#Liv coming out asexual

[bobbie-robron]

Soaps breaking boundaries on LGBTQ+ issues…

[sitp-recs]

Hello Liv, hope you are well ❤️ Thank you for the amazing work you do, I am so glad I started following you.

I am struggling a bit at the moment, and was wondering if you had some cozy drarry to recommend? Could be hurt/comfort or anything else, but preferably not to explicit. If you know of some where either of them is dealing with figuring out they are asexual that would be great, but I haven't really found many fics with this before, so no worries if you don't.

Again thank you so much for all that you do, I really appreciate it ❣️

Hello darling, I’m sorry to hear it’s been a rough time for you 🫂 here are some of my favourite comfort fics that I’m always revisiting to lift my spirits. All of them are T-rated, except for Nice Things (M). I hope they help! Take care 💜

Ace Drarry:

Glowing by @cavendishbutterfly (10k)

Harry's lived alone and vampiric in his cottage for ages, until a long-lived Draco Malfoy suddenly shows up to answer an advertisement Harry had practically forgotten he'd put in the Prophet.

Passion Cake by @icmezzo (19k)

It’s all about desire. (Harry orders a magically enhanced cake from a chic London bakery, and from there it all goes to hell in a cake tin. Also, will someone please tell Harry what Passion Cake is?)

Little Deaths and How to Avoid Them (or Draco Malfoy's Guide to Stop Dying and Start Living Instead) by nerakrose and dustmouth (96k)

Malfoy is way too interested in coroner reports for somebody who's definitely not looking for ways to die, Harry wants to be friends with him, and Ginny wants to break up with Harry.

Misc:

Waiting for that Feeling by @sorrybutblog (4k)

Draco Malfoy has a car and Harry Potter is on the case! Featuring Muggle car repair, a road trip to Cornwall, and falling in love in a Ford Fiesta.

Thermodynamic Equilibrium by @dorthyanndrarry (5k)

Harry's far too hot. Draco's always cold. And somehow against all odds, together they create a perfect equilibrium.

Life goes not backward by @shealwaysreads (9k)

Harry still isn’t used to gifts, but this one is different. A story of coming home, finding safe ground, and the wild courage of putting down roots.

warmest part of the winter (orphaned, 11k)

It’s not even a balcony, it’s just a window with a bit of a ledge, and Draco’s read Shakespeare anyway, he knows how this one ends.

How We Throw Our Shadows Down by thistle_verse (14k)

Draco has finally found the perfect, rare piece to complete his collection. The only problem is that the item belongs to Harry Potter, the last wizard on earth Draco wants to ask another favour from.

The Snitch-Maker by Omi_Ohmy (21k)

Draco is content with his Snitches, with the tap tap tap of his hammer, and the tiny gears and sharp scent of metal in his workshop - until one day Harry Potter appears, asking for help to solve a rash of Snitch-tampering in the Quidditch world.

With Great Yawns and Stretchings by sugar_screw (22k)

The coffee is very good. Really. And the cats are so cute. That's why Harry goes so often.

Nice Things by aideomai (M, 22k)

The first thing that happened was Theodore Nott came back from France.

Doing the Lambeth Walk by @blamebrampton (26k)

There are only three traditional choices for the cashed-up hero after victory. Harry Potter is too young to settle down and provide the wizarding world with a happy ending, and has too acute a sense of humour to spiral downwards into a spectacular flame-out. That leaves a life of good works.

Follow the Water by @xanthippe74 (38k)

Harry Potter’s life is fine. Maybe a little dull and predictable, but he shouldn’t complain about that, right? When he unexpectedly finds himself at Luna’s house one afternoon, Harry gets invited to join the secret wonderland that she’s creating with a surprising group of friends.

Like Lightning at Your Fingertips by potterwatch (43k)

The problem with living with another insomniac is, eventually, they find out you’re one, too. When Harry and Draco return for their eighth year, they think they’ll see very little of each other. Then McGonagall assigns them to room together. And the castle starts breaking. And there’s that thing with Potter’s magic.

A Room Up There (And You In It) by @the-starryknight (59k)

When Preservationist Draco Malfoy was assigned to work on Number Twelve, Grimmauld Place, he was excited to delve into the gorgeous Black family antiques. His excitement quickly ended when something in the House decided it did not like his presence one bit.

Art:

Going Postal by dustmouth

So Draco and Harry sort of maybe have a bit of a thing going. Which is all fine and good, but would probably be more effective if they managed to be on the same continent for more than five minutes at a time.

[raymurata]

perhaps the most impossible ask: reasons why oak is problematic

See, I was just talking to @skullhaver and @ghosty-ana about that.

And here's the thing, Oak falls in love in 3 days, man. Next question.

Lol. XD but like, I'm not joking, they're ready to peel tangerines for Gal, and they've known each other for a month and flirted for literally 3 days. This fucking idiot has no chill, they're gonna u-haul Gal within six months of this relationship, if Gal lets them. 😂 They have so much love to give they might suffocate Gal with it. They'll try not to. XD A complete fool, a clingy buffoon, um tolo romântico.

And they don't let anyone sleep because they're such a blabbermouth. Problematic for the Moonlighters and Galsariad in particular. Also, they cry at the drop of a hat. They cry over everything and then some.

Class consciousness overkill? Too woke for their time, anachronistic; bad indigenous rep bc they have taken on the colonizer religion and also technology and magic. Also I didn't research the patterns on their clothes enough or choose any one culture to base myself on, I just made my own fantasy culture adding onto CR lore ( adding more nuance to CR lore).

And as Liv pointed out, they have an extremely badly calibrated love and friendship care bear beam xD The little guy (gender neutral) just spills out people's shit in the gentlest yet most brutal ways possible, and then just look cute and like, no one ever gets mad at them. They do think that being adorable and whimsy will get them far -- they know very well how to be serious and gloom, but you catch more flies with honey. Please protect me I am small. Also, can you give me a hug? -puppy eyes- Little shit knows exactly how irresistibly sweet they are.

Also, they fit the "child-like, innocent, uwu asexual character" trope. And not only that, an ace character whose backstory touches heavily on the matter of sex. I'm pretty sure a lot of people would come for my neck (others would relate, I hope. I try my best to handle this with utmost care and proper narrative weight, like everything else in Tarlyn's story), so like, yeah, oof.

Problematic little guy would get canceled or infantilized by the fandom.

Finally, they smoke tobacco. Like, everyone has to have an irredeemable flaw, amirite?

[aidens-ocean-galaxy]

My oc’s <3

the lore is here (read before you go any further in this post) and my other ocs from a different universe in my mind are here

Odelia Shepherd 🔮

pronouns: she/her

sexual and romantic orientations: asexual and omniromantic with a preference for women

gender: femal

age and birthday: seventeen and october 5

special weapon: a magic book

relationship status: taken (by Luna)

personality: seems cool and mysterious until you get her talking about her interests or get her excited about a prank. She’s very chaotic, very protective of her close ones, and she never obeys anyone except for her girlfriend, Luna

face claim: Avantika Vandanapu

Emma Palace 🏹

pronouns: they/them

sexual and romantic orientations: asexual and aromantic

gender: nonbinary

age and birthday: seventeen and august 12

special weapon: a bow and arrow and a long blade

relationship status: single (obviously and they wouldn’t have it any other way)

personality: they’re very sarcastic and very mean to people. You do not wanna mess with them or their close ones. Speaking of their close ones; it is very hard for them to let people in because they feel as if they won’t accept them. They’re also a natural leader and an excellent tracker

face claim: Liv Hewson

Luna Knight 🐚

pronouns: she/they

sexual and romantic orientations: pansexual and omniromantic with a preference for women

gender: demi girl

age and birthday: seventeen and june 15

special weapon: a staff with a poison filled tip and stabs into her opponent and kills them instantly and painlessly

relationship status : taken (by Odelia)

personality: they’re a very quiet until you get to know them kinda person. She’s also surprisingly assertive and will get what she wants. Everyone is a bit scared of her because they love talking about morbid things with a grin on their face. She’s very respectful when it comes to the dead and that’s why her weapon is the way it is; painless and instant

face claim: sab zada (this will change when and if I can find a better one)

Luca Knight 💫

pronouns: he/him

sexual and romantic orientations: gay and gay

gender: male

age and birthday: seventeen and June 15

special weapon: a telescope that can not only see far off stars and planets, but can also work as a deadly dart gun, when needed. Luca just moves it to a specific point and out pops a poisonous dart

relationship status: taken (by Dimitri)

personality: quiet, does what he’s told, but that’s only a fake persona. He’s actually incredibly passionate and energetic. He’s very sarcastic and funny bur not on purpose. When he tries to make a joke, it never goes well

face claim: Sebastian Kent

Dimitri Vasileiou 🗡️

pronouns: he/him

sexual and romantic orientations: gay and gay

gender: trans male

age and birthday: seventeen and November 26

special weapon: a broad sword with lighting patterns on it that were actually branded from actual lighting

relationship status: taken (by Luca)

personality: he’s a very closed off person, but is also very friendly no matter what. Like Emma, he’s a natural leader but is a way better tracker than them and that gives them a little rivalry. He’s very assuming, very secure, and very closed hearted

face claim: Dominic Fike

Saphyra 🪬

pronouns: any but mainly she/her

sexual and romantic orientations: pansexual and aromantic

gender: pangender and agender (if that makes any sense to you. It’s explained in the lore)

age and birthday: unknown and unknown

special weapon: her goddess abilities such as shapeshifting, mind control and reading, creation, and control of the elements

relationship status: single but with many sexual lovers

personality: kind, fierce, mysterious, confusing to others, angry, sad most of the time

face claim: none (explained in the lore)

Alicia Vanix/Alec Vanix 🩸

pronouns: she/her and he/him

sexual and romantic orientation: bisexual and demiromantic

gender: genderfluid

age and birthday: 117 and november 7th

special weapon: vampiric abilities such as shapeshifting (cna turn into a bat, a woman, and a man), super speed, mind reading, flight, and sharp fangs and nails that puncture major arteries in an instant

relationship status: single but in love with a mortal

personality: seems dangerous and serious but in reality, is such a sweetheart and is very cheeky

face claim: Hoyeon Jung and Jung Kook

[palettepainter]

I’ve got some traditional doodles and Halloween cake pictures to post when I get back (maybe sooner) but in the meantime here are some Muppet ideas I wanna explore some time 

-Raph meeting Fiama. Idk why my brain has latched onto this dynamic, but for some reason I want to have these two interact. Before we left on holiday I rewatched Muppets Tonight and I got to that one episode where Sal gets a book on being a chiropractor. Since Raph is an *actual* chiropractor I think it’d be funny if the these three interacted (maybe Raph gives Sal some pointers)

-Zephyr and Janice hanging out and talking about their moustached husbands, Floyd and Clifford. Zee is pretty confident but I imagine when it’s her and Janice having a girls talk she can get pretty flustered like when talking about Clifford 

-Liv and Animal being chaotic. Liv is the same age as Scooter (early/mid twenties, so like 22-23) and I like think Animal is like, maybe five-ish years older then her. He’s a lot younger then the band. They but heads a lot sorta like siblings but they have their moments of being sweet and caring too

-Family stuff with Zephyr, Clifford and Rosa (I like the name Rosa so I’m dubbing their kid that). Nothing in particular I just wanna draw fluffy family stuff 

-Lottie with Phoebe Fraggle. I have a small story in mind for how these two meet that I wanna write one day but I gotta finish Pheobe’s design first 

-Pirate Anastasia, inspired by gollygeemel’s mermaid AU art. I imagine Anne as a sort of robin-hood of the sea. Running from the marines trying to capture her with the aid of Nemis, a kraken sea witch who ends up getting roped into the chaos. Might draw Liv as a mermaid too inspired by SkippieFritz Wooter art in this AU

-Penny and Fozzie relationship 

I know I mentioned I might make Penny Aromantic, but Penny overall can be pretty blunt/grumpy sometimes, and apparently it’s a harmful stereotype that Aromantic characters fall into this trope of being “unloveable/evil” in media. I don’t want Penny to be negative representation so I’ve been debating on her just being Asexual/Trans 

Penny likes jokes, including corny, silly ones. Laser told her jokes to cheer her up when they where younger so I think Penny would grow a soft spot for Fozzie pretty quickly 

-Some stuff with Tiger (my design for Animal’s ma before he got adopted by Floyd). In one of the Back Stage Pass podcast episodes Animal’s actor said how he, in his interpretation, was purchased from the black market. If Animal did have a ma I imagine she’d stay on the black market while he got sold, and she’d end up in some freak show or something. This is all a loose maybe AU for another AU, I’m torn between exploring the idea or letting Animal’s backstory be a mystery since him being this weird monster creature has always been a big part of his character 

But I’ve been imagining the band and Tiger interacting. How at first they’re weary of her but Tiger proves over time that she’s more intelligent that she looks 

Maybe of her coming around to trusting the band before she returns home (inspired by HTTYD 3 but one day when the band come to visit her she’s got babus, and Tiger dubs them all sitters by letting her three new rapid babies clamber all over them)

[raggedy-anne4013]

Introducing Me

Hello Lollies and Jellybeans!

Welcome to my corner of tumblr. First, a quick safety announcement: Please keep your limbs inside the vehicle at all times whilst we are moving.

Now, let’s get going!

A bit about me:

◈ She/Her ◈ Foster carer ◈ Introvert ◈ Australian ◈ Asexual ◈ Aromantic ◈ ADHD ◈ Anxiety ◈ Christian ◈ Autistic ◈ ‘Gifted’ kid who got burnt out ◈ Over 18 ◈ No NSFW please ◈ Gen Z ◈ PTSD ◈ Social Worker ◈

I love (and constantly fixate on):

Mythology 🧚‍♀️

Ancient History 🏞️

Religion 📜 (Especially Islam and Christianity)

Any and all books 📚

Musical Theatre 🎭

Books I Love:

♡  The Ever Afters - Shelby Bach

♡  Keeper of the Lost Cities - Shannon Messenger

♡  Anything by Rick Riordan (He's awesome)

♡  Willow Falls - Wendy Mass

♡ The Medoran Chronicles - Lynette Noni

♡ Half Upon a Time - James Riley

♡  The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes - Suzanne Collins

♡  Six of Crows - Leigh Bardugo

♡  Ariadne - Jennifer Saint

Shows/Movies I love: ♡  Girl Meets World

♡  A.N.T. Farm

♡  Liv and Maddie

♡  Miraculous Ladybug

♡  Into the Spiderverse and Across the Spiderverse

♡  Lockwood and Co.

♡  Shadow and Bone

◈ Thanks for coming and I hope you enjoy the rest of your time  ◈

[sugdenlovesdingle]

I was inspired by your last anon answer and the bit of «hire me Emmerdale». So I want to ask how do you envision the future ? What will you do to get the show right back on track ? Personally, I would get rid of multiple characters, there are currently 80+ characters and it’s just too much, although I will reintroduce or introduce my own characters. I will bring back the Windsors (Scott and Kelly), Daz Eden (Half brother of Andy and surrogate son of the Sugden), I will bring Adult Jean Tate ( Scott’s and Zoe daughter, unfortunately with Leah Bracknell passing, I would have to kill off Zoe) and also Adult TJ Woods (Terry and Dawn son who is also the grandson of Bob). I am torn about bringing back Jamie Tate. As my new characters, I will bring a new family with no attach to any Dales resident or secret. I want a regular and mundane British family, with middle aged parents and kids who are in the late teens to their early twenties to give company to Belle, Tom, Samson, Amelia, Noah, Gabby and Jacob. I was also inspired with how you brought up the necessity of the depiction of Matty’s identity as a trans man in today England who have more backlash against queer people by the day. The same with gay couple. Honestly I don’t hate Arthur and Marshall; I think there are cute however if it would have been up to me, I would have waited two years before putting them together, I think the actors age is restricting them too much, they are even below the age of consent. I would have wrote Arthur as having a crush on Marshall but M turning him down and then it would have been two years of unrequited love and will they/won’t they and then Marshall reciprocated Arthur feelings but it’s too late because Arthur met someone else at school and when Marshall confess his feelings, Arthur respond with anger saying he has been in love with him for the past two years, but now it’s too late. In the end, they do get together after Arthur realise his feelings are still very strong…

An absolute fantasy scenario of mine, where obviously I would write realistic storyline and bring back the community in Dales, with characters everyday life interaction and a diversity in jobs (too many vets). I will stop putting everyone together and create meaningful pairing. I will also bring back the cattiness and camp vibe of the late 90’s and 2000’s (Watch Dawn and Kelly fight in 2005 for context)

What about you ?

Ooh you've got interesting ideas anon! First of all - bring back robron (i don't care if Ryan and Danny would actually want to, in this scenario they do) and bring Liv back from the dead (what, stranger things have happened on this show) Let robron raise seb and their football team of other kids, let Liv and Vinny be happy with Chip and maybe discuss kids and how they would want to go about that. If Liv would want to carry a child or not, have sex to get pregnant or not - just a story of a couple figuring out if/how asexuality and having kids go together. I do like Arthur and Marshall together, they're cute. And even if they're underage that doesn't mean you can't tell a cutesy teen romance story with them (I mean look at the heartstopper boys or further back Jude and Connor (I think) on The Fosters. Arthur became an LGBT+ activist overnight but has 0 interaction with the other queer characters in the village. Even if his coming out was good/happy/his family and friends were supportive, it would be nice for him to talk to other people about it. With robron and Liv in the village he could talk to him, there's Ethan and Mack (I know the writers have forgotten about his flirting with Jamie and Aaron but no take backs - he's bi). He could (help) organise a proper village pride festival that actually focuses on the queer characters - and they could raise money for a charity that helps trans people. I would bring Jamie Tate back and have him be in Thomas' life - and Gabby having to deal with that. And him having to deal with his 2.0 version (Tom) working at the vets. I'd have him back at the vets too and have the awkwardness of working with Dawn - who has well and truly moved on but he still kind of has feelings for her. I don't know who he'd possibly date though - maybe revisit the flirting between him and Mack from Mack's early days.

If we're bringing in/back long lost relatives, I'd like some Sharmas to rock up in the village (maybe Jai has some long lost cousins out there) and bring back Andy and some Sugdens (doesn't Robert have a niece/cousin out there of around his age?) And I'd bring back Ellis and put him and Vic back together.

I'd get rid of WENDY, Paddy, Chas, Meatloaf, Mandy, Dan, Will, and Zak.

Definitely bring in some new characters - Ryan's brother maybe? Maybe he'll have a family to bring with him. and there's so many empty houses in the village, a completely new family would be good too.

I like Caleb and Nicky, they can stay, but I'd bring in Nicky's mother - and maybe her partner and his other siblings. Ally can stay too and he and Nicky get together properly and we get some insight in how/when they met and how long they've been in each other's lives

Moira gets to keep her farm and Kim keeps HF for now and hires Robert as her second in command.

Cain takes Nicky under his wing like he did with Aaron back in the day.

Amy and Matty get a HUGE wedding - only robron's was better - that's just the event of the year and we meet some of Matty's friends from when he lived in Manchester.

Charity and Vanessa back together - out of all the partners she's had, she works best with vanessa (and no unexpected pregnancies!)

Chloe and Sarah move to scotland to live with Debbie and only occasionally visit so Mack can spend time with Reuben - after a while they tell him they're together and are living their best lesbian lives up in scotland.

I like Bob and Bernice in the B&B - they can stay. Without wendy in the mix they'll be easier to deal with.

Liam and Leyla back together - their break up still makes no sense.

that's all i can think of for now but i'm sure just watching the show will make me yell more at my computer screen lol

[necromicon42]

Other Works In Progress:

Decided I might as well show other future works.

Character Designs:

Originals:

-Kasper Sikora (Redesign)->Male, Bisexual, age:24, pronouns: he/ they, powerful wizard, merchant that travels worlds, owns shop and eatery, doesn’t talk about his past often, don’t let him near anything potion related

-Henry Smith-> Cyborg with computer monitor head, Male, straight, age:27, accountant, does all the finances and bills for Kasper, 'more esspresso less depresso', smokes, workaholic

-Ashley Seeker->Female, Lesbian, age:20, pronouns: they/they, species: Shadowgeist(hybrid:human), dating Amanda

-Amanda Kowalski-> Female, Bisexual, age:20, pronouns: she/them, species: human, can transform into robot via Cybersteel, dating Ashley

-Hercudon (Hercules+Poseidon)-> Male, Asexual, father figure, age:35, pronouns: he/him, species: Landshark, cook

-Razor-> Male, gay, age:30, pronouns: he/him, species: Lizamari (Lizard+Calamari), Biker, owns over 5000 speeding and parking tickets

- William Campbell->Male, straight, age:25, pronouns: he/them, species: human, alchemist, creates all the potions in Kaspers' shop due to Kaspers' inability to make potions,

(Note: Everyone is an employee at Kasper's Shop)

Fandom-OC:

-Kirby OCs' [3]

-Mario OCs' [2]

Stories that I'm currently writing:

-Cyber Soul

"The year is 3XXX. Humanity has technologically advanced greatly beyond compare. However this was a difficult path. A path with a robotic revolution, where suprisingly many people supported the machines need for being treated human, instead of a regular robot uprising as seen in sci-fi novels from times of old. Man was even able to transfer their conciousness into the real digital, thus many people with chronic diseases could be saved,these people were then called 'Cydroids' to diffirentiate from regular robots and androids. Though this would always be a last resort and cybernetics and other means would always be used before. However this transfer of the mind, intended for medicine and for the well being of patients who were at deaths door, soon found other use. Military use. And even futher, many people were greedy, even if they didn’t need it they wanted it. Afterall it was basically immortality, however you could choose when to die. So in the end this 'Cyber Soul' achievement aged like milk, with it's uses ending up not only in military, but also in black market. Alice Liv, finds her not only as a cydroid, but also in a conspiracy that could spell the end for many humans, robots and cydroids."

-Kins of the World:

"Suddenly, without any warning, humans began to change. Beginning in 2000, some humans developed abilities or transformed into humanoid beings. Though these were without any rhyme or reason at random times. A pilot developed ice powers, a man living in egypt became a sand humanoid, a fishermens daughter with an interest in marine biology got fire powers, a young boy with a fear of heights was spontaneously able to control his gravity, a medical student became a robotic humanoid and a olympic swimmer became part fish. No one could figure out a patern, and many were unsure if there was even one. However humanity decided to classify these people as a 'Kin', however due to the randomness and huge difference between each individual Kin, each Kin would be given their own name. Such as Frostkin, or Merkin, or Polterkin, and so on and on. Let us follow Sahra Rose as one day when hanging out with her friends at the local mall -without any warning- she became a kin of shadows."

-Modal World Infinitum:

"Come and see an endless sea of worlds, all different and similar in many ways. Follow the journey of Kasper and his employees, with some newcomers such as Ashley Seeker and other. A shop and eatery where you'll always find what you seek for when you enter, travelling through a Multiverse unbound. Though don't expect dramatic twists and turns or huge character arcs theoughout the story, however some small things are there, afterall not all need to change throughout the journey."

[botanicallyinclinednerd]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Merlin (TV) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Elyan & Leon (Merlin) Characters: Elyan (Merlin), Leon (Merlin) Additional Tags: Long-Suffering Leon (Merlin), Sir Leon the Long Suffering, Elyan is a Little Shit, Asexual Leon, Asexual Elyan, Asexuality, Asexual Characters, Banter, Leon has many little brothers and Elyan is one of them, He probably likes to brag that he was the first little brother, referenced Elyan/Gwaine/Percival, referenced Leon/Lancelot, referenced Leon/Mithian, Dialogue Heavy Series: Part 10 of Immortal Sir Leon AU Summary:

Elyan and Leon hang out together and Elyan shares some observations he'd made and secrets he kept.

[into-the-roblivion]

Happy National Coming Out Day! 

Bonus: Supportive!Aaron

[ultranerdygirl]

I had a very nice conversation with my mom today about Dan's video, his coming out, and about my own coming out journey. I told her about how scared I was to come out to her and to my dad (even though they are two of the most loving and accepting people on earth), and how I'm still scared to formally come out to my brother (i.e., actually saying the words "I'm asexual and aromantic" to him either face-to-face or through text).

She and my dad have been so overwhelmingly supportive, and watching Dan's video yesterday made me feel seen and so loved. I've been watching his and Phil's videos for 3 years, and I found them right around the time I learned about asexuality. Dan and Phil have provided so much so laughter and happiness to me alongside the support and love my parents have given me, and I was crying as I told my mom all of this.

Coming out is a big deal no matter how you identify, and I'm still working on that, and to hear Dan say that he only came out to his family this month just reaffirmed that it's okay to share parts of yourself on your own terms and in your own time.

Go out there and love yourselves, y'all. Go out, be who you are, and know that you are loved.

❤💛💚💙💜💖🖤

[biacedmusicallover]

Me: mum you know livs storyline about not being attracted to people well that's me too. I'm asexual

Mam: *frowning* haven't you already told me this?

Me: .....no? I came out as bisexual when I thought I was and I told you the word for livs feelings is asexual.

Mam: ah okay I thought you had *attempts to high five me, but I thought she was going for a hug*

Emmerdale has helped me come out to my mam, turns out I didn't need to she thought I already had

[scrapyardboyfriends]

So...the funeral stuff was great. The whole Faith voice over, shots of her writing, interspersed with Eric reading the letter in the church were perfect and really got me. Vinny’s speech was nice too. 

(Although I don’t need to hear Aaron talk about how he wasn’t good enough anymore. It’s okay Aaron...you’re leaving soon. Back to your husband because you’ll be in off screen land and we can make it so.)

Having the whole adult cast be there when they were walking down the street with the flowers was a lovely gesture and honestly this was the first episode in the entire anniversary month that actually felt like a celebration of the show to some degree. That feels like a flaw. 

Faith’s wake at the pub was great too. I love the cardboard cut out and the drink special and I love that she had instructions to make Cain give a toast. And the toast was lovely. This is the Cain I like. I better enjoy him today cause I have a feeling after Monday, he’s going to be backsliding into the Cain I don’t like. 

The little impromptu wake for Liv back at the Mill was a nice idea but it really starts falling apart when you realize none of those people really interacted with Liv. Certainly not in the last like...three years. I mean obviously she and Gabby were good friends back in the early years and she had at least featured in the Sandra story. Liv and Jacob dated for a bit so sure. The last time she interacted with Noah he was either getting falsely accused of assaulting her or he was making fun of her being asexual and them not consummating the marriage or whatever. So...yeah. Doesn’t really work. I’m not sure Liv ever spoke to Sarah or Amelia. But the videos were nice. Although I would have very much liked to see more of that side of Liv when she was alive. See that kind of fun at work is exactly what we should get more often up at the Hide. This episode is just exposing all of their flaws the rest of the time they’ve been running this show. 

I’m just so tired of Chas. Haha. I’m glad Aaron saw her and Al. That makes Monday make a bit more sense. I still wish he was going to actually reveal the affair before he leaves. Maybe they’ll surprise us and he will tell Paddy before he goes. I want it so badly. 

The Chloe/Kerry reveal...dear god. I mean what was the goddamn point? First of all, I can’t believe they actually went there. Second, I can’t believe it took them until days/weeks before Kerry is going to be leaving again. Third, that was the most anticlimactic reveal ever, especially because she’s been acting like her mother anyway this whole time. But back to the first point...WHY!?!?!?!? Why must we have even more convoluted connections between characters?!! It’s so unnecessary. And it makes the fact that they never got to Chloe’s dad even more stupid if all of that was going to matter with this reveal. I mean I get that Laura having another baby wasn’t in their plans but it’s been a year. Surely they could have started that story at some point?? And what...are they going to pick it up while she’s on maternity leave or string it along until she comes back and then truly no one will care cause guess what? No one cares now! 

So yeah....half of this episode showed that these producers are capable of decent content and then the other half proved exactly why they should all be fired. Well done. 

[lit-in-thy-heart]

Do you have any ace fic recs (from any fandom, really) that you would recommend to like, everyone, because it's so good

hey anon! i haven't read fic for a little while (life has kept me flailing) but the first one that immediately comes to mind is it's all coming out aces by @botanicallyinclinednerd . i first read it after realising i was ace but not being quite sure where i fell and it was just so validating and comforting to read. liv explores the different types of aceness so beautifully and i did nearly cry, it is so well written <3

another one is how do i love thee? excellent fucking question by @donttouchtheneednoggle and is a bit of a prequel to their (god tier) fic six days (also with ace elyan) where elyan sort of figures out how his asexuality factors into his desire for a relationship and it has neednoggle's signature comedy overlaid throughout, it's truly brilliant :')

i'm now at a loss to remember what other ace fics i have read so this is an open invitation to add onto this post if anyone else knows any and for me to read some more ace fics! thanks for the ask anon, have a great day <3

[marmolady]

Blue, Blue Christmas: Part One

Main Pairings: Estela x (f)MC

Summary: It's Christmas on La Huerta, and for once, Liv isn't in any kind of festive spirit. PART TWO here.

Word Count: 3660

Chronology: set several months after 'All That Matters'

Warnings: mental illness, depression coming out (asexual)

Tagging: @saivilo, @edgydepressedchoicesthot, @sceptilemasterr

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La Huerta, 2039

Liv shivered and huddled deeper into her heavy quilt, her face buried. It being an expensive hotel, the Elysian’s rooms had excellent sound-proofing, but even they couldn’t completely drown out the sounds of excitable children storming the halls on the morning of Christmas Eve. For three of them, she knew, the day prior had been their first time seeing snow, and the lure of a winter wonderland beyond the lodge’s front doors had the little ones rising with the sun.

Not Liv, though. If she left her bed, Michael would be hanging off her in minutes. And her moms would valiantly attempt to get a conversation out of her. ‘How’d you sleep?’ Stupid question. Sleep was about all Liv was good for these days. ‘Think you might go skiing with us this afternoon?’ She just wanted to be alone….

Things were supposed to get better when she got here. They always had. But, Liv was discovering, depression was a bitch. A bitch that didn’t care for the romantic notion that old family traditions could bring the same happiness, the same relief just because they’d done so time and time again in years past. It was hard for anything to help when Liv herself couldn’t picture what ‘help’ could even look like. She was desperately lonely and wanted to be alone. She missed being fit and active, and hated the idea of crawling out of her bed. She knew she should probably take better care of herself-- shower more than her one reluctant attempt per week-- but who was she prettying herself up for anyway? It wasn’t as if a few strokes of a hairbrush would make her suddenly worthy of love… desirable.

She closed her eyes, and by the time she awoke, the sun was high in the sky and pouring through the windows.

Liv groaned. It was quiet now. Probably, the kids were out playing in the snow. So, she dragged herself out of bed.

The Elysian was a busy place this Christmas. Usually, it would just be her moms and tio abuelo, her Uncle Aleister, Auntie Grace and their kids, and Tio Diego and Uncle Varyyn coming together for Christmas. In the past, there had been occasions when one or more of the other Catalysts would join them, but for the most part, they had families elsewhere. This time, Jake and Sean would be spending Christmas with their La Huerta family-- and introducing their newly adopted trio of children to the wonders of the island. Michael, their son whom Taylor had carried as a surrogate some five years ago, was bouncing off the walls with the excitement of introducing his new siblings to his special place. But that wasn’t enough him to totally distract him from his big special cousin. Michael hadn’t seemed to notice that his special big cousin wasn’t much fun anymore… certainly Lucas, Benny and Georgie didn’t see the appeal. It made Liv ache. She’d been the fun one once, the one the younger kids were drawn to like moths to a flame. She was goofy and full of energy-- ‘was’ in the past tense. But Michael still loved her. Maybe he was waiting for her to be the same cousin she’d been before… or maybe he just wanted to love her back to happiness. Liv didn’t really like to be touched by anyone these days… but Michael was the exception; it would be a cold day in hell before she didn’t let that kid hug her. Resigned as she was to keeping up the role of favourite cousin, Liv couldn’t face that the second she left the safety of her room.

It had started in the summer, this depression. She’d had a bad fall when out hiking, leaving her resting at home and dealing with what had turned out to be post-concussion syndrome. That had been a problem. The usually constantly-on-the-go Liv was stopped in her tracks, with little to do but retreat into herself… and find herself with all too much time to dwell on every fear that had ever troubled her. Once she let herself venture into that dark place, she’d found herself helplessly trapped there. It was difficult to tell where the concussion ended and the depression began-- a lot of the effects could so easily have been either or, if it even mattered. But Liv couldn’t concentrate. She barely had the energy to get through a day, let alone claw back any semblance of what her life had been just months prior. She was low, and she would snap at the drop of the hat. At least the headaches had finally stopped…. So, maybe what was left wasn’t directly related to the head injury. Maybe this was just who Liv was now….?

She didn’t want to be this person. She hated this person. All of her. Especially the parts that frightened her… those she’d yet to share with anyone.

Peace and quiet lasted all the time it took Liv to pick at her breakfast. She winced and put her free hand over an ear as the younger ones charged in from the snow.

“Liiiv!” Michael cried as he stampeded over, arms open wide.

Even as her body became tense, Liv didn’t want to hurt the kid’s feelings. She loved that kid.

“Good morning, Michael,” she grunted, dodging a flailing hand. “Look, I’ll give you a hug, just calm down a little, okay?”

Michael’s two brothers, Lucas and Benny, held back. They were only little-- seven and five-- and she was, in their eyes, basically a grown-up, and a rather frowny one at that. They were shy anyway… but that rejection made it quite clear to Liv that she had officially grown out of the Catalyst kid gang. Even the older, far taller Reggie seemed to be more readily accepted; most likely, Liv determined, because he was associated with his younger sisters, Erin and Immy. Erin had quickly latched onto the three newcomers, and so the Hall children had easily formed a merged group with Jake and Sean’s little clan of four. Liv was on the outside. Too brooding and serious and bad-tempered to belong.

“Livi,” Michael jabbered, “we’re gonna make Christmas cookies! In Christmas shapes! Erin is gonna do the making, and we can do decorating. Do you know we have candy canes to go on cookies? And red and green M&Ms!”

“That’s really cool, Michael,” Liv replied, painfully aware of how quiet Lucas and Benny had become the moment they rounded the doorway and saw her there.

How could she be so lonely when all she wanted was to be left alone?

Reggie took charge of supervising the kids in the kitchen, while Sean hovered in the background. Immy, Liv guessed, was joining in the rather childish activity because she couldn’t bear for her twin to be eating sweets without her. With Liv retreating toward the door, the excitement returned to Michael’s brothers’ faces. This sad new Liv wasn’t welcome, however much her old friends might try to reach out to her. So, she left.

“I’m going for a walk,” she announced sharply as she strode through the front foyer.

Maybe if it was just her… just her and La Huerta… it would all come back. Old Liv. The dauntless, vigorous adventurer. The effervescent spirit, the giver of cuddles, gymnast, eater of cake. However much Michael might miss that person, it was a drop in the ocean compared to the vast hollow feeling in Liv’s heart where her old self used to be.

Her eyebrows furrowed, Estela looked up from the fireplace, where she’d been lighting some kindling.

“I take it you’ve got your phone on you?”

Liv scowled. She knew the drill by now. And her mom knew that she knew the drill. “No, I’m going stumbling deep into yeti territory without means of contact. I’m not going far anyway.”

She never went far these days. Not since the fall.

Estela uttered a soft sigh. “I know, mija. Stupid question. Just don’t be too late, okay? Our Christmas starts at sundown.”

‘Their Christmas’. Always on Christmas Eve, every Christmas Eve. Just Liv and her moms, with her tio abuelo flitting in. It was quiet, and warm, and a reaffirmation of their bond as a family; a tradition passed on by Estela’s own mother from her childhood in Colombia. Liv didn’t want to bake Christmas cookies, she didn’t want to plaster on a fake smile for the kids and get excited over the work of an imaginary gift-giver, and she sure as fuck didn’t want to pull a shitting Christmas cracker… but to her, their Christmas Eve tradition was Christmas. And it meant the world to her mamas. All she could do was pray that piece of happiness wouldn’t be lost to her now like so many others.

Her hard expression faltered and softened. “Yeah. Yeah, of course.”

And she walked out into the snow. Barely had she gotten a few steps beyond the door when she found herself smack-bang in the path of Diego and Varyyn as they arrived at the Elysian.

“Argh! Sorry, Livi,” Diego gushed as he narrowly avoided crashing into her.

Liv grunted a ‘no worries’, ready to carry on her way. But then she hesitated. What she needed wasn’t to be alone. More than anything, Liv had wanted to talk to her Tio Diego. Maybe this was her chance?

“Tio,” she muttered under her breath, “come walk with me?”

Thankfully for Liv, Diego was fairly switched on to when someone needed a friend. And he was sensitive enough to know to offer that support without a big fuss.

He shrugged-- perhaps too nonchalant, but Liv appreciated it. “Sure.”

Varyyn caught on quickly. “I will let you go. It will be nice for you to catch up.” A little smile came to his face. “I did tell you, my beloved, to wear many warm clothes.”

“Ha, just as well. Save me a spot by the fire; I think I’m gonna need it.”

La Huerta was as it had always been; wild and beautiful. Breathing in its air, Liv felt something. Just a flicker. So much of her old self refused to come rushing back, even as she walked the land of her true home, but La Huerta stirred in her a swell of courage. She could do it. She could open up.

Liv felt a stab of guilt as they headed out towards the snowy ridge, her and her Tio Diego. Would her moms see this as a rejection? They’d been trying so hard to reach her… for months… but she just kept pushing them away. Then, she let Diego in just like that? On a split-second spur-of-the-moment whim? It wasn’t exactly fair.

The thing was, Diego always seemed to know what to say. After Liv’s moms, it was him that she came out to first when she knew for certain that she had romantic feelings towards girls. This time, he was first on the list. Liv had considered taking her confession to Uncle Raj; after all, he was asexual himself. But it was different. Liv might have had no desire to have sex, but she was also an utter romantic. Uncle Raj wouldn’t understand, just like her friends at school giggling about sex wouldn’t understand. Her Tio Diego might not really get it either, but he felt so safe. If she had to talk to someone… it had to be him.

He just walked with her, trudging through the snow. Not forcing conversation, just being there. Letting her know that when she was ready, he’d listen. He knew she wasn’t okay. He’d known for months. Liv was pretty sure he’d been her Mama Taylor’s sounding board as she fretted over getting her on the right anti-depressant and into the office of the right therapist. He’d reached out to her, across all those miles between them, but she hadn’t been ready. Now… now, she thought she was.

“Tio?” Then Liv stopped herself. Her heart was pounding-- could he hear it, even over the wind? Did she look as scared as she felt? She knew in her heart that he would never reject her, not for anything… so why was she so scared? Was it herself she was afraid to be honest to?

He looked at her, his expression kind. He’d be patient.

“Tio, um….” She took a deep breath. Just keep it hypothetical. “I guess I’ve been thinking about relationships a lot.” She paused. Another deep, trembling breath. Hopefully it just looked like she was shivering with the cold. “Would it be like… a terrible thing if you wanted to kiss someone, to be romantic with them; even… even if you don’t want to have sex? Would that be like… leading someone on? Sex is why everyone does all that shit in the first place, right? That’s the goal.”

There was an immediate dawning in Diego’s eyes, and Liv flushed fiercely. Congrats, me, you just came out as ace.

“I definitely wouldn’t say that,” Diego said, after a moment to gather his thoughts. “I think that probably there’s a lot more people who feel like that than you realise. For a lot of people, sex is great, but it’s not the only thing. If you’re honest, no one’s being led on. And that goes for a lot of things. When you’re intimate with someone, like emotionally, or anything else, it helps to share with the other person what your needs are.”

“Okay… okay….” Obviously, he knows we’re talking about me. Even still, Liv didn’t want to say it. Not quite yet. “So… um….” She was eternally grateful for his patience with her as she laboriously organised her thoughts. His expression was always kind, full of love for her, and not a trace of judgement.

“It’s just like…,” she said at last, “everyone goes on like it’s the best thing ever, and you’re like ‘eh, maybe I’ll try it someday, but I just don’t care enough to want it’. But it’s all anyone ever wants to talk about. It’s what they see when they look at you. And you just… you just want to love someone, without having to worry about any of that.”

“And that,” Diego ventured gently, “that’s how you feel?”

Liv took a moment, then nodded stiffly. “When… you were at school, and all the other boys just wanted to talk about having sex with girls… did you feel like that?”

“Hoo boy. That’s going back. But, yeah. That sounds really familiar. I tried faking it, going along with whatever it was the other guys would laugh about, but it never felt right.”

Liv breathed a big sigh of relief. It was different-- of course it was-- but her tio understood. That ‘otherness’. And he didn’t see her as an ‘other’, just as Liv.

“Why do teenagers have to be so fucking horny?”

Diego coughed and spluttered. “It’s all pretty new and exciting, I guess,” he managed at last. “Personally, I was too busy frantically trying to hide who I actually was for any of those inner thoughts to be publicly broadcast. And more than anything, I was caught up in this distant dream of holding the hand of a boy I liked, who liked me back… and just walking down the street, not even caring.”

“I’d like to hold someone’s hand like that.”

“Yeah?”

Liv nodded. Don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t cry…. “Yeah.”

For a little while, there was silence between them. Liv’s heart was still pounding a tattoo against her chest, now more exhilaration than nerves. She’d done it; said it out loud. It was thrilling, but she might just choke herself trying not to cry.

“I… don’t feel like me anymore,” she at last managed to force out.

“Since the fall?”

“...yeah. Since the fall.”

They settled down at the edge of the snowy outcrop overlooking the valley in which the Elysian was nestled. Liv looked out, seeing her cousins-- both those by blood and those by heart-- playing together beneath the perfect clear sky. She was so apart from it…. From her family.

“Christmas is shit,” she spat. “Because some baby is supposedly born thousands of years ago, we’re meant to plaster on smiles and be all singing and laughing and be fucking happy… but actually, you end up watching everyone else being fucking happy, and it feels like you’re broken.”

Diego blew out a heavy breath in sympathy. “Yeah. It really can be shit. Especially if you’re lonely… loneliness hits a whole lot harder when everyone’s out there shouting about togetherness and joy. After my parents kicked me out, I dreaded it. It’s hard not to be at least a little bit resentful.”

Down in the valley, Reggie was pulling Michael and Benny around on a little wooden sled while they shrieked with laughter. Liv didn’t imagine how she’d even begin to find her way back into that kind of carefree fun. Would her friends still be waiting for her when she did?

“You’re not alone, okay?” Diego said gently. “Whenever you feel ready to talk to your moms about all this, I’m pretty sure that if you want her to, your Mama Tay’s gonna be able to hook you up with people who are a lot like you. This sort of thing is basically her specialty.”

“Yeah… I know.” Liv stared straight ahead, shame creeping up on her. It was becoming a near-constant companion. “I think that’s… um, part of the reason why I didn’t want to talk to my moms. Mama Taylor’s whole job is to help people like me who aren’t okay; I feel like it’s really bumming  her out that she can’t stop her own daughter from being depressed.”

Diego went to hug Liv, but hesitated. He knew that these days, she preferred not to be touched. But Liv closed the gap between the two of them herself, leaning against his chest, seeking comfort.

That respect meant the world.

“It’s okay,” she said, shakily. “I… I’d really like a hug right now.”

Liv exhaled as her tio put his arms gently around her. How long had it been since she’d let anyone, bar little Michael, hug her? Months, for sure. Did she want to be hugged? Had she just been punishing herself all that time? She didn’t know anymore… but she knew she wanted her tio to keep on holding her. Making her safe.

“You know, she’s your mom. She’s probably been beating herself up over every grazed knee and every time you’ve come home crying from school, since you were born. But she’d rather feel bad that you’re hurting and know about it, than feel like she can’t be there for you. Your moms love you so much; they wanna be in your corner.”

Liv realised how truly lucky she was to have love like that; unconditional. Her tio hadn't had that.

“I’ve been a kind of an asshole to them recently.” Again, her cheeks flushed red. She imagined she must be this obvious glowing beacon in the snowy landscape. “But I’m guessing you already know that.”

“Oh, yes. Mama Taylor’s got to vent somewhere, and that’s pretty much always been my job. Anyway, I can guess they’ve been pissy with you right back.”

Liv gave a sad little chuckle. “Well, yeah. I can tell they’re trying not to react, but sometimes I manage to hit the wrong buttons. They always apologise afterwards… makes me feel like even more of a jerk.”

“You’re not a jerk, Livita. You’re struggling. It’s hard to be all sunshine and roses when it feels false.”

She breathed deep. It was okay. She was still her… still Liv. A Liv who was lost in a dark fog, but still wanted, still loved.

Diego kissed her forehead. “They’re just worried about you. It can be crazy frustrating when someone you love is obviously not okay, but you can’t seem to help them.”

“It’s hard… sometimes,” Liv said softly. “They’re all in love, and it’s great and all-- happy family and all that jazz. But I’m so terrified no one’s ever gonna love me like that… because of the way I am. I don’t mean to take it out on my moms, like I’m this horrible, bitter person, but sometimes it just comes out. And I hate myself for it.” Aaaand I’m just even more certain no one could ever love me. Tears prickled her eyes, and before she could stop herself, she was weeping. Goddammit!

Diego rocked her in his arms, and she cried there.

“You’re a pretty amazing person, mija. Not in spite of all the things about you that you think are weird-- because of those things. You’re great because you’re unapologetically you. That’s scary; I know it’s scary. But someday, probably when you least expect it, someone’s gonna see all that-- all of you-- and just love you to bits. If you’re anything like me, it’ll happen when you’re at your very loneliest point… so you can’t give up hope. Something-- someone-- special might be waiting right there if you just brave one more day.”

She didn’t feel brave. She felt lonely. But there with her tio, she felt it just a little less.

“I love you, Tio,” Liv sniffed.

“I love you too. And I’m always here for you. In your corner.”

“I, er, I think I wanna tell my moms. Like, I feel better after talking to you. Maybe I’ll feel better again. I think I will.”

“Whenever you’re ready, okay?” He smirked and gave her a little jab with the elbow. “Though your Mama Taylor is going to be devastated that she doesn’t have enough time to knit an ace flag sweater for you for Christmas.”

Liv laughed. “Oh, god! She would!” Then she just couldn’t stop laughing. Where did that even come from? Maybe… maybe there was a trail-- faint, but present-- out of this dark fog after all.

[yorit1]

I have so many thoughts on the emmerdale pride episode and so many things that I wish we could have seen. I wish we would have had robron +liv and their family at pride and also vanity and their family at pride seeing wlw and mlm families and love. I want liv to stay as cool and as asexual as she is now and not think she needs sex to be normal. I want matty to be proudly trans and showing that someone loves him the way that he is. I’d also love to see that he moves forward with his bottom surgery and that it is important to him. I’d love to see Ethan meet a nice man and see young gay love. I’d love for Mack to come out as bisexual maybe see him with a guy as well. I’d love for charity to openly say she is bisexual as well and for Vanessa to say that she is a lesbian and happy that she is that way and no one can take it from her. I’d also love for Ben to find someone and him to be more than kayak boy. Also what is vic boyfriend Luke and if he is bisexual I’d love it if he could be in a relationship with a woman and still be bi. I’d love for them to confirm that liv and gabby are wlw. That gabby is a lesbian and has been one and that was why she was obsess with leyla. We need more wlw characters. I’d love for liv to be panromantic asexual. Finally I’d love a memorial for Zoe Tate as the first lesbian character on the show.