#ITS ON A SUBCONSCIOUS LEVEL

[nsuiswitch]

every time I try to quit this stupid world of mine i end up having the most vivid dream about my paracosm that's all parts emotional and intimate and jarring and it's too bright and vivid like I can literally feel things brush up on my skin and people's laughter rumble in their chests. And I'm just supposed to get up the next morning and stay sober and be okay? Go fuck yourself

[moonsidesong]

happy two year anniversary to the question that sent me careening down the river into madness (eternal obsession with the topic of object death and recovery centers)

[nazurabbit]

enstars special levels are so insane to look at, like once you get used to it you know its just muscle memory, but i feel like if i showed anyone me doing like emerald planet or eccentric party night theyd ask if i was human

[ambrosiagourmet]

One thing about me is that I love foreshadowing so very much and if i don’t set up at least 2-3 things in every chapter to pay off later then I explode

[dream-sans-mogai]

It lost popularity because disabled people dont want to bring it up but disability appropriation should be brought back as a term. That's what alot of these muds and pseudo-transabled terms are. You want to have a disorder but dont actually have it so you either pretend you have it or make up a ton of terms that basically are transabled without having to own it with stupid nonsequitors that allow you to claim enterance into our community without ever actually facing our oppression (no, someone calling a slur on the internet and your doctor clocking you for faking is not ablesit oppression.)

No, needing glasses or contacts doesn't make you "basically blind". No, your untreated unmedicated personality disorder is not a mental disability. No, your alter doesn't actually have that mental illness unless you do and you don't, that's just your assumptions about what that illness would look or feel like and has zero bearing on the reality of said illness. At this point y'all are turning the very real term of " atypical dysphoria" into a dog whistle for transid shit. It gets so misused so often and for everything that only really transids and diet rqs use it but expect people to respect you.

The mogai community has been trampling the disabled community forever then wonder why we all leave. We left cause you said you have the right to the word cripple cause the "headmate" you got off a bulid-a-headmate blog "came with a missing leg" and now you "totally understand the experiences of amputees". You have a mental illness, please seek help, it's not normal to want to be a system let alone have a physical or mental disability.

If you want one, either or both of these two things are true: 1. You do not understand the reality of disabled people and thus, believe it's just a cluster of symptoms Instead of the very real class struggles we deal with not just in public but also in private and often results in suicide due to how badly we are treated or 2. You understand the severe and terrible experiences of being disabled and still choose to pretend to have or genuinely want it and do not understand that wanting to be disabled doesn't actually make you disabled and is often a result of a desire to self harm with no outlet. Like... Not hurting yourself in the usual way but wanting to get by a car to be paralyzed is not only not a normal neutral desire but often the symptom of severe mental illness and a desire to self harm.

This is not normal and I don't even mean that in a pro-psych way, you need help. That is just one of many symptoms that can very very easily result in suicide. If you are having those desires consistently, especially if it's something thays consuming you and you think about it every single day and it's one of the few things you can focus on, especially if you want it as a result of an accident to remove personal accountability for causing that injury, that is a sign of something being very very wrong in your mind. This is not normal behavior that harms no one, this very quickly results in people maiming and abusing themselves. The mogai community is so scared of alienating people, they are trying to normalize intrusive thoughts. Yes, they are common in people with Ptsd but are very very often the symptom of a bigger problem and if you have them, get your ass in therapy. Common dosent equal normal and therefore harmless.

Im writing this in big text, Wanting to stab people or yourself or cut off body parts or desire a severe mental illness (often one that isnt invisible and is taken much more seriously than what most people actually have) is a cry for help and signs that you may become a danger to yourself and others. These are not normal and often are a symptom of a much bigger and much more serious problem. They are common and often do not result in anything but they can and are used as hallmarks showing where your head is. Therapists, professionals, use their frequency to measure mental turmoil. People with Ptsd, depression, anxiety, OCD, etc who are in healthy situations and are considered " getting better/ok" do not have these fantasies and intrusive thoughts with any or even semi-consistency.

If you are having these fantasies and desires more than twice a week, please ffs go get help. Especially if they are depressing or scaring you and are either lead or followed by self harm desires and suicidal thoughts. You are not a bad person for having intrusive thoughts and fantasies of disability or severe mental illness, they do not mean your inherently evil, violent or ableist. They do however mean that you may not be realizing how bad your self hate, depression, PTSD, etc are actually getting because these thoughts and desires, especially consistently, are your brain crying for help and considering every option it can to either cope with or escape a situation that's scaring it.

Do not listen to a 16 yr old on here saying it's totally normal to want to kys every 3 days and making flags and identities for wishing they were limbless, these are warning signs to you and others that something must change and you need to get help before the thoughts turn to fantasies and you feel the need to turn them into reality. Most people who actually hurt themselves say it was a passing thought that originally scared them, then became an obsessive fantasy then resulted in them hurting themselves and end up regretting it horribly. Please listen to them. This is not normal and we want you safe, happy and healthy and you are not safe, happy and healthy fantasizing about hurting yourself and trying to make that part of your identity. If you can't stop due to the fact disabled people are telling you they are hurting us and our community, do it for yourself.

[cringelordofchaos]

"OMG! Did you know that pigs would easily eat a human? How scandalous! Outrageous! Disgusting! Pure proof of their immorality!"

- average Jessica, who eats porkchop with their family once a month

[tyranitarkisser]

My art is getting too neat and bland looking i dont like it

[skelleton-llad]

My dreams are fucking insane sometimes. Someone showed up in my dream, and idk what they did but it was cute so I was like watch it or I'll kiss you. And they told me to do it so i did. But then like 2 minutes later in the dream all the skin fell off one of my legs.

[skitskatdacat63]

no but I truly think the reason vettonso works so well is bc both seb and nando are fandom bicycles... they've both fucked everyone else but they'll always come back to eachother afterwards etc etc

LITERALLY SOOOOO TRUE GRACE!!!! EXACTLY!!!

Like before getting into f1 rpf, I was never really a multishipper, but with Seb and Fernando particularly, I just want to see them with literally everyone 😭 And it's just interesting because as you said they're fandom bicycles, you could make literally either of them the focal point of a shipping chart and it would work out better than the typical circle imo

"They've both fucked everyone else but they'll always come back to eachother" exactly this 🥺🥺 I guess my vettonso narrative is they've spent so long dancing around each other, being in the same circles, but never really connecting with each other, but then realize the one for them has been the one who's always been there, in the background, if that makes sense? Realizing the one for you has been there the entire time, you were just too blind and bitter to realize AAAAGHHHH

[tankgotstuckinthecircusgate]

writing young eddie is so fun (im projecting)

[kxllerblond]

Sanji for the hearts meme

Drop me a character name and I’ll reveal my muse’s heart...

VISUAL ATTRACTIVENESS: 💗💗💗💗 (purely aesthetic appreciation of looks)

FRIENDSHIP LEVEL: 💗���💗 (how close a friend they consider them)

SEXUAL DESIRE: 💗💗 (wanting to have sex with them)

ROMANTIC INTENT: 💗💗💗 (hoping for a romantic relationship)

�� Non-existent 💗 Very low

💗💗 A little 💗💗💗 Hopeful

💗💗💗💗 High 💗💗💗💗💗 Maximum

[aggressiveguitarnoises]

gonna end my A level art course in a psychward i swear

[lifesver]

i was pondering it but like i do think in nosy/dusk leland ends up targeting more men than women. like yeah it's obviously easier to target women esp w his strength like he is a Threat. but i think even after the whole transformation to a killer of it all in this au, in his eyes it's kind of like... there's a lot more shitty dudes out there. so when he can he targets dudes he’s seen messing w girls or acting in A Way. not all but some u know. even if it’s Just Some Guy who did nothing wrong it’s at least like. picking on someone ur own size kind of lmao. i think it is probably the only way he can level with himself sometimes?? (which means he inherently puts himself in riskier situations than necessary sometimes, has gotten himself hurt in the process a couple times.)

[maddisandy]

something something still writing my curse of strahd fic. having to find ways to make it more difficult since theyre coming in from being level 13 post game

[thebreakfastgenie]

Betsy's Wedding is not not a therapy movie but it's not a therapy movie the way Sweet Liberty is a therapy movie because he literally drew inspiration for Sweet Liberty from the worst year of his life.

[secriden]

tags from @purgatoryandme

one reason i think liu qingge has such great potential is that he's one of the only characters entirely free from the PIDM narrative. because he dies early in PIDM, sqq isn't coming into every conversation and interaction expecting lqg to adhere to a preconceived script. this allows sqq to actually see lqg as a person and for his words and actions to be taken at face value.

i just think this is great potential for sqq to still be completely oblivious or in denial about lbh and yqy's attentions (because he's so fixated on how bad/complicated PIDM!sqq's relationships are with them) whilst also catching wind of lqg's growing feelings for him because he isn't hampered by any preconceived notions of what they're dynamic "should" be.

so give me sqq noticing the way lqg's mannerism soften around him, how his gruffness changes, how he spends more time just having tea with sqq even after his meridians have been cleansed as they start to have civil conversation about sect business. recognising lqg's care in returning his fans; seeking common ground over their shared love of monster hunting (even if lqg just cares about fighting them, can he maybe smash them in such a way that shixiong can study them afterwards?) and discussions on cultivation techniques and the differences between bai zhan and qing jing styles.

sqq who is so just so grateful to have someone in his corner, someone he feels safe with, who he doesn't have to second guess during every conversation. someone who was never supposed to be around by this point in the narrative, and so is entirely shen qingqui's.