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thelov3lybookworm · 1 year ago

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Hows your day going?

Mine's going like shit 🙂😗

#Literally on the verge of breaking vases #Or windows #Or kicking down doors #Or banging my head on a wall #I'm tired #I hate this subject I'm supposed to be studying for my exam tomorrow #I understand absolutely nothing #tmi? maybe.#probably #whatever though #Literally cried an hour ago #Eh its okay I guess

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fala-alfredo-pasta · 4 months ago

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A very self indulgent tatted and pierced up Ichimatsu thas it

#mr. osomatsu #ichimatsu #ichimatsu matsuno #ososan #osomatsu san #matsuno ichimatsu #my art #suggestive #piercings #tattoos #todomatsu #he's there verbally and spiritually but not emotionally cuz he's tired of ichimatsu's bs #he spends all his money on cat treats -- tattoos--and peircings #the tatts on his body cost a lot more than totty's phone and it pisses totty off lol #ichi: ''yknow monetarily my body is worth more than everyone here.''#totty: ''and yet you look the cheapest why is that? hmm? 💅''#ichi: ''bitter because you desperately want a tattoo but don't have the balls to commit to one huh?''#totty: *holding back tears* "f-fuk you.''#totty caves and finally gets a small tattoo on his thigh #he cries while ichimatsu holds his hands through all of it #ichi's so proud of his baby bro can't even tease him cuz he knows totty is being so brave about it #but also ichimatsu is an even bigger bitch when getting his tatts and literally passes out #every single time because needles man. But totty don't need to know that lol #choro: ''you can get a needle inserted in you for hours at a time but can't sit through one 1 min vaccination??''#ichi: ''it's not the same fappy. I get a cool forever art piece with a tatt. What do i get with a vaccination??''#choro: ''the avoidance of death and illness.''#ichi: ''exactly why prolong my existence here?''#choro: ''we really need to get you a therapist.''#a e i o queue #made and tagged this months ago and forgot i never posted it

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thefirstknife · 1 year ago

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The thing about the final lore tab is that, besides the fact that I'm devastated in ways I can't put into words, the way Saint was affected by this whole thing is unique.

This is obviously primarily Osiris' trauma that we can't really properly comprehend, but Osiris wasn't fully conscious for most of it. It fell to Saint to wait, and hope, that Osiris would be brought back and that he would wake up. There was no certainty for him there. And even before that, he watched "Osiris" being strange and distant and acting weird but obviously nobody could even begin to speculate that the person he interacted with wasn't Osiris at all, so the trauma went from there, from learning that he lost Sagira, then to the shock of Osiris being kidnapped and then the quest to bring him back and then him being brought back in a coma and then the 9 long months of waiting until he woke up.

The state of constant anxiety he experienced for almost 2 years total is nervewracking and gutwrenching. I don't think we can fully understand the impact of that on someone. And the best, or worst, thing is that Saint is infinitely patient. He is infinitely emotional and merciful and opts to be the better person and to wait and wait and wait. And hope that it can be fixed.

Except it can't. It can't be fixed. And not only can it not be fixed, but there will never be justice for it. It's impossible. There isn't a way to truly punish Savathun for what she's done. There is no relief or catharsis for Saint. While Osiris can mostly move on, Osiris did not really have to go through what Saint had to go through. Their traumas are different and Saint's is the type that no one can really understand and there is nothing he can do about it.

A younger Saint would've killed Immaru and then Savathun, 100%. But now he can't, because he isn't that person anymore. And yet, the grief and trauma remain and he has no outlet for them and nothing that can be done to enact any sort of justice. So he settles for pure rage, letting himself essentially vent that anger out, but still leave everyone alive. And there's really no true release here. He got a brief satisfaction of killing Savathun over and over, but at the end of the day, she will walk away and nothing will change and there will be no fix.

Which is why he comes back and just cries. As he said, this wasn't for Osiris, it was for him. It was his outlet for anger and nothing else. After that, there's nothing else left to do but cry. No one can really help him carry the burden of what he's gone through and besides: he's a Titan. He's the one carrying other people's burdens. Which just added to the trauma because for so long he's only cared for others, mostly for Osiris, and never really let himself fully grieve or talk about it. Saint never really processed the horrifying ordeal of constant concern for his loved one, then the realisation that his loved one isn't even with him, then the desperate search and then waiting for months and months for the hope that his loved one might wake up. Then Osiris is awake and we're forced to play allies with the person who traumatised both of them in an incomprehensibly terrifying way. Saint had no other way of attempting to make his peace with the situation.

Year of processing grief. I'm in shambles.

#destiny 2 #destiny 2 spoilers #season of the witch #season of the witch spoilers #saint-14 #osiris #o14 #i haven't stopped thinking about this and i never will #i genuinely cried like a little baby reading this #the whole time of this ordeal it's been told through saint's patience and devastation about the situation #so we know just how much he stretched his limits here #again. a younger saint would've gone apeshit months ago #but now he has a limit and he's more patient than ever and literally no one can help him #i'm in tears over this man he doesn't deserve any of this bullshit #i could go on for approximately 17 more hours about this #if i see savathun again she will die by my hand

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emmaspersonaldiary · 22 days ago

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Hi guys

#vent #my dad woke up angry and after i left for school he went into my room then yelled at my mom about how my room is so messy and im such a slo #and how im gonna grow up to be a slob (like hes gonna be invited over anyways)#and then my mom texted me and i saw it at lunchtime then i was pissed off for the rest of the day #im so not excited for xmas because hes gonna yell at me if i dont act excited because if i do act excited hes gonna be like “why dont you d #this every year?“ and he yells at me every year and he yelled at me on my birthday and that day literally makes me cry if i think about it #and he gets grumpy so easily and he doesnt understand what its like to be in high school because when he was in school he never studied he #just went to parties and he didnt even go to his graduation #and in the mornings he'll see me and just groan at me in a mocking way because a few years ago i was so depressed that i couldnt form #sentences in the mornings so I'd judt say “mhm” and stuff and he makes fun of me because i dont think he understands how hard that year was #for me and sometimes when he talks to me i want to cry and he didnt even say anyrhing wrong its just the fact that if i say the wrong thing #or respind in the wrong tone he'll get mad and be angry at everyone for the whole day #and on my birthday (yes we're back to that) i didnt come out of the bathroom for a few hours because i was crying so hard i couldnt breathe #and the next day he was grumpy all day because i cried on my birthday so he was angry??#anyways

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spineless-lobster · 11 months ago

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*shaking, emerging from a trench covered in blood with tears streaming down my face*

what… what is an intramolecular bond?

#HELLO YES I ALMOST CRIED MULTIPLE TIMES OVER THE PAST THREE HOURS #IM TAKING BIOLOGY AND THESE BITCHES ARE DOING BIOCHEMISTRY???#I DID NOT FUCKING SIGN UP FOR THIS I LITERALLY FORGOT EVERYTHING BECAUSE THE LAST TIME I DID CHEMISTRY WAS TWO FUCKING YEARS AGO #NOW I’M SCRAMBLING TO RELEARN EVERYTHING SO I DON’T FALL BEHIND EVEN MORE #LITERALLY NONE OF THIS WAS EVEN HINTED AT LAST YEAR I AM NOT PREPARED!!!!!!!!#I AM ACTUALLY GONNA KMS FOR REAL #FUCK I FUCKING HATE SCHOOL SO FUCKING MYCH PLEASE SOMEONE MAKE IT END

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thompsborn · 1 year ago

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i know i’ve said that being able to do the stereotypical insane ao3 authors notes is fun and amusing to me but can the universe NOT take that as a challenge to add more shit to my list of things to add next time i post ???? like. fucking. Calm Down Please.

#situations keep happening and i am TIRED #had to restrain a kid at work today which was AWFUL but he was trying to run into the road so i literally had to #almost cried bc of it but got the situation under control #but then when on my way to meet w coworkers to carpool to a meeting #my tire popped #super fun times super awesome super great #i mean my mom helped and we got it all fixed and handled #but basically from noon to like 6pm my mom and i were dealing w it bc everything had to be COMPLICATED #so i only just got home like 45 mins ago ish and i am SO tired holy fuck #but im eating left over orange chicken and then gonna shower and then just gonna be lazy and read and maybe write #if i have the brain power i will work on hb chp17 #but i also have a 4 hour training for work tomorrow so yeehaw #its 12:30-4:30 which isnt that bad but still #im also going to my dads afterwards to stay the night and visit him and my siblings #which is a good thing dont get me wrong i love visiting them #it just means i wont have a lot of freetime this weekend to work on writing and cleaning and stuff #not the end of the world and definitely worth it to see my dad and my baby siblings #but i wish it was a 3 day weekend so i could also have a day to just stay home and do things that i havent had the time to do yk #oh well. tis life. adulthood. having to handle situations and finding the best out of shitty circumstances. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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voltrixz · 4 months ago

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Gay people ruinging my life out here. Me and oomf were bored as hell at lunch today and she asked me what to draw and I suggested elector jokingly (knowing that like 1 class ago I was yapping about him endlessly ) and she went ‘yeah ok sure just show me a ref”, and EHEH GRINNED SO WIDE, and pulled out my phone that has a good amount of refs. Pulled out my phone and was showing her the refs and I scrolled a little too high AND SHE SAW A DOODLE OF ELECTRO AND SHOCKER KISSING I HAD SAVED THERE.

Immediately turned off my phone and looked away, I did not hear the end of it.

#I HATE ELECTROSHOCKERRRRRR #literally cried over them an hour ago #voltrix rambles

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roses-and-elixir · 5 months ago

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#also went to see my baby cousins that live 2 hours away and i dnt think they remember me #theyre both 2 and 5 and last mustve seen them over a year ago #they warmed up sooo much they were so clingy and all over me and icl i loved it 🤣🥹#one of them wudnt let me go and kept holding onto my dress and asking if i can come back again bc she wasnt done watching moana/playin games #and the other wanted to come back with me to hv a sleepover (but she literally cries and cant sleep w/o her parents)#theyre too cute #bith if them started fighting each other to sit on my lap whilst watching moana aswell and i had go make them take turns 😩

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astrxealis · 8 months ago

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sorry to ffxivlovepost always anyway Man the way the devs & game did so good in making an mc that is Basically a blank-slate for the players, and there's so many opportunities to make your oc However you like but. the game itself adds so much story and character to that blank-slate guy. amazing

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#⋯ ꒰ა ffxiv ໒꒱ *·˚#i think abt this a lot. and also a lot of other ffxiv stuff LMFAO #it's amazing ..... drk is a huge example of this i think #bcs it plays into the guilt and whatnot the wol feels and all that. spectacular #endwalker !!!!! shadowbringers!!! the way the game uses the concept of hope is just always so beautiful and fascinating to me #and yeah bunch of games may have like. mc you create & design but not always can you like. ehvejfhsjf idk how to explain LOL #it is 4 pm i woke up 2 hours ago but priorly woke at 7 am after havingn a rlly. weird sleep.#to which my twin told me 'i wont tell u what time it is' as we went to sleep so it def was Really late #bcs we were going thru re2 and she was also playing games on steam i've been telling her to play #(to which i got her fav characters right and knew fr how'd she'd like the game LMFAO. twins amiright.)#actually that is also smth so fascinating to me bcs. i always have had someone w me in my life. i am literally never alone.#to which what i'm getting at here is Wow... it's like having a sleepover every single day. and i was a kid always sad never to have #sleepovers bcs my parents were strict (they r cool tho!) but i was a kid who wanted to experience all the kid things #but i didn't rlly but that's fine :P i am a grateful person LOL anyway back on track back on black #ffxiv... the game that u are.....#it's the 1st game that rlly actually made me invested in the ocs of others and also make a fully fledged oc that wasn't just originally mine #but for a fandom or something. and also it got me back into writing and Into making poetry and prose so. yeah.#it's amazing how much. oc x canon ???? yeah. ffxiv is so Wow #like eveyrhhting w themis or graha and how u can AAGGGHHH shit w your oc . so many possibilities #and that character. those possibilities. are already in game but also expanded by the player and the fanbade and #idk it's so beautiful to me WHAGHSGDJDH. and yes me saying themis or graha up there is self-indukgent bcs #both of them are so Insane it's so. insane!!!!! i will never forget what happened in abyssos in particular that Broke me #and anabaseios... :)) i cried so much it is almost embarrassing. and wow. asphodelos. wverything w themis just. yeah #anyway graha... self-explanatory if u know..... idk he's the character of all time to me. simply said. but themis is crazy bcs going thru ab #yssos made me think for a bit 'hey themis might be my fav character in ffxiv now' but No but also Wow. wow #kinda cute bcs me and my twin have a thing where she has a certain type of chara she likes and me too #so sometimes. most times. all times. we have our own characters we like anyway but sometimes they overlap but either the case we kinda #lowkey 'segregate???' idk if that is a good word but we do that w our fav characters. so like emet is her fav elidibus is mine.#and that was all the way in arrr alr and we barely knew spoilers so that's kinda crazy! anyway

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janeway-lover · 7 months ago

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I always get just a little concerned when the dead mom song gets stuck in my head again

#for context: it’s from beetlejuice and the title of the song is literally Dead Mom #when I first found it a few months ago I cried and then listened to it for an hour straight #and now it’s stuck in my head again and I don’t know why

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rogue-pool · 1 year ago

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tw. death, addiction

i dont normally make personal posts or anything but i kinda just needed a place to put all of my thoughts and current feelings.

i dont really know where or how to talk about this?

how do you approach your friends and say 'hey i dont know how i feel right now because i just found out that someone i care about just died.' but like. man im just not sure how i feel rn because i just found out that someone i care about just died. he was a good friend, but like. the kind of good friend that you worked with every day 8 hours a day 5 days a week so you knew everything about each other, but didnt actually hang out outside of work.

tho he did help me fix my motorcycle several times. and was supposed to again. and we were supposed to go riding at some point before i leave mass.

he also was one of the only ones at that job who ever got my pronouns right. he was definitely like. Cis Straight Man all the way but very much the epitome of "he's a little confused but he's got the spirit" he was an amazing boss. and he was the most lively and energetic person i've ever met. even if he was Real Weird about it.

he struggled with addiction heavily... last i knew he was straight sober... but they're pretty sure it was a overdose. which is how my mom died over a decade ago. which is entirely why i have some issues with like. heavy drinking and other such things.

but like. the world keeps turning, right? he was there one minute, and now he's not but like. thats just how it is?

i have a weird relationship with death and im uh. attempting to come to terms with this. like. i'm ok. im not .... sad(?) though i do think i might be in the future? like when i go to visit him at the butcher shop and he's just not there? ever again? fuck see, its weird, right? but like i'm *leaving* mass in 2 months. the chances of me ever seeing him again was minimal anyway. gods. processing.

but like if 2023 could fucking. stop for just a minute? give everyone a break? please? we're all tired ya'll.

#sol speaks #like im ok.#im just #processing.#i got the call about an hour ago from the owner of the store we worked at.#i always thought he'd go doing 190 on his bike down the road... not like this #we have literally like. cried together in the store over shit.#look its just really weird ok #delete later? maybe? who knows #this fucking year man

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ihearnocomplaints · 1 year ago

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cries bc i need to sleep but my brain refuses to let me. it’s!!!! 3:36am!!!! I need to be up in two hours!!!!!!! SLEEEEEEPPPP

#shutupsilas /lh #cries in insomniac #I’ve literally gotten 7hrs of sleep TOTAL in the past 48+hes #hrs*#sobs and cries #this sucks man #i got 4 hrs of sleep two nights ago #three hrs last night #and now? now its two hours #WAHTS NEXT?!1 *ONE* HOUR?1!??1?22? GASP!!!

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phantasieandmirare · 1 year ago

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235 hours later, I have 100%ed Tears of the Kingdom

#I beat it a month ago but it was so fun I just kept going #all quests all bosses all medals full battery 100% map completion #the only thing I have allowed myself to forgo is getting all the paraglider fabrics and all the Hudson signs #and beating all gloom spawn #cause I don’t have the energy to go through the map again looking for probably the 1-2 Hudson signs I’m missing #anyway I played the final mission one more time and cried and I’m emotional again and it was GREAT #legend of Zelda #tears of the kingdom #and I was gonna fight and beat all the gloom spawn but I did a couple tonight and the last one I did was a disaster #like a ‘teleport out with half health’ disaster #so my brain said ‘aaaaaaaaaaaaand you’re done’#’go fight Ganon again and then we’re out of here #also going into the final fight with the logic of ‘you’re literally finished you don’t need to save items anymore’#let me get to final-phase ganon in like three minutes tops #anyway I’m gonna play stray gods and book of hours now