#It sucked

[jay72664]

Overstimulation

TW: Mention of overstimulation, it doesn’t go into emotional detail.

It was easy, at least for Chuuya, to tell when Dazai was overstimulated.

His eyes would be darting every which way as if trying to figure out an escape route.

And he’d always be bobbing his leg up and down if they were seated.

So when Dazai was doing said things while they were exploring their hotel, Chuuya noticed.

And didn’t hesitate to help.

He gently put his hand on Dazai’s to draw his attention. “Osamu?” He called softly, so as to not overwhelm him further.

“Hm?” Dazai replied in a hum, looking at the short ginger.

“We can leave.” Chuuya tells him with a reassuring smile.

Dazai hesitates only a moment before nodding.

Chuuya gently tugged him back up to their room, neither of them saying a word as they go, but Chuuya kept a firm hold of the brunettes hand.

Upon arrival to their room, Dazai flops down on his bed, curling up on his side an attempt to de-stimulate.

Chuuya follows suit, though instead he sits down against the headboard, not touching his husband in case he doesn’t want to be.

It becomes clear he does want to be when he puts his head on Chuuya’s lap.

Said man can’t help but smile, and instantly begins running his fingers through the lanky man’s hair.

Not a word passes between them for hours.

The only sound their breathing, and the occasional too-loud tap of Chuuya’s fingers on his phone.

But eventually, the silence is broken by a mumbled, “Thank you.” From Dazai.

And a soft, “Anytime.” From Chuuya.

[azuree1733]

I need to go to bed

[thattheater-kid]

You know what’s wild about being a fictive? Missing your old life even though it was shitty because it’s a shittiness you were used to. The life you’re living now is a new kind of shitty that feels unpleasant in a different way.

[sharkflan]

fuck the iron throne, man

[peathepirate]

Not drawing related, but I wanted to share that I started writing a new novel manuscript on my Christmas break. I've written 25k words in just 2,5 weeks. It's more than what I wrote altogether last year. Would be cool to finish a manuscript this year! It'd be my second :o

[trashmouth-richie-tozier]

Only good thing abt having a 2nd degree burn is having @eddiekaspbrak-official spoling me (he's so mad), threatening to kill Stan the man for not believing me, and ranting about how my doctor didn't believe me (he though I was exaggerating my pain)

[masterrainb0w]

Found a new pen that I liked so I inked an old sketch of Nicky getting his arm shot off, for fun yaknow?

[kitocrystal]

I’m not dead.

[eldritchmochi]

@cherrymilkshake on the left and mine on the right because whats gayer to do for your wedding anniversary than get paired blorbo tattoos when said blorbos are canonically married?

courtesy of @/demantcha (on insta) at lilith tattoos here in seattle, who knocked it out of the fucking park

[jaybirdscoffee]

i love how my transition goals have shifted from skinny white twink with fluffy hair to big indigenous grill dad bear. truly a win for gender

[wearevillaneve]

Nobody liked the way Killing Eve ended...

...except for these two nobodies.

[atelophobicself]

people need to realise that liam isn’t their new villain because daniel got dropped. one doesn’t equal the other. you can be upset and not act like a six year old having a tantrum. hope that helps.

[chirpsythismorning]

Just watched Brokeback Mountain for the first time and I need to talk about it.

Throughout the movie, we see Ennis experience a lot of intense discomfort and fear at the idea of being intimate with a man, despite it becoming abundantly clear in the details and based on his actions that that is indeed what he wants. He even admits to Jack that this fear stems from an experience he had at a young age, when his father showed him two men who were presumed to be lovers (they were roommates vibes), murdered and castrated, with him basically using it as a lesson to show Ennis that being gay was wrong and would get you killed.

Jack on the other hand was a little less discomforted or fearful at the idea of being with a man, in that we actually saw him return the following summer to Brokeback Mountain hoping Ennis would be there, only for him to show up alone. We saw how after this he confidently approached a man at the bar hoping to get to know him, only to get rejected and risk getting hate crimed (foreshadowing 😭). And we saw how, over time, Jack’s struggle had more to do with being hurt over Ennis’ unwillingness to commit or even just consider the possibility of them being together long term, even despite the risk of being gay in the 60’s.

Near the end of the film, upon Jack’s death, Ennis discovers from his father that over the past 20 years since they met at Brokeback Mountain, Jack constantly brought it up to his folks, how Ennis, his friend, was going to move up to their ranch and they were going to build a cabin and live together and take over for the family.

Jack was often the one in the moment taking the chances for them to be together. He was the one who mentioned that they could go to Mexico, with Ennis furiously rejecting it saying ‘you know what happens to people like you there??’

But what’s even more painful, is that in this same scene, Ennis’ acknowledges the truth more directly, and why it’s so painful is because it ends up ironically coming true:

Here, Ennis is basically saying that if he decides to be with Jack for real, aka faces his queerness head on, that’s going to be the thing that gets them (Jack) killed. Shortly after this, Jack loses it and has that infamous ass monologue, followed by Ennis breaking down over how it’s Jack’s fault that he’s this way in the first place.

In the end, when Jack dies, Ennis finds out about what happened from Jack’s wife, Lureen Newsome, who said Jack was pumping up a flat out on a backroad when his tire blew up, with the rim of the tire slamming his face, breaking his nose and jaw, and knocking him unconscious on his back. By the time someone drove by on the deserted backroad, he had drowned in his own blood.

The audience might’ve believed this story, if it wasn’t for how rehearsed it sounded coming out of Lureen’s mouth, but it also doesn’t help that images of Jack being hate crimed as his true cause of death are flashing across Ennis’s mind in real time while Lureen is telling him about the ‘accident’.

While it’s left up to interpretation, it’s implied from what his wife and father said, that Jack was hate-crimed by his father in law, with it being covered up.

Broken nose? Broken jaw?… Those are the kinds of wounds someone endures after being beaten up. And if it’s happening to the point of death, then he was essentially beaten to death.

This then fits into what Jack’s father said, because apparently, shortly before he died, he’d told his father he’d found a different friend that was going to come up there to the ranch with him. And so it’s very likely Lureen’s father caught wind of this as his plans to leave neared, leading to his murder (Jack also bitched his father in law tf out in an epic way, which on its own felt unnecessary in the moment, but within the context of this makes a whole lot more sense).

Either way, it seems Jack waited for Ennis to change his mind. 20 years he waited, and when Ennis didn’t, Jack finally moved on with someone else who made an offer of his own years before, only to get murdered just as Ennis feared he would if he decided to live his life authentically.

Ennis initially found out like this, in a postcard that bounced of him inquiring Jack about seeing each other again after that last massive fall out where they had, only for Ennis’s worst fear to be realized:

Nov 7th with deceased stamped across it has me spiraling 😭

Now, obviously Brokeback Mountain is one of the most well known queer films of all time, like there’s no denying that. So it’s fairly easy to assume ST could be taking some inspiration from this film just like they have with hundreds upon hundreds of other films. But especially if they are planning to go the queer route, homage to this film is pretty much guaranteed (there’s also one more reason it might be guaranteed, but I’m saving that for the end 🤣).

Regardless, as you can probably already tell, it’s very easy to see similarities between Ennis with Mike and Jack with Will.

Mike getting the ‘you see Michael? You see what happens?’ treatment from his father, in the first episode in the series, is very Ennis coded in that this is a TV show that follows that up with seasons of Mike pushing Will away from him, with it leading to a boiling point where he says, ‘What did you think? Really? That we were never gonna get girlfriends? That we were just gonna sit in my basement in play games for the rest of our lives?’ with Will responding, ‘Yeah. I guess I did. I really did,’ aka extremely Jack coded.

The really epic thing about this though, is that ST is clearly going on a different journey than Brokeback Mountain did, in that it’s simply subverting the bury your gays trope. While they are acknowledging the risk of being queer in the 80’s, they’re not letting it end ‘realistically’ like many people have insisted it must because that is the only option. And this will be a satisfying ending because it’s coming as a response to all those heartbreaking stories before it that have reinforced this idea that happy endings just aren’t an option for gay people who simply want to be together.

While Ennis and Jack didnt get their happy ending like they wanted, Mike and Will on the other hand 😏

And last but not least, on a more hilariously ironic note, the guy who Jack was going to settle for in the end instead of Ennis, was a guy named Randall Malone, played by none other than David fucking Harbour.

[dipndotz]

tried computer mouse art

[kadala1]

THE GLEEFUL PARENTS- I just want yall to know.. I HATED BUDS OUTFIT- I GET THE POINT BUT I HATED ITTTT. Also Margret a girlboss housewife now… oh yeah I named Mrs gleeful Margret.

she deserved it.