#It felt like an ex boyfriend
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I bought the official TR scents/perfume/colognes and got Sanzu's yesterday, let me tell you...i was hit with nostalgia. He smells like an ex boyfriend I had. 🥺 I vividly remember sneaking him into my room one night (I was way too young and stupid), I had no lock on my door and was right across my parents room.
My bed smelled like him for a few days. A night that we talk about every now and then (we're long distance friends now) and laugh about how stupid we were.
#tokyo revengers perfume#tokyo revengers scents#nostalgia#Sanzu's scent#It felt like home#It felt like an ex boyfriend#Now my mind is flooded with memories#Sanzu smells so good#Sanzu reminded me of him
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i've been thinking about iconic it girl reader who's only ever been known to have one boyfriend — a professional athlete. your relationship with each other was everyone's idea of couple goals, and the breakup that followed was quoted to be "amicable" and that the two of "came to an agreement that you were better off as friends" geez, did your PR teams have to word it like your relationship was all just some fucking contract? relax on the business professional tone. it's almost like they're not describing the best two years of your life.
now, a year later after the breakup that almost caused your break down, you're back and better than ever. you're about to launch your own beauty brand, you're gracing the cover of vogue, and you're protecting your peace by only focusing on yourself, your career, and your girlfriends. you don't date, and you especially don't date athletes. as a matter of fact, you actively avoid all of them like they carry the fucking plague. but when your publicist gives you a deal that you can't refuse (no, literally — it's a deal you can't refuse. read your contracts closely, kiddos), you find yourself thrust into a fake relationship with character. he reminds you of your ex for all the wrong reason; they play the same sport, they have similar attitudes, the same work ethic, the same drive and passion for the sport (and only for the sport...). but there's something different about him, too. he's... not as charismatic. he's kind of goofy, honestly, but he's cute enough to where it works in his favor. he's devoted to his sport, and yet, he finds the time to call his mom every week and despite the fact that this relationship is nothing more than a publicity stunt, he's surprisingly attentive to you, too...
but you've kept yourself and your heart safe by drawing a clear boundary. would you be willing to risk everything you've built up just to create something real with character? especially whenever your ex comes back into town, reopening old wounds and reminding you why you created these boundaries in the first place?
#ex boyfriend is WHOOOOOOO#btw u and ur ex broke up bc he loved the sport more than he loved u#or at least it felt like that#he neglected ur relationship and went all in on chasing after his sports dreams#very one track mind#and meanwhile character has that same drive#but later on in this hypothetical fic you'll ask character how he does it#how he manages to keep his friendship and relationships in tact despite his hard schedule and he shrugs like everything is simple#'because i love them too?'
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the thing they don't tell you about most mlm romance books is that they fucking suck ass
#thinking about like. rw&rb. anything by that author that wrote boyfriend material. most anything on kdp. only one i fw was ari and dante but#even then the random transphobia at the end gave a real bad taste in my mouth#im just in a hater mood rn ignore this unless youre also a hater#but anyways that boyfriend material and the sequel husband material books fucking suck so bad#couldnt even finish the second one#felt like it was trying to make a comment on the queer community but in the most lame and het conformist way possible#literally having a boring lawyer character being like ' i dont feel represented by this#when hes talking about a rainbow decorated gay bar#like ok whatever man but why do we care? why is the author trying to moralize this? why does teh prose suck and why is so much casual#bigotry against welsh people in these books#like fr they call out british bigotry against the irish and then turn around#and every welsh character is bumbling idiot with no personality besides being an idiot and talking about being welsh#like. hello???#also i keep adding to these tags but anyways the author also tried to like#make the main character out to be the bad guy?? when his ex boyfriend exposed all his secrets to the press??#and the author like. portrayed the mc as the bad guy for being upset?? like that is what the second book is about???#its so stupid and victim blamely and utterly lame like these books are so uninspired and feel like the author was just. idk???#also dont get me started on how much i hated rw&rb and finished it#i think i have a post somwhere on this blog abtout it
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see I need ghost clothes to have properties more or less like regular clothes because wearing someone else’s jacket or shirt is one of the most important expressions of affection in existence and yes basically what I’m saying is i wanna see charles give edwin his jacket for one reason or another and see edwin get all flustered and giddy about it
#the staple of all my high school romances (all like. two or three of them)#but on a more domestic level too….i love the trope of one partner wearing the other’s ill-fitting t-shirt around the house because#it’s comfy and they like feeling embraced in a way by the perosn they love#grahhhhhh I’m weak and cliche i know i know#but yeah the jacket thing…….im imagining like. something happens that leaves edwin hurt and exhausted on the ground and charles rushes over#to check if he’s okay and to help him up. and in doing so he drapes his signature jacket over edwin’s shoulders#and yeah ghosts can’t get cold. but edwin doesn’t say that out loud because he’s too busy being all 💕😳💕. similarly he forgets about being#hurt and can only think about how charles’ jacket feels on him and how everyone can see this mark of affection on him and. and.#yeah#i remember one of my favorite things about (stealing) wearing my ex crushes and boyfriend’s jackets was feeling like. everyone can see#that I’m his. and he likes me. and that we’re Something. I’m Special to him#which is so teenager of me but I’m gonna be honest i doubt anything’s changed and I’m almost 24#I just haven’t felt like that in a long time. man i miss that feeling#but yeah edwin. being as jealous as he is and as up front about people knowing that charles comes first and they’re ‘Best Friends’ and all#i imagine he’d be the type to be a bit (not negatively) possessive and to love that little assertion of. yes. look. I’m his favorite.#we have something special. he loves me. specifically.#same reason i think he’d ACT annoyed at getting hickeys he can’t totally hide but really would kind of love the feeling of being marked#like that. it’s Evidence. he likes everyone knowing charles is his and vice versa.#I think i broke myself#rambling#payneland#dead boy detectives
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Vent? I guess?? More like talking about this INSANE guy omg
This guy has got to be the worst person I have ever fucking met omg
they never respect boundaries, even SIMPLE ones, like: kissing ppl on the cheek without consent, name calling, trauma dumping, touching
and this guy isn’t even confirmed he has autism, which is fine normally. Because neither am I, and so are most people.
but this mother fucker has gone to TWO offical autistic tests and BOTH said he didn’t have it, but the iNtErNeT quiz said he did so I guess he has it-
said I probably have adhd because I have daddy issues???
has kissed me and my bsf on the cheek without asking and when we confronted him he said he has ‘memory issues’ and doesn’t remember it (it happened only hours prior). Then had a panic attack since we ‘cornered him’ (I texted him on discord)
he CONSTANTLY trauma dumps, like he’d just walk up to me and without even saying hello he’d rant about his ‘broken foot’ or how ‘he hasn’t slept for three weeks straight’
and he so obviously fakes every mental illness and disability ever, it’s annoying bruhhhh. He’s half blind, half death, has scoliosis, schizophrenia, Tourette’s, autism, pregnancy? And so much more I can’t even name (none of these are officially confirmed either, and he only ‘uses’ or has the disability randomly on a blue moon when no one is talking to him)
once when I was getting kicked in the legs and being called useless by a shitty friend he laughed along and agreed I was useless, so in our next class we shared I refused to partner with him and just sat down at my desk. I was his only friend in that class but I didn’t care.
he slammed his chair into the desk, cried and ran out the room. When the teacher asked what’s wrong he went on a rant how ‘no body likes him and how he hates the school’, The teacher offered to be his partner but he said no and just ran outside..
then behind my back to my REAL friends he said I was being a cold asshole to him for no reason?
this mother fucker has faked a pregnancy for two years straight.
when I was dating this guy he sent me his kink list and said ‘I’m fucked if he gets horny’. We’re both minors, just started dating, and he knows I’m asexual.
AND THATS NOT EVEN ALL
once we were making some spicy butter chicken at school, and he was in charge of crushing and adding the spice.
when I ate my butter chicken it was really spicy to me, and I know I’m very sensitive to foods and people like to tease me about it. Which is funny and I can laugh along with it.
but this guy just kept and kept on making fun of me nonstop, calling me a pussy for not handling the spice and how I was ‘so white’ for how i was acting.
so I said- ‘maybe since I’m autistic I take it differently then most others?’ And I thought he’d sympathise since he’s also ‘autistic’.
nope.
motherfucker said ‘erm- well- my autistic level is higher then yours so-👆🤓’
WHAT
what does that got to do with ANYTHING!?? And you don’t even have a confirmed ‘autistic level’, neither do I?? What even is that!??
I hate this guy so muchhhh, the ONLY reason I keep him around in the friend group is because I’m worried he’ll victim blame himself again and make me look bad. Also because as cruel as it sounds, the drama he brings is so entertaining.
luckily my friend group agrees this guy is toxic as fuck and annoying, I’m planning on cutting him from the group the next time he does something fucked up to me again so I can call him out.
because dear GOD is he so annoying..
Idk why I even dated him bruh.. I think he’s what made me aro-ace and that not all relationships are just ‘friendships with extra hand holding’
#Vent#Guy at school#new sona?#Omg?#felt like being a woman today#Ex boyfriend#asexual#autism#toxic people
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oversharing in the tags time :)
#i think it’s time i go back to therapy#i keep having recurring nightmares about my ex best friend#or dreams where she reaches out to me. and explains why she cut me out#backstory. in high school had a lesbian toxic situationship with my#bestie. THEN i had another one. which kinda overlapped? the first one was open but also just messy#anyways. jade and i were like together for a year. then she got a boyfriend one day and i had a breakdown#it happened just after high school and i was sooooo … unwell. wasn’t out to my family felt like i was gonna die etc etc#(this is all pre dnp btw) anyways next year i found dnp. a couple months later she broke up with her bf#and we sorted dated for a while (this whole time we’d been just friends and i was still not really over it but hiding it)#and then she dated ANOTHER guy. they broke up and she had a breakdown and moved 9 hours away. i went#to visit her for a month. we like kinda dated again then and i thought we could make it work. then 2020. no travel#so she started dating a guy. didn’t tell me. even though we spoke every day. she moved in with him#then she breaks up with him mid 2021. i started dating my gf. but Jade was clingy and it was awkward#she started dating a sketchy guy who was homophobic. i went and visited her a few times#start of 2023 she tells me she wants to make more of an effort cause he didn’t like her friends so she cut everyone out. then she ghosted#in feb 2023. we had tickets for#mcr in march. i had to text her cause she’d blocked me on messenger and said im going to the concert whether she’s there or not#she said ‘yeah no worries! you can take someone else in my place too 😎’ she used that fucking emoji#and I haven’t spoken to her since. I think she quit her job . and that guy was not a nice man#so I still worry about her#writing this all down makes me realise she was a bitch and I deserve better#but I just want closure. it isn’t fair she replied so casually to my text when I said ‘you’ve blocked me’#it isn’t fair she HAS MY SIGNED COPY OF DANS BOOK#anyways. I need therapy to get over this#and I haven’t even written about my family issues (im#out and they’re supportive but my god they fucked me#up as a kid)#if you read this hi 👋 hope you are having a lovely day#don’t get in lesbian situationships!!!
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guys i was reading the most heavenly beautiful manga ever and the scanalation group dropped it and no ones gonna pick it up because you'll have to tough through really weird incest subplots to get to the good stuff. the meat if you will. and i dont think anyone would do that except for me. i must learn japanese for the masses (279 people who rated the manga. more who probably reead it without rating it) THE MASSES NEED MEEEE
#IT WAS GETTING SO GOOD U DONT UNDERSTAND ME....#THE DAD WAS LIKE MOVING ON FROM HIS DEAD WIFE AND HIS CHILDREN SUPPORTED HIM... AND THEN HE ENDED IT CAUSE HE DIDNT KNOW WHATG HE FELT....#AND THEN HE SAW HIS EX BOYFRIEND (HES GAAAAY) WITH A WOMAN?? AND GOT JEALOUS??? CRAZY. SO CRAZY. SOOOO CRAZY#READ FUDANSHI KAZOKU NEOWWWWW#PLEAASE THEIR RELATIONSHIP IS SO GOOD FOR THE DAD... SO MUCH CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT... ROMANTICAL DEVELOPMENT TOO.....#EVEN THE WEIRD INCEST SUBPLOT IS KIND GOING AWAY THEYRE GIVING THE YOUNGER BROTHER A NEW LOVE INTEREST WHO ISNT RELATED TO HIM#IM GOING INSANE IM ACTUALLY GOING INSANE#IM TWITCHING AND FROTHING LIKE A WILD BEAST I ALMOST SPELLED THAT AS BREAST LORD KNOWS I HAVE MY PRIORITIES STRAIGHT
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sometimes i remember how from age 15-18 i made an absolute and utter fool out of myself several times over BOYS because i thought i had the biggest crushes ever and i just
#and now im a lesbian#i just wanna hug 19 year old me who was so so confused over why she felt like her ex boyfriend wasn't the right even though he was amazing#v.#*the one
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#as a side note i had a moment of horrid irony when i thought suddenly that I WISHED mr knight were there#because he was at the vigil last year and used to be a part of my church. and i suddenly missed all my old housemates#who were here last year! went to hug people during the peace and a good friend asked if i was okay#i was like 😭😭😭😭 not really and then turned around and SAW the boy and was like well this is a twist in the plot i truly dont care for#anyway all's well i just cried buckets more my heart's been wrung OUT#he lives fae away. he was not supposed to come. anyway he did and i shook his hand formally because he offered to (???)#*far away#it was totally bizarre#he did not stay for long which. thank God. i wouldve been so much more tired if he had#but he wished me happy birthday which irked me because we'd had an unspoken agreement to not wish each other happy birthday (for fear of#mixed signals) which. happened i guess#it was INCREDIBLY bizarre. the safest ive ever felt in my life was when he was holding me#and now he's a familiar stranger i know too well whom i dont WANT to know#anyway it has been a heartwrenching and soul draining Lent and past six months or more and i was ready to cry#and so i did. bawled like a baby after certain readings and songs. cried and cried and cried#re: reasons for that concerning the ex boyfriend: it is SO weird and i dont know how to deal with it#like. i still have so much love that it feels like grief and the grief bleeds into that love too#but that love isnt for HIM anymore or at least not the person i found he was. so now it really does have nowhere to go#ANYHOW IT'S LATE BUT THE POINT IS. HE IS RISEN AND THERE ARE MORE IMPORTANT THINGS#THAN SEEING YOUR EX BOYFRIEND AT CHURCH AND BEING LIKE ?????? HUH????????
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I'm trying to write this story about a noir-type detective and I'm just finding it so difficult?? Like not even for plot or whatever, I think I'm okay with that, but I'm trying so hard to make my detective guy all angsty and broody and dark, like oooh he's so tortured and sad but he handles it like a Man(TM), that kinda stuff, but every time I make him interact with anyone he just ends up being super polite and friendly. He calls everyone Mr. and Miss and old people Sir or Ma'am. Like, earlier I was just writing and the words were coming along well and when I reread it he was talking about this restaurant he likes because "the tea reminds me of how my grandma used to make it :)" It really shows that I have never actually written angst in my life.
#and before you ask. yes he is gay#His (not yet) boyfriend is called Harry Angel and he's the brother of the first case's victim where she (his sister) received a death threa#and Harry hired Jack (my detective) to find out who#and then they stayed close even after the case and Jack was always calling Harry “Mr. Angel” but Harry asked him to drop the “Mr.”#cause it felt too formal. So then Jack starts calling him just “Angel” and Harry gets super shy about it (but he likes it).#I'm pulling a Crowley there aha#And Harry's sister is a lesbian and she totally ships it#BUT perhaps I might be able to redeem my noir angst-writing because I will later introduce another character#who is a rival detective and perhaps an ex of Jack's??#And maybe he's super serious and broody and he tells Jack “You've always been too soft Lovejoy.” (that's Jack's last name)#Soo maybe he can be my angsty detective character. And Jack can keep on being nice to old ladies and holding open doors for his boyfriend.#writing#just random rabmling#my apologies if you had to read through all these tags
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peeling my skin off and tearing my hair out and screaming and crying and vomiting and walking into traffic and
#i’ve had a rough one today#i am alone and unwanted and my ex boyfriend (who is one of my best friends still) is sleeping with one of my friends#i’m not jealous of either of them it’s just that that friend was the first person i ever talked to abt my ex who had never met or been told#abt him prior#and that meant a lot to me#so i felt a little betrayed at first#he told me it’s like a casual short term thing but it still stings#i’m also just jealous of the attention?#i just want to be wanted#i want someone to want me enough to actually do something about it#i’m so drained and depressed and sick to my stomach rn#ugh whatever i can’t do this anymore#shut up michael#my ex also bailed on plans we had tn that were HIS IDEA to fuck her. so i’m feeling rlly loved and valued and appreciated :))))#he apologized and like he’s going thru smth rn and he was very transparent abt that with me#AND YET#THESE HORRIBLE FEELINGS PERSIST#ok i’m actually done now
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was the social media site vk because h. hi I roleplayed warrior cats on vk when I was like 9🤝
oh no it was way worse than vk. it was ok (odnoklassniki)👍
#i’ve never used vk#well. okay. i have used it exactly Once sometime when i was 10#to not only impersonate a popular emo dog artist. but to also pretend to be my friend’s boyfriend so that she could piss off her ex or#something like that. i dont even remember if that worked but i know that i did reveal it to be Not True at one point#and me and the guy had a nice conversation#and then i never used vk again because. well. ihave no reason to use it first of all. second of all i hate that place and i would rather be#crucified than forced to interact with strictly russian communities#but anyway you would think that’s the end of the story. HOWEVER like a month or two ago my friend messaged me like#‘hey do you use vk?’ and i was like. No. You know i dont. and he was like ‘hmm. ok. well that explains why you haven’t been responding to my#memes since september’ and i went WHAT? <- guy who completely forgot he still had his vk account#so i logged back in and to my horror. the account did indeed still exist. it was all there the fake bio the impersonation the drawings that#weren’t mine. it felt like i found a corpse under the floorboards of my attic#so anyway i wasted no time in deactivating the account. so all ends well that ends well#i think#cramswering#but yeah anon we are shaking hands in solidarity because i also roleplayed cat oc family on odnoklassniki among with lion king oc family#it wasn’t wc just cat characters that were. emo. and awfully designed#damn i sure liked my emo cats and emo dogs
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today a great everlasting classic of going yayy ^-^ !!!! all day then i came home and immediately started bawling my eyes out
#adoro vivere (non è vero)#a#todays fun fact i saw that highschool friend with whom i had a brief exploding homerotic situationship with#that ended with me and her and her boyfriend (they were also breaking up) and that whole friends group spontaneously going up in flames#and she told me in the past year it felt like enough time had passed that her and said ex started seeing eachother again as friends#and she told me he asks me of you all the time. and i was like. of course he does 😁 (porco dio porco dio porco dio)
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Me: making fun of Boston relationship with Nick Me: Realizing that I was the Boston in my last situationship My last situationship: THOSE POEPLE SHOULD NEVER LAUGH
#notice how i say situationship and not relationship#only friends#only friends the series#bostonnick#he would ask me if we were boyfriend and girlfriend and i would say no each time#just the fact that i say that we didn't break up because we were never in a relationship makes me laugh#but like#the guy before him was worse than boston#like he told me that he wasnt right for me#and that he felt bad#just to find out that he wasn't right for me because he went back to his toxic ex#anyway i love trauma dumping in the tags
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Transmigrating into the Reborn Male Lead’s Ex-Boyfriend Chapter 155 (End)
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last chapter! i hope this helped someone out there get closure for this book. it's a silly little thing, but i'm glad i got to know how these two turned out.
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In the end, the doctor’s assessments were around an hour slower than the system’s. But their assessments held a similar pessimism regarding the viability of Xiao Yuanmu’s treatment when they spoke to Song Xuanhe.
As the head of the clinic, Xiao Yuanmu wasn’t wasn’t allowed to hear his own prognosis. It didn’t actually matter, as even without hearing it, he knew very well what the state of his body was.
He swept his eyes past the downcast expressions on his doctors’ faces, eyes only wavering when they fell on Song Xuanhe. He waved a hand to have the doctors leave the room, and broke the heavy air that had surrounded them when he had told Song Xuanhe to return to his world.
He said: “I want to go back to China.”
Song Xuanhe’s focus had always been on Xiao Yuanmu. When he spoke, he thought about it and then said: “Okay.”
He knew Xiao Yuanmu, knew that he wasn’t the kind of person who sat around waiting for death. Whatever this person did, he was the kind of person to do it without flaw. From the time that he went back to China for his assessment, to bringing everyone he trusted to his side without stirring up suspicions, to even now, he kept the fact of his condition so tightly wrapped that it was impossible to leak.
If Xiao Yuanmu was giving up on treatment, it could only be said that he knew the limits of his own body. The treatments available with modern medicine couldn’t give him a cure, at most, it could only bring him some relief, nothing more.
Even that relief was barely possible now.
Song Xuanhe felt like his heart was being crushed, heavy and painful. It was hard to even breathe, but he was somehow able to keep his cool.
Maybe it was because Xiao Yuanmu was the protagonist of this world, or because the system was so advanced in technology. But even now, with overwhelming worry surrounding him, he still didn’t feel scared.
More than that, he even felt some strange sort of confidence. He thought that Xiao Yuanmu would definitely not die.
If the system knew what his thoughts were, it might mock him for his superstitious ideas. But right now the system was busy searching for the reason that Xiao Yuanmu was breaking down, it had no time to look through Song Xuanhe’s thoughts.
Seeing how quickly Song Xuanhe agreed, Xiao Yuanmu looked slightly surprised. He thought that Song Xuanhe would try to stop him.
“Once you’ve rested properly, we’ll leave,” Song Xuanhe said.
“I’ve already gotten Yang Jie to book us a flight, I can rest on the flight.” Xiao Yuanmu said.
Until the flight, the two had a tacit understanding not to bring up whether or not Song Xuanhe would return to his original world after three days.
The flight would take around eleven hours. The moment they boarded the flight, Song Xuanhe pulled Xiao Yuanmu into the bedroom. The two of them laid side by side in a cot, listening to the sound of the plane taking off, neither speaking a word.
Time passed like this, seconds into minutes. Xiao Yuanmu finally couldn’t resist the exhaustion in his body and closed his eyes.
Hearing the soft breathing by his side, Song Xuanhe slowly moved his hand, gently taking Xiao Yuanmu’s cool hand into his.
In his memories, Xiao Yuanmu’s hand and his icy personality were always different, his hand was always warm and dry. Now, though, his hand carried a faint chill, and was slightly damp. It made Song Xuanhe’s heart clench.
He couldn’t resist asking the system: [Have you found a way to treat Xiao Yuanmu yet?]
The system took a moment to reply: [No, his organ failure isn’t normal. It’s not because of any disease, and it’s impossible to find the source of the failure. Also, I can’t figure it out- Xiao Yuanmu is the protagonist of this world, his body shouldn’t be failing like this. If I had to guess, I would wonder if this is perhaps the result of some previous plotline.]
Song Xuanhe’s brows furrowed. [Xiao Baicong’s kidnapping?]
[Yes,] the system replied. [This world was made from an author’s time online, and revolves around the plot and circumstances they created. Because the author never finished the book, the plot that the world is controlled by can only go up to that point. If there aren’t any mishaps, the plot of the book should only finish after two years. Xiao Yuanmu should still be the protagonist in that time, so nothing should be able to happen to his body in the meantime.]
[But the plot of the book has ended now,] Song Xuanhe’s expression suddenly changed as he continued to speak to the system. [Xiao Yuanmu is no longer the protagonist of this world.]
[...Yes.]
Seeing Song Xuanhe’s face, the system didn’t continue, letting him have some time to digest this.
It didn’t take him long to speak again: [If Xiao Yuanmu isn’t the protagonist of this world, what will happen to him?]
The system said: [You already know.]
Song Xuanhe did already know, but he couldn’t help but act like a spoilt young master again, hoping that the system would give him an answer that still carried some hope.
[Will he really die?] Song Xuanhe found it difficult to speak.
The system fell silent, then avoided his question: [You still have sixty-nine hours to think about it. You said before that you had a reason you had to go back. Since it’s a necessary reason, I hope that you think about it properly.]
[Is that your answer for me, then?]
The system didn’t answer, and Song Xuanhe fell silent as well.
In this silence, he felt in the bottom of his heart a drop of despair begin to spread.
Before this, he had always thought that Xiao Yuanmu’s protagonist halo would help protect him. No matter how difficult the situation was, he never thought that it would turn that severe, since the world would always force things back on track. This time, since the world’s protagonist had an issue, the world would of course step in to save him.
But the system told him that Xiao Yuanmu was not the protagonist of this world anymore.
Now he was just like any other of the infinite beings on this planet, the world no longer cares whether he lives or dies. The world will treat him like any other being, allowing him to pass through the cycle youth, old age, illness, and death without care as if he were a being no more remarkable than dust, no more individual than an ant.
[Xiao Yuanmu is awake.]
The system’s voice pulled Song Xuanhe out of his own mind. His eyelashes shook for a moment as he pulled out his cell phone. The plane had entered the Chinese border, and the time zone had switched to this timezone as well. It was 10:50PM, and after half an hour they would be landing.
Song Xuanhe’s eyes were on his phone, his mind unable to untangle the mess of thoughts within. He hadn’t decided what to do yet.
Xiao Yuanmu grabbed the back of his neck and pulled him downwards, his lips turning upwards to fill them. He easily opened Song Xuanhe’s jaw, pressing into his mouth to make his claim. He alternated between passion and sweetness, leaving no corner of his mouth unexplored.
“Good morning.” Xiao Yuanmu let go of him, the corner of his lip turning upwards, a soft smile on his face.
Song Xuanhe looked at him dazedly, expression open as if everything were normal. After a pause, he replied: “It’s not morning right now, but. Good morning.”
He bit at Xiao Yuanmu’s lips again before speaking: “We’ll be landing soon. Put on your seatbelt.”
Xiao Yuanmu thought about how meticulous Song Xuanhe was about checking their seatbelts every time they drove and laughed a little, fastening his own seatbelt.
The plane landed steadily. Because it was already late, they didn’t contact anyone else, and directly went back to their previous residence.
Even though nobody had lived there in some time, there were still people who came over every few days to clean and lock up. When they returned, all they needed to do was change the sheets and they could go to sleep.
It was Song Xuanhe’s first time changing a duvet, and he stared at the zipper of the duvet cover for a long time before finally carefully replacing it, focusing with single-minded intent on the task.
Xiao Yuanmu watched him from the door, lips curling unconsciously into a smile.
“Let me.”
Xiao Yuanmu walked up to Song Xuanhe’s side and took the duvet from his hand. While tidying out the duvet that was being messily stuffed into the cover, he also taught Song Xuanhe: “You have to air out the duvet first, and then make sure that the four corners-”
Song Xuanhe listened to him intently, seeing how Xiao Yuanmu managed to neatly make the duvet in under half a minute.
Comparing the two of them felt embarrassing.
“This was my first try, wait ‘till I’ve practiced a bit more.” He said stubbornly. “Then we can have a duvet-stuffing contest, and whoever loses will have to listen to whatever the winner says.”
Xiao Yuanmu laughed and asked: “How much time do you need to practice before this contest?”
“At least three to five years, otherwise it’s unfair...” After he spoke, Song Xuanhe fell silent. Xiao Yuanmu’s smile dimmed a bit.
Looking at Xiao Yuanmu’s darkening eyes, he said: “Xiao Yuanmu, you will definitely be okay. Believe in me.”
Xiao Yuanmu lifted his eyes to meet his, curling his shaking hand into a fist. He made a soft sound of agreement.
“Well, now that the sheets are done being changed, we can go to bed,” Song Xuanhe said. “Or are you not tired anymore after sleeping for too long on our flight?”
“Let’s go to sleep,” Xiao Yuanmu changed into his pajamas and said. “I want to watch you sleep.”
Song Xuanhe suddenly walked forwards until he hit Xiao Yuanmu, beginning to peel open his pajamas. “Since you’re not tired, why don’t we do something else instead?”
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For the next two days, Xiao Yuanmu and Song Xuanhe had congee together and went to visit the orphanage, went to visit the Song household to visit Li Nianan, visited Song Xuanlin, called up Xiao Shenglin and the others for a gathering, took the orphanage children to the playground together...
Time passed quickly, until it was down to the final three hours before Song Xuanhe had to make his decision about whether or not to return to his world. Up until then, the system still hadn’t given him any information on how to treat Xiao Yuanmu.
Xiao Yuanmu had long since given up, but Song Xuanhe refused to.
Until the system said to him: [I know why Xiao Yuanmu’s body is breaking down.]
[Xiao Yuanmu’s physical breakdown is not because of something happening to his body, it’s an issue with his soul...] the system said. [He said before that he had already been reborn twice. Maybe it’s this that wore down his soul, making it begin to break down. As his soul breaks down, so will his body. There’s virtually no way of stopping it.]
Song Xuanhe lifted his head to look outside at the night sky, bright with stars. With no change in expression, he asked: [You said ‘virtually’. That means that there’s still hope, right?]
[Yes, the soul-replenishment elixir,] the system said. [From the System Miracle Store. If you choose to stay here, you can get it in exchange.]
Song Xuanhe’s eyes lit up, and he began to speak when the system cut him off. [However, the things from the System Miracle Store only work for you.]
[What do you mean?]
[The soul-replenishment elixir can only be given to you.]
Song Xuanhe’s eyes dimmed a little. The hope that he had been using all his might to hold onto these past few days began to break down, and he felt frustration and exhaustion well up in his heart. [Then what use is it?]
[You’re the system, it’s your store, isn’t there a way to bring the elixir out?] Song Xuanhe asked. [I still have two opportunities to ask for help, and a rebirth pass. If I give them all to you, can you give the soul-replenishment elixir to Xiao Yuanmu?]
[I can’t...] the system said. [I exist in your mind, I can only make exchanges with you. Those are the rules.]
Song Xuanhe fell silent for a few seconds, then his eyes lit up again. [You said before that you’ve crossed hosts before, right? That means you can enter someone else’s body. You can enter Xiao Yuanmu’s body and give him the elixir, right?]
[In theory, that’s right.] the system said. [But I can only enter someone’s body when I have a mission order. That would be against system regulations. Also, while I’m still bound to you, I can’t leave your body for someone else.]
[But after you and I unbind...]
After beginning to speak, Song Xuanhe stopped himself. The system had told him before what the consequences of breaking system regulations were. All beings had a fear of being annihilated. Just because it was a system, it wasn’t as if he could tell it to sacrifice itself to save Xiao Yuanmu.
[I saw a life conversion device in the System Miracle Store, what is that?]
The system didn’t want to answer, but felt compelled to. [It allows one person to extract their life force and give it to another person. But there are serious side effects. The person extracting their life force will feel extreme pain from the exchange process’ effects on their soul, and afterwards their body will also be much weaker.]
[If I gave my life force to Xiao Yuanmu, will he be able to live?]
The system was silent for a long moment. [Yes.]
[I will exchange for the life conversion device.] A smile floated onto Song Xuanhe’s face, and he said confidently: [Once my time in this world is over, let me exchange for it.]
The system didn’t answer, but Song Xuanhe took his silence as a tacit agreement.
He turned his smiling face to look at Xiao Yuanhe. When he saw the other’s sleeping face, his smile dimmed for a moment. He reached out and cupped his forehead gently, smile growing deeper.
He knew that there would be a way to save Xiao Yuanmu.
Xiao Yuanmu’s sleep was very light. When Song Xuanhe’s hand touched him, he woke up.
He was lying on Song Xuanhe’s leg, and his eyes met a smiling expression that seemed to suddenly be relieved of a heavy burden. An idea began to rise from the bottom of his heart against better reason, though he found it hard to believe.
“You’re awake?” Song Xuanhe quickly noticed Xiao Yuanmu waking up. He lowered his head and said: “Do you want to sleep a little more?”
“It’s fine,” Xiao Yuanmu sat up, looking at his watch. “I’ll sleep after you leave.”
Song Xuanhe raised an eyebrow. “Then I’m afraid you’ll be waiting a long time before you sleep again.”
Xiao Yuanmu’s face was calm as he spoke: “You promised me before that you’d return to your own world.”
Song Xuanhe blinked, lips tugging upwards. “But that was on the premise that there was no saving you.”
Xiao Yuanmu paused, unable to hide the astonishment on his face. Looking at Song Xuanhe, he couldn’t bring himself to ask the question.
“You can be saved,” Song Xuanhe had never seen such clear astonishment on Xiao Yuanmu’s face before, and he couldn’t help laughing out loud at the sight. He reached a hand out to his shoulder, pulling him in by the back of his neck into an embrace as he said: “I told you there was a way to save you, so I will save you.”
“How?” Xiao Yuanmu lowered his hand, pushed down his astonishment until his face was calm again.
“My system found a way,” Song Xuanhe said. “If I stay in this world, I can make a trade for an item in the system store. Before, I couldn’t see what was in the store, but this morning I saw something-”
Song Xuanhe tried to dramatize the climax of his story, but Xiao Yuanmu’s face wasn’t impressed at all, only grew colder.
“The soul-replenishment elixir,” Song Xuanhe said, clicking his tongue. “Your organ failure was because of damage to your soul, and the damage to your soul was because of your rebirths. That’s why the doctors in this world weren’t able to cure it. But with the soul-replenishment elixir, we can fix the damage that your rebirths did to your soul.”
Xiao Yuanmu’s pupils shook. He was usually quick to react, but this time he couldn’t get his mind around what was being said. Song Xuanhe’s words were simple and easy to understand, but he found it difficult to believe him. He had already convinced himself so thoroughly of his inevitable future, and yet that inevitability was being shattered so easily.
“What’s the price you need to pay?”
Song Xuanhe pursed his lips, seeing the way that Xiao Yuanmu tensed nervously on top of him, and couldn’t help but let out a giggle. He said: “Before, I haggled three opportunities to ask for help out of the system, but I only used one. The soul-replenishment elixir is in exchange for me not returning to my world, and the other two opportunities for help. If we don’t count me not returning to my world, it barely costs anything.”
Song Xuanhe had always been good at scamming people. Xiao Yuanmu knew this, but he still was never able to find his true intentions from his eyes. It was the same this time, he couldn’t tell if Song Xuanhe was lying or not.
He wanted to believe it was true, he wanted so badly to selfishly be with Song Xuanhe for more days, more weeks. Even a few more hours would be enough.
But if it wasn’t true, then the consequences would be that Song Xuanhe would be trapped forever in a world that he had said he didn’t feel like he belonged in.
He couldn’t do that to him.
“You don’t believe me?” Song Xuanhe’s brows knitted together.
Xiao Yuanmu’s lips shook, then he said: “I’m just scared.”
“I’m afraid of you loving me more,” he pulled him into an embrace. “Afraid that you’ll be alone afterwards.”
Song Xuanhe’s eyes looked blank for a moment, then turned red. His throat moved, then he pushed Xiao Yuanmu away to say: “It’s going to be time soon. You’ll be able to know soon. We don’t just have these few moments. We still have days, months, years.”
“Z48,” Song Xuanhe laughed, and then spoke: “I have to thank you for taking care of me for all this time. I haven’t said it before, but I’m glad I met you. I’m also glad that you took me to this world. Even though we’ll be saying goodbye now, I’ll definitely remember you. Let’s do this.”
Xiao Yuanmu’s body was one long line of tension, staring at Song Xuanhe. It didn’t seem like anything was happening to Song Xuanhe, but he could feel his weak body beginning to feel a little stronger, his shaking limbs becoming steady again, his fuzzy mind clearing slightly, the pain in his body beginning to lift...
Not three minutes later, he could feel that his body was healthy again. And Song Xuanhe was still beside him.
He couldn’t believe it, it was actually true.
He grabbed Song Xuanhe’s hand, his clear voice becoming hoarse as an uncharacteristic quiver entered his voice: “You’re still here.”
Song Xuanhe’s eyes turned up. “Of course I’m still here.”
As he spoke, his face stilled as he felt something move in his mind, he immediately recognized that it was something moving out of his consciousness at last. He quickly said in his mind: [Thank you, Z48.]
[No thanks necessary,] the system’s voice had a smile in it. Its presence being removed from his mind felt weaker. [Goodbye.]
Song Xuanhe paused, said: [Don’t you need to extract my life force?]
He hadn’t felt any sort of pain up until now, and couldn’t feel his body becoming weaker. Actually, apart from the feeling of the system leaving his mind, he couldn’t feel much of anything at all.
[It’s already been extracted,] Maybe it was because of the extraction process, but the system’s voice became weaker and weaker. [I haven’t said it yet, but meeting you was the happiest thing to happen to me. My greatest wish is for you to be happy. In the future, you have to be happy, and brave...]
The system didn’t finish its words before dissipating. Song Xuanhe blinked and lifted his gaze to the stars outside. A gap he had always felt in his heart was gently being filled.
“I love you.”
Xiao Yuanmu pulled him closer, covering his lips. His eyes were full of love, and a happiness that he would never get sick of.
Song Xuanhe pulled himself back, heart full of relief and joy. He tilted Xiao Yuanmu’s jaw up, bringing himself into the moment. “I love you too.”
In the sky, a softly shining star lit up for a moment, then gently became lost in a sea of constellations.
#Transmigrating into the Reborn Male Lead’s Ex-Boyfriend#RMLE#RMLE chapter 155#TN:#ngl this ending felt...a bit rushed#there were a ton of bits i really liked and a lot of phrases that made me இ௰இ#but lowkey i wish sxh had been forced to give up some of his life...the DRAMA. the TRAGEDY#i am happy abt the deus ex machina tho#i did NOT start a fun transmigration romp to get hit w MCD in the last chapter#DID the system die tho...system for mvp. absolute king#anyways hope everyone enjoyed baby's first translation project!#i'm glad i picked smth...not xianxia lol#will i do more? eh. if smth catches my interest#i have too many jjwxc points now so#fyi im not rly planning on translating the extras#unless they're abt xym and sxh#simply bc im the kind that gets attached to the main couple#so if they're abt other characters ill prolly just be like#congrats or sorry i guess#anyways hope everyone enjoyed these boys and their drama!!
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ok i have what is apparently an unpopular opinion but i honestly think a lot of the revenge things ppl do to ppl that cheat on them that i see on tik tok are too far
#i seen one when someone quite literally ruined their ex boyfriends chances of getting to med school or working anywhere in the health field#i saw one where they literally threw a family ring of generations into a lake bc her husband cheated#like yes he cheated and that is SO wrong and u deserve so much that he does not#but that is still a person and to a degree you still have to treat them w basic levels of decency#such as not ruining their career that is just#idk that’s rly not the flex you think it is#the suicide rates of med school is wild#that shit is NOT easy and for u to perhaps throw away those qualifications for someone bc they have been unfaithful to you#is not rly the evening of the playfield u might think it is#idk maybe that’s just me but#heartbreak u do bounce back from#some things are too permanent to be ‘morally-just’ revenge in my eyes#maybe this is just me#idk i don’t like to think i have sympathy for cheaters#i don’t. i’ve been cheated on#but i do have sympathy for people as people#IDK I RLY DONT#the comments are always praising them#but that med school one made me sick to my stomach#literally i felt genuinely nauseous#u have to understand that#something like that#it’s bigger than just#oh haha i broke his car window now he has to get a new one#my cousin is in med school and his parents have worked TIRELESSLY as immigrants#to save up for med school or wtv he chose to pursue#ruining something like that is not something that just affects one person#u might just like#put multiple ppls lifes worths of sacrifice to no use#like idk. rough up his car a bit !! put a glitter bomb in his stuff !! don’t mess w ppls entire futures it’s just…so wrong beyond cheating
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