#LOL this is the shortened version.

[anendoandfriendo]

[Puts in a plug about systemic oppression, and about how it's similar to not all rectangles are squares, all exploitation is societal abuse but not not all societal abuse is exploitation.]

We maaay have gone on a little too far about our internal processing re: homocial CPTSD thoughts from specific people in our system, navigating that as an endogenic system and cluster of autistics.

The summary was: we were actually very seriously thinking about it, so its a miracle we didn't. Regardless of that fact, EVERY action a victim of abuse takes is an act of self-defense. Yes that includes the violent ones.

"Most abusers aren't intentional" well that wasn't the case for literally this entire town, and the 5D chess we are now able to play we can because it was already natural to us and our environment made it so it was REQUIRED we use that. More specifically it was required we use that capacity to wrestle ourselves into not doing things that would have landed us in prison and removed any chance of escaping:

- The stepcunt hung our dual-enrollment to high school and community college over our head and locked us out of the community college online account when we tried to run away (and then came back because [redacted] has ZERO resources for abused teens).

- We saw the paraprofessional like...ten? fifteen? (we don't remember) years later from second grade and she implied autism makes people broken. Everyone from that McDonald's is fine and they're probably the only people are okay because all five of them, being managers, effectively kicked out that person, her family, and any autism group she has ever ran from visiting that McDonald's ever again for making us cry lol. Get wrekt biiiiiitch and [redacted 'cause of a vile and very triggering phrase]. Or walk into a burning home. Yours preferably but whatever works.

- That so-called "teacher" who retired also told us we were overreacting when we showed him images of a fake-bloody cat toy head on our desk and the words "I will kill your cat" written in fake-blood and told him about the name of the bully who'd been doing this to us for years. When we saw his retirement in the news we told our family with no hesitation he doesn't deserve that, he deserves a bullet to the head. -_-

- [Inserts every time we have ever mentioned an SI room or HFS into this post, since actually doing that would make this post too fuckin' long]

Like, the problem here is LOL we could absolutely wreck people's shit if we truly wanted to. We do not for our own selves-benefit (mostly). But now on top of that, there's also maybe a few people we do care about now and it would be Bad if we did something Stupid and went to the No-No Building forever so there's that too we guess.

So, again, to summarize and make an overgeneralization: anything an abuse victim does is self-defense. Even the violent things, whether they be done in anger or cold blood. The folks who choose to NOT be violent despite their inclinations are like, 10000 times stronger than anyone who clutches their pearls over neurodivergent killer alters and shit ever will be, ever. :v

OP we apologize for adding this wall of text into your post, we thought this might be worth talking about (the "why" some of us don't express anger when it isn't about the abuser themself/itself...a more internal approach. Or if you're like us — how you do/did express anger but it could have been So Much Worse for everyone involved).

no but being told to use your communication coping skills when talking to abusive people is bullshit. abusers do not listen to their victims no matter how reasonable we are.

like. anything that shows we're an individual with thoughts and feelings is going to make an abuser double down. using "i feel" statements isn't going to help if your abuser lashes out at you for showing feelings. speaking calmly isn't going to help if your abuser is threatening you. gently stating what you need isn't going to help if your abuser neglects even your simplest needs.

also so many of us hide our anger and rage. we dont speak our mind, because it's dangerous. it's the most threatening thing to an abuser... but it's also the most empowering for us. anger is the feeling that tells us something is wrong, and we need to embrace it. because our anger is not the danger - our abuser's reaction to it is, and that reaction is not our fault.

[eggrolls-and-fandoms]

Gay people can never just be normal, it’s always gotta be some shit like, “For what it’s worth, I was telling the truth when I said I enjoyed working with you.” 🙄

[befuddled-calico-whump]

Riot Kings, page 141.1

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[a-wondering-thought]

Would you mind telling me about Lucy Dacus please? I don’t know much about them :))

yes!!! of course, i'd be happy to!! :D

so shes a singer, songwriter and guitarist and just super talented all round, her vocals are amazing, ahh shes in a band called boygenius which i rambled told you about remember, she has three great solo albums(my personal favourite probably being Home Video), her music videos are all so mesmerising (also if you catch me crying at the hot n heavy mv... no you didnt)(also technically a bg one but TRUE BLUE MV IS AGHHHHH!!!! i love it sm) and all the visuals of them are all so amazing and the songs are all such incredible storytelling and then she makes these mv's which just put even more depth and story into them and yeah its so incredible, shes also sapphic and yearns for women in a painfully relatable way, but also explores that in her music creating songs that just reflect sapphic experiences so well, shes also just yk the most beautiful woman ever

[faehrnem]

In a different timeline, where Faehrnem never comes to be as the Bold Tree follows in his older sister's footsteps by setting aside his own wants and dreams to instead begrudgingly take on his role as an avatar.

[atoriv-art]

I really like your nejisasuneji fanart!I think the similarity between Neji and Sasuke in Naruto is worth exploring. Both of them come from the pupil aristocracy, and their strength is about the same (the early Byakugan and Sharingan are both very strong), and both of them are rebels. Regardless of whether it was fate or the system, both people failed in the end. Neji still failed to escape fate and became a scapegoat. Sasuke finally compromised to the old system and ran around in order to maintain the status quo. It is very appropriate to use one sentence to evaluate the two people: "Those who try to control their destiny end up being controlled by destiny."It will be interesting for the sasuneji two to help each other: Sasuke helps Neji reform the Hyuga clan and break the curse seal of the caged bird. At the same time, the reform of the Hyuga clan becomes the beginning of the reform of the old system of the ninja world. Neji, who is no longer controlled by the caged bird, becomes Sasuke's right-hand man.

yesssss this is what drew me to them! i find it very interesting they are both clan prodigies with Baggage and both come from prestigious clans no less. remember when the sharingan and byakugan were compared to each other and it meant anything ever that was FUN.

i particularly enjoy the idea of contrasting them because If I Wrote Naruto (said every naruto fan ever) this conflict of like. sasuke goes on to be the one who could Not bear to stay in konoha and then later turns against it, vs neji who stayed in konoha after being promised that things would change (and they didn't. funny that) would be something to be explored! especially after Both having been seen as Shitty, Angry Prodigies. but neji "calmed down" after being made promises that weren't kept and sasuke didn't let himself even consider falling for stuff like that (until the ending of naruto lmfao)

i'm a big fan of characters who contrast like that lol and i think the whole sharingan vs byakugan thing is a very fun backdrop to that. like dreams/illusions vs reality/truth? come on now.

people joke about it a lot i've seen, but literally if neji as a character were allowed to 1. exist in a meaningful way at all in shippuden lmfao 2. interact with sasuke, i do think it'd be an easy path for interesting interactions, because like. having to defend the village who's literally never helped you, against the guy who was also Never given any assistance or support growing up, AFTER the village made you countless promises that your life would get better when it literally did not? lol. lmao even

them teaming up is sincerely on the like top 5 best things that would happen If Naruto Made Any Sense to me to be honest i do think about it a lot.

[stuffyflowers]

Wait I’m thinking about something that was brought up on the uty wiki discord a few days ago that I had never thought about. You know how zenith martlets “remind” act only gives you the line “A moment of remembrance is taken…”?

Well. Just like a few other dialogue bugs in the game (ceroba steamworks bugged dialogue ily lol), there’s supposed to be additional lines added to it each time it’s used, but for some reason I never knew about these ones?

The bloodshed ends here.

The mission is almost complete.

They will be avenged.

Idk. Thought I’d share it here too.

[gorgynei]

hi, I might've just realized something. sorry if you've gotten this ask before, but is your name Ace? (asking bc ive been looking at ur little bio thing and thinking "ah yes, ace like asexual," and now im. not sure LOL)

yes my name is ace LMAO youre the first person to openly say youre confused which probably means more people also assume it just means asexual and dont think about it. im on the asexual spectrum so its not the end of the world, i find it kind of funny

[puppyeared]

How'd Augusta end up being radioactive? :o

A second chance.

// suicidal themes below

Augusta originally worked as a part time astronaut at a Star Depot, which collected star Fragments and sent them back to earth to be used as fuel similar to nuclear power.

Augusta wasn’t really in a good place at the time while working there. She never had any kind of big ambition in life and wanted to live life peacefully, but knew that “getting by” isn’t enough for her to survive. People around her kept expecting so much of her that she didn’t know what to tell them.

Working as an astronaut helps take her mind off things at first, but then she starts to feel worse. She doesn’t get invited out to things, but she doesn’t really make any effort to try, and relatives are asking how she’s doing and she doesn’t know what to tell them without it turning into a lecture. and over time it piles up

First she starts asking for more shifts handling and shipping the stars. Then she asks to do overtime. And finally one day she finds a tiny Fragment on the floor.

The thing about Fragments is that they change your body and can make you very sick if youre near them for too long.

Tomorrow would be a holiday and the building would be closed. The Shift manager, who promised to close up, left early for drinks with coworkers. So she was the only employee working.

So she picks up the star and swallows it expecting to die. But instead her hair turns pink and the dust around her floats, and when she breathes no air comes out. The Star fused to her body and latched to her heart.

Basically, her suicide attempt gave her her own way to live and pink hair as a bonus lol

Here’s what her hair looked like before and after The Incident <3

[meownotgood]

aki may have a moanable name, but I also like to think if you're not close enough with him to call him Aki (maybe you work under him ok just make it work) and you're so used to calling him Hayakawa(sensei/pai) and doing the deed you can't even fully get his family name out of your mouth...

possible I'm the only one thinking this bahsksksk

no no... I'm thinking about it too because honestly there's something so hot and so personal on a whole different level when it comes to calling aki by his family name as opposed to his first.

you've grown accustomed to calling him hayakawa from your time working with him, and even once you become closer you feel too shy to call him by his first name. imagine you're about to do it but you just can't manage to get out the syllables of his last name, so he leans in close to your ear and quietly asks if you'll call him by his first from now on... aki begs for you to say his name again and again because he's waited so long to hear it and the way it sounds in your voice is just too perfect...... hrk

[alpinelogy]

okay lets play a game who do we think i need to email to add my preferred name to the register so i dont have to introduce myself as '[full name] but prefer to go by [preferred name]'

[big-boah-2]

My RDR2 horse names so far:

Derecho

Younger Dryas

Boys Night Out

Three Beers In

Thundersnow

Hail Core

Sunday Scaries

High Pressure

Back to School

Grim Peeper (My black horse w/ blue eyes)

Lake Effect

Origin Story

Cirrus

High Wind Warning

Dwayne T. Rock

T-Man

Of Course

R.F.D. (Rear Flank Downdraft)

Betting Man

Papa Coach

Over 9000!

Petunia

Ghost Strider

Happy Trails

Final Blow

Inside Job

Jimothy Bilton

Captain Dirk

Heat Lightning

Death Knell

He's Just Ken

You're Welcome

(Feel free to use these! If you do I want to see your horse 🐎 I have like 20 more in my mobile stable & photos if you're interested ���)

[bookishjules]

🌟🎄 Let the holiday fun begin!! 🎄🌟

Each of the presents above corresponds with one in my header that holds a holiday-themed drabble/ficlet for one of the ships you guys so graciously sent me during the first weekend of the month!* We'll be opening one every day from the 13th to the 24th, but which present we open will be up to you! It could include a ship you know and love or one you are entirely unfamiliar with.. so choose wisely ;)

*missed the run down of this silly little event? check out this post for further details!

[bisonaari]

I'm tired of getting this/tämä and that/tuo wrong on duolingo why do yall use different words for those concepts