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bleghhhhhh03 · 3 months ago

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fr it’s so humiliating (humiliating⁉️🤤) how fast testosterone and adhd meds turned me into the gooning loser from every early 2000’s teen movie

#IMMM JACKING OFFFFF #Like 4+ times a day now #It’s exhausting #humiliation kink #dumb puppy #mutt posting #trans nsft #transmasc #trans man #hrt #trans hrt #testosterone #neurodivergent #adhd #adhd problems #adhd meds #I’m hornyyyyyyyy #queer nsft #ftm nsft

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 21 days ago

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Look what we've become.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #Initially I wanted to do a 'Mutiny' quote to follow the 'Luck runs out' quote.#But the musical earworms demanded a different blood to be drawn. And I think it works just as well.#Alright. It's time to confess something. I really struggled with this comic. I didn't want to draw it. Then I didn't want to upload it.#Because I knew I would be here in the tags writing and backspacing for hours trying to articulate my thoughts.#I'm going to talk about death and grief in the tags today so this is your WARNING to look away if you aren't in a headspace for it.#Sometimes in media there are scenes and characters which land on topics so specific to your wounds that it reopens them all over again.#Because here's the truth. When you've known someone like this for nearly your whole life...it doesn't matter how bad the fight is.#You always think 'We'll always have time. One day this dust will settle and we'll rebuild the bridge.'#And then the fucker dies!!! He dies and suddenly there will never ever be time to repair the rift.#Someone you loved died thinking you hated them. And part of you did just a bit. But love and hate aren't mutually exclusive.#He's fucking dead and you are left with so many broken and unfinished pieces between the two of you.#Jiang Cheng loses Wei Wuxian thinking that WWX thought they hated each other.#He's a younger brother who will one day be older than the person he lost.#Who has no one else in the world who understands those feelings of love and hate and grief.#I can't be normal about this character. I don't think he even heals me. Zero catharsis to be gained here.#I just look at his sour grape ass and think 'shit that's a little too close to home.' JC is my discomfort character.#I'm probably going to regret being this vulnerable in the tags in like. An hour. So. sorry if you see this once and never again.#EDIT: Yeah sorry this took 4 hours to muster the courage to post. Surprise update!#EDIT 2: You guys were being too nice to me on my sad comic to point out the spelling error. I have fixed it now B'*)

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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 1 year ago

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anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...

#not a shitpost #serious post #ask to tag #tw trauma #cptsd #c-ptsd #and if so we should TALK about it #because it means there are a whole group of survivors out there whose mental health regularly worsens during holidays #like i know i am most certainly not the only person who feels an undefined Dread hanging over christmas/my birthday/july 4 etc #bc too many shitty things happened during those times and now my brain is hypervigilant bc traditionally these are the Danger Times #and this seems like it would be particularly common for survivors of abusive/dysfunctional households (aka most people with c-ptsd)#because holidays/vacations typically mean 1) the whole family is together/being forced to interact #2) and undergoing external stressors e.g. travel/relatives aka 'outsiders' visiting/routines & coping mechanisms being interrupted etc #3) there is social pressure for this to be a Fun Family Bonding Experience which only highlights the cracks in the foundation #and exposes the common Everything Is Fine/We Are A Happy Family lie #4) the cognitive dissonance of feeling tired/anxious/stressed/afraid during a time when you are 'supposed' to be Making Good Memories #and then everyone is angry/tired/anxious/triggered and things boil over and something or someone goes Very Wrong #weird that i'm posting this in october when halloween is...sort of the ONLY holiday i have only good and happy feelings towards #i got lucky there #also i have positive feelings towards Labor Day but that's for socialist reasons

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linoyes · 2 months ago

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puppyeared · 2 months ago

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act 4 :(

@chipper-smol and i came to a realization

#THID FUCKING GAAAAAAAMMMMEEEEE #i have more i wanna draw but my hands not working orz.. maybe ill get around to it later idk #i finally FINALLY managed to get inside that star room.. my own clone!! now neither of us will be virgins!!!!#i dont have anything to go off of but when the journal mentions making another 'me' it reminds me of loop saying theyre like a mirror #theyre always able to read siffrins mind without actually reading their mind (or so they say) but maybe it could just be tone matching???#or smth like that.. idk if these two things are connected though so maybe its more like subtext #i hope im not the only one who made the childrens hospital joke when it came around to color lore part 2 #im also getting the sinking feeling of watching siffrin toe his way near the deep end like bro is so so close to losing it #i feel like if i knew nothing abt the game beforehand and why siffrin is looping in the first place my feelings abt this would be different #cuz id be pretty angry too if ive been stuck in a loop long enough to feel like everyone around me is pretending nothings wrong #than the fact that i have decided not to disclose im in a time loop and that everyone is living this day for the first time #although i also get hes doing this for a reason and when u believe in the universe i guess it also comes with sunk cost fallacy #'this is the path the universe led me down before i even knew what i wanted so all i can do is double down' THATS THE FATALISM TALKING #puppy plays isat #in stars and time #isat #isat spoilers #isat act 3 spoilers #isat act 4 spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #sona #puppysona #friends #chipper #doodles

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buttercupshands · 3 months ago

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I started drawing this next day after I finished Act 6

13 or so days and it's finished!

Main things are traditional and Loop's body was edited digitally after

Unedited it looks like this

I've been torn on how to do Loop's body for the entirety of lining, also

A bit sad the main lines are visible only as a wip, most of this thing is literally just a ton of sharp lines

I think it's also my first day of drawing, Loop is just a sketch here (feat. my leg)

I even finished the beans before it so they were a moral support, because if you let me things like this take a year

#fanart #my art #isat #isat fanart #in stars and time #isat loop #loop #traditional art #artists on tumblr #Phew #So anyway this was my way of figuring out my thoughts after finishing the game #I didn't even actually finish it with credits playing at that moment #This type of art is my therapy #And in a way literally how my personality works from big figures to small details of thinking about anything #It's really calming!#I won't tag paper figures but they're here #Like special guests #In any case the funniest thing was showing this to my English teacher and she was like 'wow this looks stressed' or something #Like she immediately looked at the lines and after I showed her my old Flowey drawing like this she was like #'oh it makes sense! This one looks calm but this one is clearly you not feeling good'#Because I was kinda #Like sitting there in the semi-park and feeling sick since morning before I started drawing this and slowly I got better #I already talked about this on my first 'big' isat thing - I needed to think a bit #And not think at the same time just literally letting myself sort stuff out #Like. I fell asleep at 6 am that day and woke up at 10 4 hours of sleep after playing full Act 5 and two hats stuff IS STRESSFUL #SUPER STRESSFUL! Like I felt like I was playing for 4 hours while sleeping #Anyway by the time I finished it aka today I'm feeling way better and I'm literally talking a walk right now #Touching grass as we speak #Anyway phew!#Now to that animatic that's plaguing my mind to draw it nowww

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maigetheplatypus57 · 8 months ago

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Tommyinnit could announce "Sorry guys, on further reflection I think I'm just straight" tomorrow and I would support him (questioning is so valid and we respect ppl who even dabble in exploring their identity) but he could never take away the beautiful collective insanity of the last 13 hours through memes and jokes and shitposts and "OH MY GOD????" posts i love you guys and this fucking hilarious community so much <3

#maige's posts #tommyinnit #mcyt #ive gained a couple inniter followers within the last day #and now i have a whole wall of notifs full of people i can scout through to find more inniter blogs to follow and become mutuals with #i dont think i ever fully realized just how large and active this community still is until today. man.#anyways sappy time over its time to churn out like 4 annotated reading assignments due tomorrow </3

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peach-sea · 3 months ago

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Cringetober Day 1. Screenshot Redraw

inspired by this early eah scene where raven "lets her bad side out" playing guitar and my cousin and I go "apple's probably losing it" and then they cut to her and she's making this face ↓

#starting off cringetober strong with day 1 on day 4 lol #I'm gonna steamroll through 2 and 3 today (and I have 4 unposted from last year so that's convenient)#prompt months are a good excuse to a draw bunch of media But last week my cousin and I rewatched some eah (my first time since high school)#so it's in my brain right now anyway :)#ever after high #eah #raven queen #apple white #rapple #tagging rapple because I made this with rapple intent but technically this is literally just what happened LOL #I Still feel like I didn't push her expression quite a far as they did but you can look at the screenshot. she's sooo funny she's so #unsubtle #this also started out as a meme redraw can you guess the meme #huge shoutout to the heart card in the bg looking like a deliberate choice on my part to make this look romantic #september 2024 #(yes I did start this a little early)#cringetober 2024

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wyvernity · 9 months ago

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been thinking about the sinnohtrio lately......plus misc other stuff

also, casual ko-fi drop!! get something in this sketchy style starting at $10 woop woop

#finally decided to do a commission test run u_u #pokemon #trainer lyra #trainer kris #trainer dawn #trainer lucas #rival barry #rival silver #ayalumi #hisuian zorua #luxio #timeskip tag #rkgk #anyway it's sinnoh time !!!#still figuring out their designs and lore but this works for now #god's specialest little guys & their very normal bestfriend who they would kill/die for. up to interpretation who is killing/dying #dawn is the platinum protag who meets giratina and becomes champion #distortion world affected her way more than compared to cynthia and cyrus since she's still a developing kid. but hey cool ghost hair!#4-5 yrs later lucas gets blasted to hisui..lost his memory for the three years he's there and when arceus sends him back he's just like Man #the entire time barry is CHILLING PLAYING HAVING FUN #and forever worried abt his friends ): dawn & lucas are soo nonchalant about what happened to them it's a bit concerning to everyone else #design comments umm the only thing that matters is that they still have their og scarves 👍#and i guesss these are spring/summer outfits. winter dawn gets leggings and big coat ok. she already has too much yin energy #btw i use the cleanse tag as the direct opposition to the spell tag even tho that's probably not a real thing LOL)#oh yea barry wears the tower master ribbon 24/7. tower tycoon in training and won't shut up about it (i love him)#character dynamics i will talk abt that in another post if i feel like it... these days i just want to go replay pla aughh

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hajihiko · 10 months ago

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I had a dream the other night

#fuyuhiko kuzuryu #hajime hinata #sdr2 #super danganronpa 2 #an art #kuzuhina #I decided to indulge in sth like this because I had several nightmares last night (fine now)#How many times can I draw them sleeping together platonically? Yes.#But also a hint of the others to underline the whole survivors group #That song is really only relevant at that first verse ....but oh well. Hey does anyone know a song called 4 AM #The only lyrics I remember are 'its four o clock in the morning' it's been removed from yt. Anyway! Good day

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danandfuckingjonlmao · 1 year ago

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ok everybody block dnp on all socials they have eyes everywhere. they know way too much. those omniscient fuckers are always watching. no one is safe.

like what do you MEAN you know about those stupid “real voice” compilations and people absolutely clowning about jumpcuts and smudged whiskers and what do you MEAN you’re aware of those 2009 phan theories people still debate to this day? what happened to “i don’t check my indirects” “i don’t go on the tags”?? i bet you’re lurking RIGHT NOW reading this very post. all men do is lie. can’t trust anyone 😤😪

#/j #dnp #dan and phil #pinof #phan #gamingmas 2023 #yeet my deet #dan howell #daniel howell #amazingphil #phil lester #danisnotonfire #i didn’t participate in the phandom until they came out #i was an older phannie i started watching at age 16 #so i knew better #so this feels like i’m being punished for something i didn’t do #and having always been mortified and embarrassed by the shit yall would say back in the day #my only respite was “ok maybe dnp didn’t see this”#no they’ve seen EVERYTHING #you’re past is coming back to haunt you but your past is also coming back to haunt me lmao #to be clear i am part of the problem simply for consuming phan/phandom media at the time and therefore giving those videos views #but i was always terrified of the phandom #like i didn’t even consider myself part of the phandom for my first 4 years as a phannie #i was a closet demon phannie lol #i started participating after they came out and we were all actual adults about it and super respectful #i was like we’re all old and gay now i love this for us #yeet my deenp #bog

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 7 months ago

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Good morning, Sleepyhead.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #'WWX was asleep for 4 days' is an incorrect factoid.#The average WWX sleeps for 8 hours. The PD-MDZS WWX who was asleep for 40 comics and 4 months is an outlier.#We are back to present day! I have missed drawing them!#Ah...the contrast between how the flashback ended (cold and distrustful) to how wwx wakes up (warm and watched over)...#The gap between the past and present is very important. Not just in this story but in our lives too.#The past can still hurt and it doesn't just go away with time as some say. It is the power of realizing that things have changed.#We can't get the good back. The bad memories have concluded. Those live somewhere else now.#It is hard to realize that you have to live for today and tomorrow. The past is so loud.#For WWX it is realizing that despite the mistrust in the past - He really does have faith that LWJ will be there for him.#It is the reflection of knowing that you changed and will keep changing and that change is good and kind sometimes.#But more importantly...and this I really do mean with all my heart:#It will all end up okay in the end. Even after the worst day. The most painful losses. You will get through it.#What feels like a breaking point is truthfully just another step you have to take. You'll get through it even though it feels like the end.#There are wonderful things you have yet to see. Friends you have yet to meet.#Even if it hurts so badly...one day it just aches. Someday you'll go a few weeks not remembering that it ever hurt.#Oh and because my izutsumi comic revealed many people were in need of hearing this:#You are loved. Right now. You are so loved right now. We just forget to tell each other that.#Go tell the people you love that they matter to you. I'm assigning you homework!!! You are graded on completion.

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ricky-mortis · 6 months ago

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Hatchetfield @femslashfortnight Day 1: Make It Sapphic AU

#once again we are ignoring the fact that it is not technically still day 1 where I live #look i am only like 30 minutes off so it's fine.#it's still day 1 in 3/4 of the US so we're fine #anyways here's sapphic Holloween because we all deserve a little bit of that in our lives #Inspired by the incredibly talented Snarky-wallflower #if you are reading this you simply must go check her out #she's an amazing author and a rad person so there are no downsides in lookin her up #but yeah that's crazy i finished two drawings in one day whoa #like i said i've got events back to back to back to back right now #so i've got another drawing to work on for tomorrow #but i'm not doing every day for this one #i've got art fight to prepare for as well #and work stuff to work on #fun fact: the most abundant mineral in the earth's mantle is Olivine #which is this beautiful green color #and even though it is so common #i do not have it in my collection smh #gotta get me some of that #did you know that i love rocks and minerals #i think i will start doing more rock facts because i've got plenty of those #hatchetfield femslash fortnight #holloweane #holloduke #miss holloway #duke keane #butch!duke keane #hatchetfield #nightmare time #nightmare time 2 #kim whalen

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egophiliac · 1 month ago

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I'm trying to avoid getting spoiled so I haven't looked up what's happening in the Jp server's main story, but for my own sanity I need to ask; is the story at a point where we know whether Lilia will get better/survive his almost-empty magic reserves..? Was it a true death flag from the start or only a plot device for malleus' overblot....?

not yet! I do think they're going to get back to it eventually, but -- keeping it as low spoilers as possible -- there's been...let's just say a LOT going on in the meantime.

enjoy 7-6!!! :)

#twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 part 6 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 part 6 spoilers #i AM going to talk more about spoilers for a minute (i will try to keep it just up to 7-6 stuff though)#but i have. THEORIES.#my current hypothesis (based on absolutely nothing except vibes)#is that they're going to find the princess glow and use it to save lilia #via magic boost or...something. idk it was vaguely-defined enough they can handwave exactly how #because. look. they made a point of introducing this super powerful macguffin gemstone with magical dad-saving powers #and then never solidly established what happened to it #(twst? talk at length about something totally irrelevant that never comes up again? surely not)#but it would tie in very nicely with the rest of the parallels between silver and the knight of dawn #and i like how it would be sorta like...a little bit of meleanor coming back to save lilia #(again) (less violently this time)#my even-more-based-on-nothing theory is that crowley might have the princess glow and this might segue into whatever's going on with him #as always i could be completely wrong but i'm just. y'know. feeling it.#i'm still obsessing over that one line from episode 4 where azul was like 'oh yeah i totally know crowley's big secret'#which was most likely azul bullshitting but i'm still like IT'S GONNA COME BACK AAAAANY DAY NOW #(at this point no one will be more shocked than i) (the validation would be nice though)

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moeblob · 9 months ago

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So does he, Gallagher.

#honkai star rail #hsr blade #gallagher #i based this off of how many times i used funny soda man to help be a healer with his poppin soda pop in SU #and then blade constantly just being blade as usual #its normally him saying unnecessary to my actual healer but #i kept forgetting gallagher heals and i kept healing when i didnt even need to so TECHNICALLY yeah it was unnecessary #but the amount of times blade was the recipient......#i cant use like most of my newer units in story bc i cant ascend or i run out of leveling mats so i just #get them and toss them into simulated universe for funsies cause i can match their levels better #so thats where i tossed gallagher and he is genuinely fun to play as ? like i love his punches and kicks to start the battle #funny soda man is funny (to me) and im really behind in plot still #but last time i tried to play it on my laptop and got a kickass cutscene my laptop lagged and i couldnt even see it RIP to me #so now that its like ... me trying to play it on desktop ?#i mostly get on desktop for comms and if i do much else i feel like im slacking off even if i would take a break anyway #one day i can play more story plot stuff and actually meet the funny guys #also in case you know me for Not Having Boys in HSR i need to point out #i did pull Gallagher however same 10 pull got a 4 star girl copy for someone i never use and she is at e4 now cool #and i didnt even think of the irony as i started this i just like drawing blade and i wanted to draw gallagher #so when i already had the dialogue planned and am drawing i was like OH WAIT haha im funnier than i thought #(no i am not but we can pretend)

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delicioustarong · 3 months ago

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Throws this at you (⁠ﾉ⁠≧⁠∇⁠≦⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠ ⁠ﾐ⁠ ⁠┻⁠━⁠┻

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Bill trapped Ford in a bubble, screwing his view of reality. In order to trick Ford, Bill has repressed his memories and manipulated him into believing that he lives with Bill back in the shack where they're both working to complete the 'portal'. Bill's goal here is to get the equation he desperately needed in order to escape Gravity Falls.

An important thing to note is that whenever Ford remembers, the whole scenario resets.

#This is also another old art/video of mine #The Bill design I was using here is old #I recently redesign my Human Bill design so this version of Bill isn't cannon. (in my au lol)#This AU idea came to mind one day where Ford got trapped in a bubble (Like Mabel)#Time moves differently there so for Ford. he was with Bill for months before he slowly started remembering #I have two videos about this AU right now. It was originally supposed to have 4 parts but since I redesign my Bill #he doesn't fit into these videos anymore #I might continue the au through comics or doodles?#This video format is also inspired by Black Kat Draws (on yt and here on tumblr)#I got inspired doing something similar to their video.#gravity falls #book of bill #bill cipher #the book of bill #billford #endlesspaint

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