#It’s kind of disheartening
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Not gonna lie the way some people talk about the female characters from PBB/LL makes me want to lay on the floor
#does YOUR comment about tess that you wrote in 30 seconds pass the bechdel test?#complaining#text#pbbposting#I understand that this trend within the fandom is difficult to deconstruct because it’s more-so a product of broader societal problems#and also the fact that canon has semi-facilitated it by not really giving any of it’s female characters a whole lot to do?#It’s kind of disheartening#to see people not really be able to comprehend Tess/Mabel/Faust#as anything other than orbiters of male characters#:|#Better content creators have made this exact same sentiment before so I’m preaching to the choir A Bit#But I think we should make a better effort to recontextualise how we discuss these characters#Anyways sorry my blog has been Like This I’ll go back to posting art soon
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something that’s always been funny to me is that long fics with smut tend to do better than long fics without but it’s like. if you write a longggg 10k+ word fic with a build up and plot and sprinkle in smut at the end, people will read that long build up and pay attention to the plot in order to get to the smut. and 99% of the time the tags and comments will talk about the plot itself and the way it was written as opposed to the sex and they will ask for more or for part 2’s and as annoying as the part 2 comments can be sometimes, it also means that they focused on the plot and not the smut. but if you post that fic without the smut—as in same fic and same build up and everything, but the smuts not there, a lot of those same people will simply not give the fic a chance. it’s just funny to me bc yes, a part of it is just horniness, but also i think it’s partly that there is also some conditioning to believe that a “perfect romance” or a “perfect story” of a romance is sealed with intimacy that’s more often than not sexual in order to actually be valid. and yeah. idk. it’s an interesting thing to see from a writers perspective
#me personally i write what i want im at a comfortable place in my writing that#i don’t rly feel i need to add that smut to get engagement#partially bc i think im blessed with readers who are very kind to me and always reiterate that they would read whatever i put out#i have so many anons that tell me they don’t know anything ab genshin but they read my works for the fandom anyway bc i wrote it and i feel#grateful that there will always be an audience i can count on to support my writing#but partially also bc i’m also happy w my writing that if i did post a fic that had not smut and it didn’t rly get attention i wouldn’t feel#disheartened by it bc writing it was meaningful to me#but#ig it’s just an interesting divide to see of like ‘i won’t read it without smut’ vs ‘i will read it with or without for the story !!’
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playing my little game pt 2 fun little twin names edition
#ts4#current household#may's eyes are glitching out and im just hoping it's cc causing it not the preset:')#my game has been kind of broken lately it's disheartening#it was completely busted before this so it's still better than whatever that was <3
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im gonna start posting fanfic recs btw whenever i find good ones. both here and my (awfully barren) 18+ account. because there are so many good fics out there with so few hits and fewer kudos and sometimes no comments period and it SUCKS because i REALLY LIKE THEM A LOT.. and i hope that by linking them here and yelling at everyone to COMMENT DAMMIT they might actually do it
seriously though any comment means a lot. most people who read a fic don’t even give a kudos. even if the fic wasn’t top tier, if you didn’t dislike it, hand over some kudos!! and if you liked it, comment!!!! even if the comment is one singular heart emoji it will be appreciated. if the comment just says “great fic!” the author will be happy. your comment doesn’t have to be this long winded gushing or analysis.
so many authors quit writing or lose motivation because the comments are few and far in between or just sometimes nonexistent. trust me when i say authors don’t care about how long or cool or smart sounding your comment is i promise!!!
i hope that mmmaybe recommending fics and telling people to comment might help fics i really like get more support maybe. and i, points at you reading this, hope that you will listen!!!at least a little….at least sum kudos….
#if u have the ability to reply to my reblog saying how much you loved the fic i recommended comment on the fic itself so the author can see!#especially since the rise of ai writing and seeing ai fics out there can be disheartening#make sure you let your writers know you appreciate them#you never know they might one day write a sequel bc your comment touched them#or might get the motivation to make more works.#(but don’t just comment bc you expect something out of it btw. sometimes the author might be too intimidated to reply ive seen that before)#im a huge yapper. if you can’t tell. lmfao.#and i mostly comment on guest. like 99% of the time because the fics are either really embarrassing#or i get nervous about them knowing me/finding my tumblr and thinking im cringw#bc i admire authors so much. and I get that nervousness! given I experience it!!! but guest mode EXISTS!!! most work allows you to comment#on guest mode!! the author CANT see the email you use for it!!! the only reason they even ask is to give you notifs if theres a reply to it!#a comment is still a comment even if on guest or an alt or your main#even if the fic is embarrassing shameful depraved smut you can log out and comment on guest. even if it’s embarrassing#because the author still worked HARD. it’s so hard to write. people don’t give enough credit to fic authors who do it for free#i had an account (now super abandoned) that had over 400k words. and that didn’t include wips#i reallg do struggle to write because i took a break for so long!!! i can write but not nearly as much as I used to!!! and it sucks!!!#support your authors guys. 1k words is an hour for the first draft at MINIMUM and another hour for revision and editing. and people get#pissy if a fic chapter is less than 3-4k words for some reason. that’s 6-8 hours of work at MINIMUM. likely so much more because there’s#also plotting and brainstorming and So. Much. Editing. stressing out over words and sentence structure. it takes so much time out of your#day. the only oneshot i have posted on this account is 2460 words. and it took me SEVEN HOURS#seven hours!!!! that’s a lot!!!! and for authors that have school or demanding jobs that kind of time is hard to come by!!!!!#and I hope i have convinced at least one of you to listen and go okay you know what. i will. because even if it’s a silly comment it’s loved#tldr support your local fanfic authors of you will be so stabbed. by me#fanfiction#fanfic#archive of our own#ao3#comment on fics#wick fic recs#that’s the rec tag btw. wow custom tags AGAIN i know. im doing what i thought i never would
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pretty & cute witch men
#witch hat tag#orufrey#i'm not drawing as much or as well as i'd like to be doing. i'm trying to get through a comic i've been really wanting to do#but i'm just finding it so hard. disheartening. btw the 2nd one relates to some official art of qif wearing a dress like the girls#and the 4th one relates to how i've been drawing EXTREMELY SMALL for years. idk how to explain it but i always clicked 'fit to screen'#and so all my art EVER has looked bad when you zoom in bc it's already like size 1 zoomed in to the MAX pfhgguguhfpfhGHAHHHHH#i was so confused allll this time why brushes always look different for me than what they're supposed to#'wow this brush is so jaggedy..really rather jaggedy...calling it the Jagged Cai Special..bringing it out for those jaggedy moments..#really quite jaggedy i must say...' and it's literally not jaggedy#but now i have to get used to how all those brushes that i'd gotten used to indeed look how they're supposed to finally. Alarming#I have simply been working out absolutely everything by myself for years and that's why my technical progress is slow#ppl say my progress is fast and i certainly have improved much since i began doing all this but#like..it took me a year and half to start using a program where i could Colour In The Lines aka the..whatever it's called. whatever..#just on my lonely confused solemn journey to express gay love better than yesterday.. -_- *picks up my pack n continues through the snow*#btw thank you sm for people's kind words enjoying my narumitsu art & fic over the christmas & new year period <3
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Patalliro! is fascinating to me because of stuff like this. It's unapologetically gay - even within its anime which aired during primetime hours in 1982 - in a way that many later BL manga would never be, like the ones from the early 2000s which would never dare to call their characters actual homosexuals. Patalliro has actually aged quite well in this regard, there's something comforting about how campy it is.
#i still dont really understand how they got away with this kind of thing honestly#female VAs i get that - but first m/m kiss in an anime in episode THREE?????#theres also the maraich/thomas episode where they are *Both* voiced by women....advanced yuri#patalliro#i love how bancorans gender expression is pretty much explicitly to attract only bishounen#you blushed - so you must not be a girl#etc#i also love how joyful it all is#theres never anything sad or tragic about being gay - only that bancoran is forced to kill the bishounen spies/assassins/etc#when bancoran finds out that gay sex feels good after demian; in the manga he is elated. its basically a positive thing#he awakens to his true power...lol#also notable is that while bishounen youth is glorified maraich is 18#this means it portrays being gay as an adult as normal; not a phase relegated to nostalgic adolescent periods of time#according to the NYT japan's psychiatric body called homosexuality a mental illness until 1995#im NOT going to say patalliro changed that or anything lmao but its just significant to me that banmara get to live their lives happily#even raise children together in the manga....???#especially contrasting that with kaze to ki no uta and other manga of the time (no shade intended)#yaoi#<- for tagging purposes#obviously it also got away with a lot by being a gag manga. but still!#months later edit: want to say im not intending to moralize BL manga from the 2000s either. like gen. no hate on them.#as a gay person i just appreciate when characters who act gay are considered gay textually#and its kind of disheartening how gay-as-identity was treated as something incredulous in those manga a lot of the time#even the mere suggestion of attraction to men as a whole and not just the other male lead...yknow#this post is meant to praise patalliro for being unique in its approach to gay content compared to other titles#ive enjoyed plenty of 2000s yaoi titles despite their shortcomings lol#joseiposting#shoujo
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Not to be that person who starts discourse on their fandom blog, but like clearly I need to say this outside of the pinned post bc it keeps happening??
I’m cool with reuploads guys, put my shitposts on Reddit all you want, I’m fine with it. But for the love of god give me some credit when you do??? It’s really not hard to put a link or just even say “this was drawn by dailydegurechaff on tumblr”
This is like the third time the “PSA regarding proper handling” post has been reposted without proper credit.
And like????
What do you mean you “couldn’t find the artist”??? You had it right already. The artist is Dailydegurechaff?? Do you think I don’t draw these myself? I feel like I should be offended people would assume I’m just reposting art I found elsewhere.
I’m sorry to rant, but lack of art credit is the one thing that seriously sets me off
-- Editing to add further comments bc reddit saw this post: This post was made in a fit of irritation, literally only meant to vent some frustration. I just wanted to complain abt my feelings a bit, not start some inter-website fight. It wasn't intended to be a personal attack at the OP, but I see now how it could be read that way and I apologize for that. The OP apologized to me and added credit which I thank them for. No hard feelings for them, I'm cool with them.
I really have no intention to stir up drama with the reddit side of the YS community, I just want to continue to draw daily tanyas. Ty
#not a daily post#it’s kind of disheartening to see over a years worth of effort on this blog reduced to the assumption I’m not the artist#like… does this person think I’m just a reposter? I don’t get it#also#did you know? the first repost of that drawing is the second most upvoted post of all time on the subreddit#it was an uncredited repost because of course it was#yeah. maybe I *am* salty about it. sorry
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trans masc tags are full of discourse like come on I just wanted to look at some dudes ._.
#whats really disheartening is that its full of posts both by TERFs and TIRFs and you they sound the exact same#which isnt anything new bc radfems are radfems are fascists but like#:/#im glad i have an irl community where I regularly interact with trans women and trans men of many kinds and they all think#discourse is stupid
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It's "mental health is important" until someone prioritises their mental health in a way that inconveniences you.
#chappell roan#I understood where the scheduling conflict cancellation backlash was coming from#because her team should have figured that out sooner#BUT THIS?#how was she supposed to know?#it wasn't even her concert it was a festival and the lineup is so good!#being disheartened is one thing and taking it out on her is another#you need to remember artists are human beings and so this kind of risk is always there#and make your decisions accordingly#mental health
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i think we should stop letting not knowing about a fandom or franchise get in the way of writing together or simply interacting and sending questions. canons are no different from ocs, they're simply ocs with merch. you don't have to know a fandom or world to ask a question, to start a conversation!! if you don't know where to start or you don't know something or know how two muses would interact - truly i encourage everyone to ask! we are all here to learn and to talk about the stuff we love!!!
#i think the rpc in general could just ask more questions!!! i think questions are fun#i love getting questions and i love giving them and i think it could go a long way to increasing interactions & showing love &#paving the way for more understand and ease for writing threads together#i dont know.. ive just been thinking about the “sorry im not familiar with your muses” line lately and how it's often used to explain why#interactions are not happening and it's like.... SO WHAT! isn't that just everything??? aren't we all unfamiliar with each others muses???#before anyone watched/read anything - weren't we all unfamiliar? aren't all ocs unfamiliar?#idk just some thoughts!! not about anyone at all just years of being in the rpc#it also sort of piggybacks on the ideas of not giving ocs chances either bc you dont know them which is just ridiculous to me#learn - read - write!!!!#to be clear: this is fundamentally different from not being interested in a fandom. that's different. that's fair!! not everything is#everyones cup of tea!!!#but just saying you dont know and not doing anything about it is a little disheartening imo#ooc ⋆˙ mostly i want to be kind
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#I wasn’t going to post abt this again but it rlly bothered me#I rlly dislike how normalized condescension and downright hostility in the lolita community is#all I did was send a silly little tier list that I put my own time and effort into making#but instead of just…. doing the ranking multiple people decided to be blatantly rude to me because of the title?#like 1. it doesn’t even matter 2. it’s just the fucking title#they also seemed to blatantly misinterpreted what the title was#it said ERA at the end because it was a tier list of the era that AP made things in that particular style#the title wasn’t ‘aps Swassic releases’#I just didn’t know what else to title it yet somehow that was enough to be rude to my fucking face and even comment further to basically#make fun of me#genuinely it’s tiring and ridiculous#sorry that I didn’t title it#the era that angelic pretty made some Swassic#some gothic#some creepy cute#and some sweet releases#like jfc this community’s issue with nitpicking and condescension is why people no longer want to try and do fun things#everyone always asks why blogs and YouTube channels and lolita media in general is dying and it’s because#trying to do anything even for fun in this community is met with these kinds of responses#over a TITLE#that literally doesn’t fucking matter#like I try very hard to avoid ranting because I don’t like conflict but what the fuck#it’s very disheartening#I mean maybe they didn’t realize I made it and they were pretty much making fun of me to my face but even the#why be ok with making fun of smthn ANYONE did just for fun#yaps
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11. Blood at the corner of your mouth.
It is not your blood at the edge of your mouth. Not your blood that your tongue swipes from the corner of your lips. Not your blood whose coppery tastes lingers between your teeth.
But he fucking deserved it.
Sister Kindness has you tucked under her arm as she, to use her words, books it. Something she must not do often because she huffs and puffs her way through the crowded Shaded Bower. And though some call out ‘Sister’ to her with warm recognition she does not stop ‘booking’ it. (Sister Kindness would have you know that she is perfectly in shape for a woman of her age. She was ‘huffing and puffing’ from the extra weight of carrying you, thank you very much.)
She slows when the westshore pier appears around the corner and then she steps off the main path and sets you down. Kneeling to be something more like eye-level, she pulls a Roegadyn-sized handkerchief from the depths of her habit. Wetting a corner with a flask pulled from a separate, equally confusing pocket she begins to clean the blood from your face.
Sister Kindness’ hand is firm where it grips your chin, holding as little of you as possible. For once the contact does not send you recoiling. Perhaps it is the way your rage has left you as quickly as it had flooded you, leaving you feeling drained of everything else as well. Now that the moment has passed you tremble and, to your horror, you can feel a well of tears rising to fill that empty space.
“Was a helluva bite, darling girl,” Sister Kindness’s voice is quiet as she tilts your head to the light, searching for any blood she may have missed. You focus on her creek colored eyes and swear you feel their waters lapping at your ankles. Her smile is sudden but woozy around the edges; she is just as shaken. "Reckon he'll have a scar, too. Bet he lies about who gave it to him." ‘He’ was an elezen man -- maybe a merchant but likely not, as Sister Kindness did not know him -- with a face as sharp as his ears and a smile that spoke of too much confidence. And you had hated him on sight. His crime was making Sister Kindness uncomfortable and his mistake was not being aware of his surroundings.
It does not take much pressure to break skin.
Pleased with her work, Sister Kindness rises and disappears the handkerchief away. Handing you the flask, she instructs you to take a sip, swirl it around your mouth, and spit it out. There is some confusion about what 'swirl' means but, eventually, she is satisfied with this too. “Well, we didn’t get what I came for but we’ll be headed home all the same. Come now, before the ferry leaves without us. We will, ah, not be telling the abbess about this.” You don’t know if she means the bite or the trip to the city.
You don’t ask.
Thank you for the ask, Anon! ][ Sensory Prompts ][
#Answered#Pigeon Writing#Sister Kindness#Sister Patience#<- tags for odette/convent stuff as it's her nun name#i have just decided this#which means I will forget it thank you#but also thank you for the ask anon this one wrote itself more or less !!#posting this before i think too much about it#i am lowkey trying to stop writing only second person pov because I've had enough people casually tell me the hate it#(not my writing like specifically but just the pov in general)#(which is normal and fine !!! just sometimes disheartening like life is sometimes)#but the prompt used 'you' and gestures#but also sister kindness why do these merchants greet you warmly HUH!?#aren't you suppose to be living a secluded life of holy contemplation HUH SISTER KINDNESS???#(i remove my hands from the keyboard so i stop editing the tags)#(brains are dumb why do we even HAVE these)
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Hello! I've been kind of vanished, and I'm not confident I'm fully back yet, but I'm feeling noticeably less frazzled, and I'm ready to start catching up on the backlog of what I've been doing! To start with, I went mad with my new homeowner power and decided to paint a room. And then I decided to paint it a WILD color. And then I decided I also wanted to learn how to panel a wall. All by myself, with a hard deadline before my aunt gifted me a pile of old furniture that was going to take the room from empty to full. It was very cool and fun, but oh my god
Also, most of the paint work quality in my home is uhhhhh indifferent, so i had some fun soeed bumps like having to cut an old mirror off the back of my door and finding at least two color strata of it being painted into place (even after filling and sanding and priming and painting, i can still see the shadow, but that's a problem for future me to continue addressing). And I picked a REALLY dark green. I knew that taking a dark color back to white would need a lot of coats, but I.... did not consider that going from white to almost black would be equally bad, even with toned primer.
If I was doing this again, I think I would have attached the paneling after that first coat. But I think I was still underestimating how many coats it would take to darken bright white material, even with sanding for better grip. And the caulking almost broke me! My secret strategy to picking up new skills is always to underestimate how complicated they are, then power through on pride and stubbornness, but this tested me, haha
But I really love it! It's been done for a few weeks, so I've been dragging furniture into the room and steeling myself to drill holes for the curtain rod, and the Horrors have faded and I'm considering painting another guest room. I adore this color (salamander) to pieces, and I still have another gallon, but I'm not sure I want to commit to all this again. But.... the effect is soooooo restful, and it looks SO luxe, especially with the colored outlets and wall register. It's not going to be in my next paint project, but it may come up again!
#crafts#me home#painting#sure why not let's use that tag for all kinds of painting#i have these lovely wood floors and wanted them to pop#i love it they look great but for the love of god montressor#also the struggles of threading flexible 12 foot molding pieces into my little five seater#they fit if i wrapped them around the back headrest but holy shit there was a moment i thought I'd have to cut them in the parking lot#but i broke the seal! I'm now basically an expert!#im not an expert the genre of shortform videos where pro painters dunk on each other's technique is actually kinda disheartening 🤣#but it turns out it looks good and i love it!#my laundry room sink will never recover
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You might've already talked about this, sorry I don't remember, but have you read the Penelope series by Claire North? I haven't, I've heard about it but I don't know, if it's just going to be another Miller situation... So any thoughts?
*sighs* The irony of the fact that someone literally was trying to pick a fight with me about Odysseus being a "womanizer" this morning ;~;
Sadly I haven't read it, but I've seen snippets and it sadly does sound like it also has it where Odysseus has "affairs" instead of what actually happens. ;~; I'm very tired.
Sadly I feel like we're not gonna have much luck when it comes to IRL books at the moment. Kids' books maybe, Heck I found this kids book online, and I have a mighty mighty need. Look at how lovestruck he looks.
#It's honestly becoming disheartening how much people see it like that. I even read aloud some parts of the Odyssey to my mom#and she can even see how sketchy and not great these situations are. It sucks. I hate that it kind of makes me afraid to interact with#Odyssey works in general because I'm so tired#aaaaaaaaaaaaaa#Mad rambles#shot by odysseus#ask#vyunok-obyknovenniy
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its really starting to bother me that theres so little to be done for karlach in act 3. like when you first meet dammon he seems so hopeful about finding a solution. he runs through a bunch of ideas and says he cant do anything with the tools he has but he'll keep looking. and then when you meet him in act 2 hes says he cant think of anything but he'll keep trying. and then in act 3?? all he says is that he cant find a solution. theres no way to ask him what research hes been doing. no way to try and do any research yourself.
karlach's companion quest basically ends in act 2. you get that second upgrade and it doesn't make a difference to the way her endings turn out. yeah you can touch her, but that's it. theres still only two 'good' endings for her character.
and it feels like theres so much we should be trying to do? the steel watchers are made of infernal iron. every single watcher has a piece of infernal iron you can collect. some of them even have enriched infernal iron. and apart from the armor dammon can make... there's nothing else to be done with those pieces? even the enriched infernal iron doesnt seem to serve a bigger purpose.
i feel like i should be able to talk to the gondian gnomes for help. they built the steel watchers, which are made of infernal iron and can blast hellfire at you. we can literally go to hell and theres no way to look around or ask about a solution. theres a magic tower with a locked vault and no way to look for magic to nullify/contain the heat.
also we cant talk to karlach about going to stay in the house of hope? i know one of the endings is that she can go to avernus with wyll but shouldn't we be able to suggest she can stay with hope? who's literally trying to make a place of hope in the middle of the hells? theres even portals in one of the rooms to a bunch of places. she could come and go as she pleases. we already have the means to visit if we want.
like i get it the whole point is that shes doomed from the start tragedy etc etc but it still sucks that we can't at least try to do more when it feels like theres so many ways we should be able to
#baldur's gate 3#baldur's gate 3 spoilers#karlach#bg3#bg3 critical#i guess? if people want to avoid anything negative#im just kind of bummed i started romancing her on my first playthrough and discovered theres really only two endings where she doesnt die#and they both kind of suck#and got disheartened and haven't finished it#and im doing another playthrough where i skilled the grove stuff so she only has one upgrade and discovered that it doesn't change her end#at all#her companion quest basically ends in act 2. after that theres nothing to be done#also what does that first upgrade even do??? i know it makes her feel more powerful but does that actually change her stats???#why cant the first upgrade let me hug her#why cant the second upgrade stabilize her more#why is one of my fav companions so neglected in act 3 le sigh
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Both a question and a confession (vent too I guess): to other trans selfshippers, do you ever feel inadequately masculine/feminine for your f/o in comparison to their common/popular ships? In all three of the characters he's typically shipped with are just so big and masculine, or hairy, and muscular and I'm just. not. I'm fat with sparse facial hair, and just all around round and not really strong. Sometimes I look at them and wonder if he could ever see me as a man and be attracted to me as one...
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#I used to feel this way with an ex-f/o. but in the way of 'he's shipped with so many female characters...' being incredibly early transition#it felt. a little disheartening. 'would he even see me as a guy' kind of thing. I can kinda see it from your angle too anon.#I promise he would though. <3#(I don't experience this as much nowadays with my current f/o. then again my gender is now a weird vaguely shaped void so uh. shrug) -🍊⚙️#self ship#self shipping community#selfshipping community#selfship#self shipper#self shipping#self ship community#selfship community#f/o#f/os
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