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I wonder if Jin Guangyao ever had the strange feeling he was parenting a small Jiang Cheng. Probably not when Jin Ling was happy—when would he have spent any time with a happy Jiang Cheng?—but imagine Jin Guangyao watching Jin Ling try food he's unsure about and the deeply suspicious expression is exactly like Jiang Cheng listening to Sect Leader Yao at the last conference. Jin Ling's big childhood feelings, his outbursts of temper and sulking, his desire to do well and prove himself (to his terrible cousins) all make Jiang Cheng's behaviour (though more publicly contained) increasingly familiar. Something something unwanted diagonal intimacies. Somehow even this leads to divorce (Guanyin Temple).

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ftr my thoughts on jin guangyao portraying himself as being small and weak and harmless and vulnerable are essentially that it isn't an act, because an act in this context implies a duplicity and/or disingenuousness that i don't think is present. but i do think it is a performance--it's just a performance that he has to play given the power disparity between himself and the rest of the cultivation world, at least until he becomes chief cultivator. in short, jin guangyao is performing the role of the non-threatening, subservient retainer that is expected of him to ensure his own survival in a world where he knows that the only person he can rely on to put his needs first is himself.

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In a huaisang has a tumblr au, he once called meng yao and nie mingjue his blorbos and they lashed out so bad, they called him a degenerate and sent him to military school (Gusu) for a whole year. Huaisang's feelings were so hurt, he was so traumatised he never used any internet lingo with anyone in real life ever again. However they never restricted nor did they attempt to limit his time online. They had no idea what blorbo means either nor did they care for an explanation of the term.

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Skate AU!)

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Mianmian orders a dry cappuccino, no sprinkles. She's very specific when ordering because she knows exactly what she likes, but she’s never rude to baristas if it’s not Quite up to scratch.

Meng Yao once drank 10 shots of espresso in one morning and collapsed. The people who care about him are trying to wean him off it but he still orders quadruple shot espressos when he thinks they won’t find out.

Qin Su drinks one shot cappuccinos with extra chocolate.

Mo Xuanyu started drinking black coffee because ‘it goes with his Aesthetic’. He doesn’t stop despite the fact it makes his tummy hurt and probably is the reason he’s so short.

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I was watching some Yuri On Ice and I started thinking about how much Victor actually reminds me of Lan Xichen! Imagine a modern au where the Lans are ice skating prodigies and the Nie are hockey stars.

Meng Yao’s mother had a short-lived skating career where hockey legend (🤢🤮) Jin Guangshan preys on her and leaves her pregnant and with a ruined career. Meng yao tried to join the Jin hockey teams but was refused and shamed, eventually coming to Nie Mingjue’s hockey place by complete accident and making his way up the ranks until he’s a starter on the Nie team.

Of course, this bliss couldn't last as their rival team, the Wens, sent Xue Yang to trip up NMJ and end his career. Meng Yao sees this and takes the hit instead, being sent right back to the bottom because of the injury. He breaks from the humiliation and messes with the skates of one of the Nie starters who'd always fucked with him, but gets caught out by a distressed and heartbroken NMJ who sends him away.

Meng Yao is devastated not only from his injury but even more so his now fucked relationship with NMJ. He meets LXC while he's trying to retrain his body at a rink in his hometown of Yunping. LXC helps him heal some of his wounds and teaches him figure skating while running from cruel tabloids.

I haven't figured out how the reunion would go but ill probably think of something, definitely 3zun endgame though

What do you think? Fic worthy? 🤔

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Modern AU with a Xichen-artist and Yao-model)

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life lessons to learn from meng yao

never sacrifice yourself for your boss!

your boss will never really trust you and is always acting in their own self interest

its okay to do things in your own self interest

murder is okay. just make sure no one finds out it was you ❤️

people will have formed an opinion of you based on prejudice that will be difficult to change, and the moment you mess up they will take this as being "proven right" the only way to combat this is to not give a single shit about what other people think of you

if you have big beautiful eyes people will forgive you for a lot of stuff

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I just. I just really need to be done with this one, it started haunting me. ;_;

(The idea is that courting rituals in Qinghe involve sparring with each other a lot and Meng Yao manages to outsmart Nie Mingjue since he cannout outbrawl him. Getting pinned to the ground by his wonderful and clever assistent is not how Nie Mingjue thought he’d spend the day, but he won’t be complaining! It probably awoke a thing or two in him…)

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#SangChengWeek24 DAY 5, sleep, allnighters.

Sssshhh… They were really busy last night and couldn’t sleep, but don’t ask them why because they won’t answer.

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aaaand some 3zun for you guys too, because I fancy it

remember to kiss your A-Yao 💛

based on this video

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@omgpurplefattie suggested: How about NMJ hauling both Nice Huaisang and Meng Yao around over his shoulders?

Huaisang was supposed to be tucked into Mingjue's side but it messed up the composition. I imagine that would upset him, so I left him out. Also tried to go for a more sketchy style, not obsessing about details too much. I think it turned out quite nice!

Anyways -as I was drawing I imagined some unrestrained summer fun for these two in Yunmeng's lakes. I am not saying it would fix them but I am sure it wouldn't make anything worse at least!

[image ID: A digital sketch of Meng Yao and Nie Mingjue from MDZS/The Untamed. Both are only wearing ancient Chinese undergarments, with slits at the side of the legs. Meng Yao is sitting on top of Nie Mingjue's shoulder, getting supported by Nie Mingjue's arm slung around his legs. They are both wet and smiling. More detailed description in alt text. End ID.]

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Today the “dark lipstick looks amazing but you know what looks even better? dark lipstick smeared across naked skin!”-cellbrain was in charge.

I am currently working on making my sketches look more presentable and also on practicing different body shapes. So I tried to make Meng Yao look rather slim (he kind of turned out looking a bit too toned in my opinion but oh well) while going for a more strongman like physique for Nie Mingjue. :)

[image ID: 3 digital sketches of Nie Mingjue, Lan Xichen and Meng Yao aka Jin Guangyao from The Untamed/MDZS in a modern au setting, showing them to their hips. Meng Yao’s hair is braided in his canon hairstyle. While he is wearing a pair of pants, his torso is naked and covered in dark red lipstick marks. One of his arms is raised to push his hair back to show off the marks at his neck. He is looking at the viewer with a smug smile.

Lan Xichen’s hair is half pulled up in a messy bun, half falling down his back. He is wearing a lose shirt. One hand is raised into mid-air, holding a dark red lipstick which he is half-way through applying to his lips. His eyes are closed and he looks happy and relaxed.

Nie Mingjue is also wearing pants while his torso is naked and covered in dark red lipstick marks. One of his arms is raised as he is currently wiping at another mark on his cheek, smearing it across his skin. He is looking at the viewer. His hair is pulled up into a messy ponytail. He has a sidecut and both of his arms are covered in tattoos made of different geometric patterns. End ID.]

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An amazing commission I did a few months ago for the lovely @takonomz - I realized I never posted it here and this month is the perfect time!

I cannot express how happy I was to get to do untamed art for a commission - it was so so much fun and lovely and AGRGHAJAJA ♡✧˙*⊹｡･ﾟ♡

on that note... my commissions are open (and they are wide fucking open for any mdzs/cql commissions!) You can see more info and stuff on my etsy shop or you can message me here! ^^

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so, are you gonna stay the night?

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modern au xiyao falling out orchestrated by nie huaisang and when lan xichen is collapsed on his knees in grief nie huaisang (whose equivalent of a folding fan is his phone) vaguetweets on a locked side account "thats what happens when u trust a male pisces"

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re: my tags about jgy and qin su in my reblog of that "does your blorbo have ptsd" tumblr poll, can we revisit that excruciating conversation in the jinlintai treasure room in cql? because one of my least favourite reads on jgy's expression and body language here is that he's being "creepy." and to be clear, i'm not trying to say you're wrong to draw those inferences here, because his behaviour is deeply, deeply unsettling, and i also find this scene hard to watch and to read in the novel. but i think if that's where your examination of him begins and ends here, you're doing yourself--and zhu zanjin's exquisite performance--a disservice.

so the 'creepy' bit is preceded by what jgy says to qin su while she has her back turned, and i find his words heartbreakingly sincere and very reflective of a man who has spent his life forced to feel shame and embarrassment over his mother, who he loves dearly and who he watched suffer right up until the moment of her death:

there are a few more very poignant lines in there about his mother and the depth of his gratitude to qin su (these show up in the novel, too), but i think the above encapsulates the same message. then the atmosphere shifts, and so does jgy's expression when he talks about jin rusong and how his death would have been inevitable--essential, even. this is also where i most often see him described as acting like a creep, and i have two separate responses to this that i don't really have the time to get into right now, but which have both doylist and watsonian components to them so 👀 you can probably make some guesses about what my arguments would be. if there's enough interest, i might come back to this later and put together a separate post about it, idk. anyway, i'm not going to get into the 'is he a creep' argument here because tl;dr no, i don't think he is, and also--

i find jgy's expressions here to be more indicative of a man who is, shall we say, Not His Best Self At The Moment 🫠 rather than a man who is intentionally trying to make a wife who, by her own admission, he has treated very well for the entirety of their marriage, uncomfortable. his attention isn't even on qin su or the hell that she is experiencing right now--because he is re-experiencing his own hell. because he, too, is traumatized by this knowledge! he's just had a decade and change to develop some deeply unhealthy coping mechanisms and masking techniques to hide it.

at this point qin su whips around and slaps him, which i know everyone likes to gif and fistbump and holler about in a positive way, but given there is no one in this scene who isn't enduring profound trauma in this moment, i, uh. you know. won't be doing that. i will focus on his face journey in the expressions that follow because they are just so

disassociating

disassociating

disassociating

/executive function switch is flipped in his superbly wrinkly brain, and then "qin su :) we still have so many guests to attend at the discussion conference :)"

a-yao? sir?? hello??? also i do not have the quote from the novel directly in front of me, but iirc he says something very similar here to what he does in the novel, which i'll have to paraphrase: that this revelation is only bothering qin su so much because she is actively thinking about it! it's only thoughts, you see! just don't think about it! haven't they actually been very happy all this time, while only one of them had to live with this knowledge and could not share it with anyone?

to which i can only respond with abject, horrified shock because, like. have you, jin guangyao? been happy and unperturbed by this devastating knowledge? because i think the answer is a pretty definitive no.

anyway i just wanted to quickly keymash my thoughts on this before they fled my brain completely but tl;dr yes, while jgy would not use this language to describe himself, he's absolutely got ptsd specifically around his marriage to his own half-sister, and their son.