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thetadispatcher · 1 day ago
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The RK900 gave him a suspicious look, deciding he'd show some of his internal emotions to see what reaction he'd get from the human. He felt showing a little would help him get a better read of Bishop, and exactly what he wanted from his attempts to upset him.
"Possibly, I wouldn't know as I don't have much to base it on. The only siblings I've interacted with are an android and a human, and two half siblings." And he felt basing anything on Gavin's behavior would be pointless, his partner wasn't a good tool for learning as he seemed to have behaviors that only applied to him.
"Wouldn't be the first time, and I doubt it's far from the last time any government body will do that." Hugh said with a roll of his eyes, he wasn't excited to see how the military would handle it once they found out. He knew it would just be a bunch of lies and finger pointing, not them trying to use the situation to look good for anyone who was pro android. They'd likely find it wasn't worth it to take that angle for the situation as there wasn't enough humans like that to make it worth it.
"I did send him their way, that was the only task I could think to give him." Dan had sent Kelvin to help box up whatever toys the group had picked out, after he'd asked the other androids if there was anything they might need his help with.
"I'm sure he'd appreciate any help that she can offer with his memory issues, I have noticed he does seem a little upset when he's forgotten something he's learned." Kelvin seemed the most upset by his memory loss then anyone else, they'd just accepted that they would have to reteach the android certain things and that he wasn't deleting things on purpose, so there was no use getting upset with him.
"I don't think that thought cross their mind, and if it did, they likely didn't want to explain why they had sold him." Brent had been a gift, not something the studio had ordered, so they likely didn't have to explain why he'd been sold off after they'd pretended to appreciate the gesture.
"He's just up in the garage." Most of the industrial units hung out in the garage, he suspected it was due to the environment being more of what they were accustomed to, as many had never stepped foot into a house so it was new territory for them.
"I have to talk to the construction units anyways." Dan explained as he lead the way to the garage, through the door that connected to two buildings.
A bunch of male and female androids were standing around talking happily and laughing, well some were working on various projects in different sections of the garage.
Dan walked over to the group that was gathered around a car listening to a far younger looking male android explain something in a heavily accented voice. He turned to look at the PL600 as he finished and the group dispersed to do whatever he'd instructed them to do. "Break somethin'?" The android asked with a chuckled, his smile widening at the annoyed look Dan gave him.
"Perhaps, you looking to be next?" The PL600 replied, knowing the other wouldn't take the threat seriously or be offended by it. "Not right now, but I'll let ya know if I change my mind." The other responded cheerfully, clearly enjoying the banter.
The android leaned onto the car jack he'd been holding onto as he looked Rook over. "Now you I don't recognize, name's Ellis." He paused as Dan said something to him using their link. "I don't go by anything else, in case ya thought I renamed myself like Brent. Comin' up with names is hard, and I'm fine with the one I got. Suits me jus' fine." He explained now that he knew why they had come to see him.
"Yeah, I got myself thrown in the junkyard 'cause apparently I wasn't the 'hot seller' my owner thought I'd be. He was wrong a lot, but I' glad I don't have to deal with 'im anymore. Hard to miss a man who felt the need to correct me, like I didn't know how to do the thing I was made for." He rolled his eyes as he recalled the man who'd been his owner, there wasn't much he could say that was nice about him and he wasn't about to try.
"I'm fine with people talkin' to me 'bout who I was modeled after an' stuff, don't bother me. Or other video games, old ones really. Like Jazzpunk, that's an interestin' one."
It was difficult to read Bishop when he could maintain his usual frowny look regardless of the circumstances. His android counterpart specifically chose not to show a greater range of emotions, despite being more open about them, but the agent had spent several decades pretty much surgically removing his.
There was no reason for him to stick around to play a card game and chat when he could be off helping with important research back at the base. But since going back currently wasn't an option, a usually well hidden side of him was beginning to show as he specifically went out of his way to bother Nines.
He couldn't do otherwise. He had to antagonize the other person in the room who was keeping him from having full control of the exchange.
"That's what they all say." At least it was entertaining enough to keep him from trying to find enrichment by starting a fight.
"At this point, all the military can do is hide its involvement in case there is an investigation." He would know. He had done that plenty of times.
"Yes, you can ask Willow to give it a shot." Rook replied, "She might not have a long conversation with him, but she might be able to give you some more information on Kelvin or the way he thinks. It kinda sounds like he's trying to save the stuff you're teaching him on bad sectors of his memory. Maybe she can do something about that."
It was likely that Willow was still listening in on the conversation, but she found showing up with a solution to somebody's problems unprompted could feel a bit condescending. The best way to do this was to inquire her directly.
"That sucks. But at least they didn't start selling him around like a rare collectible." She would make sure to not bring the topic up with Brent though. He deserved to be treated like he was his own person. "Sure, I'd like to meet this other guy."
It was better than getting chased around by mutants.
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heliosunny · 24 hours ago
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PLEASE IM BEGGING LIKE THE BIGGEST BEGGAR IN THE WORLD DO A DAN HENG LUCKY EGG FIC( Unless you don’t want to!)
LUCKY EGG
Yandere!Dan Heng x Reader
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You didn’t expect much when you got the egg. Sure, it looked a little different compared to normal eggs people got, but that was normal, right?
For the next three days, you never let it out of your sight. And then, the feeling of being watched started. At first, you thought it was your imagination. By the third day, your unease had turned into a quiet, gnawing dread.
That night, as you walked home with the egg cradled against your chest, a shadow moved.
Before you could react, a figure lunged from the darkness. A hand snatched at the egg.
"Hand it over!"
Instinctively, you held it tighter. "No."
"Then I'll just have to take it myself."
A flash of silver—a weapon.
You barely had time to flinch before-
Crack
A burst of blinding teal light exploded from the egg, knocking the intruder back. The warmth in your arms vanished as something took its place.
A young man now stood before you. Dark, messy hair, his expression calm but unreadable. He stepped in front of you, placing himself between you and the attacker.
"Step away from them."
The assailant cursed under their breath before lunging again.
With startling speed, the man deflected the strike, the enemy barely had time to react before he countered, sending them stumbling back. Realizing the fight was unwinnable, they vanished into the night.
You clutched the empty eggshell, heart hammering, struggling to process what just happened.
The young man turned, his gaze scanning you carefully.
“Are you hurt?”
You shook your head slowly.
“…Good.”
But before you could even think of a response, a sudden force yanked at your chest.
A sharp, invisible pull tightened between you and Dan Heng-his name suddenly came to you, an unnatural bond snapping into place. You weren’t the only one who felt it, Dan Heng’s hand clenched into a fist, his brows furrowing as if testing something unseen.
“…It seems we are bound together.”
“What?”
Dan Heng’s words settled heavily between you.
You stared at him. “What do you mean… bound?”
Dan Heng’s expression was unreadable as he lifted his hand, fingers flexing slightly—as if testing the invisible force between you.
“I can feel it” he murmured. “A connection.” His sharp eyes flickered to you. “And so can you.”
Now that he mentioned it…
There was something tugging at your chest. A strange, lingering warmth linking you to him, like a thin, invisible thread pulling taut whenever you moved too far away.
“What the hell is this?” You instinctively took a step back.
Dan Heng didn’t stop you—he didn’t need to. The moment you moved too far, a dull ache formed at your core, forcing you to halt.
Dan Heng’s eyes narrowed. “It won’t let us separate.”
You swallowed hard, fighting the unease creeping up your spine. “Is this… because of the egg?”
“Most likely.” Dan Heng let out a slow exhale, his voice calm despite the situation. “Something unnatural happened when I hatched.”
No kidding.
You clenched the broken remnants of the egg in your hands, staring at the glowing fragments. This wasn’t normal. None of this was normal.
Dan Heng studied you carefully. “Does it hurt?”
You shook your head. “Not really… Just weird.”
He nodded. “Then we should find out how to undo it.”
Right. That made sense.
You didn’t know Dan Heng, and he didn’t know you. Staying attached like this wasn’t ideal for either of you.
But before you could say anything else, that feeling of being watched returned.
Your body tensed. “They’re still here.”
Dan Heng was already looking past you. He was silent for a moment before speaking again, voice lower this time.
“Come with me.”
You barely had time to react before he grabbed your wrist and pulled you along. The two of you disappeared into the night.
The inn was quiet, tucked away in an alley far from prying eyes. It wasn’t the most luxurious place, but it would do for the night.
Dan Heng took a seat on the small wooden chair in the corner, silent as he assessed the room. You, on the other hand, dropped onto the bed, exhausted from the night’s chaos.
“…I’ll bathe first” you muttered, rubbing your temples.
Dan Heng nodded, offering no objections. He was still tense, likely on alert in case your pursuer returned.
Steam curled from the bathroom as you let the hot water wash away the tension in your body. By the time you emerged, towel-drying your hair, you noticed something was different.
That strange, invisible pull? Gone.
You tested it cautiously, taking a few steps away from Dan Heng. No resistance. No ache. Nothing.
Dan Heng must have felt it too. He lifted a brow. “It’s gone.”
You nodded, unsure whether to feel relieved or concerned. Why had it disappeared so suddenly?
Dan Heng stood, “I’ll bathe next.”
You collapsed onto the bed. The momentary separation felt… odd. But you brushed it aside.
When Dan Heng returned, hair damp and sleeves rolled up as he towel-dried it, you caught sight of a faint scratch on his forearm.
“Did you get that earlier?” you asked.
He followed your gaze, barely sparing it a glance. “It’s nothing.”
“Still.” You grabbed a small first-aid kit from the bedside drawer. “Let me see.”
Dan Heng didn’t move, but he didn’t stop you either.
You carefully cleaned the scratch, applying a light bandage. “There. Should be fine now.”
Dan Heng watched your hands for a second before meeting your eyes. “…Thank you.”
You blinked. He was so stoic most of the time that the simple gratitude caught you off guard.
“Yeah, well.” You leaned back. “It’d be a pain if you got sick over something so small.”
Dan Heng huffed lightly, almost amused.
The atmosphere felt… more comfortable now.
For the first time since this night started, you didn’t feel like strangers.
The inn had only one bed. You figured Dan Heng wouldn’t mind sharing—after all, he had just saved your life.
But as expected, the moment you suggested it, he refused.
“I’ll sleep on the floor” he said simply, already grabbing a spare pillow.
You rolled your eyes. “You just fought someone, ran through half a forest, and got scratched up in the process. You need the bed.”
With an exasperated sigh, you grabbed his wrist and pulled him in.
Dan Heng stiffened at the sudden touch, but you didn’t let go. “Just sleep. I don’t mind.”
Ultimately, he relented, slipping under the blanket beside you—though he kept a noticeable distance.
You didn’t push it. Exhaustion weighed on you like a stone, and before you knew it, sleep took over.
A faint creak of the floor. The softest rustle of fabric.
Dan Heng’s eyes snapped open.
Intruders.
Before he could react, a hand clamped over his mouth, and a sharp pressure point strike numbed his limbs.
His vision blurred for a split second, but his focus remained sharp. They had waited until you were deep in sleep, ensuring you wouldn’t wake no matter what.
Dan Heng struggled, but his body refused to cooperate. He was lifted and carried away, the door closing behind them without a sound.
And you?
Still asleep, blissfully unaware.
You woke up to emptiness. The bed beside you was cold. The blanket was untouched, and Dan Heng was gone.
You knew something was wrong. You could feel it—not just instinctively, but physically. A sharp pull, like an invisible string tugging at your very core. It yanked you forward, as if guiding you somewhere.
Without hesitation, you threw on your shoes and bolted out of the inn.
Your feet led you through winding streets, across empty alleyways, and towards an abandoned warehouse on the outskirts of town. The closer you got, the more intense the feeling became.
When you reached the entrance, muffled voices reached your ears.
“…We know you came from the egg.”
Then, a sharp sound—a syringe being pressed into skin.
Dan Heng let out a strained breath. His usual composed presence was cracking. You peered through a small opening. He was tied to a chair, his head lowered, his breath uneven. His body trembled, muscles twitching unnaturally. Whatever they had injected him with, it was forcing a reaction out of him.
One of the men stepped closer. "If you won't talk, we'll just—"
With the element of surprise on your side, you grabbed the nearest metal rod and slammed it into the first guy’s head. He crumpled instantly. The second turned, but you had already kicked him square in the ribs, knocking the wind out of him. You twisted the third man's arm back and sent him crashing into the interrogation table.
Three down.
Your chest heaved, adrenaline still buzzing in your veins. Then, you turned to Dan Heng.
His head was still lowered, his fingers curled tightly into fists. His breathing had grown heavier—not from exhaustion, but from something else.
You approached carefully. “Dan Heng…?”
A tremor ran through his body. Slowly, he lifted his head.
And his eyes— Not the calm, reserved gaze you knew.
The moment your eyes met, you knew this wasn’t Dan Heng.
His usually composed expression was gone, replaced by something feral. His chest heaved, his muscles tensed, and the eerie glow of his newly-formed horns cast an unnatural light against the dim room.
Then, he lunged. You barely managed to dodge in time. His fingers grazed your shoulder, sharp nails cutting through fabric. He wasn’t holding back.
"Dan Heng, snap out of it!" you shouted, ducking under his next strike.
But there was no response.
His attacks were relentless, each blow precise, deadly.
Your back hit the wall.
His hand shot out, aiming straight for your throat.
And in that moment, his body gave out.
Dan Heng collapsed right in front of you.
The tension in the air vanished. His breath came in sharp gasps, his body still trembling from whatever those men had done to him.
You didn’t waste time.
You dragged him home.
A day passed.
You sat beside his unconscious form, watching for any sign of change. The bond between you had flickered—then disappeared entirely.
And his body…
His features were different now.
His ears— sharper, more elongated. His horns— translucent green, curling back in the shape of a dragon’s. Whoever those men were, they must have known. They were after Dan Heng’s power.
When he finally woke up, his body tensed immediately. His gaze landed on you, and for a moment, you feared he’d attack again.
Then, slowly, his breathing steadied.
“…You are alive.” His voice was hoarse.
“Of course I did.” You frowned. “Though you almost killed me, you know that?”
“…I know.” His fingers curled into the sheets. “And yet, you didn’t leave.”
“You can explain later.”
You reached out carefully, brushing his bangs back to check for a fever. His new horns brushed against your wrist.
For now, you’d both deal with the consequences together.
Dan Heng sat on the edge of the bed, fingers lightly brushing against one of his newly-formed horns. His expression was unreadable, but the tension in his shoulders was clear.
You crossed your arms, staring at him. "Why did you turn into...that?"
He glanced up at you, his sharp blue-green eyes filled with uncertainty. "I don’t know."
Most of his human form had returned, but some of the dragon-like features remained. His elongated ears, his translucent green horns… they were all still there.
He looked down at his own hands. "I shouldn’t have changed in the first place. I was… altered."
"Well, you came from the egg I got, so that makes you my responsibility."
"You say that so easily."
"Because it’s the truth," you shot back. "You’re new to life here, right? You don’t even know how things work. If I leave you alone, you might get kidnapped again."
He couldn’t argue with that.
"Come on. You need to learn how to live like a normal person."
“…You’re seriously taking this upon yourself?"
"Obviously. If I don’t, who will?" You raised an eyebrow. "Unless you'd rather run around in the open and get captured again?"
“…Very well. I’ll leave myself in your care.”
For now, you’d carry on.
At first, you didn’t think much of it.
Dan Heng adjusted quickly to life here, following your instructions without complaint. He wasn’t much of a talker, but he listened, observed, and adapted well.
And then… you started noticing something strange.
One morning, as he sat at the small dining table, sipping the tea you made, you caught something in your peripheral vision—his horns were fading.
You blinked. Was it a trick of the light?
But then later that day, after you dragged him to the market (much to his dismay), his horns reappeared. His sharp ears elongated again, and—most alarming of all—he briefly grew a tail.
You nearly choked on air when you saw it.
Luckily, it vanished quickly, but you had seen it.
"Dan Heng" you called, suspicious.
He looked at you, unfazed. "What?"
You squinted. "…Are you aware that you’re…changing?"
He froze for a fraction of a second, but that was enough confirmation.
You crossed your arms. "Your horns. Your ears. A tail, Dan Heng. What’s causing it?"
His eyes flickered downward. A thoughtful silence stretched between you before he finally admitted, "I don't know. But…" his gaze met yours again, "It only seems to happen when I feel… displeased."
You stared at him. "So you're telling me… the more annoyed you get, the more dragon-like you become?"
He nodded.
You groaned, rubbing your temples. "Great. So I just have to keep you happy or else you’ll start sprouting more parts?"
Dan Heng didn’t answer immediately. Instead, his expression shifted—just slightly. His usual calm mask gave way to something more… pleased.
And in that moment, his horns… faded.
Wait a damn minute.
Your eyes narrowed. "…You like hearing that, don’t you?"
Dan Heng tilted his head, feigning innocence
You had a feeling this was going to be a huge problem.
You weren’t one to leave things unexplored—especially not something this bizarre.
So naturally, you had to test it out.
Test #1: Jealousy
Dan Heng rarely reacted strongly to anything. He was composed, observant, and rarely raised his voice. But you needed to see if strong emotions—specifically negative ones—would bring his features back.
So, you made him jealous.
It was subtle at first. A passing remark about someone at the market being “pretty nice.” An offhand comment about how they “seemed dependable.”
Dan Heng didn’t react outwardly.
But when you jokingly mentioned that someone offered to “show you around sometime,” his sharp ears reappeared.
You almost dropped what you were holding.
Dan Heng noticed too. He frowned, touching his ear. “That’s—”
Gotcha.
“Relax," you waved a hand, feigning innocence. "I was just talking."
He narrowed his eyes slightly. But after a long, assessing look, his ears faded again.
Test #2: Comfort
Later that evening, after he bathed, you casually offered, "Want me to dry your hair?"
"That’s unnecessary—"
"Sit!" you ordered, grabbing a towel.
Dan Heng hesitated but complied.
You gently ruffled the towel through his damp hair, fingers lightly brushing his scalp. You expected him to tense—but to your surprise, he relaxed almost instantly.
And then, in real time, his horns disappeared.
"Something wrong?" he murmured, his voice oddly softer than usual.
You exhaled. "…No."
But internally, you were screaming.
Test #3: Annoyance
The next day, he accidentally broke your favorite dish.
It wasn’t his fault—it slipped from the counter. But you sighed dramatically and gave him a look of disappointment.
Dan Heng immediately grew a tail.
The absolute panic on his face made you bite back laughter. He glared at you, realizing what was happening.
"You’re doing this on purpose" he accused.
"Me?" You blinked innocently. "Never."
He narrowed his eyes. But his tail disappeared soon after.
Final Test: Sleeping Together
One night, as you prepared for bed, you hesitated before asking, “Is it okay if I hug you to sleep?”
Dan Heng didn’t answer right away. But after a long moment, he nodded.
You took it as permission and settled beside him, arms loosely wrapping around his waist. His body was warm—steady. For once, he wasn’t tense.
And then—
His dragon features faded entirely.
Dan Heng noticed immediately. “What?”
You pulled back slightly, staring at him. "You're… normal again."
His breath hitched slightly. He glanced down at himself—his hands, his reflection in the dim window. His horns, ears, tail—all gone.
Silence filled the room.
Then, in a low voice, he muttered, “…So I need you close to stay like this?”
That might be a problem. But you are still testing it out.
----
You’d caught Dan Heng using his water manipulation abilities more than once.
At first, it was small things—drying dishes without a towel, cooling his tea without ice, sneaking a splash into his bath without touching the faucet.
But then, he started abusing it.
One evening, you walked into the living room only to see the floor miraculously cleaning itself. A thin layer of water swept across the wooden panels, neatly gathering dust into a single puddle before disappearing entirely.
Dan Heng stood nearby, looking completely indifferent—as if he hadn’t just commanded the water like a personal cleaning tool.
You folded your arms. “Really?”
He didn’t even flinch. “It’s efficient.”
You squinted. “It’s lazy.”
He turned his head slightly, not denying it.
After that, he got sneakier. Whenever you weren’t looking, something would conveniently be cleaned, cooled, or wiped away.
You caught him again a few days later. This time, he vanished the evidence before you could properly scold him.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about” he said flatly, even as the faintest ripple of water shimmered at his fingertips.
----
One day, you brought two friends home.
Caiyu—a friendly, outgoing woman with a sharp tongue, and Ren—a male friend who was, in your opinion, just a little too clingy.
Dan Heng immediately did not like him.
At first, he was quiet. Watching from the side. But every time Ren leaned in—too close, too casual—Dan Heng’s brows furrowed just a little deeper.
Then, one moment, Ren reached out, casually touching your shoulder. Not anything inappropriate—just a familiar gesture.
A chill ran through the air. Your tea, which had been warm seconds ago, suddenly turned ice cold.
You paused, frowning at the cup. “Huh…?”
Caiyu looked between you and Dan Heng, her eyes narrowing.
Ren, completely oblivious, continued talking.
Dan Heng didn’t say a word. But the next time Ren got too close, the humidity in the room mysteriously spiked.
Ren tugged at his collar. “Why is it so stuffy in here all of a sudden…?”
Caiyu, still watching, slowly smirked. “Oh, I think I know why.”
You, still oblivious, just nodded. “Yeah, weird weather today.”
Dan Heng, standing nearby, simply took a sip of his still-hot tea.
After Caiyu and Ren left, you finally turned your attention back to Dan Heng—only to pause.
The horns were back.
Sharp, translucent green, curling from his head like some majestic beast of legend. His ears had sharpened too, and there was something… tense about his posture.
“…You good?”
Dan Heng didn’t answer immediately.
“Do you always let others cling to you like that?”
“…Huh?”
“Ren.”
“What about him?”
Dan Heng exhaled slowly, as if holding something back.
You, still completely clueless, smirked. “What, are you jealous?”
That was meant to be a joke. But the way Dan Heng didn’t immediately deny it made your smirk waver.
…Wait.
Before you could press the topic further, a sudden movement caught your eye.
A cockroach.
Right there. On the floor. Near your foot.
“—GAH?!”
Panic shot through you instantly. Without thinking, you jumped onto Dan Heng, clinging to him with zero shame.
“GET RID OF IT!!!!!!” you yelped, burying your face into his shoulder.
You didn’t notice his reaction, too busy clutching onto him like your life depended on it. “Dan Heng, I swear to everything, if you let that thing crawl near me—”
He finally spoke. “…I will. On one condition.”
Your head snapped up. “What? What condition?”
Dan Heng’s gaze was unreadable, but his horns shimmered slightly under the light. His fingers ghosted over your back before settling at your waist.
“Stay like this a little longer.”
“…Excuse me?”
Dan Heng’s hold on you was firm but not forceful, his fingers pressing lightly at your waist like he was testing something. Meanwhile, the cockroach was still there.
“You heard me.” His voice was impossibly calm, but there was something else in it—something almost amused. “I’ll get rid of it. But you stay like this a little longer.”
You were about to argue, to call him out for using a life-threatening situation to his advantage—
Then the cockroach moved.
“…Fine.” You clung onto him harder, burying your face into his shoulder with zero dignity. “Just get rid of it already.”
Dan Heng exhaled, the sound low and satisfied. Then, with a simple flick of his fingers, a small stream of water shot toward the cockroach—blasting it out of sight.
You peeked out. “Did you drown it?”
“Something like that.”
“…Good enough.”
Now that the danger was gone, you relaxed—but for some reason, you didn’t pull away.
Dan Heng seemed to notice. “You’re still holding onto me.”
“…Shut up. I’m recovering.”
His chest rumbled with a quiet chuckle.
And that was when you finally realized the horns were gone. His dragon features had completely disappeared.
“…Wait.” You leaned back slightly, inspecting his now normal face. “Did they—disappear because of this?”
“Maybe.”
Something told you… he wouldn’t mind testing it out again.
---
The search for answers had been fruitless.
You had dragged Dan Heng to healers, scholars, and even underground doctors—yet not one of them could determine what that liquid was or why his dragon features kept appearing whenever he was displeased.
And so, when you heard whispers of a secret bidding event known to deal in rare, illicit goods, you knew it was your best shot.
Disguised in ordinary robes and masks, you and Dan Heng snuck into the venue—a dimly lit hall, buzzing with the low murmur of eager bidders. Items were displayed one by one on a grand stage, and men in luxurious garments raised their hands with absurdly high offers.
It was a strange, unsettling place.
And then—
You saw it. On the display, contained within a reinforced glass case, was a small vial. The liquid inside gleamed with an eerily familiar glow.
“That’s it!” you muttered. “That has to be what they injected into you.”
Dan Heng's gaze was locked onto the vial, his jaw tightening. You knew he recognized it too.
The auctioneer’s voice boomed through the hall.
"A special concoction from an unknown source. Its properties? A mystery! But I assure you, its effects are... fascinating. Let’s start the bidding!"
The first bid came instantly.
“300,000 credits!”
Your stomach dropped.
That was way too much.
Dan Heng turned to you, voice low. “How do you want to handle this?”
You already knew the answer.
You weren’t leaving without that vial.
There was no way you could win a bidding war against the wealthy elites here. The price was already skyrocketing, and you didn’t have that kind of money.
You turned to Dan Heng. “We’re stealing it.”
He nodded without hesitation. “I figured.”
The auction continued, the price climbing higher and higher, but you weren’t paying attention anymore. Instead, you were scanning the room, noting the positions of guards, escape routes, and blind spots.
One of you would create a distraction. The other would take the vial.
“Let me handle the distraction” Dan Heng murmured. “I can draw them away without getting caught.”
You weren’t sure about that.
He was strong, yes. But the whole reason you were here was to fix his condition—not make it worse.
“No” you decided. “I’ll do it. You grab the vial.”
Dan Heng’s brows furrowed, but before he could argue, the auctioneer slammed his gavel down.
“Sold for 850,000 credits!”
You inhaled sharply. It was time.
The moment the winner stepped forward to claim the vial, you moved. With a quick motion, you reached into your sleeve and tossed a smoke bomb onto the stage—
People shouted, some scrambling away while others drew their weapons. The guards rushed in, pushing through the panicked crowd
And in the cover of the smoke, Dan Heng struck.
By the time the haze began to clear, he was already at your side, the vial secured in his grip.
“We need to go.” He grabbed your wrist, pulling you toward the nearest exit.
Guards were closing in.
But you weren’t worried.
You had what you came for.
Now, you just had to get out alive.
---
Pain.
That was the first thing you felt when consciousness returned.
Your entire body ached, and every breath felt like it scraped against raw wounds. You groaned, trying to move—
Only to feel a strong grip on your wrist.
Dan Heng was at your bedside, his expression eerily blank. But his eyes—his eyes told another story.
Shock. Relief. Unfiltered rage.
For the first time, you saw green scales creeping across his face. They shimmered under the dim light, spreading like cracks in a fragile mask. His normally sharp features were even sharper, his dragon-like horns fully visible.
“I thought you were dead.”
You blinked, still disoriented. “How long was I out?”
“Five days.”
Something had happened while you were unconscious.
Your surroundings were unfamiliar, but the faint smell of blood and burnt metal lingered in the air. Your wounds were bandaged, but you could tell the medical supplies used were not from a standard clinic.
“…Dan Heng. What did you do?”
He didn’t answer immediately. His fingers tightened around your wrist, as if reassuring himself that you were still there.
“I lost control.”
You knew what that meant.
The people from the auction house—the guards, the bidders—none of them stood a chance.
You had seen glimpses of his power before. But this?
This was different.
You reached up, your fingers grazing the scales on his cheek. He stiffened under your touch, but didn’t pull away.
“…I’m still here” you said softly.
“I thought I lost you. You don’t understand—I would’ve destroyed everything. I would’ve—”
You pressed a hand over his, grounding him.
“You didn’t.”
Dan Heng’s grip loosened slightly. His features, still twisted with emotions, slowly softened.
For a long moment, he simply stared at you. Then, as if needing further confirmation that you were alive, he pulled you into his arms.
He buried his face into the crook of your neck, his body trembling ever so slightly.
“…Don’t scare me like that again.”
“I won’t.”
You shifted slightly in his embrace, trying to adjust to the strange sensation against your skin. His scales pressed against your cheek as he held you even tighter.
"Dan Heng" you muttered, half-jokingly, "your scales are poking me."
To your surprise, he tightened his grip. His arms caged you in, his warm breath fanning against your neck.
“…Then endure it.”
His voice was quiet, almost sulky.
You sighed, but didn't protest. And soon enough—the sensation disappeared.
You pulled back slightly, noticing his features softening. His scales had faded away, his horns receding as if they’d never been there.
You blinked. So it really was connected to his emotions.
Still, you needed answers.
Later that day, you took a small sample of his scales—without him noticing—and sent it to a trusted friend in the field of alchemy and medicine.
The response came quickly: an antidote was possible.
But when you brought it up to Dan Heng—
"I don’t want it."
"You don’t even know what it does."
His gaze was steady. "It doesn’t matter. Everything as it is… is fine."
You felt the weight in his words. He wasn’t just talking about the scales—he was talking about you, about this, about the bond you both shared.
And as if the universe had heard him, the bond reappeared.
A faint glow flickered between you both—unseen by your eyes, but deeply felt.
Dan Heng dragged you into the kitchen, his grip firm yet careful.
“You need a proper meal” he said, his voice carrying no room for argument.
You sighed but let him. Things were tricky now—you couldn't stray too far from each other. If you did, the bond would start pulling you back, an invisible force tethering you together.
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A group of strangers approached you outside, eyes filled with intentions you didn’t like. Dan Heng acted before you could, sending them flying with a single strike.
And just like that—the bond disappeared again.
You didn’t know what to make of it, but Dan Heng did.
That night, when you were fast asleep, he moved silently.
In his hand was a small vial—one he had secretly extracted from himself. With quiet precision, he used it on you.
Would you become like him? Would you be changed as he was?
He needed to know.
Nothing happened.
At least, not immediately.
Dan Heng watched you carefully the next day, but you looked fine. No horns, no scales, no tail. You were just... you.
Maybe it was different because of his origin. Maybe his bloodline couldn’t fully transfer to you. Or maybe it needed more time.
But one thing did change. You recovered unnaturally fast. The injuries that should’ve taken weeks to heal were already fading. And there was a downside—your temper.
You found yourself easily irritated, snapping at things you wouldn’t normally care about. The effect wore off soon, but Dan Heng took note of it.
Then, you felt it.
The slightest change.
Your ears—it was faint, but they weren’t the same. They twitched, sharper than before, more sensitive to sound.
No horns, no scales, but... you were just like him now.
And, of course—you would never know it was his doing.
Dan Heng watched as you slept, your breathing steady, your body finally adjusting.
It had taken time. More than he expected. The first dose had only changed your ears, but that wasn’t enough.
He needed more.
So he spent weeks—studying, gathering, experimenting.
And finally, he succeeded.
The last vial, carefully prepared, had worked exactly as he intended.
Your body had accepted it. Your features had shifted—not just the ears this time.
Under the moonlight, faint scales shimmered on your skin. Not as prominent as his, but there. A part of you now.
And with that change, the bond solidified.
No longer a fragile link. No longer something that could fade.
It was permanent.
Dan Heng exhaled, letting the weight of it settle in his chest. This was what he wanted. For you to be the same.
For you to never be able to leave.
And when your eyes fluttered open, you felt it too.
The connection. Stronger than ever. Binding you to him in ways you couldn’t yet understand.
Dan Heng offered a small smile, one that didn’t quite reach his sharp, knowing gaze.
“Good morning.” he murmured.
You are his now.
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newkatzkafe2023 · 3 days ago
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wukong 1999 but this
https://www.tumblr.com/newkatzkafe2023/772443036089303040/we-seen-what-would-happen-if-they-found-out-they?source=share
Mad Love all over again❤️
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(Wukong) The call it creeping I say loving, it's the only way for me, filling papers, sighing wavers but I stay outside her reach🎶🎵🎶
I name your mother, and your father, and the first pet that you keep, I know your favorite place to dine at when your cheque comes in each week🎶🎵🎶
I know you do your wash on sundays and separate your whites, and that your bike needs tires because last week I set those spikes🎶🎵🎶
(Lotmk Wukong) Mad Love is the best way to describe what you to had, Wukong had been tethering over the edge for a while. He was so cute to you looking like an adorable little stray, and to him you were a new goddess in his life looking up at you with hearts in his eyes. He would do anything for you and to have you near him even if he had to break your wheels, to your cart.
(Wukong) i got a million Polaroids, with the dates penned in red ink🎵🎶🎵
I sneak a walkie talkie in your room to listen to you sleep🎵🎶🎵🎶
Meanwhile you would cooed and snuggle and kiss his soft lips, never failing to give him endless affection. You would draw pictures of Wukong whenever you stalked him at the time, and you still think he might know your looking at him. As he would slowly strip out of his clothes looking over his shoulders with looks of lust and desire, begging you to come over and get him🫦. Wukong is also aware of the listening device as he would purpose moan and chirp pretending to be asleep.
(Wukong) You just down know yet, but you love me, and I love you the same. One day, we'll have a pretty wedding, and I'll be your everything🎵🎶🎵
We'll be together yes forever, we will never ever part oh you don't know it yet but baby I already got your heart🎵🎶🎵🎶
(Y/n) Some call it stalking I say walking just extremely Close behind, I'm sure if I sat down and asked you Well, you really wouldn't mind🎵🎶🎵🎶
You got those eyes that drive me crazy and I got eyes to watch you sleep, I brought a packed lunch and some tea for my stake out in your tree (outside your inn)🎵🎶🎵🎶
It's always fun to tempt Wukong whenever your with him, strip teasing him and calling him your baby boy. Wukong would give you this empty-headed look with foggy hearts as he lick his lips wanting to taste you. You would smirk and chirp as you watched over him sleeping away, the pilgrims didn't know about you quite yet. Though you would sneak in at odd hours and give his thick tall "staff" a good old wake up kiss.
Gotta be quiet as a mouse, or else they will call police and get done in for something stupid like disturbance of the peace🎶🎵🎶🎵
And piece by piece im collecting at the things you leave behind, and when you don't i rummage though your bins to see what I can find🎶🎶🎵🎶
The final straw being how Wukong would leaven many things behind, for you to swoop in and take. Building a collection of memories of your darling husband, while he would hold things that would have your senct on it and never letting go of it. Wukong hates how has to keep his darling peaches a secret away from heaven and the world, but it's also so hot knowing your his warm and sexy secret to have to himself forever and ever.
(Y/n) You just don't know yet but you love me and I love you the same one day we'll have a pretty wedding and I'll be your everything
We'll be together yes forever, we will never ever part you just don't know it yet but baby I already have your heart
Wukong and you love each other, more then anything in the world and nobody will separate you two.........God help anyone who tried🔪
(Both) You just don't know yet but you love me and I love you the same, one day we'll have a pretty wedding and I'll be your everything
We'll be together yes forever We'll will never ever part, you just don't know yet but baby I already have your heart🎶🎵🎶💚💚💚
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sketchy-tour · 1 year ago
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OH! As we were on topic of commissions, I have a lil question to ask!
How would you feel if anyone commissioned someone else to draw your Welcome Home oc with theirs? Are there any rules you’d like to imply? Do they have to show you what was commissioned? Should they show you any and every message that was used during commission process?
Gah! I have so many more questions but these are the main ones! My friend (you might know them 🤭) wants to commission someone and they wanted to use your oc but they though it would be better to ask before proceeding if you’d like for them to not use your oc!
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SOMEONE WANTS TO COMMISSION ANOTHER ARTIST???? TO DRAW MY OC???????? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWAAAAH
OH OH UM UH- Hmmm well! This is something a little new for me but ohhh I'm so absolutely flattered and honored and giddy and BOUNCING AND SPINNING! Some things I suppose I could think of um-
Overall I do not mind if someone wanted to commission their oc interacting with Dandy! It sounds so sweet and cute and I would LOVE to see it!!! Would love a tag or to be shown! As long as you're also okay with me grabbing said piece with my grubby lil hands and saving it and stashing it with my other Dandy arts!
I would like to say that I would prefer it not be, like, ship art unless you're someone that I know who I have an established ship with! 100% okay with silly little interactions tho!
Please don't...commission anything weird! Keep it SFW! I don't mind horror or anything but you know what I mean! 👍(This and the lil tid bit above would apply for fanart too of course of course)
If you're ever unsure on what you're wanting to commission is okay with me, always feel free to ask!
Other than that, yea! I caaant think of anything else rn! I don't really think I'd need to see, like, the messages or anything! And again I am!!!!! AA!!! Oh but hello if its someone I know I wonder why they didn't message me! I promise I'm not scary! (oh unless its a surprise! Teehee silly)
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orcelito · 2 years ago
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ok, i cant resist the urge to make a post about it after all, especially since it's related to a post i made prior
one of my favorite moments in trimax is By Far this part in chapter 35
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[ID: Two pages from Trigun. The first starts with Wolfwood thinking, "Now that I think 'bout it, it may be one of the major differences between our species." That deep rooted dear I felt on the ship…" He thinks of Vash crying blood and, swearing, wonders, "Is he the one who can save humankind? That monster?" Wolfwood is briefly shown in resolution before someone calls, "Hey, Wolfwood!" and he looks up with surprise.
Vash sits with a smile at the edge of a rooftop, backed by the Fifth Moon and its prominent crater. Vash asks with a smile, "Just coming back now? You're a bit of a night owl, huh?" Wolfwood looks taken aback and wary. End ID]
Right Here. Vash is just sitting there, smiling like normal, but he's got the backdrop of the damage he caused on the moon set Perfectly behind him. it's a glaring reminder to Wolfwood of who exactly he's dealing with here, and that TERRIFIES him.
& the fact that Wolfwood still remembers that moment of crying blood as a moment of true fear. because for all the cheer Vash shows in the average moment, Wolfwood just recently saw him nearly lose control Again (at the Dragon's Nest). the second time he witnessed it, & the third time he would know about.
Vash is a walking atomic bomb with multiple charges. even with how cheerful & kind he is, he's shown Multiple Times that he does not have full control. he is decidedly something different, something Hazardous to humans, and Wolfwood knows this very very painfully.
for all that Wolfwood loves Vash, he is also terrified of him. and at this point in the story, that terror is potent enough to nearly eclipse his affection for Vash.
leading to some of the next most iconic pages:
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[ID: The next page starts with Wolfwood standing behind the sitting Vash, his expression hard and the moon bright behind him. Vash seems sad and has one eye open. A close-up focuses on Wolfwood looking down.
Wolfwood thinks, "So easy to pull the trigger. So easy to remove half the problem." Another close-up with bright lighting obscures his face but for one eye. Then Vash turns around curiously and asks, "What's up?" Wolfwood sits behind him and says "Nothin'. Come on. Let's go." Vash seems surprised as Wolfwood scolds, "Don't get yerself tangled up in every little skirmish ya see. It'll be pointless if ya get yerself killed before ya meet him." End ID]
the manga frames it like Vash doesn't know Wolfwood was pointing the gun at him, but I think he did know. he's freakishly perceptive over and over again throughout the story. he HAS to be in order to survive like he has. he'd hear the movement of the gun & sense Wolfwood behind him...
he'd know. i really think he knew.
but he doesn't do anything about it. there is zero fear in his face. he turns to look at Wolfwood curiously, a bit confused, but not afraid. he never once thought that Wolfwood would shoot him. there's full faith and trust there in that moment.
Wolfwood pretends that nothing happened, & Vash lets him. they both move on, not talking about it, because they never talk about Anything of substance like this (not until much, Much later).
overall, it's just such a great example of their relationship's development. Wolfwood's fear & Vash's trust that he won't act on it... it's just. Man.
(EDIT: people have made some good points about how Vash's expression when Wolfwood points the gun at him shows that he probably did know and YEAH that's a good point! & probably why I was so certain he knew lol, I just hadn't realized it myself)
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torchstelechos · 5 months ago
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Loop's such an unreliable narrator that I find it hard to believe that the Party didn't recognize them at least a lil bit. It was just soooo not the time to have a snack break breakdown about two (2) Siffrin's and what that means metaphysically and theoretically (and for Isabeau, relationship wise)
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hickeygender · 1 year ago
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of all the star wars movies, which of them do y'all 1) enjoy the most 2) consider the best quality and 3) think you've rewatched the most. add your answers in the reblogs or replies, i'm genuinely curious how much of an overlap there is within everyone's three answers. mine don't overlap at all! they're revenge of the sith, empire strikes back, and the force awakens :^)
#len speaks#star wars#revenge of the sith#empire strikes back#the force awakens#not tagging more films than that bc i cant b bothered. incoming tag ramble ahead bc i have sw brainrot rn and im making it everyones prob❤️#i rlly struggled 2 remember if id watched tfa or aotc more. i went w/ tfa bc it was formative to me as a teen and ive seen it probably 6ish#times? whereas aotc was the first sw movie i remember (specifically the scene of obiwan serving c*nt in the bar lmao) but i've only seen it#for sure 4.5 and maybe 5.5 times. the .5 is from when i got bored after obi-wan's scene ended and ran off to go play in the mud or smthn ��#i'm sure tfa will eventually get surpassed in number of rewatches by aotc and rots bc i don't fw the direction of the ST but that's my#current ballpark estimate of my total number of rewatches#as an adult tho if i just wanna watch a star war i'll go with aotc bc it's fun and ends semihappily and i can turn my brain off for the#spinny lightsabers. it's great background noise or for if you're sick or whatever. rots on the other hand? i won't talk through that unless#i'm quoting it with my brother and i am LOCKED IN 100% entirely entranced by it all#i almost picked rogue one for the best quality answer but i think the character writing is weaker and the facial cgi is creepy. esb beats#it by a hair imho bc of that. the vader hallway scene goes hard tho!!!#also i'm not covering shows or games or books or anything else in this post - simply the films. might ask abt shows later but that might#also give me hives bc so many of the shows suck ass and i don't rlly want ppl extolling the virtues of t.bb in my notes 💀#and yes i do think one's enjoyment and one's opinion of quality are two things that often overlap. but sometimes you just like something#bad and that's awesome. like rots is the best of the prequels by a large margin and i adore the opening and characters and many of the#scenes but that doesn't mean it's the best star wars has to offer ykwim? it's my specialest most favoritest sw movie but that doesn't blind#me to the dialogue lmfaooo
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yamikawaii · 5 months ago
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theres just something about being inherently unworthy of love
#the cycle of i need to make friends. i need attention. why would someone bother with me? i dont have anything to give. are we friends? why#arent you paying attention to me? tell me that you love me. but it could never be sincere towards someone like me. i cant be loved.#love isnt real. i am love. i am the only one who loves. it hurts. why cant i be loved? is anyone else real? is this a dream? am i dead? is#this hell? whats real is fake and whats fake is real. its wonderland. rabbits talk cookies make you big or small everyone is so confusing.#do others love me or hate me or feel indifferent? it seems to switch as random. one day you'll adore me the next its as if we never met. and#i have to keep making friends. i cant keep making friends. if i dont i'll end up with no friends. i dont know how to make more friends.#clinging to bubbles floating up scrambling to catch another as it pops so you dont fall. everyone blends together whats what whos who?#in the span of a few years i feel like an immortal tortured with the despair of outliving all their relationships#except everyone is perfectly alive just out of reach. but i cant just talk to people. thats bad. no one wants me. i cant do that to someone.#every bubble pops at some point. i cant find anything sturdier. fleeting bursts of attention are ok for now#but i cant even get that. so what do i do? i want to sacrifice myself to make people like me but i have nothing left to give.#whats the point of me? if i cant love and be loved if i cant find more than a few people who will stay for more than a second. what do i#have to do? please tell me what you want. i'm sure i can do it somehow. can i do it somehow? i cant. i cant. i cant anymore. im sorry. just#forget about me. you dont need me. youll be happier when you dont even know who i am anymore. i can disappear without a trace for you. thats#all i can do. take the weight off our shoulders. im just using you if you think about it anyways. to feed my own selfish desire for love i#never deserved. keep myself afloat while i drag you down. isnt it time for me to sink? in a shark attack punch it in the gills. youll be ok.#more than ok. free. i didnt want to bite your leg but i just needed something anything. i dont know any better and i never will. thats why i#belong in the depths where i cant hurt anyone. i cant do anything but hurt. what more am i good for? what more have i done? what have i done#for you? think about it. think about it. think about it. think about it. think about it. think about it. think about it. think about it.#its nothing.
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thegreatyin · 7 months ago
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Super late, but I just saw your historic moment. Congrats on Mostima! - doctor-faint
thank you!!! it may not be a historic moment in practice but it's definitely a historic moment for me 😌
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coriander-candlesticks · 8 months ago
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Introductions ✨✨
Hey! I'm Coriander. It's not what I go by in my other blogs on here but I want to keep things a bit more separate, at least at first. This is gonna be a long one (sorry) so I'm adding a cut.
I'm exploring Hellenic polytheism, and have only recently started, but it's something I've been considering, in a way, for over a year. I don't have a big, intense story that marks the beginning for me; I didn't necessarily feel a personal, spiritual connection to any of the deities from the time I was a young child in the way others describe, and I haven't had an intense experience that marked the beginning of my path.
I've always felt drawn to Greek mythology, though. I have a distinct memory of laying on my stomach on the floor of the school library in 3rd or 4th grade, reading a picture book about Hades and Persephone. It kept my attention the way others - even Egyptian mythology, another major interest - didn't. I, of course, had the classic queer kid experience of being super into the Percy Jackson series for a while, but my interest in it predated that. The specific deities I've been drawn to have changed somewhat as I've grown up, and they definitely shaped some of my interests. But delving into them again has helped me see connections that weren't explicitly connected to Greek mythology. I felt drawn to Athena growing up, for example, and my love of owls was definitely shaped by that. Even though that has settled into the background somewhat, that connection has persisted in things like my knitting and desires to dye yarn and learn how to weave (side note: I associate crochet more with Apollo, actually, despite it also being a fiber art). I felt connected to Artemis and Persephone as a kid, but that waned as I got older, discovered I was trans, and began my transition. I've felt connected to Hestia and her quiet hearth-keeping since I learned about her: I've always strived to make myself & my space safe and welcoming for others, and being told I succeeded in that is one of the best compliments I've received. But my interests in the morbid (ex Pompeii & the Paris catacombs), psychopomps, rocks & minerals, and keys weren't explicitly related to Hades. Some of the connections didn't click until I started to look into him more seriously about a year ago. I was an artist and had interests in writing, poetry, singing, and playing instruments long before it actually clicked that all of those fell into Apollo's domain, as I associated Athena far more with visual arts as a kid. I also didn't realize that he & Artemis cover diseases (another long-running interest) until very recently. The concept of xenia, too, was something I grew up with to some extent, even though no one called it that. My father modelled it to my siblings and I; I even learned about it within the context of ancient Greece at some point growing up and it stuck with me, despite not knowing the name.
I grew up Mormon, and was incredibly devout until college, when the pandemic forcibly separated me from that environment and I not only discovered that I was queer in several ways, but realized that the Church 1) wasn't safe to stay in and 2) wasn't actually true (which came later, when I started to get over my fear of reading "anti-Mormon literature"). During that period between those two realizations I got into tarot and using plants and crystals for their correspondences (two other interests growing up), as well as using rocks to ground myself. At that time, I considered myself a "liminal Mormon", and was reaching out to Heavenly Mother specifically via tarot. But as it set in that Mormonism specifically, and Christianity generally, wasn't for me, I got more and more interested in modern witchcraft separated from the belief system I was raised in.
It never quite felt right, though. The constant need for protections and doing something "the right way" lest things backfire and you invite the wrong thing into your home, or hurt yourself, or others, or or or, made my anxious & scrupulous brain go into overdrive. I wasn't even sure I believed in it spiritually, or if I was just interested in it from a mindfulness standpoint, and staring down the barrel of comically high piles of research without knowing where to start was exhausting. The concept of dual deities, the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine, put a bad taste in my mouth (which bled over into Persephone for a while because she and Hades are often used to symbolize those archetypes- sorry Persephone). But, not wanting to listen too much to my discomfort (since part of it may have been, and probably was, prior conditioning), I pushed ahead and actually completed one ritual that had all of the steps - cleansing, representations of the four elements and directions, etc. - and was very carefully designed to leave room for growth and change. It represented the start of my path. I still have the jar I made during the ritual, though I'm still trying to figure out what to do with it.
Around that time, I was considering whether or not to work with deities- specifically Hades, as that was who I felt the most drawn to at the time. The idea interested me, but I wasn't sure if it was from an academic or spiritual angle. I'd really only seen deity work from a modern witchcraft/neo-pagan perspective which, again, didn't sit right with me. On top of that, I wasn't quite ready to let go of Christianity even though I already functionally had, and was terrified of doing something "wrong" and getting, for lack of a better term, sent to (figurative) hell. I decided to do a simple "yes/no" tarot pull and got about the clearest "no" you can get: a reversed Ace of Swords. So I decided to let it rest and that, if I ever felt drawn to it again, I could re-approach the topic.
So, for over a year, I didn't touch it. Continuing with witchcraft after the ritual didn't feel right, either, so my altar collected dust while I tried to sort out my spirituality (or lack thereof). I settled on "I don't know and that's okay" and left it at that, trusting that when the time came, and I had more energy and mental space, that I would be able to start looking into things again.
I never truly stopped thinking about the idea of deity work/worship, though. It was always in the back of my mind. I figured it was because of the way I was raised and tried to sever my idea of spirituality from how I was conditioned while I worked through my religious trauma, got on anxiety medication, and learned more about myself and how I interacted with the world (including that I have both ADHD and autism, something that surprised no one).
Recently I talked with a witchy friend about my thoughts on divinity and what is or isn't out there (neither of us were sure but we both felt like there was something), and that conversation gave me the button I needed to start looking into paganism again. I realized at work a week or two later that I could just look up the different paths of paganism (a term I'd recently heard that hadn't clicked before then) and see if there was one that did fit. The first site I found not only had a clear, concise explanation for belief systems I hadn't knowingly come across before, but it touched on Hellenic polytheism and gave a recommendation for someone to watch to learn more about it. And unlike the sharp knot in my chest that warned me away from attending BYU, and going on a mission, and delving further into modern witchcraft as I'd been introduced to it, learning about Hellenic polytheism felt right. It was heavy and grounding and like home. Many of the issues I'd had with other neo-pagan systems - the constant vigilance & protections & concerns over trickster spirits, for example - simply didn't exist there, or were approached very differently. I still had a mental block about it, though, and realized it was because of that tarot pull a year prior. So I did another one, and got a clear "Yes, jump right in. We're waiting for you". And that's where I've been since which, granted, hasn't been for very long. I've felt especially connected to Apollo and Aphrodite recently, who I believe reached out in a different tarot pull recently - using the same card, actually - which is interesting because while I've appreciated different ways Aphrodite has been depicted, I haven't felt very connected to her in a way I realized was her until recently. It makes sense, though- I got into my first relationship around the same time I did that ritual, and not only are we still together a year later, but a trinket I used to ground myself during those first few months is also pretty directly associated with her. I'm planning on adding it to her altar/shrine area as soon as I find it (it's also still amongst the moving wreckage).
But anyway, hi! If you read this far thank you for taking the time out of your day to do so. If anyone has recommendations for books or other educational resources, or discord servers/other online forum-esque communities, please feel free to share. I've been enjoying looking through the tags and getting a feel for the community here, too; hopefully I'm here to stay.
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shadyhouse · 1 month ago
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#i need a good reason to not kill myself because the world feels so fucking hostile right now and theres nowhere i can go to safety#my bank account is Seven Hundred And Thirty Dollars in the negatives. i have bills coming up this week. i have no hours at my job#i went to a job interview yesterday for fucking taco bell THATS how desperate i am. and im not even 100% sure if im gonna get it or not#and if i do get it my life will be miserable and i wont have time for anything else in my life im like actually terrified#i have so much Trauma from shitty unstable jobs for my whole adult life that it just feels painful to think about#i cant afford to live i cant afford to be homeless either#i should just die like genuinely im at the end of my rope i dont know how much longer i can keep doing this#im so stressed im so overwhelmed its so difficult to work on art because of this#my life is actively crumbing away beneath my feet the last thing i want to do is draw pictures#but i have to. i have no other choice i Have to#the world is better off without me in it OBVIOUSLY. like all i hear about constantly is how much trans people dont deserve to live#i shouldve considered this before i decided to be born the way i am#i never asked to be born into this. i wish i never was. i wish i wasnt alive right now#i dont want to live i dont want a life i dont want to keep on going if its just going to be like this all the time#i hate feeling this way because of MONEY. I HATE MONEY. MONEY ISNT REAL UNTIL IT IS REAL AND THEN ITS EXTREMELY REAL.#money is only real for poor people and thats what ive learned in my time on this earth#btw im not okay and nothing anyone can say to me will make me feel better because theres no fucking point in anything#i got denied for food stamps and welfare also btw lol like im doing everything i can to improve my life but everything sucks and is hard#and i dont have a safety net and im falling and falling and falling and im about to splat hard on the concrete#i have to do laundry and clean my room and make breakfast and work on art and all of that while knowing i cant pay my bills#i dont know why suddenly it feels impossible to do fucking anything. like theres no other choice but to suffer#it feels like the world is ending and Yes im having a catastrophic breakdown right now and i just need to shout into the void#i'll feel better after i eat but i need to get dressed first and i have no clean clothes so i have to do laundry#but i have to collect my clothes off of the floor and i have 0 energy bc i havent eaten and im stressed and fucked up#UUUUUGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH DIES#things could absolutely be worse right now but this is about as bad as they can be before that happens. lol
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iamthepulta · 7 months ago
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When I actually schedule a weekend to be free, it's so jarring. I traveled 2k miles this week, ate chip in Milwaukee, slept on an airport bench, made minerals at 480 C, pulled copies of Babylonian tablets, submitted two abstracts, traveled another 4 hours to write a card, declined two overlapping events, and want to fucking die about social communication, and now you're telling me I... can sleep in?
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loverboybrightsideghost · 3 months ago
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"reblog for something lgbt to happen to you" at this point i'd be grateful if something straight happened to me
#bluebird.txt#i'd love to stop feeling like an unlikeable freak!!!#i get it i'm gay i look at least like a lesbian and at queerest as Some Thing I'm Not Sure How to Gender#but like. damn bro!#not even anyone? at all?#first of all i get no attention from girls and there's barely any thems (and im friends with most of the thems)#secondly not that i want the attention of cishet men but as i said before i'll take fucking anything to feel something#the most i get from cishet men has been laughing when i run because im late to class or a concert#like okay wow you find someone just running funny? i pity your entire brain#i think im just bored#its not like i understand romantic stuff any more really#i understand it on a logical level i think#but tell me why when i find a girl i have a huge crush on the SECOND i just need out platonically with someone else#the girl evaporates from my brain#and when i make the attempt to put myself out there and be like hey wanna go on a date?#all will to actually go on the date also evaporates?#she hasn't answered and that's an answer so im like alright even if you texted me late i actually do not care if i never see you again#not in a malicious way!!! just in a very bland you have not made a meaningful impact on my life way even though you seem cool!#which doesn't sound much better but trust me i mean these factually objectively not personally meanly#i have other friends mostly cis friends who have gotten guys after them and as much as like most of those guys are at best#a little annoying and at worst sort of creeps#like. THAT'S NEVER HAPPENED TO ME EITHER!!!#when i walk alone on campus esp when it's dark i do worry about assault and rape and stuff#but that's just the statistics and stuff#i know i'm not immune but in a weird way not being liked by anyone at all gives me reassurance that well#at least i'll probably never be assaulted at least not any time soon bc no one's ever looked at this (me) and had any kinds of#attracted thoughts#though that's definitely a false sense of security#after all someone could decide they hate transgenders and gender ambiguous people and assault me of course that could always happen!#i don't think it's likely to but. you never know!
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spinecurlingmice · 3 months ago
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okay more on hajime's underwear. . in a world where all the fte's are canon for everybody and not just a gameplay thing, do you think everybody on the island made it like. a bet or something. every single person he's became close with on this fucking island gave him their panties as a token of closeness, so like are they waiting for him to reciprocate?? the one person he gives his underwear to is like. the Chosen hajime person and they get to gloat ? do they ask.
#this is a crackfic waiting to happen i need to not make another wip . But.........#everybodys in the cafeteria of the hotel . sat patient like a serious meeting is gonna happen.#“so.. hajime who are you giving your undies to? all of us have given us yours..”#“??? excuse me?”#think hajime has to run away . but they keep chasing him down. like the everybody loves shadow audio thing but with hajime's panties.#or the mlp the gala ticket episode where theyre trying to impress him for it.#“ah hajime i made u a nice delicious cake!!!!.... so uhm... any ideas on who's getting ur panties? haha. no reason at all.”#he tries to find refuge in chiaki and she's normal. like 100% normal and he's like oh thank god...#i think her and komaeda being the only ones to not be at the cafeteria matters . i shouldve said that but oops#and theyre chilling and he keeps faking himself out bc it Seems liek chiaki is gonna ask about his fucking underwear but it's always normal#. and at the end she's like “this was fun hajime. ..” *expectantly looking*#and it clicks. she didnt say anything but she Was expecting him to give it over. like how everybody else did after a while#“yea! it was... uhm haha. so i'll be on my way ^_^;;”#chiaki's cheeks puft out and he can Tell she is disappointed. he's not sure why. why this matters. why it's like a token of. Something#that is sooooooo important to everybody. but oh well#he's off on his way and he finds komaeda. distressed over dropping his keys in the water. he can go fish em out ^w^#and he does. and he and komaeda hang out. because this is the 2nd fte space of the day that hajime typically has.#komaeda is the One person who doesn't even give a shit about his panties. like at all.#and hajime thinks this is gonna be a chiaki 2.0 situation but nagito is like “okay cya hajime ^w^ thanks for that!” and goes inside .#doesnt even give hajime a chance to give him anything. if he wanted to.#Lol...#i think im gonna run out of tags soon so ill cut it there.#micetalk#hajime#literally all of class 77b#nagito my darling#chiaki the wifey#contained myself on this one. insaneee right?#danganronpa#thinking things again
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aroaessidhe · 2 years ago
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2023 reads // twitter thread    
The Surviving Sky
adult scifi/fantasy about a fracturing married couple who live with the last of humanity on a floating city powered by arcane science
Iravan is a privileged and powerful architect, who keeps them afloat with his plant magic
Ahilya has no magic - and is deeply interested in studying the magical megafauna which are the only thing that can survive the cataclysmic jungle on the ground
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orcelito · 7 months ago
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Gonna also get my license soon. This time for real.
Need to find that sheet of the driving times... hmmm
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