of physical touch or movement on the skin. Someone might feel as though insects are crawling on them, or they may experience phantom sensations that can provoke anxiety or distress. This can lead to confusion about what is real and what is not, often exacerbating feelings of fear and paranoia.

🧠Schizophrenia Sucks🧠

The Emotional and Psychological Impact

The presence of these hallucinations can lead to significant emotional turmoil. Individuals may feel isolated, fearing that no one can understand their experiences. The unpredictability of when these hallucinations will occur can cause anxiety and make daily life challenging. The reality of living with such experiences is not just about the sensations themselves but also about their implications for one’s mental state and social interactions.

Moreover, hallucinations can interfere with one’s ability to distinguish between reality and illusion, leading to potential misunderstandings in social situations. This misunderstanding can result in strained relationships with friends, family, and coworkers, as others may not comprehend the challenges involved.

Seeking Support and Understanding

Living with hallucinations requires a robust support system. Therapy, medication, and open lines of communication with loved ones are crucial in managing these symptoms. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy can help individuals develop coping strategies and tools to navigate their experiences, while medication may assist in reducing the frequency and intensity of hallucinations.

Raising awareness about the multifaceted nature of hallucinations in schizophrenia can foster a more compassionate approach from society. Understanding that these experiences can involve all five senses can encourage empathy and support for those affected.

Conclusion

In conclusion, hallucinations in schizophrenia are a complex and often misunderstood aspect of the disorder. They are not limited to just seeing and hearing; they can encompass smells, tastes, and tactile sensations as well. By sharing these experiences and advocating for greater understanding, we can help create a more supportive environment for individuals living with schizophrenia, paving the way for healing and connection.

[wowwowowow]

At the age of 57, I was diagnosed with autism, ADHD, anxiety, and Clinical Depression. My whole life has always felt different and seen life differently than anyone in my life. I could go on with the amount of being clowned for my way of thinking and behavior. Being robotic with my ways, getting irritated if someone is done out of sequence or not by the book, looping thoughts, agitation, frustration, shutting down for no reason (sensory overload), constant movement of different body parts to stay calm, going through so many jobs throughout my life, horrible at relationships, repetitive comments or words,hyperfixation while not being able to pay attention at the same time. Now that I know, I feel more calm and relaxed emotionally. I am on medication and seeing a therapist.

I decided to be evaluated (very hard to find someone to evaluate a person my age) because all of my Neurodivergent issues were getting worse after having my thyroid removed due to stage 4 cancer. The thyroid controls the central nervous system, so my mental health struggles were getting crazier.

I'm wanting to normalize Mental health care and America needs to have more resources while not mocking people who are Neurodivergent.

[lbulldesigns]

r/relationships

(UPDATE) How do I convince my 20-year-old son that I'm serious about kicking him out if he doesn't agree to therapy?

30th June, 2021

It's been a little over a month now since I was last here, I'm sorry for not updating sooner but that talk with my son didn't go well initially and I didn't feel like talking about my failure with the talk.

TLDR (for last post): My son posted on Reddit that he wished his sister, who had run away from home, didn't come back. And made out that everyone was constantly at his throat. So I decided to sit him down and make him choose between therapy, or leaving the house.

So shortly after I posted here, M, C, V, and I sat down and had a long talk. As I stated already this talk didn't go well.

M was instantly on the defense and started claiming that everyone was constantly against him, every time we would try and say something he would cut us off and continue to repeat the same things.

V got angry at some point and told him to shut up or she would make him shut up, I don't like that she threatened her brother but he stopped talking. After telling her off for the threat, I took M's silence as an opportunity to get a word in.

I laid everything out on the table. M was 20 years old and still acting like a hormonal teenager, his behavior toward everything especially his little sister was both concerning and disturbing. And I was worried about his future because this type of behavior was not going to fly in the real world.

He was avoiding college, avoiding getting a job, and was in short taking his frustrations at everything out on P, and none of this was going to be tolerated anymore.

I then brought up the ultimatum again. I told him that he has to choose, either he gets therapy and takes it seriously or he moves out. I told him that I was willing to find him an apartment and pay for the first three months' rent, but he had to find himself employment at that time and either enroll in some classes (which I would pay for) or he needed to apply for an apprenticeship.

I thought that all of this was pretty fair, but M looked at me like I had just disowned him or something. And then suddenly just exploded.

He accused me of not loving him, of never loving him, that I would never do any of this to the others, that I never forced V or P to get therapy so why was I pressuring him? V interjected here to remind him that she was forced to get therapy and that it wasn't as bad as he was making it out to be, M just turned on her and told her that she was constantly complaining about it and that it did jack shit for her because she was still having beef with her uncle, and was just as much a bitch to P as he was.

V got angry here and told him to get over himself, but he spoke over her and accused her and her GF of raiding P's room and reading through her journal just to look for dirt on her uncle.

I looked at V and she instantly avoided my eyes. I told her we would talk about this later, and told M to stay focused on this conversation.

But he just threw his hands in the air and said that he was going to give us what we all wanted and leave, he told me not to bother with the "charity" and that he could take care of himself. I tried to calm him down but he said "If you want to kiss Jinx's ass just to feel closer to her dead Mum, fine but I'm gone".

He then stood there breathing heavy for a bit before it suddenly registered to him what he said, and his face went white. Everyone was silent, and just looking at me. I guess I must have looked scary in that moment, I couldn't describe the feelings going through me. But I could tell that I was losing control of my form, so I stood up and left the room wordlessly, and went down to the basement where I had set up a den for myself years ago and locked myself in and shifted.

It was the first time in years that I shifted without remembering what I did whilst as a wolf, but when I reverted back and went back upstairs, I discovered that nearly a day had gone by whilst I was in my den.

C was in the kitchen and as soon as he saw me, he came over and gave me a cautious hug. I just hugged him back tightly.

He then went about making me a big breakfast (shifting takes it out of you) and waited till I was finished eating before filling me in on what happened.

Apparently, after I walked off M went off to his room and packed everything he could and then left to one of his friends' houses. Neither V or C tried to stop him, but C told him that when he removed his head from his ass to reach out.

I tried to call M but found myself blocked from his phone and social media. And just felt defeated. C told me that it wasn't my fault that M was this way, that I was a good father and was just doing everything I could to cater to different children with different needs.

I appreciated him saying this to me. There wasn't much I could do for M, so I focused on things that were in my control.

So, for the past month, I was fixated on running my bar. C moved back in during this time, I was worried about him not attending classes but he told me that he explained to his school's administration that he was registered to live off campus, but he was still attending classes mostly online. He wanted to help me out in the meantime.

I appreciated this honestly, I was feeling stifled by how quiet my house had become.

The girl's uncle had come through and informed me that P was okay but that it was best to wait for her to reach out first, and that he had not even tried to contact her yet.

With that, I tried not to worry but I couldn't. All I could think was that I failed two, possibly three, of my kids by not being more assertive and making them seek therapy sooner.

About a month later, I was setting up the bar when M walked in. He looked hesitant for a moment and asked if we could talk. I just wordlessly pulled up a stool for him and gestured for him to sit it down. He took a seat and I poured him a drink, all of this was in silence.

Until M opened his mouth and said "I'm sorry". He apologized for his behavior and for what he said, he said that he doesn't know why he's like this and that the more he acts out the more depressed he feels and the more insecure he gets and when he gets insecure he lashes out at the nearest person, and that person has always been P.

He knows logically that he has no real beef with her and that she hasn't done anything wrong, but he has this other side that demands he "put her in her place" and when he acts out he feels like shit, and dismissing everything makes him feel less shitty for his actions.

He also apologized for what he said to me, he was always scared of me being disappointed in him and when he was faced with me actually being disappointed in him and knowing that he deserved this, he chose to hit me where he knew it would hurt so that he could feel some validation.

I was shocked that he would confess to all this and asked him what made him reach out now?

He squirmed for a bit and admitted that for the past month he's been jumping from couch to couch, he keeps out staying his welcome at his friends places and basically all of them are sick of his shit and lack of respect towards them.

He had an epiphany after getting kicked out of the last place that everyone is growing up without him, his friends aren't the same as they were in high school. They have jobs, and classes, and goals, and he can't say the same.

He admitted that it was nobody else's fault but his own. He also confessed that he never received any scholarships and that he never got accepted into any colleges because he neglected to apply to any and he felt so stupid and wanted to make it seem that he wasn't a complete loser (his words). He faked getting a scholarship and felt pathetic when I congratulated him and didn't even question him on it. And that he felt even worse when he made out that he was having a gap year first and I supported his decision. He had originally planned to make the gap year worth it but just didn't do anything.

And watching P effortlessly make strides in her studies, and everyone praising her and having high expectations for her made him feel worthless and he just focused on making her feel worthless so that he didn't have to.

By this point, he was crying and apologizing, and I just hugged him until he calmed down. I told him that it took a lot to be able to admit all of this and that I was proud of him for acknowledging his shortcomings. However, he NEEDS to see a therapist.

He agreed.

I told him that my offer to rent a place for him was still on the table and that he could stay in one of the vacant rooms upstairs until then.

He looked disappointed for a split second but then accepted the offer.

And that's where we are now. M has booked an appointment with a therapist, and has moved into an apartment nearby. I also gave him a part time job, working in the bar but he's looking for other employment and speaking with to a career coach at a community college.

Things are still strained, and I'm looking for therapists that specialize in family therapy.

Hopefully, things will start to look up for M soon, despite all his flaws I still love him and want what's best for him.

[transcendragon]

Move

It’s half past midnight and I want to drive out To the middle of nowhere Collapse under the stars And scream. – But I won’t Because what I want next Will be for you to walk up and join me Hold me in the night, Magically know where I am – And what I need Even when I don’t. I want you to be everything And nothing And that is too much to ask – Even though I try to be Pliable until…

[unfamiliar-ghostly-system]

uh oh. it's starting to feel a lot like "lets rely on unhealthy coping mechs to stay alive" time!