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Being a teenager is such an ethereal experience because first you're in a waterpark with your friends and crush, where you get your first proper hug in weeks, then you're getting coffee and spicy chicken, before your mum makes you put her thrush cream on your crusty ear, when you finally break down listening to Taylor Swift and Bon Jovi.
#Like#this day should not have been THAT emotional#But it was#Had more twists than the water slides#I hit my elbow too#Today sorta sucked#Are you meant to capitalize tags?#fuck capitalism#I mean it's not like anyone's gonna see this anyway#I've even got homework#It's literally summer break#I hope none of those friends have tumblr#awkward#well#funny#maybe#If you enjoy other people's suffering#Not really suffering#This is so badly tagged#im sorry#teenage angst#That's so dramatic#Well I'M so dramatic#That's just being a#✨teenage girl✨#please#Someone bring me a therapist#help#Swear it was worse irl
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Dakota, my boi!!
#HE IS BACK!!!!#I love Dakota with my whole entire heart#I drew this while playing lethal company which is the MOST UPSETTING THING#especially since its the best thing i've drawn in MONTHS#my art burnout has been outrageous#i was only allowed to do art for school homework for like 4 months#and it was some REALLY HARD ART ASSIGNMENTS so#i got wildly burnt out#thats what happens when ur the lead artist on a game team i suppose#the amount of environment concepts i made is insane#i dont even do environment art HLSDHFLASDF#BUT YEAH HERE THEY ARE#MY DAKOTA GUY#LOVELIEST LITTLE BEAN#dakota#sona#fursona#furry#art#digital art#african wild dog#the way his ears are SO ROUND send me so much joy
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Art dump :))
Art block has once again fallen over me and I'm physically unable to draw well, but here's some stuff I've managed during the last month
#I'm having such drastic mood swings atm I can't even#especially about the view I have on myself and my ability do things and my looks and stuff#I've got so much homework this weekend I'm so done SO FUCKING DONE#I need to get back into art just relearn how to draw#because I'm not happy with most stuff I try to draw rn these are just the lucky few#Ahhhshgshahahahhhhhhhh#my art#art dump#sketch dump#syd barrett#peter murphy#david j#<- because they're there in the first two#the syd one accidentally turned into syd it was just some random person at first#my pcs#original character#oh yeah the third one are my beloved goobers lawrence and lee#anyways good night I gotta sleeppppp#Spotify
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The “Michael and Lucifer are brothers” came other media having the two be twins. Especially the Netflix Lucifer tv show and the DC comics by Neil Gaiman that the tv show is based on.
Someone giving me an excuse to blabber on about my thoughts and ideas? That only happens in my daydreams! Also I just realized it's spelled Michael not Micheal oop-
I feel like everything can be traced back to Neil Gaiman in someway. Thank you Mr. Gaiman, for giving me more goofy but sad angels.
I haven't seen The TV show or the DC comics, but just the idea alone of these two being twins was enough to make me flesh out Michael's personality and the relationship between the two.
Just kidding : ) Michael wouldn't question Sera, he obeys orders with a morbidly unquestioning loyalty.
I imagine that Michael was the more responsible one, and would try to discourage Lucifer's ideas and dreams, but Lucifer tended to ignore him. Lucifer would cause some kind of havoc, and Michael would be the one to tell the angels. Luci 100% saw him as a buzzkill and a tattletale, and Michael knew his brother was a safety hazard with wings, but I think they still loved eachother.
Which is why it would both break them to have Michael be the one who battled Lucifer and forced him into Hell. Lucifer felt horribly betrayed, and Michael would have been trying to cope with the fact that he drove his own brother out.
I have many ideas for them, so little time to write :(
#It took me so long to make Michael look right in that last panel that it’s not even funny I was so frustrated-#HE STILL DOESN'T LOOK RIGHT BUT IT'S BETTER THAN BEFORE#ALSO ALSO!!#I think that Michael likes ducks just as much as Lucifer does!#One of the only things that can make him smile. he's got a face of stone#And I gave him an animal nose because Charlie got that from somewhere :3 also Luci is more goat-like while Michael is more sheep-like#I feel like I should mention neon-ross as well#because I've seen a bit of their Michael art and I believe they're on board with the twins headcanon as well#ok have to do homework :( maybe I'll talk more about good ol Tunahair later#hazbin hotel#lucifer hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel lucifer#lucifer morningstar#hazbin lucifer#lucifer hazbin#lucifer#archangel michael#michael#hazbin hotel michael#michael hazbin hotel#michael hazbin#hazbin michael#hazbin#hazbin hotel fandom#my art#hooffulofdoodles#ask#ramblingovertootsierolls#pssst- Michael has a duck named Lu and nobody asks because they know he's coping#tunahair my horrible son
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mentally spraying myself with a bottle of water like a misbehaving cat because i just caught myself thinking "which novel should i write next?" when i'm 1 chapter away from being done the current one and still haven't adjusted to being back in school
#BESTIE STOP IT YOU CANNOT KEEP DOING THIS#you've got lectures you've got readings and papers#you cannot start another novel not right now#oooooooooohmy god but i could finish wolf peach at last........... NO STOP IT 🔫🔫🔫#not art#i don't even have time to draw why tf do i think i have time to start another novel i stg#also i will draw soon these past 2 weeks have also been hell#got my tablet set up in the new apartment and everything#and then had a huge mess with enrollment that saw me trying to catch up with a course 2 weeks in that i ultimately dropped#and then i've been sick all this week#and all my free time is devoted to unpacking because i'm still not done and relationship stuff because relationships take time and investme#who knew#but anyways i now have a surprise 4 day weekend so hopefully i'll be able to get some drawing in around catching up#with lectures and homework and rehearsal and that party and
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ms paint gideon to test my new laptop's palm sensitivity + stylus functionality (poor and acceptable respectively, if you wondered)
#tlt#the locked tomb#gtn#gideon the ninth#gideon nav#tlt art#anyway. as you can see by the time i got to her shirt i gave up entirely on filling things in properly#i don't think she'd mind though#i got this laptop for school - which i start the day after tomorrow - and i've never like. used a laptop for note taking#i'm trying to test all possibilities before school starts but costco's return policy is decent so i'm not too worried#the thing is. i think i like the laptop itself quite a bit.#but i'm like what if i don't end up using it for school that much... i got it with scholarshare or whatever#hm no i probably will need it a lot#even if i don't use it for notes taken in class it'll still be needed for research and homework and stuff#so yes i think it was a good investment#it's the hp envy if anyone wondered lol#it gets a bit warmer than i'm used to and the fans are louder than i'm used to as well#but as long as it runs well i guess that's not really an issue? i hope not anyway#i have yet to look into whether that's a problem with these laptops#if anyone has pointers let me know haha#oh yeah also i did this with my blue light filter on so hopefully the colors aren't too miserable but if they are. i apologize#i mean it's all reds so there's not much to mess up but just in case#finieldraws
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second night of not being able to fall asleep since the new semester started. now im remembering why i stopped taking my adhd meds
#look im a fan of staying up late when it's done voluntarily but this is NOT voluntary#i need to get actual sleep bc i need to actually use my brain for school shit tomorrow and i only got like 2 hours of sleep last night#does my body care about that tho? noooo absolutely not no sleep for you for the rest of your life#even the benadryl isn't working anymore and I've already had 150mg#i need one of those chloroform soaked rags they use in movies when knocking someone out to kidnap them#just. im not fucking doing anything. this would be a much better use of my time if i used it to actually do shit like homework#but nooo i was too tired and wanted to go to sleep early but the sleep never came and the task is firmly stuck in tomorrow mode#and i don't even wanna do the tasks bc i never wanna do anything ever except when i take my adhd meds#but when i do take the meds i can't fall asleep. fucking fantastic#in the words of laura jane grace: i need a week long cocaine binge#wait that would probably make my sleeplessness worse tho nevermind#just. i thought this shit was supposed to be addictive. i just keep not wanting to take them#like the opposite of compulsive redosing or something#ugh ykw maybe i should just try fighting fire with fire#just keep going with the meds to see how long it takes until the lack of sleep is enough to overpower the insomnia#maybe i just need to be harder on myself. stop thinking about what i do or don't want#bc i keep getting stuck in this cycle where i try to find a way to convince myself why i should do a task#but end up only thinking of how i absolutely do not want to do the task#and decide to try being more constructive by asking myself what i do want#only to find that the one single thing i want is just to Not#and coming to the inevitable conclusion that i really just need to kill myself#except that's also a task i need to do that takes energy and i don't rlly wanna do that either so that's one bright side ig#ugh i hate this i hate complaining like if you don't like something abt the situation then fucking do something about it or suck it up#and here i am. doing neither.#i swear i need to be put down like a dog. where's that post abt getting into puppy play so you can be euthanized#welp. i guess it's a good thing i got a therapist before the semester started. he's gonna be in for a shock#mine#vent
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tbh i'm glad fandom-at-large's obsession with redemption arcs has mostly died down because on reflection i've never been very into the concept. i'm not opposed but i just tend to find it more interesting to focus on exploring villains' complexities while they're still relatively villainous, or before they became villainous, than to focus on making them stop being villains
#some people get SUPER moralistic about it which obviously i don't like#but even without that...#i feel like Redemption Arc Fans often give the impression that it's about 'earning' sympathy or humanity or happiness#and i prefer to emphasise that villains are literally just people and *always* deserve a baseline of decency and wellbeing#like i'm not saying redemption arcs are bad obviously lol#and obviously stopping being an evil supervillain is probably going to be healing in like 90% of cases#but still#i like to sit with characters while they're at their worst yknow?#i find that much more cathartic than dragging them through a whole novel's worth of character development#i've got enough healing of my own to do. bringing that into my hobbies just makes the hobbies feel like homework
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Kink stuff
The past few months low key interest in topping and very person-specific dominance has escalated into a fully blown obsession like I catch myself planning out sadism scenarios with people I've not yet made any proper negotiations or agreements with. I'm having dom-crushes on people. I actively look for things to scratch that itch with since I don't have any active subs. Cmon.
#bluh bluh#Kink tag#This shouldn't be surprising but it's a little annoying#The boy and I are actively negotiating about this and I've approached my side of the agreement and now I'm waiting for#him to meet my baseline requirement#It's frustrating because he's like you could always suggest this more!#and I'm like I can't make more offers if I don't know you'll be responsive to them because it's really sucking any authority I still have#out of me that you're continuously rejecting my suggestions like that's not helpful for either of us if the aim is that you submit to me#I want to do this for me that's kind of the point I can't keep throwing you balls if you're not ready to receive even the easy ones#So idk but he's got homework to do his half these two weeks that I'm gone#And then we have a scene set for a party in september#We'll see about the rest#Anyway if you know a sub looking for a dom in the Stockholm area I'm all ears#I'm mostly interested in protocol discipline and pain and would be very keen on a sub willing to serve as my guinea pig to practice on
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i was rereading sic semper tyrannis (an abject failure in my eyes) to see how i could redo it and had the most delicious scrumptious eye-popping idea ever but i think i might end up reserving it for a future childe longfic
#i have most of the mermaid!tartaglia one down as a concept but ahhh there's just too many variables i haven't quite figured out there#and i think bhobc would be the easiest kpop fic to rewrite so i feel like i should just start with that#i haven't written a word since my last update can you believe it? but ive got homework and i started playing wuwa#and am not even halfway through my first ace attorney playthrough#but mark my words i WILL write this week. might even post bhobh 2.0 in a week's time#13#sorry i've just been feeling so hopeless these past few months
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they should give you a minimum 20 years after coming back from school to rest and process everything that happened
#seriously#im so overstimulated#this is the reason i've been inactive lately#even after coming home we've got so much homework from every subject#and i've got extra classes for math and physics everyday#aside from that I have to study on my own too or else I can't understand anything the next day#other problems include:#im in a new school but stuck with the same old feelings of loneliness and exclusion#felt like crying multiple times because teachers keep targeting me#I live like 20 minutes away from my school i've walked to and from there before+there's plenty of kids way younger than me who walk#but my mother's still convinced i'll get sunburnt and die so I have to listen to my father yelling at me about how he hates having to pick#me up. like dude I don't like this either!!#honestly I was doing fine until yesterday#I made like one friend who I stuck with for the first few days of school so I didn't really talk to anyone else#but now he's got a new friend and is ignoring me so.#umm on a positive note they have a big library here. that's cool.#and they've got a basketball team! kind of scared I won't make it though I haven't actually played in a while#trey's terrors
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Why cant this just be a fucking normal math class
#like#give the lecture -> let me do the homework -> take the exam#that's ALL you need to do in a fucking /math class/#why does it have to be so fucking complicated#i just looked at my grades thinking 'oh yeah i've got this on lock' only to find i've got a bunch of missing work?????#and i have no fucking CLUE what the FUCK it even IS#its not in the syllabus its not in the modules its not in the assignments it wasnt brought up when i met with the professor#i see one (1) mention of having to do discussion boards but i CANT FUCKING FIND THE BOARDS#and NONE of this is graded well and theres NO process to it#it feels like a fucking free for all and how the HELL am i supposed to learn the concepts when im too busy#trying to fucking figure out the structure of the goddamn class#anyways#i'm back to complaining
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i need to expel the silly guys in my brain . but i forgot how to draw and writing is hard... much to think about
#vwoop.noises#I am thinking about cool war again. there is no tangible reason for this#Tge only rita summers stan in the whole world.. I think somethint could be done interesting abt her#I'm not sure whether shes bad bc of misogyny or bc none of the side characters were good#I hesitate to be mean bc Just a guy wrote that. Got no compensation for this. Etc etc. It's like conceptually advanced fanfic is my way of -#understanding this space#This being said.#It is very edgy for the sake of kt#And I want to play with your stock characters#Anyways Rita. Why is a child hanging out with the magic terrorists#They give off college dropout vibes but i think shes a little younger than like normal Knew them in highschool vibe. Hmm. Maybe#But regardless. She has to do highschooler chores . She has homework..#its just silly to me. Esp. bc shes just a goth little teenager#I think she's edgy on her own. Not even because the whole thing is edgy. She doesn't get toned down in my mind she believes she's#playing + winning 4D chess#In my beautiful mind palace she wasb rlly good friends w/ jessie b4 Average Tragic Backstory and is kind of like. sus abt the whole thing#very Yesterday was a terrible tragedy. You have classes today#As well as like. She's a bit younger and can cope a bit worse with everything. I think. As is her right as a goth teenager#she's just like. Angry.#Which is yknow. Why magic terrorism#but also w/ like jessie a) Her sibling is coping worse* and then b) Nobody says anything ever so as to not upset joey#*I have rewritten this whole thing in my mind Heart . He mitosis'd and then unmitosis'd as timeline course corrections and this is#quite difficult on a person.#but in the downtime.. shes just a bit silly....#magic terrorists and their princess of darkness (Also a magic terrorist)#I've also decided shes close w og just because I say so . They look similar and people r like Oh how sweet You are looking after yr little#sister. And she wants to do murder.#they both have dark hair; she dyes hers to look gother. and similar faces I Guess < The faceblinder but I'll decide when I draw them
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Looking up while brushing my teeth
It's me in the mirror
Hadn't seen him in a while
Welcome back, me
#I've been so giddy lately#actually no clue what giddy means but it feels like a nice word#im literally trembling with stress sometimes and school is killing me#but i wake up in the morning. take a shower. brush my teeth and get nice NICE comfy clothes#and i make breakfast and make my bed#and feed gato and help mom and start the day on time#and enjoy speaking in class and proposing stuff#and every day i have to have lunch in a hurry so i can come home and feed gato and brush my teeth and go back to class#and its awful but i still do it cause i love gato#and i spend some time with friends and maybe i eat a little dessert cause i deserve it#and i do my homework and have dinner and organize the house a bit#and brush my teeth. play with gato. put on pajamas#maybe text some friends and read some fanfics#and i go to sleep and i sleep well even if gato wakes me up at 2am#and im just#living#and i wake up the next day and realize. i couldn't have done this a year ago#and every day i wake up is amazing cause i got so close to giving up#im very glad im still alive#love mom and gato and this small corner of the internet and my friends#and i love myself#couldn't have done this without me#god im crying aksjdjdjdjsk#lukkas rambling nonsense#They said 'TrAnsiTiOniNg DoEsnT CuRE dePreSsIon'#AND IT DOESN'T but GOD DOES IT HELP
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local dykefag goes into good omens s2 expecting to be a hater like usual and instead finds himself vehemently defending it bc she spent the better part of 2 years being insane and deep diving into these characters psyches and knows this is in fact Exactly how they'd behave
more at 10
#I don't even want to discuss how insane I got abt gomens but trust me on this#if you just casually watched s1 and find yourself hating s2 know that I am correct I've done the homework I've done the deep dives#I was out here diving into those two gay little bitches like I was the oceangate submersible and they were the titanic#and I'll say this one time and only once and you will never hear it from me again but neil was right on this one
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had the urge so we're playing sims now
#only for a lil bit though because i've got things to do <- famous last words#no but fr i'm gonna do history homework today. maybe even a bit of epq#and get my hair cut#we'll be productive#albatross rambles
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