#InPatient

[neuroticboyfriend]

not that people who've been to the ward are immune from being pro-psych, but if you've never been to a psych ward*, i sincerely don't want to hear about how psychiatry/psychology is good because you've had such a good experience with X provider, or X medication saved your life. *i also don't want to hear about how the forced treatment was what you needed or how the ward you went to let you have your cellphone etc. etc. i genuinely do not want to hear it.

like. the first hospitalization traumatized me so bad, i became dangerously delusional, was re-hospitalized, and sent to state. when they transferred me, i was strapped down into a gurney at all points on my body, *head and neck included*, and loaded onto an ambulance. my parents lost most of their parental rights; i was a ward of the state and had near zero rights. when i got there, they made me choose if, "if necessary," if i wanted to be wrangled down and forcibly injected with a sedative... or wrangled down and locked in a padded room all by myself (but at least i had a choice, right?). i signed consents and paperwork that i did not fucking understand. then i was told i'd be locked inside for 2 straight weeks (which yes, they followed through with). the psych ward was remote, nothing but barbed fences and trees around us. cant even see the sun through the heavily tinted windows. that was the *start* of the stay. i'm sure you can imagine nothing good came after.

so like. if you walk out of a place like that thinking it was good for you, then i can only imagine how traumatized you are and i hope you heal someday. but if you've never faced the destruction of your autonomy like that and go around being like "oh this is good actually" then shut the ever living fuck up.

[this-smile-is-real]

I need your prayers/love energy/healing energy.

I’ve been in the mental health ward for 2 days after coming down from medical and the plan of what was going to happen changed as soon as I got down here.

I was told ‘I’m going to say you’re a lost cause but you’ve tried every therapy out there and haven’t gotten better.’

I tried so hard with the highest meal plan yesterday that they’ve put me onto to try and restore some weight and it’s a brutal adjustment.

I want to go home but I know I need to do everything I can to take this opportunity to fuel my body and brain even though it goes everything the eating disorder wants.

I want to live a fulfilling life and thrive and pour my energy into all the dreams that I have and that people spoke over me.

I’ve slept poorly the last 2 nights and this morning my body is in agony. My pain levels upon getting up with 9/10 and that’s on a normal pain scale (not a spoonie pain scale).

I want to get better and I’m doing everything I can but some extra support/messages etc. would be so so appreciated. Thank you 🙏🏻

[woundofglory]

Please pray for me.

I am inpatient at a psychiatric hospital right now, working on healing my depression and anxiety. I will be here for 2 months, so please pray that I am safe and healthy. I will be holding the Lord’s hand this entire time.

God bless 🤍

[back2theoldhouse]

Simple changes to make to Lose Weight

tips from a pr0an4 rexie (TW)

1. Make lunch 60 calories

Replace bread with 3 ryvita crackers, with salt. Eat this every day for lunch.

2. Do 8500 steps every day

Exercise is important. Don't just do it to compensate, do it to exist, and to continue being perfect.

3. Say no

The more you say no, the easier it will become. Eventually, people will stop offering,and it will be so easy.

4. Fruits and Veggies

If you want to eat anything outside of meals, ut can only be fruits or vegetables. These calories are important baby <3

5. PROTEIN

Try to eat meat once a day. You don't want to get an edema. Then someone would notice, and stop you

6. Don't sit down

Sit down only for meal times, and certain times of the day: eg between 06:00 and 08:00. It is important to keep mobile for at least part of the day

These aren't all of my tips, but I hope these were helpful - reblog if you agree; feel free to add

[archivegeo]

Opinion: 9 Questions, most are short answer (links to SurveyXact)

"hospital for the insane" patient rooms -> museum exhibit?

Responses are quite personal as they relate to mental illness, BUT they're fully anonymous & will only put into my Spring research portfolio to be seen by two faculty members at a university in Denmark.

[angelic-cosm]

We went into inpatient this week, and it was long overdue yet really traumatic. We were told to go voluntarily or else they'd get a court order to keep us there against our will...so yeah, it was against our will. Jadie was so scared. Some of us feel like the hospital is going to call us any minute and say we need to come back or else. That's not realistic, but it's a paranoid thought that follows us at night. We're finally home.

[slveepyscwrs]

okay but this is a quick shoutout for the disabled peeps who live long term or permanently in the hospital

on the side of the internet that i grew up on there were a lot of hospital kids, and they were all some of the kindest people ive ever met

i remember asking one of my friends long ago about her pain and she said, "i dont know, i just need a distraction"

and yet none of us can imagine the pain they must be in, constantly being confined to a bed that isn't theirs 24/7, with nothing to do and not knowing if they'll ever be free

if you are one of them, take a virtual hug

[neuro-divergent-angel]

I think I would benefit so much from being inpatient for a while or some kind of supported living. Has anyone been inpatient before for mental health? Could you tell me what a typical day is like in there?

I need help with daily tasks.

I need support with eating. My brain puts so many rules on food that it's easier just not to eat.

Although I can finally drive now it still causes me so much anxiety.

Im so bad with money as well. I really really need someone to be in charge of my finances and tell me when it's OK to spend money and when it's not.

Everything in life is just so difficult at the moment.

I just dream of being in a controlled, supportive environment. You know like where meal times are set and the menu is already decided. And I get a weekly budget that I need to stick to. And I can wear my noise cancelling headphones and have my fidgets without people judging.

2 weeks till my meeting with a psychiatrist. I'm praying they can diagnose me correctly so I can then get the support I so desperately need.

[rigormortisangel]

all that inpatient treatment for nothing i wasted months of my life and i didnt even get better

[broken-bxy]

So I haven’t posted on here in years, my old posts make me really sad, because I’m here to tell you, things in fact, DO get better. After becoming very unwell with an eating disorder and severe self harm, last September I was admitted to a specialist psych hospital. I’ve been here a little over a year now. And it’s helped SO much. They’ve put me on a combination of meds that work for me, finally offered me the right therapy. For the first time in forever I finally see myself with a future guys. And it’s magical. I want to experience so much. If you’re looking for a sign to commit to recovery, this is it! I promise it is so worth every cry, every heartache. If I can do it so can you.

[neuroticboyfriend]

massive trigger warning for abuse/suicide on this one, but for anyone who thinks psych wards are about protecting people:

1. my friend was trying to choke herself. i begged the staff to help her, and they said she was only looking for attention. minutes later, they call a code, wrangled her to the ground, and forcibly sedated her.

2. a girl was upset because she couldnt call her dad past a certain time. she started screaming, and crying, messing up the front desk. 8 security guards took her down. they broke her arm and sprained her wrist.

3. i came back to my unit in shambles because the staff on hand did nothing to stop a fight. i had to remedy the situation myself. things like this happened often.

4. i was having a trauma meltdown during "quiet time." the youngest patient tried to comfort me, and staff told her to stop and go back to her room because i was "a big girl who can handle herself." i was an out trans guy. the staff member didnt speak to me at all.

5. they separate roommates if they become friends. but they put me and my friend together for the sole purpose of putting us on constant observation together. we had zero privacy, even in the bathroom (which they took the door off of). at state, if you're on C.O, they take away your clothes, possessions, and "privileges."

6. im a CSA survivor. i was forced to regularly occupy the same space as a rapist, no matter how many flashbacks it caused me. they even roomed him next to me.

7. i am intersex. at state, doctors forced me onto an anti-androgen. i refused at first; they labeled me noncompliant, extended my stay, and took away my "privileges" (ex: snacks, going outside, doing fun activities, socializing).

8. they left my friend in a padded room strapped to a table for hours. they then let her off the table and left her in the padded room overnight. she had to wait hours in the morning to be let out.

9. at state, kids have to choose between being forcibly injected with a sedative, or being locked in a padded room if deemed "necessary." your parents have to sign away most of their parental rights, and if they want to sign you out, they need to go to court. for months. the state owns you.

we were all children. none of what i said is a "bad apples" situation. things like this happened every. single. day. it happened at multiple hospitals. these places are made to control mentally ill and other marginalized people. they exist to abuse us into conformity, take away our autonomy, and keep us away from polite society. psych wards should not exist.

[this-smile-is-real]

Hi.

My name is Hannah and I am 27 years old.

I have lived with Complex PTSD and Anorexia since I was 6 years old.

Over the years I have also been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, panic disorder, Functional Neurological Disorder, Fibromyalgia, a large bowel that no longer works and Costochondritis. I have had 46 hospital admissions both medical and mental health over the past 8 years to date (date of posting is April 2024)

I require weekly psychology, dietitian,, GP and physiotherapy appts as well as weekly medication costs, and other specialist appointments frequently.

I have been on the disability pension since 2019 but that doesn’t even begin to cover half of what I require and I have thousands of bills outstanding and money required to access the supports that I need to not be in hospital every few weeks.

I so appreciate the current cost of living but would be so grateful any donation large and small so that I can begin to truly live. Believe me when I say I have exhausted every option possible to try and get on track and moving forward.

Thank you for reading x

[tranquilsanatorium]

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[back2theoldhouse]

Simple Changes to make to Lose Weight p2.

1. Set times for drinking

Especially for drinking any liquids with calories, like squash etc. Drink black coffee all day, but set limits on high calorie drinks. Eg: only between 17:00 and 18:00

2. Get enough sleep

If you don't sleep, plblood Cortisol eith be higher, and this causes the body to hold onto more fat.

3. Stay cold

If you are feeling cold, don't wrap up too much. The body burn more calories when cold (up to 30% more) so just stick it out. Its for the best.

4. Water load

Flush out all of the crap, and drink a ton of water. You excrete waste products like fat in the urine plus burn calories. Cold water is also best, as it requires energy to warm up your body.

5. Wear your "skinny" clothes as least once a week

This acts as a free th1nsp0, and will keep you motivated to stay fitting in them

Hope you enjoyed my tips - reblog if you agree, or can add any yourself <3

[never-not-ever]

If I think about it then I will feel so much and it’s too much and I’m scared.

I did have a really, really, amazing phone call with my old florist manager a little bit ago. I love her and she reached out at the perfect time. The job stuff is checked off. Things will work out once partial is over and I feel ready to start. Short shifts, not a lot of hours and understanding of my situation. I feel comfortable with that job plan.

As for leaving here it seems so final now. Like I’ve said SO many times since January that I thought I was leaving. Well…. now it’s happening. I’m sitting in on a group on Thursday at the outpatient clinic where the partial is at. They’ll tell me when they’re available for me to start and then a date will be set.

Definitely next week. The question is before or after Wednesday (my social workers last day). It’s all up to me. The decision is mine and I don’t know what to do.

This is happening for real this time. Unless I have a psychotic breakdown and try an attempt on the unit… But I don’t see that happening.

So discharge.

Next week.

For real.

And I am terrified.

[dissentdisdain]

tundra

for a month now

with my hands frozen to my chest

overlapping above my heart

emotions, frozen

i have been forced to listen to the wind

desperately waiting for guidance

on how to bring myself back to life