#IM NOT EVEN JOKING AROUND ANYMORE
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"what a great day to be a lesbian" i say, scrolling through my folder of sevika edits
#sevika#I NEED HER SO BAD STOP#THIS IS THE MOST I HAVE FELT FOR A FICTIONAL CHARACTER#IM NOT EVEN JOKING AROUND ANYMORE#someone stop me.#arcane
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First Heats/Ruts
While many AU’s prefer to have presentations in the mid to late teens years, I’ve always found that I personally prefer them happening earlier.
Ages 10-14 makes sense to me, maybe even 12-14. I feel that first heats/ruts would be non-sexual, mostly focusing on settling into a newer dynamic within their own pack. Lots of cramping and awkward discomfort. Probably not unusual to see them curling up in their parents or closest pack members nest/den, heating pad on, and snacks close by.
Maybe around this time, parents or guardians, even older siblings may show how to construct a nest or build a den. They may take these not-quite-pups-definitely-not-grown kids out to nesting/denning material stores where they can pick out their very own favourite blankets and pillows and base mattress.
I think that it would be a major coming of age event. Maybe a party would be thrown or just a sit-down “you’re becoming an adult soon” talk that all kids get around that age.
Group scenting of new nesting/denning materials could be a bonding exercise, as well as pack members offering up already scented materials such as hoodies or pillows from their own nest/den.
The discomfort and awkwardness of early heats/ruts would likely remain for a while. Some pups might have to wear the occasional sanitary pad when slick or other fluids start to kick into gear. While definitely not ready for the intended uses, the body would probably do this in some way. Close pack members must be ready to assure these pups that it’s completely natural and nothing to be ashamed of.
Sexual heats specifically would not start until the body is able to physically support carrying a baby, while sexual ruts wouldn’t start until several Omega peers had also started getting sexual heats. If this happens too early, pack members are encouraged to do some at-home teaching about consent and self-control as a precaution.
I think that this time would also be a great opportunity for schools, as well as packs at home, to start teaching about sexual education. Starting simple, like talking about the birds and the bees (that I believe most pups would already have knowledge of from their pack), as well as making sure that no pups are getting too curious and making sure they know about consent and such. While I think that consent talks and conversations about sex would be more common, I believe that education wise, it would be somewhat similar to now.
At this time, the scent will also start to shift. Going from a regular pup-milk scent with a hint of what their future scent may be, to starting to get less and less milky as time goes on. This may cause some distress among pups’ own scents changing, as well as pack members and friends.
Scents will also start to take on those more “Alpha-like” or “Omega-like” tones. Whereas for Betas, they have their scent emerge just the same, only without a heat or rut to accompany it. In addition, I believe that overstimulation from scents would be common.
#omegaverse#a/b/o#a/b/o verse#omegaverse headcanons#worldbuilding#omegaverse worldbuilding#idk im just playing around with headcanons#i have so many its not even a joke anymore#oh its just a jumble of words but im okay with that
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i shouldve made solo blogs for charas ppl know (person whos eyeing farmsim muses again)
#stardust speaking !#I JOKE ABOUT THIS EVERY HALF A YR gbf isnt even mentioned in gacha convos anymore LOOOOOOOLLLLLLL#i prommy everyone would love seox hes moe#no but im truly touched ppl r willing to give gran & akira a chance..T_^ especially akira whos locked in a jponly gacha LOOOOOLLLL#THE 28TH WHERE R THE ANIME NEWS...but the new chapter released today right..imma go look#imma get to all my ims today FOR SURE its so busy this week o-(-< and then started the day in pain what a way to go#anyway i say all this & then dont write on my multi where natsume & emu are 😃😃😃😃😃😃 sorry its the doubt#VSKSLSKSOSHDJJSD i lov having multis i lov only using them to fool around w friends#anyway i wanna write witch princess thats the only thing that started this. i truly would like to write more farmsim stuff...T__^my roots..#also wanna write tara solely cuz FINALLY writing a muse whos Yearning & having to fight against the affections of 4 handsome men is funny#TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEE#ANYWAY !!!!!!!!!!!!! lets all write farmsim muses....<33333 plsssss PLEAASEEEEE#ok lets start this lovely wednesday
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(advice appreciated + long ass tags)
this sucks this sucks this SUCKS FUCK. ive been hokeschooled / "unschooled" for the entirety of my 8th grade and school is starting again in 2 weeks and i really want and really need to be back in school but idk if im mentally at all ready. opening day would be best to go back obviously but i didn't spend anytime during summer preparing for the routine / fixing my damn sleep schedule but i really need this .
i also know its gonna SUCK because i have severe sensory processing issues (tldr my brain Cannot filter out uncomfortable noises / textures / etc andi go Fucking ballistic and melt/shutdown) and even at home im having multiple daily meltdowns / panic attacks from just the everyday noises / sensations so god forbid what it will be like around 300 teenagers who don't know personal space exists.. i also have a severe anxiety disorder / autism so itll be even MORE fun :-) yaAy (thats not factoring in PDA disorder which is made my dad drop me out anyways because its Fucking Hell trying to go to school with that)
but i want this. i need this . iwant to get an education. i wanr to be around kids my age instead of being forced to be inside all day. i want to have routine and make friends and feel normal. im just scared that because of circumstances out of my control ill never get that
#i already dont have the mental / emotional milestones appropriate for my age. like massively behind. bro i need this#having to factor in the school part of school ...#my brother in christ i don't even know how to multiply and divide#or more basic spelling (save me autocorrect)#how will i survive in a giant room full of kids my age or younger who are all objectively smarter than me while I'm always 3 seconds away#-from a panic attack#i never told my dad or teachers any of this because i don't want to be held back and forced to not be around kids my age and#waste my teenage years away#i don't want to be 15 entering back fucking 5th grade#even if im not held back i don't know at all how to interact with people. at all#autism + panic attack thing + i was never taught Any sort of masking or social interaction#not joking bout the masking part.#i envy the people who say they get invisible shutdowns in social situations and people believe they're neurotypical#because if i get even slighty overstimulated i start crying/screaming/running away on the spot#emotional regulation is like . an alien concept to me . my emotions are inherently explosive#and i KNOW im not like this medicated because i used to be on anxiety meds that would stop the panic attacks but-#one day my dad just??? decided??? to throw away all my meds without at all telling me or my psychiatrist ????#“i dont want you taking these anymore” ???? okay ?????#we weren't having any problems he just Decided he didnt want me happy anymore I Guess#anyways weird dad tangent aside#im stupid + dont know how interact + dont know how to be normal + schedule that doesn't fit =/= school#but i need to get an education to be normal ane get a job 😭😭#what do i do#advice needed#advice would be appreciated#school#school advice#sorry for the long post#~ . 🌾
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there's nothing like having ur boss chew u who is overworked and underpaid out for not doing enough :)
#i had to listen to an hour of her saying she is overworked and has so much to do and never stops and she can do everyones job#if she wanted to so why is she even paying me and i should want more and should be offering to do more to take the load off of her#and her daughter who thru nepotism makes triple what i make and only does about a quarter of the work#bc she doesn't have to bc she's not ever going to get fired so she's out running errands and playing around and hardly working#so i have to cover what she doesn't do and then i have to sit in a chair and listen to her mother (our boss) rant about how she has way#too much to do and cant take on anymore work and how i need to pull my weight#i wanted to walk out of there right then oh my god#she was Yelling at me about this#i promise yall im not lying i do way more work than im paid for and i stay well beyond my hours but no one listens :(#im looking for another job but surviving for the time being is so hard#:((((((((((#she kept guilt tripping me with payroll??? like she kept saying her payroll is huge and she's paying me and im like .#well yeah bitch that's how business works im not supposed to be grateful and praising u for paying me what i'm due? wtf#she was like regardless of how the business does i don't touch how much i pay u so u should be grateful#i'm not even joking i wish i were
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demand avoidance is so stupid. what do you mean I'm not going to do the thing I wanted to anymore just bc someone else wants me to......
#this is about true detective ive wanted to watch it for ages but my flatmate started it recently + recommended it + even shared the files#and i DO want to watch it. and i was going to but now ive found out our other friend really likes it (presumably why she got into it)#and another mutual friend said hes a fan so the 'expectation' that my mind has now invented means im not going to anymore 👍#ugh i mean i will. eventually. but its going to involve some pointless mental acrobatics to trick myself into getting around pda#this doesnt ALWAYS happen with recommendations but probably 80% of the time it does. usually if i leave it long enough it wears off..#sorry if youve ever recced smth to me i promise its on a list somewhere and i trust ur taste. im just weird and neurotic#give me a few months or years......#also a bit annoyed now bc the other day my roommate apologised for rarely ever accepting my recommendations. and thats ok i dont mind#like i can be weird abt it too sometimes + i never expect anyone to start smth i rec. i just think they might like it innit#but the fact she brought it up and apologised made me realise that actually she does take recs from other friends a lot..#one of them in particular and thats cool but damn okay. i see how it is.... im half joking i mean she can do what she wants forever#and i get theyre closer friends so it makes sense. but i guess it just feels like a kind of judgement of me in a way. hmm anyway#whats new there innit. ahh well im gonna play elden ring so i dont ruminate the rest of this afternoon#.diaries
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#i despise vivziepop as a creator but i hatewatched hazbin as a distraction yday on some pirate site#been questioning for a few months abt being greyace and like#had a very traumatic experience yesterday#alastor being an asexual character is such a stupid comfort for me suddenly.#after everything happening#i dont want love anymore just put me in a qpp pleaseeee#sophie.txt#very mixed feelings that i can't put into words but everything kind of lined up#idk kind of cool to see an ace character that doesn't fit the washed out fluffy boy narrative. just a thought#even if his asexuality is just thrown around with jokes and prideflags#i think i've always loved the idea of sex but never the real thing#im very sex positive and there's kink i would love to participate in and adore in visuals and practice and theory (leather latex)#but im really not built for anything beyond non-sexual intimacy#my constant battle of am i just against penetration or am i greyace or have i not met the right person yet#i think abt myself in a selfship context and love it but i think about myself in a real scenario and i just curl.#i wish men knew how to court and ask consent instead of jumping but im glad i didnt get s/ad at the least christ#i wish men were real they used to go to war#okay i did get s/ad i worded that wrong. im grateful i wasnt r8pd but idk if tumblr will nuke me for saying that
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I generally assume that the phrase "blood boiling" to describe anger is just metaphor and all that but then I get really genuinely angry about something and I remember that it is not.
#i can genuinely feel my body temperature rising.#it's like. i want to be able to make a joke about it but i can't anymore. i'm so fucking angry.#at everything basically. this world is an active hellscape and no one cares apparently. no one gives a shit.#and so many people i thought were at least halfway decent or had a shred of humanity in them have proved me wrong.#you can't fucking trust anyone apparently.#and then people will treat me like i'm overreacting or like i'm crazy because i had the audacity to. give a shit about people other than me.#i guess. apparently that's a cardinal sin or some shit now.#this is going to sound so self aggrandizing and self centered and i promise i dont mean it in that way but.#it is genuinely so exhausting sometimes to care about things so much when no one around me does.#and it doesn't make me want to stop caring it just. makes me so exhausted trying to get people to start#and failing at it nearly every time.#this is not the world i dreamt of as a child. this is not the world i want to live in.#anyway rant over for now. i guess.#sorry for all the tags im just. tired. even though i'm aware i have no right to feel that way all things considered
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Sorry for the empty blog, it's been hard to keep up lately. I haven't been feeling well and my phone has been having issues. I've also been having more hallucinations than usual, and they have been much more involved than I'm used to. I'm still here, and I still want to post!! Things might just be quiet for a little while. Thank you for understanding 💕💕💕
#cielings keep breathing and i keep seeing people walking around ._.#not even shadow people anymore. well i still see shadow people but ive been seeing more like. normal human people.#glimpses of arms waving or someone walking by.#AND THE BUGS!!! GOD I FUCKING HATE THE BUGS!!!!!!#i am worried i might have an episode and im getting nervous about what might happen since it seems i am getting worse :(#SO if i start posting weird shit. please understand i am simply hot n sexy n insane.#(< i am trying to make jokes because maybe it wont be so bad if it is funny)#once again fighting off delusions with big sticks but honestly. what if im right ya know? much to think about 👍#wildly unrelated but allergies have been kicking my ass lately and im also a little bit normie sick :(#batty blogging#text
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Clean bedding and covers genuinely one of the top 10 things to exist on this pristine earth... now if I could share this while cuddling with someone, it'd be up there for top 3 things to exist
#gen I need to wrap myself around someone so fucking bad its not even a joke anymore#I need to bury my head into a neck I need to fill the skin underneath my hands I need to feel his breath on me.. . . . . .... auggghhhhh#need a cuddle and nap session PLEASSEEEE !!!#anyway im shutting up and going to sleep GOOD night ^-^
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i actually do like jewellery as a gift bc when i wear it i feel like i have a part of the people who gifted it with me
#like these pearls from my best friend which are in 3 colors and remind me that i can be myself and that i always have her#i didnt even like pearls before she gifted them to me#and this golden necklace which has a quote and initials from my friends and i always joke that its for whenever i ever get lost those were#the people i should be taken to bc they are my home#and they are not my home anymore but i still get soft when i am around them so yknow#and then these earrings from my guy friends and i never thought they would get me jewellery on their own bc its just not their type of gift#well i didnt expect a gift at all now that i moved out and im the only one gifting them#but its cuz its how i let people know im thinking of them#anyways they got me these silver blue flower pandora earrings#and i dont have a lot of silver and i dont have anything blue BUT THEY ARE SO PRETTY#and they chose them themselves and i wanted to cry and i am wearing them now and i love them so much bc they remind me im not alone#and that i do have people to play board games with which is silly but important to me bc family game time has been dead ever since dad move#for work#and those silly gooses even asked me if i wanted to change them but that damn site cant have anything prettier than what the people#i hold dear chose for me#also i would like to add every bracelet my friends made me as a kid#they are boxed jewels of time
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This song is going to be what makes me fucking **** ******
#im not even joking#it makes me so#this whome album kills me#i genuinely can't listen to it anymore#it makes me to upset#it qualifys as phycological torture for me#adam fucking around#Spotify
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