#LITERALLY JUST BE KIND AND RESPECTFUL! IF YOU CANT EVEN DO THAT YOU DONT DESERVE TO LIVE AMONG PEOPLE
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okieee itis my bedtime now though... goo night everyone :]
#i finished spiritfarer today it was good ive played it b4 but i didnt remember much of it#i hated buck way less this time . i forgot abt him and then i was telling lamp how he was kind of annoying and they went You fucking hated#him so bad last time you played . you would not stop talking abt it#he was still Annoyinggg as hell especilly at the beginning i just have an aversion to fictional geeky characters they always annoy me so#fucking bad Especially dnd type geeks. sry. Much respect to my dnd heads and i dont hate it irl#but something abt fictional characters who r supposed to be geeky dnd fans theyre sooooo fucking annoying. and maybe its extra annoying bc#of my dnd complex <- guy who cant play dnd ever and is kind of sad about it . But whatever#BUT probably its more just that its annoying. and not even in the way irl dnd fans can be a little annoying. just you know ..#but i think its partilly that he got a bit less annoying once he talked abt dnd less and Also that i had so much fucking hatred for jackie m#that i didnt have energy to hate buck anymore iii fucking hated jackie so bad SORRY ! stella is a much better person than i am i would nottt#be that nice to him. like every step of the way pissed me off and was so shitty and i Getttt thats the point i get like. WHATEVER he just#made me so insanely angry and im gonna be real idc . abt him being burnt out. he literally isolated a patient in a tower and didnt care when#she was trapped up there bc she was annoying to him. like. sry. i dont really care abt how upper management is soooo annoying and i think#you should die. Which i guess is good for me bc of the premise of the game#AND IK THE POINTTT the point is that even tho he sucks and is annoying and sucks and i hate him he still deserves compassion. But he is not#real so i can come on here and say hes a bitch and idfw him at ALL!!! anyways idk if any of you even have played spiritfarer Its a good#game ! it can get a bitt grindy and drag at certain point but thats partially my fault for not rly doing things in a thoughtful order... but#its fun :] i only cried twice this time i think. avtually ait more than twice. but only over 2 characters i think ...#alice and stanley. and the first time inplayed the only thing i remember was BAWLINGGGGG over stanley . it rly. mannn#and alice just makes me sad bc obviously.#ANYWAYS bedtime sry 4 rambling ... play spiritfarer if itis your type of game Tw for like. its a game about dying so.
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The argument of "well people are offended by ANYTHING these days, so thats their fault not mine and i dont have to change my behavior just cause im 'offending them' haha got'cha!" doesnt make any fucking sense to me either bc like. I remember when i was like 13/14, when i had just gotten a tumblr, i used to call girls "chicks" without giving it any thought. it was just a word i was raised hearing. I wasn't doing it in a hateful manner and my goal wasnt to be offensive, but still, someone was uncomfortable with me using that term used to refer to women. I received a simple anon that said "hey do you mind to not use the word "chicks" (when referring to women), it makes me uncomfortable". And you know what? I told the anon no worries and that i'd not say that word from there on out.
It didn't hurt me to find another word, the word wasnt special to me in any way, i didnt take offense to it, because i was unaware that i was causing harm, so its not like it was an attack on my character, and i knew the anon was coming to me for a minuscule, easy to grant request. The word held no real meaning to me, but to someone else, it did, and because i dont want to hurt people on purpose or to have people feel like im not a safe space, i adjusted my behavior AND my vocabulary accordingly. it was no skin off my back, and i was happy to do it because i was able to help someone else feel safe around me/my blog. No, i dont HAVE to cater to peoples requests, and i dont HAVE to change my vocabulary just because someone else has an issue with what i say, but why would i not? it doesnt inconveinece me, it doesnt harm me, its not much extra effort to spend .2 seconds thinking of a different word to use, and that teeny tiny grain-of-sand sized request meant something to the anon who asked it, so why would i argue or fight or piss and moan about a single little word? why is that so hard? why is common courtesy, mutual respect and kindness such a chore to these people? why do you so desperately want to defend your right to be mean and harsh and callous toward people? what do you gain? arent you tired?
#i think thats the last i want to say on this#and no one is perfect not even me but i will just say#after that anon i stopped using the word chicks completely (in reference to women). i cannot even vaguely recall the last time i said it#why why why why whyyyyy is it so fucking hard for yall to JUST BE NICE!!!! NICE AND RESPECTFUL!!!! isnt that all God/Jesus asks of you????#even if i dont believe in the bible anymore i do remember jesus' bottom line: BE FUCKING KIND & HELP A HOMIE OUT SOMETIMES#but these annoying selfish fucking right wingers and bigots cant ever follow their god's most basic and easiest fucking rule#LITERALLY JUST BE KIND AND RESPECTFUL! IF YOU CANT EVEN DO THAT YOU DONT DESERVE TO LIVE AMONG PEOPLE#jfc i need a lobotomy bc i feel like im going ucking crazy sometimes#any arguments yall want to try to have with me about this will get deleted period i know i dont have much reach but this is the#''piss on the poor/reading comprehension'' website afterall so who fucking knows this could potentially have 5k notes by tomorrow#or 0 notes at the end of the week. dont care. not gonna entertain bigoted arguments. just be a fucking decent respectful person#vent tag#emma rambles#see prev post for context btw
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🦇 ATHENA'S INTRODUCTION POST
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ill put stuff at more length but to some it up basically i love mcr more than anything i like to draw i LOVE listening to and making music, im teaching myself guitar rn and its hard even though ive been playing piano since i was 8 😞. and i use she/her, im queer im greek orthodox christian and i support all religions <3 btw i would never try to convert someone to my religion or push it on anyone else in any way bc thats weird and i also dont talk about it that much incase religion is the kind of thing that makes u uncomfortable, its not like something i bring up!! + FREE PALESTINE!! 🇵🇸🇵🇸 but yeah tehrese mroe under the cut 😋
→ MY INTERESTS: music: my chemical romance (my fave!! (obviously)), pierce the veil (my second fave!!), ls dunes, amy winehouse, black veil brides, ayesha erotica, evanescence, bring me the horizon, chappell roan, escape the fate, taking back sunday, gerard way, p!atd, three days grace, pencey prep, misfits, sleeping with sirens, the cure, fall out boy, more but i cant remember
youtubers i watch: chad chad, stephanie lange, salem tovar, danny gonzalez, film cooper, drew gooden, not even emily, sarah chio, ally purugganan, jarvis johnson, erika diane shes my comfort ytber😭, kurtis conner, annemarie forcino
books i love: !!literally anything by leigh bardugo shes my fave!!, the hunger games series including the ballad of songbirds and snakes, the house in the cerulean sea, the red queen series, the book thief, loveless, a tree grows in brooklyn, hell followed with us, the scythe series, darius the great is not okay, a wrinkle in time, i am the cheese, hole, the bell jar, that was then this is now, station eleven. always open to recs! <3
hobbies: watching arcane, writing, drawing, doing my makeup, thrifting, reading (especially fantasy), going on walks, baking, singing, collecting perfumes, listening to music, analyzing poetry and lyrics, teaching myself guitar, painting my nails, debating about pretty much anything as long as it stays respectful, journaling, sewing and altering clothes, making collages, swimming, playing the piano, watching long video essays on youtube (especially ones about anything related to music), talking to my friends irl or online, talking about music but especially mcr!! Fanfiction Masterlist (i dont really write that much)
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#emo#emo girl#mcr#my chemical romance#ptv#pierce the veil#music#looking for moots#especially fellow emos#sleeping with sirens#amy winehouse#fashion#Spotify#gerard way#frank iero#vic fuentes#ophelia#leigh bardugo#the hunger games#moots#mutuals#looking for mutuals#tumblr moots#fanfic#pro palestine#drawing
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waiting for aces bday
i love love love love ace likeeee yall js dont fw ace like i do BRUHHHHHHH
anyways!! random essay about MY man bcus i love him and its 2:30 am and im on my period ..
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i love you portgas d. ace. i’ve found comfort in you during the hardest moments of my life. you’ve always been there for me. i love everything about you. i cherish everything about you. your questionable choices, your admirable ambition about achieving your goals, your smile, your freckles, your dimples, your hat, the smileys on your hat as well as the red beads, your two belts, your compass watch, your bracelet that looks like a candy cane, that little blue latch on bag around your knee, the thing on ur elbow (what is that) your tattoos your silly little black boots that i wish were at my doorstep already ughhhh literally everythinggg ur so perfect
he’s just so important to me! like i actually cry over him everyday! like right now! im sitting on my bed listening to “boy is mine” by brandy & monica whisper-shouting the lyrics while pointing to my ace shrine! and wishing he was here to comfort me while these cramps make me want to jump!
i want his hands in mine, i want to do that cute thing where we compare hand sizes and have banter like “your hand is so big ace” and he’d be like “nah, yours are just small” ARGHHHH MY HEARTTT I CANT and they’d be all freckled and calloused but still warm bcus hes fireeeeeeeeeeee
why am i lowk spasming ugh I LOVE ACE i love all his outfits too !
and dont even get me started on him as a character like he deserved the best out of the world and js. WHEN I CATCH U ODA. i will defend ace with my life if anyone tries to play w me about him.
like wym he was born to die? no? hes safe at home with me and our 312 babies and one cat? marineford was filler. blackbeard is in hell. so is akainu.
its just. the way words literally can not describe how i feel towards this man like he is the most perfect, finest, handsomest, hottest, charming, fiery, hot-headed, polite, respectful, softie, caring, protective man ever i do not care if its greasy ace, wano ace, older ace, manga ace, treasure cruise ace, horribly 3d animated ace, or boichi ace i see any kind of ace and i’m on my knees begging with my mouth wide open or bent over and legs spread like please baby i can take all of it rough or gentle however you want it i will comply but at the same time i’m so genuinely in love with him like ace altered my brain chemistry because i physically can not find any other man fine.. because they can’t be !! ace IS perfect !! he’s so respectful and fine!! and like bro? his voice is so pretty? he is so slay? like he took out five marine ships with one fire fist? his va also just casually cooks food for the rest of the cast? is there something ace can’t do fr like.. AND OMG I COULD YAP ABOUT HIS PRETTY, SINCERE SMILE ALLL DAYYYY ITS SOOO CUTEE LIKE PLEASEE I BOUGHT THE RING TOO JUST PROPOSE BAE IF U DONT I WILL its so sweet and pretty he’s smiling at me all day i’m smiling back and crying WAHHHHHHHW9HUEHGAEIRHGIUGIDFIGHDIFHIDFHBIRJEGODIBGDKGJD LISTENING TO HIS SONG ON LOOP LIKE BAE?? U SAVED MY HEART?? i just want to cuddle him and hug him and hold him and kiss him and make him feel better about himself bc garp is a bitch?? so is akainu?? everyone’s a bitch except luffy, whitebeard, and sabo pretty much HE DOES NOT DESERVE TO BE HATED ON JUST FOR LIVING LIKE ROGER YO BITCH ASS DID NOT HAVE TO NEGLECT YO CHILD AND PUT THE BURDEN OF BEING YO SON ON HIM SINCE THE MOMENT HE WAS BORN??
i will tell him he’s pretty and that he deserves to be alive and that he’s worth it and whoever shits on him is a piece of shit who don’t know what the fuck they’re talking about !! i want to be there for him and take him on dates and make him happy !! ill become a housewife bae i already got the apron on !! ill cook yo fave food, bathe u, bathe with you, do all of ur hobbies with u, sleep with u like anytime u fall asleep on me or anywhere? bae i have a blanket prepared ill tuck u in make sure u have a good sleep kiss u goodnight every night and tell u how much i love u even if its annoying ace u are my everything idk what to do bc i will not accept anyone else into my life atp.. ace ur my man my only man
i luv u portgas d ace
goodnight every1
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If no one asked yet, why is it hard to enjoy Relat//ivi//ty F//alls content? Is it just the premise?
I am genuinely curious so if you want to rant feel free to do so!
Okay anon so im gonna say there are 2 main reasons why i find it so hard to enjoy r*lativity f*lls fan work even tho i LOVE the premise of the au. one of them is incredibly petty and the other i think is more reasonable
reason 1 and the really really petty one... i really, really do not fucking like how popular fiddleford is as a character IN GENERAL
which isnt to say he doesnt deserve it, god knows out of the important side characters (him, gideon, pacifica and robbie) he's by far the best written of the bunch and has so many funny as hell gags. and i do absolutely really like his character!! hes really interesting and funny and his backstory is tragic and fuck i love his character!!
i absolutely despise the fandom obsession with him LMFAO i hate "m*stery trio" ideas so god damn much (ik this exists with the younger twins + pacifica too but this isnt about that and i give this more leeway because mabel and dipper arent highly codependent like the stan twins are) because there ISNT a m*stery trio. theres a reason why soos says "so youre like mystery twins." why dipper said "mystery twins?" mabel: "i thought you hated that" dipper: "its growing on me". why the cryptogram at the end of Not What He Seems emphasizes that stan and ford are the ORIGINAL mystery twins.
i cannot stress enough how much it annoys me when people try to shove another person into stan and ford's dynamic (anyone who isnt bill who serves as an antagonistic force), as both someone who loves both the platonic and the incestious interpretations of their relationships— and 99% of the time its going to be fiddleford. when i talk about soostanwich or rickstanwich i mostly keep it in the bounds of it being a sex thing or an ot3 where theres a very clear divide between the twins and their 3rd, some kind of awareness that dissappears wheni look at anything involving fiddleford instead
and this extends to SO many aus. believe it or not r*lativity f*lls fiddleford is probably the least offensive for me, hes mostly just a friend of the twins, and is essentially like wendy and pacifica combined in one (ford has a crush on him, anyone who actually respects stan as a character will at least portray him as being kind of antagonistic towards him like that one art i reblogged). r*lativity f*lls is on the better end of their use of him. you do NOT want me ranting about other ford centered aus ive seen where i see fiddleford utilized WAY more than STAN is— stan who is fords brother!!! and the person ford loves the most!!! the character who ford was literally created for!!
like im sorry i feel bad for being so petty because its completely harmless and its not like people are wrong for liking his character and wanting him involved especially since most ship him w either ford or stan, but sometimes i just feel like theres a certain kind of irony in how in a show that emphasizes that theres no one stan and ford need other than each other, theres just this guy being crammed in. and ive mentioned sm times before i love f*ddauth*r and cant stand the popular interpretation of f*ddlest*n but thats kinda irrelevant to my feelings on this imo
im literally just being bitter for no reason but hey anon you gave me the go ahead to rant so i might as well— plus it leads me to my 2nd and way more reasonable point:
i dont think people really know what to do these characters when it comes to this au 😭
and i have to clarify: thats fine!! this is mostly for fun, and if people just want to draw older D and M and younger stans, then you know! go hog wild. that being said, i feel like theres just SO MUCH missed potential in this au and i feel like the most common interpretations can be fun, they only really utilize just very few characters. and swap aus are supposed to be entirely designed around the swapped around cast (one of the best swap aus imo is undersw*p, an undertle swap au that flips around its main cast perfectly). RF, since its more of a community au, has sm different versions that also unfortunately feel kinda the samey?
like i mentioned earlier, outside of the pines twins, the most common swap youre gonna see is of pacifica and fiddleford. and i actually kinda like that— put fiddleford as someone who is in close proximity to the twins then literally who else than the girl dipper and mabel are both frequently shipped with, make tate be a bad dad to him. and pacifica, despite being a beach blonde valley girl stereotype, isnt ever implied to be stupid and is said by dipper (lost legends) that shes smart. if you wanna push the idea that a rich girl like her can be super smart, be an inventor, i say go for it. shes got the genes of an inventor in her anyway (TBOB) and like, yeah i like that.
and the other most common swap is... absolutely none. that is literally it💀 does anyone know where soos is?? wendy??? gideon?? like should i even ask where robbie is, because all ik is he got NOTHING here (and mind you i dont even care about him THAT much, i include him because hes in the zodiac which is my base for the cast). you can tell me to look hard for them, but thats emblematic of one of the reasons its hard to enjoy the most common interpretations of the au then imo
i feel bad for saying this but i think the main reason why sm RF fails is because its not about swapping characters who you see fit to swap, its about filling certain roles in the plot and in fandom cultute. you see sm of the F and P swap not because anyone actually thinks this is an interesting way of putting them in each others positions, but because fiddleford and pacifica are the most commonly shipped with the stan twins and d/m twins respectively. and hey im a sucker for d*pcif*ca as f*ddauth*r, being cute nerds together fucking slaps and i love them, but i think people just resort to these cus its EASY. and i feel like it sucks that soos, someone who is SO important to the Pines family gets kinda erased in the narrative from what ive seen. wendy, well she was already done dirty in canon so i cant blame the fandom for not gaf about her, but yeah you hardly see her too. gideon was the MAIN ANTAGONIST of s1 man, youd think he would have some kind of noteworthy role in a swap AU where he gets to be an adult. but ig its kind of the price of him not being a blurbo like fiddleford and pacifica. mind you i love pacifica to pieces and im happy she gets sm love but yeah its kinda odd i think
i think the best RF pacificas ive seen is her being swapped w lazy susan actually, considering her actual conclusion is her working in the greasy diner after all (plus dipper being a deadbeat dbdudhdu). GIGANTIC fan of that, because its not about her having to be involved in portal work the way fiddleford was but still clearly involved in some kind of personal drama w the twins.
anyway at the end it doesnt actually matter that i feel this way. most people who are doing these aus are doing it for themselves and their own satisfaction and thats great. im not satisfied because im not them and im not th e target audience, the people who make the art/fic are their own audience and i respect it. i just personally cant enjoy it much, hence why its hard to enjoy popular interpretations of the au for me. i think im just HELLA picky when it comes to this (and sm aus... god knows r*verse p*rtal aus also kinda peeve me off on how ford is characterized), and maybe one day ill just draw/write my own RF version thats all catered exactly for me <3
also if anyone is asking who soos should be swapped with jts obviously fiddleford. like mcgucket is an inventor and soos is the handyman, i think this is actually incredibly obvious shbsusbshs
#vent#ask#rant#i think those are the same thing#not tagging the au#so if anon if you see this send another ask if you think im overreacting here or not lmao
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Do you have any advice for feeling so shitty in yourself pls 🥺 like my skin is so bad at the moment, I’m so so unhappy with my weight gain. I don’t know where to start in fixing it or how to even get the energy to, feeling like this should be enough, but it isn’t. Idek how to explain.
But I’m so unhappy, I feel so ugly and disgusting.
i wish i could climb in your skin and place my own philosophy in it. <3 — this is the thing, lets say you're ugly, your spotty, and your fat, and that that will never change. does that mean you dont deserve love? or to feel good in your favourite outfit? that you dont deserve kindness? or consideration? that you shouldnt be seen as valuable, sexy, worth love, worth affection? does it mean that you should hide and stop showing up in the world in the way you want to?
i can think of a million reasons why that isnt the case. the problem is, any advice i give you in solution to the problems youve stated can only be superficial because the issues your speaking on are on the surface. i could tell you how i get my self together when i feel how your describing, or how i got rid of my acne, how i lost weight etc, but the real issue is beyond the surface. its about how you feel about you
who are you? what is your character? how do you show up in the world? where do you bring value? what are your biggest virtues? how do you combat your biggest vices? do you treat yourself with compassion? do you extend that compassion to others? what does your humanity look like?!? what does your love feel like?— these are the things that make someone beautiful. — and in terms of what is attractive and sexy, its so much deeper than appearances. sure appearance is important, especially in society. i wont ignore that, but society advocates for a whole lot of crazy shit. there are trends, and then there is what is timeless. the essence of what you are is timeless, holding it to the standard of a fleeting trend is short sighted. you have to value yourself for what you are, not what you look like or what what you look like means for how others treat you. only once you have some self respect will your external begin to match, because people who love themselves act lovingly toward themselves. its a ripple effect.
in terms of looks and feeling yourself, which is very important, you have to question, if someone is willing to count all of who and what you are out because of what you look like, is that someone you want? anyone of us could have an accident that changes our appearance forever. what then? what you feel about yourself and how you carry yourself as a consequence, is what makes you alluring. when someone is into YOU (not your shell) and (tmi but..) turns you on, or makes you moan, or sees you happy (!!) that is infinitely more attractive to them than you having the perfect body or appearance. because even the most perfect person is not perfect (& they know it, they just have you convinced that theyre as good looking as they feel or portray themselves to be). literally its all about youuuu. if you cant see that, you will always try to cover you up, so no one else will see it. nor will anyone make you able to see it. you need to step up and treat yourself with some humanity. you are a whole being, created uniquely and entirely complete. completion is perfection.
if u want my skincare routine, or how i lost weight, or literally whatever information im happy to share it. but 100000s of other people already have their routines out there for u to follow. i mean it with the utmost love and respect when i say, u need to start looking at yourself as a living, breathing being with so much to offer and so much potential for growth beyond what you already have to give. have some self compassion. you are beautiful and worth your own love, let alone other peoples. acknowledge yourself before time shows you how blind youre being. 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙
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idek how much i’ve talked about this entire situation on here but i need to get this off my chest and maybe even get some advice…? ty if you end up reading this i really genuinely appreciate it
tldr im estranged from my adoptive mother because she doesnt respect me at all/never considers me part of the family and is extremely on and off with her affections depending on how successful or impressive i am to her (in the sense that when it comes to things like getting good grades or going into remission or getting into college shes “happy” for me because she thinks my success is a reflection of her own ability to parent me and “turn me into a winner” while completely turning on me when im doing poorly or need help and calling me a manipulative demon etc lol)
shes financially abusing me and my dad right now and has been for about 3 years because she hasnt worked a day in her life and my dad for a few years was having success at his job so when she divorced him she took all of our money from us and said she needed more for reasons that were not real (like she asked for 50k to pay for my college and then refused to actually do it so we had to take out a loan etc) its to the point where she makes more money than my dad does working basically 24/7 on call just because we have to pay her so much every month, it was really painful and stressful trying to put me into school because we actually don’t have a place to live rn and cant afford to get one because of her strange actions
about five months ago my dad literally begged her to let me stay with her for all of july because he wanted to make sure i had a place to sleep and he was traveling on business for all of that month, and after a lot of convincing (literally until like the day before i was supposed to go) she said yes and then started ignoring me and refusing to feed me after like four days because i asked her for help with the financial aid stuff.. so we had to reorganize all our plans and stuff like are you noticing a pattern where everything she does is entirely self serving and always ends up inconveniencing us majorly to the point where our livelihoods are at stake. anyway she did that like just over a month ago (july 5 was when my dad was like this is isnane im just going to pick you up and we’ll figure something out) and locked herself in her room like a baby and texted my dad all these things about how i was evil (verbatim) and a mistake and deserved to die from cancer and shit like that BECAUSE I ASKED HER FOR HELP WITH STUFF AHE SAID SHE’D HELP WITH… and now (like as of a few days ago) shes doing this thing where shes texting me cat memes and sending my little brother (who lives with her and who i really care about) to tell me to call her because she wants to hear from me etc and i genuinely am kind of at a point where i don’t ever want to talk to her again under any circumstances because of everythign she’s done to hurt me and my dad (including like 98% that i didn’t even mention here) but i feel semi obligated to because im lonely and shes kind of really good at making me feel guilty… my dad said dont even worry about it because im supposed to be locking in this semester and focusing on my own success and he thinks shes going to drag me down like she always does but idk what to do in this situation
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(STOP SUPPORTING AND IGNORING DISCRIMINATION OVER A CARTOON! Liking Helluva Boss does not make your superior to other human beings! Liking Vivziepop or her content does not give you the excuse to treat others like shit under the guise of being "superior for (toxic) "positivity!" Helluva Boss and Hazbin is not the most important thing in the world just because it gives you 2005-level fetishized bigotry content that most creators now refuse to make! Toxic positivity exists, and the standom using it to try to force people to like Helluva Boss and Vivziepop and using fear tactics to do so is true harasser behavior! and soon- no other fandom will want to be around said harassers as in you for your behavior, worshipping Vivziepop does not give you the equivalent of a god while everyone else are somehow "stupid anti haters that dont deserve a say, better representation, or human respect! -wanting better for minorities makes you entitled and greedy! Just ignore the bigotry and keep the representation the same so us creeps will get benefits while you basically get nothing!" like you people have been saying for the past 6+ years yet in the end- will get nothing for except being seen as a goddamn joke! -your reputations aren't going to make it past 2025, -and you can't force people to like something or someone, and the Helluva Boss fandom is now dying because of your own actions!)
"You're the exact kind of person this post is targetting."
What? People with disabilities? People who cant even move their fucking legs or have trouble in school? People with something they were born with that's outside of their control and most of which, have 100% more emotional intellegence than you have. Also, you even admitted that it was a slur and expect people outside of other creeps that are so desperate for rape porn to be normalized that you excuse bigotry as right in front of you. When that's the thing, if Helluva Boss was "so progressive!" why would it keep appealing to literal bigots and homophobes on 4chan that unironically call people a "F^^GOT!" and use every slur in the book, including anti-black ones- wow, could it be that the "progressivism!" is faaaaake?
That the slapping on "progressive!" labels and our flags is only a cover up so less minorities would defend themselves against people like you? People that jack off to abuse, and then convientally forget that representation exists and go "LOL ITS FICTIONAL YOU'RE SAYING THAT WE EXCUSE A REAL LIFE THING IF YOU DONT LIKE SEEING YOUR REPRESENTATION SHIT ON!" entirely forgetting the fact that no one said they are "excusing abuse" but tha they are fetishizing it. Something that could hurt people in the BDSM community in real life that arent yet aware of how safe words work or physical restraint work- this shit could hurt real people yet all you're focused on is shitting on minorities to defend your rape porn instead of normalizing healthy BDSM and safe words! CREEP!
You dont actually care about the lgbt+ and poc community, you are just using us and our desperation to get people to support bigoted content!
You are the exact kind of crowd that's causing Desantis, a literl transphobe, to be in office while he's trying to cause a fucking genocide towards the lgbt+ community! Stereotypes are not a joke, they're a weapon used against minorities to ruin our reputations so they can kill us off silently and barely anyone will care and are only called a "JOKE!" so more people will fall for it and unwillingly cause their own goddamn deaths!
Your normalization of stereotypes is literally KILLING US! FUCK YOU!
So really, are you on a substance? Is that why your brain isn't fucking working right now and suddenly all your morality is gone out the goddamn door?! Or are you that much of a spoiled brat that you're willing to harass minorities for five whole fucking years and waste your life when you could have been using it to help yourself and others instead of your own selfish bullshit! -and soon, once Vivziepop gets called out after Hazbin is released, oh boy, because one of the first groups of people that will be called out, lose their followers, and be left alone with their pettiness is the entire Helluva Boss standom, including you! -and the only people that will like you are other bigots, that will also soon leave you because the show you're supporting also includes things that they hate, while you will be left alone, in your own sadness, and no one will come for you because that's exactly what will happen once people see how much of a piece of shit you've been to minorities for 5+ years!
Your efforts will be in vain! You're the one that's going to end up suffering once Hazbin Hotel comes out, not minorities, but people like you that will become the laughing stock of the internet the same way the Rick and Morty and SU fandom became the same! So how about you grow the fuck up before your repuation is destoryed by your own goddamn actions! -same for the rest of this pedo supporting (YOU CREEPS SUPPORTED STOVIA! OCTAVIA IS A MINOR AND STOVIA IS STILL CP THAT'S BEEN KNOWN TO HURT REAL KIDS BY GETTING THEM GROOMED!) rape fetishizing, homophobic, racist hell hole!
You want to discriminate people with disabilities over a cartoon?
Well shit, you're the exact kind of person this post is talking about.
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You're the exact piece of shit that goes "OOOOOOOOOOOH representation is so important guys!" but the moment it's trauma victims or the disabled the story turns into "LOL WHAT A RE^^^^^ haha rape and kids are so hot and is TOTALLY a fetish so imma call it "non-con" so people who arent traumatized will treat them that way and fuck those smelly victims and they're stupppppid representation! HAHAHA SLURS FUNNI!" Like- you're like 12 years old or something, why are you interacting with an adult fandom if you cant even interact more than on the level of a child? Why would an adult act like a whiny brat and want everyone to disregard their needs so they can jack off to racial stereotypes and rape scenes that are framed as a "fetish!" Why would any adult that claims to be able to handle "adult themes" not act like an adult at all?
Oh wait, that's right, Helluva Boss is secretly catered to bigots and hides bigotry to cater to people like you while trying to bank off minorities that are oblivious to your bullshit due to lack of experince as a "have your cake and eat it too!" Wow, it's almost like the creators doing that by going "BY THE WAY- representation doesn't actually matter, be a creep as much as you want and anyone that tells you to stop being queerphobic, racist, and pe^dophillic are meanies!!!!1" makes them- hypocrites or something! It's almost like saying this shit means that you dont fully care about queer or poc rights at all and only say that you do so for clout! When trying to use bullying as an attempt to force people to like HB or the fandom, is just making even more people dislike the show and the fans, which is sad, because not all of us are like you, and just want to talk about a goddamn cartoon demon show in peace yet you creeps over at Spindlehorse (the lead artists) and the fandom are trying to use force and public shaming/emotional "I accept criticism just not- criticism!" manipulation/bullying to try to force people to like everything about Hazbin and ruining the Hazbin experince for the rest of us!
-and since you, like any other ableist, are ok with treating us like shit over a slur that has an entire history of being used against the disabled by trying to make us look "stupid" as an excuse to physically abuse and discriminate us under the guise of having the "right" to do so because you're so "intellectually superior!" despite having the logic and emotional maturity of a walnut:
Never go near anyone with disabilities ever again! Never speak to any of us until you can learn basic goddamn respect! You creeps really are ok with risking your entire online reputation if it means going back to 2005 huh? That's just fucking sad. You arent going to be accepted for this garbage anymore. Stereotypes and Slurs have no place in minority spaces! NONE! I dont care if you like a cartoon or not- Being supposedly positivite (hateful!) about a cartoon gives you no right to treat minorites like shit!
News flash! Liking Vivziepop or what she makes does- NOT make you superior to other human beings!
Everyone has a say! This isn't a fucking cult!
No one is less valuable or less human for not liking almost everything about a cartoon! That's some- toxic positivity shit!
This goes for what Ignis and Vivziepop have said- actions speak louder than words- and if you cant accept criticism or be an adult yourself -barely anyone is going to like you! Especially when we get another cultural shift like we did in the 1950s but for the queer and disabled community! GROW UP! Helluva Boss is NOT going to last. -and using bullying and borderline abuse to try to force people to like Vivziepop or her shows- will just make less people want to be around you OR HB! Because the standom is THAT BAD that people are turning away from the fandom entirely and HB has been losing millions of viewers since EPISODE ONE! So really.You creeps never had the advantage. -and you definitely won't once more outside fandoms see how awful you truly are. You will get nothing from this in the end except being seen as an absulote joke! Goodbye!
#helluva boss#helluva boss critical#helluva boss criticism#helluva boss fandom#tw ableist language is included in this post!
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🌻 its cruel of anyone to push someone away from their own culture just cuz they dont fit the "standards" or whatever other shit 💔 ohhh u dont know the language— stfu first of all learning a language is hard. im bilingual and its hard for ME to learn any other language. i had german and spanish in school and i simply could not learn any of them and same goes for any other language i tried to learn on my own!! i learned nothing in the end even tho ive been learning english since first primary, meaning i already should have some experience in learning a new language. but i dont. and second of all no one should ever demand proof from anyone that they are a part of this culture or whatever like!!
it’s not only annoying but also fucked up that people have the sheer audacity to set stupid requirements for OTHER PEOPLE'S identity. one's identity can be so hard and sensitive of a topic and having someone try to police u in this matter, try to tell u that no sorry u dont know the language/culture so u cant call urself that— i genuinely have no respect for people who act like this
and third of all idk man if someone came to me and said "hi i want to learn more about poland and the culture because i have polish family" (because suurprise!! im polish too!!!!) id be more than happy to tell them everything i know. even if i might not be the best knowledge source AHAJSJDKDK they dont know polish? or anything abt poland?? they just learned their family is polish??? it simply doesnt matter this person wants to learn more about themselves and im more than happy to cheer on them and hope that theyll learn everything they want. and that theyll never feel excluded out of something they deserve to have place in
this got a little long but as u can tell i got very passionate about this topic 😭😭😭 it annoys me so hard how unhuman some people can be
SOO TRUE it's so invalidating ESPECIALLYYYYY when it's always other latino or hispanic people telling me. bro please. i am doing my best here 🙏🙏
i tried for years to learn spanish and it NEVER clicked in my brain. i know basic spanish and basic french (i had to take a foreign language class a few years back so i took french 1) that's it. Please. learning a language takes so much practice and patience and the issue with learning spanish is that my pronounciation will inherently be more "white" because erm. yeahh. english is the only language i've ever spoken fluently. and for some reason, there are many native spanish speakers think it's funny to make fun of mispronounciations? so now i'm scared to practice because of that. 🫶 it's not cute or funny and it's never been in intended an affectionate way. but i am also mentally ill and neurodivergent so that probably doesn't help AJKSFBJSLSHNFM idk man but it is NOT "all in good fun" it's EMBARRASSING!!!!!
IT'S GENUINELY SO FRUSTRATING why should i have to prove my ancestry to you? like. first of all that's really none of your business and second of all i literally do not have to prove anything?!?!?!?! no-one does?!?!?!?! no-one is somehow any less of their heritage simply because they don't know much about it. literally. it is so upsetting why can we not just let people live peacefully fr.
SOOO REALL i need to ask about it again because my maternal family is generally very open about this kind of thing, and it's easy to communicate with them because there is no language barrier between us. i would love to know more about myself. because my culture is something i deserve to have a part in, you know? it's literally in my blood. it is something i always was and always will be, and i feel like i have a right to want to learn about it.
nooo it's okay!!!! i completely get it. i feel like it's becoming very common for people to be less and less human. and it makes sense, given... you know. politics and everything lately. not to be political /lh but there is just a little too much hate being spread and i dislike that so much. many people have forgotten how to be kind and it's just???? very sad and upsetting.
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okay so weight/eating is a veryyyyy sensitive subject for some people as we know.
i had friends do this to me all the time. Especially when my friends who were rather thin would point out a fat person to poke fun at and im literally bigger than that person? or they are thin and call themselves fat, it's like, if you think youre fat, you must think im a whale or something! the only way i have mitigated this is to take focus off of my own self image first, bc you cant fight the internal AND outer battle of fatphobia. that is what this is-- your friend is unfortunately fat-phobic it seems which is often a side effect of low self esteem or having been shamed for being the weight they are-- so now they subconsciously do it to other people. your friend points out weight in photos, of people that arent even him and passes judgement onto them as though he is superior, when really it's massive inferiority complex bc some people see being thin as something to achieve-- rather than just accepting there will be all sorts of body size variations. Their focus is on skinniness, they see attractiveness in skinny people (not that they arent attractive dont get me wrong) but your friend idealizes these people because he wants to be that. so the way i would go about the situation is to remind yourself that he is thinking solely about his own body even when he is passing judgement onto others. Try to remove yourself from the equation as well because he doesnt intend to insult you and probably doesnt even realize that they are. appearance is everything to some people.
i think i would sit down with this friend and give it a precursor warning that it is a serious conversation, and if you feel it's appropriate, to warn them that the conversation you want to have involves weight and self image.
I would express my concerns more over his own perception of himself, and how he A) doesnt have the healthiest mindset when it comes to weight and B) you understand very well the struggles of self image in relation to weight, then bring up the sense of discomfort you get when they point out fat people. I would express to him that Fat is not a bad word, it is just a body shape. Some people have no control over their weight like i did due to medical problems, all fat people deserve respect, kindness, and so what if they ate their way into being overweight, as long as you are not actively hurting yourself with overeating-- then why care about someone else's weight? How does that person's weight effect him? seriously ask him that the next time he points out a fat person and ask "Well how does their weight effect you though?" because it literally does not effect him at all other than rehashing self harming behaviours of fat phobia and slinging it at a different person.
it probably feels better to put the focus on other people's weight than to accept his own.
But a concept needs to be driven home that weight does not effect worth, weight doesnt indicate anything, there may be a stigma and fatphobia but he is adding to the fatphobia rather than fighting it, and you'll probably want to ask him why he prefers fat phobia to fat positivity and it may give him something to think about as well as make him aware that you notice when he self deprecates or displays fatphobia. I would never outright directly say "youre fatphobic" bc that will just put him on defense. it needs to carefully be suggested
sorry for the unsolicited advice, i hope something in here is helpful for you and your friend <3
Hey nah no worries, I appreciate it a lot + am looking for a bit of advice when I make posts into questions like that
But I agree 100% It’s a self image issue I also feel having another perspective on how your words sound to others; realizing how rude your thoughts and feelings about your own body can sound to others helps me a lot with putting things into perspective. Like I try not to pass judgement on myself as much as possible not even for myself but more for the benefit of my own morals lol. If you think that stuff about yourself too long you will inevitably see yourself in others and will hate them for it too and not know why
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i haven’t ever felt like something in this world. everyday is basically me doing a shit job at containing the hell that exists inside me in its horrible skin sack. ive never been good enough to deserve basic respect and kindness from those around me. i dont feel like anyone respects me. i dont feel like anybody wants me around. i don’t feel like i even want to be alive. everyday i wish i were dead because nothing will ever get better no matter how hard i work. and even if they do i have so much baggage i have to live with that wont ever go away. i will never have what i put out into the world returned back to me so why do i even keep trying? all my efforts into my career, hobbies, and personal relationships all feel so futile. i haven’t actually hung out with my closest friends in months. ive been isolating myself from everyone and have stayed that way because im never invited to anything, im the one who plans and invites. i haven’t gotten to experience much of anything i enjoy because i dont have the energy and will to plan anything. unfortunately i cant do the things i like with my own partner because they always immediately reject it and make me feel horrible for it. so i stay ay home most days and just rot in my room, besides work. everything is just so overwhelming. and ive had to hide my self harming bc my partner gets so upset with me and just belittles me over and over again for it. so i just overwork myself at work instead and allow myself to experience injuries that are totally avoidable. i hold no value for self preservation anymore. it doesn’t matter anyways i literally dont want to live. ive been so so sooo close to ending everything this month. but nobody knows how bad it actually is because i wear this stupid mask every fucking day and pretend like everything is just sooooooo fine and dandy. i’m always such a happy and loving girlfriend! im always the friendly and energetic friend! im always the reliable coworker! im whatever the fuck you want me to be as long as it isnt myself.
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Dear, sweet Scorpio...
youre ugly, youre pathetic, youre weak and stupid. youre truly the most incompetent person i have ever met. youre stupider than a child. no, that would be offensive to the child.
you have no sense of style, fashion, beauty, music, or art. you think youre smart but you actually just make shit up because youre uneducated. you have no sense of discipline, so your health is disappointing and your life is a fucking mess. how embarassing! youre a failure of a man. no one respects you. youre unlikely to find any real happiness or joy from life, because of how much you pity yourself and complain about it - when its all your own doing.
youre messy, unattractive, you have nothing redeeming about you. you look weird and you act odd, and youre fucked in the head. i feel bad for you. i cant even roast you, cause its like bullying someone with special needs... i mean i guess its true. but you are also a 26 year old man, and you made an active decision to stay in this regressed state of incompetence. like just be better? its actually, honestly not that hard. its impressive, how lazy a person has to be to achieve what you have at this grown age.
youre belligerent, fussy, and so jealous of me. you wanted my joy and peace and the benefits of my hard work. go to school, ugly! get your own education. get a better job. figure out your own life. its nothing i want to be a part of. its my fault, i should have known id get dirty if i played in the mud.
your entire personality is so underdeveloped. like a failed attempt of raising a child. you arent 26 - youre like 13.
youre vulgar, youre thoughtless. no impulse control. no filter from mind to body. how juvenile! its utterly pathetic. embarassing. i have no respect for you... i dont think anyone does, unfortunately. thats your karma i suppose.
not to mention how overemotional you are! a literal toddler. get a fucking grip, princess. you were the princess all along. fucking loser. you were literally a walking emotional time bomb. no sense of self control or discipline, and emotional outbursts pouring out at every sign of inconvenience. jesus christ, i was dating a man child.
yes, you were careless and irresponsible. i would never trust you with a child. you were so enraged about this particular friend terrorising your group. what was it he was doing? assaulting drunk girls at parties? whos to say that you arent jealous of what hes doing and getting away with? maybe you just want him out, so you can be the one slipping into their unconsenting pants. you fucking creep. you fucking rapist. you are evil and the scum of the earth. you are an evil npc planted here to drag everyone with good, genuine, pure hearts down into the depths of despair and darkness of which you were born.
its true, you are not worthy of a happiness or joy or success. not until you repent for the damage you have done to an innocent and kind person. you made a huge mistake hurting me - im an angel and a lightworker. the karmic fallout from your actions are going to hit you like a motherfucking bus. and i cant wait to know not a single detail about it, because im over here staying in my own fucking lane and living my own best life and healing and moving on. because you never deserved to know me.
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Mon Oct 28
Im going to talk as if its still sunday but it is actually currently Monday at 6:02am. My mental reset day. Actually, no... anytime i wake up to prepare for the next day, it is considered the next day. So I will be speaking as if it is Monday and this would be like in the middle of the day for me because I sleep in about 5 hours from now! Yesterday, I had a better day at work. Life let me have an easier day as my last day so I am very appreciative of that. I stayed a little longer that day when i REALLY didnt want to but my manager made a compromise with me which caused me to not mind at all! After I got home, I spoke with my dad... it took a lot of bravery and courage to start this but it truly was something that was weighing on my mind! We came to an agreement and as much as I wanted to just give up at the end, he wouldnt let me. I almost shut down and ran away in fear but I knew better not to do so, out of respect of course. And as soon as I couldnt escape, I couldnt hold my tears in any more, i bursed out crying and I kept saying sorry for not being able to have a conversation anymore. I had like, ptsd thinking he would get mad at me and i was ready for him to show that he felt nothing for my tears, i still cant read him. He shows no emotion, thats a really good talent in my opinion. At the end of it, he gave me a hug... and he said "Daddy is here for you." Ive never heard him say that, but it was something that I needed. It was also kind of weird everytime I think of it because its something that I expect from my significant other now, due to not having a father figure in my younger years. So now all is well between me and both of my parents. As difficult it was, im glad its something I no longer have to worry about of fear anymore. Afterwards, I woke my mom up :3 she is so silly LOL but i asked her if she wanted to go to church and she woke up immediately :D The sermon was mainly about, how beyond powerful and strong grace is. No matter who you are and what you do, you will always deserve forgiveness. Our god is truly kind and he truly wants the best for us. People say we should be seeking god, which is true but god is trying to seek us first. he wants to help us, he wants to give things to us, we are worthy of everything he brings onto life and he wants us to know that. Even if you think you dont deserve anything good, he still thinks you are deserving. I love that the sermon said, if you dont think you dont deserve god's grace, ask yourself "Who do you think you are?" I literally have never read the bible but if I did, I'd truly have an eye opener on gods relationship to his people. Jesus came from a family of incest. Showing that even the heaviest sin can still be forgiven. It doesnt matter what the world thinks of you, it only matter's what god thinks of me. Thats pretty much the topic of the service. To sum up the service "The blood of jesus christ cleanses a person of their sins. God doesnt deem anyone hopeless or beyond repair. The power of god's grace will prepare for paradise." So in my next writing i will be explaining what I want to do with my life and how i want to do it....
P.S. it would be good to come back and read my writing every once in awhile.... idk why it's so hard for me to do so.
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What direction do I wanna start this in
Someone good naturedly asked me today if ive been assessed for adhd
YuPppp
Im stalling
Ok so I got up the saving the grove party. Spoke to everyone. Considered propositioning Halsin, spoke to Laezel who propositioned me. She does not mince words. Told her Id think about it. Ive only had a romantic scene with Shadowheart and expected a proposition from her, but no just talk of enjoyment now penance later. Yeah Im probably not gonna pursue her now with that penance comment.
Wyll Im not using bc as Ive discovered I struggle with warlocks. Maybe easier as not-my-main but Im not bothered. So that left Karlach. (I double-failed to save Gale including a nat one, from the rock, so alas he perished there on that beach with nothing but a teleport marker to remember him by. Hmm can I sst up some kind of monument. Of wizard hats perhaps. It bears contemplation (no thats Halsin)). I tell Karlach I like her and shes so thrilled. Her little "Yes!" as she turns away ugh. Dammon had just tuned up her engine so I thought she was ok now. She hasnt been touched in ten years except in utter violence she deserves a cuddle at least. A hand hold. Bap her nose. Something. She seems like a very physical person with her dancing amd everything. I wanna summon her a pet to cuddle like cmon.
Regardless the scene is really swet and hot. The thing is. My guy is trans. And she says "I wanna ride you till you see stars" (hott). Uh we dont have that equipment....which leads me to surprising character building, Im playing a bard. He has to have at least 3 straps in his bag, maybe 6 or 7 to be excessive. And bet there are magical ones that feel like the real thing in Faerun. Im deciding there are.
I also like Karlach and Laezel together as a battle wife couple but I rarely need both of them in the party together. And I was considering playing as polyam as possible for fun but my research tells me Karlach and Laezel are both monogamous, Asterion doesnt like me much, no Gale, meh to Wyll and probably not Shadowheart anymore so. I was considering.
But Karlach. Its not even the strappy leathers tbh, I wamna buy her better clothes, better strappy leathers perhaps because hers have literally been to hell and back and find they look messy in a way thats unappealing to me. Id usually be into the leather tbh.
Shes so cheerful and forthright, she sings and dances, shes so joyous to be alive in a really genuine infectious way. Theres nothing preachy about it. She has no guile. I love her.
And its interesting to me because the way my particular flavour of aceness works - and yes this is probably a somewhat allo experience as well, you dont have to tell me - theres a million varied abnd theoretical layers of attraction up till like, actually yes I would do them if they wanted.
So like, Astarion the whole trickys vampire thing. Im into that in a game or a fic but I dont love it. Happy to see where it goes and have some fun. Anything remotely real-life, absolutely not I also dont know if I want to be his friend.
Laezel....hot yes but more distant. She doesnt share of herself. As a theoretical one night stand, or something super casual, sure. Irl, nope absolutely not, i dont think we'd be great friends but I could hope for mutual respect/not enemies. Exist peacably in the same circles.
Shadowheart I could be friends with occasionally but I could NOT be her therapist. I might not be there to hold her hand through her baggage either. Probably would turn down a proposition.
Wyll, eh hes attractive enough. Maybe as a one night/short term thing.
Halsin....idk how I feel about Halsin. Hes almost too wholesome? Mr druid peace with nature he doesnt want to be a leader. Id like to see him not as Mr Responsible with his hair down more. (I cant seem to add him to my party? Does he stay at camp?). With Halsin Im torn between desirr and fear of his bigness and strength. Which to some people might be ideal actually but Im not sure. I think I need to see more of his personality first. And thats def the aceness there.
Ive left her for last. Karlach. Shes my favourite. - Actually the only person whos come close is Elfira the tiefling bard, who sadly is not romanceable. Her cutscene with the song is the brightest joy and my favourite moment of thr game so far. The emotional honesty, the enthusiasm, the passion. (Am I starting to suspect I have a type. Its also often dark dashing boys like Kaz Brekker and Vaxildan but maybe its dark boys amd bright women. Idk.)
Karlach, if she were a real woman in front of me in the world I would say yes no hesitation. That is so rare for me.
Like I was being calculating about who to go with keep my options open and then she was so excited and shes just so deeply desirous not just of sex but also kind touch and also life, its kind of intoxicating. And shes jointly imagined and programmed and designed and voiced and she exists as software and art and thats beautiful?
Im a very inexperienced gamer. Ive never played or even heard of a game thats so normal about sex. Other games have sexuality but its like, seedy, theres a scene in a strip club or some gang boss has sex workers in their base, its always degrading. Theres shadowheart and her penance line, but like Keyleth in legend of vox machina, its very clearly the characters hangups, not the devs not the game experience. And here its just normal. You dont have to pursue anything with anyone. You can because its an adult game with adult characters. If you scroll the tags here you would think it was a dating sim.
I just think thats really cool, and Im really enjoying it. Thr only big thing missing is the same-time collaborative aspect that the devs cant extrapolate and create stuff influenced by our choices. Its more linear, they built in options, we collaborate by playing and making choices. But thats what tabletop games are for, not video games
If youve made it this far, re games. So far ivr played disco elysium, hades, and now bg3. Throw me some reccomendations please, Im enjoying all three. Oh and also In Other Waters, and Potionomics.
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I was scared to ever no-filter vent about this situation on here bc I knew one of the people involved followed me but since they seem to have purged my existence from all their social media and ghosted me instead of bothering to TALK about anything I hope I’m in the clear now. Even if they do see it honestly go ahead. Read it. This is how I feel about you and your incessant need to over-correct me over every little thing all the time bc you just NEEDED me to be problematic for the sake of your narrative or something.
But last year when I took a vacation to stay with some of my friends who are a couple, on my last night there starting Attack on Titan together. They had both only seen the first season 10 years ago when it first aired, I’ve read the entire manga and seen all of the series that is out, and I have probably seen the first season 5+ times.
And this girl, the wife, starts conversation over the episodes like “I heard that in the manga there was this whole story arc about the outer wall refugees being made into slaves and that the anime cut it out and it was really controversial bc they are like devaluing slavery by doing that” and I was like, “I’ve read the whole manga and that isnt true, you must be mistaken or conflating it with something else” and it’s been a year and I cant remember my exact words but I was nice about it, literally just making conversation. People hear incorrect things. It happens. I wasn’t aggressive, but I do care about factual information so maybe I was assertive.
She just doubles down on me without looking up any new info. Which is wild to me, like I’ve READ THE MANGA can you not just trust me? She keeps doubling down, implying that I am prepared to defend the devaluation of slavery just bc it’s one of my fav medias.
And then I brought up the panels on my phone to show her. And the conversation just kind of ends, like I got ghosted IRL they just stopped responding to me. They ignored me trying to show the panels.
Later I ask her husband about it like “what happened back there?” and he tells me that “Oh she looked it up herself and realized she was wrong, and she didnt know how to approach you bc youre mean” and also just blames it on her period.
LIKE GIRL, HELLO? “oOPS i looked it up and I was mistaken, sorry!”
it really isn’t that hard?
And things like this just kept HAPPENING.
And THEN I try and bring this up later, approaching the husband bc like. Im like “this girl couldnt even handle being told she was wrong about an attack on titan trivia fact. how do i approach her about boundaries and accountability?”
So I try approaching her husband for pointers in talking to her. And he just deflects everything, basically tells me that Im just “super mean and intimidating” and that I just want an “I TOLD YOU SO” moment. And it is like no I want my input to be respected? I want my friend to be able to be wrong about something so simple and not turn it into this weird thing? This isnt even about that stupid argument anymore, it’s about what this says about the overall dynamics here and your wifes inability to be wrong and take accountability. I deserve better treatment, I deserve respect and if I dont get it, this friendship is over. and they purged me on all social media after that without even attempting to reconcile or talk to me
am i crazy?
how can you be so inable to hold yourself accountable and try and gaslight ME into being the problem?????????????????????
unreal
UN
FUCKING
REAL
HOPE YOURE READING THIS GIRL! GROW THE FUCK UP!
#not putting this behind a read more#hope you forgot to unfollow me girlie and you see this#rack rambles#personal#these are the people that even make me go wow not everything is problematic chill
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i know i keep going on about this but lizzie ending up with literally anyone other than hope or jen would make absolutely no sense at this point in time
her relationship with MG has always felt too one sided for me like she has only shown any kind of romantic interest in him when he goes after someone else so it;s like “only want you when i cant have you” type of thing and i think neither one of them deserves to settle for this because i like them both as characters and think they can do better than each other as mean as that sounds like they are just not compatible at all imo so they are definitely better off as friends
then you have ethan who she literally tried to force herself into liking and she only felt something for him after he came to her rescue (a thing hope has done numerous times, one of them in this exact same episode!!) the only time i personally felt compelled by them as a couple was in the star wars episode and that wasnt even ethan. i was wayyyy more invested in mg and ethan;s relationship with each other than i was in their respective relationships with lizzie
now jen who in like 2 episodes has connected with lizzie on a level no boy so far has. she even convinced her to go back home after one single conversation bc she listened and understood what lizzie needed and even went with her bc she knew lizzie would need the support
and then hope.............. dont even get me started!! these two who understand each other better than anyone else can because they are cut from the same cloth. they always know what the other needs and when they dont they ask!!! the emotional intelligence they both share when it comes to one another is one of the most mature and well written in this show <3 also like its already canon that lizzie is in love with hope bc she was sire bonded to her soooo if they’re not heading toward hizzie endgame idk what they;re doing
#no shade or hate to ethan or mg or the ships bc i do like the characters#but i just dont see it at all#hizzie#lizzie x jen
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